#and the most important ship of my life

[lnkedmyheart]

This one is in response to @fizzytastic asking

"I would LOVE to know what you mean regarding the light novels."

Dazai in the light novels has been down BAD since the day he met Chuuya.

I know the whole "must be because I love you" can be viewed as a joke but my man actually "whispered with a look of regret" at being shot down.

He also proceeded to cheat during the game by tampering with the machine to ensure Chuuya would lose the bet and become his dog. He was also stated as being in awe of Chuuya's fighting ability, repeatedly refering to him as "incredible". Dazai also flat out admits to wanting to try out living because "Chuuya convinced" him.

He is even described as having forgotten how to breathe watching Chuuya fight.

Moving on to the events of Stormbringer, Dazai spends too long exposing his obsession with Chuuya, telling the big bad that he spends all his "days and nights thinking about ways to annoy Chuuya".

He further proceeds to insist that Chuuya is human because of how strongly he hates Chuuya and due to a specific word it can be viewed as him saying Chuuya would hate him less if he wasnt human as was stated in the stage play of the same.

Furthermore at the end of Stormbringer he offers to come up with a new plan to give Chuuya an out if he needs one when he has to use corruption as a last resort. And he fully intends on coming up with a new plan within 2 minutes.

In general Dazai does a lot of staring at Chuuya throughout the light novels. On a lighter note Dazai jokes about wanting Chuuya as his personal maid at one point and demands that Chuuya let Dazai look inside his head and know everything there is to know about him.

But then we move onto the dragon head conflict as mentioned in Dead Apple where after making light of an executive's death and getting punched in the face by Chuuya, Dazai is so shaken up by Chuuya implying he's inhuman, he actually pulls strings to try and bring the conflict to an end. He also stops corruption by touching his cheek and pulls Chuuya's head into his lap while he is unconscious after his fight with Shibusawa. The following is from the manga.

Now everyone knows about the whole Snow White and Prince reference but in the light novel its clarified that Chuuya's ability was not affected by the fog and Dazai knew this but he still forces his head down. Even more telling is that Dazai cradles Chuuya's face for no real reason because Corruption had already been nullified when Chuuya made skin to skin contact when punching him in the face.

And of course that was how their expressions are drawn in the manga panel

Then we move to the present day and you have Dazai saying this to Sigma about Chuuya

But then his comment about Gide has him claim the exact same behaviour is romantic in his messed up troll brain

Basically Dazai has a history of staring at Chuuya in awe since 15, "jokingly" confessed at 15 and then got somewhat upset about the rejection, cheated to be able to keep Chuuya as his, repeatedly makes remarks that imply he is vaguely obsessed with him at 16, tends to let Chuuya rest his head in his lap post corruption, has nullified him twice that we have seen by touching his cheek (as per the movie and once as per the ln). Is actively affected by how Chuuya views him (which was shocking to me).

Aside from that he has also talked about Chuuya to the ADA off screen because Yosano knew about Chuuya and his ability (though this could just be a random update about the membera of the mafia to watch out for during meetings) and I heard he talked about Chuuya to Oda in The Day I Picked Up Dazai ln.

This is not counting any of the seriously insane amount of wan content because I dont view it as canon or atleast entirely canon but there Dazai admits to keeping 27 journals detailing things about Chuuya and its an exaggeration of the canon fact that Dazai prides himself in being a Chuuya Nakahara Encyclopedia. It also plays with how close they both actually are with several character refering to them as besties, Chuuya being forced to admit he doesnt actually hate Dazai.

(Oh and this is not even considering just how much Dazai touches Chuuya, like in the manga there is a part where Dazai keeps tugging at Chuuya's hair and refusing to let go while complaining about how much he doesnt want to touch him. Just let go dude...)

So yea, I would not be surprised if Dazai has his vows prepared by the time the last pre defection ln drops. Ofcourse this is mostly a lighthearted joke about Dazai being down bad but in all seriousness, Dazai genuinely cared about and still cares about Chuuya and its made extremely obvious throughout the novels. Its actually worth noting that it was actually Chuuya who seemed to be more vitriolic towards him until the end of Stormbringer where Dazai actually gives Chuuya a choice and shows open concern for Chuuya's needs. Hell Dazai was also the one insisting on Chuuya's autonomy, while he keeps insisting Chuuya is his dog, he hates the idea of people using him like a tool, its why he always gives Chuuya a choice. Chuuya always actively chooses to go rescue Dazai in Dazai's plans of getting kidnapped. Chuuya can always go, "nah, I dont wanna use corruption" but he doesnt because he knows since the events of stormbringer that Dazai will always give him a choice even if corruption seems like a last resort.

Chuuya has good reason for trusting Dazai. Its cause Dazai has in fact proven to him that he can trust him. Its why he went in to fight a dragon despite being told Dazai was possibly already dead.

(And yea I know the current arc would have people go "lol he tried to drown Chuuya, he clearly doesnt care" and you know what? That's so dumb. Dazai tried to drown Chuuya, yes. But we dont actually know what is happening with this arc rn and what he is doing or if Chuuya is in any way involved in whatever he is doing. Dazai said all those things and there was no need for him to say that but the fact that he even remembered several moments they shared, yea no, he was clearly affected by it. Maybe I am wrong and Asagiri decided to yeet out all of Dazai's characterization we saw with his behaviour towards Chuuya in 2 entire novels of his past but IDK I think I'm gonna wait till this arc ends and everything unfolds before making a conclusion about how Dazai is such an asshole he tried to drown his partner.)

Seriously, vows are like the least they could do at this point.

#soukoku #ah my ramblings #i just really really love the light novels #i am mostly joking about the romance of it all #mostly #but Dazai cares about Chuuya and idk I think this is such an important aspect of Dazai's character #like even if you dont lile the ship its really not fair to ignore how much Dazai genuinely cared for Chuuya #not because it supports the ship but because it shows that Dazai despite his claims of being a monster was ridiculously human #he saw this boy he was fasicnated by and he said- I need to keep him as my friend #and proceeded to do it in the most unsocialized troll brained clown way #i love this boy so much #someone hug him please #dont get me wrong I dont think dazai and chuuya's relationship was super healthy but it wasnt as toxic as people make it seem either #yes Dazai desperately needed Oda and Ango but Chuuya was also and is still an important part of his life #long post #i am not going back to chexk for writing errors. I'm sleepy.

[pocketgalaxies]

"i want to talk to you, beau"

"oh, yeah"

"i have a really important thing i need to ask of you"

"do we need to step away? are we good?"

"yeah, let's step away. (gravely) when you're in the library, i need you to do something for me."

"okay?"

"i need you to draw a couple dicks in the books, okay?"

"ohhh-kay. okay."

"just make sure it happens because i won't be there to do it for myself and it's really important."

"mhm."

"..."

"is this part of traveler con?"

"sure yeah let's say that, sure, it's definitely for that"

"huh."

"also if you want to draw some people naked in there"

"sure. i'll look for the ass trumpeters that are sometimes in the margins and then it'll just blend right in"

"yeah yeah yeah! oh my gosh that would be so wonderful!"

"yeah. it'll be great. okay"

#something about this conversation makes me want to treasure it for the rest of my life. DKFJSKDFS #the way beau just is like 'oh yeah. ok. ook. ok. mhm. huh. sure. ok' #smth about how she actually knows the traveler exists now and is like 'i don't get it but if it's important to you then sure i guess. ok' #she's simultaneously the most judgmental and the most non-judgmental person in the world I LOVE HER #25m c2e58 #text #critical role #cr2 #cr lb #jester lavorre #beauregard lionett #ship: beaujester

[lunavos]

Reading Temeraire is just seeing the most romantic dialogue you've ever laid your eyes on only to have to grapple with the fact that it's said between a man and his dragon

#“no my dear. i would rather have you than any ship in the navy” #“if i belong to anyone it is you. and you to me” #“i only felt i would rather be with you than sleep alone” #“although if you very much wished to i suppose i would not mind” said with the BIGGEST side eye and insincerity #about Laurence getting married #incredible dynamic sometimes the most important being in your life is your platonic codependent 12 ton dragon #anyway of course i latch onto codependent life partner dynamics as badly and intensly as i do #if this is what i read when i was 10/11 #anyway i finally got the complete english series lets go #temeraire #william laurence

[j0-0l]

literally all i got when it comes to my cyberpunk art... like these arent even all my V's just 2 of the 4 of them. i love them so much though... GRRRR their names are Victorio and Van and like UGHHH i am not normal about them and i need to draw them more

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 fanart #fem v #masc v #cyberpunk oc #btw i full on ship victorio with mr hands its not even funny i am so down bad for that old man i think he can make victorio worse #also van's hooked nose is everything to me like thats the most important thing in my life atm

[warrenwaskilledbyadeer]

Can we talk about how the heart and soul of the original Ace Attorney trilogy centers around how Phoenix loves his sister Maya so much he will do literally anything for her but all the fandom wants to talk about is Wrightworth

(HAD TO EDIT THE POST BECAUSE PLEASE DO NOT TAG SHIP)

#am i saying wrightworth is a bad ship and people shouldn't ship it? no not at all #i'm saying that it is NOT THE POINT #IT IS NOT WHAT IS IMPORTANT IT IS NOT THE MAIN THING #in the games it does and in the fandom it should take a backseat to who phoenix himself says is the most important person to him #his little sister that he would die for #and people KNOW THIS #why else would matt engarde have maya kidnapped #why would godot have said that if he'd really wanted maya to stay safe then all he had to do was tell phoenix she was in danger #in the dumb little amnesia turnabout he cries when he remembers her I LOVE THEM #i just i'm new to this fandom yes but i never see ANYBODY TALK ABOUT IT #it is everything #turnabout sisters turnabout goodbyes reunion and turnabout farewell my turnabout and bridge to the turnabout #each and everyone are about phoenix and maya #yes even turnabout goodbyes sorry wrightworth #i mean obviously it's about edgeworth but it's also about maya #they split that one actually #phoenix did not risk life and limb for maya countless times for this treatment of their relationship lol #ace attorney #phoenix wright #maya fey #miles edgeworth #ace attorney trilogy #phoenix and maya

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[softestepilogue]

the constant disregard and erasure of the impact hen and chim had on bobby to help him during season 1 is really wild and exhausting

#chimney han #henrietta wilson #hen wilson #bobby nash #911 fox #911 on fox #i will never ever in my life call chim howard #even tho i do love the nickname howie #howie is such a cute nickname #but my mans name is chimney #okay but seriously i cannot stand buck stan’s #buck is a victim always #no one treats him right #he’s woobified always #he’s the most important person on the whole crew and without him their lives would be dog shit #and jeez louise buck stans who ship buddie don’t even like eddie #like if you read their fics or their posts eddie is just kinda there #they lowkey just don’t like him and they think he’s an awful father #hence why there are a number of fics where moments eddie has had with his own child is given to buck #it’s so weird #and it makes me not like buck even tho he’s such a great character and he’s adorable #but damn his stans are exhausting and obnoxious and annoying #anyway hen and chim played a part in bobby becoming better but of course only bucks involvment is mentioned and credited as the most import #and idk why i’m surprised you know #bucks a white male character and they always will get the most attention even if the show has more poc #op

[usareiis]

Lost my original post of this from the other day but I genuinely don't understand how Black Butler discourse ever shifted into the does Sebastian ~really~ like Ciel or is Ciel just dinner line of conversation that is pervasive as it is because Sebastian is the one that has absorbed his whole existence into Ciel's. Sebastian's face is what Ciel wants Sebastian's whole purpose is doing things for Ciel Sebastian's every hell of a butler yes my lord speech is about how he's Ciel's and Ciel is the one going around saying shit like whatever Sebastian is just my pawn 💅

#like sjdjdkdd?????? #it's not that i don't think ciel loves sebastian per se bc. well. i don't think he'd ever process it in terms like that no matter what... #...kind of relationship they have bc the most important thing to him is getting him to do tasks like a dog and proving he will over and over #which is why sebastian does it all so overkill #but the most acknowledgement you ever get that ciel likes sebastian is stuff like idk the fucking book of atlantic you did good today #or if we're feeling really crazy the you were the only demon there line #like the dynamic has gotten way skewed in fandom away from the actual text #and i know why but it's still annoying bc i am not even saying this in a shippy way bc i don't give a fuck about ships #but they're so crazy entwined and in completely incomparable inhuman situations that it literally has no merit on this story to sit and... #...definitely piece together how this relationship works with real life normie standards like it literally is going to fit into no box of... #...what we think of as friends or siblings or parents or partners bc no victorian guy on the face of the earth has a real pet demon. #it's so boring you're missing the bigger picture that they're everything to each other and completely stuck together forever #does x mean y mean z? (least problematic answer only) they're stuck together! forever! #and no one has demons in real life it's all comparable to real life nothing #other than the asthma that's real #anyway. it's like fandom has made up a version of this story in their heads that is so devoid of anything that makes the story the story #twitter is like another planet for this i am mostly talking about twitter where i have been looking for news about the anime and oh boy #i have said this before but sebastian doesn't have a grip on human relationships bc he's not one and ciel doesn't give a fuck #but like this post started with and strayed from. well. sebastian isn't even trying to act like he's indifferent. ciel actually is. #and we're all missing several funny bits from that just trying to fit everything into a box #we could have more interesting conversations if we got past the same three people have been having for 20 years #kuroshitsuji #my kuro posts

[rin-hanarin]

I don't even search for dirkjohn anymore, but end up seeing people hating on it anyway to a weirdly extreme degree, and it's been like that for over a year. My only conclusion is that HS fandom fucking sucks and is clinically unable to just let people enjoy anything without being obnoxious, I'm really tired of it and no amount of my nostalgia or positive feelings towards the original comic makes it worth it.

#i really hope one day people will stop acting like it's the most vile thing and it killed their crops and ate their newborn or whatever else #hs #it was like that with johndave in 2016 too #i couldn't care less about jake either and his rabid fans who are convinced that it's against him specifically don't make it better #seeing dirk as a separate from his ship with jake character is a herculean task too #just shut the fuck up #i would ignore it but dirkjohn is very very important to me #it helped me during two of the worst periods of my life #so I'm just upset by the vitriol

[laugtherhyena]

I need to draw Mikako and Teruya kissing on the mouth

#ran into Mikako/Yamato yesterday i must cleanse my soul #i hate when people look at how Mikako acted towards him pre-game and take it as ship hint (is that the term for that?) #like my guy #have you heard about Sdra2 chapter 0? have you seen the place this girl spent the first severeal years of her life in?? #FUCK no wonder why she became kinda clingy to her adoptive family #they were the first people in her life show her love kindness and how a real family is #Yamato and Hanzo are quite literally the most important people in her life #like goddamnit man #hyena ramblings #rant #sort off #terukako

[bookwyrminspiration]

ok its been so fun watching you scream abt the secret santa fic and im so excited to read it but like also from an omniscient pov & knowing who your person is and what they asked for as a gift is just. adding to the anticipation. oh my god

YOU AND ME WE KNOW! YOU N ME AGAINST THE WORLD!! I HOPE I DO YOU PROUD!! I gotta admit when you assigned me my giftee and prompt I was like. no way. holy fuck. you did that on purpose. well, obviously it was on purpose, but you know what I mean.

I also gotta admit I have no idea what I'm doing, but usually that means I'm on the right track. I wanna do good I wanna do so so good. there are so many goddamned pov changes. the document is 57 pages long. i got to use the word bastard three times. i wrote an arc I only realized could be interpreted metaphorically at the end and then went oh shit the mental illness metaphors. i have been holding back so much to not give away the characters but i wanna SCREAM

#quil's queries #song-tam #just like last year I am getting so NERVOUS I want them to like it I have reread the prompt like 3 dozen times like okay but what if I #completely misunderstood it and they'll hate it #which is like. no they're very nice they won't be mean about it #but I WANNA DO GOOD #I CRAVE PRAISE LIKE WATER #and I've never written this ship before so. that just adds another layer! #i'm trying so so hard guys can you see how hard i'm trying #i wanna do good I wanna do so so good #this is the most important thing I've ever done in my life

[tjerra14]

Shouting right back at you @loumauve ❤🦐

Time really flies, and it’s insane how quickly this year went by. To imagine that just 12 months ago, I spent the entirety of a Florence+The Machine concert wishing you were there, and imagining how it would be to hold your hand throughout it, only to go back to my sister’s flat and lie in the dark and hope for another message from you (you’d gone to bed by then already) and slowly realising that maybe, just maybe, I’d cared for you a lot more than I had thought. That I spent two weeks after that going over every message, every interaction we’ve ever had, wondering, was I imagining things? Was I hoping for something that wasn’t there? How I lay on my bed exactly a year ago, picking up and throwing my phone down again as Tumblr, in all its glorious functionality, ate your confession, heart pounding in my chest because I was hoping, hoping so much that the message that you were trying to send was what I was wishing it to be.

And then it was.

And here we are.

Needless to say, I’m still so SO glad you fought and prevailed over Tumblr that day (for I am a coward, and would never have dared). Every day with you is a true joy, and I’m so honoured and grateful to have you in my life. There are a million things I adore about you, a million little ways in which you brighten my days and have made my life that much more vibrant and colourful, and just--thank you. Thank you for listening. For your support. For all the bad puns and superb headcanons and shippy thoughts and all of your encouragement, even if it’s just me rambling about birds again. For all your joy at the 4675th same-looking pigeon pic. Your patience. All of your ideas and kindness, and all the beauties you have shown me so far and continue to do so (I’m still in awe about your hibiscus). And even when life just sucks, knowing to have you in it, and that there’s always a way forward, makes it all that much easier to bear. So here’s to a year of shared insanity. May there be many more.

#never thought that the person i jokingly replied about breaking plant pots and falling down the stairs to #would grow to be one of the most important people in my life #remember when i was absolutely convinced you were american and knew foibs irl? #feels half a lifetime ago now #there was also that... fan group chat? right before tumblr killed that feature?? #i was in awe of you back then #still am in a way #just. thank you. for everything. #love talking with you about everything and nothing at all #all the headcanons and ships and everything else that catches your interest #cuddles will be given regardless of temperature #so what it's 28°C in my flat #we'll just melt together then

[t4tbedehopmar]

ok....... i think brain is normal now <- it isn't

#now i have a headache BUT i have to think of smth else........ #when and why and how and where did i start liking bedehop......... #the most important moment in my whole life forgotten......... i'm not a real bedehop fan sniffles #BUT DO NOT WORRY GUYS!!!!!!!! I WILL FIGURE IT OUT 😌😌 #maybe i just realized that there was smth pretty much gay going on there...... or maybe i just realized it had some hidden potential....... #or maybe i just needed new me/bede ships i sincerely do not know KDHJAHAKSHAJDBNAGSJABJ

[musical-chick-13]

Always funny to me when people say, "Why was the Doctor ever interested in River in any way when she's Not A Good Person," as if a) their oldest and closest friend in the universe isn't The Master, someone very much not known for being a particularly good person, and b) there wasn't literally a line that went, "And unlike me, [River] really doesn't mind shooting people. I shouldn't like that; kind of do a bit."

#sorry you've never experienced the joy of watching an older lady give zero fucks while also being terrifyingly capable of killing you <3 #I AM very much a Twelve Girl™ but honestly eleven is probably the most relatable doctor for this alone #(though there is the moment in the christmas special where river is threatening him with death via organ extraction in alphabetical #order and he just goes 'which alphabet' with THE biggest smile on his face which wow what a mood lmao) #anyway tldr they're in love and I love them and for the purposes of blacklisting: #mel screams about The Weird Little Space Show again #there was also 'I love a bad girl me' like that literally was also a thing he canonically said #(obviously this is an outgrowth of staying chained to the previous era & The Ship™ from it as well as continual over-romanticization of 10) #(but I don't think I have the energy to specifically break that down today) #(and that's not really the point of this post anyway) #like. GOD. again: the things people will do to erase how important any woman who isn't a certain threshold of conventionally palatable #is to the narrative/other characters #like...he did. he did keep referring to her as. his wife. he specifically said 'yeah I'm dead to the world but I'm going to keep visiting #her in prison!' DON'T TEST ME ON DR/RIVER LORE I MADE THEM MY WHOLE PERSONALITY FOR LIKE 5 YEARS DURING ONE OF #THE MOST FORMATIVE AND TURBULENT PERIODS OF MY LIFE. IKNOWMORETHANYOU.JPEG

[vanillabat99]

I'm feeling much better now!! I'm listening to the playlist my wife made for me (hi Angel :3) and I'm playing comfy and familiar games :3 I will probably get a snack soon!!

#i have heavily modded my starbound and i am so so so happy :3 #ive got the cutest little character and im using admin mode so im having a blast!! #im about to decorate my ship hehe :3 #modded starbound my beloved 💕💕💕 #also. i love my wife. she is the most important thing in my life and i would do anything for her. #hello wifey if you are reading this i love you sososooososo much :3 #batty blogging #text

[kalitheinksimp]

Me:*in school* oh man I'm really lagging behind on my chapters i better stu-

Brain: draw

Me: but-

Brain: draw the child you had with a skeleton

#ink sans #ink sans x oc #kaligraphy #kalink #self ship #ship children #this was before Hibi existed #and exams were around the corner #but who cares about the final most important exams of my life?? #i need to draw my daughter<3 #🌈garden🌺