#I'm lucky to even have a few

[yardsards]

also. amber gris as a character is really important to me as an appalachian.

not just her accent or the specific type of person justin based her off of but like

the feeling of losing someone to addiction/overdose while the government does nothing to help, just criminalizes and stigmatizes and makes things worse. which obviously happens in more places than just around here, but we have one of the highest rates of overdose death in the whole country and that whole set of scenes felt like they were really informed by growing up around that

#eliot posts #taz #taz ethersea #the adventure zone #amber gris #drugs cw #death mention #i've made posts like this and deleted them cuz i never feel like i'm wording it just right but just. god. #i'm lucky enough to have never been addicted or to have a best friend or immediate family member die from it #but i've lost or nearly lost extended family to it #and it's like. #my own accent isn't that thick and neither is my immediate family's or best friends' #but i've known ppl who talked like her. #specifically a man named larry who lived with us when we were real young #for some reason especially the way amber says ''come on'' just always reminds me so strongly of larry's voice. he said that phrase a lot #he was the one who taught me to tie my shoes even after my parents lost patience with me for being 'too old' to not understand #he drank excessively like my dad did but he never got mean with us kids #he came and went a few times over the years. the final time he left was when i was in late elementary #he died of an overdose when i was in high school. i didn't feel much of anything at the time. #it had been so long since i'd seen him but also i was at a point in my life where i'd've been numb to big emotions like that anyway #so my parents got drunk about it and i did nothing. just went to school and shit as usual. #i did not expect those feelings to get dredged up by a goddamned comedy dnd podcast #but they did it well i think #even though i had to pause it to take a breather multiple times. i enjoyed it overall. cathartic i guess?

[blackbackedjackal]

Sometimes I think about how long some of you all have been following me and I'm like wow, ya'll really like watching this clown.

#i know so many of ya'll by icon especially since I'm a visiual learner #I'm honestly very lucky to have attracted so many nice and cool and interesting as hell folks #i don't wanna sound like cliché or anything just like #even if I can't respond every the time know that I do really appreciate you all taking the time to be kind to me and show me things #and ask me stuff like #tumblrs always been my safe spece online #especially since this blog was made cause I had to avoid a stalker #and it's grown into this place where like #i love hearing what you guy have to say and show me things #I live alone and work a lot (and have been on tumblr more due to a lot of irl drama I can't get into yet) #and if any of ya'll are like gone for a while I will be like 'I hope ___ is doing ok' cause I do notice ;-; #so many of ya'll have been just so willing to be kind to me or let me vent to you privately or educate me about stuff #led me in the right direction and offer help #like the kindness goes both ways and I think that's really special #i might remove this later cause I get shy sharing but ahhhhhh #thank you all so so so much #it's been a rough as week #and a rough few years #so I'm just really thankful to you all ;;;;;;

[aroandawkward]

It feels kind of magical to happen across other aspecs in the wild. Once I heard a friend of a friend talk about aesthetic attraction so I tentatively asked if she was aspec and her face lit up with a "Yes!" Another time I was chatting with someone that I'd sat next to in the first lecture of a new course and (because they were talking about queer stuff) I mentioned that I was aroace and they exclaimed "No way - me too! I've never met another one!" and we were both so excited. Even just learning through the grapevine that an acquaintance (e.g. a family friend I played with when we were kids, and a girl I was in a writing group with six years ago) is ace and/or aro makes me feel so warm and happy. It reminds me I'm not alone. It reminds me that other aspecs don't just live on the internet. They are out there in the world, living their own full and rich lives.

#Aspec #aromantic #asexual #actually aromantic #actually asexual #Feeling kinda down today partly cos of aroace-related stuff so I'm trying to remember moments like this #This has happened to me a lot more since I started being more open about my orientation #because that openness creates more opportunities for these discoveries #But I think I'm also more able to revel in it than when I was less confident in being aroace #like I remember a few years ago seeing someone I knew irl posting on social media about being ace #and just feeling flat about it because I didn't feel connected to them #and I didn't feel like I'd ever be able to talk about that with them even if we were friends #But now I feel more solid in my orientation #I am more able to be like 'same hat!!' #Anyway I know I have been lucky to have these moments #but if you are someone who has never met another aspec person #chances are that you will one day #or maybe someone you already know just isn't out #or hasn't realised yet #There are enough of us that it is more than possible to meet other aspecs by pure coincidence #Awkward aroposting

[itsjaywalkers]

guys i've been writing the iwtywmm sequel all day but i haven't stopped thinking about the overprotective james series like . at all . not even for a single second

#i think it's bc i finally made the playlist public #and there are a few songs there that are just So Jeggy in that au it's making me feel a bit insane #not to mention the third installment is probably the thing i've reread the most of everything i've ever written #not even bc of editing i just really like it #it's not my best in the slightest but idk #it scratches my brain just right #and i'm so fond of their dynamic there #one of my fav james for sure #u guys are so lucky i have some self-restraint bc i've been wanting to rant about that au here all day #like i'm writing iwtywmm jeggy and going feral over them #but at the same time #i'm brainrotting about overprotective james jeggy #ALSO #the series has a name already #kinda wanna start using it bc i love it and it fits so well but i've grown attached to 'overprotective james' lmao

[stardestroyer81]

Surprise!

Just in time for the holidays, I bring you something special today— the long-awaited ninth installment of my Lovers of Aether incorrect quote series! Seeing as I've started to dip my paws back into the Aether franchise, I thought that it would be a well enough time to concoct another set of ten incorrect quotes starring all your favorites.

And it doesn't stop there; this is the first installment to be fully equipped with image IDs! I'm hoping to go back and write IDs for the previous eight parts sometime soon, but for now, consider this a treat for anyone that uses a screen reader! 💙✨

As always, for the best experience, click on each quote to get a better look at each one; it will also help separate one quote from the next!

Previous Parts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8

While I'm not entirely sure when the ceremonious tenth installment will arrive, I can say with full certainty that I'm going to go all out with that one, in that I'll more than likely include more than the usual ten quotes alongside brand new text boxes! For now, I hope that these were worth the near-two year wait! 💖✨

#Lovers of Aether #LoA #Rivals of Aether #RoA #Tales of Aether #Incorrect Quotes #PsyClairen #MaypulBurn #S/I #S/I x F/O #Text Boxes #Coolness #Wanna know just how long it's been since Part 8? #I hadn't even realized I was transgender yet. In fact I didn't even have 'she' or 'they' in my pronouns whatsoever. #Luckily this is the first set of incorrect quotes to address Psycha as a transfem— as it should be! #There are also not one but TWO references to my usual 'Star' alias; and that was wholly intentional #Psycha is bi all accounts a star! #I was also sure to include the usual PsyClairen and MaypulBurn quotes too for those who ship any of the two pairings #There's even a few appearances from characters that haven't shown up in a while like Ayala and Sylvanos! #If I'm lucky I'll see if I can include absolutely everyone I can in Part 10... we'll see how that goes 👀

[vynnyal]

A little something like this, right?

#From memory for the most part #I've drawn these characters more times than I expected 😂 #I cheated and fixed a few things when I went to pick colors (and then didn't even use them) #Idk I felt nostalgic and decided to crank out a few bugs #Lesse... What stories do I got. It's been a while so I have quite the selection #Oh jdbdjvskhff my dog died from cancer of all things. Like seriously what the heck #While we were recovering I jokingly mentioned something about getting another rescue dog #Within the WEEK we had a pomeranian in our house. A pomeranian. 16 pounds. Pomeranian. #See the reason I mentioned it at all was to give our other dog- Tiger the 11(?) yr old maltipoo- company in his twilight years. #You know. Maybe another old pooch like Lucky that was chill and kind #And now we have Rudy aka SPITFIRE #He's fun though! I like him. He's always smiling and it warms my heart. I swear I can walk out of the house for an hour #and he'll greet my like I've been gone for years every single time #What else. Oh lol so I'm taking care of my neighbor's house for two weeks #A wwwk in and the cat decides to RUN OFF. In the middle of a THUNDERSTORM. #36 hrs later and I'm like aight this isn't great #After posting notices online etc I was sitting around and thought to myself something kinda dumb #See he likes listening to me play on their grand piano. They never use it but I do and the cat always lays at my feet while I jam #So I thought... what if I pied piper the cat home. So I threw open all the doors #And played for oh idk 20 min? #CAT WALKS IN. SITS ON THE FLOOR BESIDES ME #Cats. I stg #Eh that's all for now I'm sleeby #hollow knight #art tag #See ya!

[skunkes]

#really really really regretting not being in hell for a few short years of whatever degree wouldve made me money #even if im still convinced i wldnt have made it out alive #bc its starting to really hit now. like im never gonna have a good job or be able to stay afloat #i keep getting sad bc i have expensive tastes for future home decor and fashion and such LOL #wondering if i shld go back to college but idek what id study considering even good career paths dont have guaranteed jawbs... #i need to get lucky somehow... i rlly dont know what I'm gonna do #im never getting out of here and if i do it'll just be a different fight to stay alive...wah #talkys #whatever im [sad] im gonna go [look at ryan goslings ken] so i wont be so [sad]

[kanerallels]

OH MY STARS HAZEL!!! Did you see the trailer for The Wingfeather Saga season two?? I’m SO excited!!

(I got a little bit too happy during the Artham scene, even if it lasted for like two seconds lol)

I JUST WATCHED IT AND I AM LITERALLY LOSING MY MIND WITH EXCITEMENT NOW!!!!!!!!!! This season is gonna be incredible, even though I KNOW it's gonna end on a cliffhanger since they're splitting book two into two parts (or at least so I'm told). But we still get my boy the Florid Sword! And Maraly!!! And the Fork Factory!!!!!!

(dude that is VALID I freaked out a little too. I'm so freaking excited to see how they show the journey he went through in book two in the tv show!!)

#i am extra lucky cause i'm a guild member #and have therefore already seen episode one #but yeah this is gonna be SO GOOD and SO FEELSY #thanks for the ask!! #(i didn't even know a new trailer was out until you told me) #dang i can't wait to be devastated by this #fun fact i'm convincing my friend to watch this show with her sister when she's done with school in a few months #hehehehe she's gonna love it #and at the same time she has no idea what i'm getting her into hehehehehehe #the wingfeather saga

[cordeliawhohung]

When will you do more parts of soft spot?

hi :)

as much as i appreciate the interest in soft spot, i just want to reiterate that i do work in health care!! i work 10 hour shifts, and am also chronically ill (the irony, really). because of this, my writing schedule is very hectic, and i also don't have a regular upload schedule either haha. i write whenever i am able to and post the parts as soon as i'm finished pretty much, so please be patient with me )):

if it makes you feel any better, i am at 5k words for the next part! it's just taking a little longer because it's mostly smut and that's honestly a huge weak spot of mine writing wise a;slkdfjs

but uh yeah i am just a little guy ):

#core talks #core responds #soft spot ramble #also i realized i posted the last part not even a week ago #so i've written 5k words in like 4 days #which might be slightly overworking myself but #trust me i have as much brain rot for this series as anyone else #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #ghost x reader #maybe if i'm lucky it'll be out tomorrow #we'll see #i'm working on it currently and have been for the last few hours so #also maybe overworking myself #no for sure overworking myself #but i got spotify on da tv so we vibing #ignore me pls (:

[criscura]

I wish I wasn't so exhausted and I could make more art.... I even planned out a whole prompt-a-day month for Saigenos/Genosai, TWICE, but the first time no one seemed like they could participate when I asked about it, and the second time I friggin lost the damned plan. I could remake it a third time, but I just....I don't know.

I've been really struggling to get along for a while, and I think if it didn't hit it off--or even if I just got really productive and it seemed like I was reaching crickets--I'd be so incredibly discouraged that it would bring me down even further. It usually takes my stuff a few months to a year to get reach, and that really doesn't do anything for me when I need the support immediately.

It's not that I don't have a billion ideas for so many different things, but my battery has been taking longer and longer to charge up and it's been running out faster and faster, and it's been like this for....a year?? Ish?? Maybe longer, I don't know.

I wish I could just stop needing so much fucking time to bounce back.....

#written from my bed as I'm almost crying from exhaustion and hopelessness #I'm PMSing and I had a really tiring day so i know this feels worse than normal #but when you've been struggling to fall asleep for months because waking up means being disappointed in yourself #for everything you failed to do the day before and everything you know you're going to fail to do again today #it's really hard not to feel like shit about yourself #trying to be constantly hopeful but never living up to your expectations #and then the few times that you do you completely crash for days #and then the only way to not crash is to have your big accomplishment be 'i went to the gym' 'i took a shower' 'i answered a message' #and just. again #to have the be the way you're living for months and months and months #it's so embarrassing to admit how little i can do and it makes me so ashamed knowing how much I've done and see what everyone else around me #is constantly doing #and then when i do share things it just kind of dies off because I've been too exhausted to maintain most relationships #which ALSO makes me feel like absolute fucking shit because i think people think i just don't care about them #when it's really that it takes me hours to get out of bed and I'm lucky if i remember to eat before 4 #and I hate so much of myself and see it as such a huge waste of time that it uses up almost all the energy i have to take care of myself #but if i don't do it I'll just hate myself even more #i know i keep on complaining about this but I'm. I'm trying to fix it #i have BEEN trying to fix it actively for so fucking long #but it's.....i think I've stopped believing anything i do has significant worth and it makes it hard to keep trying #and i know people will read this and say take something for it but when you're only interactions with medications and drugs #are one experience that scarred you so bad you didn't go to the doctors for ten years and one experience so bad #that you couldn't even explain it at first without HARDCORE disassociating #it's hard to convince yourself that anything will ever be any better and that it won't make everything intensely worse for years

[jellybeanium124]

great day to release a stupid fucking band au fic nobody cares about except me

#you know what actually I reserve the right to be pissed my fics don't get many hits or kudos or I'm lucky to get a single comment #like I worked hard on that and I'm really passionate about this au and nobody else in the whole world cares #and every single one of my fics is like that except for a few #like you know what my best performing fic in this fandom is? gentlebeard fluff. I think. #but I have ideas that aren't just gentlebeard fluff #I don't want churn out fics for the sole purpose of that dopamine hit from kudos and comments #I wish someone cared about the ideas that I fucking cared about #I wish someone would leave a goddamn comment. even a <3 means more than nothing #not trying to guilt trip you. sorry. I'm just mad that I never get the fucking reception everyone else seems to get #yeah it's selfish or whatever idc #I get to vent about it. that's allowed. #nina rambles #vent post

[jeremy-lemon]

tbh I'm scared to go to college, the things I want to study take a v long time and intensive work that you Have to be v good at to get into the field lest u mess something up. I'm scared I'm gonna get frustrated or discouraged once and decide to give up cuz I have such a bad habit of that that I'm trying so hard to overcome.

I'm like fighting my brain on the daily to understand that taking a long time and having to put in a lot of effort to learn something isn't a bad thing even if it's hard to do especially since it's something I've wanted to study all my life. It's just tough when I have this constant nagging feeling in my brain about "you're too stupid and you always have been especially when it comes to school" but I'm so sick of thinking like that!!

My brain has kept me in this prison of feeling stupid so I don't do new things which also makes me feel stupid it sucks. I wanna try new things and commit to learning even when it gets tough! I really don't really to give up !! But I'm so scared I will !

#I'm so scared of college bruh it doesn't help that I finally graduated a few days ago even though I'm like 21 #i feel so stupid for graduating late and having bad grades throughout my whole schooling life it's v discouraging #I'm just hoping i do ok and find people with the same interests that keep me excited and motivated to do well #and i hope i don't kick myself down or feel too bad when I do mess up or have a hard time cuz it will happen eventually #osteology #sorry for the big paragraphs everyone also #I'm lucky i have a lot of emotional support in my life when it comes to going to college I'm just so scared I'm gonna get let everyone down #even though I'm dying to go to college I'm just so scaaaared esp cuz so many of my friends are close to finishing college i feel so behind

[magentagalaxies]

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#this might be both oversharing and being too vague rn but it's 2am and i'm emotionally exhausted #i can't believe during one of the most traumatic moments i've had in the past year i was lucky enough to have scott as my biggest supporter #the entire time as i was going through it he was so supportive giving me space to process shit and always having my back #and yet there are some people in my life who are always going to villainize him for one comment he said during that time out of context #or even if they're not ''villainizing'' him i now feel like i have to begin every sentence about scott with #''yeah we don't agree on everything but we're still friends and isn't that amazing!'' #which yeah that is true and i do genuinely enjoy when scott and i disagree and are respectful about it #BUT WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO BE THE FIRST THING I SAY ABOUT HIM???? #and honestly that whole experience made me agree with scott on way more than i started out with #i'm proud of how i was able to grow as a person and for the fact that it brought me and scott much closer together #but that shit i went through at my college was still traumatic. and it did change me as a person #it completely changed my relationship to activism in a way i'm not happy about bc i want to be more of an activist #but when i had someone use social justice language to justify horrible things against me it's hard not to be wary #of how hollow and performative a lot of conversations can be #and like i'll even say it. like people might get mad at me for admitting it #but that whole traumatic situation has irrevocably changed my relationship to gender as well #or at least how i label myself and how i move through these conversations #and in some ways i'm grateful for it bc i do feel like i know myself more and like i don't have to worry about what others' think #or even what other people understand #but it shouldn't have had to go down like that. and as much as the time i got to spend with scott during that time was so much fun #and such a great experience and he was truly the perfect support system during that time #he shouldn't have had to deal with that and neither should i #and the fact that scott somehow got villainized in some people's minds while the person who actually caused that trauma #is instead treated like ''yeah he was a bit misguided and made a mistake but he was probably anxious about it!! he's just a person!!'' #that's never going to stop being painful. especially the idea that with the importance people put on labels #i would supposedly have more ''community solidarity'' with that asshole than a cis gay man like scott #idk i think i'm past the timeframe of that traumatic experience bc it's not consuming every day like it used to a few weeks back #but something triggered it tonight so i just need to process it. anyway shoutout to scott for being there for me i really needed it

[aeterna---amantes]

|| The feeling of being able to post 💙Connor💙 and not feeling guilty about it oh my fucking gods I'll only look at the bright side of this situation like thank fuck i am allowed to feel happy

HHHHIIIIIIIMMMMM 💙💙💙

#asgard to earth 💚 (ooc) #|| tfw you don't realise how toxic someone was until they've chosen to vanish from your life #|| Sad thing is that they play the victim as if I hadn't went through panic and anxiety attacks/sleepless nights/migraine periods #|| This person single-handedly managed to kill ALL of my muses for ALL existing threads in the span of a few days and it went on for MONTHS #|| And I *didn't want them to leave*. I was clinging to them because I still thought of them as a friend and I thought we could fix it. 😩 #|| They left though. Blocked me without a word. And it took me two days to feel actual *relief* instead of sadness. I was that involved. #|| But I'm healing and that's beautiful!!!! I'm finally free from guilt!!!!! I can do whatever the fuck I want!!!!!!!!!!! Gods I missed thi #|| All the people who looked at my ''journey'' kept telling me to break contact because they're slowly killing all the happiness I have- #|| And I couldn't do it but at the same time they were all RIGHT. I'm so sorry fam. I'll listen to y'all better the next time okay? #|| And thanks for standing behind me ALWAYS. ALWAYS asking me what's up if I gave even a LITTLE hint. There're so many of you who NOTICED!! #|| And I'm so glad to call you my best friends!!! You mean the world to me! 💚 I'm very very lucky that you're always here for me. 💚 #personal #i am free 👻 #chaos is back online 🐍

[scribe-of-hael]

I think one of the worst feelings is when you finally feel comfortable to talk about your interests to someone or ocs that are important to you and the other perosn just says the equivalent of

"Oh cool....."

"...Anyway, here is my interests and ocs!"

#Shattered #Broken #Ow #Why #We take turns dude #Ask me questions #Like I wanna know about others ocs to! #But like ok #We talk about mine for a few minutes #I toss it back to you #You tell me about yours ! #But some ppl like are like #Neat #ANWAYS HERE IS MY STUFF #Brah #If you don't show interest no ine will show it back #This is just over the years stuff I've seen #I'm lucky I now have friends and ppl who appricate what I have to say #I love their stuff to so much #Even if I don't get it ! I live that they love it #Rambles

[snowyfrostshadows]

I really do adore Paper Mario and the Origami King.

The battles were fun, story engaging and the origami aspect really played into my nostalgia of God knows how many hours spent meticulously folding paper and following patterns from the many origami books I'd get from scholastic orders.

Honestly, for my first actual Mario game and console game in general, I couldn't have gotten a better game.

Origami King has set a certain bar for me, one I'm not sure (the fandom beloved) Thousand Year Door can match whenever I eventually get to the remake. Mainly due to the fact I am not sure I'll be able to figure out its much more complex battle system.

Misgivings to older games aside, I do think I'm in it for the long haul with Paper Mario and look forward to whatever else Intelligent Systems has in store for the series.

#snowy plays mario #it's been a few hours since i officially finished the game but i wanted to get my thoughts in better order #i absolutely loved this game and feel so lucky it came out when i am in the point of my life #where i can just buy whatever i want whenever #cuz tbh; i'm not sure if baby me would have been able to get my hands on this at all #even with my obsession with origami