#anyways i love how trans people love bodies

[mokutone]

hi what do you think abt t4t kakayama (it's canon to me tbh)

:) hi ty for the question. i will do two sweet pictures of them being intimate and then under the cut there's going to be a longer very unsweet and more technical response

so i'm usually not a very shippy person! but that said i am also on the record as an occasional kakayama + kakayamagai enjoyer

i do hc them both as trans and in different ways w/ different experiences of transition and identity! i have no interest in proving my view as canon, but i do regard my reading of the text (text here including the anime) as a valid interpretation of yamato's experience of identity

yamato, for example, imo, doesnt have any real lived experience of being raised as a child of any gender. he was an experimental subject, and then he was Danzō's weapon/vessel for the mokuton, and then he was in anbu.

in a fun little word game which should not be taken seriously: it'd almost be more fitting to describe him as "adgender" rather than "transgender" since the prefix "trans" implies moving across where the prefix "cis" means to stand still, but the prefix "ad" means "to move towards" and i headcanon him as somebody who was degendered as a child, not in a cool nonbinary way, but instead in a dehumanizing, objectifying way, so his experience of creating his identity and his gender along with it is one of moving toward the concept of gender this word doesn't and wont exist, but bc of the way english works it would probably be simplified to be spelled precisely the same as "agender" in the same way that "aggression" came from latin "aggredi" which came from "ad" (meaning to/toward) and and latin "gradus" (meaning step) (essentially the combination means "to step to" [in a threatening manner]) the only diferences is where agender (meaning no gender) is pronounced ay-gender, the agender that comes from adgender would be prounounced more like "uhgender" in the same way that agressive isnt pronounced like "ay-gressive" but instead like "uhgressive"

and then...as for kakashi? i just decided on vibes. i didn't think hard about it.

i guess i should also say that, while i draw kakayama very infrequently, when i do draw it i usually try to be very apparent about the transness in the artwork if i can? especially if i'm drawing anything more intimate than a peck on the cheek. it's no secret that shipping is often times the most energized part of fandom, and i kind of don't want to produce romantic or sexual artwork which will be enjoyed by people who don't think trans people can be attractive? or who find that trans headcanons make a character uninteresting to them? or worse, "ruin" a depiction of a character to them?

often i think about in terms of. IF there are people that follow me that love my work (usually) and think that kakashi or yamato are hot (usually) and love kakayama (usually) but get frustrated or even uncomfortable out when i draw them as explicitly trans? then i'm drawing all intimate artwork of them as explicitly trans.

it's a little like...nobody gets to love my work if transgender characters are a turnoff for them. that's the bar for entry, is the way i think of it, but really its more like putting onions in a dish. if you want to eat the dish you have to eat the onions. if you don't want to eat the onions, don't eat the dish. all the meals i make contain onions. i'll never compromise on my intention to put onions in every dish i make. that's my ninja way, as the kids say.

especially in the climate we're in right now.

i don't know. i have a lot of feelings about how most fandoms tend to view trans men, especially in terms of romantic and sexual relationships. I'm doing a bad job of expressing the depth of how much seeing how fandom treats trans male identity and transmasculine bodies impacts the way that i draw + write kakayama, but genuinely it's something i think about every single time i create content about them.

#yamswers #danova #often even when there r trans characters/trans hcs of characters the m/m pairings are usually trans + cis #+ i wanna emphasize: there's nothing wrong with that. trans+cis relationships are as beautiful and valid as t4t #but...in fiction...there's like. expectations. of how a trans guy will act in a relationship with a cis guy #literally every transmasc person knows exactly what im fucking talking about lol #i'm trying to keep this conversation PG bc naruto is not an adult show—so. anyway #the presence of t4t depictions is basically essential in offering an alternative image of relationships + intimacy for trans individuals #a view of trans bodies which is not designed for the pleasure of cis consumption+assumption #a view of trans bodies not couched in an artist statement saying ''this is a trans body. this is how you interact with a body like it.'' #sometimes even stuff made by trans people will cater to explaining transness to cis people + thats fine and okay and— #—can be cathartic to create. esp as a trans person since so many of us are Surrounded by cis people irl #but. as a singular consumer. i get tired of that. i don't want it—at least not in the way that fandom frequently produces #i'm sorry this was probably an ask that expected a reply full of trans love and just got a bunch of technical stuff back #but to be fair this IS how i feel about t4t kakayama

[ow-old-men]

Sure, Cassidy is good when he’s drafted into blackwatch, but it’s all brute force and instinct; tension that will wear him away in the long run

And Reyes doesn’t care, doesn’t have the time to, really. Not when it still works and his own body allows him to disregard technique and finesse- they can learn later, now they have to do

So it’s Ana who steps in, her legs folded under her and rifle rested against her knees, her hands strong and nimble while she cleans it. Movements like water and waves. “Lower your shoulders or you’ll wreck them.”

The end of his barrel and his cigar send twin towers of smoke into the air and he has to look up at her, perched over the training range. “Cap’n?”

“And stop doing spins. It adds flair but lowers accuracy, and this is no joke or fair.” She is looking at him in a way few people will ever do again, makes him want to bristle at critique and yet making him unable to.

It carries him, through smoke and gunfire and heartbreak and decay. Her hands over his while Peacekeeper clicks apart, the nooks and crannies you have to reach, or dirt will build up.

“You make it look so easy,” he says and feels equal parts pride and shame at how raw the words sound.

Her face moves, lines that weren’t there a year ago, a month, a week. She hands back his gun. “You shouldn’t have to fight this hard.”

And then he is alone and she is only alive when he whips around in empty buildings thinking he saw something glint off a scope on a rooftop.

Mostly, he doesn’t think about it, but sometimes he does.

A shot that lands exactly where he wants it and suddenly she is breathing close to his ear. Proud and sad and ingrained into every muscle that makes it possible. He visits her grave only once and finds she isn’t there half as much as she is in his hands, the slope of his shoulders; his body made a graveyard by her kindness

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #Ana amari #Cole Cassidy #cassidy #I’m so serious about Ana being Cass’ primary mentor in original overwatch #ask me about trans cass coming out to Ana and I’ll just cry type for multiple thousand words #anyway this could have been a fic but you get this instead #the most violent form of love is reaching people stuff #what do you MEAN I’ll have to think of you every time I peel potatoes to the day I die?? #how dare you ingrain your life on my body and my mind like that

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say..... #it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me. #i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable. #bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there. #dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH???? #my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way. #Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer. #Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this? #For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this. #why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness? #What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...? #hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!! #i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful. #but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting. #I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing. #I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come. #Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

[charliethemanticore]

Hi btw being trans does not automatically grant you supernatural understanding of all esoteric trans knowledge. You actually need to put effort into learning or put effort into keeping quiet about things that don't pertain to your specific experience

#my cishet brother has a better grasp of transgender theory than my transgender bisexual sister because he like... did some basic research #meanwhile my sister confidently told me 'oh youre nit trans youre neutral' the ither week and i almost slapped her #miss maam i am nonbinary and i have been out as some kind of trans for ten years i will politely ask you to shut up ONCE #also in no universe am i 'neutral' but even if i WAS by definition i would not be identifying wholly with my assigned sex #WHICH WOULD MAKE ME TRANSGENDER ANYWAY #apparently shes been portraying herself as the only trans in the family despite the fact that ive BEEN OUT FOR A DECADE #like ms maam when i came out you were TEN YEARS OLD. i taught you what transgender meant! i know for certain i taught you better #i DEFINITELY taught you better than to TELL PEOPLE WHAT THEY ARE #like okay i guess if youre not into research and history and you just wanna exist without having yo be an expert that is fine #but DO NOT present yourself as an expert. you are an expert in YOUR BODY and YOUR EXPERIENCES #like. shes got severe 'no one has ever done it like me. i am the weirdest girl at the party' syndrome #while also having the personality of an edgy piece of toast #i love her but i have. been very angry at her and i cant even say anything about it #like. baby girl you are a very generic case of autism and transgender and bisexuality. youre not the most random unique case #'how could you understand?!' meanwhile im sitting there wildly neuridivergent and transgender and i got eldest daughter/third parent trauma #like hmm yeah i wonder what id know about it. i wonder how i could possibly understand. i wonder how i could possibly offer relevant advice #i give up #shes a fucking edge lord and our mum feeds into it rather than being like 'some of your experiences are actually universal' #anyway rant over #my brother is an angel and i eould die for him. worlds best ally #he has never once misgendered me or made me feel weird about it. unlike some other siblings who demands i punch her if she gets it wrong #like... no? stop being weird about it youre making me more uncomfortable than using the wrong pronoun did #mums like that too 'oh i messed up hit me!' like no #how old are you? #grow up im not gonna hit you back why would hurting you make me feel better? does hurting people make you feel better? #cause that sounds like something you should see a licensed professional about. i dont care if its a therapist or a bartender #just do it away from me #rant #personal #delete later

[vulpinesaint]

it’s not cute to be self conceited and narcissistic

sure it is. because i'm the one doing it and i'm cute (<— conceited self centered and narcissistic take)

#sorry for being hot. they hate to see a girlboss winning #i'm trans and all people want me to do is hate myself and hate my body and live in misery so! #i get to be soooooo self-obsessed however and whenever i want. hope this helps <3 #fr anon you should try being a little bit conceited. people don't like it sometimes but it's good for you!!! #if we want radical self love we can take some time to be annoying about it #anyway. if you're not down with me posting about how much i love myself and how hot i think i am then you can leave it's fine #i don't want you here either if you're gonna be a buzzkill about the way that i'm literally sooooo gorgeous <3 #block me and move on babes. hope you find some more things you love about yourself today <3 #ask

[unusualshrimp]

hmm gender thoughts

#the people who made pronouns page have another website right #and one of the options there is you can pin your gender on a gradient that goes hypermasculine -> androgynous -> hyperfeminine #and it's like a linear gradient and i hate that SO MUCH. this is hostile architecture for Me Specifically #[disclaimer that if you find that type of thing helpful that's completely fine] #but anyway my gender is like. im a guy but not in a trans guy way #and im a girl but NOT in a cis girl way and i call myself girl in my head a lot but i am a bit Sensitive about how other people use it? #and im always thinking too hard about ''are they acknowledging my 5D chess gender or subconsciously saying it because of my appearance'' #if someone called me androgynous or whatever im stabbing them though. idk that just feels so... gender neutral? and im not gender neutral #do ya feel me. #i feel a bit silly typing all this but ah this is the transgender website i think u all would understand me #im a guy like. you know the weird guy who shows up overdressed to casual events but he looks nice so its fine really #and also like. guy who always wears black and looks cool [the cool might just be in my head but thats fine] #and. i might have to think harder abt how i feel regarding Girl ™. i dont want to discard it because i do love doing my own thing with it #but also like being perceived as a cis girl (intentionally or unintentionally) makes me want to jump out of my body. lol. anyway #this is all so sucks honestly my favourite gender is just creature. #you see a thing so weird you just go '' oh god what is that'' and not gender. although i do like the flavour of it/its that is so niceys... #like yeas i want to be a scary looking thing (unattainable) but also.... what if i was jus a lil creature. #and i sat at your door and made 🥺 faces until u let me in and then i sat cosy near your fireplace for a bit... thatd be nice #i dont want to worry about gender anymore i want headpats....................... #oh jesus uhh #long post #<- for the tags

[merge-conflict]

I realize there are some practical limitations to different models (I’ll save my pc body types rant for another day) but sometimes all I can do is daydream longingly for the kind of extreme body modifications that must be possible in Cyberpunk- even if homebrewed and hacked or in a risky gray area like the maelstrom optic nerve stuff. Where’s the person with a super long segmented centipede like body? Extra limbs? Forget fursuits where are the furries who have enough money to make themselves look more like animals? What does adapting to that level of change take? I have to assume it’s pretty fringe– either someone’s life work tinkering or people who are so rich they can afford to be an “oddity”. What does it look like when you can change your body at will? And then what happens when your prototypes have wear and tear? If you don’t have a good time adjusting? Like Smasher is considered to be an outlier in that he enjoys being a borg, and he has had multiple frames he’s used (including the humanlike gemini one) so clearly it’s a technical possibility…

I’m very wary of how the dream treats cyberpsychosis tbh, and my own personal feelings about it are that it has more to do with everyone’s stress levels being more or less unmanageable all the time even without physical changes and recovery. (Not holding my breath for whatever they’ve implemented as a mechanic for the dlc btw. I’m sure it won’t be tasteless or reductive.) But there’s gotta be somebody out there who wants a “weird” body and can get it and I’m fascinated at the idea of free for all (consensual) body modification and there’s very little delivery. I can’t even take off my tits in game, y’know? Then at the very end of the game you can choose to be digitized and no one even begins to explore what that means in universe and it makes me want to eat my keyboard and add about a dozen more exploratory stories to the pile.

#valentine’s network proprioception is very near and dear to me #love thinking about senses and inputs and how someone can operate their interface without a keyboard #imagining the spectrum of people who do everything on the go and those who don’t want or can’t afford that #people still having phones anyway because sometimes it’s nice to manipulate externally #but then I think about what’s physically possible and how the brain can remap functionality #and yeah i know cyberpunk is gritty and grimdark but ughhhh #why shouldn’t i be able to have a giant spider body #maybe the halfway mark is some sort of specialized mech but idk man #i’m not trans just to avoid the possibility of euphoria/dysphoria when taken to new limits #no reblogs because i’m still pondering this and i saw how people treated that attack helicopter piece and no thanks lol

[todayisafridaynight]

Nooo the trans allegory is also a Big one for me in that song, but I know not everybody is about Trans Aoki so I figured it went well with his disabilities regardless. And like yeah blah blah basic whatever, idc y'know, I'm here to enjoy life so imma listen to music people don't like 😂🤣

But you're so real for the trans Aoki thoughts okay.... I love both cis and trans interpretations of the Boy bc he's fits very well in both categories. It's all just spice y'know!! You sprinkle some of this... Some of that... And tomorrow you make a new dish! Love moving head canons around for funsies

Anyway ty for validating my music choices 🫡 good luck charging your phone

i dont really hc charas any particular sexuality or gender since i always feel weird about it its called being BORING its what I AM but its the way i was playin y7 and just kept jokin bout it every time the game gave me a chance until the very last scene then i was just like.. hm... feels less like a joke to me now... its just what my eyes perceive at this point.. sorry...

but i got you covered with music choices man !!!! i like most music even if it can be considered 'overplayed' or 'generic' like idk man... if it makea me feel ima listen to it..

#snap chats #love how i forgot the Eyes lyrics to Body when it's deadass the first line.. STUPID ASS !!!!!!! #but anyways. yeah it been a hot year since i talked bout trans aoki LMAO #honestly if it wasnt for the fact i saw korean artists draw aoki with top scars (and specifying they were TS scars) then id prob just like #be quiet about it. cause most of the time i was just jokin like the whole injections bit and his voice being hoarse in eng #and nasally in jp... lol.... the jokes were being lined up for me... and then he went and changed his name #and got surgery that made him feel more at home in his body... LIKE THEY PROVIDE NON-TRANS REASONS WHY HE DOES THIS #I KNOW but thats why i just kept /jokin/ bout it cause i was like 'lmao' yk. Lmao congrats your accidental trans rep is republican #AND THAT'S WHY IT'S FUNNY TO HC HIM AS TRANS CAUSE HE SUCKS !!!!! i want more shitty people as trans rep #im p sure im the only one who 'openly' hcs him trans but not even. like i remember twitter was Allegedly mad at me for drawing aoki a lot #and they made a point bout me makin him trans but like... i never even 'publicly' made him trans.. #when i'd draw aoki without a shirt i'd give him scars but those were from his lung surgery.. lmao... #not my fault the scars look Like That... cause i like drawing scars leave me alone... #my DB followers know i was obsessed with drawing yamcha's leg scar from when his leg was broken #Truly just a coincidence but also not cause it Was lowkey intentional but anyways.. lol... #i remember the period where people were askin me bout the hc.. hehe... #My Apologies for going on the Trans Aoki rant i still do very much like to joke bout it with myself.... it was too real to me... #every time i think of The Specifics i start to get like 👁️👁️ because then it gets too real so i gotta stop before i start crying.... #it's not that the HC is personal or deep to me or anything it's just funny <- in denial for the bit #anyway.. i havent been able to be productive all day so !! time to start i have a really hectic week and its only getting worse (╯▽╰ ) #thanks for letting me ramble... and feel validated for being delulu... #lowkey funny that While True you said not everyone's about the HC Which Is True it's why i dont talk about it a lot #but like... Not To Be Presumptuous And Self-Important but i do remember being one o the first people to bring it up with other aoki fans.. #imagine me not being abot my own hc.. or at least one i stand heavily by... lmao..

[areyoudoingthis]

i had an even better theater class today i love doing things that move me and inspire me

#we to pick a news headline from this week to put together an image and the classmates in my group picked the headline about how my uni #approved nonbinary degrees which incidentally was my doing cause i was the one who asked them to so i can get my new degree #but they were the ones who wanted to do it cause i was in the group they're so nice!!!! #people are good!!!!!! #i loved using my body to represent that it felt so good #i got to use my nonbinary id as a prop too which was so cool!!!! #i feel like a little kid who got to play and have fun #i even got to stick my tongue out to the actors who represented the bigoted comments in the news website #i love that transitioning and being trans has allowed me to connect with my body in a playful way like I'd never been able to before #one of my classmates made a fascist mustache out of tape with a black marker and i couldn't stop laughing when i saw her #humor and play and activism are so necessary to process heavy shit #anyway i can't stop smiling happy pride yall!!!!!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ 🖤💜🤍💛 #alex txt

[mirrorballdazai]

explain what do you mean by "sexual attraction" ? how exactly does that differ from "romantic attraction" if there's no implications about sex? i genuinely don't understand how exactly will byers, who is clearly gay and attracted to mike is somehow "asexual" ergo doesn't experience attraction towards anyone ?? unless you're implying something sexual with it, which is, again, irrelevant, because it's a minor and discussing minors sex lives is 💀

i am asexual and since he’s my favorite character i headcanon him as asexual, nothing deeper than that i promise you 😭

#same for mike #it’s like when i headcanon them as trans or (in mike’s case) as gay. i’m those things so i headcanon my favorite characters as such #it’s not that deep #anyway he’s clearly attracted to mike but it doesn’t have to be a physical thing #like you can find someone beautiful without being physically attracted to them #for example you could think Oh that person is aesthetically pleasing. they’re beautiful. would i kiss them? no #and that kind of reasoning doesn’t make you Not In Love with that person #also now that i think about it why is he clearly attracted to him ?? romantically it’s clear #but physically ?? #apart from that scene in the desert when they’re burying the body i can’t recall any moment of him showing attraction to mike Like That #and that scene doesn’t even have to be like that he’s looking at him in a im-in-love-with-you-way #so apart from the romantic attraction there’s nothing more #eh whatever #anyone can interpret that as they want it’s a look it could mean a lot of things #but still #also you said I don’t understand how will who is gay and in love with mike doesn’t experience attraction #He does ! #but romantically ! #also people headcanon dustin as asexual since s1 and no one ever said anything why you so mad #byler #byler tumblr #will byers is gay

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #seeing hornyposting on tumblr makes me realize just how insecure my last bf was about his weight #and how much internalized phobia he had about so many things (but thinking about the fatphobia specifically here) #which like. tragic because I deadass forget that people irl do have and perpetuate fatphobia #like. he was so good and chunky and I loved that but he was so wildly insecure and wanted to be skinny again and I was like noooooo #the amount of times he would make fun of fat dudes and then turn around and shame himself for putting on weight. #not very healthy and also it's like that thing how it's hard to compliment someone if they always deflect it and insist you're wrong #hard to let someone know you actually do think they're hot as fuck when they're always like ew I'm ugly I wish I were different #also... a fat guy isn't gonna use his chub in a sexy way if he's insecure about it. #like. yes pin me down with your weight and make me breathe it in. but if that just makes you insecure about your body then you're not gonna #kinda like how if you like dick but the trans woman you're with is dysphoric about it then you're not both gonna have a good time #anyway. fat people rule and chub is good and one of my many goals is to assure the people I sleep with that I think their bellies are hot #I showered with my gf a few nights back and like. honestly damn. she asked about what I thought and I was like girl you're serving classical #like. very heart shaped in the way the belly lines lead toward the thighs. idk it's very beautiful and I like it a lot. #I get that a lot of people prefer my hyper-slim body type and sure that's fair. but don't erase us who prefer heavier people. #like. I keep thinking about her. #I don't remember which art period it is that's got her specific body type I said Renaissance but I looked and they're thinner there #anyway. still figuring out how my sexuality relates to my own body because gender dysphoria forever. but I know how I feel about others

[charliethemanticore]

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#im so tired of how the world treats trans people #and how i seem to be expected to be constantly up to date on 100% of the terrible shit thats going on #even in countries i do not live in and have no power to influence #im so tired of 'youre trans? but you dont post xyz about it& #like im tired yall #ive got so much other stuff going on in so tired of being expected to fight every fight all the time #but its not even fighting itsnjust doom scrolling and making my quality of life actively worse by triggering preexisting mental health shit #like. i wasnt able to go to the Brisbane protest because i was recovering from covid #but also im disabled and the route was long and hilly so i wouldbt have been able to fo that anyway #but that means that im bad #and in my class dealing with current issues it was just assumed id wanna focus in trans issues #i dont want to spend all my time thinking about how the world wants me dead #thats normal right? #like to not be expected to fight tooth and nail all the time? #like sometimes i wanna enjoy being trans and not have a panic attack or trigger my agoraphobia because thats where the people are #being trans brings me so much joy and im so annoyed that the default setting #is me being expected to consume nothing but negative content about how much the world hates me #i love being trans #its one of the things about me that brings me inherent joy. #so much about my body is broken #i dont want to be reminded that a lot of the world thinks thats one of those things #im tired #i want to be allowed my joy #ive had to stop looking at a friend's social media because everything he shares is miserable #like bro you keep saying youre anxious all the time #how does watching and sharing 80 reels a day about American policy help anyone? #how does what you share to your stories help you or any other trans person? #he doesnt follow me this isnt a vague post this is just a ramble #im sorry im tired. #delete later

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i need to be a man.

#bluebird.txt #getting singing lessons soon. listening to musicals. listening to choral works. got put in the alto section this semester. #someone. please. hit me with a testosterone beam. please. i want to be a man so bad i want to be a tenor i want #to sing like a man I WANT TO BE A MAN‼️‼️‼️ #just like. in body. cuz gender who cares about gender i'll dress how i like i'll continue not shaving i'll do what i want #i’ll probably come across as an obnoxious gay man stereotype but WHO GIVE A SHIT ILL BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LAYGH LOVE!!!!! #idk ik my friends know im trans but it feels so frustrating sometimes because im 'not a real man' #and i know everyone can see that and i feel like everyone who knows im trans still thinks of me as #a girl #:/ #when people call me they it's like hehe but when they call me man-associated words it's like HAHA YES THAT IS WHAT I AM YAY #anyways. sigh. transgenderism.

[hms-tardimpala]

Today I love...

TRANS SEX

When you've got a deeply complex and layered relationship with your body and your gender expression and this feeling can best be understood by another trans person. When you use what organs you have to achieve pleasure without caring about their intended purpose. When years of reflecting on gender and exploring its limits made you in touch with your desires and you've developed kinks and you're so in tune with yourself you know exactly what makes you tick and conceive no shame for it.

FREAKY SEX FUN SEX ALL KINDS OF SEX BUT MOST OF ALL TRANS SEX

#guys there is just such a joy to being trans #do cis people feel this same joy? I hope so‚ everybody deserves gender elation #anyway trans people are the hottest #let's put your body and mine on the table and we'll figure out how to cook up something good #today I love #trans #lgbt