#I just like freaking them out 😭

[sprucewoodmpreg]

not to get really close to discourse-posting at 10 in the morning but it is a bit crazy to me how stressed out people on here get abt CCs coming onto tumblr and finding the community like. unpalatable or something. instead of treating fandom like a group of people just making shit that they can pass around with each other, it's turned into this weird almost-art gallery kind of situation, where 16-year-olds with bpd and unmedicated people in their 20s are responsible for showing off just how Beautiful and Wonderful our collective creations are 😭 like can we be real. there's a hermitcraft menstruation sub-fandom on here. this shit was never gonna be safe for CCs

#unless one of them is secretly an avid fan of menstruation headcanons. in which case 👍 nice #i just woke up so if this post sucks bad then just take me out back and shoot me #i just giggle sometimes wheni see people freak out abt like. ''FUCK we gotta tag our shit so CCs cant see it. but what if they still do😧'' #they can just. not go on here then. nobody is forcing them to look at any of it 😭 #ok as im typing this im losing interest because i could always log off and go buy myself lunch #but i'll post it anyways in honor of my 2021 self #discourse

[cocogum]

Armand’s treatment and how it impacted his life.

(‼️ Spoilers for Wakfu Season 4 and its first four episodes ‼️)

One thing that saddened me a lot when I was watching episode 4 was how Armand revealed to Amalia that he had wished he could go on adventures with her and the brotherhood sometimes.

This surprised me at first but I soon realized that it made perfect sense.

Armand was always jealous of her but I initially thought that it was only because she had the most attention from people, even their father. But Armand is the type to keep his thoughts to himself which would explain why despite how we see him looking at Amalia with a disapproving look, we never really got to hear him express his thoughts to her. His reason for wanting to go on adventures with her is also made clear: not only does he want to explore the world because it seems like fun since his sister always felt happy because of it, but the major reason is that he wants his father to look at him just like how he looked at Amalia.

When he finally tells her all of his thoughts and what he wants, we can’t help but feel like what he wishes to have can no longer be granted. Their father died not long ago, it is now too late to do anything.

Armand could’ve spoken up during all those years Amalia went to go on adventures. He had all the time in the world because he was always beside his father at all times.

But no matter how close he was to him, Armand never had the strength to speak his thoughts just like how Amalia dared to do so. It’s ironic really, Armand had the time and the moment to tell his father everything and yet, he didn’t because he didn’t think it was in his right to speak about himself and what he wanted to try.

The years of constantly seeing how his sister was getting loved by the people, how she was being viewed and called a hero by the very same people he was working hard to protect in his own way, how their father kept praising her constantly for whatever she did, how she kept getting adoration for adventuring and risking her life to save her people, while he was instead cooped up in the kingdom learning and practicing how to become king, left him in a position where he believed Amalia always had the upper hand on anything even when he wanted to express himself.

He had learned that every time he proposed an idea or even said some of his thoughts out loud during a particular situation, he would always get shut down by either his sister or his father, sometimes even both (the time when he decided to use a barrier of vines to block Ogrest’s tears but his father told him that his attempts were just “alright” when they were actually very effective for some time, the time where he told Amalia that she can’t leave while his father is terribly sick but his father supports Amalia and encourages her to go with Yugo, the time when Armand stated that none of the rulers had come to support them but his father cuts him off by saying that the queen of Bonta at least brought Joris to them which made Armand’s words sound minuscule and not as serious as the prince intended, etc.)

Granted, sometimes he deserved it (like the time when he got slapped by Eva when he was disrespectful to Dally in the OVAs or the time he did not listen to Amalia’s warnings when she told him Nox was coming and when she tried explaining who Yugo and Adamaï were back in Season 1 but not being listened to despite having Eva to back her up) but the majority of the time, he was trying his best to please his father and barely got a good comment for it.

So it wouldn’t be far-fetched to think that Armand never spoke about what he wanted to his father because he had a strong feeling that the answer wouldn’t be a good one.

As if things couldn’t get any worse for him, when his father takes his last breath and Armand was the only one there for him, who has been by his side all this time, who has devoted his entire life to training, learn and work hard to be like his father, he had only words for Amalia.

To hear his father only speak about his youngest sister and not mention him at all, must’ve terribly broke him on the inside. Even when his father was on his deathbed, he did not address everything that Armand did for him.

And it’s sad to see this happening.

Even though his relationship with his father and sister was mostly shown in the background, it was pretty obvious that their family had some issues that no one wanted to address in the room.

I feel like, in a way, we can somehow relate to Armand.

To feel like we can’t speak our minds properly because of a sibling or a figure in our lives who has shown to be better than us, even when we do work very hard to get noticed we barely get any comments or praises of the same size as theirs, to feel like we don’t matter as much as them so we should just stop talking and let them have their spotlight at all times.

And when we finally get the chance to gain our confidence or get into a position where we don’t feel as self-conscious as we used to before, we come to find out that it’s already too late to express ourselves to the people we’ve been waiting to truly be honest to, because they’re already gone or have moved on from you.

Armand’s case is a bittersweet and albeit depressing one.

What could have been a story of adventure, even if just for one day, was never realized. What could have been an experience that could have felt like a lifetime never happened. What could have been an adventure where he finally has his fun and gains a unique brotherly sisterly duo bond in combat would never become a reality. And what could have been a special moment in his life where he gets to personally know his sister’s friends would always stay a dream.

If only he knew that even a brotherhood member, Evangelyne, has a sister, Cleophee, who had her fun in the group. And even if it was just for a few days, a few moments, Eva’s sister had cemented her place in the Brotherhood and became an official member. To think that even if he had stayed a bit in the group, he would have not just become a part of their lives, but also become a part of their brotherhood.

But despite it all, Armand kept his chin up and looked forward to the future. He did not wallow in his sadness or blame Amalia for his silence during all these years. Instead, he pulls her up and tells her to not be saddened by their father’s departure, especially in front of his tomb tree, and consoles her as they hug.

Unlike anyone else, I believe Armand was able to push his selfish thoughts away (which involved blaming his sister for everything) and instead behaved like a king, someone who, despite not gaining everything he wanted in life, kept going and faced forward for what was to come.

Even though he has not been abandoned by his family, he did feel like he might've been behind everyone else at some point in his life.

He may have not been a part of the brotherhood but he’ll always have a place in his sister’s heart after what he did for her.

And I believe that his competence and his will to protect his kingdom without leaving for adventure would make him get along greatly with a certain white dragon.

#this ‘what if’ can’t stop pulling on my heartstrings 😭😭 #i never thought i’d make an armand analysis #and yet here i am #he’s so freaking relatable that it hurts #this makes me wanna read a fic where armand actually goes on an adventure with the group because of an emergency where he had to join them #i just feel like armand would join the group for a specific mission cuz i feel like if he’ll never say he wants to go out out loud #then a mission should be able to make him go out as a ‘duty’ #wakfu sadida #sadida #wakfu sadidas #wakfu #sadidas #wakfu armand #wakfu amalia #wakfu amalia sheran sharm #amalia sheran sharm #ankama #krosmoz #wakfu season 4 #wakfu s4 #wakfu season 4 spoilers #wakfu s4 spoilers #wakfu s4 ep4 spoilers #wakfu season 4 episode 4 spoilers #wakfu s4 ep4 #wakfu season 4 episode 4 #wakfu analysis #wakfu analyses #wakfu armand sheran sharm

[dizzybizz]

meowzers

#hey guys i made a little freak. thoughts? #hes got ghost fish friends :) #and hes a catboy #ALSO WTF IS IT WITH ME AND LIKE.. #FISHERMEN LATELY. FIRST GUY NOW THIS FUCKER WTH #uhm but he basically came to be bc i was like “damn i rlly want to make more original art....” and the first thing that came out of my hand #was a catboy. not gonna read into it too deeply. #i dont have any proper explantation for the fish... the idea is that he ?? eats them and then magics them into big ghost fish and idk #its cool in my head!! im just so bad at formulating my thoughts in a way that makes any sense at all 😭 #my art #dizzyoriginals #oc #idk what he does with the fish. maybe theyre friends of his. maybe its like a they give him their life and he gives them new life or smth. #a give and take back and forth kinda thing- listen these r late night rambles. #also i just love the cartoony ass fish skeletons in cartoons n stuff. theyre so dear to me. i wanted to draw em #cw eyestrain #eyestrain

[chocochat]

how do i tell this girl in my ceramics class that i want to be friends without sounding weird 🤔

#we added each other on insta and shes soooo cool #i saw her in the studio today and i wanted to talk to her but im already freaking out about this stupid piece that just HATES ME #by the time i was done she was already gone 😭😭 #my partner and i take the class together too so we're always together and like idk i dont wanna like leave them alone and awkward #we're both introverted but they are even more shy than i am so im like the spokesperson when we're in public 😭 #anyway #hopefully shes in the studio next time and i will DEFINITELY talk to her #hopefully 🤞

[tittyinfinity]

so from my experiences of being around transfem people taking estrogen, it seems that your periods actually start to sync up with the people around you who menstruate

#girl got period cramps earlier than usual last night and I felt like it was my fault for sitting next to her w the worst period cramps ever😭 #happened after i had been sitting next to her for hours #this is one of those things where i'm like yeah this sounds more like placebo/conspiracy but nah it's been true every time #my period is somehow the strongest and i can make peoples periods start up to a week early just by being around them for a couple days #i've caused periods to be late too 😬 #it does NOT make sense but i promise you it DOES happen #i've had a lot of conversations w people about how freaked out they were by it #.bdo

[tradingjackbs]

Attempted to do a photoshoot for the one and only cosplay I'll probably ever do and. These are the only pictures I got that matter

#there were a lot of blurrier ones that were completely incomprehensible lmao #i did also get some decent serious ones but. idk if i'll post them/might save them for halloween or something. we'll see #i dont like taking pics of myself and i dont like sharing my face on the internet. it just so happens this particular character has bangs #and also sunglasses so it works out #nicholas d wolfwood #cosplay #trigun #rosie posting #cats of tumblr #i love my girl so so much. but lord she love gettin all in my business when im tryna do shit ykwim #taking pictures or drawing or whatever tf. it dont matter. she must be in the way <3 #i went to put my clothes away and like. sure it's a relatively cheap suit but it still cost a good amount #and this goddamn cat is swiping and pouncing on my clothes as im tryna put em away like 😭😭😭😭 GIRL #anyway pretend ww has uhh curly hair. and literally no jawline. and also a normal/fat waist. and a thick ass neck jesus lordt #that's what my ww looks like <3 sowwy that's just how im built lmao #oh and the wrong nose. i have the wrong nose for every anime character 😔 #bitch ass half white half pinoy got me out here lookin like a gotdamned Freak lol <3 #the absurd amount of cookies in the past week probs hasnt been helping #i live alone and shit's hard yo 😭😭 #this also means i took all my goddamn photos myself and thus. the excessive cat bombing <3

[alexturner2005]

i cannot even explain the shock i was in last monday at red rocks when they started soundchecking BATPHONE and then stopped and immediately launched into HELLO YOU.....before i could even recover from batphone.....they really tried to kill me

#we were wide eyed hands over mouths jaws on the floor #freaking out as quietly as possible while we filmed #while confused red rocks employees looked on lmao #one of them was like 'do u girls know the line is over there?' #we do thank u we abandoned all our belongings in it when we bolted over here lmao #i can't believe it was already a week ago!!! 😭 #time flew wayyyy too fast #still mad at them for not playing hello you at the actual show #but i will cherish that soundcheck memory forever #also i should note that batphone was just the instrumental bit before the first verse #idk if anyone has mentioned that they soundchecked it at all #arctic monkeys #thinking about how we almost decided not to go early enough for soundcheck…

[girlitfeelsgood]

"I feel safe with you"

#LOSING MY MIND OVER THIS SHOW #I've had to pause like every 5 minutes because something just completely floors me #the cycles of abuse... #sally and barrys relationship has always been so interesting and fucked up but now she knows what he's done #she was fucking there and she STILL FEELS SAFE WITH HIM #and now we've seen how her mum is and that adds even more layers to it #I can't express my thoughts coherently it's just. this show is so well written I can't #barry #barry hbo #in case the tags didn't make it clear I am not freaking out because I ship them 😭 I don't I'm just obsessed with how they've written sally #barry spoilers #I guess #my post

[lesbiansanemi]

I failed at parking because somehow there was not a single free parking space at the entire airport so I drove around for an hour in a panic and ended up paying almost triple what I thought I would for parking so it’s a good thing I didn’t sleep and anxiety left three hours early 😭😭😭

#I’m killing myself but now I just need to get through security #I hate airports I hate them I hate them I hate them I hate them #and now I’m jittery and freaked out because things did not go according to the meticulously plotted plan #and I’m too autistic for things like that 😭😭😭 #it’s okay I’m sure my heart rate will mellow out soon and I am no longer on brinks of tears #so we’ll take it #I see gf in like four hours everything will be fine everything will be okay #kaz rambles

[narwhalandchill]

OH????? actual massive W what the hell

#thank fucking god 😭😭😭 #xueyis voicelines rn are so weird its like 2 completely different voiceovers clashing #its like one sounds fine one is just straight up not the same character #theyre fixing the biggest grievance i had w playing her im so happy man. like eng is v good overall #so i dont wanna be swapping constantly just for her to sound normal 💀💀💀 #waiting until 2.1 is p sad tho but i hope it means theyll have time to polish the delivery proper #but this is sooooo good #bc her VA Is very good!!! but somehow the direction fumbled this completely #havent kept up w sampos but like fyi if u found the leaks sub post about his fixed voicelines. the leaker labeled them wrong. #the ones called old are the new improved ones. idk how you fuck it up like that but ppl freaked out #bc the 'new' ones in the vid are actually the currently in game ones theyre removing💀💀 so obviously theyre the worse ones #rambles #hsr

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[jrueships]

Admin: which teammate do you pick to cook your Thanksgiving dinner?

Alpey, who has brought his own baked goods for the team before; therefore, should have the most credibility and trust to be skilled in the kitchen: *happily suggests himself as the best option for jabari*

Jabari:

#jabari is like the kind of person who works a 15 hr shift then complains abt her tired they are #and how they cant sleep bcs they have so much to do around the house #but wont let their husband cook for them bcs they want to do it themselves then complain abt having to do it themselves #moms who start vacuuming the house at 4am then complain about how theres no one helping #'MOVE. ILL JUST DO THE DAMN THING MYS E L F !' #*2 seconds after scaring charity away* why do i have to do everything myself.' #the trials and tribulations of the stubborn control freak #he later says 'im not letting anyone else cook my food for me. (i pick) me. jabari.' #just tearing out alpeys heart and stomping on it 😭 #picky ass eater who loves luxury jabari vs expired yogurt and carmel and chocolate syrup drizzled over it to feel fanciful alpey #bite #to the death #they literally asked this question last year??? before they banished gup to the gallows #alpey: alperen şengün 😄!!! ✨️ 🩵🩵 #jabari: 😐 #jabari (no grey matter): kill yourse- #why do they keep doing this to each other #alpey is the playful beloved family dog whos always in the room with the most people being pet 24/7 for being there & sweet #and jabari is the odd and aloof cat who has sporadic springs of affection and wacky affection #and will usually show himself when hes about to cause trouble for no apparent reason at no apparent schedule #like creeping over to a sleeping alpey and skippity papping him in the head without rhyme warning or reason #then taking off #zero apology or context given

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[that-was-anticlimactic]

i feel a wisdom tooth coming in. i am terrified. i am genuinely so scared of getting them removed😭 and i’ve been procrastinating bc it scares me so much😭

#idk i hate being embarrassed so i do NOT want to be filmed #and i have a friend who got them removed and they didn’t put them out and tHEY COULD HEAR IT #AND ANOTHER FRIEND HAD COMPLICATIONS SO THE RECOVERY WAS LONGER #and my mom or dad would want to be involved bUT WHAT IF I OUT MYSELF ON THE MEDS #W H A T I F #idk surgery in general freaks me out #but just. ahhhhhhh #it freaks me out sm #but my wisdom teeth have been bothering me a bit not like Pain omg but like hi i’m here don’t forget about me😭 #and now i can like Feel a tooth so ik i need to get them removed #anyways here’s a stupid post with corey ft one of her stupid fears lol

[stinkrascal]

you know what though. today was great writing inspiration. this will happen to brie and vlad now thats how i’ll cope with this

#except in my revenge cope vlad will EAT THEM!!!! as he does whenever his wife is upset #my bf was amazing today he made me feel extremely safe dealing w the situation the way he did #truly he was one step below eating that mf #yea that was lowkey traumatizing as hell but at least now i have a cool plot point for my vladislaus straud fanfiction #im still freaked out HAHA my poor immune system 🤒 #and tw everything but my parents literally went 2 rehab yesterday lmao like can life please chill a little i just want to play my games 🤒 #OHHHH YEAH and my laptop is dying now too so hurray!! bro 😭😭 #i must stay silly soldiers i literally have no other options at this point 🧘

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3