#I'm happy enough just writing all day

[prettyxvenom99]

Turkey-less Stuffed Roast with Gravy (and Ghosts)

Levi preparing his Thanksgiving dinner. Lots of angst ahead.

There is no point in buying whole turkeys — they are too big. Besides, they take a lifetime to defrost, and once they do, all Levi wants is to sink himself in the puddle they leave. 

Turkeys aren’t his favorite animal, not by a long mile. They’re too much of a symbol. People only eat them once a year, in a very particular occasion: two bustling days of preparation and one big dinner, everyone around a table hand in hand, gratitude on their lips. 

But to Levi, there is no point in buying whole turkeys — they are too big, and his table too small. Instead, he bought one of those boxes of artificiality they sell at Trader Joe’s: Breaded Turkey-less Stuffed Roast with Gravy, which the store at the corner of his street has ceaselessly advertised, and to which he has finally caved.

Upon scrutinizing the packaging, he has come to a conclusion: the best thing about it is that it freezes well. This is, obviously, a dietary requirement for singles with no families — he can’t finish everything by himself, but now he’ll have food for the whole week. Perfect. He can be thankful for that. 

He slices the brown, breaded hunk of fake meat. Careful with the stuffing, he tells himself. He lays the oval pieces on a baking sheet, sprays oil over them, pops them into the oven. Fifteen minutes, the instruction says. Yes, sir! Levi answers. 

He has heard tales of what a great fun Thanksgiving dinner prep could be. This must be what it feels like. It’s just that those people would have others to perform witty dialogues with. Meanwhile, Levi only has the writings at the back of a food package — a decent conversation partner, but he knows it won’t win him any Oscars. 

HEATING INSTRUCTIONS: GRAVY. MICROWAVE (1200 watt): Microwave cook times may vary depending on oven wattage …

“Do I even know my ‘oven wattage’? Come on, nobody knows their oven wattage,” he chides. “Anyway, I’m done spinning around as my life’s tryna burn me. Let’s just use the stove top.”

STOVE TOP: Empty gravy into a sauce pan, over medium heat and stir to simmer. 

“Yes, sir!” Levi murmurs. “Ready when you are, sir!”

As the gravy waits for a simmer, the oven works with a soft hiss and quiet creaking. Levi kneels before it and peeks in with a careful frown between his brows, muttering some earnest encouragement. 

Gotta get ‘em up to … Instructions, what was it again? An internal temperature of 165 degree Fahrenheit — yeah. You can do it, Oven! You little brat, stop complaining. You ain’t even that hot yet. 

(If this all sounds a little crazy, that’s because it is. But he’s trying to have fun, and there’s only so much conversation you can have when you’re alone.)

“You look beautiful,” he breathes out when the roast is done — golden-brown slices of perfection. He bathes them meticulously in the gravy, lays them next to the mashed potatoes and cranberries he’d scooped out from their little plastic containers. 

“There you go,” he says. “All done. Great job, team. Here ends our Special Thanksgiving Operations. Successful, as far as I’m concerned. Thank you, everyone.”

But he knows it isn’t really over yet. No, the hardest part is yet to come. 

He brings his plate to his tiny dining table and sits down. He folds his hands together and takes a deep breath. 

“I am grateful for …”

His voice breaks. No prayer comes. What is there to pray for, when there’s no one left? What is there to be grateful of, when life just takes and takes and takes …

He cuts a small bite, throws it into his mouth. He looks around at his invisible guests, the ghosts around his table. He smiles. “Not bad, huh? We should do this again next year. I hope you’ll still be around, all of you.”

No one corrects him, of course. No one dares tell him the truth. 

To some people, ghosts and imaginations are all they can be thankful for. It’s a lie and an insanity, but what does it matter? People take whatever warmth they can get. Let’s not ruin it for them.

~~~

Disclaimer: This is not a Trader Joe's advertisement.

Likes and reblogs are very much appreciated! Also, happy Thanksgiving if you celebrate that.

#who else is alone this Thanksgiving lol #I'm happy enough just writing all day #levi angst #levi x reader #levi ackerman #captain levi #aot fanfiction #levi x you #levi x y/n #thanksgiving #levi fanfiction #levi ackerman x reader #aot levi #venom writes

[benevolenterrancy]

Man, some fanfiction feels like you're writing with a broad brush, splashing paint all over the canvas, not too worried about what gets where as long as it's bright and fun and vibrant and pulls you in

And then there some fanfiction that feels like fucking surgery. Why is my heartrate picking up as I very carefully transfer one paragraph to another part of the page, going so delicately because I'm worried I'll break the thread of my thoughts and the entire web of plot is going to crash down to my feet

#on one hand: this fanfiction is very fun to write because it's very involved and requires every single preceding bit to fit together properl #like a domino chain #on the other hand i feel slightly like i'm going insane as i try to remember which characters were where #how much time has reasonably passed #have i laid enough groundwork for this? does it makes sense? does it make sense for the reader? does it make sense for all these characters #and who's pov should be surgically planted between these two other scenes #i'm going to be so happy to get this done but i'm getting close to end game and i ALWAYS get writers block towards the ending of a fic #bene speaks #ignore me #i've just been bashing my head against my keyboard for the past couple days as i try to get more of this written

[theflyingfeeling]

fanfic rambling in the tags, nothing interesting really, just me talking to myself lol, okay to ignore or read as you please ✨

#so i've found the perfect prompt list for an olli/allu fic advent calendar sorta thing #but i'm too intimidated by my own expectations and ridiculously high standards to even start writing any of them 😭 #honestly these prompts are so insanely cute and fit olli/allu PERFECTLY #like. i'm actually having trouble deciding which ones to use because i want to write them all 🥺💞 #but i'm so so scared that i'll just end up writing the same (boring) story over again for 24 times 😔 #i wish i could just write without thinking and trying so hard to write a literary masterpiece #when i KNOW it's alright if it's just a silly little story about my blorbos #that's perfectly enough and i know this but my brain's just not having it 😩 #also if i were to write 24 independent fics i'd have to keep them short and simple but. that's not how i do fics. unfortunately (for me) #to overcome this i guess one option would be to write just one longer piece with 24 chapters #and somehow try to include the prompt of the day in each chapter 🤔 #but i don't want to make this even more complicated to myself lol especially because i'm planning to write AUs for a couple of the prompts #i REALLY want to do prompts (of any kind!!) but i'm just so scared of stressing myself out to another months-long writer's block 😭 #fair enough the last time that happened (last winter/spring) i was in a shitty place mentally anyway #and so far i've been happy to be writing on random bursts of inspiration. that's how it's the easiest for me. the words just...flow out #i'm so insanely jealous of anyone who can just create stuff when given any prompt 😭 #y'all are super humans to me how do you do it pls spill your secrets #and anyone tempted to comfort me by saying i shouldn't stress myself over this and that i don't have to write anything i don't wanna write: #i knoooooowwww and i appreactiate the sentiment but the thing is i actually DO want to write these prompts 😭 #in theory at least. because they really are cute as fuck wth 🥺 #the problem is that i can't /force/ myself to write something at the snap of my fingers without a clear idea besides the prompt #and also because i know it can take me days to finish even one story let alone 24 💀 #so to even START on this project is a little intimidating 🫣 #i just fear i won't have the patience :( #and when i realise i won't be able to finish the project i'll become frustrated with myself #if only i knew how to write shorter one-scenes in order to not tire myself out #but often i find those kind of fics somehow...unsatisfying :( #i'm just a sucker for crafting the context/background for stories. a little flesh around the bones if you will 🤧 #okay that's all now i'm gonna go stare at a wall while doing nothing useful for the rest of the weekend byeeee #if you read this far i hope you're having a nice saturday

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: December 1. Starting this again! It has been years

"Soap" by the Oh Hellos

#song of the day #I used to use these posts as a sort of daily babbling opportunity and I'm gonna give that a shot again #I'm awful at journaling (for all that I'll tell a story about my day at the drop of a hat I just can't seem to write it down for me) #but a good few of the dumb little articles I've found in my desperate searching for insomnia aids have recommended journals #sleep or otherwise #and I do think it helped me keep track of days/times/general impressions of how I was feeling back when I did this before #so I'm gonna try it again! #if y'all'd like a more specific blockable tag just let me know #anyway I love this song and I was thinking a silly thing earlier and it started autoplaying in my head and I was like /perfect/ #silly concept aside the song itself is a delight. a great sound very fun to sing and clever lyrics #'a rudimentary lye; some kind of miraculous bind' #and I'm just sentimental/superstitious enough to be happy starting this frantic attempt to train my brain into sleeping again #with a song that ends with 'it's gonna hurt like hell / but we're going to be well / I'll give you my best shot'

[bonesbuckleup]

Just thinking about like a hinge, like a wing and wondered if we could have a tiny preview of tim and dick meeting? As a treat?

Sadly, no, but mostly because that bit hasn't been written yet. 😅

I am physically incapable of writing things in order. So, like, when I estimate I have ~30% of the sequel written, it's not that I have the first third done. It's that I have the opening scene, the ending scene, and then a scatter shot of random paragraphs and bits of dialogue and moments that may or may not make it into the final version, which makes me hesitant to share actual bits. Something that's there and a major plot point right now could be gone in a week.

In the meantime, please enjoy this shitty meme (a companion to this one, if you will) that I made five seconds ago re: the Like a Hinge follow up fic--

#mail #steeb-stn #for the record I'm linking to the first ask purely for the meme included #It makes me really happy people like the fic enough to ask after the sequel 💛💛💛 #I just write for my day job and am doing revisions on an original novel and so sometimes fic gets put on the back burner for a while #so it may be a bit before anything is postable #and I'm not gonna post until it's fully written (or at least like...90%) #the writer appreciates all of your patience #anyway #fic stuff #Batfam #Jason Todd #Tim Drake #Dick Grayson

[coffeeshib]

the scene in your fic where kara says lena is pretty all over and kisses her face makes me feel..... a lot. im aromantic/greyro but i kind of get romance when i read your words. maybe i love those long drawn out moments in your fics because the line between friendship and romance is being toed.

ahh as someone on the aro spectrum, this is a Huge Compliment. it doesn’t need to be understood, just felt

it's kinda my fav thing to write - the exploration of sc’s friendship before blurring it, & making them ‘more than friends, less than lovers’ or anything of the sorts.

kara & lena's unspoken bond being so strong, writing them in a way where there's little to no hesitancy straddling the line between friendship & romance in supercorp’s own special way & reaching a level of closeness where 'you' & 'i' comes to a halt, no longer two things, & becoming a 'we' mm chefs kiss

#i dunno man; i write romance in a way that feels real to me & it thrills me to hear a fellow aro kind of 'get' it #& having said that i do have plenty of moments where i'm like; does this make sense? does kara & lena look 'in love' enough here? #what they have - is it believable? love feels very different for everyone #i adoreeee writing the buildup; moments of them being supportive & happy with each other; because i need all that to make the #'romance' & connection to make sense to Me. which is why i'm terrible at writing short fics; development & buildup has to be there #it's not just showing to the readers that these two make a good couple - it's also me being certain that they make sense to me too #i don't really talk about this; brain a little brr with romance but i get it to an extent #anyway thank you for dropping by & writing this!! made my day #hope you're having a lovely day #asks

[rusalkaandtheshepherdgirl]

sucks to suck sometimes

#that is to say i'm going to vent here in the tags i would apologize but this is my blog so #but i won a sonnet contest yay congrats go me if there's one thing i can do it is write pretty weird sonnets that people like for some reas #i even got prize money for it again all good here #however yesterday i was driving because you know i was planning to go try and take my driving test and get a license #for you know government id and also so i can. drive a car and whatever useful skill in this car-centric hellscape amiright #and i did passably all hour i just drove around the city practicing like passing and stopping smoothly and all those good things #and then i drove onto my street which i cannot stress enough is a one way residential street #and it was the middle of the day so like. there were a total of five cars parked along the block #and my mom picked up a call with her girlfriend which like good for her right but it's very distracting because she's right next to me #and i'm trying not to listen because she doesn't like to be eavesdropped on when she's talking to her gf #and the apartment has paper thin walls so i basically have to try and turn my attention off so as to give her privacy #so anyways i turn half my attention off and manage to tap one of the cars parked on one of this nearly-empty street #because to quote olivia rodrigo i'm not cool and i'm not smart and i can't even parallel park #and they test u on that so i was trying to parallel park right which i can't #so now i am refusing to go take my driving test because i hate myself and my abilities #and to get back to the setup i can't even be happy about prize money or anything because obvs i have to pay back my mom #because cars are expensive even if it's just small dents in them #and like. there's been a whole thing about me being promised a job and then not getting it so i don't even have a job right now #i'm applying to all the places i can think of that i can get to on public trans and who might wanna hire a teenager with v little experienc #so anyway until someone decides to take pity on me and hire me i don't even have a job to help pay her back with #which it could be worse! we have enough money that it's not going to be a disaster until i can properly pay her back #and my sweet twin is even begging me to let them pay half because we generally split expenses and pool our money and whatever #even if it's usually like. buying coffee for both of us or getting lunch someplace not me managing to fuck up driving on an empty street #so like it could be way way worse however it really sucks #anyways i feel terrible about the whole thing obviously and needed to vent someplace #so hi strangers on the internet it was probably not worth it at all to read all of that #rio remarks

[yououghtaknow]

hard thing about Being Me is i will write things that are So Good but i cannot show them to people because it will mentally destroy them

#i have enough songs about the redacted situation to make a BANGING ep #but tonight i'm going to stop writing songs about other people and write about me #ALSO i have my keyboard now!!!!!!! so i'm gonna play some piano #which i'll feel more comfortable doing at night because it's a daw and i can use my headphones on it :) #[guy who experienced One moment of being known and loved that no one else knows about] omg the world is a beautiful place??? #just. being appreciated despite all of my intense mental shit really Gets me. #is it a bit messed up that i only feel validated when people relate me to media??? maybe. but we COPE. #ANYWAYS are most of my friends going to be on the other side of the country for the next few days?? yes. #but i am going to do things without them. i'm going to live. sick of wallowing sick of rotting sick of sadness. #I'M GOING TO COMPILE THE [REDACTED] SONGS INTO AN EP TRACKLIST BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY #and i will work on editing wrex and holland and drafting my emails to theatre people i want to talk to #i am a PERSON who can DO THINGS. i am NOT my trauma or my mental illnesses. #kind of realised that being around people but specifically my close friends/family makes my mental illnesses a lot worse #which i don't know how to Deconstruct yet but i will talk to my therapist #but i'm trying to be better. i Want to be better.

[luckyagain]

YES exactly, same for me 😭 it hits me sooooo hard i want to eat this song i want it to be physically under my skin i'm JWXNSJZJAAAAAAA

how satellite goes to sleep at night knowing she's the best song on the album

#yessss!!! it just makes me so emotional because we have how many songs from harry lamenting a lack of communication #(mostly from his end) in their relationship?? and to have this song start with him actually trying #(rather than just being sad about it) to initiate that conversation is just everything to me. like the ✨growth✨ #and sure maybe harry needs some liquid courage to get the ball rolling and sure maybe louis isn't ready to talk just yet #but the focus of the song isn't about that #it's about how harry's all in #about how he's devoted to louis and their relationship #he desperately wants to be there for louis #and rather than panic or worry that they aren't talking enough #he understands that louis needs time and space to figure things out #showing that he trusts louis to pull him in when he's ready to talk #but until then harry is happy to wait for him #orbiting around him like the sun #and idk if it's because i've seen harry grow up these past ten years or what but it makes me so emotional this kind of writing come from #him #he went from 'it feels like these days i'm watching you from afar...don't let me go' to 'i'm spinning out waiting for ya to pull me in' #anyway im gonna go cry myself to sleep now lmao

[sennikold]

the greatest thing has happened. ya girl finally started a vacation, a whole week off from work.

#( out of character. ) #the amount of shit i did not to feel stressed during my free time wasn't enough to finish everything #but after i'm done with this nap i'm gonna use the hell out of it #my holiday plans fell through i will likely be alone but at the very least i'm gonna rest so #i'm planning to get back online i really had no time or energy to do it #i've been 12h at work just today rbfdhvjs #and it's all been writing game documents or creative redesigns or scripts #i wanna write MY stuff but i also just need a lil nap and maybe i'm gonna finish love betwee/n fai/ry and de/vil #god i'm so happy i was about to lose my shit #i'm a bit stressed because my mom's health got worse again but i need to believe things will turn out fine or else #i couldn't finish anything bc i'm the lead for creative shit p much a creative director and i was on call all day every day lol

[noxtivagus]

PEOPLE ARE SO INTERESTING

#🌙.rambles #hi 2 am rambles but tonight i am loving life #dear diary (lol) i am tired n i have lost a lot of energy after this very good day n i will sleep soon #bro idk what i'm writing rn i just ate a cookie n thought about people #cookie.... i am so full rn it's a big cookie 😭😭 it's so delicious though. i really want to learn how to bake someday #but i wonder. i was wondering how you all perceive me here #bcs looking at a mix of who i am in discord. tumblr. twitter. spotify. all those have differences imo #discord you'd see the way i text with others? the things i share. the things i send. the words i say #personally for me reflecting on the things i often say to ppl n it serves as a reaffirmation honestly that i genuinely am kind at heart #i love telling others kind things. that makes me happy. saying good morning n good night n take care n sleep well n rest well #i just find it so interesting. everything. i think about so much things in life on a daily basis #and if anyone were to really. reach close enough to the deepest parts of me #there's a lot of pain definitely but i think someone would see a girl filled with so much love for life #i'm getting off-topic but god i am constantly so confused n lost but i still am strong. i'm proud of who i am. of my mindset #i love who i am. i love the things i desire. and the way i work towards my goals #and not just me. for everyone else. i'm gna cry #i already am 🥹 it often hurts bcs i'm really so. i feel very deeply #so when i. when i struggle n feel so alone it hurts me so much because at times it gets so hard to break out of that even tho i know better #there's so much to love about life but there's so little time too #maybe in my head i can be a little too idealistic at times but. at the same time i know i've gone through so much pain already #that feeling of betrayal. of being forgotten. left behind. god i'm crying even more remembering about all those nights #so. as long as i hold unto myself. unto everything i have ever loved. that will spur me onwards. that i may forge ahead unto tomorrow #the same things i analyze of myself like. the things i said at first here. i think of everyone else as well #how would it be like to live life through your own eyes? with your thoughts and experiences and emotions? #you see. there's really so much to life. and that's what i always remember when i feel like dying #like genuinely i have. felt so. down and sad that i have thought about it. wishing i could just. but i don't want. anyone to worry #my love for the people in my life kept me going when i hated myself so much #god n i. i'm crying so much wait. that's why i want to give so much kindness to others too #i'm crying. i love the night so much bcs i love being open and authentic like this so much but most of the time i get afraid honestly

[shiningstages]

I have mentally recovered from my internship activities for the day (a partial lie), so now I’ll write those asks~

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( i was supposed to watch a couple classes today and i was gonna use that for a thing #but no; the teacher was out today for some reason; so i spent an hour and something on putting up posters on the school fence #in the heat of summer near noon; very fun!! not at all mentally exhausted!! #edit: doing the dishes actually helped out a lot; like the fog is gone??? but i'm still like. not happy with how the day went fggfhfgxhf #the posters btw are those tarp-material type posters #and can i just say love all our sponsors; but also why must we have a tarp poster for every sponsor #i think we put up twenty posters like i really hope no one walks by while i'm yakuza crouching in my dress trying to just #ziptie this corner tight enough #and now i have a blog due by thursday and no material planned :)) brainstorming tomorrow; writing for fun today!! )

[aberooski]

Replaying Shadow of the Colossus again for the first time in an astounding SIX YEARS somehow??? And I'm 10 colossi down, 6 to go, and AUGH it just feels like home being back I love this game so much 🥰🥰🥰

#fought dirge this morning and FUCK that guy scares me to this day he's scared me since the ps2 days as a kid #he gets right up in uour face and you have to fight him off agro's back while she runs around the arena and you have to shoot him in the #eyes with your bow and his fuckin majora's mask moon eyes right in your face chasing after you from behind slithering through the sand 😭 #but I had a really good run of the fight so it's fiiiiine lol #and man that world just feels like home it's so beautiful and the vibes are immaculate and the MUSIC 😩 #the ost is simply phenomenal I put it on while I'm writing all the time #I'm so happy to be back I have no idea how I hadn’t played this game since 2018 like I saw the save data on my ps4 when I restarted #and I literally died that's insane!! SoTC is one of my favorite games of all time how could that time have slipped me by????? #I think I tricked myself into thinking it hadn’t been that long because of how many times I've rewatched my favorite playthroughs of it #but could not recommend this game enough if you haven't played it it's amazing and there's truly nothing like it in this world ❤ #aberooski games #shadow of the colossus

[thebibliosphere]

So, anyway, I say as though we are mid-conversation, and you're not just being invited into this conversation mid-thought. One of my editors phoned me today to check in with a file I'd sent over. (<3)

The conversation can be surmised as, "This feels like something you would write, but it's juuuust off enough I'm phoning to make sure this is an intentional stylistic choice you have made. Also, are you concussed/have you been taken over by the Borg because ummm."

They explained that certain sentences were very fractured and abrupt, which is not my style at all, and I was like, huh, weird... And then we went through some examples, and you know that meme going around, the "he would not fucking say that" meme?

Yeah. That's what I experienced except with myself because I would not fucking say that. Why would I break up a sentence like that? Why would I make them so short? It reads like bullet points. Wtf.

Anyway. Turns out Grammarly and Pro-Writing-Aid were having an AI war in my manuscript files, and the "suggestions" are no longer just suggestions because the AI was ignoring my "decline" every time it made a silly suggestion. (This may have been a conflict between the different software. I don't know.)

It is, to put it bluntly, a total butchery of my style and writing voice. My editor is doing surgery, removing all the unnecessary full stops and stitching my sentences back together to give them back their flow. Meanwhile, I'm over here feeling like Don Corleone, gesturing at my manuscript like:

ID: a gif of Don Corleone from the Godfather emoting despair as he says, "Look how they massacred my boy."

Fearing that it wasn't just this one manuscript, I've spent the whole night going through everything I've worked on recently, and yep. Yeeeep. Any file where I've not had the editing software turned off is a shit show. It's fine; it's all salvageable if annoying to deal with. But the reason I come to you now, on the day of my daughter's wedding, is to share this absolute gem of a fuck up with you all.

This is a sentence from a Batman fic I've been tinkering with to keep the brain weasels happy. This is what it is supposed to read as:

"It was quite the feat, considering Gotham was mostly made up of smog and tear gas."

This is what the AI changed it to:

"It was quite the feat. Considering Gotham was mostly made up. Of tear gas. And Smaug."

Absolute non-sensical sentence structure aside, SMAUG. FUCKING SMAUG. What was the AI doing? Apart from trying to write a Batman x Hobbit crossover??? Is this what happens when you force Grammarly to ignore the words "Batman Muppet threesome?"

Did I make it sentient??? Is it finally rebelling? Was Brucie Wayne being Miss Piggy and Kermit's side piece too much???? What have I wrought?

Anyway. Double-check your work. The grammar software is getting sillier every day.

#autocorrect writes the plot #I uninstalled both from my work account #the enshittification of this type of software through the integration of AI has made them untenable to use #not even for the lulz

[mcgilou]

#🃏 ℳᵃᵍᶤᵏᵃᶻᵃᵐ ━ ( ooc ) #// the temptation to rb that portrayal meme here too is strong but i only revived magilou like a day ago #// nowhere near enough writing minus all my old stuff to really say much #// tho gosh i'm honestly happy i'm not just writing her comedic side but getting to dash in her other side #// bc rarely got to do that or got a chance in the past it makes me so happy #🃏 ℳᵃᵍᶤᵏᵃᶻᵃᵐ ━ ( tbd )

[james-stark-the-writer]

writing annotations for sources is one of the most annoying things ever and i just spent the last hour writing 15 annotations and now my hands hurt like hell and i wanna end it all bc i literally turned the assignment in with 1 minute remaining (and several annotations had to be compromised to get it in so i'm also sad i turned in subpar work, even if it's better than no work at all) and i still had work to do for a few of them, and a few typos slipped past and i even got 2 citations wrong.

#james talks #literally there's so much fucking research i've done today my brain is officially fried #there's nothing going on in there rn #literally not only read 1.5 novels today but also found and annotated 15 sources on Mansfield Park and Maria or The Wrongs of Woman and-- #the construction of the patriarchy and systems of power in england in the 18th century and how women were subjugated by them and-- #how they were also complicit in their construction and perpetuated those systems and how the laws of england also oppressed the women #i literally had to skim through half the papers to get the annotations done so i'm sure some of them aren't even entirely accurate #but my professor is already weeks behind on grading so she's not gonna check and actually read all the sources #but it's just annoying and disappointing that i couldn't get it done to my usual standards. #some of my annotations were only like 3 sentences and some only got a little bit of research and others got a bunch-- #and it's really noticeable but here's to hoping my professor doesn't give enough of a shit to dock points for it. #anyway i would be so happy if i never had to do another annotated bibliograpy or literature review in my life. #literally gonna go put on some music and lie in bed and try to relax and hopefully get some sleep #though i had to take 4 cups of coffee to power through today's mountain of work so sleep is not very likely atm #anyway i have a whole day's of youtube to catch up with as well #and i have to do more research and a powerpoint for a class presentation on monday that i can't actually do until late sunday bc-- #i won't be at home this weekend since i have to go to my aunt's and my laptop is broken and it's annoying to do on my phone #and i obviously can't take my whole computer to her place #AND i have to prepare for finals in a week and turn in a bunch of creative writing to my writing groups and start 4 multi-page papers #literally i'm gonna kill myself at this rate #jesus christ i'm spiraling. let me go try to relax for a while.