#and I had a great time as always 10/10

[steveyockey]

i hope you got home safely and didn't walk into traffic!!!

💗💗💗 I made it home WONDERFULLY intact thank you dear 🫰🏻💕🥰

#and I had a great time as always 10/10 #lesbianjoannaharvelle #answered

[vynegar]

"Albie" (main story 11-21)

At the end of Episode 11 (Part 1), we find out that "Albie" is simply a name that Vyn made up on the spot when Rosa asked. He may have been inspired by his own birth name, Vilhelm Richard Albert de Haspran.

In Chinese, Vyn choose the name "阿明". "阿" is a prefix used to form nicknames, "明" can be a name but also means "bright, clear". In Vyn's Romantic Rail Getaway card "Food for Thought", he tells us the meaning of his name:

You can see the character 明 appear in the word 明亮 ("bright"), although 明 is such a common character that I wouldn't say that this Chinese text alone is enough is sufficient evidence to show the connection between the two names. It's the way that the "Albie" and "阿明" happen to coincide in the name "Albert", which made me take note of Vyn's "careless" choice in name.

If the Chinese name was intended to subtly reference "Albert", I can certainly imagine imagine this as one way to preserve that reference through translation, even if it becomes more obvious. We do have an example of the translation preserving plot-relevant wordplay in a name: Lowe Leare ("Lowly"), originally 萧仁 ("小人", both pronounced "xiao ren" but with different tones). However, there's also an incident of a plot-relevant name being missed through translation, though it was in an event (not the main story) that probably foreshadowed a distant plot point and had infamously bad translation issues.

Anyway, it remains possible that "Albie" is a coincidence. However, after Vyn and Rosa wrap up their conversation about Albie's name, the narration makes a comment on the importance of that moment:

It isn't until the whole case is settled that you are surprised to realize something... You had briefly touched on the key to cracking the case at this very moment.

...which at least gives me enough confidence to not feel silly writing up a whole post about it. We've only seen part of this case, and there's a lot of mystery still surrounding Vyn's behavior so I don't have any definitive hypotheses on why Vyn might have chosen his own name for Albie. Is there something that made Vyn seen himself in Albie? Did the delinquent's attitude remind Vyn of the cruel, stratified world that he was born in? Is he reminded of how people who have imperfections will be tossed aside and abandoned? I guess we'll see when part 2 of this episode is released.

#tears of themis #vyn richter #tot vyn #tears of themis analysis #mo yi #tot translation #thoughts of themis #was the ''albie'' reference really obvious or not?? i honestly have no idea. but it only clicked for me bc i was staring at both versions o #text side-by-side and i was like. WAIT A MINUTE. #doing fan translations is fun bc even after there's an official translation; you might read something almost 2.5 years later that triggers #some deep memories (bc u took so so long to translate and had to agonize over every single word choice oh my god) #god i did my first translations two and a half years ago. sounds CRAZY when you put it like that #but honestly great experience 10/10 i'm always wishing i could go back to that time. also nothing makes me feel more powerful than when i k #know i have an easily searchable script of certain cards thanks to my own translation. it was SO EASY to find that RRG excerpt #hmm should i crosspost to the themis subreddit. i do have an account but i use it mostly to talk about console otome games

[beskad]

I wonder if my mom ever sees the things I loved as a kid, the things my father mocked me for (and that she stood by and watched, her silence only ever broken by the occasional uncomfortable laugh), and thinks about me

And I wonder if she's sorry, or realizes she did anything wrong, or if she sees those things through the same lens of delusion that she sees everything else

If she sees those things and thinks of me - but just remembers the love I had for them, while wondering why I "became" so "angry" and "bitter" and left her in the grave she'd dug for herself in my father's house

#sometimes i feel sorry for her. a part of me always will #but she's had 35 years and plenty of time to accept help. to save herself. #fuck I!!! the Child!!! tried to save her over and over again despite being her victim #and eventually you just have to let that shit go #and let them drown #i love having been raised in such dysfunction 10/10 would do again no notes great time

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

So anyways my plan for the next two months is to kickass at work while I get another job and then leave their asses.

#I'm so mad about this #I've been at this company for 6 years and for the most part everyone I've worked with has been great #Easy to get along with. Smart. Caring. #I've had some not so great bosses and every once in a while I've encountered problem people #But repeatedly one person (not in my vertical but a key person in my org) #Has repeatedly made me feel like shit. Even if she claims to mean well or whatever #I absolutely never feel like we're ok the same team. It always feels like it's her team or death #Which is not an environment I thrive in #And then her boss (who is also my bosses boss) either feeds into that or exacerbates it #I wish I had had the words during our engagement survey because I'm not the only one who feels this way #So many people go into a meeting with her expecting to talk about one thing and instead she asks for something else entirely #It consistently feels like she has no trust in her team and she does not want to foster a culture of 'we're in the same team' #She is fostering a culture of 'im the boss so I'll dictate exactly what I want and I am free to change it at any time' #So. Anyways. If you know of companies hiring in their product or portfolio space hit me up. #I spent 10 hours trying not to cry at work today and then had three separate little cries #Going to going with my boss a little about taking a week off soon #He's going to be alarmed and concerned but like. He should be. #(my boss is generally great my only complaint is that he hasn't figure out how to work with his boss yet so that's compounding my issues. #But that is not all on him. And he has never once made me feel like we're not on the same team) #Blah blah ok. Tomorrow I work and then do the life shit I didn't do today #The day after that I do a second pass at my resume #And use a working block at work to figure out what I want (and sketch out my teams pain points and potential solutions)

[gay-jesus-probably]

Will you ever reveal your 911sona to us king (gender neutral)?

Anon, I would LOVE to. Tragically, the only documentation of the life and death of my 9/11sona existed entirely on maybe 3 sheets of paper, written a decade ago for two linked school assignments that at the time I found wildly embarrassing, and honestly kind of offensive; if grade 9 wasn't one of the major milestone years for Canadian education (PAT's, baby!), I would have refused to do the assignment entirely, as inventing fake victims to mourn in a very real and (then) somewhat recent tragedy felt extremely fucked up. And it's still fucked up, it's just also really funny that someone thought that was an appropriate school assignment.

Anyways, my point is, while all this is hilarious in hindsight, at the time I was genuinely ashamed to have done the assignment, and once it was over I wanted to stop thinking about it, because if I acknowledged how much I hated that teacher, I WOULD start shit, and that would tank my grade for the year. Language arts is a wildly subjective subject, and so if you piss off your English teacher, you're absolutely fucked, because that grudge WILL show in how they grade you. So as soon as the 9/11sona assignments were marked and returned, mine went directly into the trash as I tried to scrub the whole nightmare from my memory. The overall situation remains seared into my brain to this day, but the details of my 9/11sona have, unfortunately, been lost to time. It wasn't nearly as interesting as the concept implies though; I sure as hell wasn't feeling any sort of passion for the project, so I'm pretty sure my 9/11sona was literally just some generic guy working some generic office job in one of the towers.

...Though the real punchline to this side of the story is that after a whole miserable year of gritting my teeth and holding back arguments to put up with this awful english teacher to ensure she marked me fairly, all of it became even more infuriating when I wound up getting into the exact situation I had been afraid of, literally on the first day of grade 10 english. As in, it was my first class after lunch, and I got in there about ten minutes early because I was worried about getting lost. Before the bell rang to start class that day, my brand new english teacher had informed me to my face that I specifically would be singled out to be marked on a considerably harsher curve than anyone else in the class. She fucking meant it too, the whole semester, apart from multiple choice tests, every single one of my english assignments had a strict grade ceiling of 79%, I never made it into the 80+ range by her standards, which was the most infuriating possible way to lose what had, until that point, been a perfect record of always ending a school year with my english mark in the 90's. I put up with making a fucking 9/11sona to maintain that record, and then lost it the next year to a snap judgment one teacher made literally less than ten minutes after I walked into her classroom.

...But that's a story for a different time.

#can you tell i'm still bitter about my grade 10 english teacher #BECAUSE I'M VERY FUCKING BITTER THANK YOU #i mean credit to her at least she had arguably the best grade 10 shakespear unit in the country #specifically bcause she thought romeo and juliet had been done to death and made us do Merchant of Venice instead #that was really cool honestly there was some really interesting discussions about the history of antisemitism #and how the plays depiction of shylock compared to other plays portraying jewish characters at the time #very interesting stuff! much more interesting than any discussion i've heard for romeo and juliet lmao #like i loved her class she was a great teacher. BUT SHE WAS ALSO A COMPLETE DICK TO ME SPECIFICALLY #english was always my best subject! i'd literally just failed my first class ever (math) the semester before! #I DID NOT NEED HER TO DESTROY MY CONFIDENCE. IT WAS ALREADY GONE #SHE WAS JUST KICKING ME WHILE I WAS DOWN AT THAT POINT

[gabriellovescandy]

FINE I'm buying a concert ticket to see Måneskin

#yes I just heard gossip and was convinced #also their next concert in my city is on friday so it's perfect #i mean. it technically is out of town and don't really know how to get back from that at midnight. but I'll think of something #also. i'm already thinking of outfits. #the only thing i'm sad about is that it's a concert where putting on fun big makeup would be so cool and would look great with my outfit #but i don't do make up :/ #also FINE i'm probably finally buying a chain to put on my pants #50% for this concert and 40% because i saw an edward elric fanart where he had a chain on his pants and looked great #10% because i always thought they were cool obviously #stuff #maneskin #if anyone wants to join me it will probably be my first concert alone actually i don't know how i feel about that #i would like to go with someone every time i do something alone i dissociate a lot and i would like to enjoy this concert :/ #dammit why are all my friends broke #*'on A friday' it's not THIS friday it's actually in march (from the second tag)

[ringneckedpheasant]

had the second worst great clips visit of my life today but thank fucking gd my hair turned out Okay despite the other horrors

#there are 2 in relatively close proximity to me & the one I like more had like 90 minute wait times #as opposed to 15 at the other place #and I knew it would be awkward & bad bc it always is at that location no matter who the stylist is #And Then It Was #stylist repeatedly misgendered me to her coworker who was giving some other guy almost an identical haircut to mine #said coworker did too despite me checking With My Name Which Is Marcus #& then she accidentally nicked my ear w the clippers #& I think she was worried abt doing it to the other ear so I had to trim around it a little when I got home #very stilted conversation which was mostly my fault and isn’t a crime #but she kept telling me I should try a specific style after she’d already started #& I was just like oh haha maybe next time. like three times over the course of 20 minutes or w/e it was #and ALSO sometimes the great clips employees do not really help you get cleaned off #I was spoiled last time the stylist gave me a dry washcloth to get all the little Bits off my face #but todays stylist just sent me out into the world after using the blow dryer for about 10 seconds #got out to my car. hair all over my face. itchy. nothing to wipe it off with. #anyway. worst time was when someone gave me an extremely incorrect haircut bc of a language barrier & I wasn’t really mad about it #but I did cry in my car after bc I felt So ugly & dysphoric #also last complaint abt this poor person #she seemed to have Very little confidence in her choice of tool and changed the guard on her clippers and what clippers she was holding #like 3x more than was necessary & I know this because I get basically the same haircut every time w very little variation #& it just made me anxious that it was going to look bad bc her behavior was #making me feel like she wasn’t very experienced w the kind of haircut I was asking for #marc.txt #last last complaint for real not abt her #her coworker who was also misgendering me cut my hair last time I was there 😔

[onlyblackcoffeez]

yeah so next time i'm at ois's i'll definitly see if he'd let me try another of his meds just to see whether it's a fluke or not lol

#like he doesn't take them daily as he's meant to so he always has a surplus #Usually he just uses them until they run out and then fills the perscription - its not something he does every month on the month yknow? #and yeah he has been v open to my trying it out since i told him about my suspicions #well.. after the first time i told him & it was a lil bit of a shitshow but that was bad reactions on both our parts & we're over it now lo #he even said that like yeah #given that a common tester is seeing how you react to the meds #whether you go 'zoom zoom get a million things done in 20 minutes' or 'hey i can do these tasks with less pushback now' #and yeah i'm certainly not zooming #like hell i'm still on the conclusion i've been writing for the past couple hours #but its just easier to get it done #idk i'm rambling sorry lmao #a n y w a y i took it like 2 hours ago and it's a normal-speed release as far aas i'm aware so i'll probs just work on this for a lil while #like what i'm currently working on was due wednesday gone at 3pm (so like 49 hours ago here) and apparantly you lose 10% every day late #but i've had this lecturer for two other modules previous years and she never docks marks for lateness and i did a great presentation #for the module so here's hoping <3 #well that was certainly a tangent lmao #me talking into the little hellsite (affectionate)

[scottishstoner]

New relationships are scary, I’m overwhelmed with feelings for him and he’s the same

I haven’t been in a relationship since I was way younger and I’ve never felt like this, he said he’s scared of his feelings for me they’re so strong 😭

#I really like him and him me we are kinda labelling it as the beginning of a relationship #and are not seeing anyone else and we are taking it slow he is so so sweet #met him at work in January we started this Thing February 12th really but flirted and vibed before that #it was the staff party we ended up going out after and to his but we just kissed and cuddled he was so nice #anyway I’ve been to his a few times now (we both are so busy at work it’s hard to find free time for us both but we are doing it and trying #we see each other at work a lot but he’s a kp (kitchen porter) I’m a waitress #but I do still see him a lot but the whole hotel knows lol so if a manager sees me speak to him #for even 10 seconds after I’m done putting plates up after scraping them they’re like Jenna back to the floor on the restaurant lmao😭 #they know smth is going on they dunno what tho #he’s so cuddly and sweet we bond over a lot and had a great deep convo at his last night #and listened to music and kissed and cuddled and I’m like ahhhhh we’re both always texting when not together #and kinda both tryin to be cool but we’re both kinda obsessed with each other rn #he’s so insecure tho he gets jealous and he doesn’t know why I like him !? idiot he’s handsome! #he’s funny. he’s sweet. he cares. he is a great kisser. he’s so open and honest and real #a lot of reasons!! he’s insecure coz I’m thin and he’s not thin he’s a bit bigger but idgaf I just know #I started liking him and when we kissed for the first time it was great and I feel this connection with us in general and he does too #this is insane I feel like I’m in a romcom/drama/comedy/indie movie with this idk lmao #he’s 26 I’m 28 #he’s an Aquarius I’m a Sagittarius lol I love astrology k #personal #my love life #work #new relationship #rambles in tags #also after the staff party when we went out to a club then back to his he didn’t even try anything!! nothing. we like grinded & kissed lol #and he didn’t force anything or even talk about it and that’s not like most guys I’m sad to say lol

[thecoolertails]

the only thing i don't really like about signalis is the really basic anime art style for characters but most of the in-game assets look nice enough that it doesn't matter

#all the art direction besides that is amazing #normal ​in-game it looks like ghost trick but every once in a while they'll have a shot of a characters face and it's like sword art online #my posts #only other thing i could possibly complain about is the combat but like. its survival horror #idk if you can have a survival horror with good combat #you're supposed to run away from enemies! #i got to the first boss which was the only time i've really had a problem so far #but i was able to beat it after looking stuff up #the puzzles are great the world-building and tone are great the switching between 3rd and 1st person is great #it's not super hard so far but the scarce save-points reanimating enemies limited ammo/health and intentionally clunky combat #all make you feel unsafe and on edge #oh and incredibly limited inventory! i don't always like that (i don't like it in re1) but this game does it well. it feels balanced #they really seem to have taken the right lessons from classic survival horror #i can see the silent hill 2 inspiration especially but it's still incredibly different #the $10-20 range really has the best games huh

[marshmallowgoop]

Yes, I did get this 2017 Detective Conan movie guidebook purely for the cover.

The blorbos.

No, I still haven't seen The Crimson Love Letter.

#shitpost #shut up goop #i'd take out the poster but unless i'm missing something it's not perforated or anything and i'm afraid of just totally ripping it ^^; #they're so cute though #picked this up with all the detco blu-rays i ordered because why not it was 350 yen and i was internationally shipping those already #maybe i should have grouped this purchase with something else though because this book is pretty big #(hence the bad scan sorry... tried a few times but it was just difficult with how big it is) #ended up with a much bigger box than would have been needed for just blu-rays ^^; #ah well make the most out of my 5% international fedex discount while i can right? #(the proxy site i use most to order things from japan--called from japan--gives you minor shipping discounts if you spend enough) #(spending over 40k yen in a year gets you the samurai rank with a 3% ems and fedex discount) #(while spending over 100k yen gets you the tonosama rank with a 5% discount and spending over 400k gets you the 10% off shogun rank) #(i tend to always stay in samurai but i went so overboard with dcmk stuff that i've been at tonosama for a while) #(but lose it in a few days rip... the tonosama avatar is way cuter than the samurai one lol) #(but anyway i've had my problems with fedex but this time they literally got it shipped to me internationally in *one* day?!) #(color me impressed. used to always wait multiple months for my international shipments for the lower cost) #(but getting a package from japan the day after it's shipped is well worth the extra money i'd say) #anyway anyway wish i could understand this book but it has a lot of great pictures and that cover is so good 🥺 #detective conan

[nomaishuttle]

IM A LITTLE WORRIED THO BC LIKE. I DONT HAVE A LOT TO TALK ABT AT ALL..

#i havent rly Done anything whatsoever. im literally the unemployed friend #HOPEFULLY NOT FOR LONG. KNOCK KNOCK (sound of me knocking on wood) #but im worried theyll be like Soooo hows washington ^-^ and ill just be like umm. well. there is a window in my room. Whichh is pretty cool #<- joke i have like. been outside of the house a couple times... #very few actually. but its okay #going to see family will FIX ME. and when i come back ill HOPEFULLY (knock knock) have a job. whichll be great #and then ill be so busy and making money that i wont even have time to be depressed anymore #bc its FULLTIME !!! #8 hour shift 5 days a week 😏 soo yeah. my bones r gonna be sore 😏😏😏 #but ill get over it and cope eventually. AND ill get to be somewhere other than The house 💀 #i do like our house but i think im being driven insane just being here all the time. sometimes i sit on the porch #and like once every couple of weeks i go out for whatever reason. if i didnt SLEEP IN so much maybe id be able t run errands with hal more #butterlass. no i do rly need t fix it #im hoping going back t ky for a bit will kickstart it bc likee. when i first got here i was actually sleeping like..perfect schedule mode #id go to bed around 10-12 and wake up around 7-9. which is ideal.. #BUT #Even if that doesnt. the job (knock knock) will force me t keep schedule #which is great. my last job aaaabsolutely forced me t keep schedule and it was rly rly nice.. #no matter how late i stayed up i ALWAYS woke up on time. which is good. and i nevee rly had 2 nap after #im so excited for my workday schedule to come back bc i miss the routine of it #even tho the routine was rly just In the morning and the rest was a free for all.. #ill also. this time around. make sure t include my morning meds and brushing my TEEF... bc i need t grt better abt that #im also gonna try n shower more often.. ive been managing abt every 3 days which im rly rly proud of bc its rly hard 4 me #but hopefullyy. with my schedule 😏😏 i could do daily showers... #prolly after work showers even. bc that sounds so nice #its judt hard bc Also after work the last thinng i want 2 do is be standing. bc i get so achy.. esp after an 8 hour shift #hopefully this job will be noce though. IF I GET IT. KNOCK KNOCK #i need t not like. place all my eggs in this basket bc if i dont get it im gonna be fucking crushed #but im rly rly rly hopeful. like reaaaally hopeful... #teehee :]] basically yayyy

[cinematicnomad]

i’m leaving for india today! my first international trip in...literally almost a decade, and my first international trip for work EVER. my nerves are basically just one giant jumble of Oh Fuck and Oh My God! 

one v good thing: my friends who got married this weekend are going to germany for their honeymoon and while talking about their plans we discovered, through no intentional planning of our own, that we are LITERALLY on the same flight today (bc i’m transiting through germany). which means i’ve got some friends to hang out with at the airport! 

#kat liveblogs her life #kat travels #literally i was talking to the bride last week when we were getting our nails done #and was like 'oh yeah so when are you going on your honeymoon?' bc i know A LOT of people who wait for a better time to travel post-wedding #and she was like 'monday' #which i thought was great! bc i said 'oh! COOL! i'm gonna be at the airport on monday too! maybe we can hang out! what time?' #and then we just kept comparing details being like '....no way. NO WAY.' #but she didn't know the airline so we couldn't be 110% sure! #but then when i arrived at the wedding weekend literally the first person i saw was the groom and he was like #'KATY TOLD ME WE'RE FLYING TOGETHER AND THAT'S AMAZING' #and we both pulled up our tickets to compare and it's TRUE WE ARE #we're like. less than 10 rows apart from each other #katy and jim LOVE telling people about how i've always been there for some of the big MOMENTS in their relationship #(i even got mentioned in the wedding ceremony!! bc during a long drunk wine weekend jim referred to himself as katy's boyfriend) #(which they had Not Yet decided so i called him out like 'WAIT. BOYFRIEND?? 👀👀👀' and that's how they became Official™) #so he kept introducing me to people over the weekend like 'you know that friend i told you about who's always at our big moments? HER!' #and then told everyone who would listen about how we'd be on the same flight lol #i do expect some potential awkward conversation about me hooking up with his brother though 😬

[because-its-eurovision]

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#no need to read or react just needed to rant about my brain a bit #the next two weeks are supposed to be super exciting with BC giving us a new look and song and music video #it's umk week and my favorite for once has historically great odds of winning and a good chance to do well at eurovision as well #I'm going to see umk live with my dear sister and stay at a hotel so it's like a mini-getout and then I'm going to stockholm and oslo gigs #this is supposed to be best times of the year so far but my brain decided we can't have any of that :) #last year at this same time I got hit hard with depression and the anxiety I've always had got even worse #it got to the point that nothing made me happy or feel anything at all and I just cried all day for weeks #everything about UMK night was blurry and sad because I wasn't talking to my bestie who I've watched eurovision with for 10 years #I just started crying during the Dark Side/ Bad Idea opening and the results felt like nothing #I'll always assiociate Bad Idea with my depression because it was playing on the radio in the nurse's office when I got my meds #anyway I can feel that same darkness crawling back to my brain right now and I'm very scared #my brain decides I don't deserve to be happy and screams about how unloveable and ridiculous and embarrassing and ugly I am #it isn't helping that Joel keeps reposting the most model-looking tiktokers because I always feel a hot gush of shame run through me #and everytime I see a pic of any of their blonde skinny young gfs I just wanna kms #now it's gotten to a point that the voice in my head yells at me that I don't deserve Bc or their music and I should cancel my gig trip #because they wouldn't wanna see a disgusting cow myself being so near the stage not to mention ask for a pic or autograph #and I should just hide in my apartment forever #and everyone who has ever been nice to me is either doing that out of pity or making fun of me behind my back #I can't take this anymore #delete later

[yunogf]

lizzzz, your playboy jaehyun edit!! so good, so amazing 💓💗💞 also that jaehyun limitless era pic, he was insane for that 🤧

liaaaa my love <333333 thank u sm omg 🥰💓 this truly means a lot!! no joke im p sure i made it abt 2 yrs ago when i was still figuring out ps &it's been in my drafts ever since bc i wasnt sure how i felt abt it chxjxjz 😭😭 &girl i knooooo hes never topped that pic like what was 19 yr old jaehyun on 😳

#top 10 jaehyun pics of all time #love u girlie!!! u make my day every time i see u on here 🤧💓 #thank u for always being so wonderful abt my works :(<3 #hope u had a great day!! #replies #lia🌸 #also im making more playboy covers rn chxkcjx shhhhh 🫣🤭🤫

[dbphantom]

Man you know I'm fucking stressed when I start having sleep paralysis episodes again lmao

#Cruddy rambles #This time I saw a big ol demon kitty lounging on the chair in my room and heard someone banging on my bedroom door and turning the knob #The worst part of these is when I try to talk and I physically cannot even get a sound out #I always wondered. What it sounded like to other people #Because to me in the half asleep state I am screaming with a closed mouth and all that's coming out is like. Those whisper yells. #But I imagine it's making next to no noise at all. Which sucks bc like. I'd at least LIKE help if it were possible #Not that I want to just start screaming randomly in the middle of the night. But being able to call 4 help would be nice. #Sigh... #Anyway. Yeah. That was a great experience 10/10 do not recommend #It's funny how I had 1 (one) sleep paralysis experience at college. And now that I'm home I'm having them on the reg again #Funny how that works. I'm sure it's unrelated. #They're not even that scary bc Im half asleep for them. they're just panic inducing bc they're loud and I can't move and I hate it #SO loud. It's always lots of banging. One time I heard my Grammy laughing from that same chair while something huge and with many limbs #Banged all across my closet doors from every direction. Fuckin rude #I've also only ever had 1 physical hallucination and it was the college one #A demon walked into my dorm room while my friends slept in the common room (initially I thought it was one of them coming in to wake me up) #And walked over to the side of the bed and stood there and stared at me until it started shaking the bed violently and laughing #And I just kinda rolled over and fell back asleep despite the shaking and laughing bc like. What u gonna do #I have to emphasize that you're barely conscious during these which is why ur brain hallucinates in the first place #So literally ur only action is to force yourself to wake up but deal with the horrors (like I did tonight) or just. Fall back asleep #Which is my usual option but I couldn't fall back asleep bc I'm hungry #I'm gonna go tho. I'm tired af and I wanna try to sleep some more b4 I have to get up today #I just came here to calm down bc talking calms me down and well. I can post here without bothering anyone with dumb messages. #So I'm go back to sleep now #Goog nite