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bunji-enthusiast · 2 months

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ahhhhh, im.not the one who requested it buy I love the oneshot about catnap with the child he took care of after the hour of joy because of the kitty thing. Even though I'm not the one who requested it, is it possible I can request something in the same premise of it. Where catnap after taking care of the child for a long time is starting to run out of the food reserves the factory had, and he has to find other ways to feed them. Through feeding them like how he feeds the smiling critters in the playhouse on "meat" from you know who, or forcing the child to leave so they have a chance to find food. But catnap being catnap wants to keep her there despite so decides on the first choice, even though he had let the child get attached to dogday.

(I'm sorry this may show up on your ask box twice I ment to not send this anonymously but I did by accident so I wanted to correct that, anyways thank you for your absolutely amazing writing remember to take breaks when you need to and stay amazing❤️)

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Note || awe, no worries. Happy to see you in!

WC || 1,034

Sypnosis || emotions are scarce, food is too. It seems factory is getting to everyone, CatNap is left with unprecedented levels of risks.

The conditions of the environment were no doubt not very liveable ones, so he had tried his best to adapt to the conditions so that you may be able to live in his room comfortably or even walk anywhere else in Playcare. Even beyond the whole place in any case, he just wasn’t sure what to do anymore. CatNap was at an odds end within himself at deciding what to do, what would be best for you.

Should he force you to leave the factory in hopes you find food? No, you’d just get lost and scared, no doubt manhandled by an incompetent people that may pass you by in the process. You were just a kid, lonely and in need of companionship and being surrounded by people you could truly trust.

Though the colorful disposition and creepy toys in this place far proved the idea he needed to keep you safer more often. Knowing that you may as well get attached to some of the other toys you come across, CatNap was admittedly worried.

You were often inquisitive, curious to find everything your attention was captured by. That wasn’t of any good in his honest opinion, but he had to remain with a steady and cool head. So that when it may be, he can take care of you more properly.

CatNap didn’t want you to leave, he had become far too accustomed to your presence. Hearing your joyful laughs and giggles, staying so hopeful and strong in your own unique way. You certainly brought on a joyful aspect to his lonely life, even with all the others he had punished for being heretics.

DogDay, oh yes, he had to take some chunks from him. That was the last thing he wanted to do with all that has been said and done. But he truly had no other option, but his worst thought being as how you began to get attached to DogDay.

In retrospect however, he will admit that you can be cute and quite charming for just being a child at most.

“Mr…” You began, the crayon stilling to a stop. DogDay perked his head up, though the effort to move is indeed extraneous on his war-torn body (both literally and figuratively). “Hm, sweetheart?” He spoke out, his voice spooking you a little bit as he hadn’t spoken very often. You didn’t expect him to actually answer you or at all for that matter, but DogDay seemed kind to you. You wanted to get to know him at least, but to him, he was slight afraid – on your behalf, you didn’t know better on a lot of things. Especially the vying point is how his legs had been taken from him, most of it being fed to the smaller toy versions of the smiling critters and you too. Did you even know what you were eating?

You hesitantly stood up, leaving your paper and crayon to abandon. “Why are you chained up like that?” You asked with a tinge of nervousness, almost afraid as if you were going to incur some sort of angry emotion from the large dog. If he could truly move his own gaping black mouth, he would’ve been frowning right now. DogDay was concerned for you, as to why you were put in this situation.

“I am… just not a very good person, sweetheart.” His gentle tone carried an aura reminiscent of a father if you ever heard one. Your eyes were wide with curiosity, knowing it was okay to continue speaking with him the way you were. “But, you don’t look bad to me. You're even nice to me!” Your innocent tone had brought back a fragmented memory for DogDay, he chuckled with a warm spell about the air.

DogDay let out an audible sigh, “Not all things are as they seem, CatNap included.” His words incited a bout of curiosity in the flames of your stomach. Now this was something you needed to understand, “Stretchy kitty?” DogDay nodded, a chuckle escaping him once more. You simply were the cutest thing he had seen in a long while.

“I.. would say he’s not, kind or gentle as you would think him to be.” DogDay was nervous, irradiated by a different presence he had quickly taken notice of, but had continued on anyway. “CatNap, had uh, punished me Sweetheart. Wasn’t nice to his god.”

‘God?’ you thought, “what is that Mr?” You spoke out in reply, sitting down and closer next to him then you were previously. You were rather oblivious to the presence of such an omniscient aura, menacing enough to be sure. DogDay wasn’t sure how to explain the term finely, but you were curious, wanting to satiate that curiosity by always asking questions.

You deserved to have every single one of them answered, no matter how silly they may seem. DogDay had hoped the best for you, he had gotten rather attached to you. In spite of CatNap’s many warnings to not talk to you or even glance in your direction, not wanting him to bore your head with lies and spiteful attempts to turn you against him in any way possible. Well, DogDay had felt quite an intense hatred against CatNap right at this very moment, and found the courage to move on forward with his words. No matter what may happen to him, “God is uh, let’s say a very inspirational person… powerful even. But he can be a hypocrite too.” He nodded, tilting his head as if he was speaking through his movements.

“Sweetheart, you follow your own heart alright?” DogDay spoke hopefully, hoping to see that his words had gotten to you a little bit. “Never let anyone tell you otherwise.” You nodded with a fire in your eyes he hadn’t expected from you, but this a youthful you, easily impressionable and inspired. DogDay will forever be hopeful for you, and grateful he ever had gotten to speak to you in the past few days anyway.

A distant crying was unheard of, a lonely digressable cat, heart heavy and hurt. He began to cry silently, tears are there yet there are none.

I’ll shelter and adore you more than anything.

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime x reader #poppy playtime chapter 3 #x reader #catnap x reader #catnap poppy playtime #catnap #child!reader #dogday poppy playtime

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mazeinthemiroh · 11 months

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Oooh, idk why I didn't realize this before, but you also write for txt!!! Do you have any thoughts on how txt realizes they're in love with you??

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txt when they realise they're in love

genre: headcanons; romance, fluff

warnings: none

please like and reblog if you enjoy <3

soobin

when he no longer feels awkward around you.

it takes a lot for soobin to settle down with people

the transition from crush to something more has been a bit of a long process

soobin has had to reflect and figure his feelings out on his own which can take time. but when he finally realises and understands his feelings are real for you, a relief takes over him

he feels comfortable around you. he relaxes instead of tenses up. he's not as shy as he was before and looks forward to your visits

he finds your presence warm and welcoming. there are no awkward silences or miscommunications. just comfort and ease, which is something he strives for in his life.

yeonjun

when he can't remember his life without you.

you are so very important to him that you have become his favourite person. his top priority

he spends every minute of every day thinking about you in some capacity. not in an obsessive way. in a gentle way - "oh y/n would like this cafe" or "i wonder what y/n is doing right now, i hope they're okay because i know they were tired before..." stuff like that

he's more thoughtful than he lets on. he loves spending time with you, even the precious spare time that he doesn't get a lot of

and that's how he knew he was falling for you

because he wouldn't give up his free time with just anybody

and you weren't just anybody. you were the one.

beomgyu

when he feels like he's shared his soul with you.

beomgyu likes to joke around but in more personal relationships he craves deepness and intimacy.

he's probably the quickest out of the other members to realise he's in love because i see him as being in tune with his own thoughts and feelings.

he lives for the moments when your both lying on the living room floor together, staring at the ceiling, talking about life and dreams and everything in between

times like these he feels so incredibly in love.

because it feels like an exchange of souls.

vulnerable moments that he isn't used to... he gets emotional when reflecting back on them because they are so precious to him.

because of this, he just wants to give you his whole heart.

taehyun

when he finds himself caring more for you than anyone else.

not that he is neglectful of his friends or anything. he's still very much a balanced human being.

but he is finding himself to be more motivated with love and affection purely by his feelings for you.

in other words, you've helped him become a more healthier version of himself.

the way he treats others has improved dramatically. he's looking out for them more actively and is more observational instead of staying in his thoughts.

and he takes care of himself better too, making sure to eat properly and stay hydrated.

all of this self-improvement stuff all comes down to his lovey-dovey feelings for you. he doesn't know what to do with all this love he now has so he starts expressing in ways he hasn't down before.

hueningkai

when he feels absolutely accepted.

he feels so comfortable being himself around you, not feeling the need to hold himself back as he does with other people

there are only very few people who really get him. he's unique and a precious boy that should be cherished, and some people don't appreciate him the way you do.

that's why he's so, so grateful that he has met you. it genuinely feels like a fairytale to him, how this all happened. because he often questions why you hang out with him and why you love spending time with him so much.

at one point, he guards his heart, becoming distant because he feels that it's all too good to be true.

but he's able to see that you love him just as much as he loves you. and life could never be more sweeter to him than now.

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percheduphere · 3 months

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LET'S TALK ABOUT NEURODIVERSE AND DIFFERENTLY-ABLED/PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES REPRESENTATION IN THE LOKI SERIES

Thank you so much for your patience and your amazing ask, @indulligence! Special thank you, as well, to all the gif artists who made this meta possible.

I've been champing at the bit to get to this one, and I finally made it!

As a disclaimer, I am not a doctor, and I recognize we should take care in pseudo-diagnosing fictional characters as we don't want to perpetuate stereotypes of our neurodiverse and differently abled/people with disabilities communities. Having said that, if interpreting a character as being neurodiverse and/or differently abled/having a disability brings you comfort and joy, you should certainly do so! Canon is a sandbox. Fictional worlds and characters are meant to be engaged with for your pleasure.

I do cite a few medical graphic and their sources below. If any of those sources are problematic in any way, please let me know and I can switch out the graphic for one from a better source.

LOKI - ADHD [?]

At first glance, Loki's characterization in Thor 1, Thor 2, and Ragnarok don't seem to present him as having challenges with executive function. He appears to be able to focus and sustain focus, able to organize, and able to sustain effort and process. Loki also has exceptional memory.

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As for mood, many mood symptoms of ADHD overlap with depression, the latter of which Loki clearly has. Nevertheless, it should be noted that ADHD and depression are often comorbid. He could have both.

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While memory and effort are not concerns, Loki has consistently shown challenges with impulse control, managing frustration, and modulating emotion. A number of his most consequential choices (i.e. inadvertently directing Malekith to his mother, chasing after Sylvie, etc.) are influenced by his emotional state rather than premeditation. This may suggest that if Loki has ADHD, he leans toward Type 2: Impulsive/Hyperactive:

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His characterization in the Loki series changes somewhat to include more hyperactivity and swings between hyperfocus and difficulty regulating attention and focus. Loki gesticulates, fidgets, and moves a lot more in the series than the movies. He also talks much more quickly when excited.

Do I think these changes were intentional? I honestly have no idea. Whatever the case, I think it's lovely that the Loki who becomes the most powerful hero in the MCU is also the version that demonstrates a higher likelihood of being diagnosed with ADHD.

MOBIUS - NEUROTYPICAL / HIGHLY SENSITIVE PERSON (HSP) [?]

I think Mobius, for the most part, is neurotypical. Even with Loki being his special interest/hyperfixation, he doesn't exhibit the other symptom criteria to meet a Level 1 Autism diagnosis, an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder diagnosis, or an Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder diagnosis.

He may, however, be a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP).

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Mobius's empathy for others, perception of behavior, observation of circumstances, and deep appreciation for beauty (particularly when it comes to the beauty of people) are exceptionally strong.

NOTE: Even when the stakes are dire, he's still willing to give Ravonna and Miss Minutes the benefit of the doubt. He really is a sweetie pie. A sweetie pie who can and will slap you if you deserve it.

I think Mobius may mask his strong emotional responses regularly in order to be able function in the TVA. There were only two incidents, when he was unable to suppress his feelings, and those outbursts were remarkable:

That said, Mobius doesn't quite meet the other symptoms of HSP, which include sensitivity to stimuli, being easily startled, and aversion to violence. As we see in the series, Loki's antics don't overwhelm or startle him, and he has no issue with torture when he deems it necessary.

It is possible that Mobius may have Acquired Neurodivergence post-series as a consequence of trauma in the series finale. At present, we have nothing in canon to support this, but many fanfics show Mobius struggling to cope with the loss of Loki, his home, his family, and his identity. This severe level of loss can cause a variety of mental health conditions and disorders that may impact Mobius's future ability to function in a neurotypical way.

SYLVIE - ACQUIRED NEURODIVERGENCE [?]

I've written about Sylvie's sexuality here, and I think some (if not most) of her quirks when it comes social interaction, emotional intimacy, and physical contact may be explained by trauma. As such, I think some of her behavioral symptoms, which can be mistaken as autism, is actually the result of PTSD causing structural changes to her brain. Loki likely has this as well.

Like O.B., she is verbally blunt and appears to demonstrate lower empathy, especially with those she disagrees with.

To be clear, this doesn't mean Sylvie doesn't have empathy. She does, as can be seen in the gif above. What I mean is, her empathy and ability to demonstrate it are generally low throughout the series. This is likely a psychological defense mechanism. Having lowered empathy is advantageous if growing up in apocalypses is the only means of survival. Every friend and lover she's ever had is either dead or will die because of those apocalypses or because of who she is to the TVA.

Unlike O.B., Sylvie initiates social interactions and develops friendships more easily. Sylvie has acquaintances, if not friends, in John (McDonalds,) Eric (bartender), and Lyle (record shop). NOTE: You can tell the writer is a man when the bias in creating side characters skews male instead of female. Sylvie should at least have ONE girlfriend in her 1982 timeline, but she doesn't.

OUROBOROS (O.B.) - LEVEL 1 AUTISM [?]

Here he is! Here is our favorite neurodiverse ray of sunshine! Our autistic cinnamon roll! The MVP of season 2!

Now, I have mixed feelings regarding how people on the autism spectrum are portrayed in media. While they are often shown as socially awkward, they are also shown to be exceptionally brilliant in their area(s) of interest. This is quite flattering and often true in real life, yet I worry that this creates a stereotype that not only are all autistic people "geniuses", they are also geniuses in a way that is useful to a capitalistic society. That expectation isn't healthy and perpetuates the belief that a person is only valuable if they are useful. Further, it is a narrow portrayal of the autism spectrum. It is important to have representation across that spectrum instead of stopping at Level 1.

But I don't like being a Debbie Downer, so let's focus on the good representation that can be found in O.B.!

O.B., in a lot of ways, reminds me of Entrapta from She-Ra and the Princesses of Power. He doesn't always read social cues correctly, which often plays out as fantastic comedy relief on screen when the stakes are outrageous.

Like Entrapta, his science and engineering aptitude are nearly unmatched if not for Victor Timely. However, the hyperfocus O.B. exhibits does have negative consequences, as exemplified when he explains he lost his job and wife due to dedication in creating a TemPad prototype. Despite these losses, O.B. is resilient and looks forward to what comes next (another possible symptom of his neurodiversity).

I love that O.B.'s neurodiversity allows him to believe Loki when Loki finds him on his branched timeline with his "crazy story". It is also what allows him to see the patterns in Loki's timeslipping and propose, with confidence, that timeslipping can be controlled.

He is also a very good friend. Though he might not be the "huggy" type, he always makes an effort to find concrete solutions to big problems. I would say that O.B. is Loki's second closest friend in the series after Mobius.

I can't tell if it's O.B.'s autism or O.B.'s inner asshole that's fucking around with Loki in this scene. Not once but twice! Either way, I love it (and the fact that Loki resists the temptation to zap him back).

CASEY - LEVEL 1 AUTISIM [?]

What I appreciate about Casey is that if he is interpreted as autistic, he is not a super genius. He is still quite gifted, but I think he represents where a good number of level 1 autistics actually land in life. I feel this is a much healthier portrayal and balances out O.B.'s genius representation nicely.

NOTE: Look how cute they are! They must be protected at all costs.

I am also so happy that Casey and O.B. found friendship in each other. We have to give B-15 (Verity) credit for this. The only reason they met at all is because B-15 had the presence of mind to think of Casey to help O.B. with the Loom debacle.

Together, they become unstoppable, but there's one more friend who completes the Science Club Trio ...

VICTOR TIMELY - SPEECH IMPEDIMENT/LEVEL 1 AUTISM [?]

Since I've discussed autism interpretation and representation at length with O.B. and Casey, I'm going to concentrate on the portrayal of Victor Timely's speech impediment.

I also have mixed feelings regarding the media portrayal of people with speech impediments. This medical condition is often used as a means of showing a character is "meek" or "harmless". I don't doubt that this character feature was chosen for that exact purpose, to immediately contrast Timely against HWR in the quickest, most efficient way possible. Unfortunately, this kind of narrative "shortcut" leads to stereotyping people with speech impediments accordingly.

It's a good thing, then, that Loki series takes the time to add some depth to Timely's character. Yes, he has a speech impediment, but he is also very willful, crafty, and brave.

#loki #mobius #lokius #loki series #loki season 2 #loki meta #my meta #sylvie #ouroboros #ob #casey #victory timely #hwr #neurodiversity #neurodiverse #neurodiverse representation #speech impediment #loki analysis #my analysis

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dragonfly0808 · 6 months

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Helia: The Thesis

Kay, so, for Helia’s thesis there won’t be that many spoilers but there will be references to a big even in s3, if you haven’t read after the Eraklyon party in s3 then you run a risk of spoilers, the spoilers will mainly revolve around the changes I made to Helia’s backstory

TRIGGER WARNING: TALK OF SELF-HARM AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, IF THIS TRIGGERS YOU PLEASE SKIP THIS THESIS

First Things First

The first words I have in Helia’s character sheet are:

Sensitive artist that doesn’t kick your ass cause he choses peace.

Helia was always super interesting to me in the OG cause, in the 2000’s I honestly don’t remember many soft boys being portrayed as also being able to be badass and just super cool.

I changed quite a bit of Helia’s backstory cause in the OG we just hear that he drops out of Red Fountain and goes to art school before going back to Red Fountain with zero explanation.

There is a phrase that really inspired a lot of the changes I made to Helia’s backstory and that is: No one will ever know the violence it took to become this gentle.

Over the years I’ve learned that some of the loveliest, gentlest and kindest people are the ones who’ve hated and suffered the most in the past. And that is something that I could really see Helia being.

Helia is someone who really let him anger get the best of him in the past. In my version, Helia grew up angry due to heavy expectations of his parents and being Saladin’s grandson. He’s someone who grew up with endless anger and sadness and who had no real outlet after his art was taken away to not distract him too much from his training as Specialist and Wizard.

(Here’s where the talk of self-harm and attempted suicide starts)

Helia self-harms and tries to take his own life a year before season 2. This decision was… a tad bit drastic and to be honest it wasn’t even fully planned at first but it just made sense to me with his character.

Helia is someone who, after hitting rock bottom, seeks help and slowly starts to get better. He goes back into art to let out all of his pain, he works things out with his parents and gets his life back on track.

And it’s not like he is magically completely healed, like we see in season 3, when he has a reason, his anger can and will get the better of him and it can be scary. He has relapses when things get extreme. But he continues to heal and to grow

Helia isn’t born peaceful. He learns it. He grows into peace slowly over his year at art school where he learns to meditate and to just process his emotions in a more healthy manner and I think that makes his serene and mostly peaceful personality and thought process all the more impactful.

People can tell he’s wise and I think I mention in s2 that he just erradiates this comfort, people want to be liked by Helia.

Healing Isn’t Linear

In s3, we see Helia relapse into his self-harming habits.

This to me was important for his character because, whilst he has learned better ways to cope with his feelings, relapse is a realistic thing that can happen and doesn’t mean you’re doing horribly if that makes sense. Because healing isn’t linear. Especially with everything that happens in season 3, to me it made sense for Helia to snap both in anger and in his past self-destructive tendencies.

Helia attacks Sky when the truth of his curse comes out and we see him be ashamed of it, worried he scared Flora and telling Bloom that that isn’t who he wants to be

Helia is very conscious of his own issues and how he is/wants to be perceived. He is very conscious of when he needs help even if sometimes he still needs a little push to get said help

Something to Fight For

A big part of what helps Helia truly come into his own post s2 is figuring out what he is fighting for.

Before s2 Helia was furious because he didn’t know what to fight for, he was a Specialist mostly due to being a legacy.

He returns to Red Fountain because he always enjoyed the routine of it, but also to finally figure out what he wants to fight for.

So what does Helia fight for?

Well… I’d say that, at first he fights for his friends. He is inspired by them and wants to protect them, after that, he also fights for those who can’t protect themselves, much like his grandfather.

No longer being so pressured by his parents allows him to kind of see things like his family does and he finds that he feels the same way.

Kind of reminds me of the Argent family: We protect those who cannot protect themselves. That’s the same view of the Alarie family

Thoughts Behind his Main Relationships

Riven: Riven is Helia’s best friend and they are kind of two sides of the same coin. They both have had anger issues and, surprisingly enough, Helia was a lot more violent than Riven ever was since Riven had a better hold on his anger due to facing major consequences (*cough* *cough* his dad *cough* *cough*) but they bond over trying to better themselves.

Riven learns to meditate with Helia and occasionally even paints with him. Helia learns to fix stuff with Riven and they both love the routine that comes with being Specialists second only to Brandon so they often do work-outs and bets with each other.

Their friendship is one of very different yet similar lives. They get each other in a: we’ve both come face to face with the darkest versions of ourselves and came out on top, we’ve both hit rock bottom and we’re both working on figuring out how to be better.

They’re both very aware of their darker emotions but never judge the other for it. They both have nightmares regarding their pasts and they can open up because they know that they get one another.

Flora: They’re relationship is just… ufff. I love them so much.

To me, Flora and Helia have both been through a lot and have both learned to make light of the darkness in different ways. They are both on their healing journey and support each other unconditionally.

They are soft souls that have been hit time and time again but have refused to become harsh.

Their relationship is one of complete trust and support. They know what they’ve been through but never fear being pitied or feared by the other because they’re the same in a way.

Their relationship is ‘we’re both pulling ourselves and you make me feel like all of it will never drown me and I know that my soul and yours have known each other for a very long time.’

They find comfort, understanding and safety in their love.

They know they can trust each other with the darkest parts of themselves because they won’t lose them, they are very much connected in a way that is hard to even comprehend.

Their love is a soft one

Musa: These two are platonic soulmates.

They’re the artists of the group, the ones that communicate better on a page or when speaking in prose, they’re the ones that will spill their guts out in the middle of the night with a pen in their hands

They’re the artists that make art not just because they like to but because it’s crucial to their survival and an integral part of who they are.

They both struggle a bit to be vulnerable, Musa more so than Helia, but find that they can lower their guard with each other because they get what it’s like to finally find your voice after years of bearing the stifling forced silence that comes with not being heard by your own family

They just make sense to me as unexpected platonic soulmates

Who is Helia in this Rewrite?

Helia is a young legacy who has suffered the weight of his heritage. He is someone who used to be incredibly lost and angry at the universe and turned that hatred and frustration inward and into self-destructive tendencies.

He is someone who has grown incredibly and learned peace, learned self-love and learned vulnerability. He is someone incredibly aware of who he is and who he wants to be.

He is someone who took a long time to figure out what he is fighting for, what he wants to live for and become. But, once he figured it out, he will not go back, he will forge ahead, not forgetting his past but not letting it drag him down, allowing it to be a lesson

Helia is at his core, an artist: someone incredibly caring, soft and who wants to help people, even if it isn’t as a warrior, he wants to make sure others don’t have to go through the pain that he and his friends have gone through. He is someone who will fight to protect the vulnerable.

He is someone who learned to wring sunlight out of the darkest parts of himself.

Helia is a soft soul, the warm side of a warrior.

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Masterlist

Helia Moodboard

Helia’s Instagram

Helia and Riven Moodboard

Flora and Helia Moodboard

Musa and Helia Moodboard

#winx club #winx rewrite #winx #winx headcannon #winx fanfic #winx headcanons #winx helia #winx flora #winx club rewrite #winx specialists #veiled wings and shattered panoramas

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torturedtraveler · 2 months

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normal people

I would like to start this with a blog post I saw and really liked the other day.

“Normal people is about vulnerability and the importance of intimacy. It explores miscommunication and the power unsaid words have on people. Such a deeply emotional, sensitive, gentle and beautifully written and directed story about two young adults - who find such enormous solace in one another, that cannot be found within anyone else they meet throughout their lives. Connell and Marianne are two twin flames who fall in and out each other lives, mostly because of their lack of clearness and transparency which feels frustrating and even overwhelming at times. What often happens is that Connell and Marianne overthink almost everything, but don’t express their thoughts because they think they have the other person’s thoughts already figured out. But thinking is not the same as communicating. They get so caught up in their assumptions and thoughts that completely forget to do the simplest thing, which is - to ask. Although they have a lot of misunderstandings the love they feel for each other is terrifyingly unmatched. All throughout this novel it becomes clear that the two characters have a really unique and special spark, they and their relationship is complex, but between them exists a certain normalcy that cannot be understood by others. Connell and Marianne constantly try out things that make them feel weird or normal, but towards the conclusion of the novel it appears that they have accepted that their favorite version of normal is the version that exists within their relationship, when they’re with each other. This story explores perfectly but in a very realistic way, the importance of growing up and finding love within ourselves and the people around us. Normal People shows us how societal expectations and insecurities can affect us and our relationships forever.” @iwishyouroses

Very short paragraph yet sums up the novel so well. It gave me a sort of framework on understanding the novel better.

The major theme of the story is self discovery, is growing up, is changing, as a person and in life. One of the major thing that they focus on is the parallel between high school them and university them. The author created a stark contrast between the characters by creating a parallel between them in two different time periods. In high school, Connell was majorly popular while Marianne was widely hated. Connell constantly had a group of friends around him and Marianne did not. She was a loner, hated not only by her peers but also her family. But everything completely flipped in university. Marianne “got into college and got pretty”, she has a group of friends around her all the time and everyone found her so likable. Connell on the other hand, did not have many friends, he felt as though he had no one to talk to and constantly felt very lonely.

Despite everything, they have always been around one another. They always have each other. It seems as though they cannot stay away from each other and show up in each other’s lives no matter what. But throughout the story, even though they were extremely intimate with each other, and really only enjoyed each other’s companies, it feels as though they are not that close to each other. The major issue that exists between the both of them is the lack of communication. It shocks me how throughout their years together, the miscommunication has not frustrated them so much that they feel the need to kill each other, because I most certainly have, wanted to strangle the both of them.

We see so much of their individual thought processes throughout the story, but they have never communicated that to each other. It often feels as though we are the Gods, looking into their lives constantly, being able to understand what they were thinking, but somehow the two of them who are in each other’s lives do not know what the other is thinking. It’s so fucking frustrating.

My take on the reason behind their miscommunication, is the insecurity that is rooted in the both of them. They live in their heads most of the time and overthink everything.

Marianne’s insecurity is reflected in her crave for love and affection from Connell. Connell at one point in her life was the only person that could “stand” her and “love” her, she wants to please him and would do whatever she could to make him happy. My interpretation is that, she is so scared of Connell leaving her, literally so fucking terrified to the point where she would do anything in desperation to make him stay. She has on multiple occasions asked Connell to act violently towards her during intimate scenes, to which Connell refused. Even in other romantic relationships she was involved in, she wanted her partner to hit her during intimate scenes. It’s like giving others a sense of control over her body or a sense of dominancy makes Marianne feels safe, that they won’t leave her. It may be her coping mechanism for her deep rooted insecurity.

Connell has never connected deeply with anyone in his life. Even in high school, when he was surrounded by people, by friends, he never felt like he could talk to anyone. Until he started interacting with Marianne. Marianne became his dock, the person he could always go to whenever he wants, he knew she would always be waiting for him in the same place. But he was scared, he was scared that if people knew about them it would ruin his reputation. He asked Marianne to keep it a secret from the start, and Marianne obeyed, seeing that he was the only person that would actually talk to her. He was so scared of how people would see him and what people would talk about him. He felt safe with Marianne, safe as in he knew that no matter what he does, she wouldn’t leave, so even if he knew that he was hurting her feelings, he kept on doing it. When his friends told him that everyone knew he was romantically involved with her, he was shocked, but also surprised that no one called him out or treated him differently. It was then that he realized, no one really gives a shit about what he does. He felt especially lonely in college after the fallout with Marianne, because he is no longer in a familiar place with familiar people, and there is no pristine reputation to keep up, because no one knew who he was. Even though in college they reconciled, and Marianne was involved in his life again, his mental health kept deteriorating. His entire life he never had a clear sense of who he is, an identity, a mental image. He is confused with himself, this confusion only intensified in college, when he was away from his friends in high school, his mom in Sligo, everything that was familiar in his life away from him. He not only felt confused with himself, or lonely, he felt like he didn’t fit in with people, in his course or in college in general, all these factors piled on his mental burden and he couldn’t take it anymore, he went to a counselor, and was later diagnosed with depression.

The most beautiful and precious thing about this story is the “salvation” between them. How they both were in a way each other’s “anchor”, each other’s “light”, each other’s “safe place”, away from the messes that were Marianne’s family and her relationships, and Connell’s mental health. I would like to point out a view of mine, is that nobody should be anyone’s salvation in life, because depending on someone else to heal your trauma or wounds does not work and often leads to disasters. When I say that they are each other’s “salvation”, I mean that they make each other feel better, and that they somehow always end up with each other when they are at their lowest. For example, Connell was there when Marianne ended things horribly with Jamie, or near the end, when her brother broke her nose, and the first person Marianne could think of was Connell, and he came to her “rescue”. Or when Connell felt depressed and Marianne would be the only one there for him.

To end this, I would like to add one more point to the blog post I started this with, that there’s always a certain person in our lives that would change our lives forever. In this case, Marianne was the one in Connell’s life and Connell was the one in Marianne’s life. Though this person may not stay in our lives forever, they will leave a mark in our lives permanently and we will always think back to them at moments of our lives, how great they made us feel, how they broke our hearts at one point, or just reminiscing the times we spent together. We went through so many ups and downs with them, we flipped our hearts inside out and showed them our most vulnerable side, and most importantly, we loved them with every inch of our hearts. But as we grow up, we realize, some people just aren’t meant to stay in our lives. And we learn not only to let go of them, but ourselves as well because it’s only then that we can truly move on.

#normal people #marianne sheridan #connell waldron #connell x marianne

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answer2jeff · 4 months

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the fatherhood theory:

my take on lip gallagher finding purpose in parenthood.

First things first, I quickly want to congratulate the writers for beautifully articulating the accuracy of Lip's initial reaction to Freddy's birth.

Tami had an extremely complicated birth that resulted in her requiring surgery. Lip, both as a new father and as a boyfriend, was legitimately terrified. He couldn't decide if he should stay with Tami or their son. His thought process probably included the possibility of the mother of his child suffering, further trailing to the fear of fatherly absence. Naturally, considering Lip's lack of a genuine father figure, contributing anything remotely resembling neglect or failure to accommodate to his son feels like the worst and most unforgivable thing he could ever do.

Secondly, I want to say that although Tami is quite different compared to Lip's other love interests, I think she was relatively realistic at the time. She has drive and compassion, and Lip loves a good sarcastic girl who affectionately ridicules the guy she loves. She's abrasive in a way that is more meant to establish her intelligence rather than actually put others around her down. Tami is also terrible at accepting criticism, but doesn't respond in the explosive anger that Lip does. She's more passive aggressive than, well...aggressive aggressive. Even though it's not quite the healthiest, it's much more flexible than rage.

In short, Lip sees a lot of himself in Tami. But, she's a more put together, determined version of him. She's the star that Lip never really turned out to be, even if she's not absolutely perfect. Their relationship is accurate for the conditions of the show (and Lip's life.) Tami doesn't give Lip a lot of opportunities to self sabotage because she's pretty much dubbed herself the lead of their relationship.

(not ignoring the fact that she said he'd be a shitty father by the way. that crushed my soul and i'll never forgive her but that's besides the point.)

Having to decide to let professionals (doctors and nurses, who he notoriously does not trust (rooted by capitalistic healthcare environments and the need for independence due to his childhood trauma), try their best to help Tami when she was literally blue and unresponsive, was difficult and extremely scary.

However, once Freddy has been properly cleaned and prepared to be held by his father, Lip suddenly finds the answer to so many of his interpersonal questions.

"I seem to have ruined everything I was once good at. Is there anything I won't automatically ruin just because I don't think I deserve it?"

Fatherhood.

"Would I be any better at this than my parents were?"

Yes, with practice.

"Would I be able to break the cycle?"

Yes, with love.

"Is it necessary for me to feel so deeply about the world?

Yes. Even if it's painful.

"And was it ever worth hiding that with anger?"

To some extent, yes. You wanted to protect yourself.

"Am I, deep down, past my inevitable quickness to rage, a good person?"

Yes. You always have been.

In hindsight, his excitement for becoming a dad seems kind of obvious considering his overjoyed and emotional reaction. But I think we can dig deeper beyond this surface level impression. Even if it's genuine and ultimately very good at showing Lip's love for his son. Something that I think really prepared Lip for the complications of parenthood was the time period during his time as a college student taking care of Liam.

He'd been surrounded by family members for his entire life that he did not trust. When Fiona, his beacon of support throughout his whole childhoo despite their complicated sibling relationship, made such a grave mistake that reflected neglect, Lip felt unsafe. Both Frank and Monica were typical offenders of drug and alcohol abuse. And they regularly dabbled in allowing these substance issues to affect their children.

Now there was really nobody in his family he could trust. Lip would have to re-learn how to fend for himself and his family. He's had plenty of experience, but he had a support system. Even if it contained his own siblings who lived the same abusive life as he did. But now that he didn't trust anyone around Liam, he literally had to become his primary caregiver.

"You're the closest thing to a dad we've ever had," said Ian Gallagher.

Becoming Freddy's father was the love that Lip needed in his life. Girlfriends are replaceable. Lip has proven this. But he always believed that once you become a father, you do not have the right to back out. And he'd always hold himself to that standard.

This is your life now. Do it right, or go to hell.

People like Lip need to have people in their lives who unconditionally rely on them. His siblings have chosen many times (and rightfully of course) to handle personal matters without Lip's advice. He hasn't gotten to feel as needed or as important as he deserved to be. Having a child, though unexpected, was the missing piece to the endless puzzle that was his life's purpose.

Lip's desire to be a good father not only stemmed from the failure of his own parents, but the fact that guiding his siblings through life was the one thing that everyone around him that everyone was convinced he couldn't do better than anyone else. (Personally, I think Fiona did a great job as an older sister. I'm more speaking from the perspectives and opinions of his siblings.)

Lip will feel love for himself through Teddy. Once he can finally succeed for the long term, he will find peace.

Not to say that he's automatically perfect, because he's not (and no one else is), but he's ready to take on the challange.

Freddy is the love of Lip's life.

And he always will be.

#lip gallagher #dad!lip #jeremy allen white #shameless #freddy gallagher #tami tamietti #shamless us #fiona gallagher #ian gallagher #the gallaghers #the fatherhood theory #i love him your honor #he's gonna be a great dad #i'm so proud of him AND tami.

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moonlit-positivity · 5 months

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Things I wish someone had told me before I started my healing journey:

- This shit is HARD. This shit takes TIME. You cannot just talk about it once and then move on, like there is a whole ass process behind this shit and it actually takes a lot of time and patience???? What the fuck.

- Denial is a natural part of the process. Resistance is a natural part of the process. Avoidance and escapism are a natural part of the process. Dissociation is a natural part of the process. All of these things are natural defense mechanisms our bodies and brains do to keep us protected and safe from danger. The sooner you learn this the easier it gets to find compassion for yourself.

- Do not tear yourself down for the maladaptive things you had to do to find peace before this, do not tear yourself down ever for needing to do things that helped you survive, you are entitled to your anger and escapism it is your birthright for simply being born to a world hell bent on destroying you from a young age.

- THE GOAL OF HEALING SHOULD BE ABOUT YOU. YOU CANNOT HEAL YOURSELF FOR THE SAKE OF SOMEONE ELSE. that means if someone is pressuring you to heal, it's not your time yet. You will be resentful and not open and receptive to the journey, bc they have made it about them and not about you. This means that if you are choosing to heal in order to heal someone else, it will not work the way you think it will. You will be resentful when the person you want to fix is not able to match your changing energy. This means that if you put another person's wants and needs above your own while healing, you will neglect your true self. The entire process of healing is a process you enter BECAUSE YOU WANT TO, BECAUSE YOU TRULY NEED THE GROWTH- PERIOD. BECAUSE YOU GENUINELY DESERVE A BETTER HEADSPACE, YOU GENUINELY DESERVE A BETTER OUTLOOK ON YOUR SELF WORTH AND SELF ESTEEM, AND YOU CANT BE FORCED TO DO THAT IF YOU DO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU ARE READY TO DO SO, AND YOU ALSO CANNOT DO THAT WITH AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE TO CHANGE OR FIX SOMEONE ELSE IN ORDER TO FULFILL YOUR CHILDHOOD DESIRES OF BEING LOVED. The good thing tho, is that this is a lesson you automatically learn the more you heal!

- Empathy and compassion are not always inherent to learn but can be taught through the kindness and compassion that others give to you, so it's a good idea to find people who can fill your cup with these qualities but who also have great boundaries so they can properly help you while maintaining their own self care.

- There is in fact a better way to do things, even if its really hard and seemingly impossible to learn- just being exposed to new concepts can be enough to jumpstart better habits

- That being said tho, things do not change overnight. Things change when you are ready for them to change.

- contrary to popular belief you do not actually have to do the coping skills exactly 100% correctly in order for them to work, you can absolutely give some wiggle room to incorporate your own twist to them and find ways to make them your own versions

- your emotions are not always the problem, it's how you handle them that counts. Every emotion has a purpose. Your negative emotions are precious parts of you that just want to be held and listened to. The sooner you learn this, the easier your life will become. Your anger, jealousy, bitterness, they all have a function, to tell you when you are hurt and in need of connection and communication with those you deeply care for. Take the time out to learn how to care for and handle your emotions and it will teach you more about yourself than you could ever dream of.

- how you talk to yourself during moments of panic, distress, vulnerabilities, and darkness, makes all the difference in the world.

- healing has its own language and eventually you will be able to tell when someone is putting in the work or not, you will absolutely get to a point where you can immediately spot the red flags in others around you

- gentle parenting videos are goated for quick reparenting tools

- journaling doesn't always have to be writing pen to paper, journaling can also be venting to a friend/private space, drawing doodles, venting out loud to yourself, or writing in code (for when you are too afraid, fearful, or paranoid to talking about what you went through but everyone is screaming "journaling!" at you as if that's gonna magically solve all your fear)

- there are gonna be times that absolutely break your spirit. There are gonna be times when you're crying so hard that you just want it to end, times when you might just find yourself screaming to a Baptist Mass Choir recording of Order My Steps on repeat while praying to a God you don't even believe in, because this shit is so absolutely batshit insane that you can't help but throw your middle finger to God and ask his bitch ass why the absolute fuck did you put me here in this bullshit and expect me to be okay with that?! What the absolute fuck is wrong with you you piece of shit?! And that's a perfectly 150% fine and completely 150% normal part of the process too.

- there is always. Always. Always. More work to do. You will think you finished processing something and then 10 more things will pop up after that. It's exhausting and this is why you feel so drained all the time.

- You will most definitely need to backtrack. You can process something to the point that you thought you understood how you felt about it and then 2 weeks/3months/10 years later it will hit you in a completely different context and then you will need to go back and find new pieces you never even saw before. This shit is a never ending, life long, stream of consciousness and it never. Fucking. Ends.

- LEARN HOW TO TAKE A BREAK. FOR FUCKS SAKE LEARN HOW TO FORCE YOURSELF TO TAKE A FUCKING BREAK. YOU CANNOT BE DOING THIS SHIT 24/7 LIKE JESUS FUCKIG CHRIST TAKE A BREAAKKKK.

- there are a lot of healing & emotional work videos on insta and tiktok from a wide variety of creators, some will be trauma informed and educational, but some may be spiritualistic or opinions from people on the same type of healing as you are. Some of those opinions you will love, and some you will not. The beauty is that you can find a community in these places but please remember your boundaries bc social media can be equally as toxic as it can be helpful.

- tbh the same can be said for things like therapy, self help books, etc, because not every recommended book or therapy out there is gonna be your cup of tea, some of it might piss you off where others might find it useful and helpful, and thats 100% normal and okay too.

- there might be a time when you have to cut people off, people you never even imagined yourself leaving or separating from, family, friends, jobs, etc. in order to keep yourself safe. This will be some of the hardest shit you will ever have to do.

- two things at the core of healing: grief and safety. How to mourn the great disappointments you've been through, and how to keep yourself protected & afloat while mourning.

- there will be times when shit don't make no goddamn sense at all. Like, none. That's normal.

- greatest life hack there is: focus on what you can control. Can you control it? You can change it. Can you control someone else? Their thoughts, words, and actions? No. But you can control yours.

- venting is actually so healthy. So so so very healthy. Find good places to vent.

#healing #recovery #ptsd #inner child healing #inner child #trauma #boundaries #self worth #self esteem #shadow work #cptsd #abuse #healing abuse #emotions #emotional work #emotional intelligence

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🌸 Thankfully, I was able to spend my birthday meaningfully, so came here late 😭😭

Once again, thank you so much for congratulating me on my birthday, FEARNOT 🥹🥹🥹🥹🩷

Wow!!!

I'm 26 years old!!!

I've already been an idol for half my life!! 🤔 LOL

Very surprising...

It's amazing... When I first started as an idol, I never imagined what the future brings. I always thought life was unpredictable, but I've been able to continue this far because of the people around me who always support me. I'm so grateful for that :)

When I was young, my birthday was a happy day when I could receive gifts and eat what I liked. It was a day when I felt like the arrow was pointing towards me, so I always eagerly waited for my birthday feeling excited.

After turning 20, I started to feel a bit anxious about birthdays... 😅

Honestly, I felt a little scared that my time as an idol was getting shorter...lol

And recently, especially this birthday, it became a birthday with a slightly different meaning for me.

I realized that birthdays are not only about receiving congratulatory greetings, but also about being able to express gratitude to the people around me.

It's a bit embarrassing, but for the first time in my life (excluding my school days), I wrote letters to each my family members and gave them as gifts for my birthday this year!

I felt grateful knowing that my family was preparing gifts because we could spend my birthday together with them after a long time. I wanted to express my gratitude to them as well.

As I wrote about how grateful I am for giving birth to me and raising me for 26 years, many emotions have overwhelmed me, so I was writing the letters while holding back tears... 😅

And seeing my parents shedding tears while reading the letters that i gave, I felt a mix of emotions.

At a young age, they've been worried endlessly about their daughter entering this world, living far away where she isn't within easy reach, likely feeling lonely... I felt sorry, but still, seeing my parents shedding tears while sincerely supporting my dreams made me think this way.

Latelt, I've actually been feeling that there would come a time when the effort I keep putting in for myself will reach its limit— like the effort, if it's all just for myself, might exhaust me, reaching some sort of emotional limit. But seeing my parents, I started to feel that maybe working hard for someone else could be another way.

If I think that all my efforts are for myself only, I feel like I might lose strength when I detach from that passion, and it would be even harder when results don't come. But when I think about supporting my parents who sincerely cheer me on, and for FEARNOTs who support me as passionately, and for the members and staff who share the same dream, strangely, I feel energized.

These are just my thoughts, but I believe that to be able to continue something for a long time, perhaps this kind of mindset is also necessary :)

I received so much love from many people on my birthday this year. It made me truly happy to realize that there are so many FEARNOTs around the world celebrating my birthday and supporting me.

The online world continues expanding and may not always spread positivity every day, but I'm still grateful for the internet because it allows me to know that there are people who like me and celebrate my birthday. 😊

I remember my mom saying once on my birthday, "I hope you become an idol who, just like your name which holds the meaning "may good things bloom," receive congratulations from many people.' Following my mom's wish, I was able to become an idol who is indeed loved by many people.

I have experienced many failures and I'm learning various things as a person, but I've come to think that I'm happy with who I am now. Everyone has imperfections and areas where they are still immature, but I believe that's how we can continue to grow.

Im still in the process of learning a lot about myself, and every day, I strive to be a better version of myself than I was yesterday, continuing to reflect and improve along the way.

The world may sometimes be noisy with negativity, but I still believe that there are many happy, positive, joyful, and precious things in this world. Despite its flaws, I still find this world beautiful.

It's not all good, but it's not all bad either.

I wish to be the kind of person in your life who brings even a little bit of positivity and goodness. :)

Thank you for celebrating my 26th birthday with me, and please continue to support me in the future as well. ☺️

#le sserafim #weverse #le sserafim sakura

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good morninggg Ive been too shy to ask this but,,, what is the deal w the longnecked anime boy i know nothng about final fantasy what is his significance 2 the plot and other characters :0

HIII good morning my friend, and dont feel shy!! i would love to talk about him!!

for background, the world he lives in is the past version of the world the story mostly takes place in! he belongs to a race we call the ancients. the ancients all did their part to better their society together. everyone had their own place. when you feel you served your place in the world, you die and go back into the magic source of the world, aether. its regarded as a very beautiful process. everyone as well all wear masks and the same robes, individualism isn’t exactly important to them

but going back to my special guy!! his name is hermes, a lot of people in ancient times use names of figures in greek mythology. he works at a research facility called elpis, at the facility they create and research creatures others had made with aether to see if they are fit to live in the world. hermes is a overseer, and loves to make creatures who can fly. apart of his job is killing creatures who have issues, due to his society’s view of all creatures being made to better society. if a creature can’t fly, or is aggressive, they are put down.

hermes feels that it is cruel to kill these creatures instead of taking care of them, seeing them as equals to him and humanity, which makes him incredibly depressed and he begins looking towards answers of what other peoples on other planets and universes live for. he makes meteion with a new magic type he had created, based on flowers that were found before the ancients had come to elpis to set up their research, dynamis. dynamis is based on emotions of others around them. he makes meteia, which is multiple of the blue bird he had made, to explore the universe for the answer to why we live. the little girl he is seen with often is named meteion, she is the first one he made that has free will.

there are 14 ‘rulers’ in ancient society, being the best to handle the aspect they are given to oversee. the person in charge of overseeing life is given the title fandaniel, and the person who had the former title fandaniel had decided to pass on, that their work was done, and that hermes should fill their role as fandaniel. hermes doesn’t really want to. he feels his place is best on elpis, as he is waiting for his report of the meaning of life from the meteia, and he is a bit secretive about it, since he is worried that his negative feelings make him a mistake.

lord it gets complicated. but thats a overview. the meteia comes back to report to him there is nothing out there in the universe, every society destroyed themselves, and killed each other. the meteia wants to destroy everyone to save them from prolonged suffering, since she can feel the emotions of every creature she has ever met. hermes sets up a test to see if humanity should continue, he sends meteia back into the universe to destroy them, that if humanity has enough willpower and hope they will be able to overcome the meteia. he wipes his memories and everyone else’s of that encounter and gets incredibly depressed afterwards thinking that he had killed meteia.

he takes the title fandaniel due to his guilt, never wanting to make the mistake of killing another creature.

also he becomes like this later.

#oh yeah he can change his form btw! or body hop.#ffxiv spoilers #sorry i died. going into work

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tarotnoob · 2 years

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PAC: BTS lyric-inspired spiritual advice

Choose a lyric [lyrics are English translations of Korean verses]

"We used to walk towards the same place, but here becomes our last. We used to talk about forever, but now we mercilessly destroy each other. I thought we dreamed the same dream, but now the dream truly became just a dream." - Outro: Tear, rapline

2. "Would I have been different if I had chosen a different path? If I had paused and looked back. What will I get to see at the end of this path where you will be standing?" - Road/Path, BTS

3. "Though I'm okay, I'm not okay. Though I've been telling myself that I'm used to this, it hurts every time as if it's the first time." - Jamais Vu, JK, J-hope, Jin

Choose lyrics/song/image & scroll for message!

Pile 1: Tear

What I see for you, is you being propelled forward by your own doing. You are following your own unique path. And you will be rewarded for your determination.

What I can say is that the most rewarding path for you will be following your heart. It doesn't matter what other people think of your dreams or even what you think of your dreams, what matters is that you absolutely follow your passion and what you want to do. I don't think it will be the easiest journey for you, because there might be some difficult times that you'll have to get past first, but eventually you will move into smoother waters. And, for that, you will receive some kind of abundance. This could come in the form of material wealth, but it likely will also lead to it very mature relationship.

What you will personally grow from your life journey is a sense of calm, emotional maturity, emotional contentment. Being able to come to a place where you can be compassionate for other people who have gone through a difficult time similar to you. Also, no matter what or whatever you go through, this won't essentially change who you are at the core. You are a good and caring person. And, at the end, you will find that even the challenges that came your way, were part of the process to elevate you into something higher. Essentially, the end of the journey, is that king of cups.

You'll be able to look back at the past and appreciate the version of yourself that had to endure and also the people who helped you along the way. And what you received in terms of reward, you'll be better able to appreciate it because you worked toward it. And because you also remember what it was like to have lack in your life.

So, essentially you gain a lot of maturity and wisdom through difficult and challenging experiences. You're able to turn anything dark into something light and positive. You're able to let go of any bitterness or hurt, and be able to look at things from a more spiritual, higher level perspective.

I think even if there are times you felt frustrated with other people or yourself, there will come a point when you actually have a lot of empathy for your past self and for other people, even if they caused you a difficult time. Because you'll realize that everybody struggles. And, you don't necessarily have to forgive everything, but you can come to a perspective where there's more of an understanding objectively of why people do what they do.

In particular for you, you might have a special affinity for dogs or owls or these could be your spirit totems. You might also soon be going on in independent journey that's an actual physical trip to somewhere, you could be going alone or it's a new journey for you that will result in some type of material abundance that you haven't necessarily experienced before. This could be in the form of a new job.

And also whether it's actual people, it does seem like you have those that are going to help you along this path as companions. They could be guides, they could be friends, they could be random people that come into your life just when you need someone to move you forward into a different transition in life. But, there's a lot of love and empathy and understanding coming through for this pile, what makes me think of a very mature and wise person, who would be a great person to talk to when you need someone to really hear you. Somebody very kind and generous with their time, someone patient.

I think the cards want you to aspire to be this type of person and to look at your journey, even the tough parts, and reflect on them with not what you could have had or what should have been or how other people have it better, but simply that life is complex and everyone lives different experiences, but you're solely responsible for your own journey and what you make of it and also how you facilitate others and give back the same type of help that you might have received. Rather than tear anybody down, come to a place where you would support them instead of envy them or begrudge them. And, like I said, for some of you along this journey, the endpoint will be a really special relationship. Whether it's platonic or romantic, I think some really significant relationships for you will come out of this.

I also feel like physically you'll probably experience some type of glow up or when you receive some type of material abundance, it's perfectly okay to indulge in a shopping spree or a new hairstyle or some jewelry or whatever makes you feel powerful or pretty or handsome or a combination of both. It will probably come at a time where you're feeling really powerful inside and you want the outside to reflect that transformation you feel happening inside. Granted, some of it is just going to come naturally and you are going to glow and there will be people who are attracted to your light because they can sense something special about you.

You might even find that people come up to you and tell you secrets or their life story just because they sense some type of vibe about you that they can share that stuff and feel safe. So It's really important that if you are someone's safe space, that you are respectful of what they share because they see something inside you that makes them want to trust you or open up and you have to treat that very carefully. Because even if that could potentially be scary or annoying at times, that's a gift. It says something about your energy, so instead of getting perturbed, take it as a compliment.

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Pile 2: Path/Road

Wow, that is some strong fire energy. I want to first read you the blooming card, because I think it sums up the situation pretty well. It says it's your time to shine, and you're coming into your own with the assistance of goddess of the underworld and prosperity Aeracura. You're being recognized for the beautiful so you are - get ready to blossom.

This is a little similar to pile one in the sense that it seems like people are going to experience changes in transitions in the near future, but it's going to push you towards some type of abundance or spiritual glow up. I don't actually foresee that the changes are drastic even with the tower here. I'm just seeing really powerful changes. This might come in the form of travel or relocation, extreme creative inspiration, crazy good luck and good fortune. We have the wheel of fortune and this blooming card both point huge change of luck and a period of abundance. The tower could represent just how drastic the change is. But, I think it also means that an old part of your life will be breaking away. What I kind of see it as let's say there's a comment going through space and there's this frozen bit of dirt that's sort of weighing you down and it just kind of falls off, and you even feel an extra burst of energy.

I also see that the tower might be here to show how drastic the change is for you compared to the previous phase that you were in where I think maybe things hadn't changed for a longer period of time, things were a bit more fixed in nature, and now opportunities will come your way to push you out of that stagnation or a lack of inspiration. There's a lot here about either needing to take action or choosing to be a lot more proactive about the things going on in your life. I see you really harnessing the powers that you have in order to make life more an adventure for you.

I think that there will be a lot more fun. I think there could totally definitely be travel experiences for you in the near future. I think you'll be feeling a lot more confident and even maybe kind of sexy or just be feeling yourself a lot more. Not for the purpose of trying to prove anything to others, but because you're going to feel like you want to do more, you want things to change, you want to explore things that are new and different. There's a sense of curiosity as well like instead of what can you do, what can't you do.

I think it's pretty straightforward here, it's that things are kind of going to explode. Basically your life is going to be one big firework for the foreseeable future. It might not maintain forever, but it is going to be a really nice ride for an extended period of time.

You could also say that you might be transforming at this point from a knight into a king. This could be you leveling up in some type of skill, it could be that you get a promotion, it could be that you are experiencing a significant transition in life such as high school to college or college to job or single to dating or dating to engaged. I'm just feeling like things are going to get bigger or going to get more or going to change in terms of how big the results will be when you put effort into something.

I feel like there is a lot more willing to take risks for you at this time. I feel like you're a lot less willing to settle. I feel like you'll want to reach for as much as possible.

For some of you, you could have a lot of fire in your chart. Especially if you have Sagittarius. But the wheel of Fortune can be any of the fixed signs as well.

Yeah I just see you taking charge a lot more and I feel like that is the biggest change in your life that's coming up. You're going to feel like super powerful and ready to conquer anything. A lot more willing to get out there and travel or do things that you want to do just because you have a passion for them. I feel like some type of cycle has ended for you and a whole new chapter is beginning where I think things that you actually wanted or imagined possible, as long as in the past cycle that you put effort into a specific goal, whatever payout you were expecting even if it's unknown, is going to end up being way more than you ever could have expected. Like imagine what you imagine times 3. Like when you hit the jackpot and then you get the special little bonus thing that adds an extra 500 bucks. It's like that.

What I will tell you is that perhaps just the tail end of the cycle or the very beginning of the new cycle could have some ups and downs in terms of transition. Just like you know when you move houses or apartments, there's that part where you have to pack and you have to get it there and you have to set up and you have to set up all of your utilities, there could be a couple of little glitches like that that are very temporary but they aren't even really part of the cycle. Those are just things you have to do. It's not really included as part of the package. The package is everything that comes after that when you get settled into the new cycle. So don't focus on those things if they happen when you open up to a new change in your life. Thank further ahead, have more of a vision of the future and what will happen a few months down the road after this change.

Blooming is the idea of things gradually getting bigger and better so keep that in mind. It's not going to hit at once it's going to progressively grow level by level.

Okay and this is just coming through, as they say on YouTube lol, but I'm really drawn to the staff being held by the figures but I was looking at wheel of Fortune and how on the compass or whatever you want to call that, I'm most drawn to that north south line or you could say the 12 and the 6 but I'm reading this as North node and South Node.

Even the booming card has this design behind it that almost looks like a ferris wheel, so we have another type of wheel. Where things are going to change. I also feel like again since the south node is about your comfort zone, you're going to be pushed more in the direction of your north node. So you might want to look into that on your chart and kind of get an understanding of what you can expect. That's interesting for me because my south node is actually in Sagittarius. So perhaps your north or south node are in Sagittarius, too. There could also be something significant for you with your Jupiter sign or your ninth house placement. Of course besides the material abundance and all of that, you could be feeling a lot more spiritually inclined, like a lot more enlightenment. Maybe more moments of clarity for you, about life or things you want, or about yourself or other people. What I'm drawn to in the tower card as well is if you look closely you can see these blue skies through the windows of the tower. So I think that is what's coming for you, even if you might still be in a place of letting go of these last little bits of things that you don't need, but your soon-to-be destination is that clear blue sky.

I should also point out that there are lots of stars in the sky on this tower card and the blooming card makes me think of it of a combination of the star and the hermit because she's caring the lantern like the traditional hermit card does but there are lots of stars and even the star within the lantern on the hermit always makes me think of the star or Aquarius card. So it could be that this is movement toward some type of goal, but that makes sense also if you're being pushed toward your north node. And the hermit is also about that spiritual introspection.

So you could be coming out of some type of hermit mode for sure and then into something that feels completely different from that, completely out of your comfort zone. So again really I recommend for this pile to look into where the nodes are currently and look into your own nodes and consider if you have done enough or are currently moving into the direction of your north node qualities.

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Pile 3: jamais vu

This is the most chaotic pile in terms of how the cards were coming out, so where to start. It's the only pile I clarified because it was just so wacky to me.

What I will say first are the influences that I can detect planetary wise at least for this pile. Although Mars seems to continue to have a lot of power during this time of the year, I'm also seeing Saturn or Capricorn energy, Aries, Sagittarius. The previous pile also had Sagittarius influence coming through. I will try to put this generally because I think this pile probably includes a couple different scenarios unlike the other ones that were fairly straightforward.

One scenario is working towards something, it could be a material goal or a spiritual goal. But there is work being done toward a state of emotional contentment or work being done that is a part of some type of goal or dream.

Another part of the message is some challenges on your healing journey. It could represent what led to the healing journey and any type of challenges or fighting, especially if it involved relationships. So, I see some healing from that.

And again I see that because so we have this beautiful Hawaiian goddess laka and this card talks about how the type of abundance that you will be rewarded with in terms of karma, will have to do more with love and relationships. But, what clarified her is the four of wands, which is that joy and soulmate or wedding or celebration. But it also came out with the devil.

So, a couple of situations could be a lot of your healing involved recovering from negative relationships or having a lot of difficulty with relationships throughout your life so far. In particular, you could also have a lot of doubts about love and relationships, so you have been spending time healing that part of your yourself that is skeptical about love or is skeptical about finding the right person for you.

I do feel like for specific people there could be those of you who might be trying to reconcile a relationship. Because I do see conflict and maybe petty fighting of some sort, and then the temperance is here to seek a balance with that. They're also both number fives. So, for this group in particular either you already have been or will soon experience a pretty big change, and the change might kind of feel a bit troublesome as shikamaru would say.

I just feel probably the message is going to be something like you haven't had a lot of luck in love but guess what pretty soon I feel like you might have a bit more luck in that area. Specifically, some of you might also have a Saturn in a fire sign. Or, you could be meeting or have dealt with a Capricorn. I don't think that this would be a situation where the bad partner was a Capricorn though statistically that's possible, if you are going to meet someone, for some of you it could very well be a person with a Capricorn placement in their big three.

I don't like to always assume that just because the devil is here that it means that, it can also stand for person that is a Capricorn.

I'm focusing on relationships and love because that card came out but of course that can also be self-love. And there could be a lot of healing and spiritual skill work that has gone into moving through tribulations and coming into a place where you feel more joyful and full of love and ready to share that love and light. Whereas before, that might have been a difficult thing for you to not feel better or be stuck in the past in some way. And I would expect that journey to be rather long.

If we throw away relationships and you're not interested in that, it could certainly read as something to do with the career, especially if you are applying to jobs because the five of Wands can be competition of some sort. Especially if you're going into some type of education field. But whatever you are working toward, I am ready to be optimistic and say that it is going up and won't go down. Because I do think no matter what just like with the other piles, you're being pushed toward some type of reward or abundance in the form of either work or love or both. Even and especially for those of you who for maybe an extended period of time didn't have luck in either area.

And I haven't even gotten to your other two cards which were justice and four of swords. Justice is clarified by ten of swords, not surprising because the other piles indicated in end of a cycle. And again we're seeing that the cycle was probably a bit difficult for you in some way. I might even venture to say that if this did involve a bad relationship, that it could have been a karmic relationship if you believe in that.

Oh, I should point out Libra energy is here as well. There's just a lot of energies focused on this pile which means a lot of different people or a lot of transits are currently affecting people who read this pile, so that's why the cards came out chaotically because you're being hit by like eight different planets at one time.

Well, Saturn, Venus, Jupiter, Mars. And that's without me looking up all of the minor cards to see what they're associated with.

So, I feel there's an end to some type of karmic cycle in your life where there was probably some type of important lesson you had to learn, for me it looks to be about relationships or at least about working on self-love. That's the direction I'm seeing. Unfortunately, whatever happened, it was a bit of a destiny situation. I also feel like there are forces in your life or the divine or spiritual whatever, spiritual accountants are kind of looking at the work that you've done up until now and they are assessing what you deserve. So, that's why I feel like a lot of us are entering into this time while we are going to see some karma refunds coming our way. We should be seeing some type of abundance in areas where we at least try to create some change or we did some significant work that's now being recognized.

For some specific few of you probably like one because I have to say it, this actually kind of reads like a divorce or separation because we have justice which can be that legal card and a ten of swords, so it's like a painful ending or separation or legal proceeding. It could even be that recently you had to make a kind of painful decision, this could be breaking up with someone or yeah that's mostly what I'm drawn to. I'm sure there could be other things that were painful decisions, but I can tell you it's for the best whatever you decided to do.

And the four of swords, so that can be about a break of some kind, it can be taking time out kind of like the hermit to have a moment of reflection, it can represent a trip or vacation. It's clarified by the six of pentacles, which is that giving and receiving card or balance, equality. Some more of that Libra energy, and then the emperor. And there are two fours that came out for that part, so I'm sure that's important.

What I read in that first because of the numbers is a sense of more harmony and stability in some area of your life. However, it seems like that is only going to be achieved after time spent working on something, whether it's spiritual or job skills or taking a break with a current relationship in order to try and figure out how to make it work.

But, at the end the simplest message here seems to be about if you haven't taken the time already, there's going to be a time soon where there is some type of break either between two people or just for yourself to evaluate a specific area of your life and make some difficult decisions, in order to follow the path that will lead to the most personal harmony and stability in several areas of your life but specifically it seems to be looking at love, self-love or relationships.

There's a lot of push for achieving balance.

But, what I also see is there will be difficulty on this path for achieving that. Not just random difficulty, but like complicated difficulty. You know some people have challenges that are a bit easier to unravel or deal with, this pile seems to have a bit more of a colored past in the sense that a few things might be twisted up together that have to be untangled first, which might be why you have to separate yourself from whatever is happening in order to detangle it and work on this.

4 and 6 are showing up a lot as well as 5. Those could be significant numbers for you in any combination but speaking in terms of numerology at least for me that is stability and personal harmony but also conflict and change.

Usually there would be a one or 10. I mean you do have a 10, but this gives me vibes of it being a cycle. Because if you have a 5, usually this is some type of lesson to be achieved. So, I will interpret this as on the way to achieving that level of personal harmony and stability in various areas of your life, there are going to be a lot of challenges thrown your way. Why? To be honest, it doesn't say specifically. I could take a guess and I would even think that several of you would have been drawn to one of the other piles, so I would check those out for additional specific information.

This feels a lot more general besides just being like specifically definitely trouble in your romantic life, but potentially also career or maybe something new with a career will be associated with how you end up finding a more stable romantic relationship. That's specific though because what I really see that eight of pentacles as is more spiritual work or any type of effort or work or skill being built toward a dream, but nine of cups is also that emotional contentment which is like the number six. It's that personal Harmony. And this person is trying to build that or trying to do the work to get there.

Then we know it's been a fairly long journey that involves healing and conflict thanks to temperance and five of Wands

We see that again with the love Oracle card and that there is that desire for stability with the four of wands, of wanting that joy and happiness especially in regard to relationships, but then the devil has come in and been like well you get a couple of crappy partners where there's codependency or vices or whatever.

And then we know through the justice card and the 10 of swords, that a painful decision had to be made or you are going to be rewarded or at least received some type of outcome based on a situation that apparently really sucked. It could be, that you get for what you did to recover from something bad or it could be, that's going to be dished out to somebody who backstabbed you in some way. Or even both.

And then we see four of swords, so we have some type of break or meditation, to me I keep being pulled to the temperance, so it's like that time you step away to do the healing or reflect or do that eight of pentacles work.

And it kind of reminds me of something I said about pile one in the sense that after you take this break and do the work and you kind of are solo for a while or are focused on yourself, you end up coming out of it with the ability to share some type of wisdom or knowledge or lesson or even materially if there were people who helped you out in the past, you can possibly pass on that abundance to other people because likely other people helped you along this way. Or even if nobody helped you, you can still feel like you are in a position to help others.

Unfortunately, there are people who get stuck with lessons and conflicts that are karmic without probably any real reason except that in this lifetime, you provide some type of wisdom service. Whatever you learn from these experiences, you end up passing on some type of knowledge to multiple people who can also use that knowledge to start their own spiritual or healing journey. Essentially you're kind of like an ascended master but not really but yes. Kind of like Luke Skywalker starting as the people and then he ends up as the teacher.

And like I said there's lots of Sagittarius energy coming up, and Sagittarius is associated with learning especially on a more spiritual or religious level or philosophical. So I read that as guess what you get this wonderful gift of enlightenment after all of your suffering. Isn't that lovely?

But, I think like I said for pile I think that was one again so I wouldn't be surprised if you were drawn to one but feel free to read whatever. It's likely that this love card has a double meaning besides pointing out that that probably was a problem area in life that you are waiting for that stability and security, that it will exist for you in the future at the end of the journey. When you look at the temperance card and you see that path behind the angel, there's this bright sun. There is that. It's just going to take a while for you to get there and it's not an easy road. Likely it's a bit like Skyrim where you start out and you're going to go for a task and then suddenly you're getting attacked by guards because you stole a wheel of cheese or a sweet roll or maybe some pack of wild wizards or magicians.

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But anyway, my point is there's a long road, there's bound to be some type of conflicts but at the end is the sun so congratulations your soul picked one of the more difficult choose your own adventure options. And they opted for let's learn a lesson and become a teacher while leveling up our soul.

I feel like there are probably scenarios that we have when we are in soul form that this one could be easy or this one is just a task you end up taking so that you can level up on a specific skill. Like maybe I'll lock pick for the next 2 hours and then great you're a lockpick expert. It's like what else did I get out of that whole experience, I just get to know how to open locks. But hey, sometimes you have to spend a whole lifetime trying to unlock certain things like how can I finally get a stable relationship.

But anyway, not too invalidate the other piles struggles it's just that this pile struggles are showing up more apparently so they could be on the surface for you right now or something about that could be returning or if you did have to make some type of painful decision to part ways with someone in the recent past.

The break is good for you whatever you do with it as long as you focus on yourself or your goals. Love and relationships that are good for you will come to you along that route so just focus on that, don't go chasing love because it will come to you through career or studies of some sort. You might need them at work, you might meet them at school or some class or going to some lecture about self-improvement or anything related to spirituality or philosophy or education related learning. I think for some of you you could even be great spiritual teachers. If you read Tarot, if you do some type of spiritual coaching. Like I said, this feels more like people who go through stuff to become teachers that in part the wisdom that they've gained in this life.

For some of you that's even definitely part of your job. You might even travel to different places to do this or I guess you could still just work from home and be able to do it as a part-time gig but for a lot of you you definitely have that capability if you want to be some type of spiritual teacher. I'm not seeing healer, I'm seeing teacher. Although you can definitely heal people by teaching or sharing wisdom.

So, very complicated but you were probably very complicated and you know this and I do sense potential frustration in this pile from things seeming like they're going good and then they fall apart and then they go good and then they fall apart.

I would also suggest if that's how you have felt lately, that you engage in some pastimes that get you out of your head and are fun such as anything to do with dancing, taking up classes that are just fun for you. You can do hard work on your dreams or goals or whatever you do for a career, but I would also suggest a side hustle that is fun for you or a side skill that's fun, fun hobby, fun classes. Get yourself out of your head.

It could be with this devil and love and four of Wands that you don't really allow yourself or feel that you deserve to have fun and just chill and do things for you. But that is perfectly okay and even recommended because I would think that this pile is biggest candidate for burnout.

There you go, pile three.

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foxglovelullaby · 1 year

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I would like to have a serious discussion about Arven’s relationship with his parents and his parental figure’s feelings as someone who is a child abuse survivor.

Note this will be game spoiler heavy and include discussion of TW child abuse neglect abandonment and fictional character death

Post game story with Arven he opens up to you about wanting to find himself and starts by looking into who his parent was as a person. This ends in him feeling that his parent was a very driven and passionate person who worked hard to make their dreams come true. Arven says it is his dream to help people and pokemon who felt lost and hopeless as he once did. He is going to become a cook with the purpose of making healing foods for folks and their pokemon. He mentions that it might not be as "flashy" as his parents success but it is still just as important. This emotional process you watch Arven go through is the active recovery from child abuse and him being able to move on. Arven is able to stop thinking about his dead/absent parents and find out who he is as a person. It's a healthy process, something he needed and something you the player character helped him be able to achieve. To reflect upon his parent, process the information, who they were, no longer are, and accept that they are gone is critical for his mental health. However I need the community to understand that even with this happening, with Arven being able to move on, that does not mean it "wasn't really abuse" if he "got over it" etc etc- Even though the AI version of his parent said that the real person truly loved Arven, even if the notes in the lab talked about wanting a better world for their son, even if they had a photo of Arven with him and his dog - there is zero excuse for what they did to their child. It is not a matter of fact of "oh well they just didn't know how to show Arven they loved him" or "they were just misguided" like you cannot think of all of these "well if this just happened-" because it isn't what happened. What happened was child neglect. Arven says he only knows how to cook because he had to make food for himself. Arven says he never remembers his parent playing with him as a child. Arven says his parent forced him to take care of the strange pokemon. None of this is okay. It happened and Arven has processed it and is going to move on - which is good - but please do not focus on the professor themselves.... oh they could been redeemed! blah blah, oh but here is all this proof they loved their son - they were an adult, they chose the path they did, they abused their child they were never secretly a good parent. They never will be secretly a good parent. I'm not throwing shade at people who do "what if his parents stayed together and everyone was happy" AUs, more so I just am not fond of people trying to make his parents as the ones you should have sympathy for. That they are so much more ~tragic~ than their son, or just completely making excuses for their shitty behavior. I am also not telling you who to like or dislike - if you like the designs - I don't care, honestly. If you like the character it’s fine, we are not the same people and we don’t have to be. I just want as a community to realize that Arven's parents were complete utter shit, there is no if, and, or but's about that. There is no reason to cater to them and fuss over them more than their son. There is no reason to act like "oh well people don't understand that they LOVED Arven" because love does not change the fact it was child abuse. Someone can do a lot of things in the name of love, and think they are doing all these things for love and it’s still extremely abusive and traumatizing. So yeah, I say genuinely - make AUs, be creative, rewrite the history to your hearts content! Just remember canon wise there is no excuse for what happened to Arven. There is no magical amount of "but they loved him-" to make the actual canon story better or okay. It's okay if you wanted better from the character, it's okay to want things to have happened differently, but please do no insist that people think of an abuser's feelings over the abuse victim in any context, especially when this is a parent and child situation. There is zero equal ground between that dynamic when it comes to abuse. And again understanding the reasons behind the abuse Arven received is important to recovery and moving on is for the best but like none of it ever excuses it... I need everyone to keep this emphasis important- for those who are still recovering, for those who do not understand they are being abused yet, and other crowds who are unaware how serious this topic is because it will eventually impact someone in their life. Thank you. Note, please do not comment on this with non-constructive commentary of “oh no one has ever said or thought any of this” because I wrote this as precautionary reminder - because Pokémon is such a wide and diverse community and I need us to be mindful of when this happens in real life - and I wrote this for myself because it is holiday season and I am feeling the CPTSD blues.

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victimized-martyr · 2 years

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20 & 28? i love all ur takes on kyman so so much!!!

These questions are a blast! I'm just happy y'all give me the chance to ramble abt them ghfs so thankssss

20. Do Stan and Kenny (and Butters) approve of this relationship?

Kenny canonically keeps most of his opinions to himself, and likes to watch from a distance. He’d approach Kyman in the same way, watching them unfold with a morbid curiosity, dishing his legendary advice only when he feels he absolutely must. Does that make him a dick? Probably. But, what else would you expect from Eric Cartman’s best friend?

Butters on the other hand, is super vocal in his approval. The moment Cartman announces he’s with Kyle, its streams of "Congratulations, Eric!” and “Shoot, anyone could see this comin’ a mile away!" and “Don’t go breakin’ Kyle’s heart, Eric. He’ll fuck you up nine ways to Sunday if you do :D”

And then there’s Stan.

Kyle. and Cartman. Cartman and Kyle. Together….Would he approve? Well, he wouldn’t know. This indecision isn't the result of slow observation; he sensed something between Cartman and Kyle before they realized they had feelings for one another. It’s that Stan hates change, and he's anxious to think how the relationship will permanently affect the group, the one thing in Stan's life that’s endured all of South Park’s shittiness. Would things change for the better? Or worse? There’s so many ways Cartman and Kyle could fail and make things awkward in the group. Or, what if they get so engrossed with each other that they left him behind? That he disintegrates into white noise, losing his best friend? Cartman’s the only person capable of bringing out emotions no one else could with Kyle, so will he become the best or worst version of himself? It’s all too much. He needs a lot of time to process it.

More than anyone else, Kyle seeks Stan’s approval in his decisions, and has often come to him to rant about Cartman. Usually, he’d get a blunt response that refocuses him, if he ever gets a response at all. This time, he needs a prompt response, and Kyle’s patience is infamously thin. Kyle is already wracked with anxiety about whether being with Cartman is the “right” thing to do. Seeing Stan close in on himself once hearing the news sends Kyle’s paranoia thru the roof lmao.

This is a whole ass fic askin to be written (am i not writing one already HILKDJGHLI), but essentially, Stan and Kyle would have a fallout before Stan reaches a conclusion on Kyman. Stan would probably say something he’d regret and be all moody and emotional for a while. Then he’ll get bitch slapped some sense into him by Wendy, or Kenny, or hell, maybe Cartman (because “Darsh, I can’t properly make out with mah boo cause he’s too busy PMS’ing over his butfucking-boyfriend. So cut the shit out already. "). He’s forced to realize that he should still be there for his best friend, whether he ends up approving of the relationship or not. Yes, Kyle wants his approval, but he also wants his super best friend more. (stg this is Kenny Dies all over again. Hoe runs away to deal with his own emotions before being there for others. When will he learn lol)

Stan’s wary for a majority of the relationship. But he’s there for Kyle. He’ll always be there.

28. controversial opinion on kyman?

It has less to do with Kyman and more to do with tropes. I'm so SO tired of Party at Tolkien's House as the catalyst for Kyman. ;-; it's just, too easy to write, and it's even easier to fall into the trappings of "kiss as the only romantic awakening" and teen angst. Honestly? The kids probably wouldn't be able to enjoy themselves, bc the adults suck, and it's south park, so they end up crashing the party. And then aliens get involved, bc shit like that happens. Kyle and Cartman are feelin each other up and wanna seal the deal in the closet~? Well they can't. Randy's in there playin 7 minutes in heaven with a monkey and lo and behold, is the reason we have monkeypox declared as a health emergency.

#asks #kyman #south park #eric cartman #kyle broflovski #it's 5 am and I typed in 'Eric Broflovski' and was like 'why isnt his tag comin up' HKGFSHGS i need to sleep #I'm just bitter @ the trope hgkfd but I've read some truly good shit that uses that trope anyways #idk at this point im like do we HAVE to have a party at tolkiens? isnt there any other way for kyman to get together??

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goron-king-darunia · 10 months

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More thoughts about sad half elf

Honestly the d...d..door jail (sigh, I said it) makes me so sad in an indescribable kind of way, while he did fuck up with the demons thing, he was not planning to destroy the world, and a 1000 years of confinement in ONE room would drive anyone insane. I'm probably overthinking it, because fantasy stories rarely portray the sheer amount of trauma that sort of scenario would cause, and "sealed" characters just go back into the world and their inability to adjust to new technology / changes in society is often played for gags. Sort of like a "haha, boomer" kind of way except this man is from dozens of generations ago. But, holy hell, just imagine that sort of thing IRL. There would be no mind whatsoever left there after all that time. No soul. It's a fate worse than death to be honest, I think it would be a far better ending for him to die and at least be reuinited with Aster in this way. Hell, a thousand years in one place - he might even forget Aster. Forget everything, completely shut down mentally because no mortal can handle this kind of suffering :')

Furthermore, there's the whole ending up just like he began, completely stripped of freedom. From a forced labor prison to door prison with a summon spirit he will probably never be able to truly forgive. It's a full circle in the worst way possible and it makes my heart hurt. A lot. Doomed by the narrative to forever remain a prisoner, first to the prejudices of society, then to his own anger and sorrow, and then to Ratatosk in Ginnungagap, in a pitiful attempt to atone for his sins.

How long exactly is his lifespan though? Because the ending says the mana removal process would take 1k years, but half elves can also live about 1k years, no? So it might even be him stuck in there until he dies of old age. Absolutely gutwrenchingly tragic, thanks DotNW. Wow. Rude.

Been a little busy but yes! Door Jail is insufferable. I really don't think it's an apt punishment for him, especially because, if we believe the manga, his biggest blunder was at least partially circumstantial. I do think with fantasy logic, we're meant to believe he's just going to be fine after all this, somehow. He's serving his time as penance and then he gets a life after and somehow 1000 years of basically solitary confinement doesn't drive him insane. But by IRL logic, yeah. His prospects are grim.

I don't think he could ever forget Aster, even after all that time, but I can definitely see the memories fading to vagueness and dreams blending with memory, so the already idealized version of Aster that he remembers just marinates and falls apart to become some indescribable saintly image, half-remembered. A sort of "I feel deep affection for this person, but I can't remember their touch, their voice, their face, I can't remember the time we spent together. I just remember how they made me feel and I remember the stories in my head about them. And I can't even ask anyone which of these stories are real because everyone else that knew him is dead."

"Furthermore, there's the whole ending up just like he began, completely stripped of freedom. From a forced labor prison to door prison with a summon spirit he will probably never be able to truly forgive. It's a full circle in the worst way possible and it makes my heart hurt. A lot. Doomed by the narrative to forever remain a prisoner, first to the prejudices of society, then to his own anger and sorrow, and then to Ratatosk in Ginnungagap, in a pitiful attempt to atone for his sins."

I have thought about that a LOT, and it hurts me every damn time. Especially with the Tales of the Rays skit "Symbol of Freedom." Richter genuinely only felt free when he was with Aster. To the point where even as a grown man, he's really not sure what he likes or not because he's never been able to try things himself without Aster. And he only really had financial freedom, physical freedom, and the emotional freedom Aster afforded to him on that ONE JOURNEY where Aster ended up dead. So this man literally got, like, one taste of real freedom and then the world came crashing down. So literally, in Richter's own words, without Aster, he wouldn't have ever even stopped being a basement prisoner. Without Aster, he ceases being free. Half-elves theoretically live to around 1000 years old according to Marta in the skit "Strange Guy" in DotNW. So, either we assume Ratatosk's world-bending powers to control Mana can stall Richter's aging (not impossible since Cruxis Crystals do the same thing) so he gets 1000 years as a padlock and another 1000 as a shell of a man trying to find meaning in a world where nobody knows him, or he spends 1000 years as a padlock and drops dead.

Considering Ratatosk promises to set Richter free once the world is fixed, I'm pretty sure he has a way of keeping Richter alive. But we don't know how much aging, if any, he'll be doing during that time. Still. Given that Aster was Richter's reason to live, I can't imagine he's going to have a great time, even if he remains young and has a full 1000 years outside of the Ginnungagap once the world is fixed. Genuinely tragic man. Door jail seems like overkill. But I do simp hard for that poor man. XD

#Richter Abend #DotNW #lady quen

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Sometimes I look at the Project Moon games and wonder about what the team at PM must be like.

I mean hear me out... and yea spoilers and all that but I can't really get my point across without them so ya know.

Lobotomy Corp is a game that centers around the plot of 1 awful awful man who has done unspeakably horrible things to his colleagues in the pursuit of a goal they technically all wanted, but "not like this" only to go through so many horrifying loops of tragedy that everyone becomes numb, finding their own ways to cope with having to work at such a truly hellish work place. With the main character becoming someone better through atonement for his actions, he can't truly atone in the eyes of those he has harmed but he can try to better himself going forward and in the end he's able to at least give them all the gift of seeing their goal through to the end.

Library of Ruina shows us yet again a struggle with identity, this time accompanied by yet another major plot surrounding the idea of revenge this whole idea that the actions that freed one individual from a horrible life of abuse and neglect inflicted irreparable harm upon another. Yet they work together for so long in hopes of each achieving their own goals, only in the end coming to realization of their life, their grief, and their identity. Both being able to move past who they were and the pain they've felt and become something more than a husk living purely in spite of their suffering.

and I'll be honest, I've not played much of Limbus Company, I hate to admit it because I love the Project Moon universe but the game doesn't much keep my interest. That being said on the most baseline level of the game you have an understanding that this is a company of people specifically brought together for emotionless work. You have the most uncaring neglecting managers and head figures; Dante seems to be the most emotional of anyone and that's likely coming from the place of actually having to go through the literal pain of reviving anyone who dies, experiencing their pain in the process. So I could are they're a little more invested in their subordinate's wellbeing. However more than not, the lead figures here do not care about their underlings, and if you pay attention to the sinners; they're all full of life in different ways, sure some of them are less happy than others; but they all have goals, they all have ambition.

So what am I getting at with all of this? Well do I actually believe the lead writer/writers at ProjMoon are trying to say something about the company? Nah probably not, it's very likely they're just writing angst for the sake of angst; and while a lot of their writing is well done and captures a lot of mental illness and real conflict very well; I don't think they are necessarily trying to go any deeper than that.

That being said; we only now see how bad their CEO really is. However I have a hunch that this wasn't always the case, originally he was probably a genuinely nice dude. I say this completely on assumption mind you, so again if you think I'm making some weird stretches in logic or something read the above blurb again and recognize that I'm not some conspiracy theorist trying to spout some bullshit. I'm just saying that it's interesting to me that a small indie company of like 7 - 10 people who were really ambitious about their goal of becoming a game studio worked really hard (and likely failed a LOT in the past) in spite of their living situation being complete shit. Like basically everyone I know who knows about ProjMoon knows there were times they were so poor they couldn't afford basic heating and such. So here you have this company who dream of wealth and honor, being someone important, being someone rich enough to live a good life. They make 1 game (Lob Corp) that seems to be doing well, the Legacy version got played by a few youtubers and likely drew in a small but dedicated fanbase who gave them a rush of euphoria; finally there were eyes on their product. Real people, around the world who CARED about what they were making. They were likely far from their goal still, but now they had a chance. Then; they took a shift and remade the game to what we know it as today and what do you know... it was a success. They weren't rich or anything but here's this global fan community singing their praises, telling people "buy their game buy their game!" That's wealth and honor, at least on some level. See when you're THAT poor, even a couple thousand bucks or a couple hundred people with eyes on you can make all the difference. Sure we think "wealthy" means triple digit thousands at LEAST and such; but if even 100 people came to my stream and each of them gave me 25 bucks (the price of Lob Corp) I'd feel pretty damn successful having just made $2,500 "but cryptid they probably put a lot more money INTO it than that" sure that's true, and they probably sold a lot more than 100 copies of the game. There are currently 26,396 reviews on steam, with 455 being recent reviews. In total if we assume (and we don't, let's be real) that every one of those bought the game at full price, and the company got 100% of the money; that's $659,225 a little over a half a million. from Lob Corp alone. Now yea I'm not gonna say they didn't have to pay a % to steam for hosting and they likely had some copies sold when the game was like 50% off or something if we're being honest. However this doesn't take into account LoR being $30, with 20,501 reviews for a total of (again under the same assumptions which we aren't realistically assuming here) another $615,030 we have no idea how much merch they sold or how much profit they made from their café either.

What am I getting at here? That they made a bunch of money? We know. No it's more than that; See it's easy to look at the CEO and say "oh dude fuck Project Moon they're a shit company!" However consider for a second that you don't hate Netzach, Chesed, Angela, Tiph, Hod, etc; for the actions of Ayin... do you? Now yea obviously those are fictional people, so you know they don't have bills to pay they don't have families to take care of, they don't have real life problems to deal with... unlike the people who work at Project Moon.

All people who likely watched their friend, and CEO; change when he obtained the money and fame he was after; suddenly hiding the fact he had grown so much from the public so they could sell the idea of being a "small indie dev team" to keep pay lower and abuse their workers. Which, from what I understand; is what we learned from the WonderLab incident, unless I'm mistaken of course. Take everything I'm saying here with a grain of salt. It's very likely that the writing for the original Lob Corp wasn't about the Proj Moon team specifically, more so about working conditions in capitalism, and likely the current state of Korean societal/work norms. However I do wonder how much of the writing might be or could be based on what the team is going through in relation to their own work place.

I saw a lot of people saying "how could the people who wrote games about shit business practices literally do this shit, they wrote about it!" However I don't know if the CEO himself really had much of a hand in that, you have to remember that none of us; and I do mean NONE OF US. Have any idea what the working conditions there are actually like. For all we know the CEO could easily say "oh sure I wrote this and that, I looked over these things; I helped with those things" when in reality it's all delegated to some poor intern.

I mean hell I once worked with an indie company who literally stole my intellectual property, claimed it all as their own; said they had "come up with all of this the night before at an exclusive meeting" and then used it to profit off their scam of a game that they lied to the public about being something it wasn't and I never saw a cent of it because I told them off for not only stealing my work but A. lying to me and thinking I wouldn't know and B. lying to the public to scam people out of their money.

A lot of shady shit practices happen behind closed doors that never gets to be made public whether it's because you don't have a voice to say it loud enough or because contractually you're not legally able to without harsh consequences. You know what you can do though? You can write whatever you want for the plot of your game. Your game that is already built around the premise of abusive work practices and shitty capitalistic managers.

what was that limbus company quote, something like "take out their leader, remove the head and the meat under it crumbles" I don't know man, it just makes me wonder about how the people working at Project Moon feel about their CEO. I don't know how many of them are WILLINGLY following him vs how many have to keep a roof over their head and feel like they have no choice in the matter but to keep working for a shitty CEO who makes the big bucks while they likely get "small indie dev team pay" you know?

I'll say this again because I know, this is the "how dare you say we piss on the poor" website and I want to make this abundantly clear. I don't know jack shit about what goes on behind closed doors at that company, I'm not trying to make some kind of conspiracy theory, I'm not reading too much into plot or writing of a fictional world/characters/game. I'm not trying to make any claims about any persons working within the company. I'm merely wondering how much of the writing (WHICH COULD BE NONE) comes from a more personal view of venting about poor working conditions and how many of the employees working at Project Moon (WHICH COULD BE ALL OF THEM) actually consider their CEO to be a friend and someone worth working for rather than as an abusive boss they're scared of and who they can't quit working for because they need the money.

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