#9 TIMES OUT OF 10 IM IN MY FEELINGS BUT 10 TIMES OUT OF 9 IM ONLY HUMAN TELL ME WHAT DID I DO WRONG !!!!

[texasbama]

oh I AM WALKING

Like……i just. Hm. Okay. So like

Season 8: Buck is exploring and having fun with his newly discovered sexuality. With tommy or whoever. Doesnt matter. We see Eddie dealing with the layers and complexity of his catholic guilt. Him starting to truly discover what it actually is HE wants for himself versus what he think’s supposed to want.

Buck throughout the season, while dating, is having fun and he’s happy but he starts to feel like there is just still something missing but he doesn’t know what it is. We see the boys stories parallel in that way for most of the season. S8 finale. Big emergency cliffhanger. Trapped dads vibes okay. Perhaps feelings come out. Buck realizes “oh shit. Im in love with Eddie” and tries to tell Eddie but then something bad happens. Bam! End of season.

Season 9: buck is reeling from this realization but like. They almost died so all emotions are on 10. They are in the hospital talking about everything but the elephant in the room. They talk about the will and what it means. Its heavy. Eddie telling Buck again that there is no one else for his son. No one else for HIM. “Its only ever been you Buck” and they are just sitting in this moment with so many words left unsaid. Both of them scared of the magnitude of their feelings.

The season continues as both of the boys try and navigate through what it means to be in love with your best friend. Eddie possibly working through having feelings for a man. Buck scared of losing what they have but also knowing that Eddie is it for him. Maybe mid season, they finally sit down and talk. Buck tells Eddie in so many words: I want you. I want this life we have made together with Chris. I love you. Eddie feels the same way. they both agree: we need to be sure, because once we go there, there is no going back. This could be a great thing for both of them but they have to be ready for it.

Now as 9B goes on, we see flirty Buddie. We see them basically together but not together ya know? They are happy taking their time cause they know the wait will be worth it. Now of course cause this is a primetime drama, some very traumatic/ dramatic will happen in the season finale. Now while nothing happens to the boys physically, whatever big ugly thing that happened, they just want to be with each other afterwards. They are each other’s home. We get a scene in the finale of them at Eddie’s house, on the couch. Eddie basically says that he doesn’t know if he will ever be 100% ready (more to do with his feelings about his own shortcomings) but that he is 100% sure about them. About Buck. He says I love you. Buck says it back. Then Buck proceeds to give his own love declaration. All these beautiful words about how Eddie has been what he has been looking for all this time. That this life is short (they understand that better than most) and he wants to spend whatever time he has left with Eddie and Chris. Cue first kiss. Cue thousands of fan girls dying. End season.

Season 10: now that they are together i feel like the lead up to an engagement could be fun. They are all happy and in love and they are sappy and Chris is making fun of them. Maybe on a call, or somewhere else Buck introduces Eddie as his fiancé and Eddie is like ????? And we get some fun spiraling. Eddie talks to Hen or something. “I would know if I was proposed to right? I mean we’ve only been together a few months???” And Hen is just like “yall have been Buck and Eddie for much longer than that” so that leads to Eddie asking Buck about it. Buck is like yea I said I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you remember??? And Eddie is like that isn’t a proposal! A proposal usually includes a question like WILL YOU MARRY ME? Again. We’re having fun with this. So Buck is all like okay. Eddie, will you marry me? eddie thinks he’s joking but he’s not. The moment goes from light and fun to intimate and emotional. We get some more “you’re it for me. I love you” Buck is choosing Eddie. Eddie is being chosen. Eddie is choosing to be happy for himself. Eddie says yes. BAM! LET THE WEDDING PLANNING COMMENCE.

(Now obviously this is just idiots ramblings. These are bones and they story would need meat and muscles to become fully fleshed out but. I just. Ya know. Had feelings)

#911 asks

[moonilit]

Ok but the entire Dawn winery staff jumping around informing each other that kaeya is here so all of them get a chance to see him was very sweet, like i knew the staff cared about him but it’s nice to get a confirmation and few childhood stories lol

#The DW staff throwing diluc off the stairs to get to see kaeya: MOVE #connor run all the way to get him the wine like buddy #Me running screaming and turning on the floor because i get to listen to Crepus and kaeya stories #I never asked for a perfect Crepus just a good dad Crepus and i GOT IT! #the basterd i actually believed diluc when he said he didn’t like wine for its taste #but apparently his pride was so hurt by his father punishment he just made wine his mortal enemy #Which seeing the fact that it was out of his own actions it checks out #Wow master diluc #Any way i would die for addy #Addy basically said: if they were getting into trouble 10/9 of times it’s somehow Diluc’s doing and she is right #kaeya being the favorite child is making my day ifdvnk #Kaeya #diluc #im not doing the rest i don’t have the energy #Feel free to spoil #genshin impact #Crepus

[glitteratti]

tried to tell my dad i will probably be upset about missing the eclipse because it will be cloudy so he was prepared and it wouldn’t be surprised and instead of being understanding he got upset with me and more or less accused me of trying to guilt him into changing plans 😂 fathers will be like “we need to roll with the punches” and then not do that when it is their daughters having emotions

#.txt #like everybody KNOWS this has been bucket list no.1 for me since i was like 9 or 10 #the way i have to ALWAYS tell him when im experiencing an emotion that im not doing it to guilt him. at age 25. #i try to talk to my father about emotions and i feel like i am a teenager again. every time. LOL #he literally said ‘i went out of my way to include you on this trip do NOT make me regret it’ damn okay sorry for having emotions. my bad

[dalloneveryday]

day 68. i love how theyre just 👍

#5588 #dallon weekes #dallon is so. handsome. idk why im saying handsome now but it feels right. #ALSO FUN FACT GUESS WHOS IN THE TOP 100 OF IDKHOW LISTENERS. THATS RIGHT ITS ME WHO ELSE WOULD IT HAVE BEEN. #13.7k minutes is. PATHETIC i will do better this year trust. #AND TOP 100 BROBECKS LISTENERS!!!! not very difficult though. 5.5k mins. but still thats kind of insane #i also use apple music so. for all i know that could be top 100 out of 500k other listeners idk. it doesnt say on there #still! im pretty proud. seriously though thats like ridiculous #also 9/10 of my top songs were dallon😭. every one has 200+ plays.😭😭😭😭😭😭 #my number 1 has 400 EXACTLY and then 2 has 350 and 3 has 320! so that made me smile. and then razzmatazz ruined it with 313. #AAAAAGGHH. it could have been perfect and beautiful #also do it all the time is my number 1 song again for the second year in a row. #might even be third! #yeah…. yeah. #p*nic

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[orcelito]

Honestly why am I fucking Like This

#speculation nation #im still overcompensating i know #i got the everliving shit scared outta me and had one of the most humiliating days of my life #and ive been working so hard on being Useful that i have been. putting in a Lot of extra hours... #i didnt Have to do all of this today. i stayed late to do it. 1.5 hours of active lifting the Entire Time #plus some work with counting and general managerial stuff #so that i stayed 2 hours and 20 mins over my 5 hour shift #and im just like. in the moment i was just so bothered by how disorganized everything was #i couldnt find where the Fucking lids were. ended up they were buried under a bunch of other stuff. #so i dug them out. reorganized. did a Ton of lifting. #like... uhmmm. 9 large boxes 7 regular boxes 4 straws 10 sippy lids and 31 dome lids #boxes. all boxes. #oh yeah and 8 paper bag boxes. plus general rearranging. #none of the lids were in one place and all the cups boxes were on top of the other boxes #so i had to pull them out to dig things out then put them back in #the good news is the lids boxes were pretty light. cup boxes not so much. #but thats still. kind of an insane number when i think about it. #i didnt NEED to do this. but i did anyways. because im a neurotic prey animal working desperately to keep the anger away from me #wahoooooo #it's... fine. it feels good to be productive. im just feeling... a bit fed up with myself. #my hip has already been bothering me today bc there always has to be Something wrong with my body #and then i went and did This. who knows what fucking unpleasant side effects this is gonna have on me. #sore muscles probably. maybe bruises. and MAYBE ill fuck my back or ankles up again. or make my hip worse. or #whatever. #it's fine. i'll be fine. im gonna go home and eat dinner and... chill. im gonna chill. #just. ugh. #but im clocked out at least. and i have tomorrow off. i'll make sure it's a good one.

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

FINALLY finished the most basic reference for my kali fanservant. this was all out of a desperate hope i'd stop changing her jewerly every 2 minutes

#im still....probably changing her jewelry every 2 minutes L #ft a bunch of random notes bc im dumb as hell and would forget my own head if it wasnt nailed on #reference #my art #me: this is just a ref so no need to over complicate! #me 5 sec later: IF I DONT GIVE HER AS MUCH ORNAMENTATION AS POSSIBLE ILL DIE #i now feel like i couldve included more color but i got so mad at my wifi issues i forced my phone to hotspot in lol #9 times out of 10 i dont even GIVE her jewerly L #but its pretty so

[mieczyhale]

"i had to surrender my cat bc he's got incontinence issues and i'm just not equipped to deal with that"

i'm stealing your fucking kneecaps

#of all the fucking reasons- #1. that's really not a huge issue to have if you keep your cat home #2. would you give away a child over incontinence issues?? over any health issue showing up?? or was cat just that disposable to you?? #like im glad i guess you took him to a shelter and didnt just abandon him somewhere #and apparently the staff might make him their office cat bc they love him #but god #'please be nice' my kindness is me not saying anything to you #im bitching on tumblr instead of the fb group we're both in total stranger #there are times - though not often - where i feel sympathy for the owner. where there really IS a good reason for surrender #but 9 times out of 10 its some real bullshit and i have no patience for that #i love animals to a super sensitive degree AND i lost my best friend (my first cat) unexpectedly in 2021 so yeah im a fuckin dick about this #at least its never to someone's face #its 10:26 AM #i've been in and out of sleep for the last 24+ hours and im tired and cranky and a little nauseous tbh #i was hoping to be a little productive today but i think i might go back to bed #maison speaks

[daydadahlias]

you’re getting a psych major and two minors

when do you sleep? O.o

omg great question!! i dont <3

#no i do. i find time #i take lil 20 minute nappy naps in the library sometimes between classes lol #real talk tho if y'all want some insight into Jess World is that i dont get back to my dorm until like 9-10 pm most nights #bc im out and about Doing Things until super late #this is reminding me of how often ashley is like 'hearing abt ur day exhausts me' sdfghj #i feel really unproductive if im not busy all the time :) #like rn it is 10 pm and i am at the library working on a presentation and drinking a ~high energy tea~ and i will probably be here #until it closes at 1 am #this is also not including. my job and my extracurriculars lol i am doing Things like. most of the time. #which is why it's very impressive and exciting when i can sit down to write something lol !! #i love having lots of stuff to do tho :) i thought abt adding a third minor but my friends said ~jess dont do that~ and i said aww ok :( #but tbh. i might ignore that advice. #pigeon #anon

[caffeinatedopossum]

When I had that panic attack the other day, my girlfriend really put some things into perspective... I don't know, I think I feel bad because this is the best my life has ever been and I'm still depressed and anxious. It feels like I can't do anything for myself and the things I can do, I don't.

But she said that she would feel the same in my position. That actually, when she was the most depressed, she *was* in my position. She said she'd go crazy from not being able to do anything all the time and for some reason that helped a lot. Like, just to hear that its not wrong to feel like this and that I really am doing everything I can.

It feels so greedy and selfish to look at my life being the best it's ever been and to still ask for more but I guess it's normal.

#i genuinely havent processed how much better things can get still because it feels like it will never happen #like im probably going to be getting top surgery this year. almost definitely even #but i cant believe it. ive waited so long that it seems like somethimg *has* to mess this up for me too #my whole life people have treated me like i need to just push through my anxieties. if i just pushed through then id feel better #if i just pushed through then id be normal #but now its even worse. i cant leave my house without help and its not that i *wont* i actually can't #i can push myself to but it isnt normal. im internally on the verge of a panic attack anytime im outside alone or in an unfamiliar place #but people dont see those things. they just look at me and see that i can but i choose not to #how do i tell them that not every choice is that easy #ny choices arent what to eat for breakfast and which parent will pick up the kids from school #its whether i stay in my house anxious and depressed and pain or leave my house for the promise of it getting better #knowing that 9 out of 10 times it has made it much worse #its deciding whether or not to ask for help when you need support but the problem cant be 'helped' #trying to guage what people will and wont take it personally that i have problems they simply arent qualified to fix #and even some problems that no one can fix

[ribcagewolf]

how to explain how much the theatre backstage pics hurt me

#its rare to have something in your life this large and abandon it #i started doing theatre when i was 9 or 10 #i started dancing around then or before too i think #i dont think im a genius but i would not be anywhere near where i am now without it #my entire understanding of people comes from this #its the last remnant of a life i had where i had goals and i could tell where i was going and what i needed to do #to someone on the outside it looks like i never left cuz i do film and music now but i cant explain how different it is #that used to be my entire world. i only spent time there. i literally went to an arts school because i was accepted into a theatre program #and now ive left it all #idk i think about ********** and i start crying #it killed us too #im just completely different now i get stressed thinking about it or when people mention it unrelated to me likedrop that. leave it alone. #i had to kill her and now im dying too #its easy to sell your soul to rock and shred yourself on stage its expected its relieving but the mental damage theatre and dance does is #much much harder to explain #the critics and the directors like you need to constantly question why and discipline yrself #god this is so dumb i need to never look at those images again #i just remember being twelve sitting on the black boxes knowing i had to prove myself ill probably never feel like that agian #and just the basic thing of like. how many of us died from dance. how much it ruined out bodies. ballet is truly a disease #ballet kills children #rahh ive had too much im not thinking straight rn this is all feelings #just. the pride. and safety i felt fromthe backstage view #mitski i cry at the start of every movie because i wish i were doing things too

[indigothreads]

tired of not feeling like a real person.

#tired of being rejected. tired of not having any rhythm in my life. #tired of waking up in three mornings and going to sleep at night and having to figure out what to do with the time in between. #tired of having to pretend to be excited about having a future when really all i feel is ashamed and humiliated that i’m close to worthless #a future? i’ve never had that. not in my head. #i ham it up about being mostly done with having ptsd which is funny considering it got diagnosed 10 years after i developed it #but really the worst symptom and the one i’ve never been able to stop is that i cannot picture having a future #it was easy for a while bc all i had to do was go to college. it didn’t matter that i didn’t want anything or make any plans #and now im done with school and i’ve done nothing since and i cant. make myself. want something. i can’t picture being alive in 5 years. #i never could but at least when i was 15 i had the stock image of College #i’m never ever going to stop being that 9 year old who never thought a day into the future because It might happen again tomorrow. #i’m still sleeping in that nine year olds bedroom.

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

My face got sunburned enough today that when I scratch an itch my fingers leave a white line for like three minutes afterwards 😬

#kee speaks #i also tired this has been such a long week #i only just got home like twenty minutes ago and it's 10 PM now #and i have to be up to go get parts at 8 AM and then go jump in a tractor #i feel like I'm officially reaching my fulltime farmer era #the last five years we've had enough people to run the farm side of things that I've been the designated shop person #so i was always working on welding projects or being the Go-For for everyone else #and i was really only involved during harvest time when its all hands on deck #but we're down a person this year so I'm learning how to run the planting equipment which is a new experience for me #i haven't even ridden along on this equipment since i was a kid and technology has changed by leaps and bounds since then #so it's a little intimidating #but it also means i dont get 9-5 Mon-Fri weeks anymore #more like 730A-10P Mon-Sat #which means not much time for viddy games :c #i was so excited that Survivor got pushed back so that it didnt release while i was in school #but now that its out im like. idk when I'll get to play #i have an appointment in the city next week though so I'll be able to pick it up at least #and have it for a rainy day #oh but also rainy days means my basement leaks AARRGGHH #BEING AN ADULT SUCKS AND I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR THIS

[lilgynt]

what if i got home from work and immediately had to do stuff for the house/my dad till 1 am then went to sleep so hard i didn’t dream then went back to work huh. what if that happened

#personal #i got six hours last night and that was the most i have gotten in several days #i mean my fault but it’s mostly like i’m gonna cut into my sleep time to have any free time #but anyway 10+ hour shifts 5+ hours cleaning/ helping my dad then sleep then immediately back at work #i was talking to my mom how bad life is yesterday and she was like but ur so skinny 😍 #i did chew her out but we worked it out and i did admit the weight loss has made me feel better during all of this #but probably not great that i’m enjoying it you know? but anyway #but the lady who’s coming to live with us to help with dad came yesterday night so! #she was helping him when i woke up and left for work #definitely will be an adjustment to live with a stranger and god pleae please #let my parents keep the house normal enough for a human being #and i’m gonna have to actually make sure the house is clean bc that’s not fair to her #anyway will be a big adjustment but if i can sleep that’d be so fucking nice #i already cried at work but maybe i leave early? i wont i have 4/6 occurances just from calling out for my dad #but also hehe. one drops off in 9 days maybe i don’t give a shit #but also if i’m gonna get an occurrence might as well get a full day #many thoughts probably will stay the whole day #i told my mom when this is all settled i’m taking a vacation and not doing a single responsible thing #i hope she can take a vacation soon too #but yeah second we have this settled im not working for 2 weeks not even joking

[oriax]

ive never been barricade at a show but i HAVE been like. 2 or 3 rows back at a FEW shows.

and im just debating HOW early i wanna show up to the concert next month. how long am i willing to wait.

#doors are 6:30 #so thats probably 4pm? #but the ISSUE is that i want MERCH #im not going to another show this is it #AND its a destination concert for me #so like. the idea of waking up at 9 or 10 like i do #and then breakfast #and then by 2pm needing to start getting ready bc i KNOW me #like it makes the show my whole day and idk how i feel abt it #i have a lot of time in vegas but i DID want to do stuff that day #and if im aiming for barricade idk how thatll work out

[party2000]

sonic adventure 2 in 2022 is so different from how i remembered it when i was like 7. in some ways it's way easier but also so much worse???

#i got it on pc for like $3 yesterday ! #maybe its my switch controller but i feel like its so easy to die from stupid things #like falling out of bounds bc i didnt land on the rail with enough momentum #still im soo addictsd rn 😭❤️ its a good game probably like an 8/10 to me #the music is iconic though maybe 9/10 just because the music never misses #also i almost threw up from playing it full screen for the first time #carl post