#LAUGH ​(something’s gotta give)

[youngyoo-apologist]

I really like to make fun of Cale for learning life changing information on accident. He’s always like “how did this happen, who could have done something that lead to this?”

Brother, you did!

#he makes me want to cough up blood sometimes #this damn hypocrite #also #how is he so smart and so obvlious at the same time #this freaking guy 😭😭😭 #he makes me angry sometimes #I love him dearly #no because I’ll be re reading TCF and I start laughing out loud when I see something that will show up later #and Cale is like ‘lol I will be free of this soon and get my slacker life’ #GIVE UP NOW #GIVE UP #It’s so funny to me how like CJS and LSH were like ‘we gotta watch him so his dumbass doesn’t get into trouble’ #Cale when he realizes the only person preventing him from a slacker life is himself #lcf #tcf #rambling

[frecklystars]

a little bit of romance is always good for ratings 😘😘

☆ ̗̀  drawn in October 2022   ̖́☆

#listen i had to watch SOMETHING while i was in recovery for all those weeks #just let me kiss him before i break his heart #self insert #self shipping #total drama island #total drama #chris mclean #total drama chris mclean #my art #Chris tag TBA #also i like giving my f/os things so i gave him a ring <3 #its been 4 years since he was added to my romantic list #and i gotta say. he is still insufferable. probably my Worst f/o next to count olaf #but he's got a cute laugh... what can i do...................

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[dumbasssoftly]

look, not to be a bitch, but im tired of the whole ‘mike is such a bully and a controversy king hmph!’ Like I get it. He says dumb shit. But for a 44 year old man, he’s pretty good. Compared to the other 44 year old men I know in Real life, he’s pretty damn good. I get how his whole ‘stfu Zoomers’ schtick can be annoying, but he’s clearly joking. He finds that funny, it’s lighthearted, whatever, he’s a 44 year old man, I don’t give a shit. I’m in my late 20s, I have rent to pay buddy, I’m not worried about what this man says when his most controversial take of the Week is that he calls his audience young. Like??? You have not been on YouTube fuckin long enough or seen enough awful shit if you think that’s the worst thing a man can fucking do, if I’m calling Mike a fuckin relief, a fucking respite from the rest of the internet, what the fuck do you think I’m comparing him to. honestly. think about it. If he’s the Best (ish) for the select kind of Man I want to watch, because I get joy from it, can you possibly imagine the kinds of other shit men within his bracket? And when I hop on tumblr dot com I don’t go to the rlmblr tag to see y’all going ‘oooh he said a nasty thinggg grr shame on you bad man’ no I go because I want to see you guys’ goofin and having fun and posting the thirstiest tags known to man I don’t come here to see blortch and co.’s rancid, mid-ass, ice-cold takes. They do it for shits and giggles, (which. I mean, do you.) but some of you take mikes word vomit a little too seriously. It’s a 44 year old man. On the internet. Who does movie reviews. He meets the baseline moral criteria, baby, and that’s all I care about. I don’t watch him for his sociopolitical beliefs, I watch him bc it’s an hour+ of voices in the background so I can work, because I have a Job and I have Rent and Bills to Pay, and because I want to sit on his fat cock that’s all that’s it I rest my case goodnight.

#this isn’t a callout or nothing I’m just having fun. #it’s just like the culmination of all the eyerolls when I see a ‘mike is saying a bad thing!’ like. #you don’t think I know that. I have enough nuance to know when he says a thing it’s for shock or dark humor #and when something’s actually morally bad like you gotta give me and yourself enough credit to know the difference #without having to make a shady little post about it every episode they make #like we get it now can we move on to how they made each other laugh cause that’s all I care about at this point and time

[yackers]

one thing I love about patricia is that no matter how far she’s been backed into a seemingly inescapable corner she does not fail to just carry on bullshitting

#eddie is like I heard you out loud tell your best friend you like me and I’m gonna quote it back to you #and she’s like no I never said that that never happened and also you suck actually #mara and eddie know something is up and are begging you to cut the bullshit? just laugh and say sorry I gotta help joy with her macrame!! #spotted in public with your literal identical twin? impossible I’ve actually never met her before #the difference between her and nina is that nina lies badly in any situation whereas patricia lies badly when anyone else would just give up #house of anubis #txt

[letoscrawls]

Last summer i had an....infection problem that was a real pain in the ass and it's back... Please end me now this is getting ridiculous

#it's caused by stress and i gotta do antibiotics for a while #and i gotta stay home but i can't skip classes 😭 i'll miss so much stuff!!!!! #and the deadline for my next exam is in like ten days and i have nothing. nothing #the code i'm working on doesn't work and i have to stay in bed and i can't work from my laptop that way it's uncomfortable!!!!! #obviously online classes and exams are not an option anymore bc my uni doesn't give a fuck about health issues #they barely cared about covid!! #this is a joke like i'm genuinely laughing at this point i must have done something to someone important to have so much bad luck #GOD

[peaches2217]

I have been demeaned and belittled more by customers today than I ever have in my eight years of customer service, and considering I work a short shift today (and it’s only HALFWAY THROUGH), that’s saying something. Y’all know what that means:

Obscenely fluffy Mareach scenarios when I get home! Because if I’m gonna lose this much serotonin, I’m gonna turn right around and replenish it to survive another day!

#FUCK YOU NEGATIVITY AND NIHILISM #and also FUCK TOU FIRST TWO DAYS OF THE MONTH (the worst time for our store 😭) #yesterday was at least fun. I found a joint on the floor and thought it was a bassoon reed at first #customers were so outlandish that it was easy to laugh off #today they’re just outright mean #why? being mean and snippy and aggressive is so exhausting and unfulfilling. kindness can be tiring too but at least it feels better #I digress! gotta decide whether to roll out more Married Mareach or Expectant Parents Mareach… #special shout-out to my mushroom blorbos for giving me something to smile about and look forward to #peaches screams into the void

[bellamyblake]

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#i just gotta say in limbo is so good #i watched it all in one sitting and it was amazing #and then i went to rewatch too cause i just couldn't help myself #i cried so much #but i laughed too #tho i cried a lot more it's so important #talking about people suffering in silence like bob's character nate was #bob's amazing in it #his acting is just perfect and i think he and ryan corr do so well together #i just...wow #i was blown away #i loved love me but this is just #something so close to me and so well done #quite honestly i love what australia is doing with their shows lately #it's what american tv used to be like but is now just netflix 12 episodes of some sci fi zombie shit that means nothing #and gets cancelled after 2 seasons #or something too weirdly done again cancelled by two seasons #this is just kind of what like good tv used to be like and i love it #it gives me the good feels #and i cried so badly #anyway to delete

[yourubersawcrit]

Imagine getting scared. Couldn't be me.

#Ok so; after watching Flaw Peacock's video on Who's Lila? I fell asleep #When I woke up; I was still sleepy and in pain; I noticed one of the YouTubers I watch posted another video #Upon the first minute I misshear something with “Where's/Who's Lila?”. can't remember #I tried to remember the name and context; since it was familiar. then the explanations and theories kicked in #I gasped and got scared of all the sudden information I forgot somehow #As consequence; the *serious face* thingy #—something I learned to do based of a meme of a man laughing with another; then getting serious and running towards him. though it was cool— #Got relaxed for a moment. BUT THEN REMEMBERED THE SCENE WITH TANYA AND WILL THAT ENDED UP GIVING LILA CONTROL OF THE VESSEL #Then screeched and went to mimir again <3 #Anyway chat! gotta um; gotta be silly ^-^“ #hal by themselves

[pangolen]

i am ALMOST done with chants of sennaar but i have work in the morning so i need to stop for the night

#aaaaaaa #also i'm laughing cuz i think the bards are the only ones with a different word order? #and the way it's translated kinda implies that like. it's a fully stylistic choice on their part #they're just speaking that way to sound more poetic or whatever #i love it #also i didn't check before i shut my computer down #but i wonder if there's like a. Hard Mode where you DONT get the english translations #& you have to compare everything to the devotee's language #i think that would be fun #& when u come across a new word the devotees don't have then u just gotta remember it #or maybe u gain a new devotee character #this is probably not a real mode #but it's one i would like to play #saw someone in a comment somewhere say this would be a good way to learn a new language #and yeah probably something Like this #but at the same time. the way the game is set up it'll just give you the answer sometimes #or else you accidentally yourself into a faulty translation #i've played a couple language learning games before #there was one where you run around a town and talk to people which was interesting #but i don't know that i really learned anything from it #and another that was like. the 3d game equivalent of flash cards #which is not how i learn #and also it made me motion sick #i've gotten off track #anyway this game is fun #if u were interested in heavens vault but didn't like all the dialogue or the controls this might be up ur alley #(i'm not dissing heavens vault btw i think it's rad. this is a 'it was almost for you' rec) #cos also has a point and click mode but it's usually pretty smooth

[unproduciblesmackdown]

as per further [will roland in a joe iconis christmas spectacular / extravaganza] investigations, he crops up several times in these clips

1:24 as a belly button puppet show puppeteer, between ewm mister macabee and gerard canonico

the consecutive clips at 1:59 & 2:57 as uncle peenie

the consecutive clip at 3:23 on stage closest to the camera, as no immediately discernible role, which potentially counts as playing himself / “will roland” as cited in the tweet of pre melvin cooterstein roles, and as seems to be others’ role in the show sometimes (playing As Themself)

#will roland #joe iconis christmas extravaganza #uncle peenie #belly button puppet show puppeteer #he's been on the other side of it when playing mister macabee but this'd count as being Specifically a puppeteer rather than. mister macabee #(sidenote the Alternate(?) Rival? Faux? Etc? mister macabee does crop up again & is unsurprisingly a repeat feature. no lead on the kissing) #this Hard Candy Christmas sequence always having seemed to be a Ballet as also kinda seen here #but in later shows involving a) mister macabee introducing the scene i believe b) cindy lou who c) the belly button puppet show lol #the GIRL here keeps making me laugh harder every time lmfao. can already identify will Auditorially but the Wahhh he gives only helps #and ofc identifying him visually. like technically the virgin mary dancers ft. him were not identified but it is evident in other ways #(just like yeah visual recognition but that it's also Uncle Peenie and he's also the one playing that role there) #he's wearing the pants / black tank top of the uncle peenie outfit as a puppeteer but i don't think he is uncle peenie in that capacity #gotta have the aviators at least lol #make it a crop top....also as out of focus as it is there it looks like a binder too #i also suppose everyone not outright playing some other Character / themed ensemble role does appear As Themself technically #since the show exists within the show and so the audience members and any actors are technically all participating characters in the plot #going like ''can that be right; he doesn't have his glasses'' but oft wearing contacts for these things. orange aviators nonprescription #then fun fact it's a Ye Olde xmas spectacular hard candy christmas scene wherein all of [undergrad] will roland pops up ensembley... #still ft. the ballet; no cindy lou who plotline; some other plotline riffing on perhaps smthing more general than any other Specific work #but also maybe something nutcracker related? i used a nutcracker to crack an almond and a walnut open today btw. novel and winning #naturally there's also other more recent versions of it posted. the bg antics b/w the puppeteers lol. & then they kissed (tummies) #also loving The Singing not simply like Despite character voices but really just also soaking that in as a bonus feature to enjoy/appreciate #also for interest: there are more clips following that of the goodbye song so don't be deceived in that way lol

[eager-wolfboy]

I need to do laundry so bad (ie I need to masturbate with a shirt on again)

#I stopped bc it was getting too warm but something’s got to give atp #it’s amazing how the first thing to hit post-nut clarity is the existence of my body #it’s like Adam and Ever after they ate the apple #someone’s gotta get me one of those fig leaves goddamn #I don’t know whether to laugh or cry about this #minors/ageless blogs fuck off #raccoon•original #please read dni #personal vent #but like #comedy

[itsnotmydreamdaditsyours]

mfs be like "have you talked to a threapist" like its not $200 an appointment & i dont already know whats wrong w me

#personal #they can tell me what to do & whatever but i Know. like I Know. but i cant eliminate stressors in my life and im just sad & lonely all the #time and im sorry but a therapist being like i need you to go do these things to feel better when i already know or talk over trauma ive #already come to terms with isnt going to do anything. #its stupid but i really just need a new job and a dog i take care of bc itll give me a schedule i cant ignore and also affection. #and like. literally nothing makes me feel better than a dog. bc like!! it makes you get out of bed and leave the house & remember to eat & #go to the store and makes you laugh and petting is something to do with your hands and they lick your face when you cry and sleep with you #at night and are so happy to see you when you come home. need a dog :/ #and like. dogs will make you wake up & go to sleep according to them which is much better for your sleep cycle since its natural #i need a little dog to pick up & carry around as emotional support. like anxious as fuck? hold little dog. sad for no reason? hold little #dog. need to get out of house? walkies. dont want to get out of bed? sorry bro gotta feed and let the dog out. might as well get myself #something to eat as well while im up & get dressed. gotta keep things clean so my dog doesnt get into anything. gotta go food shopping #instead of ordering bc i gotta grab dog food as well. cant die gotta take care of my little guy #sorry im just :( spent the week feeling bad and just saw puppies all weekend and im like. i need a fuckj g emotional support dog

[sarabyfleetwoodmacmp3]

💭

#third time I’ve gone out for a walk #it was ok. i still haven’t figured out a rhythm for walking yet #i tried fast walking but i noticed that after a little while I ended up slowing down unconsciously so i gotta figure that out #it was going ok I was feeling good until I noticed this guy wouldn’t stop staring at me but I mostly ignored it and even slightly rolled my- #eyes at him at one point lol so i didn’t give in to fear and was able to manage but then also this two guys in a motorcycle passed by me and #screamed like yelped?? i guess to scare me bc they laughed when I turned in their direction on reflect #and i was able to brushed it off at first thinking they must be kids and maybe they were doing a joke or something but then in another lap- #they did it again I don’t know why :/ good thing i didn’t get scared or anything but it did kinda weirded me out #i don’t know why guys do that kinda stuff and just can’t leave you alone #again if this was me a little while ago i would have been terrified and would have run home and feel paranoid for the rest of the day but im #good now I’m trying to leave those patterns of behavior behind #i guess i just gotta figure out how to deal with unwanted attention and to not let it affect me #it was still a beautiful day tho. i guess #trying to be positive #i guess im gonna chronicle this from time to time #online diary

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna do some thinking. so its 10pm on friday night and im stuck here in the lab for another half hour and ive gott be back here at #6.50am and ill be here until 3. come back at 9pm and stay to 10.30 again #and what im doing is pretty mentally draining. and ive got a million other things ive gotta do #and im not happy. im v not happy. ive got at least 2 more projects like this lined up #and my pi is like: ah this data is interesting! and i just cant even summon a little bit of emotion about it #someday im gonna look back on this time in my life and it'll make me sad. just a blur of the same draining nonsense everyday #like whats the point of that? somethings gotta give #but i feel obligated to do this bc my weird necrotic behaviors mean im v efficient at it. so i generate so much data #and then i open up the data and feel nothing. like my body had to physically adjust to the idea that i was gonna have to start taking #measurements again. like 2 weeks agon when i stopped the last project i felt so far past burnout that #i was just numb and i feel like that would be easier to maintain than trying to enjoy anything #and i just keep getting more of these projects and its not even what im really interested in #thr project i wanna do just keeps getting pushed further and further back. and idk maybe i should just accept that its not gonna happen #and shut up abt it. i mean shut up to myself. i dont actually complain abt it #and if i did it would be like ahaha im in pain but im laughing so u dont take it seriously #bc whats the point in letting ppl kno ur hurting when u dont intend to do anything abt it? at that pt ur just infecting ppl with ur stress #i kno i keep saying this but ive gotta find a new lab for a phd. but im so burnt out and i have so little spare time #and i wanna draw but that takes so much time. like do i take a bit of happiness or do i b productive? #maybe that's what ill do when im stuck here at night. look for an interesting lab. somewhere not in the desert #i dont wanna live in las vegas or in California. i wanna go somewhere with trees #idk. im just tired and sad :-/ #and my pi mentions a student coming here in the spring with similar interests to me and im just like so numb im just like #wow. i wish i could manifest even a little bit of his passion. im just staring at open docs like. i want yo lay down and decompose #somethings gotta give sooner or later #like my single friend came over last weekend and asked me if id made any friends in my 'new' position and its just like #the only human contact i have is being around ppl in the lab and our lab manager jokes thst im so quiet she wouldnt kno i was there if not #for the machines buzzing. #i spend my time in my apt and the lab and i run around my neighborhood once a day. thats basically it. thats all i do #its stupid. i wish i was at home listening to thr sounds of bugs and frogs or on the lakeside #in the woods. not thinking

[barkingangelbaby]

I'm screaming!! sometimes I'll listen to the old audio recordings I have on my phone when I'm bored and there's a decent amount from 2014-2016 where I'm just.. CHOMPING on some cheezits and saying the slowest sentences while high/tripping.. so thankful my friends still enjoyed my company bc what the fuck was I saying???

#awwww reminiscing on my rural suburban teenage adventures now #just getting Too High and hanging out in the bed of my truck in parking lots #my friend C used to work at mcdonalds so we would go there after he got off and just.. lay down in the truck and cuddle and watch the stars #just a big ol cuddle puddle of me n four pals.. i hope theyre doing alright #C used to give me dissociatives too and omfg i loved them so much but he would never sell to me :( it was so fun tho #just not in my body wandering around downtown and going to the river #or going to the creek and trails #omfg also did ambien with F one time and that was WILD #biggest trip of me life #there's a picture on my og tumblr of us putting it on each other's tongues lmfao #ugh now I'm thinking about being high/drunk on my friend's farm and going down to the pond to explore.. good times during my worst times :-) #OMFGGG okay just remembered another thing #going to (a different) C's house after school and doing pills and jumping on his trampoline for hours at a time #one time we did a photoshoot pretending to be mary and jesus and he screamed at the top of his lungs and i almost pissed myself laughing #dudes i did So Many Drugs when i was a teenager.. gotta do something not to k!ll urself!! #this took a turn but I'm grateful im a healthy adult and those addictions didn't follow me past 19 omg #OKAY rambling over thank u for coming 2 my tedtalk #rAMbles