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thehallstara · 4 months

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year in review

wanted to reflect on the things i've made this year. here goes nothing!

Games

ghost story is a point-and-click mystery made in unity as my final project for code coven's IGM course!! I genuinely think we managed a pretty solid concept and execution in two weeks, and if you like murder mysteries, this is for you!

lungs to burn is a short poem game made for the may 2023 bitsy jam, talking about wildfires, grief, and queer connection. featured in both indiepocalypse #43 and hand eye society's SUPERFestival. in general, the response i got for this one was kinda overwhelming (and a little confusing), but i'm glad it resonated with people! still very proud of it.

no postage required is another bitsy game, this time made for the trans game dev server jam. a somewhat-sequel to the end is near; or a letter to a lost love. there are definitely things i'd redo with this one but all in all, not too bad!

Zines

Kriah: a personal zine about some of my experiences with antisemitism over the years. definitely a heavy read but honestly i stand by it just as much as when i wrote it? idk as someone who has a lot of trauma from years of antisemitic harassment, this has been a WEIRD fucking year, and it's weird to revisit something i wrote at the beginning of the year that feels even more relevant now.

how to the hold the pain is a collage/web weaving zine i did for this year's blaseball zine jam, using blaseball narratives as a way to view crip theory and vice versa. i spent a LOT of time reading through articles for this (both academic and other) and every second of it was worth it. genuinely one of my favourite things i made all year.

Fic

i wrote a lot less fic this year than the previous two for a multitude of reasons but i still put out a few bangers!! here's a brief selection of my favourites:

swallow your guilt (blaseball, 13.2k), a story about the new seattle garages, the old chicago firefighters, grief, and finally growing up, all through the biased eyes of one baby "ruthless" triumphant

spectroscopy, or a snapshot of a light and that which it absorbs (blaseball, 2.6k), the coda to my bright zimmerman series. i technically wrote this in the fall of 2022 but posted it in march so it still counts.

somewhere there's a fire burning (rogue one, 1k), a character study of bohdi rook between the destructions of nijedha and scarif. my first non-blb fic! and still a banger imo

i play dead, come alive (hatchetfield, 12x100), character study of stephanie lauter during the events of npmd. now officially my most popular fic and honestly i'm good with that!!! i think it's a solid little fic.

just all of corona borealis. i did some good stuff about grief and growth this year y'all.

the back half of this year was mostly filled with portfolio updating, job hunting, and just generally struggling with everything lol but!!! i still made some cool stuff and am hoping to get more back to making stuff next year! it's where i feel most at home. have fun checking these out if you do!

#s.txt #stara makes stuff #blaseball #indiedev #gamedev #zines #2023 #happy new year #...almost

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aestromeri · 1 year

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All the art I did for @bratty-doll 💜💜💜💜

First was a collab piece for @micheladee 's fic, little cheebs for the intro timeline and more babies for @pandabaozi horoscope <33

It was a very successful project, thank you to those who joined us and to those who have downloaded the zine it's full of amazing works 🥳💖 also to my friends and mods, this couldn't have happened without their help and support 🛐🛐

#Yugioh #Bratty Doll Zine #marik ishtar #yami marik #malik ishtar #cali art

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mishacakes · 6 months

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Hello, I'm making a magazine for a university project. I have a few questions:

What inspired you to make comics?

How were you inspired to make “Alice and the Nightmare”?

Apart from “Alice and the Nightmare”, do you plan to do more new stories?

Are you thinking about translating your comics into other languages to attract more audiences?

Have you participated in projects that are inside and/or outside of Hiveworks?

How do you feel that your comics are well received by the public?

Hi hi thanks for asking!! to answer, in order

I’ve been reading and making comics as long as I can remember. My first comic series i made when I was 8 years old of a stick figure princess beating up a dumb prince who keeps trying to rescue her, so you truly know i’ve Always Been Like This. I’d staple the pages together, baby’s first zine. I just never really stopped haha

Alice and the Nightmare happened cause I started drawing Alice in high school, and I liked her as a character so I kept drawing her. Edith came next, then Hatter, then other cast members, and I wanted to make a story for them. I’ve always loved Alice in Wonderland stuff, growing up on anime inspired by it, and it was fun to do my own take on it. As I researched Alice in Wonderland more it really made me fall in love with the classic book itself, which made me want to work on Alice and the Nightmare more. Now normally I’d say don’t make your high school story your first project, HOWEVER, “Alice” as it is now is sooooooo heavily edited and so far from where it started out over a decade ago. “Kill your darlings” is very real and it WORKS. Huge shoutout to my editor and dear friend @secondlina who’s so often saved my storytelling bacon <3

Of course!! I love storytelling and there’s so much I want to do! Light novels are something I really want to explore.

That’s not something I really think of? English is the only language I’m fluent in, so even if I wanted to I couldn’t. That’s up to Hiveworks and translators for if they think my work would benefit from having translations. However there have been fan translations of my work before which I think are cool!

Oh yea! I’m in two of the three Valor Anthologies (Bride of the Rose Beast being one), I’ve done a couple zines, short comics, Eldritch Darling, animated films in college (Panic and Bookaneer). I like having a wide variety.

Feels nice! It’s always a delight when someone tells me they love my work or it’s affected their life or how they view things. Comic making—and art as a career—is more often than not a lonely profession, so that human connection is always very special and lovely <3

Hope this helps! Best of luck with you magazine! Cheers!!

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shadamyzine · 11 months

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Greetings from the Council of Shadamy! It’s about time we finally reveal ourselves! The Shadamy Zine Mod team consists of six dedicated moderators hoping to make this experience as great as possible for everyone involved!

Read more on us in the thread below!

Each of us has created numerous Shadamy food, from fanfics to illustrations, which you can check on our social medias! <3

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☆ CHAKO - @ochako999 | Twitter

I'm Chako! I have several experiences as contributor and merch artist for several zines but this is my first time modding and heading one! So excited! Compared to other veteran mods, I'm the fandom baby as I just joined around May last year but i love Shadamy with a passion! I hope all the graphics and zine decos I made is to your liking! <3

☆ MOMO - @momotarotea | Twitter | Ao3

I'm one of the writing mods for this zine, and while I'm new to making zines I'm a bit of a veteran when it comes to Shadamy. The Sonic X scene where Amy hugs Shadow thinking he's Sonic is what got me on the band wagon, and over a decade later here I am, writing and drawing them... I hope we can make something amazing as a team!

☆ ARi - @killingthecringe | Ao3

I'm Ari, one of the writing mods for this year's zine! I was also a mod for 2022 Shadamy Secret Santa, and my day job as an admin means organization and writing are my fortes. I've been a Shadamy fan since 2009, and have came back to the fandom after a long hiatus last year! Please feel free to reach out if you need anything, from writing advice to a pep talk. I am always happy to help!

☆ SHADOW - @shadowsfascination | dA

You can call me Shadows. Been a Sonic fan since the beginning of time! ;) My passions include drawing, writing, reading, gardening, traveling and daydreaming.

I'm one of the art and translation mods and I have experience running other projects. I speak Dutch (fluently), so if you need help translating from English to Dutch, happy to help!

☆ NVRA - @nvrfearthefall | IG

Hello! I am one of the art mods for the Shadamy zine, and I am so excited to be here! I've been a Shadamy fan since literally 2020. I love this pairing so much, but my frustration over the lack of content in the official canon is what inspired me to start drawing! I participated in the Shadamy Secret Santa and in last year's Shadamy zine. My piece is currently the icon for the tumblr page/discord server! :D

☆ MiSTLETOE - @deadrabbithq | Twitter

Hi! I'm Mistletoe! I've been a Shadamy fan since the good year of 2012. I'm an artist and a writer. I am in charge of zine formatting and I love helping people so I will do whatever I can to help if you need anything. Don't be afraid to hit me up.

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We've been planning for this project since last year! We're all so hungry for more contents of this pairing so we decided to team up and here we are now <3

We are looking forward to your interest and participation!

#shadamy #shadow the hedgehog #amy rose #sonic the hedgehog #shadamyzine2023 #meet the mods

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souryogurt64 · 8 months

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If I may ask, what series of events led to the bad headspace about bands?

I mean to be super concise about it I just think I got a little too much of interviewing bands and it started to become really negative for me.

I started doing it because I was really inspired and fascinated by the one billion interviews FOB did with random people with shitty Angelfire pages that were just transcripts of tons of interviews bands, and I wanted to like be that for some kid in the future where I was providing the most candid snapshot possible. Pete always did them and he had always been really nice and patient and you could tell he really was putting effort in no matter how shitty the website or questions.

However, now that I have done insane amounts of research, I think this was not really a normal thing but a thing that Hey Chris was partially facilitating via running the website. And it's probably why Fall Out Boy are Fall Out Boy and not like one billion other shitty bands. I don't think people really understood the project or my vision, which is fine and probably on me. Anyway--

People in Bands Fucking Suck

First and foremost, the bands were awful to be around most of the time. I get that's showbiz and I realize a lot of them were mean to me specifically because they don't think talking to journalists should be part of their job and they just want to "create" all day or whatever. And my zine didn't even have clout.

But it's hard to see one of your favorite bands the same way after the singer makes a really mean joke about how fat a guy in another band on the tour is, and then gets onstage and starts preaching about inclusivity. And then you have to decide if you're gonna put it in the interview or not.

It was also kind of disturbing because I just wanted to talk to as many bands as possible. But--especially when I was a younger-- I definitely felt that a lot of the bands thought I must've been a huge fan to ask to do this and saw me as a target for bullying and would do stuff like throw paper balls at my head or lock me out of the green room and then stand in the window laughing. It was all really dumb and juvenile and is expected of bands to an extent. But the thing that bothered me about it-- with the older guy bands especially-- was the fact that because they assumed I was a fan, they saw me as expendable, which I felt was egotistical and annoying.

Getting backstage

I would also be supposedly listed or supposedly interviewing a band and get stood up all the time. It wasn't as big of an issue when I was in college and had paid for tickets to the show anyway, but once I started to have to miss work (unpaid, I was a utility position at a brewery) for this stuff or the shows would be sold out and I had gone all the way there it started to really upset me. Once I got more experience interviewing, I started to realize that people weren't "forgetting," but PR people have a certain number of spots to give to press and probably just put me as a lower priority in case so-and-so from Rolling Stone was too hungover to show up or whatever and didn't care how that affected my life because I wasn't important.

In the same vein, I would be listed or have a band person/manager with me but security would be really difficult anyway.

Nepo Babies

As things went on, I also realized how many people in music are nepo babies. Some of them don't even want to be there. Many of them lack self-awareness to an extreme degree. They often don't care about the "cause" they're preaching for. They just don't want to work. That's all I'll say.

PR People

Once it got to a point where I was working with established bands and talking to "industry" people, it was really hard because I felt a lot of pressure to do/say what they wanted, which I know was on me. But they would string me along or bait and switch with very specific promises of interviews with real celebrities or other nebulous "opportunities" that never materialized.

They would also push me to edit the transcripts. I had no issues with fixing mistakes but it started to become "I don't like what they said, can you change it," which I didn't want to do. Part of why I only did transcripts is because people are way too sensitive and get upset with even nice things you say about them because, you should know, they're a bubble dream mermaidcore band and not a bedroom pop band or whatever.

Also, I was pretty young and naive and at first I believed these people really thought I was cool and had actually read something on the zine. As time went on, I realized they were lying and sending the same vague compliments like "we love your vibe" to an entire list of people with autofilled names.

They would also lie about reading the essays. I do not expect anyone to read the essays because they're long and insane. But I put so much work into them, it's really hurtful to have someone lie to about thinking they were good to try and get me to do something I don't want to do. Like, for example, interview a super racist band that was dropped by their label.

No Clout

I felt like it was hard to say no to everything people wanted from me because the zine had essentially no clout. In addition to the stuff with PR people, it was very reliant on the bands being okay with what I said and reposting it. I also felt a lot of pressure within the zine to be nice and say yes to everything instead of being honest or saying no.

I know the responsibility of gaining clout is on me, but the zine was always a just a hobby and I was not interested in spending all of my time following and unfollowing accounts on Instagram to be taken seriously faster. Also, it's more of an extension of my Tumblr, which has like almost 8k followers, but I wasn't about to like. Say that

The End

Anyway, everything kind of culminated in one shitty week-ish where:

1) a PR person we had been working with (who I did not like bc she lied about reading my gay My Chemical Romance essay) had promised us an "interview" with a bigger band. I had been doing a lot of feature articles I hated writing for artists whose music I thought was bad and I wasn't okay with writing them but then I'd end up doing it anyway in hopes of earning "ops" like this and for well. Other...Reasons. When we finally got the "interview" it was over email, several weeks late, most of the answers were like 5 words long and they obviously weren't going to repost it.

2) A band I really loved and had built a rapport with after interviewing them had invited me on tour and then cancelled last minute for the second time. The first time I got fired from my job for taking that much unpaid time off and had to start dogwalking in January. The second time I was out the flight money and the unpaid time off for tour. They--without being asked at all-- promised to pay me back and then ghosted me. I get shit happens and I'm not that important to the band but it is hard to deal with that kind of thing.

3) I had posted a huge feature on another band I really liked and they didn't repost it. I had never even heard of this band until their people reached out twice to ask us for some other stuff. I know I can never count on bands to repost shit, but I had put an abnormal amount of effort into this because I felt like if the band had asked us for coverage twice they would like. Be more considerate of the time and effort it took to do this and their manager would not leave me on read.

I had also begged to have a holiday off at work to do this, and I had someone visiting from out of town. The band kept us for almost 3 hours after the show ended. I hadn't been expecting this to happen because something like this had never happened before so I thought it would be to OK to tell my friend to show up hours after the show was over. My friend was like "Where are you" and was really upset with me. I had also said no to like 3 diff holiday parties to sit in a freezing cold bar soaking wet being berated by security to leave and being told "just one more minute" by the manager.

Because I was operating under the stupid assumption that the band was going to repost it, the feature was very glowing and did not mention some negative aspects that were more personal and important to me to bring up. So I also felt like I had like betrayed my own integrity for clout that never materialized, which also made me feel gross, but again is on me. This had been going on with a lot of features I felt pressured into writing, but this was something I actually cared about.

This also would've been fine and my issue to deal with, and IDK how to say this next part nicely or in a politically correct way, but the final straw was the same week they made some glowing post about how detailed and amazing an interview by a blonde girl who posted boobie shots on IG all the time was. There were some other critical details about the specific content of this that upset me way, way more than that, but I can't share them because I don't want people to immediately know what band this was.

Conclusion

This is also like fine I guess, but I realized I wasn't blonde, didn't have boobies, and I also realized I didn't even like doing this anymore and but I was wasting a ton of money, jeopardizing my job, ruining my relationships with people, seeing an unpleasant side of people I admired, and my social life was suffering. There were some creative differences with people too and other stuff I don't feel is necessary to share.

Some parts of this are probably like, all in my head, but this was how I perceived it. I'm sure parts of this had to do with like me not understanding stuff or being dumb or not doing a good job but I stopped having fun. This was all awhile ago but I think it started as a "break," then life happened, then I realized it stopped being a break. I'm still going to do the essays but it's just weird to not have your life revolve around something anymore after it revolved around that for 4 years.

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contritecactite · 6 months

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Hello hello! I am here to create a clamor about leftover sales for Where I Can Follow: An Ace Attorney Siblings Zine!

The whole @aasiblingszine project was so much fun and is so beautiful, and I'm super excited to be able to share the fic I wrote for it (baby's first zine fic)! Use the links above to pick up some leftovers if you can, and otherwise, if you feel like reading about the Skye sisters through the span of several years, feel free to drop by my ao3 and check out:

Title: Homeward the New Road Meanders (link) Rating: T Tags/warnings: unhealthy coping mechanisms (Ema's eating habits) Description: 2.5k. Ema Skye loses her sister, then loses her again, then loses her one more time for good measure before finally getting her back. Everything's different by then, but maybe that's not a bad thing. It's... a lot sweeter and less angsty than it sounds ^^;

#ace attorney #my fic #rating: t #wc: <3k #aasiblingszine

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neet-elite · 1 month

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NEW WHITNEY SCENES???? oh man i’m so excited i’ve barely played but i feel like ive exhausted all whitney options. speaking of…..

do you wish the LIs had more…depth? more development? i know this is a porn game duh there’s not much depth i expect but part of me wishes whitney would soften up a bit and let us in….maybe stop noncon scenes like the docks? or maybe more consequences, like if whitney finds out you’re working at the brothel he punishes you. or, i guess a character like whitney might be fine with you prostituting yourself, but robin, kylar, and non corrupted sydney might not. you’re telling me kylar would be fine with anyone touching his baby????

again, porn game, not much plot, shouldn’t expect much more.

- whitney’s toy anon

i've yet to view them myself, im too busy working on all my many projects, namely my zine and im going to attempt making stickers soon tonight... but i for sure wanna try the scenes out once i tire from working.

and yes! actually, you've perfectly described part of the reason why i wanna make my own game. it's not a dol specific problem, but an issue i have with porn games (and to a certain extent, any game with romance options) in general.

like in sdv, once you're married it's like.... bro where did my beloved character go? everything just kind of stops after a certain point, right? and i understand there's limitations and like you've stated in dols case, it's a porn game first and foremost... but i love character development. i love writing 10k words of pure character study because it's so fun and i looooooove making characters feel alive !!! i want them to react and change and adapt to circumstances like you've mentioned.

one plan i have in my game to combat how stale romanceable characters tend to get are things like a phone system; random and scripted events from characters. maybe they'll call you after work because you've mentioned what time you finish? maybe they'll send a selfie during your shift to cheer you up because they've noticed your mood has been a little low recently. maybe they'll send nudes when you haven't seen them in a while, and they miss you... among various other things :D

i just have a great passion for making characters and having them feel grounded and real, even within a more fantasy setting like a porn game. so yeah, i get it. i want to strive to beat it :D

also just to keep in mind, dol is still currently in development and as such not a lot of complete content has been released. might be why it feels a bit bland after some time!!

#💌mail #THIS IS in no way an attack on dol lmao #i love dol and i know how difficult and long gamedev can be #especially when you have a lot of players begging for updates #but yeah i get the player pov too #whitney’s toy anon #mimisgame

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mirjam-writes · 4 months

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What about you? What writing are you happy about this year?? Is there anything you want to brag about?

Happy Yule, solstice, Christmas, Festivus, (belated) Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, and Doctor Who Day! And anything else you might celebrate, or happy Monday if you don’t!

Thank you so so much for asking 🧡🧡

This was quite a writing year for me. I wrote only four stories, but I'm quite proud of all of them. To Love Somebody was my first foray in rare pairs. An angsty backstory for Shadwell, and what made him the way he is. It has an hopeful ending, and I'm quite proud of the structure, and how much I managed to squeeze into the small word count. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun is a short and wholesome outsider pov story I wrote for an event. I was surprised how much people liked it! It was also my first attempt on present tense, which continued in A Stable Relationship, one of my FTH stories for this year (the second one will probably be a bit late, and be completed in January). I had fun writing it, and it turned out to be a good one, and the only one of these oneshots that was Explicit. It was set in horse riding world.

The reason why I wrote only three oneshots, and why my second FTH piece is late, was of course my favourite story of all time: Be Still My Soul trilogy. A human AU story set in the sad moments of Finnish history.

Despite the class differences, landowner Azirafel Fjäll and sawmill worker Anton Crowley have been friends since childhood. The Great War rages over Europe and the Empire of Russia is in the firm grip of a revolution. The echoes of these fateful events carry over to the Grand Duchy of Finland, vaguely sauntering towards independence. Azirafel and Crowley find themselves on the opposite sides of a conflict that will eventually lead to a bitter civil war, tearing the country apart.

Is there a possibility for them to find their own side, or will this be the end of their budding love story?

I started writing the third part in January, and finished it just before S2 aired in July. It finished posting in October, and it's now complete and done, though I'm still commissioning art for it. This story took over my life for over two years, and it's my baby. I've had such a hard time to let go of it! It also has its own blog @be-still-my-soul-fanfic where I posted dozens of posts about historical and cultural facts. The story is written in a way you don't need to know anything of the Finnish history beforehand (my American betas made sure of that). It's a lovestory, not a history lesson, BUT if you want to learn more, there's a lot of extra info available 😅

I think it's the best story I've ever written (and probably ever will). Many readers have agreed, but it's angsty with very heavy themes until the happy ending, so it's not for everyone and I think posting it just when S2 aired cut some of the potential readers. The third part of the trilogy is now five kudos shy of 100 kudos, and I'm hoping it could get past that milestone before new years. 😂 So yeah, my own personal favourite gets the least interaction of them all. Oh well.

I'm gonna sound a bit self-absorbed, but I'm proud I finished it and it turned out even better than I hoped. My dream would be to print a physical copy or to record a podfic of that, but both might be a bit too much work.

For the next year I have two zine fics to finish, and I have applied to a third one. I have one event fic in the works as well, but the FTH story will be the one I'll concentrate until it's done. It's an oneshot human AU which somehow grew limbs and now it's 7.6k words and nowhere near done 😱 That's my holiday project.

Thank you for asking!! I was so delighted to get a chance to ramble myself 🧡 There's never enough chances for writers to gush about their own work because it always feels a bit self centered. That's why I like to wander around Tumblr and give people the perfect excuse to do that! Peek at the #writer's favourites tag if you want to see other fanfic writers sharing their favourites! And feel free to use the tag yourself if I forgot to ask someone (I was very much not organised when going through the blogs and I'm not good at matching blog names with writer names 😅)

I hope you'll have a magnificent new year 🧡

#writer's favourites #my writing #good omens #ask #good omens fanfiction

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oscarpiastriwdc · 4 months

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thank youuuuu my beautiful eve @bright-and-burning for the tag 💕 mwah

star sign: triple gemini baby!

favorite holiday: 16 de septiembre for the food!

last meal: i had a mini strawberry swirl cheesecake and a vodka tonic for dinner... very nutritious, i know

current favorite musician: in case you haven't noticed from my main url paramore is the great love of my life. other than them, i've been listening to a lot of talking heads, i saw slaughter beach, dog last weekend, and i'm excited for willi carlisle's album coming out later this month!

last song listened to: hallelujah by paramore

last movie watched: rewatching Thoroughbreds (2017) as we speak. one of my absolute favorites! (let's be friends on letterboxd)

last tv show watched: i watched the finale of The Curse tonight! deeply weird, 10/10 would recommend

last book finished: Welcome to the O.C.: The Oral History by Alan Sepinwall (a christmas gift from @liamlawsonlesbian)

last book abandoned: The Garden of Eden by Earnest Hemingway (lol)

currently reading: just started a reread of Guns, Germs, and Steel by Jared Diamond

last thing researched for writing/art/hyperfixation: stigmata

favorite online fandom memory: the night paramore played all i wanted live for the first time and everyone i know and love collectively lost their minds

favorite old fandom you wish would drag you back in/have a resurgence: when i start TSN hyperfixating again it's over for you bitches

favorite thing you enjoy that never had an active or big fandom, but you wish it did: speaking of Thoroughbreds (2017)... it's such an underrated movie that didn't get a wide release and i mourn more people aren't obsessed with it

tempting project you don't have time for: i've been kicking around the idea of organizing a little valentines fic fest but i'm working on a zine that we're publishing around the same time so :(

no pressure tags if you want to share: @creabirds @breathofnyx @liamlawsonlesbian @formula1forfishsticks

#tag game

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