I think it's just genuinely so difficult for me to comprehend that people are affected by me attempting suicide
like, the first time, when I was 11, I told my dad a few days later and he said that's normal... a few other times, my suicidal feelings were brushed aside, and even tho I've lost someone to suicide and I fully understand how much it changes you and how painful it was I just can't, on a deep level, understand that it would affect other people like that if I died? it's that.. understanding it rationally but not emotionally. I still don't rly take seriously the fact that I attempted a month ago and almost succeeded. if they hadn't called the ambulance, I might not be here. my therapist keeps trying to convince me on a deep level that it matters and that people around me would rather me take up their time than take up their whole lives (for a while) by dying. it's so hard to understand!
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I'm only halfway though Hbomberguy's new video and I dont know if this is a universal experience but my main horrified takeaway from hbomb's plagiarism video so far is that one of my highschools TAUGHT AN ENTIRE CLASS OF 13 YEAR OLDS TO PLAGIARISE. LIKE, ON PURPOSE.
I ended up moving to a much better highschool, but my first highschool essentially taught us to "write" essays by reading what someone else had written and then write what they said again but putting it "into your own words". Which in practice was teaching us to change, for example, "the works of Shakespeare were regarded by many as the first popular art form" to "Shakespeare's plays have been said by some to be the first example of popular media". One teacher actually told us that the process of writing an essay was "saying what the people you've researched have said, in a way where it sounds like you said it".
Like. The tactics that actual plagiarists use to hide the fact that they were stealing. An actual teacher tried to teach me to do that.
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this isn’t even about pedro pascal just a series of thoughts i’ve had about rising media trends and perhaps the unintended impacts of evolving cultural perceptions as the pendulum swings back and forth between progressive ideas and conservative agendas that ultimately puts the boundaries of individuals (not just celebrities) on the altar of capitalism
(also i’m bad at graphs so excuse the background i thought it looked pretty)
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