#and who he grew up having to deal with

[artnerdsrule]

Keefe and mommy dearest.

#it astounds me how kind keefe is #knowing how #and who he grew up having to deal with #hats off to keefe #i could never #i just love the guy #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #sokeefe #keefe sencen #kotlc fanart #keeper of the lost cites fanart #kotlc keefe #artists on tumblr #keeper of the lost cities keefe #keefe angst #lady gisela #gisela sencen #kotlc gisela

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I realized (which was obvious to me subconsciously) is that... The family that vehemently didn't accept me when I first came out but now do accept me are still the same family that I am most unwilling to be open about things I feel protective over.

I remember that my dad reacted so poorly, not to my coming out, but to my transition specifically that my therapist was the one to ask if I wanted to put it on my file that I wanted nothing to ever be shared with him about my health after I broke down multiple times due to my anxiety that I would never transition. While there are and were protections for me, I was incredibly fearful at the time because I was a minor, and I was so worried that he would have prevented my transition that I couldn't have said for certain what (if any) lengths he would have gone to to prevent that.

He's grown a lot as a person, and made some commendable strides. But he didn't find out from me when I medically transitioned the second I turned eighteen, and I think that's among the things that truly made him realize the scope of the issue.

I'm not here to guilt trip parents, guardians, or other members responsible for the care of the children or teens or young adults in their care.... but this is a cautionary tale. You aren't saving the people in your care when you do this, you simply reinforce an idea that you will never care for them, never want them as they are, would rather them be shoved away.

When you give people reasons to be secretive, they will behave secretively. When you give people reasons to doubt their safety around you, they will become sneaky, defensive, and withdrawn. When you give people reasons to doubt that you value their life, they will believe that you don't care if they live or not.

#queer #lgbt #lgbtq #ally advice #transphobia #transphobia tw #i always feel the need to preface that i have a rebuilt relationship with my dad specifically... #...but that my experiences with them have served to me in many ways to illustrate... well... what NOT to do if you are in his situation #i do still grieve that my relationship with him looks very scarred and that it took a long time to get to where he is now #but i recognize that in many ways this is a product of the world and culture we live in and that he lived in #in a world he grew up gay was used as a slur. would i expect that trans people would be treated better? #and he was responsible for how he reacted but also... it's nuanced as to why he reacted so poorly #and i want people to AVOID being like he did if they EVER want a decent relationship with the other person #i want this to be a cautionary tale and that my ending is unique. not all of us are even ABLE to repair a relationship that was THAT broken #some of us die trying. some of us never get closure. some of us are in active danger because of those reactions #and that's the more common reality i have found. most other queer people have no-contact with families who pulled the shit my dad had... #...and that's - frankly - a good idea in 99.9% of cases. i will never judge someone for the way they go about dealing with that #i'm just emphasizing that i am unique in the sense that i was able to somewhat repair that

[miraluking-respectfully]

seeking out other people's posts about Koth is a game of russian roulette for me bc sometimes i get nice art and writing and excellent takes about a character i like and sometimes i have to step away and do deep-breathing exercises

#it's very deeply frustrating when i hear people venting about some of the issues i also have with the bad & offensive writing in his story #or his lack or any significant on-screen development #but then their solution to those issues boils down to ''they should've made him more of a yes-man like Lana or Theron!'' #Koth liking Valkorian and not caring about us or our issues is...normal #it's normal. he grew up on a prosperous pro-Valk Zakuul. he was in the fucking military. and he has no idea who we are or what our deal is #Koth should have had a character arc bc He Should Have Had A Character Arc not because he was a big meanie or not immune to propaganda #AUGH #koth vortena #swtor

[dustteller]

I think modern au Zhu SHOULD be the lesbian best friend trope to Ouyang except that its because this man is her pet project and gODDDAMIT she's gonna FIX him she's gonna MAKE him be BETTER she's going to SOLVE EVERYTHING and he will RESPECT HER (she is actively making him worse). She has a whole complex about it and everything. She has based a part of her identity on dragging this man up from his toxic funk and is fully convinced that if she tries hard enough he will eventually come to his senses and be an equal participant in this relationship. They have a terrible wonderful toxic loving codependent relationship that's neither a romance nor a friendship nor a rivalry but a secret fourth thing.

Predictably, this does not go well. The character arcs would be Zhu learning she can't fix a sinking ship and letting Ouyang fail by himself, and Ouyang learning to not be a shit person, actually, and coming out of his bubble of self-centeredness and working on himself instead of unloading his emotional labor onto the people around him. And they should both get to develop a healthier relationship with each other than what they had in canon bc queer solidarity is great and its even better when it's in the shape of some weird bullshit some gay people built out of the corpse parts of heteronormative romance (affectionate and completely unironic)

#brought to you by me thinking about the last half of HWDtW and how Zhu interacts with Ouyang post-betrayal #well. interacts with the concept of Ouyang. he kinda (spoilers). #she was unhealthily attached to Ouyang and honestly I think she deserves an universe where her whole deal is reciprocated. #but only AFTER i put them in a fully self sustaining terrarium jar and sic the emotional isopods on them. #that part comes first bc my personal entertainment is CLEARLY the most important thing here guys #the radiant emperor #my thoughts #zhu yuanzhang #OHHH AND ALSO i think Zhu and Ouyang should get to have their weird little gay relationship #while their partners stare in accepting horror. #ma would be supportive bc she knows how important this impressively awful man is to her girlfriend #but rest assured she DOES NOT like him. she will (very politely) bitch about him to Baoxiang and then feel bad about it #she shouldn't feel bad tho bc Ouyang deserves it and Baoxiang repeatedly reminds her of this fact #eventually ouyang grows on her. #kinda like the bowl of mold in the back of the fridge you've developed an emotional attachment to. #he shouldn't be there but now she feels bad about evicting him into the trash! #(she feels significantly less bad about evicting him into Esen's appartment) #Esen has even less of a clue what's happening with Zhu and Ouyang. #he just knows that Zhu is important to Ouyang and also is 90% sure that they fucked at some point. #30% sure that they are still fucking but he grew up around Baoxiang and Ouyang #he has learned Not to Ask! he does Not Want to Know! #and anyways it's none of his bussiness who his bestie/person that he wants to adopt a horse and grow old with/hot roomate is fucking! #its not his problem! he is not invested! he is not going to think about it! there is no reason to think about whos in Ouyang's pants! #he is not thinking about anything involving Ouyang's pants at all! much less about the inside of Ouyang's pants! #and since hes not thinking about it bc theres no reason to think about it then he cant have a problem with it :) #so he wont ask!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like??? #this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms. #but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

[branwendaughterofllyr]

Every time the Ballerina farm discourses comes by, it sends shivers down my spine. For like personal reasons.

#I actually do harbour the dream of having a hobby farm one day #but then when I mention this to my father who actually grew up on a farm he gets a thousand yard stare and little annoyed with me #like the 35k oven and the ten kids are just….. #idk my dad doesn’t talk about his childhood bc it was so miserable #I literally just found out this year that my grandmother would hide her kids from CPS in the woods bc homeschooling was illegal then #and to be clear I hundred percent believe my dad and his siblings should have been in actual school #I found a newspaper clipping of an interview my dad #and he mentions his family having to choose between heating and food and that Michigan winters got pretty damn cold #and food is such a big deal in our house bc he literally never got enough to eat as a kid #anyway #this is me saying that the Ballerina Farm family and their gobs of money playing at being farmers really creeps me out

[dutybcrne]

Thunderings are happening, my brain has funneled off into hcs mode

#//Aka; guess who am I gonna ramble on abt rn lol #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #hc; kaeya #//That's right; babes! #//Anywho; Kae is NOT a fan of thunder #//If it's not tales of the Electro Archon from his father; then it's the circumstances in which they'd parted #//The moment the storm rolled in; he was terrified esp of the sound and ran himself ragged trying to find a place to escape it #//Damn near ran himself off a cliff had a strike of lightning not made him stumble back from it #//Managed to find his way to the winery where he hid for a bit before Tunner found him and Crepus managed to persuade him to stay #//After damn near running the man winded bc he thought he was trying to chase him off or worse #//The fear lingered and festered more the longer he stayed in the Land of the Anemo Archon; out of guilt for 'deceiving' the Ragnvindrs #//For letting him stay there; for not telling them why he was here. Grew up half expecting to get Smote or smth at any time #//Esp whenever Luc dragged him into mischief or he went to the Church with them for whatever reason #//Mostly the former; but bc it was Luc asking him to clown; he didn't mind the 'potential risk' #//Even as a knight; he tended to get extremely skittish and quicker-tempered when it came to patrol during storms. Still does #//Tho at that time; thinly veiling the fact that he very much felt like a cornered animal every time he had to go and couldn't get out of i #//Esp if Luc was the one who asked him to come with; bc like before; he really didn't ever want nor like to say no to him #//The aversion got worse bc thundered the night of his Confrontation with Diluc too; absolutely increased how much he hated it #//His aversion tends to manifest in a drop in temperatures or frost formation; as well as him pausing and quickly glancing about #//As if he's half expecting a threat of some sort; really he's quickly locating things to distract himself with #//If he's with a trusted person; he'll tend to wordlessly press against their side; then either brush it off like he just wanted to #//Or mutter a quick 'thunder' and Not Elaborate whatsoever. Either they get it or they don't #//He WILL get annoyed if he's teased about it. And it will take him AWHILE before he lets the person comfort him during bc of it #//Bc from that point; he will assume it's done mockingly or bc they feel they HAVE to; and he hates that #//If they let him be or even support him more instead; he will make a passing mention abt how much he hates thunder to start cuing them in #//They just gotta show they are a Safe person--bonus is this opens up a LOT of doors when it comes to trust later #//It doesn't help that he already hates dealing with loud sounds as is; even the blasts from Klee Jumpy Dumpties set him on edge #//But the bad memories he has to thunder make it the worse by far to him

[bellincurl]

NO ONE TOLD ME WOLFERTINGER666 WAS PUPPYCHAN HELEPRRP?!?!?!??!÷&÷*&^#&$

#ive been reblogging him for months bc i liked his art and assumed he was also a kinda isolated person trying to recover and explore himself #not that he was puppychannnnnnnn #it upsets me too bc i always wanna have sympathy for ppl who like grew up online and were targetted in vile ways like this right #same deal with ppl like birdie or kittydog it feels so christine chan esque #like vulnerable ppl dont deserve to be pushed to extremes like that it makes me think what i would have been like if #i was in those positions. it doesn't feel right. #but then it's still the case that these ppl went on to be predatory or vile or racist or any number of things. did so much damage right #not just that they did damage but that these ppl all fled from it or the responsibility of it and even kept going #it upsets me. it's disappointing. it's difficult to think about. #i want ppl like this to grow and reflect and get into safer places but you can't do that if you won't say full chest #what you did and how to change so you don't go on to do it again. #hits some kinda moral ocd cptsd nerve in my head so hopefully you get what I'm saying ect.

[thedevotionaltour]

marvel should hire me to write bc i'd pull the funniest thing on earth where i am wiping his catholic slate CLEAN and i would explcitily have him go ehhhh i've never really been religious me and my dad went some easters and christmases and attended a few services outside of that but that stopped by the time i was around 10 and my dad just kinda gave up on it because he didn't particularly want to go by that point either. and even then we hadn't gone every year for easter and christmas in that time frame. and then we never bring that shit up again in the story. he is only catholic in the sense he went a few times and it's the only church experience he knew and his dad probably grew up going to church more in his youth being dragged in by his family but he never felt particularly compelled to go back to it once he moved out on his own. catholic only in the fact that his family was irish catholic but his dad is a lapsed catholic who did not give a fuuuuuck

#based off my own father's filipino catholic experiences. and my own religious experiences in general. bc my mom's protestant but still didnt #raise me religiously. i've been to church a handful of times and it was never bad but it never ever stuck. i just kinda remember some stuff #and what i do know it's more from the general cultural osmosis of american christianity than anything #plus i grew up in a known for its religiosity suburb. but again. that still didnt really rub off on me. #in my mind jack is a guy who when entering a church will still dip his fingers in the holy water and cross with it #and matt watches and maybe mimics but he doesnt really get it still bc their service attendance has been so extremely infrequent. #so i imagine it's far more like that for matt than the insane bs they've been pullin the last few years. given the you know. #50 somethings years of established only really culturally casually catholic matt. bc well. why wouldnt he be new york irish catholic. #i imagine is the thought process. but i will never be a fan of how it's a big deal now. bc it just never has been. ever #and that's not to say a character cannot become religious or be religious or have it become more of a thing in their life! #very much it can be done. but i think it's been done piss poor. from all i've seen and what i've read of recent stuff. so it's just bad. #like it isnt done in a meaningfully way or sensical to my understanding. it's like. pure show pandering fanon appeal. #so it's utterly meaningless as a whole with no point or purpose aside from it #can we go back to just using it for cool art visuals bc i think we can all appreciate a cool splash page of a church fight and stuff #but please. dont try to make it more than that if you arent going to do it well #SORRY I KNOW EVERYONE ON PLANET DD HAS MADE THIS POST BUT I REMEMBER AND GET SOOOOO IRRITATED!!!!! IT'S SO STUPID POINTLESS DUMB I HATE ITT #static.soundz

[sweetenby]

my toxic trait as a dnd is player is that I'm obsessed with making fantasy communities and if you leave me alone with my thoughts for too long I'll turn my characters simple backstory into a whole fucking town that has its own history and culture and then walk up to my dm and be like 🥺 "Can you put this in your world please?" 🥺

#My first dm ruined me this way #Bc he gave each of the players their own side missions based on backstory n love that I did this #bc I've written like half of the quest for him already Including NPCs #I invented a religion in his world to justify some character choices I made for my barbarian #And he just rolls with it and it's incredible #Like I go 'my character has a twin sister who went to magic school' #And 'when my character left her tribe she joined a crew under the captain Tommy Wisgnome on his ship the antechamper' #And then my dm goes cool #Your sister graduated magic school and now works as an advisor to a power dragon king #And Tommy actually is a former agent to a disbanded CIA like government agency but still retains some powerful contacts #Anyway yeah they'repowerful but if you want help from either of them you have to deal with the politics they're deeply embroiled in #Like God fuck yeah #I still have to get used to the fact that other dms don't Do That #Bc I'm over here crafting nuclear story bombs of NPCs from my backstory on accident #Bc I cannot stop fucking thinking about absolutely ridiculous concepts that have nothing to do with the main story #And then putting them in my characters backstory bc they sound neat #Like girl help me #I pretty much always turn my characters family/caretakers into NPCs bc like how you were raised influences you a lot #And I like being like my character is this way bc they grew up around these ppl #And then my brain took it a step farther and went #Okay now I'm going to create a whole ass setting bc my character acts this way bc of the culture they came from as a whole #Like hello!!! #It feels rude to just be inventing cities at someone else's table but also I'd love it if my players did this #I have no idea what is proper dnd etiquette #Anyway currently having big thoughts abt the village my teifling gnome is from

[todayisafridaynight]

if i think bout ichi going to jiro kasuga's grave and arakawa accompanying him Maybe At Least Once i just might explode

#snap chats #hi everyone. coping with my reality. plus it is fathers day tomorrow #ill save all THAT rambling after The Real Meat alright lemme get that juice out the way #anyway no i was just having an idle thought with fathers day coming up #an i just thought of like. Just-Got-Here ichi wantin to see his Relatively-Recently-Deceased's dad's grave #maybe arakawa wanted to ask ichi to do somethin on X day and ichi visibly is just 😬 #obvi he tries to brush it off like Oh Its Nothing Sir Haha :) but arakawa's A Dad. #and grew up with a troubled childhood alright he knows when someones hiding something so he encourages ichi to tell him the truth #such comes The Bean Spillin an ichi's just 'remember how i said my dad died yeah i wanted to visit him that day 👉👈 ' #followed up by the obligatory backpedaling But Its Fine I Can Do Another Day ! No Worries ! etc etc #so pleaaasse cut to arakawa making a 'deal' with ichi in that he can go that day but only if he could tag along #ichi's a great kid it's worth visiting the guy who raised him right #im gonna throw up if arakawa just gets a Funny Feeling during their visit yk what i mean #he just feels Especially grateful for jiro and what he did for ichi- doesnt exactly know why maybe ichi really is just that good of a kiddo #im gona make myself throw UP oh my GOD. crying dying etc etc #if you see me write or draw anything after this no you dont #speaking of though Personal Ramble Time i knew i shouldnt have eaten until later this is my karma <- thats not how karma works #i try not to eat in the evening and the time i do unprompted BOOM mother's home. screaming crying yelling #i still had things i wanted to do upstairs too gdi now i gotta wait til monday or like. 2AM ☠️☠️☠️ #ok thats all byyyyye im gonna cope with my cringe family situation with projection 👋

[ghostypetrainer]

Just make the whole nimbasa trio teens again. Don't leave Elesa out.

Imagine nimbasa just waking up one day. Not only is the local subway guy suddenly a teenager again, Nimbasa's gym leader model is too.

And then the missing Subway boss turns up, also a teenager.

Like DRAYDEN YOUR KIDS ARE BEING WEIRD AGAIN

it's teen time!!! one of those isn't even Drayden's kid, but she's just included by proxy. the mental image of Emmet hurrying to meet with Elesa to tell her about what happened and Elesa hurrying to meet with Emmet to tell him what happened, and then they run right past each other without realizing and when they respectively get to Gear Station and the Nimbasa Gym, the staff at both places is just like 'damn. you too, huh?'

#asks #pla ageswap au #drayden heaving the world's longest sigh #iris is already a teen at this point!!! #he didn't expect to have to deal with the ones who already grew up becoming teens too!!!

[fooltofancy]

i don't miss living near most of my family, tbh, but i DO miss terribly the recovered meth addict uncle.

#he and my aunt are the kindest just like #they have a house (my grandpa's old house) full of kids whose parents are in the system #they always have #my aunt has a cleaning business thay almost exclusively employs folk recovering from addiction or domestic violence or any number of other #things #for which montana just does not provide the resources to deal with #this woman has brittle bone disease and is never not broken in like four different places but you can NOT keep her stationary #she is doing things and she is doing them because she's too fucking full of love to stay still #my dad is also very full of compassion so like it does happen in that family but where for him religion has closed him off from the world #god just means love for my aunt and uncle. #unconditionally #i grew up in the church and ive NEVER seen christianity like that #like for the record i still think theyre wrong lmao and the system they work in is harmful #idk theyre the only people ive ever known who actually prioritize folks' needs over their salvation #and that's really important #it's real missing the members of my family ive more or less lost because i had to fuckin run from the rest of them hours #he's the first person i told abt the tattoo im gonna get for my grandma someday #i have almost no memories of her where she wasn't just wreathed in smoke #even when she said she stopped smoking she never did lmao she was just. an absolute chimney of a woman #anyway she collected v kitsch strawberry things so im gonna get a kinda kitschy botanical halfsleeve at some point thats just #strawberry plants woven through with stylized cigarette smoke #anyway i was like this is probably irreverent af and some family members will NOT like it and he like LAUGHED and grabbed my arm #just like losing his shit #NO YOU HAVE TO

[k0kichiimagines]

saerans "i get to be a father ill be a father who'll love his wife" ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️❤️❤️❤️

#no because i grew up listening to my parents fight in case i needed to go and protect my mum when i tell you that call made me sob #a father who loves his wife :((( <333 #its so sweet he'd be such a good parent he's an amazing s/o already #i love when men love their gfs / wives i hate the i hate my wife jokes i love men like saeran who love their wives #i can picture just lying in his arms with your small child flopped out on both of you #or the baby sleeping on him ☹️❤️ #he has big hands too they'd look so tiny #imagine having a baby and seeing they have saerans smile waa #him teaching them how to bake cookies #him listening to their every word while they tell him all about their toys for the thirtieth time #he'd be so good when they're having a tantrum too i feel like while some days he may find it harder to deal with and ask you most of the #time he's able to calm them down so quickly #hes rlly good at reading emotions #i think he'd be able to be protective and yk like tell them not to do things firmly but also be so sweet #it's like with you hes so weak to the both of you but in a lighthearted way #i hope the babyd first word is baba or similar because could you imagine his eyes lighting up at hearing it #it makes my heart feel so full i love dad saeran #hes young too i think you and him would spend a few yesrs travelling and doing this and that and then have a child / children #like look you could spend a decade / almost a decade together if you wanted and then have children saeran would only be in late twenties

[disorderly]

.......

#vent #vent in tags #I realized how triggering it would be to go to psychiatrist / therapy appts with my brother #for some reason I feel invalidated having to talk about someone else's trauma because the attention is not aimed at me #when I have a lot of my own trauma to deal with. but we grew up in the same house so idk why I feel that way ..... #I don't think my brother will easily open up to someone without me there to kick things off a little though #he did get along with one therapist I think but that was because they were trans...and my very wise mom decided not to go back #and her reason was because it was a long drive and she didn't like the therapist 😍 #like great! put your own comfort before your childs...the one who will actually be speaking to the therapist.. #if you can get my brother to open up to someone why THE FUCK wouldn't you take the opportunity...I don't know #I've realized my parent's don't prioritize much if it involves our health in anyway so

[bibiana112]

Okay but fr Iris and Hitomi play such a miniscule role and Date is a joke and Mizuki needed to have a whole chunk of her backstory retconned to even fit so why did we not just have two new protagonists? The misdirect with actually playing as three people could still work if it was just someone entirely new who had a double instead of her and it would have been a plus to not have the expectation of it being a Mizuki game when all the ties to her established character were so thin and surface level and pretty much the main disappointment I've seen with the game and it just feels idk very avoidable by making it an anthology with fewer recurring characters and mostly background references to people involved in past cases, like, this isn't a death game it's a broader setting you very much can do something like that effectively

#there's a lot but it's a very common complaint so I'll add that I want the timeline where Bibi gets to look different under the mask #cause the blue and hairstyle doesn't work with her clothes and it's such a good design I wish I could fully like her so much it's unreal #like in theory this character is freaking tailor made for me to fixate on but it's simultaneously messing with what I liked about Mizuki so #it's just cancelling itself out and I hate it #like it's so weird that we're just supposed to go with this now #with this notion that because they're genetically related they're more siblings than Mizuki and Iris when that's who she grew up around #it makes sense from Bibis perspective sure but that's why I'm saying!!! just have a new character at that point!!! #cause Mizuki was already adopted and we were already invested in the found family angle and the part that undermines that really is just #how ignored everyone else is Date dissapears he has an excuse but at the very least give them a proper reunion then??? #and it's not like Bibi doesn't have found family shenanigans too she has Kizuna and Boss and those relationships would be so much sweeter #if she wasn't! Another! Mizuki!!! Hell have their lived experiences and personalities differ more while you're at it too please #ugh I'm frustrated because I want to like her so so so bad #the biggest difference is just that Mizuki doesn't have an illness to deal with?? #aini spoilers