#and resented the whole situation

[ertrunkenerwassergeist]

A bit of crack for Child of Mors: A List of Things Found In Mors' Desks (Ongoing Project)

*cackles*

There's lists going around among Regis and co and some historians on what the weirdest things found in those desks are. Here's some of the highlights:

a Cosmogony with so many annotations basically nothing is readable anymore

a shard of the Crystal (Regis will craft that one into a Carbuncle figurine for Noctis)

drafts for an indoor fishing place because Regis likes fishing

drawings Regis did as a toddler

picture of Mors's Shield Machaerad, cheeks puffed up like a chipmunk from eating so many Ulwaat berries at once

biography notes for one Augura Lucis Caelum (She was an older sister to a King and restored lost art. She got banished by her nephew for not conforming to his cultural reformations.)

carefully written and annotated profiles of possible wives for Regis (the last profile added was of Aulea, on which Mors simply wrote 'he will marry her')

a letter in an unknown language

a humongous picture book about Solheimr reliefs, also annotated by Mors

3 rocks

a lock of red hair so dark it nearly looks black

a love letter to Fabricas Lucis Caelum, the female King of Lucis who restructured the whole city and upon whose plans the modern city was build

a hate letter to Fabricas Lucis Caelum, the female King of Lucis who restructured the whole city and upon whose plans the modern city was build

stickfigure sketches ridiculing prominent nobles

a sheet of paper simply reading 'WHAT THE FUCK????' written by Mors and in pink glitter pen

tax forms with dicks drawn all over them

sticky notes full of insults directed at Bahamut

a letter to Bahamut apologising for those insults

#ask #raven-6-10 #ffxv #child of mors au #mors lucis caelum #and his many desks #secret desks au #or something #I headcanon mors as a sexrepulsed asexual #who was forced to have a kid #and resented the whole situation #but he came to love regis in his own way #which doesn't make it okay #but regis still has a break down when he finds this #regis hoards everything found in those desks like a dragon #the historians aren't happy about that #geist answers

[demaparbat-hp]

the audacity you literally have to make a GENOCIDE SURVIVOR (whose entire culture was decimated by the fire nation) proudly work for the imperial fire nation army in some fuckass au? zutara shippers are never beating the colonial apologism allegations.

Woah, okay, I wasn't expecting this. I'm a firm believer that people should, first and foremost, treat each other on the basis of respect, so I'll do my best to explain this to you, clearly, and with the benefit of the doubt in mind, okay? I'm a nice person like that.

First of all, I'm working under the assumption that you haven't read these posts, and thus don't have all the information I've shared about the AU. I've been as clear about this subject as I can be, especially in my replies but, for the sake of fairness, I'll say it once again again:

I do not condone nor find it moraly correct to justify a victim of war joining the side of the ones responsible for her people's genocide.

I try to view this AU, and war in general, through a mature, realistic lense. Turning Katara into a victim with glorified Stockholm Syndrome isn't really my style. It's honestly insulting and deeply disturbing for me, as a creator, a woman of color born in a country that has a very, very long history of colonialism, and an empathetic human being, that anyone would believe me capable of thinking like that.

That being said, I know I really shouldn't, but would you like me to give you a step by step response?

(...) proudly work for the imperial fire nation army (...)

Okay, like I said before, I'm going to assume you saw only the artwork, didn't read either the tags or the two separate, in depth posts about the characterization and plot in this AU I made literally twenty four hours ago, and drew your own conclusions instead.

First of all: Katara doesn't proudly work for the Fire Nation army. That's her cover, as it is Zuko's. She joined Zuko and his crew, all traitors to the throne and good, honourable people, under the pretense of hunting the Avatar. Truly, they're destroying the Fire Nation military from within. And are, most definitely, not proud soldiers of the Fire Lord.

Katara hates the Fire Nation. But if joining a Fire Nation crew is what she needs to do to end the war, she will do it.

And, honestly, these are not excuses. But context is important, and it's not healthy to draw conclusions from the title instead of actually reading the book, if you know what I mean. It could get you in trouble some day.

And, please, I'm begging you—this has been talked about a lot, and I don't really like drama all that much, so I won't even rise to the accusations of condoning a non consented, colonialist and abuse apologist relationship.

That's just rude.

#dema answers #zutara #hunters au #I apologize if I ever insulted anyone with this AU that I've stitched together painfully and lovingly in long weeks of my time. #I probably came across as rude once or twice in this... #I try to be patient and understanding but sometimes you just have to swallow your moral superiority and go for the kill I guess #I hold no resentment towards Anon. I truly don't. #It's this whole situation that infuriates me #But it's okay #I've got experience dealing with stuff like this irl #So expect an artwork about this very same AU soon #I owe it to myself

[miss-mossball]

The princess who keeps her ladies waiting

#doodle heaven #my ocs #princess rose #priscilla #' x ' <( #priscilla is one of the many nobilities who lives in the castle #shes assigned to rose as her lady in waiting #Rose dresses and bathes and tends to herself as much as possible #she begrudgingly has to trust priscilla to keep all this under wraps because its not really proper of her to do so #and priscillaaa is really resentful of rose for being in that position #so she bullies her and its kind of a shit situation all around #she also in love with haze so I thought hmmm she would like it a whole lot if she could trigger out the haze introject Rose has #anyway the point of this all is just to showcase some complications rose has being a princess #getting dressed/undressed and bathing are huge triggers for her even with her future lovers #kingdom of herz

[mustangs-flames]

I am really nervous about this next Good Samaritan chapter because Mark's anger issues really develop and he gets mean. Like, it makes complete sense for his character, but I am terrified people are going to hate me for writing it

#hail true body au #htb mark #i think it's bc the tmc fandom mainly portrays a mark that's kind to a fault #and whilst htb mark does have that too #he is also angry and bitter and resentful of people being kind to him #and just at the whole situation he's in in general

[hetagrammy]

My trip to Ireland got me thinking more about the relationship between Seán and Molly, or at least the differences between them as characters. Like I think they love each other deeply, they've been together since birth. The problem is that for as alike as they can look and act on the surface, twins are still going to have separate personalities. They're both survivors, but they have very different approaches to that survival.

Seán is the negotiator. He's able to talk without giving too much of himself away, the funny friend who you suddenly realize you know nothing about. He's willing to acquiesce to certain ceremonies in order to maintain some semblance of self-governance. He believes he is able to protect core aspects of his identity by playing along, and at the end of the day that's what's important.

Meanwhile, Molly is the defiant one. In comparison to Seán, she wears her heart on her sleeve. She is incapable of bluffing. She lacks the subtlety Seán has. She refuses to give anything up because she already views it as an erosion of her identity. It is all or it is nothing. She won't convert, she refuses to acquiesce, she won't stop rebelling. What's important is that she stays whole.

They're both driven, but their methods of pursuing that drive inherently harms the other. Molly rebels and the warfare ravages Seán. Seán allies with the Ascendancy and Molly is punished for refusing to get with the program. They love and want what is best for the other, and neither of them particularly enjoyed being part of the empire. They both love to drink and dance and be merry. However, for most of their history, they just haven't been able to figure out how to survive together. And that's where the breach between them lies.

#hetalia #my thoughts #hws northern ireland #hws ireland #nyo!ireland #british isles siblings #ireland twins #i just have so many feelings about them #the uk fam as a whole interests me so much (aside from me liking the history) #because they all have these kinds of hang ups #alwyn loves arthur and abides by a lot but does have his resentments #molly adores alasdair as her elder brother but there were times where he failed to protect her like he should have #arthur relies on sean and builds him up but much of that comes at sean having to give up things or at molly's expense #arthur feels he's doing molly a favor even as he's looking after his own interests while she (rightfully) chafes at the control #they are a family unit that is focused on preservation and the power of the unit #but at the same time frequently placed in situations (by each other or their governments) where they have to step on each other to do this

[yunogf]

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#been sitting in my car for 30 min after clocking out then just making up errands to have an excuse to do smth #so i dont have to go home &be alone until i have smth to do again (go to work the next morning) :((((( #hate how u can go a whole day w out seeing someone &think ok maybe i can get a good nights sleep but then they show up #10 min before u leave for the day &then ur night is ruined bc u have trouble falling asleep #then have stress dreams when u do finally fall asleep #😞😞 #ik its bc i havent confronted anything but i dont see myself ever doing it or rather initiating the confrontation bc idt it's my place #like what right do i have to disrupt what someone else has going to bring myself some ease #idk this probably doesnt make any sense i just need to vent bc i have cried in my car everyday after work for a month 😭 #im ok ive just landed myself in a particularly shitty situation but only for me #everyone else is fine 🫠 #&im a chronic overthinker so i have all these thoughts just swirling around &festering #im driving myself insane &then whenever im around.....the other ppl in this situation.....theres never a chance to let any of it out #im gonna explode at some point i know it &i dont want that to happen bc i dont want to be mean :(( but i also dont want to grow to resent #anyone bc this shit hasnt been properly dealt with :((((( #ugh . #changing of the weather isnt helping i feel like im 16 again in my dark bedroom driving myself insane 😭😭

[wonder-worker]

how do you think the Lancasters stood the best chance at winning the war?

Imo, if they'd won at Mortimer's Cross or Towton, the Yorkists would be finished.

A lot of the WotR depended on military victories, tbh. We tend to get distracted by fancy discussions like "Who had the best claim?"* or Propaganda Roulette 101, but the fact remains that it was ultimately military victories that sealed the deal and got rid of opposition**. Everything else was pretty wrapping on top of the already-won or to-be-won prize.

*The most useless debate of all **The exception was Richard III's usurpation but that was a fairly unconventional and entirely unexpected usurpation, and in any case it was a military defeat that ended his reign.

#ask #wars of the roses #Remember that the Yorkists were on the brink of total defeat by the end of 1460 #The Duke of York and his second son were killed; and his heir was only 18; the King would soon be reclaimed from their grasp #If they'd lost in 1461 their cause would most likely be over #A fairly analogous example would be the Battle of Bosworth - if Richard III had won Henry Tudor's cause would be finished #(and he'd probably be dead) #If the Lancastrians had seized London they'd have a huge advantage but might also encounter some difficulties #including a potential siege and hostility from the aldermen and public. But a military victory would seal the deal #Also I think I've mentioned in some tags before but imo it's clear that the Lancastrians stood a monumentally better chance at #consolidating their power/support/reputation if they won in 1461 rather than 1471 #A 1471 military victory would result in victory but would also bring with it a whole host of other problems in terms of consolidation #(Among others: the inevitable head-on national clash between Yorkist and Lancastrian lords in terms of forfeited and restored estates #which had been postponed by Warwick but would undoubtedly take center stage once the royal family was properly established #and would almost definitely result in the eruption of widespread rivalries and resentment from the affected parties; #foreign and domestic policy with regards to the promised war with Burgundy which was very unpopular with the English patriciate; etc) #(That's not even getting into whether Warwick would survive or not and the equally complicated possibilities in either scenario #or George of Clarence: whether their victory would be before or after he switched sides and what that would mean for him) #There's also the obvious fact that Henry VI would still ultimately be King - and that can take VERY different routes depending #on the wider situation #In a completely alternate scenario if they had established themselves when Edward IV was still in exile he would be out of reach #which would over-complicate matters even further #(I'd be personally curious to know if they took any action against royal claims through the female line considering this was a HUGE #aspect of their gendered propaganda in the 1460s to try and delegitimize the Yorkist claim...Henry IV gave them an obvious precedent) #a 1471 victor would also be devastating on a personal level for everyone involved considering Henry's imprisonment and #Margaret and Edward's almost decade-long exile before it #It would be significantly more devastating for Edward IV's widow and four frighteningly young children - especially considering #that unlike Margaret or Anne Neville they lacked the active/direct connection of powerful foreign or national relatives #All in all - It's difficult to say but it's clear that a path forward in 1471 would be tremendously hard #A victory in 1461 would not only forever end the Yorkist challenge but would also ensure a far smoother aftermath for the Lancasters

[lcerys]

luke doesn't do hatred ( not out of some conscious decision out of the goodness of his heart. he just doesn't, and it takes too much effort to hold unto it when he feels it. there are some people he hates, but it takes a lot so it's a short list. the list of people he wants dead is longer than the ones he hates, frankly ), but he definitively holds a grudge against the baratheons.

#headcanons › even if i'm the seed. even if i'm the sacrifice. #not really any other family as a whole tbh. like he's never going to like them and if it were up to him #they wouldn't see court but he knows the situation is fragile so he'd bite his tongue but he doesn't really #resent them either

[ziracona]

Obsessed with the way Two-Face talks about Harvey in the Arkham games like do I like all the choices? Not at all. Is the “Harvey might feel bad about this Batman, but we'll bring him around,” line alone rotating in my head since I saw it and one of the pillars of how I see and write Two-Face? Ye baby.

#Harvey Dent #two-face #it’s got so many things going on in one line but the biggest is the presentation of Big Bad Harv as fundamentally still a protector who #sincerely believes both that he’s doing what he should be /&/ that Harvey will eventually realize this and come around like he did when they #were kids. he’s literally the Paula and Rebecca ‘I SPECIFICALLY told you not to do it! WHY would you do this!?!?!’ ‘—Because—*stuttering* #because you always do! you always say ‘no Paula! don’t Paula. I don’t want this Paula’ and then I did it anyway & you were HAPPY about it!’ #literally that’s him. and it’s SO sad. because Harvey is /never/ going to be anything but more and more resentful and broken from/by Two- #Face’s actions but if they could and would just! communicate well! they’re both reasonable /enough/ they could heal. it didn’t have to be #this way. but they’re trapped in this awful endless cycle unlikely to alter unless acted upon by an insanely big outside element. #I really do this he truly thinks eventually Harvey will come around in this. like before right? because he always did it before and Harvey #always said ‘no don’t—you’ll make it worse!’ ‘dont! that’s bad!’ ‘stop!’ but then he was happy about it in the end #and by the time he slowly begins to realize internally it’s not going to happen they’re too far apart for things to fix without one of them #making a significant change and so opposed neither would unless an extreme and specific situation presented itself and I’m SO fucking #distressed about the whole damn thing. Boys… #Batman #god some of his lines with Strange are so fucked up too. it’s like…they’re actually together in a foxhole there. :’-) and trying. And the #way he clearly feels like Batman intentionally ruined Harvey’s life and he wants to hit back for that and avenge him and Harvey is listening #to both and torn and confused on it. the level of BBH/Two-Face being involved with and trying to convince Harvey of things I…

[squidaped-oyt]

If you try to resist Duncan recruiting you into the Wardens as a Circle mage, Irving has some interesting dialogue about how the Circle isn’t the place for you and that you have a rare talent that shouldn’t be squandered.

Gwyn absolutely doesn’t fight his recruitment because he has some self preservation instinct, but that’s a big part of the reason Irving was trying so hard to get him out of the tower and into the Wardens. Watching a once-in-a-generation magical prodigy start vibrating with anxiety and despair because he’ll never actually be able to test himself or do anything meaningful with all that talent, except maybe entertain some bored nobles as a court enchanter, is also a disaster waiting to happen and Irving knows it; better to seize the opportunity to get him out as soon as it presents himself.

#dao #surana #first enchanter irving #blorboposting #they have an uhhh ... Complicated relationship #having a mentor and father figure who had to sign off on everything bad that happened to his fellow apprentices #even if he wasn't particularly close to those apprentices #created some deeply buried resentment #even though working so closely with irving meant he was aware of just how little meaningful power irving actually had #there's genuine affection there on both sides but the whole tower situation and the power dynamics at play make it difficult to express

[mmmthornton]

god, there is not enough stakhemy content out there... >:(

#pathologic #absolutely bullshit that I feel so much about them and have so little talent to do anything with it lmao #the only thing i can contribute is insane thoughts from my south park AU but listen......stakh is a Super Repressed Gay M'n #and he never Actually Dealt With Artemy effectively breaking his heart before he even knew what those feelings were when they were young #he's so upset about all of it and he resents everything that happened between them so much but at his shittiest and most-pissed off....... #he really rEAlly is like the one person who understands how daunting and enormous Artemy's quest is #and so he works SO hard to try to keep Artemy from having to take that on #Running Up That Hill is THEIR SONG #if he only could he WOULD make a deal with god to switch their places! #*I was a TRUE heir to him Burakh why don't you go away far away ways away where its safe and nothing here including myself can hurt you* #that's his WHOLE deal! #changeling route spoilers but #thats why he's a Humble! #*I can give up my life and avoid having to live with the miserable situation i'm in AND keep Artemy from a devastating choice? #fuck yes I'll do literally everything to make that happen*

[isfjmel-phleg]

After a refreshingly long stretch of not having to look at that obnoxious political picture in my coworker's mailbox every time I move around this office, he cleaned out the box and now that picture is prominently visible again.

It is wrong to remove something from someone else's box and run it through the shredder. I should not do it. I will not do it. But I am fighting the urge so hard.

I already feel like I'm in enough trouble with him after having the audacity last week to ask him to turn down his incredibly loud volume. I was polite, but the response was initially to not understand and then to try to argue with me ("What are you listening to?" I explained I had headphones but could still hear his video through them) before reluctantly turning it down. He's older and I know he probably has trouble hearing and I don't want to be insensitive, but at the same time loud (political) videos are disruptive in a shared office.

Not sure yet how (or if) to speak to my boss about this (she's very results-and-quick-problem-solving-focused and might think this is trivial), but at some point I might need to. If only to ask what's the best way for me to cope with the nonsense without building to an explosion of repressed frustration.

#random personal stuff #rant about workplace nonsense feel free to ignore #I don't like conflict because it makes everything worse #if I try to stand up for myself or address a problem with someone #no matter how polite and diplomatic I am #it invariably turns into the other person attacking me #and they've never done anything wrong in their life and I am a horrible person for being mean to them #so apparently I am supposed to just put up with everything and stew in silent resentment #instead of being allowed the chance to discuss problems and work with others toward a mutually beneficial solution #this has been going on my entire life and it's my expectation in every situation of conflict #to the point that I literally feel sick and panicky whenever conflict comes up #so this whole thing isn't as simple as saying 'please don't' and getting an understanding response #I am not asking anyone to solve this and I'm not looking for pity just needed to get this off my chest

[nikialexx]

I loved your addition to my sad Moonchaser snippet! And now I can't stop thinking about this being a canon compliant ficlet, and James and Remus don't speak after this and then James and Lily die. Remus doesn't see Harry until POA, and as much as he loves Harry, it also breaks his heart every time he sees the boy and knows that he only exists because James walked away from Remus and their marriage. 😭

Thank you!! I'm really glad you liked it. I know you warned us that what you'd written was unfinished but I was loving it so much that when I got to end I just needed the rest of it 😂

And oh my god, yes to this being canon compliant. And it could be even worse if Harry had been told that James and Lily genuinely loved each other (because that's what everyone outside of their dead circle of friends knows), and Remus has to continuously battle with himself on whether or not he should let Harry keep thinking this, or if he should tell him the truth. Even though the truth is that not even his parents really wanted him, and that he was only ever born as a means to an end.

#i don't think james and lily would have *hated* harry but i think they definitely had some resentment towards the whole situation #they would never forgive themselves for feeling that way but i don't think they'd ever fully bond with Harry because of it #and how does Remus even begin explaining the complexities of that situation to a thirteen year old? #PoA era comes around and Remus can see *so much* of James in Harry and he's absolutely heartbroken because Harry deserved so much better #asks

[colormatsu]

#urrr the movie got me so fucked up #its the way social pressure from their peers damaged the brothers sense of identity cuz they were always perceived as a single entity #so they started distancing themselves from one another in an attempt to be seen as individuals #which consequently led to them resenting each other #it was only after graduation when they didnt have this social pressure anymore they were able to pick up the pieces #and slowly start reconnecting with each other #but the whole situation still left hounds in their relationship even after years into adulthood #god in that same episode oso talks about how theres so much he doesn't know about his siblings #also the way its implied kara and ichi were close in hs but now they are Like That #screaming and crying

[snekdood]

Im so tired of acting the way i think some ppl on here think i should act. Im tired of assuming theyre seeing me through the lens my ex provides for them. Im tired of feeling like nothing i say or do matters anyways because people have made up their mind about me and refuse to try to see me in another light. I know who I am and I know what im like and im tired of trying to almost essentially help people see me change my behavior for the better from something i never even was? Because i guess i feel like if i act like most people dont know about the issues between me and my ex that means other people will think im just *pretending nothing is wrong or happening*. It feels like i cant win either way. I cant play pretend as this horrible person whos trying to reform and have people allow me the chance to actually change and recognize that change and i cant also be myself and just know myself without people thinking im just ignoring this thing that isnt even a thing i need to work on or ever even fucking did. Im so tired of feeling convinced that other people are convinced im horrible and having to work from there and having to try to navigate that situation and get someone to see my side of things because ive just come to the conclusion that some people just will refuse to and idk. Theres nothing i can do in this situation. I just know i didnt deserve any of it.

#im like one of the most careful fucking people in the world istg #even before all of this but now especially after this bc im operating under the assumption that ppl see me as if im not #i almost feel brainwashed by what i think others perception of me is like online. #and then i try to go through the steps i think someone who did fo those things would do. or as if i did do those things and what id do #in that situation afterward. but i didnt do those things. and i dont need to live and operate as if i did to prove to other ppl i have the #emotional and mental maturity that i do #i dont need to sit here and let people gaslight me into their perception of me or at least what i think it is #i am such a good stinky lil guy. its people like my ex and the people around them online that brought out all this bitterness in me. #i resent those people so much. and i cant help but feel like theyre all stalking me still all the time. they want me to live like that too #like im in a panopticon. but this is what im saying- if i move on like i know myself and operate as myself the way ik myself #THOSE PEOPLE will come around and then act like im ignoring the situation with my ex and 'trying to escape responsibility' #i dont know why i feel so obedient to their perception. i mean i guess i know why like probably bc of my brother pushing me into a box #and me feeling like i have to stay in there or be abused. i feel the same way with my ex- if i dont act like ive been in the box they put #me in this whole time then they are going to get mad at me and try to come after me more i feel like. #i feel like thats when theyre really going to try to sic their followers or friends after me. #idk but im going to stop. i dont care how you see me. its not real. its not true. it never was. i was abused by this person and thats the #final truth about it. im not saying i couldnt have been reactively abusive sometimes with them but all the things they say i did #that they did to me but say i did but x10 worse? no. fuck off. thats not fucking me. you DONT KNOW ME. YOU HAVENT BEEN AROUND ME #ALL MY LIFE GROWING UP. IF YOU KNEW ME YOU WOULD KNOW ID NEVER DO THAT SHIT. YOU WOULD FUCKING KNOW THAT. #which is why i know you dont know me. none of you do. im tired of operating the way i think you want me to. #im tired of trying to empathize with people i dont want to LIKE my ex or my brother or my sister or my dad #im tired of trying to see things the way they do. how my ex is probably just this dumb scared kid inside who does dumb shit and doesnt #think about the consequences and doesnt care about the consequences of their actions because their only priority is #self preservation. like i dont care. i understand but i dont care. they still hurt me. they still did what they did to me. #they still know they did something wrong otherwise they wouldnt have started this whole smear campaign. #im tired of trying to sympathize with them. give them a million chances to change. do what i can to encourage them to actually have empathy #even towards the people they hurt and like to smear. #because they dont do the same for me. i know. i know theyre still shit talking me. i know they cant stop because if they did theyd have to #have more empathy about me on a whole lot of things they dont want to think about bc they dont want to feel about how they treated me #and continue to treat me by keeping up this narrative abt me online. they dont give a fuck so why am i extending so much to them.

[normalbrothers]

somewhat o/t but one of the funniest things arthur does in the show, after tentatively inquiring tommy about his mental state (in s5) and tommy sort of confessing that It isn't Great, is him immediately resorting to calling him 'sir' to, you know, enforce their respective roles that don't really allow for tommy - as the sergeant, the boss, the guy with authority - to open up to arthur, because you don't do that with your underling

#tommy doesn't demand his servility really; quite the opposite (though admittedly it's convenient sometimes) #but it's where arthur flees to because tommy telling him what to do gives him emotional certainty and you know less control means less #accountability #as well #arthur resents himself for being like this ig but initially the benefits outweigh that #up until it becomes obvious that tommy is less than functional and makes it known that he wants his Big Brother back; that he *needs* #arthur in turn #it's super twisted but not in the way people think #the whole point is that a lot of their relationship is on arthur's terms #and i'm not even talking about all the situations where arthur does what he wants anyway ssksk