#I'm really disappointed TBH

[sirgawin]

didn’t get the job :/

#i got up at 6:30 and one of them was late fgs #it was between me and one other colleague who is great #and who was on shift with me today... #so it was slightly awkward when we found out and talked about it #i'm really disappointed tbh

[leoremin]

Im so pissed

I've been obsessed with Jekyll and Hyde for like 2 years and I'm just now finding out through TUMBLR OF ALL PLACES THAT HENRY JEKYLL IS A BITCH ASS LIAR!!!! LIKE NO HE CANNOT JUST-- FFS!!!

I'm just now coming to terms that it's an "unreliable narrator" kind of story and I've read this shit like 8 times...

#Tbh now I like it a little more now tho #I'm not really pissed #just more like... #jokingly disappointed in myself? #I think? #Either way... #leo's lectures #the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde #henry jekyll #edward hyde #jekyll and hyde

[seraphiism]

use xkit and hide your follower count. those two people who unfollowed you just now? not personal. one deactivated their account, the other has had a shift in interests. your fic flopped? got less notes than anticipated? that's alright. you did great. it was amazing and i see the work and effort you poured into it. i guarantee someone in the world loved it and shared it with their friend. please keep in mind that numbers and statistics do not define the worth or quality of your art or writing.

#this is not to discredit or invalidate anyone! it's obviously easier said than done #and entirely understandable to get upset/disheartened abt lack of reception #it really is disappointing but it's also easy to get swept away in the mindset that maybe it's bc #of your writing or maybe you just wrote a shitty fic or no one likes your work #tumblr is very unpredictable tbh and you never know what will get a lot of notes and what won't #recently i've just been like. oh tht fic absolutely flopped but i had a lot of fun writing it & i'm happy w how it turned out #so i hope those who read it enjoy it as much as i do! #it's not an easy mindset to adapt and i still sometimes get discouraged #a lot of ppl say to write and create for yourself and while that’s not always easy to remember it’s smth good to keep in mind #.: kay talks

[minispidey]

getting this out of my chest, having moonboys x bimbo is okay, alrighty fine. but please don't steal my lines/ dialogue (even if it's reworked/ reworded 💀). i'm glad that i popularized moonboys x bimbo, but it really upsets me when yall steal from what i write barbie and the giftshopist COUGH COUGH

btw, i know it sounds so stupid but it just seriously upset me. if you've written moonboys x bimbo without reading my stuff, then this isn't towards you. I don't know how to express my feelings about this so i feel some of what i just wrote won't make sense (english is not my first language 😭). All in all, I'm just upset my original bimbo lines/ scenes are getting stolen. Because one: it's directly from IRL because two: i'm pretty much a bimbo and i'm not escaping the bimbo allegations.

(btw u guys read the tags. i feel better expressing my feelings there ❤️)

#i'm not mad #just upset #and disappointed tbh #i mean i love u guys but this isn't cute #I don't wanna be mad but it just made me so upset :( #I love it when you guys embrace bimbo x moonboys #but I don't get credited for at least inspo #tbh im not entitled to it #BUT I WOULDVE REALLY APPRECIATED IT #BECAUSE I WOULDVE LOVED TO SPREAD BIMBO AND MOONBOYS #but yeah :((( #moon knight #steven grant #jake lockley #marc spector #steven grant smut #marc spector smut #jake lockley smut #moon knight system

[felizusnavidad]

ok, so now that my hamilton series is over i am officially taking a little break from tumblr. i've been feeling so emotionally drained for a while now & i know i have to take care of myself because i am in a really bad place at the moment... so let's just call it intermission.

#i'm not disappearing forever #i'll be back soon probably #but i need to focus on my mental health right now #it's so bad that i can't even force myself to be happy for my friends when they succeed i just feel nothing at all #i'm sorry #i feel like the biggest disappointment tbh #but i just really need some space & some time just for myself #see ya soon friends #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[qilinkisser]

AC.NH self insert!!! (Plus some birthday art for my wife a couple days late </3)

Reblogs appreciated! Vesta (sheep) uses she/her! Dawn (deer) uses they/them!

#tbh when deer won I was. a tad bit disappointed? bc I had sketched ideas for both and I really liked the squirrel #but I LOVE how dawn came out so!!! I'm happy they won actually <3 #I've been playing more animal crossing lately :) I missed it #Art 🎨 #Vesta 🧶 #Dawn 🌄 #<- tag for dawn :) #self shipping #selfship #self ship community #romantic f/o #animal crossing selfship #f/o x s/i #selfship art #nblw selfship #yippie for main tags!!!

[raveartts]

babygirl ❤️❤️😊😍🥰🥰😍😍😍🥰✨✨✨✨

#raveartts #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #william afton #whoops i'm in my william era again 😍 #i kinda phase in and out of my fnaf era tbh #like i remember william exists sometimes and i go 'oh wait he was hot wasn't he' #i can't draw people well so it's nice that he's suuuch a furry 🥰 #i was rereading TSE graphic novel and he looked like he was about to cream himself in anticipation of getting to wear his fursuit- #he's less hot in the gn than i remember..... #i was disappointed that the movie william wasn't going to be skinny sickly twink william from the gn #but honestly. i think i've changed sides 😳 #regular middle aged dude william > twink tumblr william #though his sickly pallor and fugly little grin had initially captured my heart #matthew lillard kinda slayed #really though. in the end. it's the serial killer aspect that will always draw me in #is a man ever my favorite character if he's NOT a fucked up little serial killer?

[camels-pen]

(i haven't read Whole Cake in a while, and i never really watched it, so bear with me)

I'd love to write a fic with Usopp on Whole Cake. it'd be sooo fucking long and i'd need to refresh myself on the entire arc, but god i'd probably be so satisfied when it's done. specifically for having brought a single moment in my head to life, but we'll get to that.

On Zou, he insists to be taken along on the Sanji rescue team and has worked himself up with a whole bunch of very good reasons as to why he should go there instead of helping in Wano, but of course Luffy just immediately accepts with a "yeah sure"

With Whole Cake, I think he'd be flipping between having fun as part of the idiot trio/quartet (Luffy, Chopper, Carrot), and being terrified with Nami. There wouldn't be that many differences in the arc as a whole, though; some things would be easier/better and some things would be worse- I don't necessarily think Usopp's presence would be overall an advantage or disadvantage, just different. Like, major events would stay mostly the same, but little details would change and maybe those little details would build to a far more drastic change-

for example, maybe one of Big Mom's kids considers themself a great sniper and wants a match with Usopp, or is motivated to work harder because Usopp is around and they want to take him out and boast about it. Maybe it means Sunny takes more damage than canon, or maybe Usopp's help means less damage to Sunny. (idk if i'd really do smth like this, but it's just an example)

skjdhf fuck i'm really not equipped to try and figure this out when i don't remember shit from Whole Cake aaaa

I do know that, despite his penchant for talking and rambling, I'd probably have Usopp be dead silent after his initial shock when Sanji fights Luffy. Everything about that is the same, except Usopp is just watching Sanji the whole time- not panicking, not moving, and not speaking. He doesn't say a word the entire time, doesn't even make a sound, and that, along with Luffy's words and Nami's begging, stick with Sanji.

(Usopp is thinking of his own fight with Luffy in Water 7, he's partially wondering if this was what it was like- if it was this painful to watch from the sidelines- and partially knowing he doesn't have to say a word, because he knew, like he knew back then, that it didn't matter what was said. It wasn't quite the same, but he could tell in the way Sanji moved, in the way he spoke and held himself, that he was putting on a front, trying to be brave in all the wrong ways. Usopp didn't say a word to Sanji because there was nothing he could say that Sanji himself didn't already know. Should've known. And his quiet, direct stare, was more than enough.)

the singular moment i really wanna write, is a scene where Sanji is apologizing for dragging them into his mess- either during the big meeting in Bege's castle or some other time- and Usopp's like "I'll do what you can't, you do what I can't, right?" and Sanji pauses, a little confused, until he remembers Enies Lobby and a stupid mask and cape and-

and tears are gathering in his eyes now, fuck, but he laughs a little. It sounds wet and his face is itchy and they're surrounded by tentative allies, but he- he laughs again and he says, "Fuck, you remembered that?"

Usopp shrugs, a little smile on his face. "They were some wise words from a wise man."

Sanji laughs a third time. "You think I'm wise?"

And they banter a little more before Bege tells them to quit it since they're on a time constraint or something. Quietly, Usopp will ask, "It-it helps. On bad days. And I figured, 'what's a worse day than this?' Ah, not that you getting married would ever be bad per se-"

"Usopp," Sanji says, looking more relaxed and settled. He smiles fondly and grabs his friend in a one armed hug, crushing him to his side. "Thanks."

And yeah, don't remember much beyond that, except the whole "hiding and then busting out of the cake" bit, which would mean Usopp in a cute little tuxedo or smth- maybe with a fedora aaaaaa <- loves fedoras- helping out with the fighting and eventually sailing with everyone to Wano.

He would be so distressed about fixing up Sunny now that the whole thing with Whole Cake is over. Maybe there'd be a gag about him promising Franky to take good care of Sunny while they were gone and being confident, after being Franky's tinkering partner and learning from him over time, that he could handle minor repair work much better than he did the first time around with Merry. And so when he finally takes in all the very-not-minor repairs he has to do, he's certain Franky is gonna strangle him for not keeping his promise. Probably also try to write in some nostalgic 'repairman Usopp' vibes from pre-Water 7.

Also something something, Sanji, wanting to do more for the crew bc he still feels guilty about Whole Cake, decides to take it upon himself to help Usopp not fall into a whole anxiety spiral about the ship. In turn, Usopp ends up helping Sanji not feel so guilty- usually by handing his own words back to him on a silver platter. And, yknow, having the two of them bonding and being buddies again like they so rarely get to be in canon nowadays qwq

#one piece #usopp #whole cake island #nemotime #that bit in bege's castle isn't exactly how it would go. just kinda. trying to get the vibe. also it's wayyy too short lol #the sanuso bit can be platonic or romantic. originally when i was gonna write out this idea a while ago i was thinking romantic with my #'they get engaged/married b4 dressrosa' au but tbh platonic works just as good #im- these guys man. i hate them so much (affectionate) #i'll get to rereading whole cake and finding a way to put him in there but for now. this. #if anyone's got other ideas im all ears #edit from like march 7: thinking about this again #maybe usopp being silent is an indicator for sanji that usopp's really fucking disappointed or shocked or w/e #but for usopp himself it's like being back in water 7. he doesn't even mean to be silent. he's got words built up on the tip of his tongue #but none of them come out. and despite sanji being Right There all he wants to do in that moment. is run. #at the very least he stays and watches the whole confrontation through. but afterwards he probably feels like shit #because he's the guy who's great with words right? he's the guy that can relate the most out of the group who went to WCI. he should be abl #to make a significant difference and help convince sanji to come home. but he feels like he failed. like he's going to lose another friend #and it's going to be all his fault. (again) #[not really. we all know merry wasn't his fault but we love old insecurities rearing their head in this house] #later he'd probably end up saying the words he wanted to say. and maybe it's better that way. that he ended up waiting #until luffy's had a proper shot at scolding sanji first. because then usopp can act as support and reinforcement. which. yknow. #a sniper's duty and all #anyway i got other shit to do so i'm cutting myself off here #wci usopp

[wereh0gz]

I'm definitely not the only queer person who's kinda wary of Christian ppl they encounter online right?

Like I see a profile that clearly states they're Christian and they post like Bible verses and shit and I'm just. Hoping they're not queerphobic. Or saying some dumbass shit like "hate the sin love the sinner" or whatever while pretending that's not queerphobic

If they're interacting with me first it's pretty safe to assume they're not gonna be like that bc I'm very obviously queer (🏳️‍🌈 + pronouns in bio) but if it's someone who hasn't interacted with me at all I kind of instinctively avoid interacting with them out of fear of them being that way. Y'know

#ramblings #i think it's bc even tho i've never been religious and my family isn't like a super uptight christian family #i have encountered a preacher who was homophobic and transphobic before #he's puerto rican too which just makes me disappointed in my people tbh #i grew up surrounded by a lot of accepting ppl both within and outside of the family #as well as a couple gay/trans ppl #i was always taught that that's just the way some ppl are and that we should respect that #even if we didn't fully understand everything and weren't up to date with the latest most accepted terminology and stuff #ppl were just respectful and let others be themselves #so it's extremely hard for me to understand why other ppl would be queerphobic #i mean. i kinda get it. it what they were taught growing up. just how i was taught to be accepting and respectful #but why ppl would continue to teach that to their kids and perpetuate queerphobia is really what i don't get #like. accepting that ppl different from you exist and that's ok isn't going to kill you #maybe learn abt the world from other sources besides the bible and try to see different perspectives #instead of shutting yourself off to just one way of thinking and hurting ppl in the process #anyways. i think it's also bc i've seen too many really religious ppl on the internet who are also queerphobic #and they have these big platforms of ppl who support them and share their views #and like. i shouldn't generalize. but they paint an ugly image of christians in general #also like. christians throughout history don't have the cleanest track record #but i know a lot of christians nowadays aren't like that. in fact i'm willing to say most aren't #but still it's like. better be safe than sorry y'know #idk man

[asherasgayagenda]

GUYS. Guys. I literally just had this dream where we got a new chapter of vnc, and in it, vanitas and noé were in a fight. vanitas got thrown into a rock wall (as you do), and the wall crumbled, leaving noé learning kind of protectively over vanitas. AND THEN the whole atmosphere of the scene changed from the “ow danger” to something you might see in a shojo anime. so now they’re just lying there. the threat is gone.

NOÉ smiles and tilts vanitas’s chin up—and VANITAS looks into noé’s eyes with a soft expression—AND THEN THEY KISS. THEY LITERALLY KISS. TENDERLY AND ALL THAT.

And then I woke up freaking out over the ‘new chapter’ absolutely intent on telling everyone to read it (only then did i really, consciously, wake up)

#vnc #vnc manga #vanoé #vanitas #noé archiviste #kiss #dream #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vanitas no shuki #vanitas x noé #y’all can’t even imagine my disappointment when i realized IT WASNT EVEN REAL #that short moment of “DID MOCHIJUN SERIOUSLY CANONICIZE VANOÉ” #ok i know i'm really bad at writing ok #my dreams are wack tbh #ashera's thoughts ⁉️

[ultimate-sword-showdown]

Begging people to ctrl+F through the list of ineligible swords under the cut to check and make sure their sword didn't already compete in the tournament before submitting this is the third sword I've gotten that I explicitly said wouldn't be allowed in the tournament due to making it past round 1 last time

#i'm glad you like the sword!!! unfortunately it already kicked at least one other sword's ass last time so it's not allowed to kick anymore #ass this time #you don't have to read every sword on the list a simple ctrl F will do. just to make sure. please do it for me :( #it doesn't really bother me all that much tbh i just get really excited when i see a submission and then i have to be disappointed when it' #a sword that i can't include in the tournament lol #sword showdown #the bladesmith speaks

[tvrningout-a]

so!! a little housekeeping is in order!!

i'm gonna be here kinda off and on bc i'm going to work on school stuff! and bc my inspiration's been decent, i might reblog a lil spicy meme over on @tvrningon and something fluffy here, though ofc you're free to send in any meme i've reblogged in the past <3 i also have an inbox call that i'll probably work on sometime later today!

and just to kinda share where my head's at, my muse for kny hasn't been very high lately, so i'm thinking of changing my muse list in a way that reflects that. i just!! haven't figured out how exactly. i might categorize the lists by fandom and then by primary, secondary, and tertiary/request. i just want to show that my focus is on chiyo/modern muses, fantasy, and even s.piderverse stuff atm but without shoving all my other muses off the list or into the request category. i can definitely still write everybody!! the muse just isn't there like it used to be.

this doesn't affect many people here, but i may also edit chiyo's bio to make her fandomless again; i just don't interact with hq!! muses very often anymore, and her story isn't one that necessarily needs to be connected to hq!! to work.

i apologize if any of this disappoints anybody btw! i know this blog used to be very kny-centered, and a lot of people followed me for that originally. but i need to do what's going to make being here fun for me, which means changing things. if you need to soft/hardblock me, there's no hard feelings, and i wish you the best <3

#like i said i can absolutely still write my kny muses but they're not at the forefront of my mind rn and changing the visuals of the blog #helped a lot with feeling like i was falsely advertising my kny muses #but i feel like i really need to change stuff more so reflect just how focused i am on other content #chiyo's muse is the loudest it's been for a while and that!! makes me so happy!! i love writing her and tbh would really like #to make her the main muse of this blog #i also want to focus on my lore and fantasy and i wanna see if i can't reinvigorate spiderverse stuff bc i'm still!! very into that uvu #and i just needed to get this off my chest bc i've had it on my mind for a while bc i haven't felt inspired by my kny muses for a bit #once again i'm sorry if y'all are disappointed!! and i'm not saying i won't write them or won't accept new interactions for them #i'm just not focusing on them for now #sorry if i repeated myself a bunch asdf i feel like i'm not saying what i mean clearly and i just feel a bit bad so i'm probably #talking more than i need to asdf #get ready to ramble | ooc

[barbieaiden]

vince: i don't really understand the appeal of shar but i respect your--

shadowheart: you disgust me. how dare you worship selune. we are sworn enemies now. i hate you so much

#it's ok she'll come around #i want to romance her because i do think the selune shar thing is interesting i'm hoping there'll be a lot of dialogue related to it #in act 2 maybe #generally i think the game does this really well tbh you know #making race and class and even subclasses and deities and whatnot matter #tiefling and warlock were a little disappointing to me tbh but not necessarily bad #i did like that you can actually read astarion's scars when you're a tiefling though that's very fun #the warlock options that did exist were fun too i just wish there was more patron interaction i guess #paladin is a lot of fun so far though #drow even more so #paladin makes me a bit nervous though i am so going to accidentally break my oath

[thatrainyydayfeeling]

ok its rant time!!!! about ttpd ofc so be prepared lol

i just finished it (and immediately started relistening) and oh. my. god.

i think 'peter,' 'the bolter,' 'down bad,' 'the albatross,' and sm more were my favourites!!!

but peter by far the most bc ADHJKAHSF. THE BRIDGE. IM UNWELL. 'forgive me, peter, please know that i tried to hold on to the days when you were mine, but the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light.' STOP THIS RIGHT NOW. WHAT. literally sobbing wtf. bc i cant go a moment without referencing percy jackson, this one rly reminded me of piper and jason's break up from piper's pov (just replace 'peter' with 'jason'!!!).

um. ok anyways :) now imma talk abt the bolter!!! so!!! (im unironically listening to it rn - ttpd is on shuffle and it just came on lmaoo). i dont have much to say abt this one; just that its good and idk i liked it lmao. but omg the 'but as she was leaving, it felt like breathing.' idk it just hit different and i loved it sm. THE BRIDGE TOO OMG<3 its so catchy i love it.

'down bad' is so incoherent screaming. i love love love that song aaaahhh!!!!!! the first verse was so good; 'did you really beam me up, in a cloud of sparkling dust, just to do experiments on?' and also 'for a moment, i knew cosmic love.' im unwell.

'the albatross' ok i'd also like to say, out of all the bonus track edition thingys, i liked the cover for the albatross edition the best!!!! it was just so ttpd to me idk. 'and when the sky rains fire on you, and you're persona non grata, i'll tell you how i've been there too.' ugh i loved the bridge for this one^ (side note - "persona non grata" means unwelcome person).

oh and also!!! 'chloe or sam or sophia or marcus' RIPPED MY HEART OUT. dont mind me just violently sobbing to 'so, if you wanna break my cold heart, say that you loved me just the way you were' like actually stop this i cannot. and omg 'could it be enough just to float in your orbit?' NO. sTOp. i cant anymore that entire verse was just gut wrenching.

i also liked so many others but i cant remember those rn so um. thats it for now!!!! overall i loved the album (or double album bc like WHAT??)

#somehow jason grace finds his way into every song i listen to #i just love him ok :( #anyways #back to taylor swift #i also liked 'florida!!!' and florence + the machine's verse was so good #as for what i was disappointed by - i can fix him (no really i can) - it just wasnt what i expected and yeah!!! #still good tho #taylor definitely delivered with this one #tho tbh i did like the second half of the album (the anthology) more than the first half im sorry😭 #'guilty as sin?' is incredible too!!! #ok i'm gonna stop now lmao #i could go on forever #taylor swift #ttpd #the tortured poets department #down bad #the albatross #the bolter #peter by taylor swift #ts11 #tortured poets department

[naughtynoodle056]

Pleased to report that eating myself into a food coma last night not only let me sleep through the entire night but also helped me gain my voice back lol

#i think i have a cold #cuz thankfully i havent been experiencing covid symptoms #nor do i really feel that sick physically #but either way I'm masked up lol #even at home around my family tbh #my cousin gave me the sick but i dont want my grandma or aunt to catch it too lop #slightly disappointed that i gotta stay home til i revover #but hey I'd rather be mildly inconvenienced and recover faster LMAO #plus i have plenty of library books to keep me company #noodle talks