what is considered "beautiful" by society is inevitably sexist, racist, ableist, classist, transphobic, and bigoted. it targets and attacks any perceived difference, and it particularly villainizes women of color while co-opting aesthetics; as if features and cultural norms can be worn as accessories.
and the scary thing! you can see all of these things, know them to be true logically, and also know that you are treated better if you are perceived as beautiful. if you have ever been treated as "ugly", you know exactly how much society reviles you if you don't manage to scamper along and perform to their rules.
and how are you supposed to balance that? do you want a nose job to fix your broken nose, or have you just recently been seeing videos about how many people look better after nose jobs. do you want to lose weight to feel good, or is it that when you lose weight people treat you better. do you want to wear this outfit, or is it just the thing that's least likely to get you harassed. do you want to get lip injections for your reasons or is your whole reason that you don't feel beautiful unless you get those lip injections?
and the definitions shift. the goals get more specific. in the way that you only become aware of your tongue when someone mentions it; parts of your body are introduced as problems. i had never heard the term "hip dip" until about a year ago - and it was in the context of how to get rid of this. i'm 30, i know this shit is invented, and yet! i still find that strange voice saying but do you think someone is going to notice?
how the fuck am i supposed to say "this is my genuine choice i am making for my body" when i also know that years of my life have been spent socializing me to accept this as my inevitable fate? how do i know i'm actually doing this out of love for my body - or am i doing it for how i want others to see me, which will be lovely enough to feel loved? how am i supposed to recover when my unhealthy habits are seen as self-discipline but if i relax i'm openly mocked for "letting time win"? how the fuck am i supposed to say "i'm doing it for me" when i'm also very aware that i'm doing it to stop myself from being teased or demeaned? is it my choice if the other option is being bullied?
we are living in a hostage negotiation - either consent to the demands or spend the rest of your life being treated like you're a despicable person.
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"din chose grogu over his faith because he realized his love for grogu was more important to him" but at no point did the narrative ask him to do this? at no point was this so-called conflict actually a conflict in the actual show? din's religion isnt the religion that demands its followers give up attachments. din's religion is the reason why he takes grogu on in the first place!! theres this bizarre insistence in fandom that somehow being mando negatively impacts din's relationship with grogu, and thats why he was forced to take his helmet off, but quite frankly thats simply just not true. he was forced to take his helmet off because they paid pedro pascal big bucks to look that handsome and the writers got lazy with the plot.
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𝐀𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐢'𝐬 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡
Nowi’a Aweri, for a 5′6 miqo’te, bears unnatural, incomprehensible strength — all things considered, especially in terms of stature and nothing blatantly revealing that he could punch a tree and snap it clean in half.
The reasoning for this is solely due to being born w an over abundance of aether, same as his sister, and while this doesn’t inherently affect him in ways that are detrimental alone, he can channel this very aether and exhibit massive amounts of strength at the cost of his own life. In doing so it strips the pigment from his hair into a sheet white, and afterwards he will be extremely exhausted as his body cannot naturally endure this.
In ARR/HW, his hair was predominantly white, as he had no regard for his own life. While he still used the bow, he was not afraid to use his hands in means to kill, destroy things around him, etc. Having lost his whole family at a young age he felt purposeless, lost, and having been reunited with his sister and that still not ‘ fixing ’ how miserable he felt and that there was no immediate fix to grief, he felt even more at a loss. This in itself is a whole different topic of conversation and will have its own post, so back to his strength —
It wasn’t until the end of HW that his natural roots had started to finally stay. He found new purpose in life, he wanted to live. He found happiness in helping people, loving people, loving himself and some may find his ego to be a bit much but it took him years to have earned that. He loves to love and it shows in how life has finally homed itself within him.
In between SB and SHB his hair was both black and white. Sometimes his roots were white. Sometimes his tips were white instead. Honestly he was like an oreo :\. When he does use this strength, depending how much he uses, how long he uses it, the loss of pigment always begins at the root, and stays in his hair until it grows out. So, it’s obvious to tell when he so carelessly risked his life.
Come the beginning of Endwalker, his hair is fully black, as it was meant to be. Not many know of his past and he doesn’t openly share why he doesn’t use his strength, he doesn’t tell anyone of how he used to be, because he is proud of who he is now.
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