#so yknow.

[readingloveswounds]

the problem is that even if most things have already been said, i do still need to restate some of it. and this poem. well. let's just say you can't escape once you're in it.

#i thought i'd get like 5 pages out of the cities and here i am with 17 not even done #sophies ramblings #and yes it's intentionally modeled after the pharsalia :) #so yknow. #actually! you can! but you have to submit to Judgement Day #and either be damned or saved forever #which is ONLY possible by reading the full poem. #otherwise you're stuck

[marxism-leninism-meowism]

zionists really gotta stop pretending like zionism = judaism and that anti-zionists just hate jews. the worst zionists i've seen have been evangelical christians and atheist white people.

#and every other jewish person i know is anti-zionist #but zionists are calling anti-zionist jews antisemitic and jew-haters too #or fake jews #so yknow. #free palestine #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #anti zionisim #israel #genocide #palestinian genocide

[crossedwiress]

see, where i am is where i wanted to be i know what i need, know what i need

#so this was going to being a cashton mb #but then that just wasn't working #so we have the lovely mr irwin instead #idk why but most of my ashton mbs turn out green i think #there's just something abt it #ai #moodboard #oh and the caption is from paint by the paper kites #the song itself doesnt fit this moodboard but that lyric kinda did #and i had it on loop for like. 5 hours straight yesterday #so yknow. #im vibing with it #my moodboard #ashton #aesthetic #e*creations

[soldier-poet-king]

Anyway made soup. Finished that indulgent awful YA read. Slowly learning that I can write reviews of things that are critical and the world won't end and I'm not going to cause people to die or something unspeakably horrible to happen just because I was "mean". Etc etc etc

MAYBE it'll be ok

#franposting #anyway yeah my ocd has this connection #that says if im critical of something. not even mean. just critical #someone will die/theyll be an accident/etc etc etc #all this because my ocd got really bad when i wrote a supportive but critical review of a prof #on those anonymous end of term things #and then she DIED a year later of cancer #and i was convinced her cancer came back bc of me #I genuinely believed it for years. i cried. i missed so much class. i was responsible for this womans death #anyway that was eons ago. 2nd year undergrad. #but i lived with that guilt for ages #i had ocd before then. but never so obvious. never for such a ridiculous clearly untrue fact #and then it spiralled into my every action causing world disasters and deaths #so yknow. #yes i AM a little insane on my bad days #i mean in full seriousness. i believe im responsible for completely reprehensible things when in an ocd spiral #and i live in fear!!! #but maybe it is getting better. maybe kt is getting easier #i was able to say hey this book was poorly written and plotted but it was indulgent and fun while still being bad #i didn't say it was good i said i was entertained type scenario #to be clear. i can HAVE mean or critical opinions in my head. bad things only happen when i express them publicly

[your-fave-is-bi]

Does a little dance. Here’s my newest guy his name’s Dahriel n he’s cute

#personal tag #Karli plays bg3 #gore cw #he is in fact holding a brain in those last pics #so yknow.

[theredquilt]

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#had to have some tests #(I’m fine I just hate the invasive stuff) #and I thought I was being so brave and stoic about it #and then the old dear in a shop just now gave me a look like 😟 #and quietly asked if I was ok lmao #Link Neal levels of being able to hide my emotions #me in my head: 🙂 #me actually: the chick at the end of midsommer in her flower suit #BUT #for the blood test they actually managed to get it out of my arm instead of fucking up both arms and eventually getting it out of my hand! #so yknow. #not all bad #blahblah

[ajdrawshq]

good news: ive chosen a pokemon form for all 8 travelers. bad news: there is an overwhelming amount of grass types among them for some godforsaken reason

#ITS NOT MY FAULT I SWEAR . #Therions base form is a Floragato bc thats the reason i started this whole thing (it reminded me of him) #H'aanit is a Decidueye bc thats the most fitting one for her #Primroses base form is Hisuian Lilligant bc. Yeah #and Alphyn is a Bayleef but honestly theres a number of pokemon he could be. BUT THEYD ALL BE GRASS TYPES #4 of them!!!!!! are grass!!!!!!! theres 8 total!!!!!!! half of the entire team are grass types!!!!!!!!! #thats like the only type anyone has in common too. except for ghost theres 2 of those but thats nothing compared to 4 #it bothers me Souch but ive made my decisions already. made the bed now im laying in it. but mildly frustrated #welp. onto all 170+ side characters or whatever #after checking that list theres a few who arent actually important enough to warrant giving a pokemon form for the pmd au but #theres still A Lot #its cool tho i love making pokemon sets. genuinely one of my favorite passtimes its why i keep doing this to myself #hm. thinking back i could technically alter Therions typing bc he is a hybrid of several cat pkmn (Floragato + Espurr line n Purrloin line) #so he could be like. pure dark. or psychic dark but i dont rly see him being a psychic type #im aware Floragato isnt even dark type but since Meowscarada is and the Purrloin line is i have him set as Dark/Grass rn #so yknow. #but he does still benefit from the Grass type in some ways both thematically and w his moveset.. #tho ig his base form is Floragato regardless so it doesnt matter much w his moveset. dont have to change that #hes the only one i could even change bc the other 3 im just. too adamant abt and they arent hybrids so i cant play around w types n stuff #ftr the other 4 are Tressa as an Eevee. Olberic as a Corviknight. Ophilia as an Alolan Vulpix. n Cyrus as a Mismagius #i think theyre neat. and hilariously different in size #ive also got Erhardt as a Ceruledge :] very fitting.. perhaps with the colors of Armarouge would be more fitting.. #trying to come up w excuses for why everyone is relatively the same color palette as canon is. both hard n surprisingly easy #the only one im still not sold on in that regard is Cyrus.. what could make a black n gold Mismagius.. #hm. i need to sleep actually #so yeah this is what ive been doing 👍

[trash-nerd]

finally paying rent on time for the first time in months. no exivction threats THIS month!!!

#i'm stuck in the trash #hdhdhsbsb #were flat broke ofc. both of our checks are gone and i could do one (1) grocery run before that #so yknow.

[peppermintsparker]

billy russo sexiest man to exist

#currently watching punisher #thirsting over billy russo #but i have been a fan of ben barnes since i first watched prince caspian #so yknow. #he is so sexy and for what #anyway #peach talks

[muirneach]

my friend was like ‘okay lets watch more mash i want a stupid silly episode’ and i put on dr pierce and mr hyde 😭😭 i’m sorry i forgot how insane that episode was

#in my defence i did read the synopsis from the mash wiki to her and told her ‘this was one of the early ‘hawkeye is very #mentally ill actually’ episodes but yknow its not too serious i think’ #this was because we skipped for the good of the outfit cause i thought it was too serious for what she wanted #we ended up watching it anyways cause i figured after dr pierce theres no way it could be any worse lol #the difference is that for the good of the outfit is objectively more depressing and tragic #BUT most of the tragedy takes place offscreen whereas dr pierce is like. we watch a man descend into insanity #so yknow. #anyways sorry @ my bestie lol #m*a*s*h

[mr-malumm]

Caught spying on his hate boyfriend

#hes so dumb #theres a word for that yknow #kismesis #in the most aroace way possible obv #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin art #hazbin hotel #the vees #vox #valentino #velvette #hazbin vox #hazbin valentino #hazbin velvette #alastor #hazbin alastor #radiostatic #technically lol #my art

[tearlessrain]

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

#I found their original stuff while I was researching various waterhorses and their folklore for no reason #because one of the characters in their original work happens to be an each uisge #and then it turned out it ALSO included a lot of figures from welsh folklore in general #so yknow if you happen to have my incredibly specific hyperfixations you'll love it but even if you don't it's great #I didn't mean to bring up phantom of the opera so much it just happens to be very relevant to a lot of my talking points #I haven't actually seen it in years

[rivertakis]

I've been off my antidepressants for a third day now due to headaches and chest pains

so far i feel fine? but im very cautiously optimistic, considering school tends to fuck me up

#rambles #the pain was so bad i had to skip school for a couple days #its purely caused by meds #so yknow. #stopping taking them until a) i go to the doc and they help/figure out why there's sudden pain #or b) start feeling hella unstable and have to start taking them again for safety #lets see how it goes chat!

[daz4i]

nikolai

nikolai

#have you seen him? now you have #i edited the original post bc someone added a pic of one of the founding fathers in the comments so i was officially done with it. #edit: decided to add some text. to spice it up #originally i wanted to add a pic of skk. given the topic of the original post. but all of my top posts are skk anyway yknow?

[hallwriteblr]

to you, it's a shitty sentence. to some random bitch 500 miles away, it's a fire line that'll haunt them for the next 17 years.

you don't know how impactful your writing is because it's been in your brain for far too long now. you've stared at it for hours and repeated "this sucks" over and over again to the point that you killed your capacity to feel anything about your work.

but trust me, once you get your shit out there, someone's gonna go over that paragraph you hate and go "jesus fucking christ" and put the book down to have an existential crisis.

#writeblr #motivation #encouragement #writer #writers #writing community #writers of tumblr #writerscommunity #it's also a matter of different life experiences yknow yknow #someone couldve gone through something that leads to that shitty sentence hitting them harder than it hit you #so write shitty sentences #scheduled #my posts

[perenlop]

dude this is legitimately difficult cause i still wanna stay semi faithful to the series and think like, what would be cool for the character to have first and what i'd personally like second, but ash's kanto team is honestly so lackluster as a full team that idk if i can salvage this. i wanna keep the overall experimental vibe but so many of these guys do jack shit and get no screentime that they're honestly better off being wiped and given a small story arc like haunter or something, or being decorations for oak's lab. like, there's a reason why most episodes around his kanto team, whether its in the arc itself or when there's a nostalgia bait episode, they only focus on the starters or butterfree cause they're the only ones who had an actual presence in the show.

honestly a funny bit would be ash catching pokemon and wanting to fight with them but he keeps catching pokemon who don't actually want to fight so they just get oak'd most of the time. so he spends most of kanto struggling to actually find pokemon who want to battle. but i don't want to add too many pokemon like that because what's the point if i give him a gloom and it just gets chucked at oak like the others.

#im gonna be voiding pidgeot actually just. sheerly out of annoyance lolllll #im legit a little bitter that it got a spotlight in the very final episode because it didnt deserve that compared to his other pokemon #''ough ash is a TERRIBLE person he forgot allllll about pidgeot!'' i dont blame him cause she was nothing. she did fuck all #ppl give his unfezant shit but at least she actually did things. pidgeotto was only ever just a scout really #and i think i can just have brock's zubat as the scout. give that guy something to do during kanto #fun fact. some of you probably didnt even realize brock had a crobat. or if you did then you thought it was a johto catch maybe #because that guy gets caught in the mt moon episode. and shows up like... i think once? and then its not seen again til brock gets benched #in the orange islands #so i guess pidgeotto does do more than that guy. but see i actually really like the zubat line and brocks starving for pokemon #so yknow. #echoed voice #idk something i want to preserve but will be hard is like. that inexperienced charm in os #i dont want him to have this perfect viable team right off the bat. not at all #hes still failing the indigo league spectacularly hes still getting his badges on a technicality basis a lot of the time #and this is bc i really want that first step to be rustic. i dont want him to be this special prodigy or anything. i want it to be messy #but then in orange islands and johto he really starts to come into his own and he earns all his badges for real