#LOOOOVE drawing normal <3

[tokyosmega]

*smacks the s2 teens* you can fit so much trauma in this bad boy!

#mega art #mega art 2024 #headcanon scary shaves the edge of her brows #and has a septum piercing #and taylor is like lowk hot hes got those close genes know #dont rlly like his or lincolns but we persevere #LOOOOVE drawing normal <3 #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads2 #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies s2 #taylor swift dndads #normal oak #normally oak swallows garcia #normal oak garcia #mans got too many names #scary marlowe #lincoln li wilson #lincoln li-wilson #link li wilson #dnd

[automatonknight]

id: a digital greyscale drawing of quark from deep space nine. he’s shown sitting on a stool and leaning against a bar behind him, gesturing with one hand and holding a small glass in the other.  he’s smiling and looking off to the right. quark is wearing a cropped suit of sort with a simple shirt underneath-both pieces of clothing are patterned-as well as light-colored, high-waisted pants. he’s visible from the head to about his knees. the background shows a part of a counter and a stock photo of a bar. end id

#this is likeee. my 4th attempt at him :] #another request from igamer btw also!!! hi igamer :3 #i'm still making my way through tng buuut. well. byte says draw this alien and i do. ok #ok normal tags time #art #fanart #ds9 #deep space 9 #quark ds9 #ds9 quark #i seriously loooove his suits and shit i'm so envious

[bumblingbabooshka]

T’Pel Doodles 

#T'Pel #T'Pel art #st voyager #st voyager art #T'Pel is even shorter than Janeway with big ol ears and a sleepy lil expression #big ol ears - big ol eyes - big ol.............heart <3 #I like to draw T'Pel as simultaneously the most normal lady ever and also the cutest gal in the world #Tuvok looooves her~ and So Do I #and so will you >) #bea art tag #no one can tell me that Tuvok doesn't like to gently tease people to show his affection

[frazzledazzlin]

HFJHGFKJ HI RAZZ IM SO SORRY YOU WERENT HERE EARLIER HGKJH </3

KELLY HELP im atoning for my absence by drawing like 3 things after dinner nothing can stop me (except sleepy time)

#thsc #you guys are gonna loooove the one i'm currently drawing #yes ther's like 3 ideas for the copperright polls yes im totally normal

[nhlclover]

sun to me | jamie drysdale

word count: 1.19k

summary: attempting long distance makes it clear to you and jamie that you need each other

warnings: loneliness, sad jamie, kissing, tiny bit of cursing

notes: loooove this one

Jamie was sprawled out on his bed in his cramped apartment in Philadelphia, staring blankly at the empty walls. He hadn’t decorated yet, let alone had the proper furniture. His bed was simply a mattress on the floor, his coffee table doubling as a kitchen table.

Jamie had been in Philly for about a month now. You’d think a month was enough to adjust to a new city, and while he had settled into a routine and gotten comfortable with all of the city’s quirks, something still felt off.

It was you. He missed you deeply. Your laughter, your presence, your comfort. You were his anchor. But you were tied to your job over 2,000 miles away in Anaheim. You guys had discussed this before he left, that 3 months wasn’t that long and you could withstand it. Then, at the season's end, you’d talk about your future together.

However, here you both were, on opposite sides of the country, distance putting a strain on the both of you.

Jamie did his normal pre-game routine with you on his mind. He thought of the fact that you were probably at work right now, wrapping up final tasks, before heading home and putting on the Flyers game. It was a miracle he found someone as supportive as you, willing to put up with the long days and stress that being a professional athlete could bring.

Each game he played knowing that when he got home he wouldn’t be coming home to you made them harder and harder. The facetimes and calls were not enough anymore and the strain on Jamie was starting to show in his gameplay. Today’s game was horrible. Jamie was benched for almost the entire third after he gave up 3 separate turnovers. Amidst the rowdy Philadelphia crowd, upset that their team was losing, his mind wandered to you. It was always you.

Jamie kept to himself while getting changed and showering, truly wanting to go home just to call you. After an unbearable 5 minutes with the media, Jamie trudged out of the locker room, shoulders slumped and spirits in the basement. Walking down the hall, Jamie feels an arm hook around his shoulders.

“Why the long face?” Cam asks.

Jamie shrugs off Cam's arm, his mind still reeling. "Just had a rough game, man. Ready to get out of here."

Cam flashes him a sly, knowing grin. “It’ll pick up soon, bud.” He says.

Jamie ignores his teammates' words, continuing down the halls of the Wells Fargo Centre. As he turned the bend, greeted by a myriad of voices, there you were.

Jamie could’ve sworn he was seeing things, maybe reaching a point of delusion. But there you were, standing with his teammates' girlfriends. Jamie’s heart lifted upon seeing you, the weight of a thousand worlds falling behind him as he headed straight for you. When he reached you, his arms enveloped you in a tight embrace.

The world around him fades away leaving only you two suspended in this moment. His touch is firm yet gentle, a silent declaration of his need for your presence, your comfort.

“Hi, James.” You say softly into his chest. Your delicate tone nearly sends Jamie over the edge, the reality of everything catching up to him, tears threatening to prick at his eyes.

“Hi, baby.” He says softly. You guys stay there for a few more moments before you force Jamie to walk to his car with you.

Deciding you had so much to talk about, Jamie drove you to a park to walk around while you guys spoke. You intertwined your fingers with Jamie's, drawing strength from the reassuring warmth of his touch. The weight of your words hung heavy in the air, a tangible reminder of the struggles you had endured during your time apart.

“So, what are you doing here?” Jamie asks, his grin having still not faded since first seeing you.

“I had to see you…” You tell him. “So I took two weeks off.”

“You did what?” Jamie asked.

“Jamie, I missed you so much, it was almost unbearable.” You confessed, your voice conveying the pain it had truly caused you. “With the time difference and our weird, conflicting schedules… I had to come and see you.”

Jamie's expression softened, his gaze filled with empathy as he listened to your words. He understood all too well the pain of separation, the relentless tug of loneliness that pulled at his heart with every passing day.

“Y/n, I missed you too. I’ve been fucking miserable.” Jamie said, a small chuckle escaping as he recounts the past couple of days. “It's like… no matter how many times we talk on the phone or text each other, it's never enough. I need you here with me, physically, emotionally… I just…”

Jamie suddenly stops walking, turning to face you.

“Marry me.”

The words were out of Jamie’s mouth before he knew it, the both of you sharing the same shocked reaction to his words. The unexpected proposal makes you freeze, your heart skipping a beat. Despite them being blurted out, Jamie knew that they were real feelings.

“W-what?” You ask. It felt as though time stood still as you processed his words. Jamie takes both of your hands in his, his eyes glimmering.

“I’m serious. Marry me.” He says again. “These last couple of months have been…fucking hell on earth. I’ve been miserable. And for a while, I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. At first, I thought it was the lack of sun… or maybe it was taking me a little longer than I thought to adjust to a new city. But it was you. I couldn’t bear not having you with me.”

Your heart was pounding in your chest, jaw open slack as you were processing his words.

“I want you here in Philly, with me. And whatever it takes.” Jamie says. “You can get another job here, in Philly, I’m sure the guys of their wives have connections here and they could help. Or don’t work! I can support you, I don’t care. What I’m trying to say is-”

You cut off Jamie’s rambling, pressing your lips to his, effectively shutting him up. Your lips melded together, picking up as if you had never been separated. As you parted, a small smile graced your lips. Jamie’s eyes scanned your face, desperate to read what you were thinking.

"Yes," you said, your voice steady with resolve. "Yes, I will marry you. And yes, I will come live with you in Philadelphia. We can figure everything else out later.”

Jamie let out a huff of relief before scooping you up in his arms and spinning you above the ground. You squeal, your laughter ringing like a melody in Jamie’s ears.

“Oh my god, I have a wife!” Jamie cheered loudly.

He leans down pressing a kiss to your lips, holding you close once again. As you held each other close, the weight of loneliness lifted from Jamie's heart, replaced by the comforting certainty of your presence.

“I love you so much.” Jamie whispers against your lips.

#jamie drysdale #jamie drysdale x reader #jamie drysdale imagine #philadelphia flyers #nhl fic #nhl imagine #nhl #flyers hockey #hockey #hockey imagine

[familyvideostevie]

🐚 SEASHELL: let's look for beautiful things on the beach! send me a line from a book, song, or movie/tv show and a character and i'll write a short (<1k) blurb for you

i loooove this (and u!) and think the classic augustus everett “when i watch you sleep, i feel overwhelmed that you exist” would be so perfect with loverboy stevie !! 🫶

omg i actually did this exact line for my celebration last year BUT you so inspire me i have thought of something different here <3 so here's steve coming home to find you asleep

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Steve gets home later than he wants to. This is one of the best parts of his day -- when he's home later than you, you give him this look like he's the greatest thing you've ever seen walk through the door. Well, you look at him like that all the time, but still. It makes him feel good.

But he knew he'd be back way past the time you usually go to bed so he told you not to wait up. He unlocks the door as quietly as he can, shutting it softly and toeing off his shoes without calling into the apartment.

The light of the TV splashes across the otherwise dark living room. Are you not asleep already?

"I'm home," he calls quietly, just in case you're engrossed in the show and didn't hear him. He doesn't want to spook you. But no reply comes.

Steve wanders to the couch and is greeted with a sight that makes him smile like an idiot: you, sleeping with your hands tucked under your head. Your nose is scrunched like you're trying to solve a problem but you're breathing steadily. You tried to wait up for him.

"Hey, there," he says softly. He squats and draws the blanket up a little higher, just watching you for a second. He'll wake you in a second, he really will. He's just...looking. At your eyelashes, the indent above your lips. The curve of your cheek and the arch of your brow. You get flustered when he looks at you like this normally, so he's taking his time. Hell, he's getting a little overwhelmed. He's come home to you hundreds of times by now, and it never stops being a damn miracle. You, loving him. It's overwhelming.

He reaches out and strokes your cheek with the back of one knuckle. Up, down, up down. "God, I'm so obsessed with you," he mutters.

You nose wrinkles again, but this time your mouth quirks up with it. "Creepy," you grumble. Steve groans.

"You caught me," he says. "Move over. My knees hurt." You scoot back into the couch with a yawn and he sits against your hips.

"Missed you," you say. Your clumsily shove your hand under his shirt to feel the warm skin of his hip. He laughs -- you're clingy when you're tired. He could tease you for it, remind you that you saw him this morning, but he doesn't. He knows how you feel.

"Missed you, too," he says, leaning down for a kiss. You tilt your head up and he pecks you once, twice, three times.

"'Cause you're obsessed with me," you say against his lips. "S'okay, though. I'm obsessed with you."

Steve trails his lips across your cheek. God, what did he do to deserve this? "Thank Christ," he says.

join the celebration!

#fvsbeachday #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x you #steve harrington x y/n #steve harrington fluff

[leeblissy]

hiii emergency commissions open 😋

long story short, the temp period at my previous job ended so I was out of a job for 3 weeks, and now that I do have a job, I won't be getting paid for another 2 weeks and I'm broke as fuck. here's info:

sketches

$10 for bust +$5 per additional person

$20 for full body +$10 per additional person

flat colors

$35 for bust + $15 per additional person

$50 for full body +$20 per additional person

full color

$60 for bust +$25 per additional person

$80 for full body +$35 per additional person

stupid memes with your blorbo drawn over it

$15 +$7 per additional person

I can also draw silly emojis for your discord server

$10 for a head or bust, $15 for waist or full body

additional info

if you want any cool effects like the first full color example or the second flat color example let me know. it'll be an additional charge up to my discretion but I won't try to make it too expensive.

I loooove drawing dnd characters PLEASE give me your characters 😭 🙏

I don't do nsfw but I will draw upper body nudity of adults if you want.

if you want anthro animal characters please provide ample reference.

I won't do any of the regular nasty shit that'd get you on a normal dni list.

you must have a paypal so that i can send you an invoice, and i won’t get started on the piece until the invoice has been paid in full. I will be sending progress updates as i go, so please make sure you’re available to answer your dms and give me feedback so i can make the best possible piece for you!

if you have any questions, I'll make sure my dms are open! if you want something specific that doesn't necessarily show up on this list feel free to ask, I'll think about it 👌

refund policy

if you change your mind after you paid, but before i start working on your piece, I'll refund you in full.

if you cancel the commission partway through, I'll give you a partial refund. we can work out the exact amount together, but I get the final say based on how much I've already done.

if I cancel the commission for any reason, I'll send you a full refund no matter how much I got done and send you what I did of it.

closing thoughts

thank you for reading, I am trans and neurodivergent and need some cash 💀 please feel free to reblog or share with your friends 💕

#commissions #dnd ocs #atla #deltarune #redraw reigen #lees art

[tanjir0se]

Hello!! I saw in the tags of a post that youd like more asks, which made me brave enough to send one

Would u mind rambling a bit about your rengiyuu fic(s)? I get excited when I hear that you're working on them but I don't know if you've published any/ any chapters yet?

I hope you're having a nice day!! 🌻

hI THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING AND I AM SO SORRY _(:3 」∠)_

So it AAALLL started with my overlong post-Entertainment District Coping fic I wrote the majority of between episodes 10 and 11 of Entertainment District, trying to find a way for Tanj and the bois to survive the. yknow. Gigantic Poison Explosion.

I wrote Giyuu and Shinobu heading there with an antidote, and Giyuu having to dig around through the rubble to find Tanjiro, half dead. In that I draw comparisons between his relationship with Tanjiro and his relationship with the now-deceased Kyojuro, very different but all leading into the same conclusion: He can't stand to lose anyone else who is as special and just sunshine incarnate as Kyo was. It's told interspersed between Giyuu trying to find/save Tanjiro and my headcanon for Giyuu and Kyo's first meeting, in which Giyuu became a Hashira AFTER Kyo and Kyo was his mentor throughout. Never finished or published it because most of it didn't make sense in canon after Ep 11 came out.

Then I moved onto my Demon!Rengoku bullshit. In this fic that takes place any time post Entertainment District, Rengoku has been posthumously turned into a demon by Douma in an attempt to get close to/kill Tanjiro. Waking up with no memory, no awareness that he's a demon, and nowhere else to go, Kyo wanders to Giyuu's house. Giyuu tries to just end him right then and there but can't work up the nerve, even when Kyo attacks him. Haven't gotten too far, but the gist is that he and Kyo have to team up (with Akaza?? [obviously he'd be fucking PISSED that Douma managed to turn Kyo when he couldn't, so maybe some enemy of my enemy is my friend?]) to figure out who turned him and how to turn him back. Probably my spiciest fic? Demons sexy what can I say. I think I'm pretty good at writing smut but I can literally never work up the nerve so. yknow.

I ALSO have a much more fluffy fic based on the idea of Giyuu being injured in battle, waking up in the butterfly mansion with Kyo having thought he died. Kyo tries to confess that he's realized his love for him but panics last minute and ends up saying he's realized Giyuu never met his brother. Giyuu accepts and they end up on a date that neither really realizes is a date except poor Senjuro, who now kind of has to play matchmaker! Very fluffy and silly and a good break from the darker fics I had been working on.

Annnnd another less overtly Rengiyuu fic as part of my Modern AU in which Giyuu (Kyo's roommate[and they were ROOMMATES]) and Sanemi (over at their apartment because he was bored) find themselves embroiled in the Rengoku family drama after Senjuro and Kyo appear at their apartment, Kyo with a black eye from their father. Explores Giyuu and Sanemi's shared past (dead siblings), Sanemi's relationship with his own father, and my personal thoughts for how Shinjuro and Kyojuro's relationship would have played out A.) If Kyo never died and B.) in a modern setting.

That was interrupted by As the World Caves In (read it here!) and will likely be interrupted by some Everybody Lives AU Secret Relationship bullshit in the future.

*Takes a huge deep breath*

So yeah anyway i loooove being Normal! For real though thank you for asking, I will die on this Ship and will always welcome the opportunity to ramble incoherently about it !!

#anon #THANK YOU FOR ASKING SKLJFLKD #kny #rengiyuu #rose's rambles #my GOD am i normal #i just have such a thing for the silent protagonist silent communication thing #kyo being the only one who can understand his quietness paradoxically (because he's so loud) is just sooooooooo . oompgh #also just. pure mental illness from both of them in different directions #rengiyuu wednesday lives in my mind rent free #in fact I pay rent to rengiyuu wednesday in the form of my various diseases spat out onto google docs and tumblr posts

[atlas-of-galaxies]

For the ask-game: Midori/The real Sour Hiyori?

first impression - I think that I thought he was like ... Shin in the future?? like some popular fanon? I didn't realize he was an Actual Character til I saw him on Kai's laptop and that's ... definitely a chilling introduction, considering everyone's reactions. impression now - it's just me, my trusted circle of people, and our utter normalness about Midori against the world. incredibly fun and electric character, but good god does he attract the strangest types of people in fandom you never would have thought existed. fun to dissect him regardless. even more fun to draw. favorite moment - he steals the show Every time he's on screen, so this is a tough choice, but the War of Words in the Russian Roulette holds a special place in my heart for how funny it is. it's the equivalent of Midori trying to solve a math problem and Sara just shouting random numbers at him. love seeing him lose his shit. idea for a story - I wanna see how he is in the ASU-NARO office behind the scenes. worst group of people ever trying to plan an elaborate Death Game sounds like a great prompt for a sitcom. unpopular opinion - I do Not wanna know anything about a backstory for Midori. any sort of explanation for Why He's Like This would make him less interesting in my opinion; I love characters who are just Freaks for no apparent reason. I wouldn't mind learning how he got involved in ASU-NARO (big fan of the theory his parents are also agents tho, leading to him growing up in this fucked-up environment (and therefore serving as a very nice foil to Kai and Hinako ... )) but anything beyond that is unnecessary imo. favorite relationship - him and the drill that kills him <3 on a more serious note, him and Keiji have a wonderful antagonism that showcases the latter's development super nicely; Keiji goes from responding to Midori's provoking language with murderous violence to seeing straight through his fumbling pleads in the Russian Roulette. he's able to not only keep a cool head, but also deliver one of the best lines in the game. it's incredibly satisfying. favorite headcanon - I loooove anything design-wise that stresses the inhuman. a personal favorite of mine is cracks down the side of the face he got impaled through, akin to a porcelain doll ... I imagine they get worse and spread under stress.

#saltysupercomputer #squip url and ewm icon .... i see you bmc fan #midori yttd #ask

[kitaychan]

Tag Game To Better Know You! Send this to people you’d like to know better!

Thank you @fizzycherrycola  for tagging me! <3

What book are you currently reading?

I'm still making my way through "The vortex" by José Eustacio Rivera. The book is a classic in here and it has amazing descriptions of the amazonian rainforest but I always forget where I leave the book lol but I'm close to end!

What’s your favourite movie you saw in theatres this year?

The Batman! I loooove Batman and I was astonished with Robert Pattinson's take on the character and Paul Dano did an excellent job as The riddler!

What do you usually wear?

I wear a lot of dresses and big coats, they're comfy and look cute, I also lean to soft colors though lately I've been buying more green clothes...

How tall are you?

I'm the tallest in my family, but people here are not so tall...

What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event?

Cancer. My birthday is on independence day, so it's annoying at times, but it's always festive!

Do you go by your name or a nick-name?

Ilich is a nickname, but irl I just go by my name.

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child?

Haha no. When I was a child I wanted to be an astronaut which is nearly impossible in a country that has no space program. Though I am happy with what I am now.

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one?

I am 🥰

What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at?

I am very good at swimming! I used to take lessons and all, but I am very bad at the trademark sports here like soccer and cycling.

Dogs or cats?

Cats!

If you draw/write, or create in any way, what’s your favourite picture/favourite line/favourite etc. from something you created this year?

I really liked this part of Together, I had fun researching about how outer space looks like and idk that part always gets me.

Everything seemed to work normally. Alfred lost count of how much time had passed, days, nights, it was hard to tell after they crossed by the Andromeda Galaxy, clouds of nebulae and a foreign web of constellations displayed an overwhelming number of suns, leaving them with the knowledge of how small the spiral-like Milky Way actually was.

There was a pause and shake of their heads every time the system marked a break on the distance from home. An infinite path strayed from their calculations, from their lifespans, but the prospect of a finish line for their journey didn't comfort them either.

In a surge of boredom, Alfred turned off the gravity inside, they seemed astonished at first. Wang had tried to turn it back on, but he had shoved him away and a childish game of tag started. It was strange, how unprofessional this was, how they were wasting time and energy on something so… human.

Alfred laughed, even when he knew they couldn't hear him, that they couldn't see his smile through the helmet, and it was… nice, for a while, but his laughter turned into sobs.

They were together, but not really.

What’s something you would like to create content for?

I think I'm happy with what I've done, and instead of creating new stuff I'd stop doing it, I want to finish my stories and take a break.

What’s something you’re currently obsessed with?

Cooking, this year I'm the one preparing the Christmas dinner and I've been practicing and planning what to do. Some of my family is coming over too so Idk I'm a bit nervous with that haha

What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year?

The Wakanda forever movie, there's something about how they handled having two powerful nations/empires and putting them against each other that simply disappointed me... It's a good movie but idk what I was expecting.

What’s a hidden talent of yours?

Hmm I've been crocheting lately and it's getting better haha

Are you religious?    

I'd like to say no but I'm constantly catching myself for assuming that some traditions here (that are heavily catholic) are also usual in other places, so that makes me go 🤔🤔

What’s something you wish to have at this moment?

Ahh I need some nice buñuelos (a pastry), in fact I think I'll get some of those on my way home.

I'm tagging @fireandiceland @magictrio1118 @darcymariaphoster and @crumpled--notes if you want to~

#tag game

[cupuasu]

loooove december break!! i genuinely thought this was one of the most mentally exhausting semesters of my life. it felt like it was never ending yet at the same time like i had 100000 things to do and send it over to the professors like yesterday. and i have never been so bad at communication as i was the past 6 months. i'd forget to say things and when i could say them i chose not to. literally snowballed itself into horrible hurried projects. it all started so chill i literally didn't worry that 1) laptop wasnt working 2) only signed in for two classes 3) i needed to change my table and chair because my back is RUINED. of course that all got solved along the way but it'd be easier if i had fixed those three things back in july break, i think i'm a masochist when it comes to things like this, i see the whip coming and i just stand there motionless. like as soon as it was 12:01 02/12/2023 i felt like i needed to scream freedom lol

then these days honestly i didn't even feel anything at all (other than that temporary extreme relief that it was over). because it just all feels so pointless. i will go thru all of this again next semester because i'm already fucking up now (signed for classes i know i can't handle because everyone tells me "i need to challenge myself if i want to get better", signed for mandatory unpaid internship as if the PAID one i did last year didn't absolutely kill me). part of me just wants to finish this stupid fucking shit by next year (impossible bc i still have like 20 classes left to do). i love architecture but university really sucks your soul out. they (society and the job market) kill your inspiration then they kill your will to live. i look around this city and everything is so ugly and useless and not functional and it tries so hard to look clean and modern it ends up just being fake and empty. if i go into private stuff i'll get insane clients that'll want the ugliest dumbest shit ever built, if i go into the public one the government has no sense of self and just tries to copy whatever's trending on the southeast/south or usa/europe as if it would work or as if they had money. like jesus christ think locally. all these ugly glass boxy buildings are gonna be the end of us, these dumb empty parks are doing more harm than good, stop restoring historical buildings if you're just gonna abandon them again. if i see anything in a beige palette i go in a rabid rage like where is the life where's the originality? sure overly-regional things can be cringe and people in the north and especially in my city have a terminal case of vira-latice. ideally i'd have started uni in 2017 and finished it in 2021 and moved on to whatever the future may hold but im MENTALLY ILLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! did 2 semesters then took a gap year then came back to uni and i'm just as lost as i felt in 2017. I FEEL STUCK IN TIME!!!!!! sure if i had done it "normally" i wouldn't even be here because i would have For Real killed myself. to be quite honest i didn't even think i was gonna make it past 13 years old and here i am 10 years later pushing thru it and all i got from it is that i should've thrown myself out of the damn 15th floor of a building when i had the chance in 2013. like genuinely genuinely speaking whenever i look around whenever i go out society and the world just seems to get worse. i can still see beauty in some things but it feels like staring at a small flower in a world where everything is destroyed. i can distract myself as much as i want to but the sense of doom and the sense of me being a waste of a life NEVER goes away.

and on the topic of distractions i have been using my phone so much it's making my brain go insane so i'm trying to not use it as much (12h screentime.....) sadly i haven't been able to focus on drawing or reading or writing or doing anything that is "by me for me" because i cannot focus. i feel soulless yet so depressed. seeing dead bodies and people fighting and suffering so hard just to live daily definitely made it worse but i feel bad saying that because it's like 'oh no this horrible thing is happening and i can't do anything except watch' bc there's ppl Going thru that horrible thing. i will always have an undying respect for palestinians and i think in fact watching all this made me realise how resiliant and strong ppl can be. and also how evil some ppl can be, i have never seen someone as inhuman as z**nists like the more i learn the angrier i get. and this is silly but sites like twitter (for me at least) there were a endless stream of them. no matter how many i blocked there would always be more. here at tumblr i guess i curated my dash very well and i don't use the for you tab here so i don't see them at all (thank god). yet you'll always find out someome at staff is a z**nist or something like that (same happens in other sites) and it's wow no matter how good my dash/timeline is these are all still a morally failed site owned and/or run by losers and i wish i wasn't as chronically online so i'd delete every account on every website and never use the internet again.

the only thing that has made me sort of zone out and forget life is gaming. i've been playing stardew valley like my life depends on it and sadly i can't even put mods on switch so i'm genuinely #grinding. i'm on year two winter and i got so much stuff already (my first time playing had me on year four fall and i didn't have half of what i have now). also last month my mom bought ssd cards for our laptops and i was able to redownload genshin so i'm playing it a lot again. i really missed kazuha and xinyan i feel like i have a slight delusion thing where characters genuinely bring me joy. also i haven't played genshin in sooooo long my hands forgot how to use the keyboard (and i've been losing fine motor skills lately but i'll talk about that later) and i was so used to playing zelda that i mixed up some of the world dynamics. i'd be like where are the sky islands i need to look at the map from above, why can't i mark things far away with a camera so i can check later, how do i see hero's path i need to know if i've been here before, why is it so hard to aim, why can't i parry, why don't the enemies drop decent loot. and also i'd be annoyed by common genshin stuff like the endless amount of text and dialogue like my GOD let me skip. i don't care!!!! i stopped reading text after the raiden shogun quest now i just skip everything!!!! why are the cutscenes so boring!!!!! why is every archon quest the same!!!!! but i love open world games. i love long quests. i love exploring. i love puzzles. hate the gacha system though. i haven't played in over a year and i thought when i'd come back there'd be 27827383 notifications and primogems STACKED for me to use and yet i wasnt surprised when there wasn't anything bc mihoyo is the worst company on earth and capitalism is the end of us. kinda sad i missed the birthday event and lost a cute fontaine companion though. by the way the flying and diving system is so broken (to me at least) and it's sooooo uncomfortable. my fingers are on the WASD keys and the space key and the shift like jesus christ this sucks. i got too used to using the switch and having a controller and the gyroscope and the comfort of it all lol.

the fine motor skills worsening started this year i think. i can't pinpoint exactly why or when but i think it was a mix of a bunch of things. i've been sedentary my whole life so my bones and joints are all fucked. i've been sitting ans standing wrong my whole life and my bones/muscles just adapted to it so now when i try to fix it, it hurts like hell. i'm pretty sure one of my legs is way shorter than the other. back to my fingers, i noticed that i wasnt able to type on my phone as fast as i did in the past. couldn't move them that fast anymore. felt like there was some sort of lag or glitch on the brain-to-hand connection. didn't pay much attention to that cos who cares how fast i can type. then i wasnt able to type on a keyboard properly, then not able to hold things properly, and now my hands just feel sort of numb and/or slow compared to before. fine for me though, i feel like i need to slow down when i do projects or when i'm gaming. i always get too much into it (and often at the last minute) then my body pays the price. the last project this semester had me up for 2 days and on the verge of an psychotic episode for another 4.

oh and to top it all off my laptop hard drive decided to kill itself in the middle of the semester. it was showing signs of giving up waaaay before that and i didn't know any better and didn't look into it. i'm still very hurt over it. there were SO many photos and SO many videos and documents and audios and music. my lifetime was there. and now it's gone and i still can't believe it. so mamy personal moments and also a lot of work i made and collected just gone forever in the void that is technology. i will never be able to see the baby pictures of my dogs and i won't be able to see the videos i took when i traveled with my family and i won't be able to read things i wrote when i was 13 and i won't be able to see pictures of myself growing up over the years and i wont be able to see all the pictures i saved of my online friends and i wont be able to listen to all the music i downloaded or watch the movies i downloaded or read those pdfs and i won't be able to use the billion autocad blocks that took me years to organize and i won't be able to make a portfolio bc my work and the proof of its existence is not there and i wont be able to play the games i had in those specific save files...... its like it never existed. like i have never felt a loss like this in my entire life. literally my burning of alexandria lol they will always exist on my mind of course, but i must also be experiencing some sort of early on set dementia because i forget EVERYTHING unless it's in front of me. so there's also the loss of the loss because everything i had in that hard drive died and it will also die in my memories.

and my phone fell last month i think and now the camera app doesn't open and i havent been able to take pictures. it's funny cos after i had my iphone stolen in 2019 and had to buy the one i have now (cheap and low quality) i thought i stopped taking pictures of everything. but man these days made me realise i unconsciously photograph things. i try to open my camera almost by muscle memory then watch it close itself and glitch. now i've been trying to write things down or just memorize them, which has been hard bc of my hands and my bad brain. but it's fun. analog almost. i get to appreciate and look at things more carefully with my own two eyes now instead of "ill take a pic and look at it later". and man, is the sky beautiful!!! the leaves are beautiful, the sky is beautiful!!! even the ants on the ground are!!

and its kinda early, but i do feel my body age also. probs due to me being unhealthy and normally old = sick. my back hurts so bad for sitting and standing and existing and sitting on a bad chair on a bad table for years, im really glad for being able 2 go the doc and get physio therapy and my posture fixed. i want a tank to make me flat cartoon style, that'd fix my pain!!! my posture doc kinda is weirded out by me (im too hairy and too awkward) but the therapist doesnt care at all. theyve really be relieving my shoulder pain, i wonder if there's still a way to fix it... itd be genuinely life saving

#diary #<- new tag for when i want to go balls to the walls with oversharing #gonna be sad if tumblr deletes what i wrote there's like loooong paragraphs here that will be necessary for my internal growth in 5 months

[greg-montgomery]

dad!greg thoughts? i can see him enthusiactically asking every question his kid has once they hit the "but why?" phase in their development! also can you imagine him showing off his precious child to everyone in the office? he'd be bragging about how cute and smart they are! and his wall is now littered with drawings and paintings!

SCREAMING!!!!! 💕💞💗💓💕💞💗💓

greg will answer every single question. and he’ll answer it after actually giving a lot of thought to his answer - he won’t just say anything! it’s important to him to spend time with his babies and explain to them everything they want to know about life! bc he knows they haven’t been alive for that long so it’s normal that they’re so curious about everything 😭 so even if it gets annoying he’ll still smile and answer to them and then give them a huge kiss on their cheek <33333

that’s why they ADORE him!! their dad is their hero who knows eveeeeeerything 😦 he’s soooo smart 😯 they talk about him all the time at school and paint pretty pictures for him all the time 🥰🥰 and they always end up on your fridge and on his office walls <33

your babies loooove going to their dad’s office 😭 bc this means more time with their daddy 🥹🥹😭 you bring greg lunch and bring your cute kids with you <3 and as soon as he hears his secretary announce it’s his family visiting he gets the biggest grin on his face 🥹🥹🥹🥹

he shows your babies off to EVERYONE!!! bc they’re adorable and smart and cute and beautiful and he’s obsessed with them 😭😭😭 and your kids don’t really know what’s going on but they’re happy to be involved <3333

#greg montgomery x reader #greg montgomery #dad!greg #< that’s a tag now i’m gonna add it to all of my dad!greg posts i need to have them handy in times of need lol #i love dad!greg 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💓💕💗💖💞 #and that’s so cute 😭😭 #thank you for indulging me bestie!!!! #ask #greg 🧸

[bytedykes]

COMPLETELY FORGOT TO DO THIS OMG, tagged by @bi-demon-ium HI GREBO!!! HI HI HI

rules: tag game! tag people and have them tell you your top ten favorite characters of all time (doesn’t have to be in order).

i loooove rambling i will ramble about each of these btw ❤ i am my own enabler (and procrastinating hw rn ahahaha...ha...h)

Will Byers (stranger things) - i LOVE will SO MUCH!!!! i love him soo so much he is my sweet can of peach preserves i want to swing him around like a ferret literally obsessed with him rn. everything about him makes me want to scream and cry and throw up every day im so thankful will exists nobody gets him like me. honorable mentions el who is practically one unit with will so i can legally put her on the same bullet point, and also all the other st characters who im also obsessed with who are not getting their own bulletpoints but i still want to acknowledge them bc i love them.... soo much.......

MAGNUS BANE (shadowhunters tv) - *long drawn out scream* tbh hes probably the first character i was like, really and truly obsessed with, like honestly magnus bane kicked off an Era for me regarding my derangement and how i participate in fandom. magnus bane was the catalyst of a whole gender awakening for me. magnus bane is my everything. i love him and his husband. yeag

Phoenix Wright (ace attorney) - OBSESSED WITH HIS PATHETIC BISEXUAL SWAG no further commentary needed. honorable ace attorney mentions go to maya fey and klavier even tho i have not gotten to him in game yet. i know imgonna love him when i do go back to playing aa4 so he counts

Bart Curlish (dirk gentlys holistic detective agency tv 2016) - THE MOST WOMAN EVER!!!!!!!! the peak of grimy murder women. they peaked with her here. we need more women like bart

Farah Black (dirk gentlys) - OUGH couldnt resist putting farah in here too bc shes also SUCH a woman i love everything about her she is perfect. honorable dghda mentions goes to tina and amanda and dirk and every other character in this show. shakes them up and down puts them all into the pear wiggler even

Diego Hargreeves (umbrella academy) - i love insane men with sharp objects and insane morals

Constance Contraire (the mysterious benedict society tv) - i love insane little girls who have plotted murders canonically on screen and have insane familial relationships

Ben Hargreeves (umbrella academy) - wait ok sorry to double dip again but i cant believe i forgot how obsessed with ben i was?? i spent literally 3 years blogging about him and drawing almost exclusively him?? i even created a crackship with him to torment my best friends with??? ben i am so sorry. how could i have forgotten. i love ghosts who are younger brothers who are big bitches

lowkey cannot even think of anyone else lmao. im gonna say Megamind from the movie Megamind bc i love that movie and i love him. me when autistic blue men from space <3

i genuinely cannot think of anyone else i only rlly started having Favorite Characters around age 10-11 but all of the guys i liked from then i dont care much about anymore so i wouldnt say theyre All Time Favorites. and since then i have been majorly into only like 5-6 pieces of media where i had True Blorbos, Personality Shaping Characters, so like. that might be it? im probably just blanking im sure ill think of a few more characters i love after i hit post on this but ehhhh whatever live laugh love <3

edit: TOOTHLESS HOWTOTRAINYOURDRAGON. HOW COULD I FORGET YOU

okkkk thats it i guess !! i love being so so normal about fictional character just me and my blorbos having a normal sane time

no pressure to do this but tagging @tmoblrina @toadstoolillustrations @urlocallesbiab @jonathansbowlcut annnnd my wifi just went out! so no one else <3 peace on earth

#tag game #TY FOR TAGGING ME IN THIS GERT I LVOE U THIS WAS FUN !!! #no one is allowed to judge me for my taste in characters btw i promise i have coolsexyawesomer ones i just CANT THINK OF THEM RN!!!! #but also some of these are SO coolsexyawesome already i promise. take my hand

[sunnnfish]

extremely late response but it is Not weird ♥ i love yr art of gnc characters because you draw them with a refreshing normalcy i rarely see anywhere else, and i love your artstyle in general bc the way u frame and color things is like looking at an entire ass beam of sunlight

Head in my hands thank you so much…. I loooove drawing boring normal gnc people we are so brave and strong <3

#well. putting this one in my treasure box brain space of happy things #cannot express enough how much I love getting messages like this…. waaahhhh…. #sunnfish.ask

[prairleedog]

A sad about me <3

Things to know immediately:

DNI if you have "NSFW" on your page. Please also DNI if you're a transphobe, homophobe, ableist, racist, etc

I am trans!! afab <3

*THIS ENTIRE PAGE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE SFW*

I go by Simon (or any silly nicknames)

I like to draw :D

I LOOOOVE CATS

I am open to any friends as of now <3

Tkl stuff:

I write for certain things!

I am a 50/50 switch (be scared /j)

I am very very awkward and I enjoy adapting to certain personalities!!

I do rp (SFW ONLY PLEASE😭😭)

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Normal stuff:

I am Canadian!!!

Prairie dogs are adorable

I'm 5'3

I draw <33

I adapt to personalities very quickly!

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Other stuff:

Dms are always open to anybody!!

Please get to know me! I promise I won't disappoint <3

I use tone tags!

Diagnosed with ADHD 😭

I say silly words <3

#aaaaaaa #Will update this later!! So sorry it's lazy

[project1939]

Day 85: “We live, I regret to say, in an age of surfaces.” 

50s slang of the day: “I saw her filching a box of paperclips!” (I saw her stealing a box of paperclips!) 

Best/worst quote of the day: “It is absurd to have a hard and fast rule about what one should read and what one shouldn’t. More than half of modern culture depends on what one shouldn’t read.” 

Song of the day: “Half as Much,” by Hank Williams. Here is another song that was everywhere in 1952. Hank Williams and Rosemary Clooney both had hit records with it, and it’s been covered on more than one radio or TV show I’ve seen. I’m partial to the Hank Williams version because it has more bounce and a faster tempo than the Clooney version. I love both of their voices, though. Williams can just draw out and moan the phrases like “If you looooved me” “you wouldn’t woooorry me”- it’s brilliant. 

Highlights: 

I got 8 ½ hours of wonderful, delicious sleep last night. 

Week 13, the final final week of the project starts today. This is it! 

Cesar Romero on What’s My Line?. He used the craziest voice and was the first celebrity I’ve seen completely stump the panel to the end. I was in tears with all the laughing. 

I ended up buying the season 1 DVD of Our Miss Brooks, and there are 3 episodes that line up with the rest of the project. I watched the first episode, and I’m already glad I bought it. 

Some of the most entertaining acting I’ve seen in the whole project so far in The Importance of Being Ernest. 

Lowlights: 

Lots of anxiety in my normal life. Boo.

#project1952 #1952 #project1952 day 85