#and yet ive had NO LUCK

[bluuubuns]

Is anyone else struggling to find a job rn or is it just me. I've been sending out CVs to any valid vacancy and I've had no luck for about a year. I feel like this is partly the fault of me having no job experience but no one is even willing to give me a chance. This sucks so much

#fen thoughts #vent #and its not like i have NO EXPERIENCE WHATSOEVER either #like i have a strong portfolio #even for non art jobs i worked as a ticketing/sales representative for a few months too #and yet ive had NO LUCK #im forreal thinking about going to a therapist because ive had multiple bouds of depression cus of this #and ive been told many people are also struggling #but im scared that it's just me #and its not like im not trying either i Actively Want A Job #because i want to study and live abroad #hhhh #can a girl in her 20s catch a break pleaaase i just want one thing to go right rn

[iobartach]

fml i missed mentioning miguel's birthday by a day. 💀

not that he would be the type to celebrate it, but yh.

#ooc #woo fellow friday the 13th person <3 #we're supposedly cursed yet ive always had good luck when my bday fell on a friday #....fml tho if we goby comic age im the same age as miguel rn 🥴 #battling against them corpos! #....tho thankfully it's a lot better than it was before lol #worked for one fortune 500 american corpo and i will never do so again #got treated like shit for 2 wasted years :') #happy where i am rn <3

[communistchilchuck]

guys i have the 100-question exam that basically decides if i keep my job or not and im so scared.

#i havent even technically started doing the actual job yet this is just phase one of training. i had to take classes. #ive been studying and cramming and studying and dying and studying and studying but i still dont feel confident #i need at least an 80 and i want this so bad. wish me luck. at least.

[captainimprobable]

i found yet another ace site that claims to bring ace people together and while im skeptical i met this girl who is. SO CUTE. She lives in the UK and doesn’t speak perfect English but we have all the same interests and she’s?????? Just so pretty??????? Blue’s long distance crush era perhaps 

#jaytp #we just met lol its not a Thing #but if we keep talking and she keeps being Like That #mayhaps #ive had less luck on dating apps than before i dated my ex #for some reason i dont get as many matches and i havent been on any dates yet? #its like they can sniff out the fact that im only dating aces lol #anyway pls pray for me that this girl actually likes me and keeps talking to me #have i mentioned shes pretty #dating tag

[orcelito]

The drive for chapter 12 has not abated

As soon as I am able I'm gonna be finishing that shit TODAY. So long as nothing truly catastrophic happens, then I should be able to post tonight

#speculation nation #itnl shit #not promising anything bc ive had some shit ass luck today #but. it Should happen. i want it to. #i have like 17 comments to reply to too on the last chapter hfkshfhshxkdbxkdb #which im gonna do Before i post the next chapter #it's honestly Wild how many comments ive been getting. the comment to kudos ratio is INSANE #might not be widely known yet but those that do know it Love it #anyways im pretty damn proud of what ive got going for chapter 12. #it's the first one where i feel like ive really gotten to display my writing skills. aside from chapter 1 I Guess #but even then chapter 1 was mostly experimental. you know what's Actually harder? writing Action. #coming up with action beats that are actually fun and exciting and then following through with prose #and word choice and sentence structure matters Even More than usual. bc those can directly affect the motion of the words themselves #thus affecting the perception of the actions being described #shit like that! it takes some practice and skill to do that & make it interesting #and i cant say im perfect at it. but im still pretty proud of what ive gotten done #and i am VERY excited to show it to u guys heheh

[jvzebel-x]

sweet as 🥧

♡

#so my comfort food for the last week or so has been pumpkin pie lmao #its easy to get to ~350cal on really bad days&i have yet to throw it up (🤞) so it feels kind of like a good luck food too lmao #so anyway ive been making pumpkin pies pretty regularly bc of it all&i have yet to remember to get a pic lmao #so instead have a vaguely obnoxious thirst trap set of me getting ready to go out by eating a piece of pie for quick energy #directly out of the dish while standing in my kitchen like the sewer rat i am lmao. #... this is one of my fav dresses. :) i have had it for. a VERY long time lmao i guess ive always thought the dress was kinda lucky too. #yas #♡ #tw: food

[mdnghtfae]

I GOT HIM IN THREE PULLS?! OH MY GAWD IDIA MY BELOVED IMMA SMOOCH U

#i wasnt even that serious about it yet 😭 #i was like ‘lemme just use my 3 single pull keys before bed’ #BUT I WASNT EXPECTING GOOD CARDS #this is like the best pull ive ever had 💀 i tend to have bad luck with my pulls #im still shocked tbh #idiaaaaa bless u for being so good #my schmoopsie poo 🫶🏼 #idia #idia shroud #twisted wonderland #twst

[bogkeep]

sincere apologies @ everyone who's been asking me if i have a preference for He or They pronouns, it's a very simple and well-meaning question that i appreciate very much, the short answer is "no preference" the long answer is "in an ideal world where all pronouns flow freely i would use ey/em or ze/hir but we do not live in that world, preferably i do not want to think about gender at all and they/them is a very nice set of pronouns that blends well into language IF THE LANGUAGE YOU SPEAK HAPPEN TO BE ENGLISH, but i do not live in an english speaking country and insisting on gender neutral pronouns in norway is a chore and a half and requires me to focus on gender far more than i would like to, hence insisting on he/him because people already know how to say that, and also the norwegian trans clinic does not treat non-binary people so i really gotta lean into the trans man narrative if i want treatment anyway, once again my wishes for how to express my gender identity does not mesh well with the fabric of the society i partake in, i do not know where my compromises begin and personal preferences end. in addition to that pronouns are not an important part of my personal gender expression, they are simply a necessity of language"

#i wonder if i can try my luck with hen while im in sweden tho #i just. dont yet know the Vibe of the community i'll be part of here #dont even get me started on czech btw. i have no idea how i'd refer to myself in a gender neutral way #ive had this exact talk like four times in the past couple weeks im sorry

[shikan0in-heizou]

ngl i forgot the quest for the liyue chapter of the teyvat travel guide had xingqiu in it, so pleasantly surprised to see my boy!

#remi plays a thing! #video games #genshin impact #gi: xingqiu #also holy my luck on this account is so bad #i had diluc way before i got this point on my first acc #and ive yet to pull a five star on this acc :/

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

⚠️ Spoilers for Artem Wing's sweet chapter

#artem wing #zuo ran #tears of themis #artem sweet chapter #tot artem #l'hôtel.tearsofthemis #themis.artem #my post 📫 #aerin.jpg #...... ngl i didn't really enjoy this one much. sweet chapters have been very npc fetch questy.. 🙃 #but the handful of moments at the beginning and end were cute ig #haven't gotten around to reading the most recent card/s yet.. now im just praying lol #anniv and au cards seem to be my best bets / lean more to my favor. #legit the au ones have so much plot the last set they had for the egyptian au had me on the edge of my seat every damn time #..... so clearly im saving tf up for gufeng now bc hell yeah gimme dat good shiet #have almost 200 saved up i think (yes ofc ive spent some here and there bc the package deals they do during lim banners are discounted af) #wishing us all the best of luck 😭🙏🏻

[thatcharmingjerk]

Just hanging out on a plant :)

I'm really happy he's still active and eating well, he's got a lump on the other side of his head and he was looking really rough last week so I thought it would be his time soon but now he's looking relatively well again! 💙

#my life #peetu kala #my fish #he's had the lump since summer at least maybe the whole time ive had him #i think he might have some dragon gene that can cause some growths #and yet he's my best boy!!!!! ive had really bad luck with bettas #i mean most of my previous boys were kois so there you go #but yeah lets wish the best for Peetu fish!!

[crinkler]

WHERE is the kingdom hearts amv to this song??

I know there was one but I have no idea what it was called

#it wasn't the whole song it had portions cut out #ive scrolled through my playlist #I looked through one of my usb sticks #no luck yet #god i hope it's not lost to cyberspace #video - #youtube video #i talk #amv #search #kh #Youtube

[soffies]

Only 18 hours for my final exam and I've just started studying and I don't understand anything and it's practical, meaning that I can't just bullshit my way through a 6/10 or higher. Oh! and consider that I gotta sleep! So I do NOT have all of 18 hours, I might have 10 IF I get up immediately after waking up.

Also, its 100% my fault. I have no time management skills whatsoever and I get sidetracked way too easily.

#I hope my luck with exams hasn't run out yet #fml #i hate this and i hate myself #ive spent all morning with half a braincell watching cat videos (couldnt sleep last night and was too groggy to function) #and then stressed over two emails that i had to send and finally decided to have a friend review them and sent them 5 h ago #and fell asleep like mayyyybe 15 min after trying to start to study and woke up 30 mins after sitting down #i do not recommend it my neck and higher back are hating me rn #this exam is so fucking important idk why am i being like this as if i didnt need to pass! #I'll literally lose all my hard work this year if i flunk it #sorry the tags are longer than the actual post

[wabblebees]

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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops #had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day #to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me #fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going #full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough #and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot #ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can #but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!! #sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn #whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active. #i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n #But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds #im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao. #ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao #goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well #also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao #im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao #wish me luck lmaooo #bee speaks

[strwbrymlkshake]

literalyl insane if my dumb feelings don't go away I'll have to start a normal normal rant tag for him I think –_–

#mine #i feel so bad i havent talked to anyone except my group thats involved in my hyperfixation recently uwagh #i will try to take a break tomorrow. hyperfixation doubled with guy im kind of obsessed with creates literally no time for anything else #im still taking care of myself while being so fixated i cant move for several hours. good on me for that #anyways anyways i tried not to be deranged today. not even fathoming romance atm im just happy i get to be around him teehee #made me rly think about how hes been very chill with everything ive ever said to him even tho i am a little freak . which is uncommon #i am not daydreaming about it because itll break my fucking heart but im content for now i think :) i like hanging out with him #'im normal about him' proceeds to talk abt him on my yandere blog. #im not feeling yanderish i just dont have another place to talk abt this stuff so here it is! bon appetite #im not rly freaking out as much and im good at distancing myself from him. even tho idk if anything will happen im trying to #practice controlling my insane person feelings when around him ;-; im doing good i THINK i havent been as weird #my thoughts around him are all weird and distorted and not quite romantic (yet?) but i know that i just feel comfortable w him #im:) im happy im enjoying. watch him get a partner immediately after this and i go batshit bc that is my freakin luck #well it doesnt matter i had a good time while i could and thats what counts ig . had only a smidgen of hope anyways! but its ok #i am so jaded to romance i am going to accept whatever happens and hope its atleast funny . and he finds humor in it #n i would get to hear his horrid laugh. itd be nice. i like it its very contagious. his voice maxes my brain out in serotonin #he was messing around w me in [hyperfixation] and i really enjoyed the attention hwuwhidhekfn made me flustered #i was saying like Romantic CodedTM things to him and he was just giving indecisive responses but not elaborating . so who knows #im not fretting or anything like its fun its chill i feel relaxed !! very casual stuff am having a good time. he has beautiful eyes also. #hes so talented and knows what hes doing. and hes so freaking smart he knows so much stuff oh my god. #i keep having repeated dreams abt him its weird fjdjfjdk. normal things to say abt ur friend btw. normal #i think his fascination w [redacted] is so beautiful his memory is rly good too. im NORMAL i swear #i like to cause spectacles that are memorable and funny so he pays attention to me more. i like attention from everyone but his is esp. fun #i love my friends so much i tell them that i appreciate them everyday. i hope they know they are loved so much #i probably just love the side of himself he chooses to show n not his authentic true self bc online stuff oh well #tho i do feel if you spend an ungodly amnt of hrs straight with someone then you are bound to know them more intimately #i love doing absolutely nothing with my friends and make our own fun in boredom. reminds me of my childhood #maybe i am allowed to think abt him awkwardly patting me on the head. as a treat #this guy reminds me of a previous love interest too except he doesnt emotionally abuse me or himself and has a freaking soul #💿

[iron-sides]

trying to watch haikyuu stage plays with english subs is a circle of purgatory i think

#you have to download everything. every post has a bolded all caps message begging you to pay for the official release which isnt subbed #and even if it was if i had the money for that we wouldnt be here. there is exactly one file for subs of each given show #like as in: the singular shinka no natsu sub file every post seema to link to has been broken at least six months and no one else has #put up subs for that ever so im just out of luck. you have to download subs and video separately #one of the seemingly three total people putting the videos up has closed ALL of their bc people keep putting them on youtube #theres minimal linkage between video download posts and sub download posts so all the googling is in two separate tags #if i can find subs i cant find the video. if i can find video i cant find subs #i just wanted to watch shinka no natsu. i couldnt get subs. then i thought well heres dumpster battle subs thats not even animated yet how #fun! i cant find video and the movie is complicating things. im mot downloading the tokyo qualifiers. this is not what i wanted but its #better than nothing. maybe #ive been at this for like 2 hours #wait i might not be able to get video for this #ugh. wish me luck. this is what i get for being into anime ig #my thots #haterism