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alora-rora · 1 year

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nsfw jesstra headcanons

we need more jesstra content so here you go, this is with yellow hair clip jesse in mind but it can be read with all female jesses, and jesse went with petra at the end of season 2

petra has a small chest and she thinks jesse wont like this but jesse doesnt mind and if anything she feels honored that petra trusts her enough to show her herself at all

jesse and petra are switches, i dont rlly see the two of them as bottoms or tops

petra and jesse were virgins when they first did it, but petra seemed to know what she was doing when she didnt because of the years of waiting for jesse to let her in, she was desperate to make up for lost time

jesse is either loud or really whimpery; nothing else

petra likes to be quiet but sometimes she lets a moan out if shes bottoming

i like to think in the jesstra world they kissed in the admins cabin, not nsfw but i'd like to throw that out there

they do NOT do public sex, public edging, risky sex, etc. because that kinda limits what they do and they don't want some random seeing them naked.. bc they're kinda worldwide famous.. yikes?

they also dont like quickies; when they do it, they mean it

following the last one, they only have sex when its meaningful like they almost died on accident on an adventure or theyre feeling sad and nostalgic about their pre-hero days

JESSE HAS A LIPSTICK KINK AND SHE LIKES TO SEDUCE PETRA INTO LETTING HER USE WATERPROOF LIPSTICK you cannot change my mind

they dont rlly do hickeys on the neck because its easily visible and they dont want ppl to know about their relationship by a hickey

speaking of which; theyre nervous about coming out as a couple so they keep it secret

jesses obsessed with trying to make petra moan but she (petra) feels a little girly when she does it and she likes being butch n stuff

jesse shows petra its ok to be weak later in the relationship, but petra only ever feels ok to be weak around jesse (song suggestion: monster by adventure time feat. king princess)

again, following the last one, they didnt actually do it like touch touch eachother until 2-3 months in because they were nervous of what the other thought

until then however they did have steamy makeouts and kinda grind on eachother

they rarely use dildos, but when they did.. lets just say petra had to keep jesses mouth shut with her hand and yes petra used the dildo first

i feel like they enjoy peaceful sex, very soft and gentle unless they almost lost one another, in that case theres a tension in the air to show the other what they mean to them

they like to try and top the other when they both almost get badly injured

however if just one of them got hurt, the injured one kinda lets the other take over

if petras hurt, jesse likes to put bandages on, stitches if she needs, etc to the best of her abilities and petra feels all fuzzy inside at the fact jesse cares so much for her so when they cuddle after, they start to makeout and it turns into jesse praising petra and petra being a subby mess under jesse

if jesses hurt, petra likes to lightly scold jesse while practicing precision and caution in attending to the wound(s). after petra puts their foreheads together and tells jesse how she (petra) really really really cant loose jesse because shes one of the few, if not the only person she can show her softie side to, and before petra can start crying over her feelings jesse shuts her up with a kiss and then they have rlly soft sex

they only do it in bed. not on the couch, not in the kitchen, and not in the shower. again, when they do it they mean it.

heres a funny one: they almost got caught by radar when they went back for the holidays bc the boy goes to jesse to fill out legal documents abt the town and stuff, they didnt get caught bc they were just starting, aka kissing so they just pulled apart before the door opened

..they lock the door when they get intimate now

no clothed sex bc these women wanna see all their lovers blemishes and scars and love on them <33

no handcuffs either bc jesse likes being grabby to fluster petra and petra needs to keep jesses hips in place

jesses a bucker

petra shivers

i feel like petra and jesse know a lot abt the others body, hence it being almost like a competition to who can get the other to cream the most

winner gets the bestest aftercare bc these muscle girls can go ALL night if they wanted to

dw loser gets kisses after the other gets proper treatment

they arent messy, they dont throw their clothes to the floor, they just haphazardly toss them to the end of the bed where they'll be out the way but not on the floor

jesse gets horny easily just watching petra to daily activities bc shes so muscle girl so the arms the hands the abs, ALL of it makes her wet and then she dissapears for 15 minutes to give herself relief

if petra ever finds out.. pray for jesse. maybe send flowers. might do a fic on this one if this gets attention

petra doesnt shave baby smooth, i mean she trims it so its not a bush but she doesnt see the appeal in putting that much effort in shaving down there only for it to grow back

jesse likes to keep hairless because it makes her feel good bc she doesnt like hair in the way of her wetdreams at 2pm but she doesnt mind petras short hairs, she loves her butch either way

hope this feeds the mcsm communitys hunger for jesstra

#mcsm #jesstra #jesse mcsm #jesse #petra mcsm #petra #lesbian

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ta-pula-n · 4 years

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ok i know we are still.facing a pandemic so all these things i'll be pointing out sana may magka ideya sa govt even sa future admins after nating iface tong crisis ngayon

anyways these are just random and spontaneous thoughts tho. i personally think the ph should stop being desperate fanatics of anything western and start clinging to our asian identity. i might not know exactly how to spearhead this esp since i'm still a student and haven't taken up public administration or governance courses. but here are my ideas. first is to establish our own writing system instead of the alphabet. since there are a lot of writing systems all over our diverse country, maybe we should choose one to base on (like what they did in creating a national language before) and then put some touch of the other systems. that would be very nice tho. second, use Filipino in official papers and transactions. i guess we need the citizens to speak Filipino better than English (halos buong post na ito is in E ish because I am one of those who expresses themselves better in English than Filipino and i really think this should change) although I would not say that English should be removed or less prioritized because it is very helpful in globalization and international affairs tho. third, idk how exactly we can do this but we should patronize our own filipino and asian outputs (art, products, food, etc.) I am one of those who chooses quality over origin that is why i mainly stan foreign artists but what i am saying abour patronizing local will really help local artists/manufacturers improve the quality of their outputs. anyway salita lang ako nga salita wala namang patutunguhan to.

i'm just saying this because it really frustrates me when some filipinos tryna be too western then insult anything asian. like the hell dude we are asian ourselves and we should be making strong ties with our asian neighbors. not to mention this sickening attitude is being fueled by filipinos' crab mentality and hypocrisy.

i'm even in favor of changing the name of the country into something more filipino. i know adjusting to it (the writing system and official languages included) could be hard especially for the current generations but you do not grow a tree overnight. it is not about us living in the present but as well as to the future generations. if we start being more Filipino now and adjust, the future Filipinos will feel a lot more proud and secure with their national identity. kumbaga we will plant and they will sow.

idk if i actually made some point here but you know i just wanna vent these things out. dont hate me for this ok? these are just my opinion and i am not forcing anyone to think the same because i am in no position to do so. but i am tryna change to be more proud of my filipino herritage and asian identity. maybe that is why i'm tryna dig into anything filipino, asean, and asian in terms of art such as music and films lately. kasi bottomline, i just want us to remember who we really are not what we are influenced to be. kasi tbh, sila ang nakakabenefit with this and not us filipinos.

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holyytaehyung · 6 years

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NCT Dream Reacting to a cute & younger s/o

Requested x Thanks for the ask!

Mark Mark honestly finds you adorable, but I dont think that he would straight up baby you. You are a few years younger than him, but you are mature (most of the time) and he respects you for that. When he sees you acting cute- to get your own way, hed crumble, doing whatever it is that you so desperately wanted him to do. Hed pout, grumbling about how he was too easy to sway. You really, really felt like ice cream, but the icecream van was about to drive off, he quickly sprinted after it, laughing when it stopped so he could buy two ice creams, “this is your fault.” he said out of breath, as he jogged back over with two icecreams in hand. “why are you so cute” “its quite unfair, you know” hed mumble before kissing your temple, making your cheeks flare with a rose colour. “but i love it”

Renjun He lowkey loves the fact that he is older than you, and that he can baby you. I can see him being kind of clingy in private, and i think he really likes cute things; Whats all of those things in one? you. He wouldn’t be too bossy, but i think hed notice small things and look out for you, feeling as though he wants to protect you. It was late so you both decided to go home from the park you were at, “Baby its cold, where is your jacket?” “i left it at the park..” “aigoo, really?” “yea..” Hed take his jacket off and wrap it around you, holding your hand again after. Wouldnt make eye contact with you because he is blushing .

Jeno Jeno loves that youre younger than him, he teases you about it because he has somewhat authority over you. He also finds it adorable that youre shorter than him too. Rather than baby you, i feel as though he would moreso do little things to help you/ keep you safe, like if he knows horror movies would keep you up at night- hed persuade his hyungs to change their movie choice if you were over (and all of you wanted to watch a movie) or he would love to try and feed you, calling you his ‘baby’ and his ‘angel’ “here~ open wide baby” “i can feed myself..” you said with pink cheeks. “just let me feed you, it makes me happy seeing you eat.” “let me do it myself~” youd whine, making him chuckle at the cuteness. “since you asked so nicely. no . now open wide” “fine...”

Haechan Aside from Jaemin, i think Donghyuk would baby you the most. Most people would think he is just sassy- or hed tease you, but ive noticed just how clingy and soft this boy actually is, so i think around you especially, hed baby you, cling to you and just have constant heart eyes. Ofcourse hed make a few jokes about your height and age, compared to him, but hed reassure you that he loves you for it, and for being you. If you acted cute, hed melt, but also probably make it into a mini competition to see who could make the other smile first. “please~” youd whine, looking at the claw machine, there was a very cute kitten plush toy that you immediately loved. “but baby i wanna play the racing game~” hed whine back, he knew where this was going. you pouted, looking down at your hands before looking up at him. “i really love it, but i love you more, lets go do racing” His heart would flutter and hed stutter something about there being a line for the racing game and hes sure that he could win this quickly before you both went. He is whipped for you

Jaemin Clingy. yes he will baby you. this is FACT. This boy LOVES that you are younger, he finds you super adorable and has you set as his “little angel” in his contacts with approximately 7000000000+ heart emojis next to it. He always carries you places, loves holding your hand, and loves being dramatic. If there is a puddle, this little shit will take off his jacket, place it over the puddle, just so you can walk over it. He would constantly make you embarrassed in public, say you both had to catch a train, he had to ask the staff which would take you both to a certain place, He asked you to sit on the bench, and when he found out, hed yell “Y/N MY BABY, MY ADORABLE GIRLFRIEND, ITS THIS TRAIN”

Does it because he knows youll blush and get flustered, loves how you look so cute. if you EVER do aegyo for him, he would gift you the world, immediately becoming putty in your hands.

Chenle I think since Chenle is young also, he wouldnt baby you very much, since he is used to getting treated like that himself. He would definitely like the fact that you were younger though, loving the change of being able to have the upper hand. He would also tease you for being shorter, but hed always help you if you needed to reach something, never failing to act as though its a bother, he loves looking after you, just secretly. “you cant reach it again?” “you need my help? ofcourse you do~” hed have a smug look on his face. “you should really think about growing sometime soon..” But if you felt guilty about asking for help, and next time used a chair to try and climb up, hed get very scared that you could hurt yourself and immediately reassure you that he doesnt mind, he was only kidding. “okay” you said, looking down

Jisung

Again, another member that i dont think would obviously baby you, because theyre young. Since he is the maknae, he is used to getting treated like that, not the other way around. But i also feel as though he would be hyper aware of everything you do, he would be extremely protective and possessive, always holding your hand, or helping you do things, When you do aegyo, he doesnt show a reaction, but trust me he is trying very hard to stay neutral, especially if he is with the members, trying to avoid getting teased. He is also another member that would like being older, as he likes some authority. “isnt this cute?” youd say, in a sing-song voice, smiling and holding up a plushie. Yes . it was very cute. but his hyungs were also right there. “sure” hed say, smiling softly. Youd pout at the lack of reaction, and the pout is what gets him, hed pinch your cheek. “dont pout. sure, the plushie is cute, but you are cuter.” hed whisper, so they couldnt hear. END sorry for the long break! i have lots of exam preparations~ Thankyou for requesting and reading!~ -admin rose

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incarnateirony · 5 years

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One more P5 post

I wanna know how much time the creators spent arguing with people on twitter, considering the comments on the Phan-Site polls. Will put behind a cut.

I mean, they hit all sides from auto-believers, internet trolls, people who are like ITS STILL ILLEGAL!!! and THIS IS THE POLICE JOB pics or it didn't happen, whatever. But my favorites are "IF UR SO JUST, SHOW UR FACE", "I bet they're crying LOL", "Shibuya's fucked", "Hang in there you guys ;w;", "WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE", "world-famous fail looool", "kill this stupid website" or whatever else. Or the timeless “so wait, who do we hate?”

QUESTION: Do you believe in the Phantom Thieves? This poll is adopted on 4/15.

0-10%

"'of hearts?' What tryhards"

"I've been waiting for this!"

"Isn't it just a prank?"

"Never even heard of them"

"Who made this site? Ridic"

"even kids aren't that dumb"

"gtfo with that shit LOL"

"is this a cult?"

"my friend says they're real!"

"sauce plz"

"viral marketing...?"

10-20%

"It's just a coincidence..."

"Petty criminals? Pointless"

"This is getting good!"

"Too elaborate for a prank"

"Vigilante justice is wrong."

"What about the pupils?"

"What's gonna happen now?"

"What's he gonna be hit w/?"

"i just can't"

"pics or it didn't happen"

"ppl really believe this? lmao"

"ppl who buy this... -_-"

"they can't catch EVERYONE"

"they're just making threats"

"thieves are the bad ones"

"was it rly a phantom thief?"

"what a joke"

QUESTION: Are the Phantom Thieves just? This poll is adopted on 6/11.

10-20%

"Akechi-kun is right!"

"Isn't it a crime?"

"It's called the law..."

"NO! justice ain't that simple"

"NO. They piss me off."

"Steal dem corrupt hearts!"

"They seem full of it, so NO"

"They're still thieves..."

"They've always been fishy..."

"This is the police's job."

"better be arrested soon"

"don't even bother with this"

"get off your high horse"

"hmm seems interesting"

"i hate Akechi, so YES???"

"if ur so just, show ur face"

"they're allies of justice."

"they're up to something"

"this has to be fake, lol"

"this is so immature."

20-30%

"Isn't it a crime?"

"Probably at least somewhat"

"They seem full of it, so NO"

"They're cool, so HECKYEAH!"

"They're still thieves..."

"get off your high horse"

"i dont buy into that stuff."

"of course not. done"

"that "justice" stuff is ehh"

"this is so immature."

30-40%

"both are crossing the line"

"fukkin hypocrites"

"get rekt, scumbags lmao"

"Hang in there you guys! ;w;"

"I bet they're crying LOL"

"Neither are just"

"Shibuya's fucked"

"they're both shit."

"What cheapass justice, lol"

60-70%

"AGAIN, YAAAAAAS!"

"Such annoying marketing"

"Their word is final."

"better than the cops"

"i bet it's worldwide news"

"justice was w/ the thieves."

"what a time to be alive"

80-90%

"Calling card! YAAAAAAS!"

"Exterminate his family too!"

"Here comes the apology rofl"

"I've been waiting for this"

"Leave everything to them~"

"Make him beg!"

"No apology yet? :["

"Ooh, a calling card! kekeke"

"SO MANY COMMENTS OMG"

"Take him out. It's an order"

"The world needs to see this!"

"They better not screw it up"

"Yeah, get that greedy CEO!"

"an apology isn't enough."

"become prime minister plz!!"

"dat okumura stock drop lol"

"destroy all evil!"

"let's hear from the workers!"

"no more big bang burg, lmao"

"stop fucking around"

"we're with you, p.thieves!"

"❤❤❤ Phantom Thieves ❤❤❤"

On 10/12, the support rate drops from the 90s to the 70s due to the death of Kunikazu Okumura.

70-80%

"Is he really dead...?"

"Now, who's next? ;)"

"Well that was disturbing..."

"die capitalist pigs!!!"

"whoa wtf"

On 10/13, the support rate drops a bit again to the 60s.

60-70%

"Awww, what a waste"

"Evil has perished."

"Gotta break a few eggs"

"So, whodunnit?"

"Were we deceived?"

"do we know how they do it?"

"eh, good riddance"

"killing ppl's a no-no"

"omg, the comments hahaha"

"omg, they went overboard lol"

"they got carried away..."

"what about his daughter?"

Over the next week, the support rates drops to the 50s, 30s, and then 20s.

""justice" sounds hollow now"

"—DELETED BY ADMIN—"

"Are the calling cards fake?"

"Blame the politicians too."

"Bloodthirsty killers!!!"

"Enough is enough!!!"

"Even Akechi's lost it"

"False charges happen, but..."

"Hurry and arrest them"

"Hurry up and execute them!"

"I dare to support them."

"I kiiinda sympathize..."

"I reported this website."

"I told you so..."

"I'm scared to go outside..."

"Is the admin an accomplice?"

"No hate-slinging, please!" (a message from the admin, Mishima)

"Officer, look!"

"Oh how far they've fallen"

"Pls don't kill me ;_;"

"Police were negligent too."

"Shut this site down!!!"

"That was traumatizing..."

"They must be punished."

"They need to be executed"

"They were screwing with us."

"They're assassins."

"Ugh. We were fooled."

"We can't leave them be"

"What about the politicians?"

"awful, they betrayed us"

"bring on the breakdowns~!"

"cant say w/o evidence"

"cmon, just kill everyone!"

"didnt expect much anyway"

"got anything better to do?"

"he had it coming, amirite?"

"id bet money on the rest"

"its just coincidence, yep"

"just turn yourselves in pls"

"lel, regret backin em yet?"

"lol dont be fooled so easy"

"lol, ppl still like them?"

"low expectations, ho!"

"media's garbage as expected"

"overhyped imo"

"p quick to switch sides lol"

"support went to shit lmao"

"tbh i just wanna troll, lol"

"their fans are guilty too"

"they even steal LIVES???"

"they're just suspects..."

"throw em in the slammer!"

"trash talking feels risky..."

"typical bandwagon, gg"

"uhh, yea they're evil"

"waste of tax money imo"

"wat do they want, anyway?"

"world-famous fail loool"

QUESTION: Are the Phantom Thieves innocent? This poll is adopted on 10/29.

Around 20%

"—DELETED BY ADMIN—"

"30 million yen OMG XD"

"Akechi-kun, save us!"

"Enough is enough!!!"

"False charges happen, but..."

"Is the admin an accomplice?"

"Oh how far they've fallen"

"Record-breaking evil"

"They gotta be arrested now"

"can't know w/o a trial"

"id bet money on the arrest"

"if ur innocent, show yourself"

"lol this place went to shit"

"ppl still stand by them?"

"that freaked me out omg"

"they're def guilty"

"they're freaking out hahaha"

"they're running loose rn..."

"this site pisses me off"

"waste of tax money imo"

"what if they are LOL"

"who cares either way?"

After the protagonist fakes his death, and approval drops to 0.3%.

"Akechi got the last laugh!"

"AKECHI IS BAE!!!"

"A worthy end for a villain"

"c'mon, leak his name!"

"Evil is destined to perish."

"he went down easy"

"hope things are safer now"

"Justice with Akechi!"

"Just like Akechi-kun said!"

"kid had it coming, lol"

"So did he do it or not!?"

"so he HAS to be guilty"

"The truth's lost to the void"

"We'll finally have peace"

"we do need a new authority..."

QUESTION: Do you support the Phantom Thieves? This poll is adopted on 12/7.

Around 0.8%

"a lil too late tho"

"dat comeback looool"

"I'd never support them"

"I'm getting confused..."

"I can't believe anybody..."

"i don't really care"

"Is Shido gonna apologize?"

"It's happening again..."

"just typical slander imo"

"lol no way i'd support them"

"may just be election shit"

"moar like phantom GRIEF"

"Must be tough for Shido-san"

"My scandal sense's tingling!"

"no one wants you thieves"

"phantom thieves WIN PLX!!!"

"political attack, REALLY???"

"ppl still defend them? lmao"

"Shido, just take the win"

"Shouldn't Shido explain?"

"Show yourself, Akechi!"

"smear campaigns are gross"

"So he didn't die..."

"srsly, a tv hijack?"

"Stay strong, Shido-san!"

"stop makin such a big deal"

"talk about election drama"

"they're still criminals"

"they can't take a hint"

"this country is effed up"

"this is a murder warning..."

"This isn't debunked yet?"

"this site's still up? :o"

"TV hijacking is terrorism!"

"was it the others? :o"

"was that statement a lie?"

"what about the election?"

"what a comeback..."

"Why isn't this on the news?"

"wow, ppl are desperate..."

QUESTION: Do the Phantom Thieves really exist? This poll is adopted on 12/19.

Around 19%

"And then, there were none"

"can't someone just fix it?"

"cmon thieves, say something"

"Enjoy prison, Mr. Shido~"

"even shido... FAIL"

"everyone, just disappear"

"Everyone was shameless"

"—GAME OVER—"

"go ahead & celebrate, idiots"

"I feel like an empty husk"

"im just like... so what"

"In the end, who's to blame?"

"i shoulda known better..."

"ive lost my will to live..."

"just destroy this country"

"kill this stupid website"

"my support was a waste"

"Next person please!"

"nobody asked for this"

"no thanks to those thieves"

"nothing changed. boringggg"

"Someone do something!"

"soooo is shido alive?"

"so wait, who do we hate?"

"so what WERE they??"

"The election was a farce."

"the future's screwed LOL"

"they're harshin my mellow"

"They better settle things"

"thinking hurts my brain"

"this country's done for"

"This is a stain on history"

"this is fucked up..."

"this is going nowhere"

"useless scum"

"we need answers"

"What's with this question?"

"who cares abt the election?"

"why'd we even bother"

"why this. even now???"

Then the dramatic final cut where everybody believes in them and it’s like # OF FANS ---> FAN POWER LEVELS ---> FIGHT Q( ‘-’Q )

#not spn #persona

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haeroniel-doliet · 6 years

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gah another 5 am post eh fellas

fuck i really wanna do ballet. i really rarely become obsessed (if ever) with anything, but for once i’m so so so so soso wanting to do ballet. so bad. i know i might hate it bc im fucing not musical at all, so not in shape, so not comfortable or etc. but at least im 18,(wait fuck 19 now) and not 45 trying to get in it all stiff and stuck and i think based on all the sweet positivity to adult ballet starters beginners and sure i wont perform professionally but fuck man i dont think i need that. i just want that grace and flexibility and elegance and gah itd be fabulous. i mean even now im pretending to look for turn out and walk around the house like they do in point shoes and i try fix my posture tothe advice by a ballet dancer youtuber who ive been watching so much of. i just i really wanna do it.

saddest fucking thing is guys, that i could’ve had the chance to go to the fucking royal ballets adult absolute beginner classes. in london. i could have. fuck. u wanna know what happened? i found out about it like a month or two ago and was fucking psyched bc its one of those things that just is too good to be true. the best company in uk?? w adult classes? while im in london?? yeah id have to miss a few weeks bc. whoops i gotta go back up to do my exams,but i couldve at least done a few weeks, come back and done a few last so i’d have had the best opportunity to give this a go in the best environment and then have a kindling to go off with to other available ballets. and not start with some barely managing person in a shitty studio thing. idk. sure so i tell my parents so fuckin excited bc look! its possible! but yeah its expensive, wouldve been abt 90 pound w me being a student and id have to miss 3/10 classes. but still! thin of it gah its making me so sad happy. sad bc guess its now sold out. of fuckin course it is. i told my mom and she just was uhmm ohh i dunno i dunno, oh its adults i could do it, and thinking that maybe getting her involved would mean i have a better chance of going, dont care much for her company but if shed take it as a bonding thing hell, i’ll probably do better than her in class and minor confidence boost as well as if they all others are old old i wont be alone. and she could pass over what they learned when im up in scotland. Guess that was a fuckin mistake. she got all nervous and self concious and put it off with a we’ll see we’ll see about it im thinking. and making it a whole thing like instead of me wanting to go so bad and offering for fun that shed join me, as if im trying to pressure her into doing it and would only go along to make her feel better. uh.... fucking wrong! im so mad actually. bc of course, no matter how often i mentioned it she wouldnt take it seriously to even consider booking me in! no no of course not we’ll see. and then i check before im coming back, dreading and being right that yep. theyre fucing sold out. of course they are its such a fanstastic opportunity! my only fucking opportunity! when ever again am i going to live in london with weeks free to go participate in that? when ever again? never. theyre moving out of london this summer and fuck. just doing some research and the scottish ballet is in fucking glasgow. yes i was supposed to get there if i hadnt been so shit with studying for my exams. (sure i wouldnt be doing archery and wouldnt have all the other wonderful things i now enjoy in aberdeen but fuck its frustrating) and ofc. aberdeen seems to have: one shady dance company that offers ballet fusion. not adult ballet classes. another shady school that practices at robert gordons that have no website nothing. no info how to sign up or if they have adult classes or when its so stupid and weird. maybe ill have to contact them directly idk. sure my uni has a what seems to be a thriving dance society that i have a glitched out membership for. (its 50 pound a year and i have cerrainly not paid that) and i guess they do ballet on the side. but again from a glance around, looks its only intermediate. not beginners. dont think theres that many uni age girls who just wanna start ballet now.

so it looks bleary. even in finland, i cant understand body parts in finnish so that might just be frustrating if i could even find a place that offers it. not that i’ll have long at all in finland. ill be there barely a month before heading back to uni and i come back holidays. if i wanted to take one of these eleven week courses, i think id have to geta fuckin liscence and a car and drive to glasgow 3 hrs both ways for a class once a week and that sjust stupid. im so fucking mad about this missed opportunity. like my muscles are itching and aching to do it. my legs want to work out in ballet positions. they just rly do. yeah maybe ill have to start doing barre at home from videos to try ease that, but its not gonna be the same and ill do it all wrong bc i have no teacher to direct me or anything. correct either. sure if i had done it and loved it i might still be mad that i have no opportunities to continue like i want to, but at least id have that expereince and could keep practicing at home based off of it. i am genuinely upset okay. upset betrayed disappointed sad twitchy and ugh. sure tickets go on sale today to swan lake after exams. and by fuck will i go see it. and ill get all the background before it and know it inside and out before i see it (already kinda do) and i will love it. ill bemaybe more upset and more twitchy that i cant do it, that i cant be lie them and that rly sucks. i really really wish by some miracle the school would offer summer courses so that i could just, get myself after exams into one. also another frustrating thing not quite so pressing on my mind is how my dad wants me to get summer jobs, maybe even two. one here and one in finland. sure it should theoretically be easier getting it here, esp. since im 19 now and yeah. i could work in a cafe or store just to get money and have smth to put on a cv thats not 2 weeks. but i dunno i dont particularly want to, i was hoping in london i could get the most of it culturaly (considering ive been a pouting and sad whailer whos not done anything for the last two years) then again i have p much no friends here so if i did go work somewhere theres a slight chance thered be someone i get along with and could hang out w. or visit if i needa back in london. i dunno. things are weird. sure i could try get an admin job w nhs like some lady suggested but its one of those too much responsibilty things, consdiering im shit with work i kinda would prefer to do some physical job like stacking shelves in a shop bc im good at that. but thats not gonna help me in the future. money yes, but cv building or careers wise? nah. i should owrk in hospitality or smth i dunno even i can barely get thru my work to pass rn so i dunno about job searching. im jsut a mess am i not. regardless maybe i should look if theres other ballet schoolsin london. be desperate, get a job and a ballet class going over summer and do art on the free time i guess.

okay so fer now ive found a course for like fucking 156 pound thats a 2 day full days course that looks mad cool for having different classes to learn vocab and etc and then a bit of fucking swanlake like yooo.. best thing its in like july but thats also possibly bad bc its july 28-29 and july 30 we move out. man it could be cool tho. then they offer there as well a taster session p much every other week and then a full 8 weeks of class p near by to me. sure this is specifically taught by a man and id prefer a woman but, i guess. since its ideal timing and place. and i got wondering why thats 150 and the national ballet wouldve been abt 90 and i guess there i get concession and it wouldve been only 6 classes considering the dates they had off. i should rly ask if they do do concession bc 150 is a bit steep still. for 8 classes thats almost 20 pound for 75 mins. its kinda insane. theres probably more companies i havent looked at but there is one other thats like a drop in thing 10 pound cash each class and thats a 90 mins so it might be better. ofc. obv. fault being that its drop in so being an absolute beginner w likely a lot older adults idk how id fit in or keep up or get hte most of it. i think ill go try it once regardless. then when back in abdn ask around for taster sessions and beginner ballet. worst comes to worst i wait another 4 years till i get to a big enough city that they have a nice ballet company and somewhere i can live like an adult but also get in on adult ballet and enjoy myself. maybe my industrial placement city will have a ballet company idk.

all i know is that im a bit obsessed and everyone says to go for your dreams etc. and as much as i enjoy archery (slowly gonna dedicate to it) and aikido (though training can be frustrating and training with old men isnt that fun) and ice skating is another less of a dream but in the same realm as ballet. that im gonan get new skates for and give it a better try. i just think ballet could be so fucking rad and im sad that its not so easy rn. and that my mom fucked me over. for that one course that couldve been cheap and amazing and mindchanging. to go to the ballet knowing what some of it feels like would be great. sure id love a chance to do some after as well u know. ofc it sucks it might cost a couple hundred over summer to these hobbies and i feel iffy spending 180 on a quality waterproof jacket. sure. they spend it but, im v concientious and dont wanna spend much of their money esp cus im not making my own. i guess logically, i should put a bunch of effort to getting thru this term rly well without lies and get a sumemr job. that way, i could theoretically take loan from my parents and pay back with summer job money w some left over to do as i like with (yeah i should save it for sensible shit but idk) also considering how nice i am my dad might not even want me to pay back. look i dunno. thats an idea. be good, be rewarded w ballet classes and an unstrained relationship w my parents, joyously move back to finland and start next term w a clean slate, hopefully more help and new determination into hobbies. maybe i wanna do 4 sports since i never did much as i was younger. tho sure, i did aikidos cousin taekwondo. ive shot a bow and arrow whenever i had a chance. ive skated since literally like 3 yrs old. and i used to take a form of dance a alot younger. sure no musicality but i think the exercises would be great for my knees and legs and butt and torso and posture. htese are fun sports since i dont like to work out. and since im not comfortable enough in myself to go swim.

#ballet an hobbies and thoughts and lots of things.#honestly noneed to read

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getting to know me *:･ﾟ✧

hey @rapmonphile tagged me in my first tag game!!! i thoroughly appreciate her so follow her for quality content (esp joon)

your last …

1. drink: tropicana pink lemonade bc i go hard

2. phone call: my mom. she was mad at me for being injured?? thanks mom

3. text message: to an old friend who i just put puzzle pieces together and realized hes a kpop fan!! we’ve been reconnecting and its gr8

4. song you listened to: as if its your last by blackpink (my queens)

5. time you cried: @btsatschool admins made me hecka emo like 2 weeks ago

have you ever …

6. dated someone twice: nope

7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes but never immediately ya know

8. been cheated on: yes

9. lost someone special: yes

10. been depressed: for! the! past! 5! years! of! my! life! im ok though, if anyone can relate pls keep fighting its worth it

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: funny story. yes ive gotten drunk. like shitfaced. but i never throw up!

list 3 favorite colors

12-14. shit... usually I just say green but since you asked for 3: mint green, maroon, and any silver or gold shit thats also holographic

in the last year, have you …

15. made new friends: yes!!!

16. fallen out of love: not sure if it was love to begin with

17. laughed until you cried: absolutely

18. found out someone was talking about you: ive had my suspicions but they’ve never actually been confirmed. at least not when it comes to negative stuff

19. met someone who changed you: idk if this counts bc i havent actually met them but bang! tan! so! nyeon! dan!

20. found out who your friends are: see i always think im having this moment but then the people in question always pull shit that changes my mind back to being like “ok yeah i guess youre a real friend”

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: two of em

random questions

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i wont add someone unless i know them personally, save for a few ldr that im very VERY close to. so i know them all

23. do you have any pets: THREE CATS THEY ARE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE

24. do you want to change your name: all the time.

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had to do college shit!! (it was on june 9th btw) and i got my period!!! so it was f a n t a s t i c

26. what time did you wake up: 9:30 ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: talking with my friendos from here

28. name something you can’t wait for: idk... im gonna be in a couple shows soon but i can wait for them all to happen really. lame answer but i cant think of anything atm

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: monday morning

30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: just one??? i guess i was just more secure with myself and knew who i truly was. bc i have a bad habit of acting differently to please different people and not being confident in myself and that needs to g o

31. what are you listening to right now: the sounds of me typing this lmao. and my roomie watching netflix. its so quiet i can hear the noise from her headphones

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hello?? my lifelong best friend is a thomas

33. something that is getting on your nerves: im trying to hang with some of my pals this week and they keep not responding to me

34. most visited website: tumblr and youtube

35-37. apparently these questions are lost to the void

38. hair color: brown with leftover maroon and dark brown dyes in it

39. long or short hair: im growing it out so its short atm

40. do you have a crush on someone: y e s too many people

41. what do you like about yourself: i can do makeup real well and i have cute tiddies (when they in my bra)

42. piercings: just one on both earlobes. im considering a nose ring

43. blood type: a positive?? but i still dont understand why thats important to know in terms of kpop idols. do i need to donate blood to them?

44. nickname: if you wanna be hip call me mitch

45. relationship status: single. desperately seeking a fwb

46. zodiac: gemini ass

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: the walking dead and the 100

49. tattoos: cant get any bc of theatre. wanna get a small semicolon on my finger

50. right or left handed: right

51. surgery: never major surgeries. i once has to get an inflamed salivary gland removed and ive had my run in with stitches. but nothing major

52. piercing: yep this is a repeat

53. favorite sport: dancing, swimming, and biking

55. favorite vacation: my trip to nebraska last year

56. favorite pair of trainers: what are trainers

57. eating: about to go get dinner. if this is a question about fave foods then i guess my moms spaghetti (no irony here)

58. drinking: currently nothing. i would sell my firstborn for sunny D tho

59. i’m about to: get changed for a partayyyy

61. waiting for: my other roomie to wake up from her nap so we can eat

62. want: MY ANKLES TO CHILL WITH THE PAIN THEYRE GIVING ME

63. get married: im a hopeless romantic so you better believe my ho ass is tying the knot one of these days

64. career: got my sights set on being an actress. i currently make pizza.

which is better

65. hugs or kisses: kisses

66. lips or eyes: eyes

67. shorter or taller: if its a s/o i prefer them to be taller

68. older or younger: older if s/os

70. nice arms or nice stomach: im a sucker for a cute ass tummy

71. sensitive or loud: i agree how do these relate but i like it when people are sensitive. not when they like cant handle anything but more like when theyre in tune with their own emotions and thoughts and try not to be a toughie

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: my fam would wanna say troublemaker but im hesitant af

have you ever …

74. kissed a stranger: i wish

75. drank hard liquor: yeeeeeah

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: im not a fuckin genie of course i have

77. turned someone down: yes

78. sex on the first date: heck no

79. broken someone’s heart: yes!

80. had your heart broken: yes!!

81. been arrested: no

82. cried when someone died: yes

83. fallen for a friend: yes esp with my gay ass

do you believe in …

84. yourself: i wanna laugh and be like heh no, but i really do

85. miracles: sorta

86. love at first sight: i believe in lust at first sight

87. santa claus: nope but i used to be hardcore as a kid

88. kiss on the first date: yeah. i support cheek pecks but lips are game if it went real well

89. angels: not guardian angels no

other

90. best friend’s name: tom, katie

91. eye color: poop brown

92. favorite movie: warm bodies

tagging

heres one for the babes: @disastermanjoon @btsatschool (B) @myhomeistuan @eomma-eagle @bunnybubkook @minswaggy-dt @teaacuptaee

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