#..which might explain some things. idk.

[sonknuxadow]

they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it

#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags #nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk #anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes #but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ??? #and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal #overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks #and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun #its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles #and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus #and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend #because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3 #well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum #also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying #regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always #knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually #and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes #(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them) #and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something #overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain.. #my expectations also werent very high in the first place #so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk #and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more #like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this

[mattodore]

anon be honest... are you wearing a wire

#river dipping #sdfhlkdjhkn no but uhhhhhh #am i reading this wrong or are you asking if he's ever beat the shit out of someone kjfnkhjnkjn #because he's someone who frequently flouts the law lmao... like he does not care #and i could talk about all of that easily but when you mention it being specific behavior that hurts people........... #the only thing that comes to mind is has he ever physically harmed someone... #which. like. yeah. multiple people... some way worse than others... #but to go into the ''why'' of some of that would mean i'd have to explain some information about theo i've not mentioned before... #and idk if i want to do that just yet... #because yeah he's been in a lot of fights but the worst thing he's ever done was almost killing someone... and it's bc of theo in a way... #so like... hm. #this isn't me answering you just yet................... i will get back to you on this when my brain is functioning better #just give me some time on this one...... i have to decide what all i want to share and how far back i'm willing to go... #i might walk this back tho... depends. #maybe i'll just be vague abt the why of it all.......... idk. #idk idk will circle back to this i promise #i just gotta think abt it for a while #so give me a bit <3 #also hi again friends and lovers..... i only slept for two hours and feel so ill but let's move on <3 #putting on my i'm so normal cosplay and ignoring that

[cakemoney]

finding out that kaito and shinichi have been revealed to be cousins is like finding out there was a huge earthquake in the country you used to live in

#which also just happened. these experiences are roughly equivalent. snmcmdmcmdllc #detective conan #laughs awkwardly #LIKE. idk how to put into words. detective conan's fandom is.... something #these are people who have been invested in the (often romantic) trials and tribulations of a 17 year old who looks 7 years old #for upwards of 20 or 30 years. this is not a casual reveal #detective conan is not some labor of love and artistry that the author has a specific vision for. it's the longest cash grab that never end #it has had movies during golden week every year for longer than i have been alive and distributes it in several countries #and kaito/shinichi is very popular. i think if you know anything about manga/anime fandoms i don't even need to explain why #for the author to publicly canonically rip up one of the most popular ships of the series... it's hard to imagine that it wasn't deliberate #it's not just a matter of 'omg just ship what you like ignore canon'. they HAVE been doing that (conan has a canon female love interest) #this is very destiel-coded in the sense that it feels simultaneously like the author acknowledging that section of the fandom #while doing the worst possible thing about it. like NO ONE wanted that dnvkdmlvmdk #except for me. this is so funny. I've ALWAYS HAD SUSPICIONS OKAY #kaito and shinichi's canonized same-face syndrome might have started as a meta joke. but remember. this is one of those series #where people are frequently revealed to be a.) not dead all along and b.) secretly someone else all along and #c.) secretly related to someone plot-important all along. all these have happened MANY times #when you have a franchise that has run for this long you kind of have no choice but to up the stakes to the point of absurdity #so basically. it feels like walking in with pizza to the burning room meme except the author was the one to set the fire

[dihalect]

i need to post about palestine on facebook but i'm fucking terrified

#i went to a very jewish college and a very decent percentage of my fb 'friends' are jewish zionists. #i don't use fb often but when i've checked recently‚ i've found a handful of pro-israel posts‚ and they've been well-received. #i have seen one person put a palestine frame on their profile picture. they got a small‚ mostly positive but some negative‚ response. #that's all the reference i have here. #and very importantly: i feel like pretty much anything i say is going to be received as goysplaining. #i think my best bet is to stay away from historical arguments (like‚ yes palestine does actually exist‚ yes it was bad to force them off of #their land in the first place‚ etc) #and also avoid my personal feelings on this re: my relationship with judaism (which is integral to the message i want to send but w/e) #and focus on israel's very obvious current indefensible actions. #however. i feel like i'm doing the movement a disservice if i don't call for a free palestine and explain what that actually means. #but doing that would increase my risk of getting dogpiled from 'high' to 'inevitable'. #and i am not articulate!!! people might try to rebut me‚ and i am very bad at debate!!!!!!! i have multiple anxiety disorders!!!!!! #and people get fired over this kind of thing. i know the chance is small‚ but i don't know if i want to risk my career over this. #my gut is telling me to wait until i'm sure. but i don't know if or when that will happen. #i want to change *someone's* mind‚ but idk if i'll even be able to do that. maybe just my uninformed hometown gentile friends'. #i want to do this before it's 'too late'. but what does 'too late' mean here? my fb friends aren't launching the missiles. #i suppose my goal is to help turn the tide of public opinion‚ in the hopes that that'll affect the politicians/corps at play here. #but maybe i'm more likely to do that by marching. making posters. talking to acquaintances. who knows what else. #just because i don't *see* those minds change doesn't mean they're not changing. maybe those minds are actually more likely to change. #txt

[magentagalaxies]

having a moment about my gender rn and i'm just like ugggggh @ my brain do we have to. like can we just not

#i need to go to bed soon bc i have a 10am class tomorrow but shoutout to the identity crisis i've been having since at least feb 6th #idk if identity crisis is even the right word. bc like one thing about me is that i have a very solid sense of self #like i know who i am and what i want and how i move through the world and what it feels like to be me #but in terms of how i label and explain that to others? that's where the identity crisis comes in #but no one else gets to experience me in first person POV so the descriptors i use and they ways i present myself are reality to them #and tbh? as i think about how some of the descriptors i use for myself don't accurately describe me some people are getting mad??? #which is so fucking bizarre bc like. what the fuck it's my gender why are YOU being offended??? #but it's also making me low key be like ''wait am i a bad person now????'' #even tho i don't believe morality works like that. idk it's just been an exhausting month and a half #if anyone wants to hear more in depth thoughts on all this i would love to vent about it #(but not rn bc i will be going to bed as soon as i get this all out) #but like what i will say now is even tho this past month and a half has been ROUGH (for several reasons especially gender) #and people might expect that me spending so much time with scott in february made it more exhausting #which is understandable we love scott but touring in general is tiring and also i am the most opinionated person i've ever met but so is he #and also like. if you've heard scott talk about gender it's very obvious we disagree on a lot of things and he doesn't shy away from that #but the thing is. i'd actually say spending so much time with scott (even when we talk about gender. even when we *argue* about gender) #was actually such a good thing for me throughout all of this bc even when we disagree on semantics of labels #scott actually sees me beyond that rather than reducing my identity to what i call myself #which is how a lot of well-meaning allys tend to treat me. like i'm just one thing. #so when i'm with scott i never really have to think about my gender #bc he doesn't treat me like i'm (insert whatever gender people treat me like). he just treats me like i'm jessamine #and i'm tired of having to explain myself into smaller pieces so people can pretend to get it #but i feel like there's no way not to do that in our society rn especially at my ''progressive'' liberal arts college

[sherlock-is-ace]

One thing about me is that if I see someone reblogging AI images, I will let them know 👌🏻

#unless they explicitly tag it as ai in which case i will simply judge them quietly and move on #but if i don't see clear evidence that they know it's ai i will send them a lil ask <3 #of course y'all can reblog whatever you want but i will do my duty since i seemingly can just tell? #idk how to explain what my brain process is but ai generated images (especially the ones trying to look like photos) look so obviously to m #i might have more trouble with images trying to copy someone's art style (which sucks!) or some other non realistic thing #but ''photos''? so obvious!! #(watch me miss a billion images lol) #but you get me #anyways if i unknowingly reblog ai pls let me know <3 #angel talks #personal #anti ai #fuck ai

[note-boom]

Okay but after watching and hearing about Untold Origins, I am....actually slightly hopeful for a happy-ish ending for BSD?

I know we're years away from the manga actually ending, should all go well behind the scenes, but even so, the way the ADA - the organisation that Atsushi (our protag) is involved with - was created gives me hope.

Because you have these two loners, one alone by his own will and his fear of himself and others. And the other alone all of a sudden after a secluded but happy life with loving parent, growing slowly to fear the world. Yet in each other they find a family and find a new present, find meaning and colour in each other.

Fukuzawa learns to overcome his past, and Ranpo grows to look forward to his future. And together they create a place where their present will be safe, where they can help not only themselves but a very cruel world.

In addition, at the start, they are both (in essence) extraordinary but completely ordinary people. As in, Ranpo doesn't actually have a special ability despite his unusually high perception and deduction skills, and Fukuzawa doesn't yet know of his own ability and only has his near inhuman swordsman skills. And in that ordinariness disguised under extraordinariness, they affirm each other's humanity.

It's just so seriously special to me, as much as it's funny, that the founders of the supernatural-based agency weren't special in the sense of having supernatural powers. I can't quiiiite articulate it into words but there's SOMETHING in there about how the ADA was founded on a baseline of finding the extraordinary beauty of just being your own weird kind of human being, no powers needed. That, actually, being extraordinary was still being human.

And where I'm going with all of this is to say that...well, look at all the members of the ADA. And look at the way the agency was founded, by whom, and what it represents. The ADA was started on a basis of actually helping someone who felt alienated from the world find their place in it while also protecting them from it, and we SEE in Ranpo and Yosano and Kunikida - even in Katai, honestly, though he left - how it did exactly that. Helped someone perhaps not find meaning in their future, but definitely find love and hope in the now.

So why can't I believe that given what the ADA stands for - a family, a bright present, a place where one can rediscover their humanity and find a place in a seemingly meaningless world - the manga won't end with something like the way Untold Origins ended? People coming together and fighting their way through the everyday, just content in the fact that at least for now, they're alive and together?

#of course that might change if fukuzawa dies which then if so rip me #srsly i dont know how to explain the weird combination of find hope for the future and this is actually about finding meaning in the now... #...that bsd seems to have #its like the future is bleak and life is meaningless but we can make it less meaningless for each other #or like we are so alienated from the rest of the world because of some special gift we were born with... #...or some thing that we developed because of trauma/the past... #....but there IS a place for us not only where we can discover just how human we are... #...but where we can go ahead and accept the world anyway and even make our own place into it #like i could be way off and giving bsd too much credit but at the same time i can jope that our poor tiger gets his happy ending right? #anyway something something that post by faux-ee talking about how writing alienated writers but at the same time was the only place... #...they could express themselves and their humanity #idk i think i need more synonyms ive been repeating words and things so ill end it now #but yeah ive been pondering this a lot #bungo stray dogs #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd musings #spitting nonsense #bsd untold origins #bsd season 4 #bsd s4 spoilers #bsd spoilers #bsd theories

[degrees-of-lili]

Y'know if PC wasn't an orphan; it'd make Bailey's story less weird. They could have been someone from another [country] who came to DoLland to go to university (to keep the school aspect), maybe you needed a visa and couldn't get one so you go to Bailey but now Bailey expects you to work for them or they'll ship you off (but not back home obvs.). Except Bailey's "work" is running around town fucking, stealing, and maybe working a semi-normal job. Like some aspects are questionable like Whitney, but Whitney is a parody of an actual bully. Like, the shit Whitney does (and to the level they do it) isn't something that'd anyone would reasonably get away with. Also, how the school works from a gameplay point of view because college you usually pick and choose your classes are.

#dol posting #idk I'm spitballing #the whole orphans thing feels like it is mostly to explain why they're still in high school #but raises a bunch of other issues #like the post where I talked about wtf is bailey gonna do when they start getting suspiciously too old t0o live at the orphanage #and also like not all the orphans in the orphanage are not gonna have no parents #which a straight up canon detail considering PC can have their kids stay in the youth ward #some kids are gonna have parents not fit to take care of them #or their parents died but they still have family members who can't take care of them #but might feasibly still keep in contact #obvs they aren't gonna change the story at this point #but still #bailey's whole shit is weird

[eileennatural]

not susceptible to cult recruitment because the moment a man starts trying to explain anything to me my eyes glaze over and i start considering violence

#its like a problem probably but in upper level academia older men will always want to explain things to you that you already know #and the guy who does it in my research design class is literally the WORST he talks on and on and on and the rest of us in the group #all women. can barely get a word in without interrupting him #i was complaining abt this to my mom bc another guy in one of my other clasees does a similar thing and she was warning me #abt going to school with such diverse nationalities. some of the guys here may be coming from more... patriarchal cultures. #which may be true but idk. it might just be that im very much used to being treated like the smartest in the room. and now my classes #are ALL people who are usually the smartest in the room. and also i didnt have a lot of classes w men during undergrad bc #my degree was in social work. we just had one guy in the program and he was. not like this at all

[nbstevonnie]

since i know that tumblr is going to ignore the fact i put a readmore there i guess i'll just talk in the tags

edit: how did i literally know you were going to do that tumblr, why are you like this. take two. not that it matters since it's all in the tags anyway.

#so. every time i have considered whether i might be autistic i have always come to the conclusion that i'm not #but i consider it regularly because i do resonate with a lot of autistic experiences - stuff i would all consider 'secondary' traits #and so not actually 'definitive' - but the fact that i do resonate makes it continually cycle back #e.g. feeling the need to explain myself very clearly so there's no room for ambiguity and in the process causing unnecessary confusion #or finding it difficult to look people in the eyes (i really find it hard to believe people maintain eye contact naturally???) #i've always thought even if i was it wouldn't make a difference to me to have a diagnosis or a label #but now i'm like 'maybe i should just get tested so i can definitively say (to my own standard) that i'm not so stop coming back to it >:(' #adhd too #which. i'm less convinced of but i also realised that i probably DO do some things that i don't even realise are dealing with traits #e.g. i listen to music all the time because i'd get too easily distracted or unable to focus without it #i do play with various things a lot (e.g. pens; rings; the strings of my hoodie) #idk i just more and more get the feeling that SOMETHING is up with me but i just don't know what #i just don't seem to interact with the world the way most people do

[caffeinatedopossum]

I might have epilepsy and I havent been feeling anything about it but just now I think it kind of hit me how terrifying this is. Like I *might* have it but I don't know. I *might* have it but I can't get treatment. I *might* have it but I'll have to deal with doctors who don't believe me again. I *might* have it but wouldn't it be more likely that the seizures are physcogenic than epileptic?

#i dont even know what kind of seizures im having or where the line between seizure and not seizure is #that might not make sense how the lines can be blurred between those two things but trust me it is for me #im having the type of visual distirbances i have during a seizure to a lesser degree ALL OF THE TIMR #and have been for a year or so #have i been having seizures THAT LONG without noticing? #also learned that some siezures can look like migraines... which i have. or think i have #now im not sure #itd make so many things make sense. itd explain and validate so much that i just know im not going to get any help from doctors #they never help with the big things. always just trying to explain things away as something simple #god im scared. idk whats wrong with me. is this why ive been feeling like this for so long?? #im too scared people will call me a hypochondriac again #of course i have anxiety about my symptoms theyre fuckin SCARY

[nerdie-faerie]

Do you think there's any elements of vampirism that the Mikaelsons sold as being quintessential and a norm of being a vampire that was actually just a side effect of their specific experiences with early vampirism. Like maybe they try to sell that vampires don't need sleep, they're superior to humans but that's because they couldn't sleep while on the run from Mikael constant diligence was expected of them. Vampires can go days between feeds if they wished but in reality they couldn't always find someone to feed on while on the run at least not without alerting Mikael etc. etc. That lil speech Rebekah gives Elena about vampires being a predatory species just screams rehearsed, a story they sell to newbie vampires that also helps dispel they're own guilt

#TVDu #The Mikaelsons #idk the concept of being the first of your species and having to learn everything through trial and error and then having to explain to #others?? particularly when your case of vampirism isnt the same as theirs which they likely only would have realised by accidentally or #intentionally harming/killing baby vampires through that same trial and error #like im sure theres plenty of things that they consider to be part of being a vampire that is specific to their situation like #'love is a vampires greatest weakness' im sure thats not a conclusion that all vampires would naturally come to definitely some wouldve com #to a similar conclusion but i can imagine the mikaelsons trying to convince younger vampires that caring about others is dangerous and #theyre predators but they cant afford to care because mikael will destroy everything they care about #and the limits theyve discovered about vampirism that only came about from being on the run and likely most would never naturally encounter #those limits themselves most vampires have probably never gotten to the edge of dissication they dont want to risk it they get hungry they #feed simply as that they probably dont know how long they can run without stopping whilst the mikaelsons are probably very blase cavalier #about it 'oh well just run to france its easier' o.o like what? it probably wouldnt occur to must vampires esp the newer ones that have had #no ancient vampire influence in their life to tell them what is and isnt the norm for vampires katherine the salvatores were never coached #on being vampires but heres rose like the mikaelsons are the oldest vampires around and shes got all this lore and history #i just wanna know what the mikaelsons might have included in that particularly when they were newer and probably trying to seem #more important and grandiose than they were esp given their collective superiority complexes #no idea if im explaining this clearly its so clear in my head but wording it is hard

[eijiroukiriot]

it’s like every day i flipflop back and forth between “katsuki should say ‘eijirou’ as many times as he can all the time. ‘eijirou come look at this’ ‘jesus christ eijirou it’s 7 a.m.’ ‘eijirou, steak or fish tonight’” and “i need krbk to call each other baby or else i’ll die” 

#idk if it's obvious from the every piece of content i've made in the last 6 months but i've like been stuck on this one #and not to like accidentally peek a little deep into my psyche but it might be bc for the brief time i had a gf last year #we dove like REALLY hard and heavy into the pet names #i did not enjoy being in a relationship with her (largely bc it was so affectionate so fast) but. i did like the affection #and honestly thinking back on the times where we did call each other 'baby' specifically it felt like so much bigger than 'babe' #which is probably why it sounds so gross to some people but the more time goes by and the more i think abt what an actual good #relationship would look like to me. the more i feel like being able to say 'baby' and not have it be cringe would be a factor #which is why i've been so stuck on making things that make krbk say baby. as stupid as it is #i really do love bkg saying eijirou and think that's the more in character option anyway #sometimes your krbk has just gotta be a little self indulgent though you know? #and other times it can be realistic and so so good #if this fic i started last month ever does see the light of day....and it might bc i do like the premise #it'll maybe be the most realistic take on bkg as a part of krbk that i've ever written #not to keep rambling but also thinking back on the way i've written bkg over the years i really do think his character lends itself to #a lot of levels of realistic vs indulgent #weird wording but i'll explain #in canon he's so analytical and thoughtful at heart you know? but he's also 16 and brash and impulsive and plain dumb sometimes #once again thinking about how i didn't actually like him that much on my first watch until the latter half of s2 #where his characterization starts to become a little more day-to-day instead of really heavy digging into HIS psyche #so he just shows up over and over again to get mad about something stupid and it's endearing #like 'who is this guy' #so you can write a bkg who's very out of his element and hotheaded and thinks of himself differently than he actually comes off #or you could write a bkg (like the bkg as of late) who's very in control and calculating and doesn't let his guard down #neither side is technically inaccurate but it can be hard to strike a balance bc those things sound very out of sync with each other #so within krbk you can write a very 'actions speak louder than words' bkg who is kinda neutral-cold most of the time #or you can write the goofier 'i won at romance and i'm gonna rub it in your faces' easily swept off his feet fandom favorite bkg #which can be very good #and if anything the fact that he really does keep his guard so high up so often makes you WANT to write him being sappy #especially when he's grown up #have i ever mentioned that like the stock photo of krbk in my mind has aged up?

[they-didnt-last]

i've been thinking about how hoa was done in the perfect time for the story in terms of the technology avaliable

#i really don't know how to explain this #but it's harder to imagine some plotpoints happening in 2022 #like amber having limited minutes in s1 #or the only way to properly talk to someone through text was via e-mail/skype #which were only avaliable on computers #idk i was a literal chilod at the time so i might be remembering some things wrong but yeah #*child #house of anubis

[unclassedguy]

its fixed, I fixed it.

The naoya drawing will now appear in my art tag. Of course at the sacrifice of all my infodumping in the tags.

It was a necessary sacrifice.

Maybe when I'm less tired ill make another one of these doodle pages and fully write out all my discarded thoughts from the tags there. Perhaps more coherently.

(I doubt it though)

Probably not going to have the time soon, but whatever. We'll see.

#this is so self indulgent #But honestly thats the point of fanworks imo #I just feel like there's some things on this doodle page that only half make sense without at least some kind of explanation #Something to explain the thought process behind them #Which tbh is all over the place for me #Funny thing is that I doubt lots of ppl are even going to see this stuff #But idk #I feel like even if its only to scratch the itch in my brain I might as well do it #jjk

[ravegore]

Ok now that my rage is mostly past i am in more lalaland. Glad to put my energy towards being happy and improving my life with my friends that i love and trust

#i am still miffed that this was public but #it occurred to me it might also be bothering me so intensely because #it seemed we both agreed to move past each other and let go for now #n sure maybe this is what he needed to do to let go #it just feels kinda inflammatory. #but its only as much as i engage it with. which i dont plan to do #i hope my silence helps him reflect #and theres also just #a certain irony to the whole thing that i spent many many years trying to give advice on their relationship trying to help only for nothing #and now this very fresh very new issue suddenly is relationship breaking and hes already given up trying to help #lol #i guess he knows how i feel now though #idk #if anything better for him i guess to cut it off now rather than try repeatedly like i did (unless this already is repeat) #it also just feels like #he really doesnt even know who i am as a person #even after all this time #i dont want to say hes just wrong about everything because i definitely did say some dumb shit in the last few months #but it just feels like hes not even trying #or there are things hes not telling me #i keep telling my side explaining myself explaining what i mean and he just keeps. dare i use this word. Assuming things about me #anytime i have a conversation with him i just feel like im running in a circle i dont understand and i never know how to feel about anythin #and i dont understand what hes talking about what he wants what hes really feeling whats going wrong #and... comparing that to the friends i have now #its just even more obvious they're a lot better for me #i dont think friends are supposed to make you feel like this