#I can’t sleep with sound going on

[whumpypepsigal]

The Night Agent s01e04: “Glad you finally got some sleep.”

#whumpedit #whump #thenightagentedit #the night agent #peter x rose #peter sutherland #rose larkin #gabriel basso #luciane buchanan #worry #sleeping #exhaustion #my gifs #I LOVE SOFT MOMENTS LIKE THIS! #the night agent spoilers #rose was worried for a sec there 😭 and then the look of relief she had when she saw peter sound asleep… im unwell #my man hasn’t slept for DAYS as evident by his loud yet cute snores i can’t #I would like to think peter waited for rose to fall asleep… then sat on the chair near as tactical strategy to keep her safe #but ​going 72hrs w/out sleep + severe exhaustion took over and he dozed off #yes this is exactly what happened! #this trope right here! just good stuff #love this so much! #^^ #trying new gif format hehe

[foxgloveinspace]

People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.

#very much so #tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks #listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point. #you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it. #‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July. #‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others. #‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one #‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans #I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next? #sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway). #idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t #mean it when you said sleep token was important to you. #like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks. #but I know this too shall pass #this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change #and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’ #1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive! #2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing #I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love #I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show. #tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask #if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good. #he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck. #I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it. #idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

I’m so obsessed with the idea of Avatar Mako (not because I hate women, stfu Korra is still kicking ass, but just water-bending style in this AU) because the idea of an orphaned kid living on the streets, working with gangs, and fighting in underground bending rings while trying to raise his younger brother, not giving a shit about who the Avatar is or where they are, being the Avatar without knowing is so good.

Maybe his parents knew because when he was a kid, they did some little rituals or something to see if he was an earth or fire bender or if he even was one at all. But they never told him (or anyone else) because they were going to wait until he was sixteen, like traditional. So, they just went with fire-bending because of his appearance and because fire is probably more dangerous untrained, and more likely to be done on accident. (I choose to believe fire sneezing is a very real risk)

Anyway, I just.. I love this AU so much.

#also I don’t think air-bending would be something easy to do on accident #because there’s no way a random kid in a post atla world would know anything about airbending technique #also also water would be the hardest for him to learn let alone do on accident #I love this for the same reasons I love avatar Zuko #I can’t stop thinking about this #also I don’t mean to make it sound like mako is like a lot older then bolin I think that’s how mako thinks tho #new to tlok but it’s also been a while since I’ve watched it so be kind to me #tlok #mako tlok #the legend of korra #my preferred kind of fanfic is Scenarios #I LOVE WHAT IF SCENARIOS #PLAYING WITH THE LORE #I should go to sleep now #avatar the last airbender

[quietwingsinthesky]

doctor who human!au with multiple doctors but they’re all named by their numbers because they’re all trans and picked them out theirselves.

#they’re NERDS. #and then across the street lives their older neighbors. the normal sounding professor yana (<- also trans) and. War. (<- very obviously #trans.) #akdjjflfj i think if i wrote a fic like this i would genuinely just end up using their numbers as names #and give this as the in-universe excuse to do so. maybe they collaborated. #if they’re siblings in it then they definitely did #ten voice: you know we should probably also have normal names if we change our birth certificates. something people won’t raise an eyebrow #at just so that we can go stealth if we need to. || eleven voice (<- married a woman who named herself RIVER SONG.): sorry i can’t hear you #ive already changed mine and i gave myself sixteen new middles names #(thirteen: you know john smith isn’t a normal name right? it’s too normal. it’s suspicious. || ten: >:( || twelve: (the only person trying #to sleep at the sleepover voice) Please Shut The Fuck Up) #human!sibling!doctors au

[purpleminte]

Kinda sucks to feel entirely dependent on your phone for something like waking up in the morning.

Like literally the only thing between me waking up at a reasonable time and me waking up two or three hours late is just whether or not my alarms decide to go off.

#thinky thoughts #I woke up late twice this week #first time I know my alarms didn’t go off because my phone was stuck on a ‘your phone failed to update’ pop up that alarms can’t close #second time I have no clue #all four of my alarms just didn’t happen #or maybe each and every time I turned off the alarm without even waking up fully and I don’t remember #I would have no way of knowing either way #if a tree falls in a forest #and I sleep through it #does it make a sound

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[bluepluto03]

Me: Would it make more sense to explore all of BroZone’s trauma before revealing exactly when Grandma Rosiepuff died? Like i have all these outlines on the hardships they went through during their separate travels, all of them spent some time being Grey although it was relatively brief for Clay and Bruce, JD spent a few months Grey and Floyd was probably Grey for over a year. So doesn’t it make sense to go through their stuff first? Does that help make the reveal that Branch was Grey for 20 yrs more dramatic?

My one, singular remaining brain cell: this is supposed to be a fucking trolls watch trolls fic

Me: I know which is why I should probably just jump right into the movie but what do you think is angstier?

My one remaining brain cell: I am going to make you eat glass

#trolls #this is the only way I know how to verbalize my creative frustrations apparently #writing is hard and it shouldn’t be this hard to write a reaction fic but there is something deeply wrong with me #I have 3 things nearly done but i can’t finish any one of them #I’m going to take a nap and see if that helps #btw the amount of JD angst in my brain #branch is obviously my blorbo so he gets the most angst #but JD is polling high enough and I’m relating to his feelings as eldest a bit too much #I m also making this sound so angsty im trying to be funny #I truely need to sleep

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

if i say getocoded

#franz wright when i fucking catch you……… #poem is called dedication btw <3333 my favorite ever #this is specifically cult leader geto coded btw !! #”although i never write; secretly i long to die with you; does that count?” (sound of glass exploding) #SIGH. #the enormous mouth that waits beyond youth…… and i will meet you there again ….. it is easier this time; i promise ……… #i am already waiting in your personal heaven; here is my hand; i will help you across……. i would gladly die with you still. #yeahhh. u get it. #i think he yearns for you so deeply that it almost turns into worship #during those ten years of no contact #i think he dreams about convincing you to join him. i think he develops a savior complex for You specifically #he wants to be your salvation. #i also don’t think cult leader geto can love normally. all he knows is burning <33 #all he knows is that he’ll kill for you and that he’d die for you. with you. that maybe selfishly he wants you both to die. #he’s soooo sick & twisted but there’s a tenderness to it. his yearning is tender his burning is tender. #he thinks about you late at night when he can’t sleep and wonders if you’d accept his love even though it’s bent #he tells you that he’d die with you and it sounds like a psalm. #etcetcetc #ari going insane over cult leader geto part 8278383 #😔😔😔😔 i miss him chat #ari noises ✩ #poetry ✩

[skinreflectsthesun]

I am not well 🤧🤒🥺😴

#personal #last night beba went to bed at 8 pm #I was like okay let’s get started with night time routine because it’s gonna take at least an hour I’d like to go to bed as soon as he does #and legit I started rocking him in my arms around 8 and he closed his eyes around 8:05 and started whining #when he does this he wants me to put him down so he can fall asleep on his own #which just breaks my heart but it’s a good thing #anyways he starts whining so I put him in his bed #and then close the door and leave the rain sounds on for him #and I anticipated giving it about 10 minutes before he thrashed around a bit and started crying because he can’t fall asleep #that’s usually when I come in and pick him up and rock him again and we do the same song and dance for about an hour #and literally I set him down to sleep at 8:15 and he just…slept through the night #I went to bed at 830 and fell asleep by 9 and he slept the whole night #my goddddddddd #I needed that sleep so bad #it didn’t fix me entirely but it’s a start

[buck-yyyy]

listening to dramatic classical music while absolutely fuming but being unable to express it is SUCH a feeling

[gravehags]

to the solitary cricket that i suspect is on the jasmine immediately outside my open window: i love your work

#i love night noises i can’t sleep without some kind of noise in the bg #but only nature noises really #my go to is rain sounds

[goldenhypen]

guys i’m so sorry for being mia recently :’> i hope to catch up on everything vv soon. these days have just been pretty hectic and there have also been some personal things going on. this next week is going to be more extremely busy buttt idk i wouldn’t be surprised if my procrastination gets the best of me again and i just come on here instead w more rants :D but yeah i hope to talk to yall soon :>

ooo also fun story time. sorry sjdjdj but i’m just freaking out sm rn. i can’t disclose who or else it’ll give away where i live- dksjkd butttt yall don’t know this about me but i follow lots of influencer couples. and i got to meet one of my favs today 🥹 im crying i cant omg. they’re so sweet and i got to have a nice convo w the girl 🥹 ahhh i cant i actually can’t. im freaking out to everyone ik about this ahhh

#actually such a fun day today #ngl i can’t remember anything that happened today other than meeting my favs #ahh i wish i could say who cuz this story time ended up sounding so anti climactic #sorry 😕 #anyways i’m super happy now you guys #ahhhh i can’t i love them sm omg #i’m gonna go to sleep and cry now #gn yall #happy easter <3 #em speaks

[tariah23]

Had an emergency come up at work 😭

#some girl called and she sounded so shaken up and was trying to get in contact with her sister #I know how it feels :( #i remember when my sister didn’t show up for work one time and she usually is one to text me in the morning or call but she didn’t #and I’d been calling her for hours i probably left over 50 missed calls #and I told my mom about it and she tried calling her as well but had no luck #and my mom went on and told the whole family 😭 #so I was ready to leave work just to go over to her apartment to make sure that she was alive 😭 #it was just outside of her character to not say anything to me like that and her showing up for work made me worry even more #then my boss came in and saw my crybaby ass whaling and she pulled up the voicemail that my sis left saying that she was calling off ajajaj #I felt sm relief but it was still so worrying #I’m glad that the girl who called sister is alright since her bf opened it and then she also came to the door #it looks like they were sleep but I told her to call her sister since she sounded like she was about to cry 🚶🏾‍♀️ #we aren’t aloud to go into these ppl apartments #all we can do is knock if there is an emergency #and if we can’t get ahold of the person we just have to let the other party know that they’d have to call the police themselves 🗿 #rambling

[ruffgem]

I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao

#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms #I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try #IDK!!!! #I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life #I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent #everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!! #it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by #accident’ #THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN #whatever #some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also #indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real #ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY #after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day #and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’ #ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay #ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag #I loved them #they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL

[ickypuppi3]

the way so many of jq’s ‘fans’ treat him is actually vile and i’ll never understand it like how are you gonna claim to look up to someone and be a fan of them and want to meet them etc etc and then literally treat them like they’re an animal in a zoo and have zero respect for them or their boundaries.. i simply do not get it !!

#constantly filming him when he doesn’t want to be and the con having to monitor questions because people can’t be normal #the lack of respect is absolutely wild #video of someone literally screaming in his ear like please get a grip or go home idk #and #like as if how he’s treated at cons isn’t bad enough you’ve got people treating grace the way they do for.. being associated with him?? #get behind me jq i’ll be your new fanbase #bonus: i hate s4 so you’re safe with me #matter of time before he does a joe keery and dips tbf and i wouldn’t blame him #like why should he bother even doing cons if people act like that #couldn’t be me #if i ever met someone i was a fan of i would literally never dream of acting like that i don’t understand how these people sleep at night #not to sound old but genuinely why do people have no manners nowadays like what happens to please and thank you and asking people if it’s #okay to do something #my one year old niece has more respect and that’s not even an exaggeration

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text