#CLEARLY i am missing something…

[falkii]

tryna get back into this game and it crashed on me 4 times

#CLEARLY i am missing something… #i remembered the standby memory thing like 2 crashes in

[cinnamonsikwate]

"why couldn't shuro have just been honest about what he felt with laios and falin it's not that hard" are you. are you White

#dungeon meshi #shuro #toshiro nakamoto #look you can hate him for other things but this is very clearly a case of cultures (& personalities influenced by these cultures) clashing #shuro is japanese/east asian-coded and laios is european white boy #i am not japanese but i also come from a collectivistic society #pakikisama is a filipino value both prized and abhorred #it relies heavily on being able to read social cues and prior knowledge of societal norms #shuro being from a different country/culture is important to his character #his repressed nature is meant to contrast with laios' open one like that's the point #they both had similar upbringings but different coping mechanisms #shuro explicitly admits that he's jealous of laios being able to live life sincerely #anyway the point is they were operating on different expectations entirely and neither had healthy enough communication skills #to hash things out before they got too bad #re his attraction to falin i personally believe he unfortunately mpdg-ed her #she represented something new & different. a fresh drink of water for his parched repressed self #alas not meant to be #i'll be honest the way ryoko kui handles both fantasy & regular racism in dm is more miss than hit for me #i don't doubt that a lot of the shuro hate is based off of marcille's pov of him #marcille famously racist 😭 #characters' racist views don't often get (too) challenged #practically everyone is casually racist at some point #anyway. again if you're gonna hate shuro at least hate him for being complicit in human trafficking & slavery #he couldn't help falling for the wrong woman goddamn 😭 #calemonsito notes

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

something to be said about how kristoph's only known mentee is a loud young man who dresses flashily, is particular about music and so passionate about the truth that he forgets to take people's feelings into account sometimes and follows the thread of logic even when it's disadvantageous to his case or people he cares about/admires. and who also does vocal training. like. just admit you miss your brother and go visit him. freak.

#to be clear this post is mostly a joke but i am serious about him being a freak and missing his brother. #sorry to all the pure evil kristoph enjoyers out there but i believe he loved his brother #kristoph gavin #klavier gavin #apollo justice #something so funny about the idea that kristoph looked at apollo & went 'omg... like klavier' in the same way that phoenix looked at ema #& went 'omg... just like maya fr' in rfta. the parallels are real to ME. #tangent but i feel like kristoph generally loves in the same way regardless of what type of love it is. i.e. buried beneath lots of self #justification about how it's not love and he's really tricking & using & manipulating them for his own means #17 y/o kristoph using his first pay check to buy klavier a guitar for christmas like 'yes... i will get him this instrument that is clearly #more COMMON & INFERIOR to my violin so he wont EMBARRASS me by being uncultured & not knowing anything about music... but he will ALWAYS #know he can't compare to me...' #vs 9 y/o klavier opening his present & being like 'wow! my older brother is so generous & cool <3 i love him so much <33 #they're so funny to me actually

[james-stark-the-writer]

less than 4 minutes into Pom Poko and, i don't get Isao Takahata, he refuses to draw nipples on characters or characters without mouth muscles but he'll draw balls on raccoons, i don't get it. i don't get it, what the fuck are this man's priorities.

#james talks #james watches stuff #pom poko #studio ghibli #isao takahata #when i say he here i obviously don't mean him literally i know there are other people drawing it but obviously he has final say over stuff— #bc he's the director #anyway hopefully there's no people in this so i don't have to see his ugly human designs again #but anyway the movie is fun so far #finding subs for this that matched was a nightmare #the inbuilt subs said the raccoons lived in the 'woods' but in the actual Japanese dialogue they clearly said 'mountain' #& it took far too much fiddling and looking to find something that matched and actually had all the subs (including text) instead of just— #the dialogue and stuff. and even in this the translations of certain lines changes a lot (like saying the racoons always lived near a farm) #so i am forced to watch with 2 subtitles at the same time and draw a conclusion on each line of dialogue to see what the actual line is #so if i miss something that's my bad but like subtitlers should simply agree on what's being said. #this is kinda why i'm a big proponent of direct translation with explanations in brackets for cultural contexts

[dummerjan]

i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy

#meins #for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :( #i hate people #have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not. #why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them #it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless #reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her #she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her. #it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it #they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all #it is art and love and human #i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art' #and i hate that i fell for it for a minute #i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain #i would have heard about it by now #and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs #(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time) #or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin #i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal)) #but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely. #anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox. #or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two

[birdmenmanga]

@raventhekittycat

hi okay so I've been mulling this one over for the past day or two and I think I have the answer. not to be using hamburger to explain anything to an american but you're my detco mutual so I'm going to try and explain it in detco terms

There's a post going around recently about how if you've read detco and only detco, the first time hakuba shows up you're going to be totally flummoxed, because damn this guy is clearly important, he gets to be even cooler than Shinichi, he's got a half-page shot of him (in such a panel-dense series such as Detective Conan, no less!!) and he's got a fucking hawk. he's CLEARLY important. everything about the narrative is indicating that you need to PAY ATTENTION to hakuba and that he's the coolest guy and he's important!!!! and then he dies in the case lol (not for real. but still.)!! and you're like huh??? what was that. why did aoyama do that.

But with the context of magic kaito this totally makes sense. He's a beloved character that people have been waiting decades to see again. Of course Aoyama is going to hype him up!! It's his big moment after years of being locked in the backrooms!!!

Anyways reading birdmen for me was kind of like that. The author's previous series, Kekkaishi, was pretty one-dimensional at the beginning, and even after the main plot started picking up at around volume 6, it still felt quite understandable. I knew what she was trying to get at, and the spectacular job she did with the anthropocene and climate change metaphor towards the end of that series really made me interested in the rest of her works. That and the way she writes familial relationships is absolutely DEVASTATING. (I mean this with the highest of praise)

But when I read BIRDMEN for the first time, I was probably in... middle school, maybe? And I read it, sure, but I didn't get it. I could see what was literally happening on the page but the narrative choices were absolutely baffling at times. Why skip over the entire part of the plot where they figure out who the birdman that saved them was? She blatantly doesn't care about that. What does she care about then?? I knew I didn't get it, I knew there were parts of it that were important and I couldn't figure out why and THAT'S how it dug its pretty little claws into me. Even after I finished catching up it nagged at me a little bit, not often at all, but enough that every once in a while I go, huh, right, that was a thing, let me go read it again.

For the record this type of story haunting has happened to me twice. First time was the Heart of Thomas, second time was BIRDMEN. I think the thing is that these are both stories which are not what other people say they are and I think I came into both of these stories with a misconception, trying to look too hard for things that weren't important and therefore missing the things that were.

Because sure, BIRDMEN is about mental illness. Yeah, it's about an evil scientific organization growing mutants in a lab. Yeah, it's about what it means to leave your humanity behind. That's all technically correct, on a surface level, and the fandom at large likely agrees with these takes for the most part, but in my opinion none of that really delves into what the thematic messaging of the story is about.

There are cryptic conversations about authority and human extinction and peculiar outfit and ability choices. You can tell these choices weren't made to serve the purpose of "writing exciting shonen manga" because that was what she did for the most part in Kekkaishi and you can tell she wasn't putting her whole pussy into doing that here. So what was she doing? What's like. All of this. Waves my hands at this.

The short answer is that it's really about the interplay between capitalism (represented by humanity) and communism (represented by birdmen), and explores the role institutional white supremacy (EDEN) plays in enforcing capitalism. It is ALSO about queer liberation and the importance of community, but hey, that double-stacks conveniently with the communism metaphor.

But also take this opinion of mine with a grain of salt. As far as I know I'm the only one who really truly deeply believes that it is not only AN interpretation of the work, but one that was fully intended by the author.

So basically, I like it, because I think it says something true and beautiful that I also believe in, even if I didn't have the words for it the first time I read it. But I don't really think that's what people really look for in a media recommendation.

Do I like it? Yes, I love it. Will I recommend it to others? Yeah, sure. But do I think it's deeply flawed? Yeah, absolutely. It's flawed in the same ways as The Witch from Mercury— a rushed ending, too many threads that were opened and never tied together. The pacing and characterization is perfect in the beginning, and too rushed at the end. There are prerequisites you basically HAVE to read in order to understand the story (tempest for G-Witch and the communist manifesto for birdmen). I think a truly good story wouldn't have any of these things so if people don't like it I never blame them.

It's my personal experiences that make birdmen so profound to me. If you are not queer I just don't think Eishi coming out as a birdman to his mom will hit the same, just as an example. Sorry that I wasn't the kid you wanted me to be. I know you love me and you just want the best for me and that's why you're so controlling, because you think I can be saved by conforming to societal expectations. But I can't live like that. I can't be like that. And that's why I must go. etc.

Aesthetically I do love birdmen a lot. If I had to describe it in a few words it would probably be "chilling", "beautiful", and "powerful", which nicely coincides with the type of things I personally like to draw. It's also silly to a small degree but it's so serious and I know Tanabe can be way way way funnier (read kekkaishi for this. kekkaishi and hanazakari no kimitachi he were foundational to my sense of sequential art humor) so that's not really the standout trait of this series.

I can't let it go because I'm chewing this series like a bone. And it's taking me years but I am getting that sweet sweet marrow. By god. We are on year 3 of this shit and I am GOING to understand this series. and I'm going to make 3 video essays about it

#just thinking thoughts... #stray bird thoughts #so it's like... I don't like it because birdmen is good #I think I like it because I am a certain type of person and the author was trying to say something specifically to the type of person I am #OH #I'M THE TARGETED AUDIENCE THATS WHY I LIKE IT. #YEAH THATS REALLY IT!!! #A long time ago I said that birdmen wasn't written for the people who read it at the time it serialized. #it was written for the people they would become. #and I stand by that 100% #if it really stays with you there is going to be a reason even if you can't articulate it yet #and it may APPEAR sloppy to someone who doesn't see the queer or communist metaphor #like 'what is she doing what is she saying here she's not saying anything meaningful and emphasizing the wrong things' #but that sort of presumes she is gunning to make 'the best shonen manga ever' #which she clearly isn't. #I remember when I was reading fma with a bunch of my classmates and I'd lend them a volume or two every day #and a piece of feedback I received that has stuck with me was 'volume 15 was so boring' #(that was the volume recounting the ishval civil war. it was boring because we were middle schoolers and didn't REALLY get it.) #and like. I think to people who are looking for something like kks. the whole thing is going to feel like fma volume 15 #like WHAT is she going on about? ? ? #like witch hat and dunmesh I think are similar types of stories but I think these two are just executed way better than bm #but because of that it is just not as compelling to me you know. #like yeah yeah it's well constructed. we all see it's well constructed. #the metaphor is so well constructed that I don't feel the need to point it out. everyone is saying it already you know #but bm is cryptic enough and just slightly missed that execution enough that I feel like I'm pulling the analysis out of a smoking wreckage #recently I've been watching mentourpilot videos about airplane accidents and like. that's exactly it. #there's nothing to say about a perfectly executed flight. #it's the ones that failed. and in particular the ones that just barely failed by a little bit. that compels people the most. #cue my de communism is failure post. bc that bm sure did fail.

[twilightarcade]

oc-tober day 27 - monster!

#notwordswordstag #anyways we're so fucking back. Sorry for missing literally a third of the month goodlord #bweirdOCtober #oc-tober #ok idk what i want as a caption all significant thoughts are going into tags today #we missed friends week because of That. Luckily every week is friends week when I'm around #doing that.. hopefully this week? That said it /is/ halloween so it might leak over #anyways monster au.so funny 2 me like what if everything was the exact same except they we freaky little creatures #wouldn't that be fun. The answer is yes. I am having fun #maaaan i was supposed 2 draw something else I think. Here we are anywyas #didn't think about it too much #erm.. in terms of life news? may pick up the saxophone. For like 2 seconds. #or i'll teach myself piano that would be fun (and relatively easy given. Piano) #who knows. Maybe we'll do nothing. #but what if i'm REALLY good at sax. What if it's actually my true calling. Clearly not a flute player. #Man I hate the flute #ok im tired besties bye 4ever 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[a-blue-eyed-hoe]

Hacker.

Sí, ¿viejo con el que vivo y al que tengo un poco de miedo?

#if it has something to do with bobby or the missing cans of energy i would like to not be involved because i am clearly innocent

[paranormalglass]

WHAT IS DON'T HUG ME I'M SCARED AND WHY ARE PEOPLE EATING FAMILIES 😭

#^soggy speaks #I CLEARLY MISSED SOMETHING #PLS SOMEONE EXPLAIN I AM TOO LAZY TO GOOGLE/HJ #don't hug me i'm scared #dhmis #WHO IS YELLOW GUY #AND RED GUY> #AND THE DUCK???

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

#had been thinking about applying for a leadership position in our university ostem chapter for a while now #but psyched myself out of it last night before applications closed #because with everything that's gone wrong in the student group i was involved in this year i no longer trust myself to be a good leader #or frankly even a good person #i also had a slightly soul-crushing talk with a professor yesterday about my grade in her class #because even though she clearly thinks i'm brilliant (and basically said as much) i missed like two weeks of class #specifically because something happened with another student who i know i managed to make upset #(on accident. but it seems like she found my apology wanting) #and i feel so awful about it that i decided the only way to handle this was to avoid her so i didn't make her uncomfortable #so now my grade is suffering in a class i could've gotten an 'A' in #and it's just like. what am i even doing #i care so much about making the world a better place but i feel like such a bad person and trying makes it worse #and i know i'm under no obligation to put myself through this kind of stress but i don't know how to value myself if i don't #lately i feel like i'm beating myself up for being too fragile and unstable to even make a good martyr #and i know it's not healthy but if i try to step back i just get sad #like how now i feel awful about not sending in that application. and at least half dozen other similar things #i just want to make a real impact but it feels like the only thing i'm good for is making things worse #i'm not even fun to be around most days. i'm just.... sad

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Whumpers, what are your earliest memories?

Mine is from when I was about two or three. I was in a stroller, at my cousin’s Irish dancing recital. After the recital, my aunts were talking down to me in the stroller, and to each other. I was experiencing extreme anxiety because I couldn’t understand what they were saying, when I felt I should have been able to communicate with them like they were communicating with each other. I was also very tired and dazed. I did not cry though… I probably looked normal on the outside.

I also remember when I was about four or five, I went to the beach with my dad and one of his friends. I somehow found my way onto the dock, planted my little rear end on a jet ski, untethered it from the dock, and started floating into the sunset. There was an old lady lounging in a donut inflatable out some way; she said something to me, but I couldn’t understand what she said, despite trying really hard. I’m assuming it was something along the lines of “Oh my god get off that jet ski you’re going to fucking DIE, kid,” but again… couldn’t understand a word of what she said, and got frustrated because she was speaking English (without an accent) and I should know how to understand adults speaking English to me.

At this point, my dad is yelling at me from across the water, and a young lifeguard drags the jet ski back. On land, my dad lectured at me very harshly as he led me back to the car. I didn’t know I had done anything wrong, and was very confused. At some point this guy starts quoting the Bible at me, and the only thing I could pick out were the words (spoken very emphatically), “Your days are numbered.”

“My days are numbered?” cue a vivid mental image of a calendar, with dates listed for every day of the week, “What does that mean?” Later on I figured out this was the Bible’s way of referencing death at God’s hand which just made me even more confused as to what I did, until at age thirteen, I figured out, “Oh a baby who can’t swim floating on a jet ski is terrifying, actually.”

Tagging: @kaleidoscopr @redd956 @hereissomething @astudyinpanda @c0ldbrains @straight-to-the-pain

#tag game lol #I had a thing with not understanding people very well (or at all) as a child idk if that’s normal kid stuff or what lol #Like you know how in dreams people’s speech is a blur? That was how I (mostly) interacted with the world from ages two to six #My best friend at the time would talk to me a lot (she was a couple years younger) and she was still partly in the “babbling” phase #and couldn’t speak clearly at all #so I just kind of nodded and went along with it despite having no idea what the hell she just said #Which I continued to do with everyone else into adulthood; as soon as someone talks to me I zone out whether I want to or not lol #My life has been a perpetual cycle of: “Why can’t I do that; am I stupid or something?” > studying it intensely > excelling at it #Like humor. No one laughed at my jokes in my first year of public school; so I watched what made people tick… #By the time junior year online English class rolled around I had the teachers and students in stitches almost constantly #Likewise with understanding people: I zone out all the time; but I can quickly replay what I heard in my head and ask a question to verify #if that’s what they said; then give an appropriate response to it #Basically I repeat 70% of what people say to me during conversation to make sure I’m not missing anything #As a result I’m now pretty good at figuring out what people are saying if there are language barriers or speech abnormalities involved #But do NOT give me verbal directions; I can and will forget them the instant you walk away

[thechosenanubis]

Apparently I have beef with the hoa wiki page. Because everytime I look at characters info, it tries to gaslight me.

Like, how can you stare directly into my eyes and say, with a straight face, that Nina's hair is light brown????

#house of anubis #nina martin #hoa wiki #nathalia ramos #It's clearly blonde in the pic?????? #like i would let it slide if we talked about S1 ( her hair seems darker there) but in S2 her hair is clearly blonde 🤨 #if I had a nickel for every time a character's hair is described differently on the wiki page than in Canon #I'd have two nickels... which isn't a lot but it's wierd that it happened twice (and in two different fandoms might i add) #i get worked up over the most stupid and inconsequential shit 🤦‍♀️ #But for real: am i missing something here? or am i just being a clown???

[leothil]

Sad that we apparently have reached a point where people need to be told outright to manage their expectations for an episode of a tv show lest they throw tantrums afterwards.

#listen. i am and have always been on the 'manage your expectations and spec responsibly' train #i personally tend to stay away from spec. i have nothing against it. i may roll my eyes at it if i don't agree but i don't hate it. #but the way some people on here talk about theories - sometimes theories that stem from absolutely *nothing* - really steams my nuggets #because it's like they go out of their way to say 'we *know* this thing will happen' and make their followers believe they have some godly #insight into the show (which is ultimately on the people reading it and accepting it without any critical thinking don't get me wrong) and #when it doesn't happen people rage about how the show was 'baiting' when really all that happened was that someone had an idea and five #other people decided to run with it for whatever reason and suddenly people are acting like it's something we were told by the showrunners #so i really wish people would make it clear when they're just spitballing whatever from someone's idea based on a single frame or something #it's not your responsibility and i get that and no one should feel guilty for having fun on this hellsite but it clearly is a problem among #some group of people that they take everything as literal truth when it comes from a blog they like #man i miss critical thinking and media literacy lmao #anyway. keep having fun but manage your expectations please.

[soldier-poet-king]

Anyway made soup. Finished that indulgent awful YA read. Slowly learning that I can write reviews of things that are critical and the world won't end and I'm not going to cause people to die or something unspeakably horrible to happen just because I was "mean". Etc etc etc

MAYBE it'll be ok

#franposting #anyway yeah my ocd has this connection #that says if im critical of something. not even mean. just critical #someone will die/theyll be an accident/etc etc etc #all this because my ocd got really bad when i wrote a supportive but critical review of a prof #on those anonymous end of term things #and then she DIED a year later of cancer #and i was convinced her cancer came back bc of me #I genuinely believed it for years. i cried. i missed so much class. i was responsible for this womans death #anyway that was eons ago. 2nd year undergrad. #but i lived with that guilt for ages #i had ocd before then. but never so obvious. never for such a ridiculous clearly untrue fact #and then it spiralled into my every action causing world disasters and deaths #so yknow. #yes i AM a little insane on my bad days #i mean in full seriousness. i believe im responsible for completely reprehensible things when in an ocd spiral #and i live in fear!!! #but maybe it is getting better. maybe kt is getting easier #i was able to say hey this book was poorly written and plotted but it was indulgent and fun while still being bad #i didn't say it was good i said i was entertained type scenario #to be clear. i can HAVE mean or critical opinions in my head. bad things only happen when i express them publicly

[zmediaoutlet]

happy wincest wednesday, Z! i know you have a special fondness for s9... as someone who has zero memory of that season and is only up to mid-s3 on a slow rewatch, i need some incentives to make it that far. what, particularly, do you like about that season and why do wincesties need to appreciate it more?

do you see it as being more ripe for a first time or established relationship?

it's wincest thursday because sometimes you're in a bummer mood all day on wincest wednesday but you save up the wincest to make the next day better. yes? yes.

I do have a special fondness for s9! It's terrible and wonderful, haha. I remember a lot of people getting bigmad shitfit pissy about it at the time -- o the factions that erupted! o the people who abruptly revealed somewhat scary levels of polarization! (o the terrifying weird accusations of abuse apologism, and worse!) -- but at the time I was pure Switzerland, and I think that's the best way to be. I really liked Carver's understanding of The Marriage -- I mean, he literally ended the previous season in a church! -- and I was like, okay, this is painful for now but where will it go? Sam and Dean obviously weren't going to 'break up' in any kind of permanent way, because every showrunner has understood that the show is at its best when they're together. So, how will they get back together? What will it take for them to get there?

When you're on team "the actual plot of Supernatural is the relationship between Sam and Dean," everything just gets better, I think. Who cares if there's, whatever, angel wars or something happening in the background? The part that matters is the space between two brothers. s1-5, to me, is the story of how they actually get to know each other, how they learn to trust each other, how they grow up. (They're SO YOUNG in s1! It's appalling,) In s6 and s7 it's like, wow, okay, so we're actually choosing to stay together. Sure, there's a world-ending plot again -- when isn't there! -- but we're actually deciding that we want to do this more than we want to have normal lives. That's wild.

The Carver seasons, then, are all about the marriage. s8 is, "wow, we cheated on each other. ...We don't actually want to do that, do we? We want to actually devote ourselves to each other. Weird!" So they make a promise, in a church. (!!!) And then, because this is Supernatural and you can't get a single goddamn day off, IMMEDIATELY on the heels of Dean promising that he'd do anything for Sam, Sam's life is put in danger. So s9 becomes about, okay, you made a promise. So, immediately the question becomes: what will you do to keep it?

I know it's not 'nice' but I really don't get how so many fans are, like, mad about it. So much great storytelling happens when a character says "I have this line and I cannot cross it" and then they're put in a situation where the best possible option is to cross that line. That shit is the best. Dean wants and needs Sam to live for both their sakes (any reduction of that moment to 'selfishness' is rank stupidity and I won't countenance it); he won't put anything before Sam; so, what will he do? What will it do to him, to have done that thing? What will Sam say when he finally realizes? What will Sam do when he realizes he'd do the exact goddamn thing?

It's even better in context:

s8: are we married? it turns out that, shit, yes we are. s9: okay, prove it. <-- we are here s10: okay, prove it again. s11: wow, well. We really are just like this, aren't we. Let's decide to be okay with that.

I just love that kind of writing.

PLUS OH MY GOD ALL THOSE RAD MOMENTS WHERE DEAN WANTED TO TELL SAM AND GADREEL WAS HOLDING SAM HOSTAGE OVER THE EDGE OF A CLIFF AAAAA basically I just like a good dose of Dean torture, what can I say.

Oh -- and on that, I like it best with established relationship but I like everything better with established relationship. But in the same way that I love proving things -- I don't think their relationship means nearly as much until they get through all this stuff to s11. Love declarations in s1 are like... k. Talk to me when you've been through literal hell.

#happy wincest wednesday #wincest #i am a late seasons truther #and shall never apologize for it #idk if that was a good answer but here it is anyway #it's all about the specific pressures applied to specific characters #and i didn't even get into sam here #sam in s9 is FASCINATING #he's angry but he's not angry about the thing people always say #he didn't want to get possessed #but he's much angrier about the lying #and at a certain point he's angry that dean can't have done otherwise #he wants dean to apologize for something dean can't apologize for #and so it dissolves into bitterness and stubbornness #and a period where sam clearly *wants* to forgive but can't #it's great #nuance! complication! #making it about a dnr or a dumb rape metaphor is so missing the point

[camgoloud]

the unaffordability of one bedroom apartments in my area is something that can be so oppressive to me personally

#when i’m actively cooking something over a fire with earbuds in i’m not interested in having a five minute conversation with you. #when there’s visible food and grease all over the countertops that DOES in fact mean the kitchen should be cleaned soon yes even if we’ve #let it get worse than this before. if you want to send a text to the house group chat about pooling money to buy a new vacuum that’s great #and you can go ahead and do that without asking me while i’m busy exactly how you should phrase said text. if you use my knives you should #fucking PUT THEM BACK (three are now missing) and preferably without bits of food stuck on them though at this point i’m not even picky. #there are youtube videos about how to wash your dishes if you really can’t figure it out yourself it’s not the kind of thing you need to ask #your female housemate how to do. just. jesus CHRIST #my food is burned and i’m in a cranky mood and i can’t fucking take this anymore #my standards of cleanliness are clearly different from everyone else’s in this house which is just not a great situation to be in #god. anyway i’ve been feeling guilty because i’m finally starting to learn how to play the guitar so i’m going to be making a fair amount #of unpleasant noise in the house this year probably but tbh they can all just learn to live with it. #i am no longer feeling particularly interested in being considerate #caseyposting