#2 yrs ago today

[piosplayhouse]

[Qi Qingqi x Yu Ziyuan] What could have been

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#for the toxic yuri warriors #its so cringe you can see the parts i drew 2 yrs ago versus today right next to each other #😭😭 improvement I guess but the first few old panels are so hard to read what was i thinking fr #but i hope you enjoy.. go forth and make rarepairs #yzy #yu ziyuan #qi qingqi #qqq #mdzs #svsss #scum villain's self saving system #mo dao zu shi #my art

[noecoded]

asmo writing in his fuzzy pink diary with a glitter gel pen (idk you might have done this one before maybe thats where i got the idea 😭)

​i have it was one of the first pieces i ever posted here i think!!!! so i redrew it ^_^

#Wow……. I cant believe ive had this blog for 2 yrs #ZZOK.gn #this is actually from like a month ago i just frogot to post it and foundthe file again today im so sorry

[servospawn]

i've noticed a bit of discourse over the span of me being back here about peer recognition &what that does to a person's mental on socials.

idk if it's because of my inactivity or because i've just been on tumblr for 10+ years but it really puzzles me when i see someone fretting over the amount of notes and/or social engagement their posts seem to lack. of course we as humans love peer recognition &validation but i'd hate to think that's all some people care to focus on when it comes to their blogs.

i think we all should be posting whatever we want without trying to calculate how many notes we'll receive on any one single post because that's setting yourself up for disappointment. if you're a simblr.. i'd like to assume you came here because you enjoy playing your game, creating content or using it as a creative outlet to express your form of individuality.. the notes in this case should sort of act as a bonus.

people have lost their heads.. ranting in txt posts about their content "flopping" or feeling like they don't belong here.. &it's just like.. take a deep breath.. it's okay.. you'll survive. also idk what flopping is when it comes to simblr, because.. if i get anywhere between 10-100 notes from loyal followers that have engaged with me from day 1, can recognize my OCs &are genuinely paying attention to what's going on (because they care that much).. that's a hell of a lot more rewarding to me than amassing 500-1k notes because a popular simblr randomly decided to reblog me that day.

please learn to love your game, your blogs, your cc & yourself. because what's the point of notes if you're not even genuinely happy with your game in the first place? you'll continue to have unrealistic expectations &end up in that rabbithole of forcing yourself to do tzrs, spam liking &reblogging others just to get that in return &trust me it comes off super fake &people will notice that too.

#ive seen ppl be like "i keep reblogging ppl &doing tzrs but my posts are still flopping #i think ive just been here too long #because 5 yrs ago you were lucky if you even got 50 notes &2 comments #i think the influx of ts4 simmers..patreon.. &renders changed how simblr looks today #because let me tell you.. 1k+ notes on post rarely happened and that really was only if it was a damn good piece of cc #i mean i have 11k followers.. am i getting 11k notes.. fuck no #which is why i wanted to make a new blog #so i can keep track of the ppl who really fuck with me and vice versa #i think we should just stop treating simblr like a high school cafeteria &get back to the essence of what makes us happy

[ymofficial]

Firecracker - BUDOKAN 1980

#YMO #yellow magic orchestra #yukihiro takahashi #ryuichi sakamoto #haruomi hosono #akiko yano #kenji omura #live #budokan #nippon budokan #1980 #tokyo #japan #firecracker #wanted to do a lil something since this blog was made 2 yrs ago today (i think)! #and ive been wanting to do budokan stuff for soo long

[minglana]

never again telling a cishet person that i had a "boyfriend" in middle school that lasted two months. what the fuck do you mean you dont understand that society pushes women to seek relationships with men, leading lesbians to also try out relationships with them to see "if it feels right"

#i also had to explain to her that gender=/=genitals today #which was actually a really interesting conversation bc she ended up deconstructing gender roles a little bit more #theres a trans guy at the dorms and she didnt understand why someone would want to be w a guy with 'girl parts' or viceversa #but she genuinely asked from a place of curiosity and not out of malice bc once i got her to understand that gender is literally made up #by society to sell heterosexuality. it was smooth sailing and she understood completely <3 #but alas she didnt get that just bc i had a 'bf' for 2 months where we maybe held hands twice. it doesnt mean im less of a lesbian #that added with the fact that i also made out w my best friend a few yrs ago. so she just ended up saying #'huh maybe you wont end up being a lesbian after all' no thank u i tried it (being attracted to men) and i much prefer lesbianism #bc i dont have to pretend to be attracted to women. hope this helps <3 #xarraire

[sweetsweetloverlover]

i wanted to watch big eden but apparently its not as known as i thought and i cant find it on my little pirate websites 😔😔.... oh well im watching the muppet christmas carol movie instead

#its like one of the very first movies i added to my lb watchlist when i made an account 2 yrs ago i thought everyone knew abt it.. #i just checked its the SECOND ever movie on my watchlist lmaoo right after 12 angry men #anywayy one day ill see it. turns out its not today but yea. one day #txt

[disdaidal]

I have 14 fics on ao3 and most of them are oneshots. But I’m really happy about these numbers. ♥♥♥

#personal #my ao3 #i *still* need to finish part 2 for that one two-shot of mine #also part two for that one multichaptered fic of mine #most of the subscriptions are for them so no pressure heh #another fic of mine has reached over 300 kudos what the fuck #no but seriously #2 years ago my sorry ass was feeling sad cause i hadn't finished one single piece of ff that i'd started writing for the past 10 yrs or so #and now i've posted and finished quite a few #it's thanks to this fandom ofc #but also gaining more confidence overtime #ofc english not being my first language gives me trouble sometimes thus my writing is slow #and then there's my lack of concentration thus the occasional missing words and stuff. seems to be my thing #but i was also clearing out some old drafts today and i noticed i've actually written a lot more stuff than i even remembered #mostly for harringrove #plus some unanswered prompts *hides in shame* #so i was like really? i wrote this too huh? #i don't know if i'll ever finish or post any of them or even most of them #cause time is money and i seem to get my inspirations during night thus i'll be sleep-deprived x__x #but yeah #like i said i'm just really happy about those numbers #makes me feel like maybe i don't suck as a writer after all #<3

[violentdevotion]

it's so over

#ameera speaks #3 yrs ago i rang my gp abt seeking adhd medication they said go through ur uni #i go through my uni who get a private company #at the time i didnt seek medication bc my mum was rly against it #after the shitshow that was my dissertation i decide if i do a masters ill get medicated first #i ring my doctor 2 monghs ago they ask me to send my diagnostic report #they never respond 4 days ago i ring again #they dont get back 2 days ago i ring again #today they ring me back and tell me bc i went through a private company (which they recommended i do) i need to get a prescription from #the private company also #that will cost moneg #i go on the website they tell me if i was a prescription i ask my gp 😐 #i emailed the lady who diagnosed me about this conundrum and now im in linbo again

[pepprs]

at around this time 3 yrs ago i was having my first panic attack after which i would barely leave my bed for 2 days <3 happy february 8 to you and yours

#purrs #i was in brighton on a field trip w my cohort and i was sooooo fucking homesick and we went to the seven sisters cliffs and i was looking ou #out over the water feeling depressed and then we went to alfriston and ate weird food in a creepy cafe and THEN we went to battle abbey or w #whatever it was called and all of my friends went off without me and i was alone wandering the grounds and the sun was sickly bright and i w #went into some of the shops but couldn’t find the things i needed and then my stomach started hurting and my heart started pounding and i go #got on the bus early and the other girls in my cohort were being mean to me and then we went back to campus but got dropped off super far aw #away from the dorms and i was feeling worse and worse and i collapsed in bed and ummmmm. it got worse and worse and then i redacted and then #i barely left my bed for 2 days and scared my entire family and almost went home 🤠 i will never forget how helpless and wretched i felt #and i am not glad that it happened but im glad i decided to stay bc 10’days later i met one of my best friends and she was the reason i #suddenly started feeling at home and finally safe and like.. actually becoming this fully realized / independent version of me. until covid #ripped it from my hands and smashed it on the ground 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 but yeah. the harder you fall the higher you fly or whatever.. and 3 yrs ago #today i fell hard and hopefully i will never fall that hard again bc i have never been so scared in my life lol #brighton

[patronsaintofgirls]

everybody tell biscuit happy (kinda) birthday!!!

#me :) #adopted her 2 yrs ago today!!!! #so not really her birthday but i don’t know her birthday so it’s today

[itsdetachable]

Maybe one of the reasons I relate to speedsters like Pietro so much is bc I too always feel out of touch and out of time and unable to create true connections

#pietro maximov #quicksilver #by out of time i mean disconnected from the concept of time #existing in a place where my perception if time is at odds with other ppls perception of time #i am eternally 2 and 15 and 37 and 100 yrs old and it is simultaneously today #tomorrow five yeara from now a decade ago

[spinobsessed]

That One Teacher

Im pretty sure that we’ve all had that one teacher that totally changed our lives, here’s mine

I had a teacher who changed my life in 3rd-5th grade, she was amazing and so comforting to me as a kid. Her hugs made me feel warm and fuzzy inside, a feeling I’ve been yearning for since I went to middle school, and she inspired me to want to be a teacher. I always thought I’d grow up, get a degree in teaching, and then become her assistant teacher. Child-me never thought that she’d move away, I was so heartbroken when I found out. I was in 6th grade and a while into the lockdown, I was mostly upset that I never got to say goodbye. Now she’s in Virginia and married with the bf she used to tell us abt, I wonder if she ever thinks abt me like how I sometimes think abt her. I was so attached to her too. I was the only kid allowed to sit next to her at the front of the class while she taught (whenever others tried to sit there too the other kid and I would be distracting), I would happily be at her side whenever I could, we’d sometimes sit and talk about stuff, she gave me fidgets (I was a very fidgety kid. I had like 3 and usually you just borrow them then put them back, but I was allowed to keep mine. I chewed on them) and ofc I was always hugging her. If I wasn’t hugging someone else then I was hugging her. Once we went on a field trip and I tried to touch foreheads with her bc I saw it as an act of affection on TV but she asked “what are you doing?” And I was so embarrassed I didn’t even look at her for the rest of the field trip. On the last day of 5th grade she gave me a big hug and told me that she knew I was scared to leave elementary school, tbh I don’t think I was fully paying attention bc I remember looking down her shirt and then back up at her face. I think I had a crush on her lol

#I miss her #I wish I could get to talk to her again #I saw her on insta like 2 yrs ago and messaged her #But she didn’t message me back which makes sense #I think it’s against policy to talk to ur students like that or smth #I wonder how she’d feel abt the person I am today #I wish I could feel that comfort again #autism #actually autistic

[layzeal]

living in a hell of my own creation (staying in a fandom for long enough, having already read different analysis and have read the source material so many times to have developed my own personal interpretation of things to the point where i don't care or i even feel annoyed towards fandom drama or metas that are too far removed or feel like are just repeating some fandom misunderstanding you've already seen before)

#i touched grass for 2 weeks and now i find myself but being Tired and with no patience for big fandom stuff #anyways it is a truth universaly acknowledged that Lace despises mdzs meta blogs #that was true 1 yr ago and it remains so today #(unless ur a language meta blog. then i'm kissing you on the lips) #anyway i'm finally gonna be using the block button more frequently bc before i was like #''well i don't like their stuff but i have nothing against them personally. blocking feels too heavy'' #now i rly just don't care. a fandom can be my lil circle of mutuals and followers who already know the drill #also im just feeling blegh for the trip being over so soon :( long-distance is gonna be much harder now #lace speaks #modao

[stellarwaffles]

Digitally drew some chalk drawings I drew like a month ago or something

#it mightve been 2 months ago by now idk #chalk is hard to draw small with. and i usually draw kinda small #there was also a small child drawing w chalk so thats what some of the surrounding scribbles are #not shown in this picture but i also had drawn a few spinjitzu tornadoes + kai #actually wait theres a green spinjitzu tornado right above little lloyd #so you can see one of them #fun fact i drew the chalk ones at someones engagement party. there wasnt anyone there i particularly wanted to talk to #so i hung out w the 2 yr old that was there + we drew with chalk #lego ninjago #lego ninjago lloyd #lloyd montgomery garmadon #lloyd garmadon #i drew the digital ones today btw. its only the chalk drawings that i drew a while ago #stellarart ♡

[felicitypdf]

my laptop went to old tech heaven today and i went to get a new one (goodbye savings) so like. wish me luck in configuring it and getting all my DAW licenses transferred😐 also dealing with apple ids my beloathed😑

#the fact it survived this long was already a miracle #since i really should have replaced it 2 yrs ago but had no money #having a very ‘my father has never given me anything’ sally draper moment today #but choosing to not be so angry and just appreciate my mom even more

[minglana]

cooooolcoolcoolcoolcoolcoolcool. i went to my friend to ask why she didnt invite me and she said multiple things that just. made it worse :)

#to start off: '[x person] just ironed my hair! :D' this person 'entered' the friend group like 2 months ago MAX and they already treat her #like shes been in the group forever. writing all this out im starting to think this is completely a me problem. for like. speaking my mind #to the ppl i trust (this girl and another guy) abt certain ppl in the group that. well. that i dont like very much. #BUT theyve supported my (and my other friend's) opinion. so they cant be far off. bc theyve also complained abt others #anyways she also said that i 'wouldnt have felt comfortable w the ppl there' (i am on speaking terms w everyone there. some i speak to more #than others). she also said that the supper theyre doing today is 'for the ppl i actually care about' ????????? #obviously she realized what she said and like tried to correct herself but. anyways the damage is done idek why i tried talking to her #as much as shes my friend shes a child stuck in the body of a 20 yr old and shes so immature and doesnt know how to handle situations #like this (and other more 'grownup' situations) at all. idk why i even thought talking to her would make it better #bc now im feeling even more alone in the dorms. bc shes leaving on friday and the other guy in the group that i talk(ed) to is like. #discovering love again or whatever. hes completely left everyone to the side when the new girl (mentioned above) entered the friend group #z xarre