#I’m in such a funk today

[rosicheeks]

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#I’m in such a funk today #pls send me your good vibes and love #I’m gonna need it today #I just really hope I can come home and sleep for the rest of the day #I’m sad #and tired #but mainly just sad #shut up rosie

[crow-n-tell]

I just experienced something so insane I don’t think anyone I tell will believe it

#so #literally have so much to do today and for the month been in a funk #so I’m like #okay #well do exercise #I dance with Lashawna #forgot I had a candle burning #just finished material girl and now it’s playing Tina’s disco inferno #my cat #MY STUPID CAT #walks across my nightstand and THEIR TAIL CATCHES ON FIRE #I smell it #look over #SHE IS ALSO CONFUSED JUST STARING AT IT LIKE ??? #I SCREAM #barehanded put out fire #my family hears me screaming after all that dancing and assumes I’m having a great time #it smells like burnt hair now

[cyeayt]

Who knows maybe there’s a part of the population who knows Utah solely for rocks and salt lake as a biggish city

#utah #Mormonism #Mormon #exmo #exmormonism #exmormon #polls #USA #ig #I’m in a funk today

[starqueensthings]

the bad batch season finale has entirely DEVOURED my sense of humour. Like just gobbled it up and shit it out. I couldn’t think of a witty/snarky caption right now if someone had a blaster to my head 🙃

#there are posts in the queue Togo up while I’m at work today #but y’all are getting bottom of the barrel content until I climb outta this funk #I’m so sorry #the bad batch #tbb #bad batch #tbb spoilers #tbb season 2 #the bad batch spoilers #bad batch season 2

[fitsinthepalm]

it’s kind of wild that you don’t realize how depressed you were until you start feeling better

#does this make sense to anyone else #i’m like currently coming out of a funk #even my therapist told me the past 6 months is the most depressed she’s ever seen me (i’ve been seeing her weekly for 3+ years) #and literally these past like 2-3 weeks since i put my resignation in at my old job #i have had so much energy and motivation #today i walked both dogs and went on a walk with baby girl after daycare #i went to the local nursery and bought mums & pumpkins #i brought out the interior fall decor from storage and put it around the house #like obv i have extra time bc i have some time off before i start my new job #but like!!!! i haven’t *wanted* to do anything for so long #like i was just completely apathetic #i’m gonna cry thinking about it #but it feels so good to feel like i’m turning a corner #hi if you read this far ilysm i am kissing you on the mouth

[hellsbroadcaster]

Idk what it is with this week but it’s just been draining. Big shout out to us all for pushing through it, I know we’re tired but we’re closer to the weekend. You’re all really amazing and lovely, and even if we haven’t interacted yet I see your threads and your posts with everyone and I love reading and following along.

Be kind to yourself, don’t force yourself to do things if you don’t feel up to it. Do stuff that makes you laugh or smile, anything that brings you peace. Self care and relaxation. Take those breaks. ♥️

#I’m saying this to myself too #my therapy appointment today was a whole lot of me not saying anything #like I haven’t felt myself all week and it’s bleh I hate when I’m in these funks #but taking it easy and being kind to myself because #that’s all I can do for now #⌜off the air⌟ . // ooc

[whentherewerebicycles]

I feel like a therapist would hmmmmm @ me for believing that I can uncover and resolve all of my own deeply-rooted emotional issues if I just think about them hard enough for long enough using the right mental framework. but luckily I’ll never have to go to therapy because I cleverly managed to uncover and resolve all of my deeply-rooted emotional issues completely by myself in my own head just by thinking obsessively about them using the correct mental framework

#🫠🫠 #i have this tag in my period tracking app where the symptom is just #‘tired of hearing my own voice’ #phew! #today was a better day but I’m in one of those funks where you just don’t like yourself very much #once when I was a teenager I was having a huge fight with my mom and she was like #you are the QUEEN of rationalization you are the QUEEN of convincing yourself you are right and know best you are the QUEEN of inventing #mental universes where YOUR judgment is perfect and everyone else is an idiot #I KNOW SHE’S RIGHT OK!!!!!! #and SOMETIMES I get into a funk where I am forced to look at myself and I don’t like what I see very much!!!!!

[daincrediblegg]

If I became extremely cringe and posted a bunch of backlog sims stuff (mostly lady terror x francis stuff) would y’all be into it or?????

#I might play today. that might be all I do #might do a green gables build even you don’t know #idk. might help with this funk I’m in is all #maybe I’ll dip back into the baffin bay au builds idk that feels like a vibe

[daintyytulip]

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#today’s morning rant #convinced that the reason i’ve been in a funk in the mornings is bc i have no new music to listen to while i’m driving #and i just keep listening to the same stuff over and over #why can’t spotify read my mood and play the songs i need to hear

[sourkitsch]

That David Lynch quote where he’s like… the tortured artist is a myth because when you truly suffer you can’t make art … real

#it’s like my whole problem man #the amount of hours I spend in a day being mentally ill when I could be working on improving my art #even in my sketchbook because oil painting in my apartment is a huge hassle to set up and clean after and fr I don’t always have the energy #it’s looking like wherever I’m ending up after graduation I’ll have to find a dedicated art space even if it’s like. #a one bedroom + I treat it like a studio apartment and then use the bedroom as it’s own separate space #I’m trying so hard to get out of my funk today and there are irises blooming outside my apartment maybe I’ll bring some in and just . #try to do something spontaneous tonight

[rosicheeks]

*hops back in bed*

#I’m in such a funk today #I feel like I’ve been in this funk ever since I moved #especially on days off #idk what to do with myself #normally I would chill and smoke a bowl and maybe paint if I was lucky #but I can’t do any of that #I mean I can watch something but it isn’t the same #also I don’t have any food here and I’m so hungry #I can’t keep going out #I don’t have the money #and my stomach HATES me right now #I just #I’m gonna go back to bed I think #I woke up at 9 to start my laundry #threw a load in and then went back to bed until noon #now it’s 1:30 threw in my next load #and idk what to do #so I guess I’m gonna go back to bed #I think cuddles would fix me rn #shut up rosie

[milo-is-rambling]

Hi what does it mean if you find a maggot in your bed and can’t place where it came from

#I lit him on fire with a lighter and a pair of tweezers but like #where did you come from #my window has screens and my room isn’t that dirty like really it’s so clean compared to how my room used to be and I never had bugs #so why in my bed today #just seems rude #I’m trying to hang out with funk now I gotta kill a maggot

[j-esbian]

i get annoyed and talk shit but i really am soso grateful for my parents.

#was in a funk today which i thought would be. understandable #my coworkers kept trying to cheer me up and like. i appreciate the impulse. it shows they care and they were trying to be kind #but i felt like a kindergartner. they were like trying to distract me by saying What A Good Job I’m Doing #or else just going ‘it’s not a big deal’ and talking to fill up space to once again try to distract me #took a nice quiet drive home and my parents gave me the space to bring it up and ask questions #walked me through the next steps in this process. and then we just hung out and had dinner #it Does seem a lot less serious but they like. know how to talk me through my anxiety lol #still might be impossible to find parts in a salvage yard around here bc no one has my car #but we’ll see #mine

[whumpacabra]

Day 6 - Recordings

Worldbuilding, fictional politics, vague mentions of torture

[Follows Hands of Time]

Sarah felt her blood run cold. She found what she was looking for. A quick glance through the security cameras proved she was still under the radar, her direct uplink to the severs undetected.

Harrison didn’t know she was here; she was on her own if things went tits up.

She came here to wipe the files. The recordings, the data, the history. She couldn’t let them use the results of that project. She couldn’t let them use what they had done to ordinary people - to Harrison - for the “greater good” of the country.

A country all too happy to bloody its hands for profit and control.

Then why was she hesitating?

Deleting these records would prevent something like the Project Leda becoming standard protocol, from happening again when the government inevitably wanted better results.

Deleting these records erased any evidence of the crimes committed by the government against its own people.

Against Harrison.

He didn’t know about any of this; he didn’t know about the recordings, about the Projects. It was her instinct to call him, to ask him what he wanted, what he would do -

But Harrison wasn’t here, and Sarah was on her own.

She saved the data to an external drive.

It would take the worm she released into the server mere minutes to destroy the original data. A project five years in operation, a body count blacked out in sharpie, festering for a lifetime in the minds of those that survived - lost to a string of intangible code between the time it took Sarah to cross the building and slip away into the night.

All gone.

Save for the little black box she carried close to her chest, there was no evidence left of the hell Harrison had survived.

[Followed by Freelancers: Changing Tides]

(Part of my Freelancers: Swansong series)

#whump #whumptober #whumptober 2023 #no. 1 #recordings #oc #whump writing #past torture #politics #not whump #<- I mean. it isn’t really. #freelancers #could probably use another editing pass but. I’m eepy goodnight #listen I’m sick and tired and coulda posted this earlier but I didn’t bc. sleepy. #also just kinda in a general funk of posting 0 note stuff which doesn’t normally get to me like at all #and I knew this one wouldn’t get a passing glance bc it’s not juicy but. I did have fun writing it at the time. #sorry like I said I’m sick and exhausted and it’s getting to my head #I don’t write for you I write bc if I don’t play w my blorbos like a 9 yo girl w her barbie dolls I’ll explode #OUGH I FORGOR THE MASTERPOST LINK AKDJEBDJANS #that should tell you how fuzzy my brain is today T_T

[sourcedecay]

Back in my having my shit together era hopefully

#worked out and studied today. didn’t get everything done but I’m also free tomorrow so it’s chill #have a midterm monday but i actually remember more of the material than i thought #i like working out it’s hard to motivate myself to actually do it sometimes. been in a bit of a funk the past couple weeks

[ghostbeam]

Going over my Dabi wip again and getting a little bit excited

#it’s fun to write tbh!!!! #I have had like. not a good day<3 #been a little bit sad today idk why but I think I might be coming out of the funk #hopefully #(watch me wake up the same tomorrow) #omg anyways u do not care abt that I’m here to say that I am going to try and write a little bit more tonight #I’ve only got up to like 1k so far #but we are slowly but surely getting thereeeeee #I Hope u all had a good day and a happy start to 2023<3 #ghost thoughts