#and then they took all my joy from me

[siensapsap]

Me, starting my second playthrough of BG3, choosing the Darok Urge because I've seen some interesting clips: "I am not gonna spoil this for myself. I might reload sometimes because I want to try to romance Astarion, but that'll be it! I'm gonna do this on my own brainpower!"

Me, right after discovering I killed Alfira: "Nope, nope, nopedy nope. Anyone but her. F8, f8, f8. Google, tell me how to cheese this, or so help me god...

#baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 spoilers #spoilers #the dark urge #the dark urge spoilers #alfira #my love #my darling #my dearest #i will keep you safe and protected and noone will harm you ever #i was so happy one moment #because i thought i'd missed out on this somehow with my previous playthrough #and I was so exited for her to be travelling with us #and then they took all my joy from me #but it's back now #I just killed some random dragonborn bard

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when a character says the name of the episode

#house md #prince's talk tag #flashing #repitition #so as i was watching this show i noticed they'd say the episode title in the episode #so i wanted to see how many times they did it #the people on livejournal who made transcripts of the episodes are my saviors and without them this would of been so much harder to do #thank you all for your service and i hope wherever you all are you're having a great day #sometimes they would use a variation of the word like in the episode poison they would say 'poisoned' or 'poisoning' #i did not include those instances #there was an instance in 'merry little christmas' where they do play the song in the show #but since ella fitzgerald was not a character in the show i did not include it #where as in the episode 'joy to the world' the students are singing it in the concert so i did include that #i apologize for the tonal whiplash when you get to that part but it did make me laugh #one of the times kutner says 'locked in' is overshadowed by the POTW's voice over but i assure you he says it and thats why its in there #out of the main characters from the one who said the title the most to least are #House > Foreman > Wilson > Chase > Cuddy > Adams > Cameron and Taub > Kutner > Thirteen and Park #this took a bit to do lolol its probably been done already but i wanted my own #there is a chance im missing some on technicalities but idc. im fine with this #there are two more i wanna do but with a character saying another character's name but ill do that some other time #EDIT: When I was making this video I was unaware that the Pilot episode went by two names: 'Pilot' and 'Everybody Lies' #Basically everywhere I looked the first episode was only referred to by 'Pilot' #which I found weird bc i remember seeing somewhere that the last episode was paired with the first episode in terms of title #but i couldn't find hard proof so I decided to leave it out at the time #well i checked again last night and yea the pilot IS also called Everybody Lies so I updated the video #I also think it goes well with the fact that House does say 'Everybody Dies' in the finale so another reason to fix it #AND he says it without Wilson while he and Wilson say the title of the pilot sooooo yea hehehehehe

[readkaijuno8]

Kaiju no. 8 official manga trailer

#kaiju no. 8 #kafka hibino #hoshina soshiro #kikoru shinomiya #reno ichikawa #mina ashiro #kn8 #Kaiju no 8 #my gifs #fun fact!!!! tumblr has a 10mb limit on gifs!! which I completely forgot about while saving all of these gifs initially!! #so then I got the joy of going back to all of these gifs in the editing app and having to save them as 10mb instead which was super fun!! #anyways I’m still a noob to gifs so this set took me quite a while so please appreciate them #by the way the video these gifs came from isn’t something new #this was promo for the first volume so it’s older actually #I’ve just not finally got around to gif-ing it #I tried so hard to keep the dithering off of Minas canon blast but alas 😔 don’t forget to click for better quality

[averlym]

litany of the martyrs (click for better resolution!)

#at some point i wanted to make an illustration for each character but in retrospect maybe each is multiple song-coded.. #drew the sketch for a quincy thing after a chat with a mutual reminded me this song existed dfsghjkl and then spent weeks rendering this #quincy cynthius martin #adamandi #i'm finally done with this! the saints especially were joys to paint and the halo a menace.... this has been the most ambitious one so far. #but it also took quite long because i only worked on it <engages with quincy> when mentally okay to deal with the themes. i'm not religious #but i do identify with the irrational(?ish) guilt + family legacy + academic achievement + disregard for self. also more complex thoughts #about love [but depsite quincent being a large part of quincy's character this piece deals with mostly the Rest of it. so another time..] #anyways! in the original sketch- the saints had heads bent towards quincy so the halo spikes pointed at him. but this worked better! halos #of the saints implying/creating one for quincy was a concept from the start though. in the show they don't touch him directly here but #differences in mediums i think- i don't have time in an image to craft a narrative so everything has to be happening. also artistic liberty #misc inspiration for this includes stained glass windows. i might have maybe misinterpreted the saint costume but i think i logic-ed it out #as the cloth part following a nun's habit w the hood. and then halo above. the material is also more transparent originally but i had. um. #too much fun painting fabric folds.. if you look closely you can see the basis of faces though behind the cloth; but only the vague shapes #because smth obscurity + inhumanness// cassian is the only one i gave a mouth though. that stems from melliot's post about the saints and #st cassian as spokesperson (<- did research teehee!) that's also how i found out which costume = which saint. speaking of which. #left to right: 'st lucy take my hand' // 'st lawrence give me strength' (presses quincy forward; but hand on shoulder connotates guidance) #/'st cassian help me smile' (quincy's mouth is btwn a grimace and a smile; tilts up at side. also no direct touch bc added insidiousness.) #//'st jude [...] i hope your causes burn' (jude's hand is in two places to show movement- nearing the flame and then snatching back; burnt) #other notes: at the midst of the flame the core is shaped like a human heart /the saints and their wax are all melting like the candle for #fun visual effect and also this way they are even less tangible <real>. perks of painting as a medium i guess. // also insp from icarus? #wax and burning imagery; looking at the halo and rays as parallel to sun that burns. too close to the sun; melting; hurting; hurtling // #candles at bottom are a nod to the frankly gorgeous set// also the entire composition kind of stems from the lyric <what use is a candle if #both ends aren't burning>; the two sides between the concepts of catholic guilt and academic perfection that spur quincy #the halo above (saints and guilt; litanyofthemartyrs) and the 'halo' below (academic papers; insp from choreo for perfect at school) #the papers were originally supposed to be more glowy. but i like the idea of it now being a reflection of how quincy's priorities shift #also of note is that <candle> in centre = quincy; w burning candle + aforementioned heart in flame -> most human; idea of love + passion #last thoughts: kneeling + hands close tgt = prayer //wax dripping onto the red As make an effect that looks like blood. because i like #hiding that within the adamandi pieces :OO continuity!! // i've run out of tags but yeah! had fun with this one! every so often i go a #little insane in making art and the final result astounds even me. ngl i'm quite proud of this one. pretty colours <3333

[crescentfool]

TWO YEARS OF MINATO NUI!!! 💙

#lizzy speaks #minato arisato #this was the best 16 dollars i've ever spent he's given me immeasurable joy #it was a lot of fun to look through my photos from the past two years and choose what i wanted to post! #im mostly posting this for myself i wanna look at my 'best of minato nui year 2' but if u enjoy it! hell yeah #some of these were 'rejects' from last year's one (since it was a 10 img limit back then) #and some of these i forgot i took. i completely forgot i held minato with tongs and it TOOK ME THE FUCK OUT #i loove taking him to places he brightens my day so much :) #he's also been very helpful in getting me to go walking on a daily basis... #i have a photo album dedicated to taking one photo of minato nui a day in rainbow color order #and i can't wait to accumulate more pictures of him!! this is proof that i exist!!! #i love to take minato around the island. i hope i can take him to more places!!!! see you all next year!!

[13eyond13]

nothing more cringe than coaxing and half-forcing someone to go to the movies with you because you're talking up how good the last one in the series was and then they finally agree to go and then it ends up being over two hours long and also kinda the worst 😬

#this is about the latest mad max movie btw #IM SO UPSET I WANTED IT TO BE GOOD BUT IT WASNT GOOD #fury road is just one of my fave movies ever and i assumed this one would also be fun but it was like #weirdly paced kind of oddly boring and also uncomfortably gratuitously violent #and now i feel crazy because everyone is raving about it in the reviews #im like am i the only one who didn't like it?? #chris hemsworth makes a shitty villain and also they didnt really give him anything of substance to work with as a character here #anya taylor joy did well but also took forever to appear and is either mute most of the time or awkwardly dubbed over by charlize theron #the fights and actions scenes didnt make a lot of sense much of the time and had random plot holes abounding #and half the cool and mysterious worldbuilding and character stuff from the previous movie were kinda wrecked a bit for me somehow #at least we still have fury road but dang thats like a 5 star movie to me and this was like a 2.5 star movie #and the good stuff in it is just stuff thats good about the mad max world in general really not this movie itself #wahhhhhh im sad #at least i paid for everyone's tickets i guess #i was like apologizing to the people i dragged to it haha #and then i checked the critics' responses and everyone is like 5 stars!! a masterpiece!! #im so confused by all the rave reviews #furiosa spoilers #movies #p

[abirddogmoment]

The problem about Mav having been a take everywhere kind of dog is that I can deeply feel his absence no matter what I'm doing or where I am.

#this isnt meant to be a devastating post #but the fact of the matter is that im seeing mav everywhere #he got so many good adventures in his short life #but it means that most places i visit i have previously visited with him #i went on this gorgeous camping trip this weekend #and all i could think about was how mav was with me (and loved it) the last time i was there #there wasnt really any aspect of my life that wasnt deeply entwined with my dog #every hike i did was planned for dog enrichment #every trip i took was paced so he could get out and stretch his leggies and sniff the wind #i just drove four straight hours because there was no need to stop and it felt??? bad??? #every time i roll down the window to look at a bird i listen for his comically loud sniff from his crate #(luckily pike does fill that niche when shes in my car - she loudly sniffs everytime we roll windows down and it brings me joy) #im doing reasonably okay all things considered #(i mean within expectations - im still crying about losing mav most days) #but his absence is palpable no matter what im doing #and that sucks so much

[youjustwaitsunshine]

"Look at their eyes. See how big they are? It's because they're looking at God."

#sebastian vettel #f1 #f1 edit #quote in the edit is from william blakes garden of love (which im obsessed with) #caption quote is from unholyverse anyways next question #no because to me the garden of love is about disillusionment with something you used to believe in #which feels like seb with f1 yknow? #from his love for michael and the sport to the view of it now that he's all grown up #and binding with briars my joys and desires.... #also i love making fun little edits with shitty pictures i took with my phones 'night mode' #this one was on holiday in cubzac-les-ponts (by bordeaux) #walked around the village at night when i needed a break from my friends and took some pics. bam.

[onewingedangels]

i respect every person who has multiple tavs in bg3 and actually replay their game multiple times from start to finish + still doing sidequests

#personal #i have like 3 main tavs and i still only play with my first one #and i can't even replay the game anymore i'm so damn burnt down from it #plus the fandom absolutely sucks and took all the joy to be associated with this fucking game in any way #and i was planning to make so many cool sets which i've said for millions time lol #i'm saying all that while i still have the game installed + still update the mods + waiting for patch 7 🤡 #maybe patch 7 will make me play (me saying this with every patch)

[twinstxrs]

i’m trying to catch up with as much dimension 20 as i can before fantasy high junior year, i’m currently on a starstruck odyssey, and can i just say: there is truly no greater example of ally beardsley’s dnd progress than the parallel of ally as kristen applebees willingly taking 36 points of damage, bringing kristen down to 3 hit points as kristen plummets multiple stories due to a failed attempt to use a ribbon dance as a way to fly down 10 stories, and ally as margaret encino willingly taking 11 points of damage, bringing margaret down to 3 hit points so margaret can fall 30 feet from a camera nest, walk up to a giant corn guy, and say “you suck” as all the intrepid heroes look on assuming this to be usual beardsley tomfoolery, only for margaret to walk away & trigger an attack of opportunity which gives murph as barry a chance to push this guy off a ledge & possibly win them the entire encounter & over 1 million credits. INSANE. ally beardsley i’m obsessed with your mind

#ally beardsley #fantasy high #kristen applebees #a starstruck odyssey #margaret encino #what is true joy if not ally beardsley saying ‘call to the guards’ & brennan shouting ‘NOOOOO’ #just so funny god #ESPECIALLY because literally one minute earlier brennan was for real trying to goad beardsley into falling from the nest like #‘so did you get some temp kublacaine hp’ thinking he was using beardsley’s insatiable chaos in his favor LITTLE DID HE KNOW #‘statistically you would stay up’ THEY PLAYED HIM LIKE A FUCKING FIDDLE #OH THE HUBRIS #admittedly i haven’t watched nvaf yet but kristen pete margaret the beardsley big 3 to me #also this is unimportant but: #for the sake of my pride i do wanna clarify i was catching up w/ d20 before the fhjy announcement but it has sped up the process a shit ton #i need to understand all the inevitable references #& yea could i watch just the ih campaigns & be fine? probably. but do i emotionally need to watch things chronologically? YES #just have *checks notes* 7 campaigns to watch beforehand not including my planned fh&fhsy rewatch :) #also i literally took a little break from the episode to type this but aso has been INSANE so far especially these past 2 eps! #i’d heard reference of operation slippery puppet but had no idea what it was so i was like ‘omg’ when siobhan mentioned it and THEN #just so insane emily axford my beloved the scheming goes crazy #also also final thing sorry for ranting in the tags but GOD murph has been rollinh so fucking well in this fight BIG BARRY SYX I LOVE YOU #intrepid heroes i love you forever thank you for introducing me to the wonderful world of dropout & of dnd actualplay #okay anyways back to the battle of the brands pt. 2 <3

[cetaitlaverite]

sometimes girlies (me) who think they’re done with fic just need to watch mota and then realise that they’re (i’m) wrong. everyone makes mistakes okay let girlies (me) live a little

so freddie leroy is a wireless operator and -

#a sniper took me out before i could finish my sentence so that’s all you’re getting #will this be long fic? i doubt it #but will it spark joy? i do believe it will #also hi everyone!! took a long hiatus from socials in general it wasn’t you i promise #my writing #mine

[madamescarlette]

💐

#shocked with myself (maybe pleasantly surprised? is the right phrase) #at actually liking barbie a great deal more than i had prepared myself to #it was just a lot more sincere than i had expected; i was afraid it wouldn't be/be more on the snarky side of cinema lately #but it was strangely so much more heartfelt than that #of course some points felt rushed/too on the nose #but the girls and ryan gosling made me so happy #and her at the end saying (spoilers obvs) that yes YES she does want to take life by the hand and pay the price to live and live #also as a former representative of unrequited love the throughline felt a lot gentler than i was prepared for it to be #it was a lot more about emotion and the joy of growing up and growing old than i expected #i don't necessarily think its heart is as pure as a truly great movie?? #but it didn't laugh AT you. it made you laugh and it also meant what it said #which idk idk in a sea of endless winks at the camera laughing obnoxiously loudly media i appreciated the at least #wanting to live and live well aspect of it all and how it took that seriously #like someone on my dash said. i don't really know if it was a good movie?? but the borders of my mind are stretched #something in me is dreaming because of it. so i think that at least is worth it all #also all the girls in the theater laughing their heads off did something to me!!! #there were countless friends (including mine) decked out in pink and it was so so so sweet to me #(anyway. you didn't need these thoughts and maybe I'll retract it later when I've come down from the high of hugging both my buddies)

[spookykingdomstarlight]

there will be no escaping the urge to listen to 《余年》 on repeat for the rest of the day

#xiao zhan #i haven't done my spotify wrapped yet and frankly i doubt i will #but last year this was the winner #and it could very well be the winner this year #but it would have stiff competition from 《廿》 #xz did not have to go that hard #this is why i'm not allowed to think about joy of life #all sorts of other things start happening #it took me a minute to decide which of the five hundred performances to link #but i'm a sucker for a black turtleneck so #tbh it's also my favorite #Spotify #Youtube

[bosspigeon]

Me: Okay, baby, I'm gonna go outside and take out the trash. I'll be right back, okay? I'm going out, but I'm coming right back, I promise! Ssssh, it's okay, baby girl, you'll be fine...

My Dog:

#pidge sketch #pidge pets #this is a shitty doodle but it really captures how Fucking Miserable she is #IT TOOK ALL OF A MINUTE SUSANNAH-LOU #I COULD LITERALLY HEAR YOU FROM THE GARBAGE CAN OUTSIDE #YOU WILL NOT EXPIRE IN THE MINUTE AND A HALF IT TOOK ME TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH AND RECYCLING #every time she hears my keys jingle she's terrified im Leaving Forever like i do every day to go to work #and then i come back after years (8 hours) at sea (the tea shop) and she Loses Her Marbles with joy #WHY DOES FATHER ABANDON THE SOOKIE #bc father has to pay rent and bills so sookie can continue to eat and go to the groomer

[deus-ex-mona]

it’s that time of week again…

#and M A N today’s getsuyoubi was extra yuuutsu #first i dropped 2 cup things filled with water. cool. a mess was made. nice. #t h e n my workstation shook by itself and one of the cup things toppled down again. only it was filled with (diluted) acid this time!!!! #i wish it fell onto me bc at l e a s t my bad day would’ve ended with just an acid burn instead of getting worse #bc *then* we found out that we were near-out of [insert reagent here] that we need to run blanks for [test thing] yay!!!!! joy!!!!!!!!! #so we had to use a substitute solvent (sadge) #if only it ended there aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i left work on time -> waited forever for the delayed bus -> decided to get some coffee or sth as a pick me up t h e n… #the coffee place happened to run out of single bags so i decided to put it into my bag instead (mistake)… #…a n d dropped my phone while trying to prop the stupid drink upright so it wouldn’t spill. #unfortunately for me though... some rando picked up my phone some time within the 30s-1 min wherein i realised that my phone was gone… #…and took it home with him instead of handing it to the customer service counter at the nearby train stations. ha. #called my phone a couple of times with the phone from a customer service counter but he~~ didn’t~~ pick up~~~~~~~~~ #and so. long story short. i had to leave the house an extra time to go to this guy’s place to pick up my bb (read: my phone) #bc the dude~~~ can’t~~~~ speak~~~ english~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so he didn’t understand me when i told him my location~~~~~~~ #and now it’s almost 8.30 in the pm. im waiting for the delayed bus to go home from wherever tf i am now. and i haven’t eaten all day :)))) #(aside from a small cake thing but it’s negligible tbh) #aND HOLY FK I HATE THIS I FLAGGED DOWN THE BUS BUT IT SKIPPED THE STOP HELP ME I JUST WANNA GO HOME #.am i allowed to cry yet. i. just. i just wanna eat my dinner. #…come to think of it my drink ended up spilling in my bag while i was hunting for my phone. so. there’s that to clean up ig. #ughhhhhhhhh i wish that guy had just left my phone where he found it. s o b s #so yeah. if you read this i hope you had a good monday at least… #this truly is my ✨t r a g i c c o m e d y✨

[fionnaskyborn]

pros of learning how to play fighting game:

undergoing a learning experience, trying out something entirely different from anything i have previously played

i get to look at a little guy do cool things on my screen :)

cons of learning how to play fighting game:

i am clumsy as all hell with the inputs

the order in which you press and/or hold buttons to create inputs is less like trying to get a sequence of movements right and more like playing a rhythm game (down then while not letting go of down press forward then let go of down and THEN press an attack button on the other side of the keyboard). i suck at rhythm games. hell world

sometimes, the damn things just... won't register? at all? you do a half circle to forward input and the game says "half circle forward? oh, sorry, that's ensenga :)" or, worse, "too slow, that's a regular heavy slash move :)". brother. why must you do me like this.

the area between the knuckles of my ring and little finger hurts like a motherfucker (though this has hurt in various areas since at least this morning, but i'm willing to bet that practicing quarter and half circle inputs for at least an hour did not make the situation any better)

#swear to god learning to play guilty gear is the ultimate test of will #but i am very determined not to drop it despite all of my frustration #it's not like i haven't dropped games in the past - i find it incredibly difficult to play ultrakill because despite the fact that i grew up #on shooters (from rtcw onward) i suck ass at ultrakill (though it's not like i was much good at any shooter that required quick reaction #time at first - it took me a good long while to get good at overwatch) and whenever i boot it up my mind immediately starts telling me that #all i can do in ultrakill‚ The Game That Revolves Around Being Fast And Stylish And Fun‚ is suck at it #which - you guessed it - means i rarely get the will to play it because i know i'll just end up neither having fun or getting better #and it's become very difficult for me to derive joy from trying to complete any videogame but that's a whole different story #and there's no way in hell i'm starting five because once i start five i'll finish playing five and holy shit i really need to start #visiting my therapist again don't i #too bad! :) #at any rate i'm not giving up on guilty gear anytime soon! it's frustrating but i know i'll start having loads of fun once i've mastered the #basics #also don't ask why i'm playing on a keyboard. controller's worse. this is entirely unfamiliar and weird and i don't have the muscle memory #for it but i will someday!! i will!!! #logs #Black Blank blah-blah-blah #< will be using this tag for any post in which i end up complaining about my life‚ feel free to blacklist it anytime