#and then he vision killed himself

[turrondeluxe]

Leo also has a bio kid in the Mirage comics! In an alternate timeline, yeah, but he still has one. Her name is Yumi!

yeah i know! i didnt count her because my guy leo was out there having visions and all lmao

#and then he vision killed himself #made me sad #ask

[muninnhuginn]

Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end

Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience

His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua

Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most

And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost

To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.

#sth about how he almost managed to live for himself but his past and need to do right doomed him. #those missing years before canon starts were probably the closest he got but even then the knowledge he couldn't use martial arts #must have killed him (no pun intended). because he'd put so much stock in his identity as sigu sect leader + hero + prodigy #so to have such a massive part of his identity stripped from him... honestly it doesn't seem that he ever fully comes to terms with it #but he makes progress and he tries to do better. + that leads to him becoming a different type of 'hero' than the symbol he was originally #deep down he wants to help people with all he has but his capacity isn't infinite + at some point can only be taken from himself #mysterious lotus casebook #mlc spoilers #also to be clear I mention shan gudao not to say lxy should have realised earlier bc for a lot of the time he was too young to notice #and later on sgd did better at hiding his intentions. but more for how lxy tunnel visioned towards his idea of righteousness #and steamrolled over everyone else. both sgd and qwm were placed far below the importance of the sigu sect #and lxy's arrogance made it such that sigu became reliant on him alone as he shut others out (hence domino fall once he went). #idk if he could ever have 'fixed' what was btwn him and sgd bc it was so deep rooted but I do think that his actions #helped convince sgd that sgd was entirely in the right to choose his path #mlc #edit: just went and checked the exact wording of the TL and it's actually 'you like being a hero' rather than 'you want to be the hero' #which is different but still close enough in implications for my point to stand (I think)

[to-the-all-blue]

A curse turns the crew against Sanji a short time after Wano. It's subtle at first. Subtle enough that he chalks their weird behavior up to WCI. In his mind, he's sure the crew probably just feels uncomfortable around him after he betrayed them. So it doesn't matter that Usopp said something unusually cruel or that Nami threw a glass at him because, well, he understands that he fucked up. And they're his crew, right? He can bear it if that's what they need. Not to mention they're in the middle of the ocean, so it's not like he can leave and give them space.

Then it escalates. Then he's getting hurt. And he starts to realize this is something more. He tries to research it, but the crew won't let him. They gang up on him, making him work nonstop: taking every watch and cooking and repairing the ship and not being allowed to sleep and, and...It doesn't end. If he falters, they punish him. After only a couple weeks of this, he's left exhausted and in pain.

One day it comes to a head. Harsh words turn into a fight which turns into the crew ganging up on him as if he's an enemy combatant and he just can't. He sees them crowd him and he remembers his brothers and he stumbles. He's too exhausted to dodge, too scared of hurting them to fight back. So they get him pinned and are about to finish him off when...

Clarity.

They all wake up, suddenly. The curse is broken and Sanji is nearly dead on the ground between them and they remember.

#op fanfic #kinda #sanji #t: hurt/comfort #i had this vision in my head of Brook's sword in sanjis hand and zoros blades about to kill him when they all suddenly stop #i have a lot of other little scenes in my mind about this but who knows if ill actually get a chance to write it #so im putting it here #i just LOVE the idea of self-sacrificial sanji refusing to defend himself against his nakama #and i also like the idea of the angst after it all #zoro would be pissed that sanji didnt fight back #but at the same time he knows he would have done the same thing bc they are the crew's protectors after all #everyone else would remember the words they said and the things they did and would be sick #maybe luffy would get unnaturally quiet not sure this time how to make it all right #they are a powerful crew. theres no enemy they cant beat...unless it's them 👀

[worstloki]

been thinking of Loki as a vengeful ghost/demon that tries to kill Thor after dying on Jotunheim except instead of killing Thor straightup Thor's on a quest following a trail of weird clues and strange happenings across multiple realms sort of? so Loki is just leading him around not showing himself but very much heartbroken in the distance about how Thor just 'moved on'. Meanwhile on Thor's end it's very evident in how Thor handles quests once Loki is gone that he still follows all the advice and suggestions Loki made, and tries to consider what Loki would have done when he does things.

#im not writing it because i have too many works in progress already but do you see my vision #do you understand the vibe i am going for #tragic death Loki and Thor who never processed Loki's death beyond 'he's not here right now' #and this is maybe like. way after Loki's death. like at least a century later so no Thor doesn't immediately suspect anything #is it strange that he's witnessed multiple similar occurrences and connecting clues across multiple realms like they're for him? #yes. #but he thinks he's being so suave and detective about solving this mystery and suspects a powerful malicious demon figure to be behind it #not his dead brother who he feels wholly responsible for having died since he was the one that dragged them to Jotunheim for fun #Loki who died confused and resentful about so many things and upon realizing he's Not Exactly Stayed Dead deciding he was abandoned #because no one returned for his body but they also never explained anything to him which meant he had to seek answers himself AFTER HE DIED #reasonable to say he wasn't happy about it and isn't out to hurt random strangers #but Thor and Asgard? #he has a vendetta and he has it planned out so neatly #sans the part where he actually. kills Thor. because he only thinks he wants that #he would do it too if Thor didn't get reasonable about Loki wanting revenge at the end #'when did Thor get mature' Loki wonders bitterly. like it's such a mystery

[lordofthemushrooms]

During the fight with Astarions siblings one of them bit me and now I can’t stop thinking about how Astarion would be livid about it. Not at me, but at the fact that it happened.

#bg3 #I was also bloodless at the time so I at best would have passed out and at worst would have almost died #now just imagine how fucking scary Astarion would be next time he sees his brother who did it #losing my mind over here #works with my headcanon that one time Astarion almost killed me completely on accident by drinking too much #so weird mix of guilt and anger at himself that he’d ever let anyone close enough to hurt me #he doesn’t trust other people to be close to me the same way I don’t trust other people with him #do you see my vision?!?!? do you see my vision?!?!?

[stressedanime]

just woke up from the most heart wrenching dream about a possible will solace fic but i don’t think i could even bring myself to write it

#went to bed recommending a mutual will angst #and my brain was like oh bet #like jesus fucking CHRIST #i’ll explain the premise here but first #tw suicide #it was like me as will #who had a premonition/prophetic vision of something happening that caused all his siblings to get hurt or die #but there was one like outcome where they didn’t die and it would only happen if will killed himself #so the pov was me as will hiking away from camp to go kill myself #while getting flashes of his siblings finding him bleeding out #while ALSO getting coaxed along to kill himself by a diety of some sort who was the reason he had the vision #like what the FUCK #will solace #does not need to be going through it #in my fucking DREAMS #but like the voice that was coaxing will sounded so sad and sympathetic #but what it was convincing will do to was just fucked #and will was distraught #oh my god i do not wish to be in that pov again thanks brain

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[rotisseries]

I am the number one mike gets vecna'd truther. I have damn near 100% confidence that mike gets vecna'd. there is no version of s5 that I can imagine where mike doesn't get vecna'd. he will be shown horrendous visions and he will scream and cry and veccy boy will get his homophobic dog moment and mike is gonna be shaken up and refusing to tell anyone what he saw and it will be the most important, impactful, and jaw dropping vecna scene of the season, and I will be pulling up the cristiano ronaldo gif

#stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #he is just like. the perfect target. how would he NOT get vecna'd? #bc like. I'm a firm believer that more people will get vecna'd next season #like yeah sure he doesn't NEED to torment and kill more people but he'll do it for fun #no way the duffers introduced a villain who can see people's inner fears and guilts and then they use it twice and never again right? #so obvs people will get vecna'd next season. and mike is a PRIME target #a. vecna's main targets are el and will. both of whom love mike and are really close with him #two birds one stone‚ if vecna wants to consider himself a good villain‚ that right there is reason enough to get Mike #b. while again‚ I do think multiple characters will get vecna'd and therefore we'll see a lot of different headspaces #we mostly already know what a lot of the characters fear and feel guilty about. whereas mike is still supposed to be a mystery to us #we're not being shown his pov‚ so when we finally ARE‚ it will have the most impact of any possible vecna vision any of the characters get #''why do you say it'd be most impactful rori?'' #bc listen. they're gonna want another impactful vecna scene. a running up that hill part two. but you can't beat max's scene. it's too good #the impact in max's scene comes from her escape‚ from her choosing to live‚ for her loved ones #which means if you want another emotionally impactful vecna scene‚ it can't be about the escape‚ that can't be where the impact is #or it will just feel like a cheaper rendition of max's scene #so the impact MUST come from finding out what haunts the character #and I FULLY believe there will be nothing quite as jaw dropping as vecna visions revealing mike's sexuality and how he feels about it #the only things that would probably come close would be el or will getting shown more aspects of the supernatural plot #but I'm pretty sure we're at a point in the story where we have most of the information #and we won't be getting anything super insane on that front

[quietwingsinthesky]

anyway. low empathy sam in general is real To Me, that's not just a soulless sam thing. being soulless just meant that he stopped giving a shit about masking.

#sam winchester #spn #he puts a lot of work into making people comfortable around him! he has to work to care about things a lot of the time! #but he does put in the work. he does figure out the script and how to make other people feel better. that matters to him. #hmmmm in love with the idea of low empathy sam/hyper empathy lucifer. they both have so much autisms they are bouncing off each other #sam winchester who saved the world through the power of love. lucifer who forced himself to be able to stop caring about michael to kill hi #you see the vision here yes? #also like. lucifer has been in his head... he gets it... sam 'i've been wrong from birth' winchester has got to have some fucked up feeling #about the fact that he can't feel for people easily as say. dean can. #but lucifer's been in there. he Gets it. there's nothing wrong with sam. #autistic!sam

[ramblebrambleamble]

As far as I know, the giant skeleton is Elynas, a sea beast that died 400+ years ago, with the Melusine later forming from its remains. Elynas guided them in creating a village further inside their corpse, where they all lived until Neuvillette met them. From there he brought them out to the rest of Fontaine, with them moving about since then. Given the placement of the bones and the purple spots throughout the map I'm really interested in learning more.

Along with Ei and Makoto, more specifically about how Ei sacrificed her physical body so that Makoto could ascend to Celestia, with Makoto recreating her form afterwards. It's described in one of the in-game books, but with little detail about why and how. Then there's the Raiden Shogun who was created as Ei's attempt to avoid erosion, and it's effects, especially on the physical body.

Regarding the other gods, most were killed during the archon war either directly or as collateral damage, but maybe after the Archon War whatever conditions allowed gods to form or people to become them became possible again. I'm likely forgetting things from the game but how much do we know so far about what to takes to ascend to godhood, without becoming a archon? Or about the transfer process of making a new archon, besides the gnosis?

Interesting! I would also like to learn more about Elynas. The red ores, the voices, the ribs to sky and the draconic head shape remind me a lot of Durin in Dragonspine.

Someone else once told me the in-game book said that Ei was always a puppet created by Makoto (ie, was not actually her sister), but it didn't make sense to me that a puppet would make another puppet in order to resist change and abandon their first artificial body when they could just like. Alter it instead. She clearly has the ability. Your explanation about that makes much more sense 😊

As for non-Archon ascension, we are told that all vision holders have the potential to become gods, and we know that Venessa (?spelling) ascended straight to Celestia at the big tree in Mondstat, so it is possible for people to become new gods in this day and age, but we don't know what the criteria for ascension are aside from 'lots of ambition' (having a vision).

It's possible that Furina is just another god that was handed(?) the gnosis and the job, but while Venessa went up, she did not come down, and the other gods so far seem to have received their titles on the ground. Also, why would you hand the gnosis to some brat when there must be other, more experienced gods up in Celestia somewhere.

Unless they always knew the prophecy was real. No one wants to bother with ruling Fontaine when it's just going to disappear (again?). Venti hints that Celestia is not a nice place. Focalors gets the job because she's young and inexperienced. If she fails, it's no skin off Celestia's nose.

#genshin impact #asks #furina #if she was already a god prior to becoming Archon then surely there would be stories about her somewhere #liyue has all sorts of stories about morax. ditto sumeru (though no names are mentioned). venti tells us what he was himself #even without reading the book/s we are told enough about ei and makoto that there is a history there #furina as of 4.0 is ??? #oceanids don't like her. she's dramatic. believes in the prophecy. like but not respected by her people. #where is the history? #can gods die of old age or do they 'live' forever and experience erosion until they are killed #imagine though if getting a gnosis was like getting a vision #you wake up the next morning and you're capital G God now

[ameriel]

au week 1 | SHRUGS TBH

#my art #friend ocs #au week #ALL MY AU WEEK STUFF THIS YEAR WILL BE. ROUGH. its like i Forgot how 2 draw tbqh #ok so anyway i lost the genre. its western but like ok listen. #i drew fallyn first and was like ok this is boring. BUT #remember that au u mentioned that was wild west but also monsters. thats this now #MY VISION: lövi is a goth cowboy monster hunter but he’s cursed or made a deal with a devil or smth so he can have his cute horns #laufi is a vampire he was hunting UMMM but just before lövi kills him he finds out he’s not eating people or he’s friends with one of lövi’ #but either way lövi realizes he got lied to and cant bring himself to kill him. fallyn is there. thats as far as i got #OK BYEE

[warlordfelwinter]

i will just never be over how much ardbert has the wol's back

#fiver: i have to fix this alone #ardbert: sure you do. that's why i'm coming with you #the way fiver visibly starts to get angry after seeing that vision of the exarch and urianger #not angry at the exarch not really just. angry. angry at everything #angry at himself angry at emet-selch #a little angry at the exarch #just hearing the way even after he was killed even two hundred years later #people still passed around his story and loved him enough to eagerly join together to try and save him #with the most absurd time travel based plan #i think hearing that freaked him out and his mind just turned it into anger bc it didn't know what else to do with that jumble of emotions #and ardbert coming in to be like 'take a breath. can't have you turning into a lightwarden inside the crystal tower' #the fact that he's just on board with any plan fiver has to fix this #who could ask for a better friend than the ghostly remnants of another shard of your original soul #fel's ffxiv #shadowbringers lb #oc: fiver #i'll also just never get over how much shb gave me whiplash with my feelings about ardbert #i HATED that dude in heavensward or wherever he first shows up #MAN was he annoying #and then shadowbringers swings in here like 'you WILL cry about this man he WILL be your best friend'

[pleather-breakfast]

#survivor 46 #survivor #In my vision Jelinsky wins 7-1-0 but ima let y'all weigh in #Boston Rob is there because Jeff threatens to kill himself if he doesn't play

[rin-enjoyer]

It's late. Even underground, in the winding labyrinth of tunnels beneath Konoha where no natural light falls, Danzo can tell. There's a scent to the air.

Normally, he works through these quiet hours with the same dedication that he carries at all times. Tonight, however, his stacks of paperwork have all been meticulously combed through, signed, and filed. No one needs his attention. Nothing is wrong.

Danzo picks up his cane and begins the trek back to his old clan compound. He does not visit often. He is usually busy. He is not busy tonight.

His bones ache with a sort of weariness that denotes no real problem. He has learned to ignore this sort of pain. He ascends out of the tunnels, not bothering to muffle the sound of his footsteps with chakra.

He does not blink when he comes out to Konoha's streets. It is just as dark out here as it was in the tunnels. It is late out. A glance at the thin, crescent moon puts the time somewhere around 1.

Danzo makes his way past shopfronts, apartments, and fields. His memory of the layout of the village is annoyingly spotty. The streets have changed too much since the Kyuubi's attack, and he does not spend much time in them.

He walks past Hokage tower. The light in Hiruzen's office is on, casting a dim, yellow glow into the air. Danzo does not stop to see him. Soft, tender moments would ruin the sparks between them. He cannot think of anything more unappealing than stopping to relearn everything about the man who puts poison in his tea once a week.

He used to know Hiruzen. It was a mistake. A good shinobi does not have time for sentiment. Teamwork is a strength- relationships are weaknesses.

He wanders the streets for what seems like an eternity, a ghost in the village he has given and will give everything for. He does not regret it. He does not regret anything. He has done everything right.

Like the dull, distant pain in his hip, something tugs at his gut. Danzo ignores it. He knows what he is protecting. He knows why he does the things he does. He does not regret it.

He does not look back at the light in Hiruzen's office. The hair on his neck prickles- he can feel Hiruzen's gaze, how it carefully avoids him, observing the street around him, but not Danzo. A good shinobi has no time for sentiment. Hiruzen may be starting to fall apart in his old age, but lessons he learned alongside Danzo decades ago still stick to him like wet, rotting leaves.

Danzo finds his way to the Shimura Compound. There are heaps of fertilizer sitting in the garden, ready to be mixed into the soil. The smell of rotting leaves dances around the smell of the night. Crickets, hiding in bushes of nightshade, chirp a quiet, steady song.

The siding of the buildings in the compound is all pristine, brown and orange and achingly unfamiliar. Danzo knows how to ignore aches that do not matter. There are twelve in total, each housing one or two families. Danzo knows every name and face of his clan. He has met sparingly few of them.

He does not miss them. He does not miss the way he used to live. He creeps into the house in the center of the compound, past the rooms where the clan head and her four nephews sleep, into his old, dusty office. He will rest here, for the night, only because there is nothing else for him to do.

Danzo reaches across old scraps of paper with shaky writing and sloppy drawings and turns on his old lamp. A dim, yellow glow fills the room. He leans back in his chair. His hip aches. His hands shake. He does not regret anything, but quietly, because there is nothing else to do, he allows himself to feel very, very bad.

The lamp burns, and the leaves rot, and the crickets chirp. Dim yellow light slips through the window and paints stripes through the garden of poisonous plants. Danzo rests, and lets himself ache, and the night drags on.

#shimura danzo #hiruzen sarutobi #DO YOU GUYS SEE MY VISION DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME. DO YOU UNDERSTAND #guy who feels so terrible all the time because of the emotional repression and ptsd and then is like “well whatever” #and goes and commits war crimes. in the name of a greater cause. grabs him by the shoulders. ahem. #SIR WHAT GREATER CAUSE DO YOU THINK YOU ARE SERVING . EXCUSE ME. A MOMENT OF YOU TIME PLEASE #hes not uniquely horrible o'er there in ninja land but like. OHGHGHGH he is a Good Shinobi. he's good at his job #and that means that he's jsut not a very good person. and he tears himself and anyone else within reach to shreds #danzen #naruto fanfiction #idk man idk. he drives me insane. “sentiment BAD” why are you still “trying” to kill hiruzen then? huh? huh? why isnt he dead yet #iiiiif it came down to it i do not think he would hesitate to kill that guy. but in the moments when its not necessary? well. haha. #anyways as it turns out trying to kill the guy you love for years on end as an excuse to not ACTUALLY have to kill him #turns the trying to kill each other into the way you flirt. you understand how it is. #whatever. WHATEVER. you guys know how it is.

[adriles]

I’m curious which war crimes you do and don’t approve of

i enjoy any war crime induced by rage, racking up a ton of kills, maiming every enemy combatant in sight. only shitheads kill in attempt to live up to the heroism of others

#thinking about malouf’s ransom specifically here lol #when he writes achilles’ having a vision of priam’s death at the hands of neoptolemus #with the attempt of avenging his father. but their is nothing to avenge. same with polyxena #in hecuba they have it be tbat achilles’ spirit comes before neoptolemus and tells him to kill her to return #but i could just be a euripides hater with the exception of his helen play but. that doesnt sit right with me #it is to appease the wind in the same way iphigenia was to appease the gods #it was bound to happen anyways. but it is upon achilles’ grave as neoptolemus again sees himself as avenging his father #it is an unsatisfying act. all that killing for the sake of achilles #sure u can be like. polyxena led him to the gates #but she didnt kill him that is paris and apollo #but paris is already dead so who is left for neoptolemus to target as his father’s avenger #it is a role without any use. it is pointless. #and when we see achilles in the odyssey he barely cares about the news of his own son beyond odysseus saying yeah he is chilling #it is more to lament his own suffering #i dont think achilles cares in the end about neoptolemus. he is just a boy like his father bred for war and desperate #for purpose and attachment #beyond that tho. i dont think achilles would approve of killing priam like that is the main thing #he is not above violence to the man. he threatens him in book 24. but in the end there is a respect there. for the grief and loss they share #malouf writes about the shame that follows neoptolemus after everything #and i think that is a far more poignant thing than disappointment from the father you barely know #to carry the weight of your actions knowing that your father would so differently #again achilles is a piece of shit and would do the same if not worse in his son’s place #but in his place toward priam he wouldnt. and neoptolemus reaps that destruction anyways #this is long winded the point is the shame rather than the actual disapproval of war crimes lol #i will say i dont think achilles’ rage and revenge is to the same level. he laments after patroclus died that it hurts more than he thought #because he would think losing a father or son to be more heartbreaking #but no it is the loss of the equal and confidant that hurts the most #but neoptolemus never knew his father. this isnt for his father’s personal sake it is for his legacy + where neoptolemus will end up with it #and therein lies the difference. they have that familial bond but no real connection #ask

[dutybcrne]

Me BSing hcs like: The fact that Kae is not only able to create a shield when he is dangerously low HP but also the fact that he is able to regenerate HP when he hits opponents with Frostgnaw is definitely due to him receiving his Vision when Diluc had tried to kill him in their Confrontation...but could it be possible that his familial ties to the Abyss Order could have influenced that HP drain of his-

#//And that's without mentioning the fact that Glacial Waltz's duration increases FOR EVERY OPPONENT DEFEATED #//Between that and his lil teleporting trick like an Abyss mage's (minus the flurries of ice); I have SO many thinkings #//Deffo love the abilities of his being an amalgam of Vision based and Abyssal energy imbued #//Deffo love that fact meaning it hurts a bit to use his Vision at all; esp with the teleporting being such a Staple to his combat style #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Sidetracking a bit; but I also like to think that even after the Abyss is defeated/beaten back enough to not be such a threat; he'd still #keep his abilities from it/some connection to it. Bc he's so used to it being such a big PART of his fighting style/assets to use in a pinc #//But also bc keeping that connection means it'd help him keep track of any remnants of the Order far easier #//He could track them down with far more ease; sense if they are growing stronger; get intel from Domains/abyssal traces #//Of course being very mindful to keep it a secret & trying to not involve his loved ones/fellow knights of it all #//But he very much is careful esp bc of risks of him being corrupted by it; keeping a keen eye on his mental/physical/emotional states #//Deffo has plans to leave Mond and/or end his own life if he starts seeing the Abyssal corruption affecting him irreversibly #suicide mention tw #//Kind of but also kind of not; considering some of the ways how he'd go abt it #//Knows it'd be harder to the further it goes; so he has particular criteria he keeps tracks of to ensure if they come to pass #//he; in a clearer state of mind; would either 1) use his Vision to try & purge the energy out of himself (extremely painful; COULD kill #if the corruption runs deep enough & save him the trouble) or 2) use the aggressiveness of the corruption to provoke someone (esp Luc) #into taking care of him &thus ending the problem all together. Bc he KNOWS he's strong; only a handful of beings could actually kill him #//& actually be WILLING to; without hesitation. Luc comes to mind first bc of their Confrontation. But also bc Kae'd be happy w him being #the last person he ever sees. Thinks it'd be comforting more than anyone else. Esp since a lover would just break his heart to see them #//Worst case scenario is him falling to the corruption & sb breaking it out of him in the moment #//Bc the Instant he realizes what's happening; esp if they are crying and/or angered at him; he WILL fatally wound himself #//And make SURE it's not something he can come back from; save by a miracle (or 'curse' as he'd see it) #//Probably making an icicle and slitting his own throat; if not jamming the thing into his heart #//he won't hesitate; wont offer explanations; final words or apologies; he cant risk that moment of clarity being too short for it #//he HAS to make sure he can't hurt anyone any further; no matter what it means for him #//Which is partly why he'd be so keen to make sure it's not found out; bc he KNOWS he can be talked out of keeping those abilities #//Or worse; he'd fight them on it; and thus make for a fucken MESS in the aftermath if he's been too far along in the corruption #//But he KNOWS that even with the risks; the powers are a VALUABLE asset to him; &thus desperately wants to keep them #//'sidetracking a bit'; I said. Proceed to write a wHOLE FUCKEN NEW HC IN TAGS; I did; kjfbgkftg. Whoops lmao