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chris-continues · 1 year
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Autistic Knives Headcanons
By an autistic writer
Written with the idea of it being modern AU
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-Knives is one of the best people to hangout w if ur social battery is dead/you’re overwhelmed in public. He won’t show it much but he’s most empathetic to others in that situation- whisking you away somewhere quieter, or giving people a death glare if they bother you.
-Knives has a set routine- the only person who can sort of break this routine is Vash, and that’s because he has a mini routine of his own (although he’s a bit more spontaneous)
This routine consists of:
Waking up at 6:30, (he takes long ass showers so this time is most definitely needed)
He’ll start by washing his face, brushing his teeth, showering, changing into clothes he set out the day before.
Then he’ll prepare small things he carries on him (aka headphones- check their charge, watch- check the time + charge)
He’ll make a small breakfast and check on the groceries- vash drank the rest of the apple juice, he’ll have to go get some more on his way back home. He writes this down in his reminders.
At this time, vash will be messily tugging on his combat boots, checking how tight the laces are. He’ll bid him goodmorning and they’ll head their separate ways.
-he stims by biting his cheek or having his nails etch into his hands, clenching and unclenching his fists.
-knives is especially irritable when running late. It’s slight panic and uncomfortable-ness disguised with irritation and annoyance, and Vash can definitely tell. (Aka, vash helps to prep everything/help them go where they’re supposed to go while knives tries to calm down) because running off schedule drives him crazy and puts a damper on his day
-Knives schedules dr’s appointments for Vash. “You need your checkup.”
“But I feel fine! Besides, we’re tryna sav-“
“You need your checkup. Maybe they’ll check you for a brain tumor, since you’re so ignorant.” (Aka: take care of your health you idiot)
-Knives studies intently- he’s a big fan of libraries (he hates to admit that he works better when other ppl are around, maybe in a rush to leave or maybe in a longing for company??)
-I think quality time is a big thing for him- just sitting in silence w him is something nice and intimate in a way.
-Knives loves escorting u with his arm and u link arms bc you both have a sensory thing where you hate sweaty hands
-He needs you at his side- you’re going to get lost or do something stupid. And you depend on him, right? he doesn’t just depend on you, you need him, right? It’s for your own safety- if you’re not back in one piece it’ll nag him to no end. You’re annoying like that.
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monkeykilogram · 1 year
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an unlikely detective duo
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crazycatsiren · 8 months
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supernova351 · 1 day
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A stim toy could’ve saved Millions Knives
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chuthulhu-reads · 10 months
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[ID: Five panels from Trigun Maximum. The background and borders are solid black instead of solid white. Before the first panel are speech bubbles saying, "Mama. Mama, look!" The second panel shows a small child pointing as his mother, a pretty woman with a kind smile, crouches next to him. In the second panel, the mother looks down at the child and says, "She's pretty, isn't she?" The little boy, still staring up, asks, "Why..." In the third panel, he looks up at his mother and continues, "...Is she in there?" In the fourth panel, the mother puts her hands on the kid's shoulders and looks up as she says, "She's... working." In the fifth panel, the mother smiles back down at her son as she says, "It's thanks to her that you, mama and papa can live here safely." The little boy looks confused. End ID.]
I WEEP over this flashback. They're introducing the plant to their child not as something weird or alien, but pretty. Not as a thing, but a person who's working, who's not just property of the community but a crucial member of it. In the next panels, the mother prompts her child to thank the plant in a way that looks both like a hyper-respectful Japanese bow and Christian prayer.
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[ID: Three panels from Trigun Maximum. The first shows the little boy pointing up with a big smile. Behind him, his mother is looking back over her shoulder at her husband, a smiling man in glasses. The little boy is saying, "Mama, look! She smiled!" The second panel shows the little boy still looking up and smiling as, behind him, his parents talk and laugh together. In the third panel, the boy is turning away and looking at his parents, saying, "See?" as the father smiles and waves and the mother looks surprised. After the last panel, there's black space, and a last speech bubble saying, "She smiled..." End ID.]
She smiled. She smiled at a child smiling at her. She smiled at a child who was alive because of her. She smiled at the people who loved her and prayed to her and thanked her. She treasured them enough to remember their smiles even after being fused into the horrendous amalgamation in the Ark.
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[ID: Two panels from Trigun Maximum. The first shows Knives looking startled, wide-eyed and sweating, the left side of his face flaking somewhat. The second panel shows him standing on a walkway over a huge mass of fused plants, an uncomfortably fleshy mess of wings, veins, and random limbs. Knives is saying, "Was that..."]
LOOK at that. Knives himself knows he's at risk of losing his sense of self inside that mass, and Chronica later says that plants don't innately have an individual sense of self to begin with. Yet one of those plants remembered some of the humans she once supported fondly enough to cling to that memory, no matter what; or, perhaps, that memory was so beloved by every other plant that saw it that they all kept it, all shared it and held it close to their hearts, all that love battering against Knives' shaky mental walls of rage and hatred and fear.
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[ID: A chaotic double-page spread from Trigun Maximum. The first four panels show a quick sequence of Knives falling to his knees and gasping as he clutches at his face, his eyes widening desperately. The next three panels are thin slices, each showing a larger and larger number of random people, like you're pulling out from a crowd that just keeps getting bigger. Despite how many people are crammed into each panel, artistic effort has been put into making each face unique and distinct from each other. The next face shows Knives' face literally cracking and splitting into a number of panels showing the Project Seeds ships, stars in space, the shooting-star image of the ships falling, a sun rising over ruined ships, and the elongated arms of a plant reaching out from among folded wings. A panel at the bottom of the page shows Knives screaming as it looks like the flesh is actually melting off of his face. The last panel shows Elendira running towards him, crying out, "Knives!" End ID.]
I really think, at the end of the day, the plants don't necessarily mind being relied on as producers, because I think they love life and creation. They've held onto all of these faces, all these people who were alive because of them. Short of the horror of the Last Runs, maybe they take pride in what they do. Maybe seeing other lives flourish from theirs makes them happy. We don't know for sure, but for all the body horror in their imagery, they are still, ultimately, evocative of angels. And they're reaching out to Knives with enough love for humanity to fracture the walls in his mind that he's put up against the reality of what the Big Fall was, against remembering that he did once love humans, and then he killed tens of millions of them. Being forced to see humans as Vash and the other plants do--as individuals, as living things, as people--is literally tearing him apart. God this page is a real artistic flex from Nightow, both in terms of panel composition and just thumbing his nose at mangaka that draw the same three faces forever
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bananonbinary · 1 year
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the pro-bullying dumbasses on social media are obviously wrong and cruel, but i also think (or maybe hope) they like...genuinely have no idea what they're referring to. like they think 'bullying' is some shit you'd seen on a nickelodeon comedy or something, like some pg insults and a smash cut and your underwear's on your head, and not like. literal assault and murder attempts. like its such a complete disconnect from what it actually looks like when people talk about 'shoving into lockers' as if that's a cartoony action and not a deeply violent and traumatizing idea when you actually think about it for more than a second.
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Benoit Blanc from the Knives Out series is autistic, submitted by anon!
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stefisdoingthings · 20 hours
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“Trigun au where Vash and Knives are autistic”this, “Trigun au where Vash and Knives are trans” that….Do you. mean the canon universe?
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autism-crime · 1 year
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Another headcanon I have of Knives is that he appears more inhuman than Vash.
Mainly because I believe Vash would put more effort into blending in with humans, he wants to get along with them and live beside them but he knows that his more Plant like features are off putting and uncanny, so he hides as many as he can. Humans can still see that something isn’t quite normal about him, but they’ll probably just brush it off and think he’s just a bit weird.
But with Knives, he doesn’t care what humans think about him, and he doesn’t want to seen as one either. Anyone who looks at him immediately knows he’s not human. His eyes are too bright, teeth too sharp, skin too perfect. There’s an aura about him, one that instantly labels him as a threat, as something more. He’s a higher being hidden in a false human camouflage, there’s so much more to his form than just what humans can perceive.
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whattfisausername · 1 year
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I relate to Benoit Blanc because I too was going mad without a special interest until Glass Onion happened.
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raptureshots · 23 days
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im so. so so sooo happy abt all the. Fontaine appreciation thats been happening recently like!!!!!! AUGHH Frank has been my fav character for a HOT MINUTE and his character is just. really interesting to me... thank u guys...
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chris-continues · 1 year
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Fluff Alphabet!
With the one and only Nai Saverem! These will be answered with the idea that you’re in a college au (following the plot + ideas I’ve set up for my college au Knives via drabbles + hcs)
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Activities - What do they like to do with their s/ o? How do they spend their free time with them?
Nai is a very introverted person. I don’t think he’d really enjoy an extroverted partner- and your relationship started by quietly studying beside one another. (Hence, appealing to one of his love languages, quality time). He could sit in a room while you both do your own thing (aka, body doubling, because Knives is neurodivergent and so is reader)
So- basically anything with you. But preferably at home. Cozied up. He relishes in embracing you.. or possibly you embracing him. He’s very grateful to have you, so he’s not too picky on whatever you’re doing, as long as it’s not in an overstimulating environment.
Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
As cheesy as it sounds, your smile. The way you beam was practically (and to his annoyance) engraved into his mind. There’s also your intense yet focused eyes. When you’re studying intently you have certain ways you focus, and when you’re excited your stims are very endearing.
For him? He finds his markings beautiful. He’s very proud of his plant heritage and when you’re eager to know more, he’ll tell you whatever he can. It means a lot to him that you care to ask, many brush it aside or don’t bother. (Which it is the bare minimum, and he acknowledges that, but he is somewhat eager to interest you and inform you. Plant heritage is a special interest of his he enjoys, and a past hyperfixation. Nowadays he’s more focused on composing music.)
Comfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
He knows the feeling all too well- and he’s comforted Vash many times as well. Depending on your preference, (which you would’ve discussed beforehand and he would’ve known because he’s prepared like that), it can go two different ways.
1. If you don’t want touch. He’s fine with that, that’s what he tends to lean towards since he’s normally very touch repulsed, especially when upset. He’ll speak to you, sitting in front of you in a firm voice, grounding you. “You’re here. Breathe. It’s ok.” He’s very good at this.
2. If you crave touch, he’ll give it to you. Holding you, cradling your head in the expanse of his chest and lulling you, (and as mentioned above), grounding you with his voice. He’s got a very assertive presence and he makes that clear when comforting you- you’re not alone.
Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
Knives has thought about the future- academics wise. Romance wasn’t really on his “list of things to think about,” as much as creating a stable life for himself and Vash if needed. He’s a young “adult” forced to grow up far too fast, and while he enjoys you, reveres you, cherishes you- he’s thought of other priorities. But, if he managed to sit down and think about it.. a future with you would be nice. He just doesn’t really know what that would look like yet.
Equal - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
Knives is a very dominant and imposing person, and he mostly knows what he wants and needs. He'll voice his opinions to you and (most of the time) will be direct with what he wants. He enjoys having a sense of control, so while he will do his best to listen to you, you will have to take the reigns of communication and remind him this is a two way street.
Your input for things (such as where you both should get takeout, where you'll study, etc) is very reasonable, so he won't be disagreeing unless he has good rhyme or reason.
Fight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
When you do argue, like 90% of the time it’s because of him. You’re a good communicator in comparison to him, and while you’re patient with him sometimes things happen. Knives has a love hate relationship with his anger, because it’s what’s kept him alive, but it’s also what drives you away.
He’d plead for your forgiveness by leaving things at your door, such as snacks and food, letters and short texts wishing you well. Not that they sound tender, they’re abnormally stiff, just like the rest of his texts. You’ll have to initiate a meeting in person with him, he waits until you’re ready and he apologizes by silently murmuring, “I miss you” repeatedly into your hair as he holds you.
He’s sorry he’s like this.
Gratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
Knives is for the most part, aware. He never wants to take you for granted, even though he does sometimes. After your first fight, he makes an effort to acknowledge what you do for him more often by being more reactive, thanking you more in the small ways he shows his love.
Honesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
He has his own past, and he’s had his own struggles, they’re not really secret, but he doesn’t talk about it much. They certainly do define how he sees the world, and how he understands certain things and experiences along with aspects of his life, but they don’t necessarily define him as a person.
He’s always kept more to himself, and while the situations he’s been through certainly made that more extreme, he’s his own person regardless of his experiences. He doesn’t hide it from you, but it will take him awhile to say much about it to you. He doesn’t consider it to be too important towards your relationship- if you open up about any experiences you’ve had he’s most certainly willing to listen though.
Inspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
You’ve definitely helped him become more touchy. Not with anyone else really, just you. You’ve also aided him in conveying his feelings, and he’s most certainly not proficient but you praise him for his progress.
Jealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
Knives would hate to lose you- especially since you’re one of the few good things in his life besides his studies and Vash. He has very few people he prioritizes, but when he does, he loves with his whole heart and it terrifies him. If someone is going to take you away, he’s wary of them. He reminds himself that he can trust you- you reassure him on this every time you speak of your love for him, and if he communicates this or you pick up on it you’ll spoil him with extra affection.
But it takes him awhile to admit it, so how does he handle it? Shoving it into the recesses of his mind in hopes the problem won’t arise again. It’s been his response to such bothersome things for years now.
Kiss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
The first kiss? I have yet to write that.. good idea. But it was an awkward mash of lips that led to embarrassment and regret until you spoke of it, reassuring him you’d like to kiss again. Later down the line in your relationship, he enjoys teasing you with a light brush of his lips until you’re beckoning him in for more, because god is he so sweet.
Love Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
Beautiful, true genuine words that have been on simmering in his mind for awhile, on the tip of the tongue awaiting until they boil over. Until he can’t take it anymore. You’re so wonderful, so elegant, so sweet, so soft, and he yearns and longs for you- how could you keep teasing him and being on his mind all the time? It’s so aggravating, he needs you.
Marriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
Referring to “Dreams” up above, he hasn’t put much thought into it. The idea of marrying you someday doesn’t rest on his mind until it somehow does, whether it be by Vash’s joking comments or cheeky notes from Wolfwood, or even if it’s you that mentions it. It would be nice to permanently be with you, in such a way.
But right now? He’s got too much going on.
I do think that if he ever does propose, it would be thoughtful and full of small mementos from your relationship subtlety placed. Knives is a romantic, a poetic person, and he wants something of utmost importance such as a proposal to be meaningful. Because he loves you, irrevocably and deeply.
Nicknames - What do they call their s/o?
Being a true romantic, whenever he does use nicknames it would be, “dear,” or, “my dear.” If he’s feeling in a teasing mood, he’d murmur: “my darling…” against your skin, brushing past your ear as he continues to walk past you. Hallways are convenient like that, are they not?
On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
Denies. Deny. Deny. Deny. Deny.
Mutual pining is a phrase that perfectly describes your relationship with Knives, and as you enter a relationship with him down the line both of you realize:
“Wait that one time you- when you did that- it was because you liked me?”
“Yes, yes it was.” And the other sighs, an amused smile on their face.
Vash can tell, easily. Knives hides it pretty well at first, but he’s a total dork at heart. He’s so desperate for you- it’s so sweet.
PDA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their so in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
Knives won’t hide your relationship- but he won’t particularly brandish it either. He’s got a sense of class and while showing you off on occasion is rather gratifying, it’s not something he does often. He’s not a very touchy person, and most of the time in public he’s not in a very touchy mood considering he’s usually in a work/school mindset. But he has his moments.
Quirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.
There are a few I wanna say-
1. He’s intimidating. When someone won’t take your, “no,” as an answer, and even when you say, “I have a boyfriend,” and they continue?
That’s a moment where Knives has a glare meant to kill, arm wrapping around your waist and pulling you to his toned chest. You get surprised every time, but enjoy it endlessly.
2. He’s a good cook. He had to cook for Vash- Vash was normally too tired, and depressed back in highschool, especially when they started living together due to the accident. He’s a very domestic person, and cooking is a way to show he cares.
Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?
He’s very romantic. He’ll write letters when texts just don’t cover it, leaving them at your door. He memorized your classes, so he knows when you’re home and when you’re not. Thanks to @coffinbeananteiku , we know that Knives has troubles picking the color of a wax seal- he analyzes the colors, “red is too passionate”, “blue is too clean”, so he ends up deciding on black or white because they’re all the colors or the absence of color. He’s classic when it comes to romance, he’s truly a gentleman when he wants to be. Hangs up your coat for you, opens doors (of course he’ll make fun of you but that’s just the fun banter of it).
Support - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
He will admonish you for your goals if they’re unattainable or unrealistic. He worries and nags, and he’d rather you hate him than you get hurt. He doesn’t want you overworking yourself into your grave- he knows the feeling all too well.
He does believe you can do what you set your mind to though, you’re very determined, and he admires your passion.
Thrill- Do they need to try out new things to spice up your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
Knives needs routine. It’s what he’s most comfortable with and without it, he ends up overstimulated, distressed, and overwhelmed. (Reference autistic Knives tag). If you want to try something new, you’ll have to introduce it to him and give him time to think about it and adjust to the idea.
Understanding- How well do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
He has troubles with empathy. Sometimes- he most definitely understands what hardships you’re going through, and sometimes all he can do is listen. That’s what he does regardless.
He knows you very well- he’s very observant and truly notices small shifts in behavior about the ones he cares about.
Value- How important is the relationship to them? What is it worth compared to other things in their life?
As much as it’s a hard pill to swallow, Knives will not drop everything for you. He won’t leave school, he won’t leave Vash, and he won’t leave the opportunities he has where he is now. Does he love you?.. yes. It takes him awhile to admit it, but yes. But he wouldn’t move countries for you or anything.
He wouldn’t leave in the middle of class if you wanted to see him, he’s occupied. He’ll see you afterwards- as much as he misses you dearly he has priorities.
Wild Card- a random fluff headcanon.
He cuddles with you by draping your legs over his on the couch, practically holding you in a bridal carry laid against him as he kisses your neck. This is also convenient for when you’re both body doubling.
XOXO- Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
In private? He loves to- on some days. He can get overwhelmed by touch sometimes and it truly fluctuates. If you’re the same way he definitely understands, you don’t need touch to love someone. You don’t need to talk to love someone.
When you do cuddle though, he reveres you. You’re absolutely divine, a beautiful sight he holds tenderly.
Yearning- How will they cope when missing their partner?
Your smell. I truly believe he has a heightened sense of smell (#autistic knives tag) and he has some clothes you borrowed from him that have your smell. It comforts him, as he wears his petal cloak that definitely doesn’t smell like you.
If he’s desperate, he’ll read through your texts. Not sending anything- he doesn’t really know what to say. Perhaps a, “When will you be back?”
But if you don’t mind him touching you, he’ll hold you close the minute you’re in private together.
Zeal- Are they willing to go through great lengths for the relationship? If so, how far?
Referring back to “Value”, he does have other things he values, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you. He’d escort you wherever as long as it didn’t clash with his schedule, he’d give you snacks (because you don’t seem to take care of yourself well enough, ugh), and he’d do many more small things for you.
Since this is a college au, no, he wouldn’t kill for you, and no, he wouldn’t destroy the world for you. But he certainly will cherish you- and while he messes up sometimes he does truly try to make up for it. He feels he’s not enough for you- you’re so soft and tender and he’s rough and jagged, unable to understand. He would treat you well though, and he makes a genuine effort.
Nai Saverem is in love with you.
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The four horse men of my Echolalia
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crazycatsiren · 8 months
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When The Symptoms™️ begin to appear and I have to wonder if it's autistic burnout or a flare-up.
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supernova351 · 3 days
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Vash strikes me as the kind of autistic who would really love soft fabrics. Just running his hands over them to get that good texture ™️. And he’d love those really good blankets that have the perfect weight to them. Something he could envelop himself in like a bird in a nest. You can pry bird tendency Vash from my cold dead hands
Knives however hates any fabric that isn’t stretchy. Look at him. Look at what he’s wearing. I’m also so certain this man sleeps with no blankets or a really light one. If it’s too heavy he’ll kill himself about it. Also the whole “humans suck and I will not be partaking in stupid things Vash come on.”
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plainlyraine · 1 year
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Now you ah' tellin' me that you can honest tah god tell when a man is lyin'? Well, now, that is pretty unbelievable. You must be quite practiced in sussing out the truth then, yes?
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