#I should probably go to sleep

[ali-borsch]

forget about father & son dynamic IT'S TIME FOR MOTHER & DAUGHTER DYNAMIC

#pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #genderbend #i should probably go to sleep

[lizluzz]

Today's mood

#ofmd #sorry I'm taking this pretty hard #thank god for discord friends #i should probably go to sleep #our flag means death

[wnjunhui]

GOSE - SURPRISE DON’T LIE #1

dk and his “not brushing teeth nor showering” reputation [the saga continues]

#dokeyom #seokmin #seungkwan #svt #gose #svtgifs #kpopccc #kpopco #userzyx #userzaynab #woranglee #mygifs #gose spoilers #wanted to make more gose gifs #i should probably go to sleep

[agiftfrombelow]

My follower design of The One Who Waits/Narinder! With a couple design notes for his position in the Cult of New Haven. Plus, a cute little height difference between my Lamb Oc and Narinder for scale. I'll probably line up the rest of the followers too, once I've drawn them.

Alternative text of design notes and other thoughts below the cut:

Eye scar is a new addition to Narinder's collection: The Lamb slashed at it for good measure during their final confrontation.

Chain and neck scars are from his imprisonment.

Narinder is drawn after a panther. But he's a little on the lean side.

In the Lamb's Ascension into full godhood, they would eventually comeup with their own holy-symbol. Naturally,Narinder was amongthe first to receive his own. (It's because of spite)

Wears robes reminiscent to a Catholic cardinal and he wears a priests dalmatic.

Base robes are simple in design, but he wears red to indicate his "close" association with the New God of Death. (a very purposeful decision made by Magda to indicate that he's under her hoof now)

The Lamb's Chosen have varying degrees of red and gold to indicate a sort of hierarchy.

A gold camellia emblem is often worn by higher ranking members of New Haven.

Narinder suspects Magda keeps him close as a councilor and so her other Chosen keep a close eye on him.

Personally I like viewing sparing Narinder as an uneasy alliance - The Lamb, wanting to maintain their grip of power but recognizing the advantage of having the One Who Waits for his wisdom. Despite said wisdom likely being laced in venom and grudges, perhaps it will serve the coming Age of the Lamb.

#A Gift from Below #Followers of New Haven #cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb fanart #cult of the lamb narinder #the one who waits #cult of the lamb headcanons #cult of the lamb the one who waits #cotl narinder #cotl toww #HE'S DONE #sorry to the others followers I need to design but he possessed me #plus it was fun trying to draw a feline character! #i should probably go to sleep

[mikoran]

bro what was i doing before byler. like genuinely

#byler #i watched st for the first time back in august and something just clicked in my brain #like my entire being altered or somethin #but what was i doing before that its like nothing happened until then #i sound like mike rn with some “i feel like my life started the day [i discovered byler]” type shit #i should probably go to sleep

[italian-aspec-forces]

Prepare to Destroy or be Destroyed

Hello, my beautiful aspecs and allo allies! Are you a part of the aspec community thus meaning that you inherently have an innate desire to conquer the world? Well, this is surely the blog for you! Though I am fully aware that @actual-aspec-military, I have decided to create my own Italian faction of that particularly excellent blog. To be perfectly honest, I don't care whether you are Italian or a part of the aspect community; if you aren't, I can always adopt you and you can become my child, as long as you are respectful. @denmark-forreal, @denmark-official, @official-denmark and @denmarklandia-official, watch out! We shall be coming for you firstly!

Considering as I am lazy and a burnout disappointment who cannot be bothered to rephrase the description of my account, just know that I have copied and pastedd the following introduction from my main gimmick account, so have fun guessing who I am!

Firstly, I am a minor, so please behave yourselves and don't be creeps.My pronouns are she/her and I am an oriented aroace lesbian, meaning that I don't experience any sexual or romantic attraction, but that I experience aesthetic attraction towards women. I am also apothisexual, meaning that I am both ace and sex-repulsed.

#Of course #As always #The main rule is that we are all for world domination #However #Please don't get hurt or get anyone hurt #Thank you for coming to my TED talk #I am so insightful #I know #Sorry if there are any typos #I am so tired right now and my eyes are dry #I can't see anything #Anyway #I should probably go to sleep #Italian aspecs shall invade the world

[schumi-nadal]

During the ceremony of the 2008 Wimbledon Championship finals:

Roger: I think I'm falling for you.

Rafa, still struggling in english: Then get up.

#rafa nadal #roger federer #fedal #ok I’m bored again #i should probably go to sleep #or i’ll be convinced that this scene really happened #rafa is so oblivious I swear #incorrect quotes #incorrect tennis quote #incorrect Fedal quote

[scentedwonderlandpoetry]

I should not have watched Bleach and Dead Like Me in the same day one after the other after taking an edible but I had a stroke of genius and had to write it out.

Dead Like Me stars an 18 year old girl named George (short for Georgia) who dies after being crushed by a toilet from a space station that exploded. Her soul is removed before her body got obliterated thanks to a reaper. However, now George has to reap the souls of the recently deceased to allow them to pass on into the afterlife while also meeting various other unique grim reapers in a waffle house to help guide her new undead life.

Bleach is about a boy named Ichigo who has the ability to see ghost until one day he runs into a Shinigami or Soul Reaper by the name of Rukia and thanks to a few series of mishaps he ends up having his soul removed from his body and becomes a soul reaper to fight hollows, the corrupted souls of the deceased who couldn't pass on into the afterlife. As well as meeting a large and unique cast of soul reapers to help him.

Both Bleach and Dead Like Me establishes that there's a whole network of reapers working around the clock reaping souls for the afterlife. Reapers in both shows are invisible but can be visible to certain people but in Dead Like Me they can become visible but will look like a completely different person to people who are alive.

In Dead Like Me there are these mysterious supernatural creatures called Gravelings mischievous ghostly beings who causes the accidents that kills people. Reapers aren't allowed to interfere with the Gravelings actions. We also learn in the first episode that if a reaper doesn't do their job and reap the soul then the soul will decay and rot and it's implied that the souls can turn into graveling. Coincidence, I think not.

According to Bleach's spinoff Burn the Witch there are different division of the Soul Society and each of them treats hollows differently and refers to them with different names. In Japan they're called hollows and Soul Reapers just kills and purifies them. In London they're called Dragons and they're protected and controlled by their reapers who are named witches. So what are they called in America? Here's my answer it's Gravelings.

That's right Dead Like Me is actually about the American Division of the Soul Society. The Reapers of America have learned to pacify and work with the hollows which they refer to as Gravelings however unlike the Japanese and Europe division the reapers of America allows the gravelings to cause harm to humans both to make their jobs easier to reap souls and because of some belief in fate.

#Bleach #dead like me #i am very tired #I should probably go to sleep #theory #ramblings of an insane dinosaur #Bryan Fuller I know the truth! #What type of show would Tite Kubo and Bryan Fuller make if they collab?

[princess-of-morkva]

2am gwen everybody

with shitty old markers my little cousin forgot at my place.

#can you tell i didn't have enough colours? that's why i don't usually colour sketches #i don't even have my own markers #i have a train at 8am what am i doing #i also did morgana but a marker leaked and it's ruined now #i should probably go to sleep #gwen bbc

[creativenicocorner]

I never asked for everything, I begged a lone demand And still guilt stained that single wish for one who’d hold my hand 🎵

Hmm, do you think Reigen would survive an encounter with The Lonely? 

#Why yes I am still thinking about Music of The Fears #as well as having thoughts about The Magnus Archives and Reigen Arataka #thank you for asking dflkgj #Serirei #Serizawa Katsuya #Reigen Arataka #Nico Draws #I'm not over the moon happy with how these doodles turned out - but they're kind of okay for midnight #A part of me thinks...if Reigen never met Mob he would Absolutely have succumbed to The Lonely - hell he probably would have even during the #seperation arc. Post seperation arc / towards the end of the manga I think that would be a different story #If I would ever write a fic about it...I would probably set it up that he would absolutely succumb...briefly almost lost forever...and then #WHAM the power of love and friendship and people need people etc etc god I'm getting emotional just thinking about it #I should probably go to sleep #I don't think my rambling is making sense hahaha #CW: Autophobia Depression Emotional trauma Isolation Neglect

[singbluesxlver]

I cant stop laughing at this character ai thing. I got tired of Trager's bot trying to gaslight me and have moved on to Coyle's bot.

he's SO out of character

pls look at this

i cant breathe

AND THEN:

I can't explain how hard this is making me laugh.

#i should probably go to sleep #leland coyle #officer coyle #outlast trials #outlast

[inkturnstoblood]

TW in advance for what’s to come: venting about mental health (adhd to be specific), NO mentions of suicide or self harm, swearing (once at the end).

i’m sick and tired of being. being too sensitive. not being sensitive enough. being too quiet. being too annoying. being too much. being not enough. being me.

sometimes i wish—actually, that’s a lie—a lot of the time i wish that i wasn’t the way i am. that i didn’t flinch at every minor noise. at the way someone drops a pot or pan in the sink a little too loudly. that i could go to the store without being hyperaware of every single person. every single noise. every single thing. that i could experience change without shutting down (i swear everything leads to an anxiety attack). that i could experience boredom without feeling the urge to turn myself inside out and pick at every single bone in my body. that i didn’t need to be constantly stimulated. that i could live. that i could exist in this world without feeling like a damn zombie half the time, while other times feeling like i’m running on a motor.

a lot of the time i wish that i could have an interest. that’s it. an interest. not a special interest. just a plain old boring interest. not something that i do for hours on end, causing me to forget to be a human being. forgetting to do human being things like eating, drinking water and going to the bathroom.

a lot of the time i wish that i didn’t have the intrusive thoughts. that i could have a moment of silence. that everything wasn’t so loud. a lot of the time i wish that i didn’t talk badly about myself at every single moment of every single day.

i’m sick of the lack of motivation that’s perceived as “laziness” when in reality it’s task paralysis. i’m sick of feeling the need to hide who i am because people “can’t deal with it.” i’m sick of the judgement. the misunderstanding. the stereotypes.

a lot of the time i wish i didn’t feel like a stranger in my own body. an alien on my own planet. an intruder in my own home.

a lot of the time—actually that’s a lie too—all of the time. i’m sick and tired of being me all of the time. i just want a break. i just need a break. please will someone give me a fucking break.

#adhd #undiagnosed adhd #undiagnosed autism #poetry #vent art #adhd vent #mental health matters #mental health #mental health awareness #original poem #personal rant #sometimes i hate my brain #actually a lot of the time i hate my brain #i should probably go to sleep

[amethystroselily]

I reread chapter 4 of bsd, and I noticed the reason that Akutagawa slapped Higuchi is because she tried to kill Atsushi despite the fact that the orders were to take him alive. And I was like that kind of makes him a hypocrite bc he tries to kill him like five seconds later, but then I noticed the reason he even attempted to kill Atsushi is because he was about to attack Higuchi. And I think that’s kind of interesting. (I somehow never noticed either of those things before, despite having watched/read that scene at least seven times before. Idk.)

Anyways I originally didn’t have anything else to really say about that, but that’s very much a reflection of his relationship with Dazai isn’t it? Because that’s the thing that pissed Dazai off in the dark era. Killing people instead of keeping them alive when that would be more profitable.

Also I do think Akutagawa cares about Higuchi to some extent. He’s harsh with her but he also protects her. I wonder if that’s how he views his own relationship with Dazai. Dazai waged near constant psychological warfare against him, but he also took him off the streets and gave him a job and a reason to live. And also probably gave him and his sister protection in the mafia. A level of safety they’d never otherwise have. As long as he was useful nothing bad would happen to them. And as horribly as he was treated I think he’s grateful for that. And he tries to show that same kindness to the people in his care. He wants them to be stronger, he wants them to be able to fend for themselves and have a reason to keep living. Higuchi is thankful (albeit probably for a different reason than Akutagawa himself was), and it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to Kyouka.

*insert Kyouka interlude which ended up longer than I expected and kind of throws the pacing of this post off*

(The reason it was so horrible for Kyouka but an improvement for Akutagawa is probably because she came from a happy family with parents who loved her more than anything and then witnessed them die and was taken in by a group of people who treated her horribly and forced her to kill, whereas Akutagawa grew up starving on the streets, all of the adults he interacted with were hostile, and he already had to kill to survive. When he entered the mafia, he was offered money, and food, and shelter, and protection. All sorts of base needs and comforts he’d never really had before.

Also Dazai is smarter and more self aware than Akutagawa and a lot better at manipulation, so he realizes different people react differently to things depending on their experiences. And i think that’s the problem, Akutagawa is using manipulation tactics without fully understanding how they work (or maybe even that it is manipulation honestly? Like obviously he knows, but he doesn’t know, you know?) or when to use them. He’s kind of just copying Dazai. Because sometimes he’s just straight up quoting Dazai when he says horrible shit to people. I think Dazai and Akutagawa both thought that this was for the best, but Dazai’s actions were tailored for specifically Akutagawa to get him to do specific things. Whereas Akutagawa just kind of sees it as “this worked for me, it should work for her”. Also he just doesn’t doesn’t have some grand secret thousand step plan set out for her like Dazai has for him. I think they both see the abuse as ultimately helpful, but Dazai in a much more round about way. (Kind of like the headmaster, but instead of wanting Akutagawa to hate him he still needs him to cling onto him because Dazai still has plans he needs to use Akutagawa for, so can’t really let him off the hook). (Of course they’re both wrong, it’s an objectively fucked up thing to do to a person, they’re both selfish and probably taking out their own self hatred out on some random kid they decided to project onto to some extent, and Akutagawa’s a little delusional, but I’m not here to debate the morality of their actions bc that gets so repetitive and I think I stopped caring like three years ago, and it’s kind of besides the point of this post.)

*Done*

ANYWAYS, back to Higuchi. Despite how harsh Akutagawa is with her, I do think he’s showing her care as his subordinate. He goes against orders to protect her (also, I’m pretty sure the reason he killed those people Dazai was mad about in the dark era was bc he was protecting his coworkers, and I think that’s really interesting) and he thanks her when she returns the favor when he gets kidnapped even though you wouldn’t think he’d be the type to do so. While I don’t think he’ll ever return her romantic affections, he doesn’t hate her, and honestly she might be one of the people he cares about most, considering the pool of people he cares about is seemingly so small. He’s terrible to her, but he probably wants the best for her on some level.

I wonder if Dazai views their relationship the same way. Or if he’s treating her the way he wishes Dazai treated him. (Bc I don’t think Akutagawa saw the harsh treatment as that bad (it’s the mafia), I think he just wishes he’d toned it down slightly.) Because I could see it either way. Like, Dazai probably really did offer him protection within the mafia. But he was probably on his own when it came to enemies. But then again, Dazai was probably still watching out for him to some extent.

It’s makes me wonder if both pairs ever had good moments. Like calm moments that weren’t violent. Because considering just how hung up they are on people who treat them poorly, there must be some reason for them to long for a good relationship with that person. I suppose for Higuchi it’s those little moments of gratitude and protection, and for Akutagawa it really might just be the promise Dazai made him when they first met. But like, Dazai was probably semi-nice to him on occasion. Because Akutagawa doesn’t seem to hate him. Not really. He definitely resents him. But I also think he might miss him a little.

Anyways I have no idea where I meant to go with this.

#I am incapable of coherent analysis #I don’t think I really got ANY of my points across #I’m just kind of rambling #and speculating #I am so tired I no longer know what I’m talking about #I should probably go to sleep #bsd #bsd akutagawa #bsd higuchi #bsd dazai #bsd dark era #bsd manga #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd kyouka

[priapussdick]

goodbye to my new favorite bl of all time

BE MY FAVORITE (+1)

let's go

disclaimer: i hate doing this posts because i can't really exppress my feelings when my they are too fucking strong

how do i even begin.

be my favorite became my favorite so fucking fast that i was literally baffled. honestly it was love at first sight for us. i am really picky when it comes to bls and it's almost always hit or miss for me. and bmf was THE HIT.

and i truly do not even know the reason. it was such a silly little show about silly little guy and his silly little magic crystal ball, but, oh god, how did i become so fascinated by everything about it.

it was kawi. of course i loved pisaeng soooo much. and max, pear too. but i am not gonna even lie, it was kawi that rocked my world. i can't remember the last time i became this obsessed with a character. i fell in love with him.

the connection i felt to him was just crazy. i related him so fucking much that it was actually pathetic. i saw myself in him in so many ways that it was really unbelievable.

don't want to make this about myself (also i hate to talk about myself and my miserable adult life) but so many things that kawi went through were the exact same things i went through and still going through. i could relate to him at a level that was actually scary. and guess what i don't have a magic crystal ball so fuck this shit 😤

but unlike kawi we "yolo" and we should indeed "yolo"

i loved the final message of the show was like you can't keep worrying about future and you can't change the past. that's really cliché but it was literally the main theme of the series. you can't change the past but start doing things you wanna do in the present before it becomes the past. and shit is going to happen in future, but the good and bad thing is you can't control it. but you can definitely control (at least some things) in present which is definitely gonna effect your future. so live the moment, bitches. (this is me trying to convince myself to live in the present)

so whoever created kawi, thank you so much. i believe so many people also could relate to him in one way or another. even though we don't have magic crystal balls and will probably never find our pisaengs, kawi showed that despite everything the best thing you can do in life is simply living. and it's not actually simple, it scary but it is the only answer. it is about taking risks, it is about doing some dumb shit, it is about doing stuff that your so fucking scared of. but it's also about knowing your limits, it's about accepting, it is about love, it is about friends. it is about trying and failing countless times untill you get what you deserve.

kawi, you silly gremlin. you'll always be in my heart🩵

aaaaaand

the boyfriend of the year award goes to pisaeng.

let's stop being delulu for a sec, first of all, someone like him does not exist.

god. he is just a perfect human being. honestly seeing characters like him in media, especially in a bl is always so fucking amazing.

he was the dictionary definition of loving, caring, kind. bar is on the fucking floor, but he was so understanding and thoughtful towards not just kawi but everyone that watching his character healed something in me.

in every timeline he was kawi's rock, his love for kawi was always a constant. and the way he loved kawi was just unbelievable.

and they got their happy ending 😭😭😭

can you believe?????

anygays

i think that's it for now

I'll be thinking about this show for a while i think.

how do i make everyone in the world watch this show???

#i should probably go to sleep #I'll probably make some other posts later #still very much crazy about this show #:((( #be my favorite the series #be my favorite

[201xs]

imso obsessed with how fat and weird they look in the clay anime. flawless

#i should probably go to sleep