#I just have zero time to do the research

[noodle-artist]

I’ve got two eggs ( sketches ) in my egg carton (my phone) but my anxiety levels are too high for me to take them out ( to show y’all ) cause I’m afraid I’ll break them ( it won’t be perfect )

#art is art #who gives a fuk about what the tags or post says #it matters to me a bit #like how the title of the painting really smacks you on what’s being depicted #plus I like to add emojis and quotes from the source #I just have zero time to do the research #so I have this mental todo list and it’s on there and I’m making zero progress on getting it posted #so my anxiety is high knowing that I haven’t been doing it #but I have to take a step back and allow myself to breath #it will get done #y’all will see #and I will be content #also #I love my art #but I can’t help but be afraid of how they’ll be received #when I make something that makes me happy I hope that it can make other people happy as well #I like making art for myself #but I also enjoy seeing people be happy because of it as well #like omg #my little sketch #made someone happy #I was able to bring a small amount of joy to someone #art #ahhh it’s just one of those days

[myriadsystem]

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#personal #i have doctors appt today with a new doctor its literally not even a real appointment i just need some stupid forms signed #but guys im so stressed im so scared ive already cried once about it today i just. i fucking hate doctors so so much #theyre all so bad. im not in the mood to be dismissed again today and its 15 goddamn degrees so everything feels bigger and worse than it is #if they dont sign the form i dont get paid any more and if i dont get paid i cant continue to try and sort out my medical #which means i continue to not get paid and im just. so scared. so so fucking scared i dont even care if we find the start if the path #to vetter my health i dont care about gettinf better right now i just need this fucking form signed but #ive already been dismissised for it once and i have new doctor jitters. what do you mean i have to tell someone new that #i have ptsd and anxiety and depression and fibro and alleged bpd but its probably autism actually and hope #hope and prey they losten to me because its other doctors that have told me this and im definitely computer illiterate i couldntve come up #with all this on my own i promise ive done zero research into my own symptoms i live with every day im a simpleton im an idiot #please believe me dr refer me to ypur colleagues for further testing but in the mwan time sign the one form i need please #im so scared. i dont know what to do. my tarot says to tryst myself and find my own authority about the situation #but like literally legally i cant i have to rely on the hope this new doctor gives her signature or i dont get fucking paid as stated #i hate this i feel so shaky and nervous and nauseous and awful 😮‍💨 #and im supposed to do groceries today. im at the very end of my shopping like if i dont go get food today #then i dont eat tonight but its cold and rainy and im super stressed abt the appointment so idk if ill be able to go shopping after #i dont wanna die anymore but like rn i kinda do this is too much today feels like too much #help me im drowning

[goldensunset]

i need the full geeta lore actually

#‘i have been to the zero lab myself a few times before but [blah blah blah’ GIRL?? #don’t just drop that so casually #i mean it checks out that she’s been to area zero of course #but like the zero lab… #wasn’t that built specifically by turo? #was she allowed to visit it all those years ago back in the glory days of his research #that would’ve been like ten years ago. so was she the champion then? how old was she? #was he insane yet back then? he barely ever communicated with anyone during that time it seemed #or is she talking about having been since The Incident #in which case she could only mean having reached the outside bc the door was locked and only the ai could let her in #hold on but then the ai would have detected her presence and probably reached out to get her to do the thing we ended up doing #maybe it did. maybe it tried and she chickened out thinking she wasn’t strong enough #maybe she was just waiting for someone as strong as us to come along. maybe she knew the truth about everything the whole time. #or has she simply visited since the end of the main story. post-ai turo #but again. why did she have the indigo disk where did she get that #the zero lab was built by the professor right? the disc is specifically compatible with that new lab tech not like ancient stuff #she must’ve had known him personally in some way #please i wanna know. what part did she play in the entire mess that went down with turo as he slipped into madness down there #the sv dlc experience #sv dlc spoilers

[mostlyanything19]

asfhdskf this episode

First Caleb to Fjord: I know Yasha better than you and she never fucking says anything! Sam: I love you Ashley! Liam: So do I !!

half an hour later...

Laura, researching weasel facts: Ha! See, they eat rodents and small rabbits, fuck you guys he would love the rats! *gives the group the finger* *instantly reaches over apologetically to Ashley* Not you Ashley I love you!!

#ksjdsfj #ashley has done nothing wrong; ever; in her life. they know this and they love her #critical role #adventures in cr #c2 #cr2x62 #LONG time no c2! it's good to get back to it! #once again i find i have to note how much i really Really like Fjord #i just... it's weird cause i can't really say ''omg i LOVE him'' the way i do other characters? #but. i /like/ him so so so much #it's a different sort of thing idk how to explain it #ALSO. it's hilarious to me how much the Entire group imprinted upon essek as a potential friend like basically the instant they met him #or as good as #because they /have/ met similar characters over time that had sort of a similar starting off point as essek has #in terms of his initial relation to the group and...i mean he's nice to them but he's clearly not super approachable #he's making this a polite distance sort of thing #but they just...they seem so fascinatingly adamant to kind of pull him into their orbit and WAY beyond man-we-just-met-who-shows-us-around #jester offers (or more like /insists on/) a hug after they've talked like twice. and she gets it. #caleb zeroes in on that mention of time being his specialty and asks for research; knowledge; tutelage. and gets it. (with a veeery average #persuasion roll even) #beau invites him in for dinner the instant he shows up again; makes a whole thing out of being friendly and a good host & makes cocktails #i'm fascinated by this. sure they want to keep a good standing; essek is their contact person; their handler; but #idk. i just feel like everyone at the table just liked him /instantly/ and it's coloring all the rest of their interactions so much

[itslookingback]

two vaguely related things

#1. #it has gotten to that time in august where the panic about the new year ahead really starts to set in #i feel like i have done zero preparation and i'm going to break down in like the second week. #and this panic probably means i should do some sensible research and panic sensibly about it #instead of shutting down. which is generally what happens #2nd thing: #rosh hashanah has perfect timing this year #because you welcome in the new year #and then uni immediately starts the day after #i really like where in the year rosh hashanah falls #it makes a lot more sense to me to do a new years celebration at the vague start of an academic year / beginning of autumn #than in the middle of winter #because starting a year in the middle of winter means you have the whole 2nd half of winter to go #and that part's really depressing before the year actually kicks in #however for rosh hashanah #there's a lot more ''newness'' and preparation for the winter and also looking forward to change #it just makes so much more sense #anyway #those are the two vaguely related things

[0wllight]

OKAY i wasn't gonna complain but now i am-- probably to the event person too-- but the person who had my gift for the invisible friend was a hetalia shipper who didn't care the source was bad (i just looked at the blog.) ew.

#their blog was like #yeah i ship in hetalia and if you have a problem block me lol #like ok!!! will do!!! just did!!! #yeesh #plus it really feels like there was zero effort put into the letter i got like. i don't think they really even looked at the wiki like. #if you're going to sign up for these things at least put in the time and research. it was like 4 sentences long #sorry if i sound ungrateful-- this person just sounds really. erm. yeah #oh well. maybe next year will work out better if i sign up for another one of these #i definitely am gonna confront the person who hosted the event tho bcuz are they just letting anyone enter.... yeesh #minho shut up #my post

[klinejack]

the dangerous urge to explain out loud why i won’t be following someone back....😬

#literally have to consciously stop myself every single time #its a disease #i dont owe anyone a follow or an excuse BUT. in my head i do. #there are so many people i really DO wanna follow/follow back #but after extensive research i simply can't do it to myself #you know when like #you forget your superego exists #until shes like UH UH NO YOU DONT #and you just have to sigh and be like. yeah. youre right though :( #its not worth it in the long run shes almost always right and i need to learn to realize that #bottom line is for me its usually not personal i have a lot of very deep triggers #i have been alive a long time sd;lkfgjkdjsfhgdfg #and even if youre a wonderful person and maybe theres zero reason for me not to follow you... if i find #even one of those triggers in my search on your blog i won't be able to follow :(( #doesnt even necessarily mean i don't want to!!!!!!! #but... yeah. safety first friends <3 #thoughts out loud #personal #tumblr nonsense

[keeps-ache]

why break a tradition y'kno lol

#wip #i'm gonna burn myself out but that's life babyyy #//also i'm feeling Very understimulated and i can't FOCUS HH #i can't find a video that i can play in the background i'm going ot EXPLODE #none of my music is doing it #and i'm TIRED so i wanna sleep but i wanna draw and i'm dddyyyinnnnggg :') #i'm not gonna sleep we all know that so Obviously i need to find something to watch #gosh but nothing is working soooo #i swear i woke up this morning with enough energy to start researching frog populations but zero focus. no wait nevermind that correlates #life could be a dream. if only it was easier to do things. if only i could draw unceasingly. life could be a dream sweetheart #//this might be a good time to stare at a word doc until my noodle brain pulls itself into order lol #//my mom called me a busybody once when i was like 10 #cuz i was Really into arts and crafts for like 3 years and was Always making something #and yeah that's still the case lol #it's just harder cuz now that i'm aware and have so many options to waste time. i'm wasting So Much Time #like man if i Always have to be doing something can i at least pick what it is? #the answer is no. now scroll for the next 17 minutes and Boil #//anyway lol-- i go now! [turns into a rabbit]

[oasisofgalaxies]

worldbuilding is hard, kids

#ive been staring at dozens of articles for the past two hours #a lot of them are like 'IF YOU DONT HAVE THIS YOUR STORY WILL BE BAD/FEEL OFF' like ok girl chill #also #im just some guy with zero knowledge on politics or interplanetary politics #dont even get me started on star system economics #magic systems? sure thats up my alley. sci fi tech? ok i can do that #combination of both? sure lets do it #speculative biology? ok ill be doing some research but itll be fine #the list goes on #its just a tall order really #because a lot of the stuff i can do ! itll just take me a while #making planet maps/religions and cultures/foods/trade/etc #its just. a lot #the one thing im really struggling with tho is fucking. space governments and space ecomomies #governments are hehhghhsgks to understand and every time i try to research how to build an economy my brain shuts off at the first words #theres other stuff too that i struggle with that im forgetting to list because my brain is liquefying as we speak #im putting. so much work into this and. #sometimes i step back and look at what im talking about #this is for a hermitcraft au #well. as they say. #ive dug this pit myself and no one else is gonna dig it for me #shovels up lads we have a long way to go #nebula rambles

[pinkfey]

so my mom is in the hospital with pancreatitis + dehydration because she can’t keep fluids down + unbalanced acid levels because acid tablets are the only thing that combat the pain in her chest because her meds don’t work like they should and what do u know !! that all leads to organ failure !!

#but how are they supposed to regulate her diet to treat the pancreatic inflammation when she CANT EAT !!!!!!! #her illness is so rare and times like these it dawns on me how much of a lab rat she’s been the past two decades and how much MORE difficult #it is for us to get treatment for her. no surgeries work. she gets a myriad of health problems like diabetes and pancreatitis as long term #symptoms. absolutely ZERO research goes into her illness because it affects no one compared to something like cancer #it’s so fucking frustrating. it’s destroyed her life and ours and the doctors really don’t do shit for her #she wouldn’t have to take acid tablets if they gave her the proper fucking meds !! #because the acid reflux is just part of her illness so there’s no making that go away #the dehydration is because she literally cannot get food or water down because not only does her esophagus not work due to the disorder #but all of the failed dilations and surgeries have fucked it up beyond repair. the only option for that is to remove it #just like. i’m so upset because only some of this was avoidable. #the dehydration and inflammation was bound to happen because that’s just what happens with her illness. she can barley get liquids down #but the acidity?? she’s been telling them for weeks the meds aren’t working and she’s been taking the tablets to compensate. this is on them #RNRNGNNFNDNG having a member of your family with chronic health problems is hard enough as it is but i can’t stress how much worse it is #when the condition is rare. we have hardly any resources and have to travel to get ‘good’ treatment like the dilations that don’t work #and so much is just fucking troubleshooting because so much is unknown #and she’s only getting worse. she’s literally wasting away physically and mentally because she’s getting no sleep and no nutrients. #AND AAAAAAAAAA i don’t get upset about this often because it’s so normal for me for the past fifteen years #but holy shit i deserve to be angry #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #every once in a while i really comprehend it all. how i had my mother robbed from me. from her own life. it makes me just sob #like i never did as a kid because i didn’t grasp it #if anyone read this far no well wishes please #i have a complicated relationship with her #and if anyone is curious what the disorder is it’s called achalasia and believe me i’m an encyclopedia when it comes to it #anyways.txt

[fridayyy-13th]

^ live footage of me rn

#friday chats #tw vent #not like a super terrible vent or anything i'm just. tired. and mad at myself. #so like a couple weeks ago i was given an assignment for my british lit class right? #to write a research essay based on one of the texts we've studied this unit. two weeks to do it. easy peasy. sure. #i figure that's plenty of time and leave it to work on my other homework (bc there's always other homework i'm an honors student) #oh wow lookie there it's due this weekend! great! so i start work on it #and then i can't find any research to bolster the question i'd formulated. it would have just been my own analysis #and we're required to have four sources. so that's that out the window. #the weekend passes and i'm officially in ''late assignment'' territory #and it's the last week before spring break so i'm swamped w/other work and midterm tests and everything #so yesterday my friend and i call to work on ours together (we always proofread each other's stuff/give each other pointers and whatnot) #and i'm just lost on what my essay should be about. any sort of question i could explore. #she has something of an idea for hers but not much. so neither of us get ours done #the assignment fully closes tonight #so we try again. i manage a half-hearted intro paragraph with zero direction and one source #and then i just hit a wall. the sources i'm looking at don't give me any new insights or ideas and i've got nothing #with two hours to the deadline. so i'm thoroughly fucked #i keep trying and just. yeah no not a thing. and if you notice the timestamp on this post it's past 12am #guess who didn't finish his essay 🙃 #this is the fucking SECOND TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED. what the FUCK #fanTASTIC start to my spring break y'all. and the only way i can communicate the specific feeling i'm feeling is through a homestuck gif. #can i just sink into the earth. that'd be great #at least now that it's over i don't have to worry about it anymore. i mean there's the guilt obviously but i don't have to *worry* #God. my mom's gonna be pissed #if i follow this train of thought any further it's gonna fall down a spiral of responsibility and college and career stuff #and i don't want to deal with that right now #so i'm just gonna stop talking. and either go read an angsty fic and cry for catharsis or just go to sleep. we'll see #i hate getting all personal on the internet but i'd rather yell to the void than bottle it up so. here we are

[longroadstonowhere]

i kinda think maybe i should've done more academic work in the last forty eight hours

but also i think i disassociated for a decent chunk of that time, and work was very quiet, and i just did seven ish weeks where i had half a day off, so, you know, maybe i should let myself acknowledge that i needed a bit of a break

#we'll see what tomorrow brings #and i have absolutely zero plans for sunday #which means i might just watch encanto for the third time in a week while i play tears of the kingdom #but also i might actually do work on the research paper i have to do for one class #we'll see! i'm going to Not think about it until then

[themswritinwords]

Currently doing a final proofread, and by "doing a final proofread" I mean I'm 200 pages deep in an unsearchable PDF of an owners manual for a car from the 90s that I've never owned, desperately trying to verify how one would open the little door that leads to the gas cap.

Is it relevant to the plot? Nope. Is it even relevant to the action happening in the scene? Nope. It's exactly one line that serves as a transition. But I know-- I just know-- that if it's wrong, the Car People will find it and they will eat me alive for it.

I also know I'm not the only one. So lay em on me, fellow writeblrs: What bizarre, weirdly specific, ultra-niche research are we doing for our WIPs?

#writeblr #this is a request for comments and reblogs with additions #i love learning stuff and i love hearing what other people are learning #wip #writing #research #also my apologies to the agent still waiting on this full #i'm just panicking about making sure everything's perfect #and yeah i thought it was great when i queried #but the minute you go to hit upload you start questioning everything and just have to make sure yk? #and then your child goes on fall break and you have exactly zero time to look at your screen let alone do a proper proofread #all that to say: if you're reading this i really am sorry i swear it'll be there soon :(

[thistlecrimes]

Things I've learned from getting covid for the first time in 2023

I wear an N95 in public spaces and I've managed to dodge it for a long time, but I finally got covid for the first time (to my knowledge) in mid-late November 2023. It was a weird experience especially because I feel like it used to be something everyone was talking about and sharing info on, so getting it for the first time now (when people generally seem averse to talking about covid) I found I needed to seek out a lot of info because I wasn't sure what to do. I put so much effort into prevention, I knew less about what to do when you have it. I'm experiencing a rebound right now so I'm currently isolating. So, I'm making a post in the hopes that if you get covid (it's pretty goddamn hard to avoid right now) this info will be helpful for you. It's a couple things I already knew and several things I learned. One part of it is based on my experience in Minnesota but some other states may have similar programs.

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The World Health Organization states you should isolate for 10 days from first having symptoms plus 3 days after the end of symptoms.

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At the time of my writing this post, in Minnesota, we have a test to treat program where you can call, report the result of your rapid test (no photo necessary) and be prescribed paxlovid over the phone to pick up from your pharmacy or have delivered to you. It is free and you do not need to have insurance. I found it by googling "Minnesota Test to Treat Covid"

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Paxlovid decreases the risk of hospitalization and death, but it's also been shown to decrease the risk of Long Covid. Long Covid can occur even from mild or asymptomatic infections.

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Covid rebound commonly occurs 2-8 days after apparent recovery. While many people associate Paxlovid with covid rebound, researchers say there is no strong evidence that Paxlovid causes covid rebound, and rebounds occur in infections that were not treated with Paxlovid as well. I knew rebounds could happen but did not know it could take 8 days. I had mine on day 7 and was completely surprised by it.

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If you start experiencing new symptoms or test positive again, the CDC states that you should start your isolation period again at day zero. Covid rebound is still contagious. Personally I'd suggest wearing a high quality respirator around folks for an additional 8-9 days after you start to test negative in case of a rebound.

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Positive results on a rapid test can be very faint, but even a very faint line is positive result. Make sure to look at your rapid test result under strong lighting. Also, false negatives are not uncommon. If you have symptoms but test negative taking multiple tests and trying different brands if you have them are not bad ideas. My ihealth tests picked up my covid, my binax now tests did not.

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EDIT: I'd highly suggest spending time with friends online if you can, I previously had a link to the NAMI warmline directory in this post but I've since been informed that NAMI is very much funded by pharmaceutical companies and lobbies for policies that take autonomy away from disabled folks, so I've taken that off of here! Sorry, I had no idea, the People's CDC listed them as a resource so I just assumed they were legit! Feel free to reply/reblog this with other warmlines/support resources if you know of them! And please reblog this version!

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I know that there is so much we can't control as individuals right now, and that's frightening. All we can do is try our best to reduce harm and to care for each other. I hope this info will be able to help folks.

#covid #covid 19 #harm reduction #apparently only 16% of Americans even got their booster #it's wild out there #which makes sense because our public health messaging has been super unhelpful and intentionally shifted the burden #of infection control onto individuals to avoid us holding them accountable because it's politically and economically inconvenient to them

[midnighticee]

i wanna... sew smthn. dunno what tho

#shelby stop ranting #gettin the urge #last time i had An Urge i made a pillow with zero research #i don't think im gonna try that kind of thing again #however. #i HAVE been wanting to try a quilt #i would 100% get my grandma in on that tho #but i think i just wanna do a fun lil embroidery thing this time

[oneshortdamnfuse]

Vaccine PSA

Since Monkeypox is spreading, I just want to inform people that smallpox vaccines are potentially very dangerous for people who have eczema / atopic dermatitis. A lot of people don’t know this, but exposure to the traditional smallpox vaccine even if it’s skin to skin contact with someone who has recently been vaccinated can cause eczema vaccinatum in people with a history of eczema. It basically causes a systemic reaction that could kill us without proper and immediate treatment. This hasn’t been a huge issue because we haven’t had to universally vaccinate for smallpox in a long time. However, one of the two monkeypox vaccines has the same problem according to the CDC. Yes, there is a safe vaccine available for people with eczema / atopic dermatitis called JYNNEOS, but the ACAM2000 monkeypox vaccine is not considered safe for us and you should probably avoid skin to skin contact with anyone who receives this vaccine. That also means you should not share clothes or other items with someone who received this vaccine until at least 30 days after their last dose. I’m not a doctor, but I do have atopic dermatitis. I generally don’t want to discourage people from getting vaccinated but a lot of people like me simply don’t know we’re not physically able to be vaccinated for this the same way as people who don’t have a skin condition. Please talk to your doctors first to figure out what you can do to stay safe at this time.

Edit:

Just to clarify, ACAM2000 is not actively in use outside of people in the military and researchers. It's in consideration for usage. It is a live virus that can spread past the vaccination site. JYNNEOS is not a live virus and it is safe for most people and you may have an equivalent vaccine available in your country if you live outside the US, though some people are allergic to the ingredients. That's why you should talk to your doctors first to figure out what you can do to stay safe. I've already reblogged this post with links from the CDC, but here's another in case you missed it:

Please read it carefully.

Eczema vaccinatum and other complications are rare, but not impossible and most people with a history of eczema do not know about them. I am not against vaccination, but people should know that the risks are not zero with certain vaccines. If you do develop these complications, treatment is available and necessary.

The directions are still the same, regardless if you are vaccinated. Mask and clean surfaces for monkeypox. Do not share items with an infected person. If you think that you've been exposed to monkeypox, most people can safely vaccinate to prevent a bad case, so contact your doctor immediately.

My intention is not to fearmonger people into thinking they're at immediate risk of death if they have been vaccinated or exposed. It is only to mention risks that are already included by the CDC and other eczema organizations, but may not be well known, in light of the US considering using ACAM2000.

#long post cw