#also. my eternal mood

[bubblegeon]

userdramas event 01: favorite roles (so far) of my favorite actor

LEE SOO HYUK

🍁 Park Joong Gil in TOMORROW (2022) 🍁 Cha Joo Ik in DOOM AT YOUR SERVICE (2021) 🍁 Gwi in THE SCHOLAR WHO WALKS THE NIGHT (2015) 🍁 Kim Joon in VALID LOVE (2014) 🍁 Yoo Jin Woo in HIGH SCHOOL KING OF SAVVY (2014)

#lee soo hyuk #tomorrow #doom at your service #the scholar who walks the night #valid love #high school king of savvy #mygifs #kdrama #tmrw gif #days gif #userdramas event #the inspiration and mood kicked in at the eleventh hour #also my favorite eternal second lead and first lead in waiting #quote.ver #multi

[kazachokolate]

#unicorn warriors eternal #uwe #uwe winston #edred #my art #uwe spoilers #I have some more sketches but I'm not in the mood to finish them #I'm just stuck in self hate loop I'm so tired #I also had to dress Edred in a kosovorotka because WHY does he (and Dimitri of course) have nothing under his kaftan #maybe I'll change color of it later to white idk

[frodo-with-glasses]

Speak for yourself, slowpoke!

#frodo baggins #peregrin took #pippin #lord of the rings #lotr #my art #fig tree au #speaking of being late: this comic was supposed to be posted on sunday haha whoops #also i too stayed up late last night lol #frodo continues to be my eternal mood

[manasurge]

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#sometimes I wish drawing wasn't such a lonely activity #am in a bit of a social mood but can't find anything to socialize about #i also wish I didn't need to spend ALL DAY trying to prep my brain to try to draw; despite it being something I wanna do and enjoy #why must i have executive dysfunction over my hobbies #this is why it takes me one million years to something I can actually get done in a few days at most #i'm so incredibly frustrated and it's super depressing and bumming me out #it's just so frustrating and i'm so irritated at myself #i know it's shark week so maybe it's why i'm a bit of a mess; but usually it doesn't affect me during the time so idk #also i love how every night I get to deal with the crippling dread and lowkey anxiety attacks bc everything i'm avoiding/afraid of and it- #- keeps festering in my mind and makes me avoid sleep for as long as possible and i'm stuck in an eternal negative feedback loop #i can't even do the thing i enjoy bc my brain is making it hard for me #not to mention that I constantly get those thoughts about how i'm never getting anywhere in life and i am in fact; ALONE #no irl friends or family and it still scares me to think about how worse things will get in the future for me. #not to mention not having a career or being capable of doing any kind of secondary schooling makes the dread even worse #but again frustrated and i can't even apply positive activities like how I'd usually do; not to mention i'm just always mad at myself about #-everything lmao #stupid brain just let me enjoy me hobby bc i wanna do it and you're not letting me and it's making me feel worse #delete later probably idk lmao

[setyourfireonme]

2 in the end of the night we'll be together again / i told you to trust me, 'cause in the meantime i'll be here 4 if we both go down we go down together / in the wake of weak beginnings, we can still stand high 6 never been good with drawing a line / you keep me in the dark 8 we're made up of the same blood, i'll be your medicine if you let me / and if you're evil i'll forgive you by and by 10 i would kneel down and ask him, not to intervene when it came to you / i wanna live together in a petri dish, i can be algae you can be fungi 12 i want to bleed and feed us forever, but i want to feed the hunger inside / come on and rest your head, and i will protect you 14 i can love you more, more than they, i am moulded from more than clay / so take me home to you 16 would you come with me or would you resist? oh could you just give in / i could break a glass just to watch it shatter, i'd do anything just to feel with you 18 i'd wait my whole life, just to meet you / i look at this life, i only want me and you 20 forsaken heaven, to bring you my love / and i draw a line, to your heart today 22 and i am standing here calling out your name, 'cause you're my twin flame / sometimes our love is everlasting spotify

#spnedit #samdeanedit #all #fanmix #just in time for wincest wednesday *pats myself on the back* #these are mostly songs i compiled while making another playlist so there isn't a specific theme besides TWO #but i love the idea so why not make it a thing and share #you could say that this is dedicated to their Love #and certain turning points from stanford era to season four and beyond to eternity~ #the title is either what i misheard or some lyrics but either way appropriate for this mix #sometimes i'm in an extreme s/d mood and this has apparently been one of those times #i love their love etc. #(why is making playlists so fun but IMPOSSIBLE though... i have one more in me but then i'll focus on the j/d one which is more my thing) #(also i almost never make proper playlists like this so no idea if this is any good or coherent lmao) #don't forget to like and subscribe if you read this far

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Literally begging everyone - especially if you write, especially for a deadline - to read Green Onions by Akutagawa Ryuunosuke if you are able to.

You will thank me for this. It's been two days since I read it and I cannot stop giggling.

#actually i would recommend any of his short stories i've read so far #i found a copy of them at my local library which was very unexpected! #and most of them are quite somber and detached #they really do feel like old folktales or myths which is lovely and they're all quite nuanced #anyways green onions is just as nuanced but it is by far the exception in terms of tone and narration and it kinda took me out #japanese literature #akutagawa ryunosuke #storyrambles #there's a message to it there if you dig into it like all his other stories #it is also an eternal mood

[jediexile]

I just remembered that one quest in deadfire where in order to book passage on a ship for a mother and her six kids, I had to find another passenger who happened to have ocd and convince him to give up his spot by choosing dialogue option “the captain will only take HALF of the kids. Isn’t that ODD?” At which point the poor man runs out of the room screaming and as a person with ocd this whole quest both horrified and amused me

#I did also blackmail the captain to take the family for free #so… it all worked out well in the end? #I texted my friend like help in having a crisis of conscience what’s worse: taking advantage of someone’s ocd or splitting up a family #also god bless aloth reacting to the characters introduction like ‘nothing wrong with being tidy’ big mood my friend #pillars of eternity #*im having damn autocorrect

[satellitesunset]

myle.txt

#Uh rant/introspection coming up #gotta love pre birthday existential crisis #my cousin just had a baby girl. and im like thinking abt kids #might be baby fever. might be the hormones. might be this series on tiktok where a dad talks abt like weeks in fatherhood #nut like for the first time im thinking abt like gender roles and parenthood in regards to myself yk? #like i want to be a dad and that's just a very uh realisation #like idk man the realisation that if #(and thats a big IF) #i do have kids #ill be just mum and thats like just hitting me yk #i know on a conscious level that its complicated and whatnot but like yk in general its a v peculiar feeling #im also thinking abt words a lot and i wrote a whole poem/piece about it thst i like and its been so long since i wrote least smth im happy #with #but i have s good feeling abt this one #anyways words words words huff #im also thinking abt growing up and how different everything esp myself is from last year #like last year feels like an eternity ago but also feeld too soon and its just weird #insert smth abt friends snd loss n memories m growing apart n adulting that i do not want to or knoe how to articulate #uh anyways yes if u read all this have a cookie #on a good thought! uh im making a playlist which always puts me in a better mood #tldr im like fine just thinking #uh what was the tag #myle mummers #there was another one but i cant for the life of me remember it 😭

[theworldiswhispering]

Another thing that gets me about people romanticizing cooking and making food for people and all that is the fact that in an ideal world that’s still a job that exists. Like...lawyers policeman firefighters therapists doctors social workers bankers....these are all jobs that we need but that are products of a world that is not as it should be (and can have many of their own problems to boot). In an ideal world we would still have people making food not necessarily because it’s needed for sustenance but because it’s also just good.

#if anybody has actual theology contradicting this claim that i made in .2 seconds go for it but im writing grad apps so im in a writing mood #and things are coming out #making food as a task that lasts into eternity in a good way is also imprinted on my mind because of the wingfeather saga version of heaven #and that description in the warden and the wolf king that artham gives #i blame ap

[eorzeashan]

i'll probably upload the entire series of the traitor arc rewrite when it's finished to ao3 but i'm gonna lament ruining my perfect streak of having (1) fic on there and knowing it's not gonna beat that little oneshot in metrics adsasjaskl

#ooc #fic writing is so dumb. you die 1500 times to write this little thing and then it feels good for 15 minutes when you get comint #and then that's it. #it's like what do i do with my life now. writing it was hell but posting it was also hell and now waiting to regain the energy back #is also unfortunately. hell #the life of a creative is eternal dissatisfaction #ackshully this is more than i expected to get so im satisfied but i wish i had a seventh sense for when to stop rbing it #cuz doing social media tings for creative work feels dumb every time OTL #it's fine. don't be embarrassed admin. it's fine it's fine #i was actually hoping it was gonna get me back in the mood to talk more about ideas #sad little wet dog huff

[embv]

call me the king of turning batshit banter into angst ‘cause look at this shit

#my post #they went from talking about tntduo /r and cq being jealous of cdream for going on a date with cwil #to cq bitterly reminding ctommy that he’s doomed himself to spend eternity with his abuser <3 #fun times #this is a TBD conversation tho tbh #like this might go in but it also might not. and it needs a little bit of cleaning up #it just kind of exists ‘cause i got carried away #the mood shift is a Little abrupt but i just kinda wanted to get the conversation written and over with #and needed to bring it to a close

[permanentreverie]

tag 9 people you want to get to know better

tagged by @puddleglumms akdjwjdj I'm so honoured!!

three ships: off the top of my head? Jude and Cardan from The Folk of the Air trilogy, Mr Gu and Yeom Mijeong from My Liberation Notes, and uhhh Anya and Dmitry from Anastasia

last song: Promise by Jimin 🥹🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻 it's been 84 years but we FINALLY have it on Spotify!!!! We won!!!

last movie: just finished watching Chicago (2003) with my sister for the first time and I actually really enjoyed it!!

currently reading: just started Hell Bent by Leigh Bardugo, and I SAY I'm rereading Les Miserables by Victor Hugo but I haven't touched it in like 2 months lol

currently watching: oh boy. Ummm Call It Love, Girl From Nowhere, and W Two Worlds for Asian dramas; Daisy Jones and the Six; and Bungo Stray Dogs, Yuri on Ice, and I guess I need to start the final season of Attack on Titan for Anime

currently consuming: I just finished a glass of chocolate milk and snacking on a bowl of nuts

currently craving: any food tbh. Our dinner is almost ready I'm just ready to eat

tagging @thebirdandhersong @thecoolestfreakyouknow @cordiallyfuturedwight @wellmanneredthief

#tag games #I KNOW my currently watching looks bad #in all honesty girl from nowhere and w I'm just watching an episode here and there #though I would like to get binging a drama soon I miss it. thinking of maybe starting save me? #I mean it's got ok taecyeon and seo yeji and that bodyguard dude from eternal monarch? sign me up #also it's like a culty thriller like I think the plot would be addicting #idk why w is taking me so slow like it's not a bad drama #it just has the tone and humour that the 2016 dramas have #which are all fine and good and classics but I'm not always in the mood for them #and girl from nowhere is. a lot so I can only watch like one episode here and there #I actually need to catch up on daisy jones cause I'm only halfway through episode 2 #but I am liking it! #and technically I'm watching like 10 anime atm #cause I never ended up watching season 2 of spy x family (though I do plan to at some point) #and I started haikyuu a while back but I'll restart it after I'm done bungo stray dogs #and I need to finish Yuri on ice I've only got like 5 episodes left even though I haven't watched for weeks #(also I never talked about call it love. skdjsjdb it's really good so far I love a good melodrama) #(even though the pink filter is highly annoying) #and listen I have SO MANY ships that I like it's just that as soon as I saw that question every single ship I love flew out the window #but like mr gu and yeom mijeong will ALWAYS be that couple. #you just had to be there when mlb was airing. the girlies were going ~feral~ #and with good reason!! nothing ever goes hard as 'worship me' #and jude and cardan my problematic loves 🫶🏻 they do so much damage ugh they just *chefs kiss* #and anya and dmitry cause I just saw anastasia <3 they have my whole heart #promise by jimin being on Spotify 🥹🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻 I've always been giving!!! but now I get to receive!!!! #genuinely that song is <3 <3 #*ahem* now humbly asking for winter bear and my you #could continue talking but yeah! thanks for the tag! (if you've made it this far)

[elmentalwish]

at this point i have zero tolerance for inazuma / ei hate. you can feel what you want but i don’t wanna see it. comfort nation / archon is real and i don’t care how the story was written, i love them both and i don’t wanna deal with it.

#i see it soooooooooo much and it ALWAYS puts a dent in my mood #also this is at no one i just started thinking about ei and how much i love them #;the archon of inazuma can’t cook. all they know is dango milk. thunderbolt. pursue eternity and cry. (ooc)

[throwing-roses-into-the-abyss]

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#the eternal gender struggle #of wanting to work out to get like a strong fit body #BUT wanting that to be a man's body with the broad shoulders and flat chest etc #which...I have decidedly the wrong kind of body for #part of me just wants the cool muscles and the veins and the sixpack and stuff #which is already super hard to get when you actually have the right gender body. which I don't. #this btw is a weekly mood everytime I watch kinnporsche #apparently I get gender envy whenever I see apo #I hate going to the gym and refuse to set foot inside #and also fuck off with all that plain chicken I love my snacks too much #but also uuuughhhh why can't I look that cool ;_;

[bellarichie]

excuse me while i procrastinate even more an assignment that is already late

#in my defense it's not entirely my fault #the professor said we could send the activity late and he'd still consider it #so obviously my stupid brain decided to be unable to accomplish this task #since the imminent threat of a deadline has been removed #also it's been raining for a week so i'm in a bad mood #hate that i can't work on anything if i'm not in the mood that's so inefficient!! #when the professor thinks he's being cool but instead he sends me to eternal purgatory