#If not ig I'll just make something up

[bleeding-hart]

some sketches

based on @theicarusconstellation's writing

I keep thinking of details I left out and stuff I need to fix but if I let myself do that I'm going to go insane so we're leaving it at this

Also some Sirius because they're a fucking king and we love them (I very strongly hc them as genderqueer and using any pronouns, but specifically he/they/she/it)

The dress was a bit of a failure but hey it looks like fabric at least I think maybe

#fanart #marauders era #fanart of fanfiction #Sirius #A form of jegulus #Not sure if reg being an animagus is widely accepted Canon but I fucking accept it it's mine now and i will die on this hill #I DO however know that Sirius is generally accepted to have tattoos but unfortunately I'm shit at coming up with tat designs #I don't think there's a generally accepted list of what tattoos they have but if there is I would love to hear it #If not ig I'll just make something up #She probably has like. At least one wolf and dog one somewhere #Then definitely canis major #Idk how sappy they are but I want them to be one of those people who gets their friend group to draw hearts or stars and gets those tattooe #Also skeleton designs v much. I want them to have a cat skeleton on their hip in that curling position #Like the floaty cat #Maybe with a moon or star in the center #No real reason I just think he'd look fuckin awesome with it #He also probably has a really cool stylized semicolon on his wrist #I can't give him a koi/sun one cause that's mine and it doesn't fit then anyways #But definitely the top piece is the full moon symbolizing Remus #The bottom idk about but like maybe a squished up dog? Not like disproportionate I'm sure I could figure something out #Honestly they probably also have tats for each of their friends #I'm thinking a stylized deer under a full moon with the rat on it's head #or just prongs and moony w/ little bro between them #Brainstorming idk #If u read all that congrats I don't know why or what you got from it #Welcome to the live stream of my consciousness (you're missing not strong enough fucking BLARING in the background of all my thoughts)

[hoochieblues]

Hey, writers of tumblr. I'm thinking about putting together a self-study course/ebook type thing on how to edit, intended for new/aspiring authors and those looking to prep their work for self-publishing.

For context: I currently do most of my freelance work through an agency that positions itself as an industry leader for author services (make of that what you will) and I get a lot of quote requests from folks who know their work needs editing, but have little idea where to start or what to expect. Frequently, either cost is a barrier to entry for them, or I find I'm having to correct or explain the same issues to a lot of clients.

I'd like to put something out on a pay-what-you-want basis that covers the most common issues I see in manuscripts. I'm thinking topics like basic grammar and formatting (especially for ESL writers and those working with translators), POV and perspective issues, filtering, pacing, rhythm & flow, dialogue, and a primer on techniques for self-editing your work prior to submission, pre-production, or sharing it in general.

Is this something you'd be interested in? What other kinds of topics would you like to see? What format(s) would you prefer?

#on writing #fine to reblog #i hope i don't regret saying that #also #first time i wished i actually have polls #so tell me in the tags or inbox me or w/e ig #also also #yes i am aware the internet is awash with writing advice but i have yet to find a comprehensive guide i can point clients at #that isn't trying to sell an ebook series and also includes all the major parts of getting your ms cleaned up. #this is honestly partly self interest. if i'm writing up a guide for clients i may as well make it accessible for everyone right? #then at least i'll have something in hand that means i don't have to explain dialogue tags ten times a week. i can just ctrl + c it. yay.

[kickassfu]

what if?

and i mean what if

i just got my ass out of the chair

got dressed

put the clothes out to dry outside

and did something?

what if?

huh?

what if

#why does this seem like a poem? LOL #and i need to got to my 'sister's' place to take care of her dog after lunch #because she has to go to work and the dog is a ball full of anxiety and can't be alone for too long #so i should try to get something done around the house before i go #and the longer i take to put the clothes outside the more i'm wasting time and then the clothes won't dry properly #why am i like this #why aren't the meds a fix all #why can't i just do things #why must i hate myself like this lol #i'm just bitching dont worry #i'm going to get my ass up right now #ig i just needed to say it to do it #i'm breathing i'm doing it #cool #mine #ig i'll tag it as one of my poems hahaha #might as well make something out of nothing #my poems

[silverwhittlingknife]

superboy: the man of tomorrow 1 spoilers

(it's just one panel but below the cut just in case)

memory identification: go!

#dc spoilers #memory identification CHALLENGE #okay so: obviously there's the 'waking up in cadmus' #the friends don't seem like a reference to anything - i mean ig it could be donna's death but i think they're just a generic memory #or possibly it's yj:dc and there's just nothing that actually happened to reference? #i think that's tara dying #and then the last one: match punching him?or is it superboy-prime punching him? #(to be conner is to be constantly getting punched by alternate superboys dsfdsfs) #anyway (despite this one angsty panel) this was fun and zippy #v. light-hearted and not a whole lot to it - looks like it'll be space adventure + punching-stuff #there isn't enough here to really hook me but the art is cute and conner's narration is bouncy #so if they keep putting it on the app i'll probably keep reading #i really wish. mm. okay WARNING RANT INCOMING this is kind of tangential and maybe it's just the comics that i pick up #but i feel like of the few modern comics i've picked up - a lot of them are very light on the characters having concrete problems #even problems as simple as 'getting bad grades in school' or 'have to lie to my dad' or 'need a job to pay the rent' #like. i feel like tim in robin '93 had concrete problems that couldn't be solved with a pep talk and 'you just gotta believe in yourself' #dick in nightwing '97 - same! concrete personal life problems that could not be resolved by a pep talk! #and i really miss. like. characters experiencing dilemmas or having to make trade-offs #and just generally i miss a bit more realism - like. conner feels unneeded. okay? so? #shouldn't he be going to school or something? why is costume-stuff top of mind? where are the authority figures/external forces? #i think these kinds of intensely-internal problems can work in non-visual fiction bc you're in the character's head BUT #comics are largely visual and everything with real emotional punch works way better if it's concrete things that i can see #anyway that's just my personal preferences though and it's not superboy's fault! #conner's never been a realistic character - he had goofy merchandising and was a kid celebrity and so forth #and although i didn't read his preboot solo i don't think he ever went to school there either? except in adventure comics? #so he seems very well-suited to plucky space-adventure #and i wish him the best. go forth and prosper conner!! punch those aliens!!

[daz4i]

need a boyfriend but also romance is disgusting but also I'm obsessed with it and want to feel it but also i don't want to commit or feel constricted by a limited relationship but also sometimes the idea of belonging to one person is nice but also no it doesn't i am a person not an object but also yes i am or at least i would be if i could but also i would never trust anyone enough for that but also i wish i could but also

#being arospec and having bpd sure is an interesting combo let me tell you that #sometimes i wonder if my identity in that regard is tied to my bpd. like the belief i won't be able to handle a relationship #bc i know no matter how well i could ever manage my symptoms it won't be enough to make me love someone enough for a steady relationship #so i just conditioned myself into not having romantic feelings in the first place. or something #i guess. i want the good parts of a relationship. but I'm not capable of handling the other parts #which is kinda sad bc i really do want the good parts. but i don't wanna hurt anyone and ik i would #anyone includes myself bc ik if i put too much work into someone I'll absolutely get tired of at some point i will end up feeling robbed #why am i even thinking abt this rn. idk i was perusing some tags and the romantic posts on them made me 😬 #do i need to tag this as a vent. is it even a vent. ig? just not a negative one? eh jic then #vent #i should've been asleep an hour ago oof 😳

[letthebookbegin]

.

#nothing like being in varying states of pain for a few years - sometimes less #sometimes more but always there - and being too exhausted to go to a doctor about it bc everyone around you says you just need to do yoga & #the only way ur job will accommodate is by giving u the less staffed late shift so u can go in the morning and ur so exhausted youd rather #just deal eith the pain like u already have been doing for years #to moving to a job that actually allows u to leave early for medical reasons if you can get the essentials done #then phoning the gp with hope & motivation for the first time in a long time #and being told lol no appointments left until july #i had hope for once i really did 🥲 my friend is a pt & said i might have fibromyalgia and i really really dont want it to be that bc that #means i have a chronic illness with no cure but i looked it up and just. every single symptom was a check for me #and i started thinking if i do have it ill have it whether im diagnosed or not & if i dont then thats good to know too? & psyched myself up #for the phone call and. ugh it really hit me #she said to do their online service. tried and it said no appointments available. tried nhs online. it said make an appointment with ur gp #within the next few days 🥲 back to giving up and just bearing the pain and never mentioning it bc i'll just get told it's my own fault bc #i didnt go yoga ig #just needed to rant into the void for a bit sigh #time to go back into work i guess #* #UGH I JUST GOT MY PERIOD TOO #also like. this isn't to say i do have chronic pain it could be something easily solved #and id be delighted if it was #but i hate how the people around me trivialise it like. it's not normal to have intense pain and stiffness from sitting down/standing for #the duration of one train stop ok it's not. it's not normal to feel sharp jolts of pain through my body every time i cough or sneeze. #every part of my body aches! literally from my head to my toes! they dont do toe yoga! #okay enough back into the fray

[buysomecheese]

It's fucked up that barely anything has changed yet I feel so guilty

#I always try and refute accusations of me being an overthinker but they may just be right #I can't predict people but I can notice patterns like nobody's business #told him I liked him (because I said I would tell him and I dragged it out a bit but I am true to my word) #he thanked me we moved on and I don't know if I'm making u the differences in behavior that I'm noticing #like ok obviously yes we have texted a crazy amount tonight that is not the behavior I'm worried about texting is eh #what comes of it comes of it #it's the stuff irl like what's real what did I make up #fucking hate this shit bro #it's nice to not be holding a secret but I just kinda wish it wasn't a secret I had in the first place y'know #also yes I'm pretty damn sure some of the things he's saying/texting are his way of putting out feelers for Something #but I can't tell for What #so I think I'll let it slide for a week or two until one of us (hopefully him) figures it out ig

[supercantaloupe]

also i swear to gd i Need to get less weird and anxious about the mere concept of talking to maestro. i have known and played with him for seven years and in that time he has been literally nothing but kind and friendly and helpful and supportive. and yet every single time i have to ask him a question (or if he comes to talk to ME or like sends me an email or something) i swear to gd my heart starts racing like i’m about to get banned from every orchestra ever or something

#it's so weird. idk why i'm so weird about talking to him in particular cause i rarely feel the same about other professors. #ig it probably has to do with the greater level of like. formality? involved in orchestra #like i'll call other professors by their first or last name sometimes (though not usually directly to them... #only rarely like for my jazz prof in freshman year who was like 'just call me jake lol') #but i straight up refuse to refer to maestro as anything but maestro. y'know. #so much of classical music is about tradition and formality/politeness is an element of that... #which is usually nice for me and my social ineptitude but also occasionally is not. for example when i need to ask maestro a question lol #especially one that's not relevant to the rehearsal #i would make a 'going to get a bad grade in orchestra which is both normal to fear and possible to achieve' joke here #but i literally can get a bad grade in orchestra and he's the guy who'd assign it. #(y'know...hypothetically. i would die before i willingly did anything to tank my grade like skip rehearsals/concerts #or purposefully play horribly) #ig my nervousness might also have something to do with the fact that. like. i've known him since i was in high school #and so the thought of like. being a grad student and working on a much closer to equal/professional footing with him #as opposed to just like. student musician in the orchestra. #fucking weird! it's a weird idea to me #which i'm sure i'll get over myself enough to actually proceed if/when that becomes a reality #(though not over myself enough to cease all anxiety entirely lol) #i wanna talk about me #sasha speaks

[condorclaw]

The autistic urge to make my hermit designs look EXTREMELY fucking funky but hesitant for claims of them not looking enough like what people normally draw

#when I say fucking funky I just mean super fuckin odd jfjfjf like none of them are human in any way. and not even like a monster hybrid way #but like they're straight up mostly not human #for clarification: I have 3 sets of hermit designs if you count the batch referenced here #batch 1 are the ones I normally like to use in my drawings. like the ones you might've seen on the sketch post #batch 2 are way more artificial-like. like based on toys and machinery #and then even deciding what headcanon-base I wanna go off with em depends on what designs I'll use #batch 1 is closely tied with the whole 'the hermits are gods' thing as their more human-like forms but they do have large monster ones #and batch 2 is tied with more. weird shit. like they're all robots or machines or something and there's a lot of creepy science stuff there #sometimes I throw em together for kicks #and I guess this would be batch 3 which is more like. just solid weirdness? just guys but odd #it's why I'm hesitant to post stuff about batches 2 and 3 because they're just funky stuff that goes out of the norm? #I both have equal amounts of fun with them though! like I have something that ties into server resets for batch 2 #AND IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE THESE AREN'T AUS? like they're just versions with different visual design and world ideas??? #but otherwise it's all the same??? #maybe I'll talk about em some day but uuuuuh yeah people might not like em because they're too far out of the norm for non-au designs ig? #I DID NOT MEAN TO TALK THIS MUCH. I guess I just have many thoughts about em fjjfjf #maybe I'll just start making random posts about em for shits and giggles? I actually have no idea what I'm doing #I only JUST finished a layout for my batch 1 fullbody refs and now I'm thinking of more designs?? help #(guess the ref outlines can extend to batch 2 too because they mostly share the same heights and basic body structure?) #ANYWAY WELCOME TO KEGAN LAND WHERE NOTHING MAKES SENSE #my post

[zukkaoru]

wait what if i post the satosugu soulmate au fic today,,

#i think i want it up before i.tadori week for. reasons #since that's the like.... base fic for the universe bc that's the first one i wrote #i'm not dealing with getting the itfs one ready to have ch1 up yet bc that one's on a whole other level BUT #the stsg one is done and just needs a little editing...... #i need to just get over myself and post it so it doesn't collect dust in google docs #maybe i'll try editing it today since the rest of my family is at an amusement park and i'm j chilling #like it's probably half edited #but i need to read over it to make sure there's no consistency errors with the other things i've written for this universe now #(mostly just the itfs fic) #and i have at least one spot highlighted where i know i need to change something bc it is not consistent with (ikf)tnlite #ANYWAY #this post isn't even important except ig be on the lookout for a fic coming soon #hello grace here

[v-iv-rusty]

results are in no d/s/3's ending theme did not make me feel the way 2 and 1's did. definitely makes me feel some kind of way for sure, and I do mean this in a good way. but it's drastically different from the last 2 in a way that....fits the tone and story well? but in a way that makes me think the tone and story should have been completely uprooted and overhauled. maybe. I'm not sure how but maybe.

and maybe it just didnt have the same weight to me bc I was not as immersed/invested. good song but it doesnt make me stare at the wall without a thought in my head which is obviously the best criteria by which to judge things. idk. it is almost 6 in the morning I have not slept and I have absolutely no idea how to parse through how I feel abt this game

#misc.txt #I'm conflicted #v beautiful soothing moving etc. I love it tbh. but it's not the same. and ik it's not supposed to be. but. its just not #both d/s/1 and 2s ending theme have a certain tone of. gentleness? ig? peace and beauty in the melancholy despite? #I cant verbalize it properly but there's something There. d/s/3s almost has it a little but not quite in the same way #I understand that its not what they were going for with. yk. the entire point of the game #but maybe I think that was something that. shouldnt have been discarded completely. maybe thats whats missing a bit. I don't know #the way theres an unnecessary lifeless piss grey filter over everything sums up my issues with it fairly well. if that makes sense. #if I say enough words maybe I'll accidentally manage to verbalize exactly why d/s/3 didn't touch me in the same way 1 and 2 did

[leatherbookmark]

whatever you imagine happened during and after this scene is 1000% better than what happened in the actual show

#shrimp thoughts #(nothing. nothing happened) #(i thought fei lian would have a role in defeating him. yknow as the good friend who hates seeing yu huan Evil and Heartless #(what yh tells him here is LITERALLY that he has no heart anymore lol) and would rather kill him than see this great man like this! #but uhhh no literally nothing of that sort happened and yh was Magic Attacked into disintegrating because that's how villains go now ig #anyway as i must have said back then i am imagining the tense drama-filled au in which fl goes something like. what will it take to stop #you? i'll do Everything and there's a flicker of red in yh's eyes because i think that's very cool and also sexy #and this is how fl becomes yh's concubine and they rule with an iron fist etcetc i didn't watch the show #also i didn't watch the show SO i don't know what's up with mr grandpa and yh but i think it would be good FOR ME if yh needed to #get rid of that evil energy once in a while. lbh style #and fl lies awake at night having just been fucked into next thursday. yh is dead asleep next to him and he does his best not to look at his #face because he knows he's going to see his old friend and he's going to be overwhelmed with stupid fondness and the urge to tease him #about his stupid little frown even when he's asleep! loosen up dude or there won't be a mrs yu huan in the future! #and he's going to forget that every day he doesn't slit yh's throat in his bed is another day of suffering for innocent people #every day he spends wondering at what point can he start gently pushing yh towards relaxing that iron fist; towards maybe making things #better for people who don't deseve to live in pain -- is a day those people spend living in pain because of his inactivity #he should kill this man. as soon as possible to avoid sentiment muddling his morality. he should do it before it's too late #(but he knows that it has been too late when he agreed.) #THIS IS WHAT I'M THINKING ABOUT. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED. IN MY HEART. I AM FINE IF YOU WANT TO KNOW

[waterfall-ambience]

'haha there is nothing wrong with me. i'm so normal' <- has literally been obsessed with an april fools joke character from a minecraft lets play series for three years. yes its harmless but apparently its weird

#auri rambles #happy hermitblr anniversary to me (approximately) ive been here since TWENTY NINETEEN (2019) #there is no escape. evil xisuma is still living in my mind rent free and frankly i dont have the heart to kick them out #my irl: im actually surprised you're still obsessed #me: IMAGINE HOW I FEEL?? #im cringe but im free and trapped also #usually i dont like people who brag that they're 'fandom old' or that they've been obsessed with a blorbo for longer than X amount of time #like who cares ig but let me make this clear: this is not a brag. i am trapped here and i wish i could just move to other primary interests #like genuinely i think i would be a more well-rounded person if i got invested in like. silent hill or something #or if i could just lose interest in things and move on after a 'normal' amount of time #but nooo instead of accumulating more blorbos and takes i just end up applying more and more stuff to the primary blorbo #this is a hell of my own creation #and i tried!! i tried taking a break from evil x stuff in the hopes that i'd be sucked into something else in that time but No #i'll just be here ig 👍

[sw1mmingfoolz]

growth is feeling like u wanna unalive urself and full on ugly sobbing for like 15 mins before being like right anyway what options do i have rn

#sorry for personal posting on main but ah #i am losing my mind these days lol #i have no sleep schedule i just nap all the time n it kinda works but also i hate waking up at 2/3pm #but i just cannot stop #i don't actually have an official narcolepsy diagnosis yet in spite of my drs agreeing that's what it is #i did an mslt in February and was told I'd get my results in early march at the latest #it's may and I've heard nothing #called the number i was given and was transferred like 4 times before being told to just call my gp #who said they hadn't gotten any results so there was nothing they could tell me #i had to fight so hard to get an mslt in the first place because they just keep diagnosing me with depression #and yknow if i have depression it's BECAUSE of the sleep disorder lol like i cannot stay awake i fall asleep constantly #I can't sit down to write or watch a film or anything atm #i keep saying new bite me or gonna write another 500 drabble and then i'm out cold on and off til 3am #i'm exhausted all the time it rules my life i make plans around it and cancel any that are before noon #and if ik i have something important i have to be up early for i literally do not go to sleep bc ik I won't wake up #it's ruining my entire life lmao but i just get told i have depression or. have my mslt results lost?? ig?? #was on the phone for over a half hour and just entirely broke down crying afterwards like i could not stop #eventually i just told myself to get a grip and started researching private clinics cuz i can save enough for private treatment if i try #and they listen more when you're paying them aha it's just narcolepsy is so rare most places don't even know of it #it's likely I'll have to travel to london and shell out a fortune to even try getting any answers but living like this is #just so unsustainable like i wanna do a degree and get a 'real job' #anyway sorry for the big tag ramble and personal posting i have had a rough morning but. I'll figure it out #i always do somehow #a/n #personal #probably delete later #i really said personal posting on main girl this is a sideblog what are u talking about

[clownkiwi]

BTW i will stream tonight

just not until i get something to eat for dinner first

#ruby says clown shit #our microwave doesnt work so i cant easily heat something up and all i had today was bread and butter #so ig i'll just wait until my folks are done making dinner

[soup-crime]

Wahoo I didn't get sent the email I was told I was going to and also was supposed to complete 72 hours after completing the application for the job I actually got myself to apply to for once that woulda paid $18-19/hr and its been 72 hours since I completed the application so now I have once again failed to get a job!

#pathetic girl moments #Aren't people into pathetic girls or something? #I couldn't even complete the applications by myself #(I technically applied to 4 jobs all within the same company and still came up with nothing) #I had to get my parents to help cause I'm a nervous wreck who can't do anything without getting my hand held while I do it #Idk what's wrong with me #I'm gonna try for this one last job I have in mind and if I don't get it then #idfk #I'll give up forever and just voluntarily live out on the streets #as punishment for not being able to contribute to the rent at all #and then I'll probably end up dying #...that got really sad #I need some goddamn adhd and anxiety meds #ones that will actually be effective for more than a week #my stupid brain is way too adaptive to psychoactive drugs ig #cause I've been prescribed multiple and every time it stops being effective really quick #I really hope such a condition doesn't make medicating me impossible #Cause I can barely function like this