#SORRY I AM FUCKING FRUSTRATED

[anachronistic-falsehood]

"you should find a job where you want to live before you find a place to stay" mom please shut up i am more focused on getting the fuck out of this town than i am on money right now i have savings and a credit card i will be fucking fine. now go talk to my dad about he'll only ever see me as his daughter and how you agree with him or some shit like that

#whiskey yelling into the void #SORRY I AM FUCKING FRUSTRATED #I WANNA GET OUT OF THIS TOWN #IT'S KILLING ME #I WANT AWAY FROM MY JOBS #AND MY PARENTS #AND THIS FUCKING TOWN IN GENERAL #i love my parents i need to make that clear they're supportive just a little ignorant about what you should and shouldnt say to ur trans ki #things you shouldn't say include 'i will always see you as your agab no matter what you do' even if that is genuinely how u feel #bc quite frankly. i don't care to know that. #you could have kept that to yourself when i came out to you #but you didn't #and i feel like shit thinking about it #good GRIEF

[sanshofox]

So after the inprnt incident we can officially say that online selling options for artists to make some money is for naught atm right (hyberbolically speaking)?

It’s not just inprnt, it’s many other platforms also, like for example redbubble, patreon and many more. They either changed their terms of use which actually takes away more money from the artist or royally fuck up payment and/or withholding money.

Is there at least one option that I can use safely and works like inprnt? I just want to sell good quality prints in a passive way income (not me doing or managing the printing and shipping).

I am just so worried because inprnt was so far the only platform with the best artist income share.

#art #sansho art #artists on tumblr #i am sorry if I am high on the sarcasm in the first part I am just soo fed up and frustrated for artists this year #also because if inprnt really doesn’t pay then I lost important money #why is it always the creative branch that gets fucked over and over again since covid era

[japanifornication]

finality noun. the fact or impression of being an irreversible ending.

based off of julius kronberg’s romeo and juliet on the balcony (1886). weeks after i meant to finish it, it’s done and i never want to look at it again! enjoy!

#ace attorney #wrightworth #narumitsu #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #re the title iykyk 👀 #my art #sorry i cannot physically bring myself to draw them in their canonically too long pants #i did go back and edit the colors and fix the sky bc i forgot clouds oops #phoenix's skin is a wildly different color on every fucking website i post this on and i am frustrated w colorspaces and gamut #so sorry if he looks extremely unrealistically furio tigre orange when you see this #i promise he is not orange in the file

[ardentpoop]

dean stan posts are like. reasons dean is best boy ever: 1) he generously didn’t chop sam’s head off,

#sorry queens I cannot take you seriously #hes horrible and that’s the only way I can appreciate him #sometimes I’m like so sexy of him to be a violent patriarch slay 💕 #but that’s only if I’m not experiencing stomach-churning frustration over his actions being romanticized by the narrative or the fandom 💕 #the reactions he evokes in me are so fucking confusing lmao #I genuinely am capable of sympathizing with him but only in tiny increments

[chrollohearttags]

I literally never had an issue or felt insecure abt my sexuality until I start interacting with heteronormative, allo ppl lmao. one convo and I’m ready to off myself.

#cherry chats 🍒 #rant in tags #like how am I supppsed to respond lmao #and please don’t get me started on the infantilization #‘you poor baby you just haven’t found the right person yet 🥺’ please go to hell lmao #and I’m so serious #it’s so frustrating bc you’re literally happy and then the world around you makes you feel like ur broken bc you don’t live like them #‘ur still a virgin? that’s so cute 🥺’ I literally wasn’t comfortable being around a man alone until 2 yrs ago and couldn’t tell anybody why #lmao get the fuck out my face #and I shouldn’t have to disclose trauma to justify something I’ve felt since I was old enough to understand relationships #cw discourse #cw sa implied #cw acephobia #cw arophobia #i’m sorry yall #I’m just in a spicy mood tonight #one of my old friends hmu just to talk about her man and I wanna claw my eyes out #this is why I’ve been ghost from social media for 6 mos

[lopez-richter-fangirl]

Do you honestly think tcb will reach their goal?

I have to believe that they will but I am fucking stressed and fucking scared

The thing is there’s literally no reason they SHOULDN’T. Yes it’s a bigger goal than they’ve ever had but shipwrecked raised that amount for headless and starkid raised almost double that for returns with a smaller slate of projects. Even in TCB’s own kickstarters they raised 100k for a single staged barebones workshop reading. Yes 200k is a lot of money, but for how much they’re doing with it?? It’s TINY

Two concert screenings, one of them international. A full month international play run. A brand new musical with performances in LA and eventually internationally. A concert performance of a show we’ve never heard live yet. A brand new pilot reading. And multiple performances of a live comedy game show

I do think the niche-ness of the campaign branding means they have to work harder to reach a wider audience, but for people who are already aware of what they’re doing, I don’t understand why it’s not showing in the numbers

Please, if anyone’s on the fence, tell me why and let me convince you why this is worth it

#sorry to turn your simple question into a whole rant but god i am FRUSTRATED #i just don’t fucking get it #at first i thought maybe it was complacency #like people are used to kickstarters getting funded so they skipped right ahead to being excited for the projects #but they CANNOT do this without our help #and i think some people keep writing tcb off as a cute little sk side project #and don’t appreciate how incredible the work they’re doing is #in the writing itself and in making it accessible to as much of their audience as possible and in trying to take things further #and i’m gonna stop there before i go back to sounding like i’m dragging starkid #tin can bros #tin can brothers #tinlightenment #tcb #starkid

[britcision]

It’s funny when the DC fans get annoyed that half the fandom hasn’t kept up with the entire extended DC universe and know everybody’s stories and backstories and different versions and shit

Danny Phantom had 3 seasons of 20 minute episodes and a handful of comics and most of us haven’t even seen that (and do not intend to 🙌)

Meanwhile people are being confused at me for Jack Fenton liking both fudge and also ham, which came up in every single episode I saw as a kid

My darlings

My beloveds

If you want your preferred versions of the DC characters in a prompt, you may well be the only person who can do it

So do it and tag it and I’ll come eat it along with the horde and you’ll never be rid of any of us

#dp x dc #sorry my darlings but Disregard Canon is contagious #and i get why this is frustrating to the DP side #but THE DC COMIC WRITERS AND ANIMATORS AND MOVIE PRODUCERS all disregard canon far harder than we ever could #there is no fucking dc canon it gets rebooted whenever someone gets bored #this is why batman’s characterisation is a hellscape #you can support any interpretation with at least 2 comic rhns #runs #tbh i am also extra guilty of this i used to make up fake runs to fuck with my brother in law all the time #got him believing aquaman could control the colour blue in about 20 minutes cuz again: dc has no canon #whatever you consider canon someone else considers a whacky and unnecessary reboot #matching saturday morning cartoon dc works best cuz that is dp all the way #but the gritty ones make a funnier contrast

[load-theloading-artist]

IT IS I, Load, once again!

And okay, so i found this hoodie on pinterest, and i HAD to draw noi in it. It was just too cute of an idea!!

So i hope you enjoy! I also drew it in a more rendered style this time around!

#my inner demons aphmau #aphmau my inner demons #aphmau fanart #my inner demons #my art #enjoy!! #(Fair warning for future rendered pieces. My rendering style fluctuates ALOT. I do not have a proper rendering style i stick to. #Sometimes the rendered pieces may look similar. but i promise there's gonna be SOMETHING that's rendered differently. almost always.) #I'm also not that happy with the horns. but i didn't want to spend to long on them that i get frustrated & end up not finishing the drawing #hope that's alright!! #Loading art... #EDIT: sobbing #the horns are so fucked up i am so sorry. omg.

[scoliosisgoblin]

Which version of Rick is your fav?

it's so hard for me to choose tbh. HOWEVER, I'd say Evil Rick

then I'd say it's C-137 and Memory Rick

I love how pathetic™ Evil Rick really is tbh. love that he's being controlled by his Morty. can you guess who my favorite Morty is?

#the only reason why Evil is above C-137 and Memory is because #Memory's design is something I don't really like in the style of the show #his fanart makes him look so much cooler but in the show he just looks.. unfinished? #idk it's weird to me. I love him outside of that though #and with C-137. I'M SICK OF HIM LMAO I AM SO SORRY #there are too many fucking episodes dedicated to this man. pushing everyone else aside just to have him yap about his dead wife #I love him so much but there's only so many times we can bring Diane up and not really develop her as a character but rather to boost Rick #and the show is Rick and MORTY yet all I see is Rick 😭😭 don't get me wrong I love this man #I just feel like we know more about Rick than the rest of the family #WHICH IS FINE IF THAT WAS WHAT THEY WERE GOING FOR #and if they wanted to go in that direction so be it! it's fine! #I just feel like he needs less screen time or at least balance episodes among the family #cause even the most recent Morty episode is about Rick. it was so frustrating watching it cause it's literally MORTY'S fear hole experience #yet we're watching Morty's head canons about his grandparents #I also hate the narrative they took with Diane. only ever having Rick talk of her or others bring her up #it just doesn't make her a character but rather an extension off of Rick. that's how I'm feeling rn with the family #they're all just there to prop up Rick or something. super annoying #but that's about it. I'm not gonna continue my rant #unless you want me to? #idk if I even made sense but that's all good #rick and morty #rick and morty fandom #rick #memory rick #evil rick #C-137 #Rick Sanchez

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

frickin shite that was the worst small group I've ever been to in my life

#the eisegesis made me want to rattle out of my bones in frustration #got corrected for trying to cross-reference because ''we only stick to our one passage'' and nearly fucking cried about it #I PHYSICALLY CANNOT NOT CROSS-REFERENCE SCRIPTURE #not only is it a shitty hermeneutical process but it's also just Not How My Brain Works!! #y'all have seen me crossreference on this blog it isn't just the Bible! I can't Not crossreference things to save my life #and I basically got (admittedly she was trying to be kind about it) corrected in front of the entire group of 20somethings #and the couple that leads it are so PARTICULAR and nitpicky and it has to be done their way or you're gonna get corrected #my first introduction to her was her coming up to me while I was working the sound booth and telling me about something #wrong with my production setup that I KNEW ABOUT and WAS AND STILL AM NOT ABLE TO CHANGE #(our camera for livestreams doesn't have a high enough mount and I don't have space to extend it higher so we catch the tops #of people's heads in the camera shot) #and the girl I went bc I want to get to know her better WASNT EVEN THERE #I spent the entire time trying not to cry or look at anyone #I need to find a different small group... sorry all the kids my age were nice but I can't handle the structure or leaders #Lu rambles #adulthood woes

[palmtreepalmtree]

The government has been sitting on one of my cases, like just fucking sitting on it, after two approved expedite requests, and my client is going to lose $1 million a day if I can't get this fucking thing through and I genuinely do not know what the fucking FUCK the government is doing right now. I genuinely think the officer does not like this person and project and is actively trying to fuck them because they can but WHAT THE FUCK.

#i am so frustrated #and so stressed #there is no fucking reason for this #i do not want to put this out into the universe but also if they deny this case i am going to lose my fucking mind #just rants about work #sorry for the cursing

[gayforcarstairsgirls]

Great so now we're outing children/teenagers to their parents! And therefore possibly endangering them! Fantastic!

#kemi fucking badenoch #i genuinely cannot stand that woman #at a tory event one time she stuck 'male' and 'female' signs on the doors of gender neutral bathrooms #who fucking does that? #and who does this?? you are FORCING teachers to out their students #what if they hear by accident that a student's friends refer to them with different name/pronouns? #they have to report that home? #for some queer kids the ONLY place they can be themselves is at school with their friends (and even then it's limited) #and now kemi badenoch is taking that away as well #for FUCK'S sake #uk politics #trans rights #kemi badenoch #this is taken from a guardian article btw!! #sorry to be like #depressing on main lmao #but i can't rant abt this to my mum bc tbh she'd probably agree with badenoch #so tumblr it is #i am just #SO FRUSTRATED BY THE TORIES AND THEIR 'CuLtUrE wAr' #GROW TF UP AND GET SOME EMPATHY UGHHHHH #transphobia #tw transphobia

[sprucewoodmpreg]

watcher lore dislikers are reported to be mildly scared and afraid during this season of life series

#discourse #SPOOKY SOUND EFFECT......TAG RANT AHEAD..... BEWARE !!! #you have no idea how worried i am that they're gonna pull some ''lore'' stuff #storytelling does not always need supernatural Mega Powerful Beings for the stakes to be high or for the story to be interesting #sometimes the interesting parts come from the clear Lack of those elements #sorry to martyn but i do not exactly fuck with his lore. and i'll be a bit disappointed if it becomes ''canon'' #i say that like i wont just ignore it and then get on with my life LOL #i guess it's like. i enjoy the life series for the narratives it tells in regards to people and their choices #brushing that all aside to be like ''there's big evil space guys in control of the whole thing who are EVIL!!! or NEUTRAL MAYBE!!!'' - #- just feels really disinteresting to me. you don't need to invent a Big Bad. let the players tell the story on their own #this is a lite version of my actual frustrations with it but i'm not going in depth about it because like. #i've got more important things to worry about LOL

[superbellsubways]

punches a wall screams cries passes out

#its 7 am i havent slept sorry #anyways ive been stressed the fuck out the past 3 days so uhmmm yea i did this out of frustration i just wanted to draw something #I'll be fine i hate emotions #commander tartar #gijinka #doodle #eye strain

[marnz]

reading the new Tana French novel via audiobook and just sort of like :/ :/ thinking about the tight, propulsive plotting of her earlier novels…I’m 20% in and while the plot did land quite early compared to like, the witch elm, I’m not getting that gorgeous eerie feeling I got from In the Woods or The Likeness. Ugh! I’m in such a reading slump for books rn and I can’t decide if it’s because I’m not vibing with anything I’m reading or if it’s because my brain has suddenly developed a preference for a physical book as obsessed to an ebook or audiobook. I did recently read A Country of Ghosts via my tried and true method of ‘multiple hours of uninterrupted reading time in the bath without my phone and with a print book’ so clearly it is possible but, to give you an example of how powerful my book slump has been, I got to like 85%-90% of The Familiar by Leigh Bardugo and was basically like “well. whatever.” and never finished it. That was fully a month ago :(

has anyone recently read anything that rocked their world? please advise.

#currently #tana french #Leigh Bardugo #I should finish the familiar it’s just that like. heavy sigh the fucking PACING!!!!!! #I had no idea how sensitive I am to bad pacing until I suddenly started reading sooooo many books with pacing issues #girl fire your editor. they are bad at their job #part of the problem is that it is a stand alone so it is hugely compressed #part of the problem is that I am sort of disinterested by Leigh’s obsession with dark romance #I thought kanej was very interesting mainly bc kaz was very complex #the darkling wasn’t. matthias was a nazi sorry. the dude in the familiar is a mash up of the darkling & kaz #I looooooooved ninth house bc Alex is SO complex and SO morally gray and darlington was undone by her #and then I read hellbent and. wince. glowing cock line ruined the whole book for me. but also? the pacing was off #oh and I did read king of scars etc and it was like. whatever. #anyway! I find myself really frustrated with most of publishing rn

[rawliverandgoronspice]

trying to assign instruments to gerudo characters for thralls' soundtrack. Nabooru is getting the sitar so far, as I think she's good at representing the gerudo side that's closer to the Wild Era in terms of long-term vision for gerudo prosperity, not to mention that it works great for a more laid-back character; though Iftaah could also get that aspect, even though her perspective is a little bit more desperate and a little less actually strategizing about diplomacy and commerce in the way that Nabooru's is... not sure I have nailed down the perfect instrument for her yet though? Maybe a duduk, for its plaintive quality and capacity for softness? But I don't know, I feel like there could be something better out there. Saeruk and flamenco guitar seem pretty great fit for the versatility of the instrument, both harsh and defiant, playful at times, but also extremely sad if needs be, and the fact that she represents more the "older" kind of gerudo works well with more hispanic/romany inspirations. And then there's Aveil, who I feel represent the best the connection of the gerudos to their land, and I'd love an instrument that really represents that. Still looking for that one.

There's a bunch of fun things for Ganondorf that can be done, but I think he'll get... bigger instruments, in general. And church organs are quite versatile too it turns out. :) I like the marimba from his first phase boss battle, but it's a little too... I don't know, I feel like it lacks the roundness and depth and imposing quality that we could get with other picks. But Ganondorf so far has about *eight billion* leitmotifs going on with what I have selected for him (him and Ganon's, as they are... not exactly separate entities in the story, but sort of, it's kind of weird), so it might be more a case of actual melody rather than instruments, or maybe on top of instruments that swap in and out depending on what we want to invoke...

Sorry, rambling, but I would really love to compensate for my lack of voice actors with a pretty meaningful stab at the soundtrack. I feel like I kind of have to honestly. ;;

#thoughts #thralls of power #animatic project #gerudos #nabooru #ganondorf #I need to upgrade my music software and stop using Logic 5.5 that came out in 2002 ;; #and gives me between 30mn to 2h before subjecting me to a coinflip about whether or not it corrups my savefile #never really had the material for a proper upgrade but I really want to make one and that seems the perfect opportunity for that #also yeah nabooru has kind of a big role in thralls! #she wasn't there at all in descant or just in passing #but she becomes kind of an important player in this version of the events #her antagonism with ganondorf is. definitively there let's say. #it's funny I actually kind of used descant as a brainstorming ground for thralls in many ways #as every single character arc is just whatever I began to sketch out in unhallowed vespers #but like More and More Deliberate and more focused too #there's a bunch of threads I completely cut out #so it won't be a perfect 1:1 #which is for the best I think I just hadn't spent enough time with some characters to truly get them #I'm much more confident now #Iftaah is perhaps the one that needs the most work at the moment? she has a Bad Fucking Time so I need to make sure #it goes to places that not only serve other people's arcs but also her own --and that she ends the story in a meaningful place narratively #Serielle also needs work but more in the sense that's there's so much happening in her brain. and it's pretty difficult to convey. #but I fully know what's going on in there at least even if it's wildly convoluted #anyway!! rambling rambling sorry sorry #I am frustrated that I can't actually work on it so here I am rambling #ok back to work now