#I HAVE PAID MORE FOR LESS

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

if i just spent 100 dollars on eyeliner no i didn’t

#look i used to be a mua like i did actual training #pre pandemic bsc had entire collections of stuff #i never got any pr lists but i had connections at some brands and makeup stores that would get me deals and shit #so IM NOT JUST A CRAZY SONIC FAN OKAY #I HAVE PAID MORE FOR LESS #<- justifying this to myself

[uncanny-tranny]

The leftism/anticapitalism leaving people's bodies the zeptosecond you imply that disabled people who aren't "productive" still matter in society and need to be treated like intrinsic equals who have a place in this world:

#disability #disability advocacy #described images #image description in alt #ableism #ableism tw #my full-time job is my disability and you're lucky that i am still 'productive' as-is #your boss doesn't care that you think you're superior for being hired by them. they're still going to treat you like profit machines #it astounds me how people will capitulate for oppression because they place their intrinsic value in their ability to be at the top... #...or at least 'at the top' compared to others. it's the same impulse that makes people think their cisgender status makes them superior... #...you are placing your worth into systems which not only oppress others but offer you no true sense of worth... #...ESPECIALLY if you're also being exploited (even if just a bit)... #...you have a job sure but... do you actually get treated like a human being? are you actually paid? are you actually safe?... #...if the answer to any of those questions and more is 'no' then why do you place your value in capitalistic production. genuinely. #and why would you DEMAND disabled people to have the same exploitation you experience. why do you DEMAND productivity if you are proletaria #yes being a leftist and anticapitalist are linked but. some people still internalize capitalism without questioning it #being a leftist is about challenging that rather than assuming you're correct i think #also scientists were very silly when describing time that's like. less than a millisecond i think

[lil-shiro]

Harry appreciation post! And also all the crew because they need to be valued (and paid) more in F1 .

If u didn’t know, Harry’s been with the team since Force India, so he’s known Lance ever since RP days. He was a mechanic on Nico’s, then Checo’s side of the garage. This year he got promoted to Lance’s No.1 mechanic. They get along well 💚

Source.

#aka the blue bucket hat lance cuddle guy #after reading about how less they get paid we should definitely appreciate them more! #what I like about AM is so many of them have been with team throughout everything #aston martin f1 #lance stroll

[not-poignant]

If someone stopped reading your story, not because of anything wrong you've done, would you be interested to know why? Or would that just be unpleasant?

That would just be unpleasant, anon.

The reality is a lot of people just stop reading for a lot of reasons, and hearing someone's negative feedback isn't really that useful, because I'm writing the story for the people who really love it, and not for the people who got bored or stopped liking the themes etc. And then of course there are folks who just stop because life intervenes, which is normal.

Generally speaking there's a saying which is: If you wouldn't ask that person for personal advice, why are you listening to their criticism. And I tend to apply that pretty aggressively to strangers on the internet tbh!

Part of it is that I take negative critiques very personally, and can spend a really long time feeling like I should change an entire story for one person who's already stopped reading, or like I should be trying to fight to keep that one person's interest instead of like...focusing on all the readers who are actually just enjoying the writing as it is. And changing my writing for the people who aren't finding it interesting enough to keep reading (and/or who don't have time and/or who find it too upsetting etc.) is not going to help anyone!

So yeah, generally speaking telling a person why you've stopped reading a story is like...not really a thing to do (and that's true for most authors).

About the only time I don't mind it is when someone starts reading again after a period of absence where they've been stressed and I get a comment like 'Ah I haven't been around due to life/stress/illness but I'm so happy to be back and reading' lol, which I don't think is what you're referring to!

#asks and answers #personal #i know you said if the reason wasn't 'anything i've done wrong' #but tbh i don't think people not liking my writing is anything i've done wrong either #that's just a thing that happens #some people start reading because they think the stories will be more wholesome #or less painful #or shorter #or just haven't paid attention to the tags etc. #those things have nothing to do with me #i'm not writing the story for those people #they're like ships in the night that come by thinking 'oh are you a wafflehouse? it smells like waffles' #and then they go 'wait you only do pancakes never mind' #sdaflksadjfsda

[heart-of-the-morningstar]

Republican Boomers: Life’s not fair, get used to it!!

*Student Loan Forgiveness is introduced*

The same Boomers: Hey, that’s not fair!!

#student loans #student loan forgiveness #boomers #i think they fail to mention how much less money they paid for their school #am I willing to pay a little more stuff to help people out? #of fucking course I am!! #i fucking have student loans too but mine are private so I really won’t benefit from the plan #but that doesn’t mean millions of other people are struggling too #both of my folks only went for two years #i know you didn’t pay nearly what others are paying now #I know I’ll get hate for this post but whatever lmao #be mad about it 😂

[girlboyburger]

i'd like to extend a formal apology to commissioners for the current delay on commission completion. without getting too into details, this month has been a myriad of health problems very much including the injury of my drawing hand. work has since resumed, and i'm doing better than i was at the start of novemeber, but i feel it's only right to say sorry for this batch taking longer than my previous ones.

i will be making / sharing art again soon. thank you.

#moo.txt #i rreaaalllly don't like sharing my personal health online #but i want to be honest with those who have paid me Money #i promise i have not forgotten about any commissions and will be responding to all dms tomorrow #when ive got more than 3 hours of sleep in me and am slightly less sore #thank you for your patience

[inalandofsadclowns]

"So where are my flowers?"

"I heard Morgana got some. Is she the only one to receive a token of your affections?"

would you stop being so selfish and not demand his attention for like one second? because while you're away in the clouds thinking you two are having a sparkly moment, the only tension merlin is feeling is over not getting exposed for treason. come on he's obviously not even processing your words right now, he's too busy finding the druids and helping your sister HE'S NOT.WITH.YOU

#if arthur spent less energy on being jealous of morgana and paid more attention to her indentity crisis instead #she might not have turned evil and 2012 would have been a pleasant christmas #bbc merlin #merthur #mergana #merlin #arthur pendragon #morgana pendragon #morgana #enough you're going in the queue #no i don't really blame arthur but he was so missing the point in that episodes like get your priorities straight

[blinkpen]

"writing process memes of "mmm this is the REAL goiod part" but idk is this one too niche.

#doodles #rebus #the yonkoma universe will always exist to the side though u know it #it is fun to be your own goofy fandom for your own thing #also: ooogh i am so invested in fully fleshing out lamarr and demersa's prequel style backstory i uuuh oop #dropped it and smoothing things out made the story as a whole morph into a weird fantasy epic when i wasnt looking #so rather than plonking what would be a pacing breaking boulder of a Too Long flashback in the middle of the main story #we might uuuh be going in more or less chronological order starting with lam n dem's childhood then like a 10 year timeskip #and i actually revised my big ole story-map out found like the Perfect way #to parcel these things out with good pacing n still have wiggle room for the eldritch monster of the week format we can eat #-without- it fucking up the overarching narrative or bringing it to a frustrating fucking crawl for bs we have no reason to care about #...if i do everything right anyway like if i pull off what i am trying to pull off i will do my best to not fuck That aspect up #that's what the paid editors will be for i suppose!

[scampfire]

hey @i-say-ok , animated fanart?

#this actually took me a little less than 3 hours #idk what amount of money animators get paid #but it should be more #holy #but I have actually too much time and nothing to use that time for #so I make fanart #also Ok you’re my muse #I’m somehow inspired by you

[somecunttookmyurl]

after deducting the cost of materials (charms, findings, the little display cards they go on to) and, hell, even rounding it up an extra 20% for such things has "had to buy a £2 pair of pliers once"

right

after deducting that and being generous with it

i get paid roughly £165 per hour for labour making earrings. i'm serious. £5.50 for two minutes of work

#and that is - once again - still charging less than big corps whilst also paying more in materials #i could take my sweet ass time and spend a whole 5 min making one thing and still be on nearly £70 an hour #you tell me that's not just as unhinged as getting paid £5 an hour for yarncraft but in the other direction #you look me in the eye and tell me that's not a ridiculous development #i'm not also going to undercut fellow indie creators that's a dick move #and we seem to have generally established that £5-6 is a fairly standard price for earrings that also still undercuts the corporates #but when i say it's a bizarre experience i mean i get Lawyer Wages for one thing and Poverty Wages for the other. normally in the same day. #and the lawyer wages is the easier thing #if we all set the price of earrings at materials+minimum wage they would be about 75p btw #materials + double minimum wage + an extra 100% pure profit would be........ £3 #when i say nothing in claire's should cost more than a fiver i mean it with my whole chest

[goldensunset]

what if they gave you the actual arcphone instead of just a case

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#WAR FLASHBACKS… it honestly felt like a mockery of my pain to just run into bonsly right away in violet after how long it evaded me in pla #LSFSGHDBDJBSJDB if they’re gonna make the ‘pAsT LiFe’ claim they should commit to it #naw but i’ve already decided my characters from both games have very different personalities #my pla girl is just akari pretty much like how i imagine akari in canon to be only i’ve given her a new hairdo and outfit #my violet girl is just like ummm ok. i’m here to do and say what i want; no more no less. i’m cuter than you uh i mean uhh #it would be SO funny if you just. actually randomly got a text from arceus like in pla in this game instead #like hello???? #this seems like a much less religious society too #as opposed to the people of hisui #arceus also misremembering akari’s name is soooo funny given that she was its chosen favorite #asks #vivi-mire #pokémon #sv spoilers #legends arceus #goldie’s pokémon violet liveblog #you make my character look so cute i already changed her hair though lol #i went to the hairstylist and saw something that would make me look more like my pla character #idk if it suits me though tbh i only committed because i thought i’d already paid upon entering like you have to in pla #kinda wanna change it back already and get my hat back on i like the bob

[twinkle-art]

i dont want to sound too pushy or annoying but hows that vn you announced a while back going... it looked rlly cool

LMAO no worries, your timing is impeccable anon because i was in fact working on that most of today💗 my hope, assuming all goes well, is to have a demo out at the beginning of next year, at which point i should hopefully have an idea of how assembling the rest of it is gonna go. i don’t know if this is apparent but i have a bit of a problem with getting overambitious

#also i’m praying that having something actually tangible done will make me less distractable HAHA #i absolutely love what i have so far it’s just. well you know how it is with a massive passion project that you’re not getting paid for #i have a hard time resisting more immediate validation ahaha

[odysseys-blood]

begging on my hands and knees please pb stop killing your own game its getting quiet in hereeee

#cliffnotes/.txt #whb #its like #yeah once again i get its a small company #but the way players keep dropping bc of how hostile/predatory its already gotten with paid content #im not going anywhere any time soon but man #ITS AGGRAVATING TO SEE IM SAD ABT IT #like i said when this started in like december its just #it feels like they jumped the gun way too early #no gacha is ever gonna be player friendly i get that too but like #usually they stwrt easing up on f2p content into more paid stuff later #game launched in what october? its april #only half a year and the way i keep seeing less and less is fr sad #and like ik im just a player i dont have the answer but like #if the focus switched from pay for characters to some of the other stuff that was supposed to be implemented by now #text chats/ the seraphim dungeons/ hell even the friends feature #like theres been no word on any of that and im just pulling from the promises announcement made in january #pools already feeling oversaturated for l cards #and its just. it gets real empty feeling real fast now it feels like nothing was rly. planned well if you get me #but idk #its just upsetting to see smthn dying this fast #i wanna have hope but ehhhh... #i rly do wanna wait it out bc im not like a super devoted pb fan #but i found love unholyc when the pandemic first was kicking my ass bc going from being on campus and- #being out all day with friends to being stuck at home was...tough #and the games janky but i liked the chars #same with whb #so like. augh

[transmasc-wizard]

i hold a personal grudge every teacher who taught me to view myself as the "smart kid" and hold my "inherent smartness" as my own most valuable attribute

#for every time they used me as a benchmark and every time they pressured me to focus even more on work and less on friends #and every time they made fun of me when I got one fucking thing wrong and every time they encouraged the other kids #to celebrate when they were better than me and every time they only paid attention to me because I'd just passed #a harder test #i have another bit of anger . #nicola.txt #ok to rb

[petricorah]

in the end, she drew this instead

#this is inspired by me watching all of gekkan shoujo nozaki kun in a twenty four hour timespan and then reading the first two manga volumes #it's really only been six days? it's felt like forever. sokka withdrawals #good news: i got a job!!!!!!!!! (sorta. paid opportunity) but...i will have less time to draw sokka. alas. sacrifices must be made #this was more fun than it had any right to be #i have three of five pages of one of the zukka comics sketched #so the hardest part is halfway done and i really need to finish it

[moregraceful]

someone cold emailed me to ask if i was going to a writer's conference in los angeles and was putting together a panel or caucus for queer poets or if i knew anyone who was...buddy you are severely overestimating how much i network with other poets (i don't) and how often i attend writer's conferences (never) 😭

#''do you know of any other poets going'' no?? bc i hate networking with other poets???? #LIKE ARE THEY LESS ANNOYING THAN WHEN I WAS 23? IDK? MAYBE? #i feel like most things these days are less annoying than when i was 23 #or maybe i'm just better equipped to deal with annoying things than when i was 23 #yesterday i was talking to someone about my ethos wrt a class i ran last fall and he stopped me in the middle and was like #you're amazing. that class was a hot mess and you still had fun and found the good in it #like no i'm not amazing. i'm just in my thirties and it takes a lot more than other people's mental health crises to throw me off my game #he was pretty ticked off in the fall when i told him the like depth of crisis multiple students were in bc he thought i should have told hi #i was like idk it did not occur to me to ask for help. he was like you're doing daily check ins to make sure your students are eating?? #idk!! it didn't bother ME my job was just to make sure they were still alive! i mean my job was actually to teach liberation theology but #like i was not good at that. but i DO know how to be annoying until people feel less like killing themselves and more like killing me #anyway all that to say i can't wait to see how much less bothered i am in my 40s #i hope i have reached such a state of zen by age 50 that my spirit is unruffled by anything and anyone #i hope i float through life in a fine mist of okayness #someone says ''oh my god kasper my life is falling to pieces'' and i say ok 👍 we can get through this together👍 #what was this post about??? oh right networking #good networking: librarians bc you just go ''is your manager batshit insane'' and they go THIS PLACE MAKES ME SUICIDAL #and then you're friends for life #bad networking: poets (when i was 23) because all they do is name drop (when i was 23) and expect you to have opinions (i don't) #this post is wildly overconfident in my zen considering i'm so bored of being unemployed that i keep looking at teamworkonline #bhawks are hiring for a social media manager btw. imagine having that kind of access to mr 🥺. i'd literally only do paid advertising #to gay men #i'm not applying bc social media management would actually break my sobriety i am pretty sure #but imagine having connor bedard at your disposal and being like ok kid. we r gonna catfish some gays into caring about the bhawks #basically what i do with the cuda blog lol #ok ok ok i'm done. posting. goodbye. livejournal mode de-activate #fresno oilers.txt