#bc that's REALLY what it boils down to

[safyresky]

found myself thinking of Blaise this afternoonsies, and how his courtship/post war life was like.

Cause like. You know. His brother is defeated, his parents are DEAD, he abolishes the monarchy bc fuck it. it's stupid. So now he works with Mother Nature to establish the democracy esque thing Crystal Springs is, and like, I'm sure that was a LOT but like I'm thinking specifically about his PERSONAL life right??

Like. He would NOT want to go back to live in the castle, even IF they hadn't imprisoned Pyros in there. Where did he live, you know? Did he sleep in MN's Garden until City Hall was built? Maybe it already WAS built? Did he go to Winter like hey, cool first date idea--wanna help me find my own place? :3

Just thinking of Blaise like, getting his LIFE together is plaguing my THOUGHTS. All of that PLUS he's crushing HARD on Winter (and she on him) and they're sort of seeing each other a few decades after the civil war, and just. MY BRAIN IS GOING CRAZY Y'ALL!

BLAISE! HECK! PUTTING YOUR LIFE TOGETHER AFTER LEAVING A TOXIC SITUATION! THAT FEELING WHEN YOU FINALLY MOVE OUT AND GET TO ADULT! DID HE GET A ONE BEDROOM APARTMENT IN A TREE SOMEWHERE WITH JUST A MATTRESS? AND DID WINTER GO "We'll have to hunt down some furniture for you" but Blaise, with this big smile, looking at his mattress and chair and desk just like "This is PERFECT right now :)"

They establish the Assembly, the cities and towns establish their own leaders, there's a group of reps from each province elected to serve on the assembly, and slowly but surely crystal springs is becoming this wonderful place, and Blaise is getting good at leading the BIG CITY, enough that each election he sails through it.

And maybe he thinks to himself like, "do they keep voting me in bc I'm good? or bc they're so use to a monarchy that they don't want to change things up?" not that he minds, of course, he loves what he and Mother Nature have turned the city, the provinces, THE COUNTRY into!

He and Winter go on many dates and he showers her with roses and he decides to propose and they talk about where they'd live and how many kids they'd have and do you think they could manipulate BOTH ELEMENTS? And he finally proposes and Wintr THAWS bc of their LOVE and it's al so MUCH and they break into city hall to elope the day OF, trouble be DAMNED and how nice is it to be free? Fuck! fucking EH! I did NOT expect BLAISE FEELS to be a thing today and YET

I AM HAVING FEELINGS, ABOUT BLAISE, CATCH ME CRYING AT MY DESK!

#blaise #crystal springs #did winter get her sisters to help make furniture out of NATURE for him?? #even tho he was just happy to have freedom? #bc that's REALLY what it boils down to #he doesn't have to answer to his mother or father anymore #he doesn't have to try and live up to IMPOSSIBLE standards #there's no more competing with his twin #but he feels a pang of sadness bc he loved his brother. he still DOES and NEVER competed bc it was DUMB #and also bc he was good at some things that pyros wasn't and vice versa #does he think to himself man. if pyros hadn't cracked we'd be co-ruling this shiz and making it a better place together??? #HE DOES. ONE HUNDRED PERCENT #IT'S JUST ALL VERY BITTERSWEET AND I'M SOBBING

[deus-and-the-machina]

I think an underlooked part of what shaped jin’s mindset was how even back in Torna, he was considered “property”. He and Lora spent their whole lives avoiding the authorities of Torna because they believed would straight up execute Lora to get Jin back, and no one ever denies it. and this has seemingly been a fear since Lora was a child. Jin had to hide his face everywhere he went. Maybe Torna wouldn’t have been cruel enough to execute a child, especially since the king seemed decent(?) enough, if not a bit distant. But the fact it was even a fear at all for Lora since she was so young is just awful to think about. 

According to his past self’s journals, Jin and his old driver fought in a war of independence for Torna, perhaps what made him a hero to begin with. and because he’s a war hero for deeds he doesn’t even remember, the kingdom considers him owned by them. Which is on the nose in two different ways ngl. Both in how the Blades are seen and a wider metaphor of soldiers/state. idk it’s just very sad to think about

#I think a lot of people (esp people who dont really interact with the actual story of 2) boil jins motives down to lora too often #like yes her death sent him spiraling but his actual motives dont like. actually have much to do with her directly. it contributed to his #bad mental state that allowed him to get to that point but he still has plenty of reasons to hate how blades are treated and hes right! #its also why 'lora wouldn't have wanted this' doesnt really matter to him. yeah she wouldnt have. she's also been dead for ages so what does #it matter? like hes definitely not coping healthily mans is constantly retraumatizing himself by keeping her body around but like #he knows she's dead hes accepted it so hes doing better than N at least! jin hates being immortal but he stays alive to keep Loras memory #alive. but the longer he lives the more and more awful shit he sees and the more it breaks him. but he cant die bc then the only person left #who really knew lora would be gone (Minoth is alive too but he knew her for like several weeks at most alsfjakfjljfsa) and thats the curse #xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles #jin #siren says

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: TUCHANKA (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, Urdnot Wrex, and Dr. Mordin Solus With: Urdnot Bakara And a Special Guest Appearance by: Kalros, Mother of All Thresher Maws I MADE A MISTAKE! I made a mistake... big picture made of little pictures- too many variables. Can't hide behind statistics... can't ignore new data- my responsibility. Need to go- running out of time. Not your work, not your cure- not your decision. Had to be me- someone else might have gotten it wrong... Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #sophie shepard #james vega #EDI #urdnot wrex #mordin solus #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #i'm gonna continue the rambles in the part 2 gifset but one of the things i adore about tuchanka is the scenic shots #there are literally so many gorgeous ones that about half of part two is scenic shots because holy fuck tuchanka is beautiful #the kalros reaper ones especially? like those are so cool i had to include at LEAST a few of them bc that fight is awesome #and when the cure disperses?? literally the prettiest scene in the game #EDI and james have really cute dialogue together too!! i adored their moments towards the end of the mission #although i did say i was gonna give thoughts on mordin in sur'kesh and i think it boils down to him being an okay?? character in my book #like mordin definitely isn't one of my favorites but i will respect that he's definitely a very complex character and he's interesting imo #especially in terms of how he's written and his motivations/how he sort of grows and evolves over both ME2 and ME3 #like the quote i subquoted the post with is the one you get when you try to stall him from going up into the tower #(so it's not from soph's canon- but i love the scene so i used it anyways) #and one of the things i really like is that you can see the switch from mordin in ME2 who argues that what he did was RIGHT #versus mordin in ME3 who is starting to see what was wrong in the context of all the new information he has #and for me- seeing a character who can grow to recognize that they're flawed and made mistakes- i can respect the HELL outta that #even if mordin isn't my favorite character in the trilogy i'm gonna give him massive props for his character growth arc #because it's always interesting to see someone grow and recognize their mistakes and find a way to be a better person #to own their mistakes and fix the shit that they fucked up #i don't think i'd ever choose the option to not cure the genophage but mordin will always get props from me for his character arc tbh #i'll stop rambling now! have a good day wherever you are <3

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era

[tyrannuspitch]

oh also while we're comparing and contrasting. as i've said before. you could argue otherwise, but personally, i really don't think mcu thor hits loki.* whereas your generic comics thor. definitely does. in mcu canon, the circumstances surrounding the mistreatment are subtler, but the mistreatment itself is also subtler.

and again, things being (arguably) "less severe" doesn't necessarily make the writing better. but. it does make thor more sympathetic, and it does make everything feel more deliberate? like, someone has thought through what is and isn't going on, rather than just being like. toxic sibling relationship? okay let's have everything possible go wrong! and this also means that like... toxicity/abuse which a lot of people would see as "lesser" is treated with significantly more gravity. like, overall, i just get the impression that a lot more effort and care is being put into it.

(*i was going to say "i don't think mcu thor is physically violent to loki." but uhhh. yes he is. but i don't think he hits him, or does anything where the primary intent is to cause pain, so that's like... a line he doesn't cross. he has principles, even if they're not very good ones. also, further specifications: not "mcu thor", but "pre-reboot mcu thor, pre-nemesishood or outside of wartime". idk what reboot thor is up to these days, but he is a torturer, so i'm not defending that guy. :/)

#space viking tag #constructive complaining #s: comics #also umm mcu in general? #s: t1 #s: a1 #ch: thor #ch: loki #r: loki + thor #th: abuse + empire #i have like three or more fanfic concepts vaguely drifting around that pretty much just boil down to #'thor does increasingly awful manipulative/controlling things to try and Save Loki from physical violence #bc his concept of what counts as abuse is disastrously limited' #because like. what ISN'T there is a big part of the story and it's a really really interesting one......

[dockaspbrak]

i think the stock market in its entirety is such a flop....back to grain markets.

#sorry i know this isnt really the topic for my followers #but imagine me trying to say this to my pretty wife who is deep into psychology and special ed academia....she just doesnt need to be burde #ed #so essentially i was watching a breakdown of current crypto trends bc i do that often sorry #and i just.....crypto is basically the absolute boiled down end of what the stock market did to businesses #instead of making. a business that does anything for society....they're made to be valuable to sell to the consumer and then itll literally #never be as valuable again? #thats why tech companies are struggling and its all bullshit. its literally just everything isnt made to work its made to be sold and thati #crypto is just abunch of losers who think theyre smarter than everyone else selling nothing to eachother... and literally why? #its like. wework wanted to be a valuable tech company so bad their frankly basic idea of communal workplace real estate #got fucked from over-valuation and scammy shit bc they want to sell stock #stock selling is like. hypothetical representations of a company that you gamble with right that should have its worth defined by the #performance of the business....in theory. but its all propped up by who ever is buying into it and why and also stupid bullshit #jergoiejgoie hahahah i have a lot of feelings about how stupid financial markets are and very little respect for them

[milkybleachtea]

AYO WTF WHY AM I JUST NOW FIGURING OUT THAT MY GENERAL DISDAIN FOR POETRY MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE TO DO WITH MY ACTUAL AUTISM????????

#like #yes i appreciate the art of poetry i recognise it is very beautiful and i have written myself #but ive never been able to read much of it #ive always found it so actually draining #so ive never really liked it #bc boiled down to its core poetry is just metaphors #i said what i said #but i think that probably has to do with why i have never been able to read poetry #or really enjoy or appreciate it properly ngl #autistic things

[waywardsalt]

Hi! I hope you’re doing good in life.

What do you think of a phantom hourglass remake? Tbh I don’t know how they could remake it without basically remaking it from the ground-up. It would probably play more like windwaker, which I see as a both a good and bad thing. On the one hand, if it was more like windwaker a lot more people would probably play and it would be more popular since I know the touch controls were a turn off for most people for both Spirit Tracks and Phantom hourglass. But on the other hand, remaking it to be more like windwaker would make the game lose some of it’s previous identity. Like, Phantom hourglass was so unique because of the touch controls and the puzzles you can make and solve by having two screens and touch controls. And it was so nifty and handy to be able to write notes on your map. Idk, I still would like it to be remade in general even if it ends up a basically different game, but I wouldn’t change the story or the characters, especially Linebeck. The only other change I would make is the music. Phantom hourglass had rather weak themes, mainly because they re-used the same theme for the islands and the dungeons. The only songs that were really good were the few orginal tracks made for the game, so Linebeck’s theme, Oshus’s theme, both Bellum boss battle themes and the and that music that plays when you first follow the Ghost Ship. But what would you want out of a phantom hourglass remake?

Hey, I’m doing good, and I hope you are too!

I’ve thought a bit about a possible Phantom Hourglass remake, but not too much recently. I don’t really know if I’d want one, since you’d lose a lot of what really makes it special, and you can still play it through other means. I’m personally fond of the graphics and the music- yes, even the dungeon theme has grown on me- so I don’t really want a remake too badly, especially since I fear any additions/changes they might make with story or characters in a remake. The touch controls make it, and playing it on pc recreates that feeling decently well, but I don't think it'll be just the same if you had to control it with joysticks or anything.

Not to mention, there's so much emphasis on having the two screens, too, not just for map stuff, but almost every single boss had a mechanic related to the top screen! I have no fucking clue how you'd replicate that very well on something like the switch without just fucking with the mechanics altogether.

I would kill to hear some of Phantom Hourglasses tracks be orchestrated or otherwise rearranged in a higher quality. I wouldn't want any of the more notable themes altered in any way, no adding or removing of melodies and only very very small changes to the instrumentation, but I think it'd be neat to see what could be done with dungeon themes. I think a while back I had a fleeting desire to write some short tracks for each dungeon, with some ideas like mostly using instruments heard in Bellum's themes for the dungeons while each individual one gets a leading instrument unique to and reflective of the dungeon, while the Ghost Ship maybe gets a song that's a bit of a expanded version of the fog theme, while the Temple of the Ocean King could have slightly different themes the further in you got, starting with instruments more common to Oshus's theme or the great sea theme, while the further in you got the more instruments from Bellum's theme would be heard, plus some harpsichord thrown in for the hell of it.

Leave the original dungeon theme for stuff like the minor pyramids and some larger cave areas, idk. It's grown on me.

I think the only story rearranging I'd want is mayyyyybe unfridging Tetra? You could very easily shuffle some things around with her and just not damsel her for the whole game and honestly it'd still go off perfectly without a hitch. But you'd still have to deal with the World of the Ocean King being a whole other world, so either bring her and her crew in and have them as wandering ship npcs (the better idea) or just leave them out (not a good idea) but either way it's better than what they actually did. I just don't think I'd want it to switch to Tetra being a major reoccurring character tbh, the main character dynamics in PH are good as they are.

I think I like Phantom Hourglass too much as it is to really want a remake at all. I'd rather we get something like an anime adaptation. That's what I think about more. Give me animated Phantom Hourglass with some fun takes on the dungeons and fights and some fun slice of life stuff with the group between the islands what I want is a Phantom Hourglass anime

#asks #zeldanamikaze #salty talks #loz #legend of zelda #phantom hourglass #kinda just boils down to like. i kinda want it to remain untouched with nothing added or removed if that makes sense #different themes for the dungeons would be rlly cool. harpsichord for deeper ocean king temple floors bc its where you meet linebeck #also vague foreshadowing? as an aside how many other loz songs have harpsichord in it im very curious to know #also. i say i dont mind the dungeon theme while also not really minding my tinnitus so also take that in mind maybe. brain go brrrrrr #i think adding tetra in to the main crew of ph would kinda be a bit much and also maybe not add very much. fyi i have not played ww #but i feel like it'd almost be adding another ciela cuz shed support link and be more barbed and bold with a side of less morally upstandin #so i dont really think she'd being much new to the ph crew table and i wouldnt want her there in a remake cuz they might pull the #goddess blood card and i really really like how ph has fuck all to do with hyrule or any of that nonsense #sorry this took so long btw. i dont think much abt a ph remake so i dont have a lot of notes #additions? idk add more rooms to linebecks ship. let us poke around in a few areas. maybe potion storage. give link a room #let us poke around in linebeck's room when possible. put smth fun in there. pull a wilds era and give him a journal for us to check out #what they did with tetra kills me (but not too much since i dont rlly have thoughts on tetra) bc you could just remove her entirely #and the story would still work really well anyways. holy character fridging batman #idfk. give us a silly loz dating game. make linebeck an option. thats what i wanna see

[hella1975]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but you currently being the same age as Nanook and beginning the story when you were 17, would also mean that you were OLDER than Tomkin was when the men left for war? Or am I misremembering Tomkin's age

nope you're spot on tomkin was only sixteen when he went to war! im going to cry

#like dont compare trauma and all that but tomkin and nanook joining the war effort as literal teenagers #is sadder to me than what happened to the gaang? #hmm maybe not sadder persay but it's DIFFERENT and the grief is different i think #like the gaang left to persue a destiny and they were too young and saw too much #but they stayed in their group and they were individuals and they KNEW their presence meant something. like they were important #they were ACTIVELY CREATING CHANGE #whereas tom nook just joined the fray like they would have seen and been in actual battles #and yes their chief is good but at the end of the day any soldier in a war will always boil down to faceless cannon fodder #they meant NOTHING in the grand scheme of things and they KNOW THAT #and they're both non-benders going into battle against firebenders and they have no timeline for it #there's no 'if we do x thing the war will end' like to them it could go on forever #in fact they know statistically they're more likely to die before the war ends bc it could be YEARS and it's already been a century of war #and they were literally just kids through it all. stop itttt this is why they're so attached at the hip #they really found their person and latched the fuck on #ask #taob asks

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Nobody tell this website that egg jokes aren't annoying because the concept of someone potentially being a trans woman instead of a feminine man is somehow bad (it's not in the slightest and if that does turn out to be the case, said woman should be treated with nothing but respect in terms of her gender identity). They're annoying because you do not know that person and misgendering anyone is rude and even if you're right, that's not anyone's business but theirs and you're still misgendering them now.

#Hayley Speaks #I don't even know or care about that one streamer and I couldn't care less about what he identifies as #Because it's no one's business but his #But I have my personal beef with people who are THIS mad about people not liking egg jokes #Because it's like...I think what it boils down to is that you don't know that person #You do not know what they might identify as in the future #It is literally NO ONE'S business but theirs #And even if you're right; it's not cool to push your own personal labels onto them if they are NOT there yet #By making jokes about what they MIGHT identify as down the road; you are literally putting them into a box they are not in #No matter where the journey of gender identity might go for them; that's not okay at all #IDK I feel like if I saw someone trying to egg a real woman with short hair and a butch style as transmasc I'd also be really uncomfortable #(I say real bc like...there's a difference between egging real people and fictional characters) #(REALIZING VERY QUICK after typing my tags that I should specify that; egging fictional characters is totally different and I support it~!) #You don't know her #And even if that IS the case for her later on; what business is it of ours? #I don't get the anger outside of people just being mad that people don't like them misgendering someone #Yes I can understand hoping that someone you might look up to might fall into the same gender identity as you #But that's still a human person #IDK this Finnster shit is annoying to see from all sides #Literally who cares?? Let him be whoever he wants and stop being weird about it.

[batemanofficial]

hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice

#speak friend and enter #i can appreciate mothman as much as the next guy but can we stop treating appalachia like it's the subject of a richard attenborough doc #i come from a long line of hillbillies and i like to think i've got a good sense of humor about it but sometimes i am tested #like. this is not a lawless land with a moonshine still in every holler and nameless voices in the woods!! this is a normal town!! #idk maybe i'm reading too much into it but i'm just tired of the cultural fetishization of appalachia by people who aren't from here #and who don't know anything about it. like yeah you know mothman and what hooch is and that's all well and good #but do you know what the opioid epidemic really is. do you know about the structural injustices that keep people like mcconnell in power #i'm not saying you have to apply dialectical political analysis to every issue that occurs in the region to be able to have an opinion #but also like. i'm tired of people looking at places like where i grew up and making them into things they aren't #like. on the one hand we have ''ooh spooky hills!! run if you hear the trees whisper your name'' #and on the other we've got ''isn't appalachia so depressing...so hashtag ethel cain core...shame it's got no value beyond aesthetics'' #and on yet another hand we have ''i - a person with no ties to the region - am going to take up the cause of every social issue #occurring across the entire appalachian region so the world will see just how bad these poor hill people have it. i am very smart'' #and like. it's frustrating #i'm not saying you should never speak about appalachia if something we have is interesting to you #nor am i implying that i want to gatekeep discussion of the region's issues to the community bc that won't accomplish anything #i'm just saying that like any place it's complex. it's got its good things and it's got its bad things. #and you shouldn't isolate the good from the bad or vice versa - especially if you don't know the context in which those things happen. #and for the love of god dont let your own ignorance cause you to boil down those issues into a reductive and inaccurate set of stereotypes #learn about us from us. not from tiktok not from movies and for christ's sake not from hillbilly elegy. i hate that fucking book #anyway that got weirdly serious but i mean it. putting appalachia as a talking point up on the shelf until y'all can speak intelligently #ok to rb

[measureyourlifeincake]

open letters to various customers i've had

to all the visibly trans/gnc customers/anyone going for the "most fuckable person in the grocery store" look: hiiiiiiiii i love you i love you i love you i love you, yall make my job worth doing and my life worth living thank you for existing

to every customer i went to high school with: don't fucking look at me (unless youre gay now)

to the customers who put literally everything in produce bags: stop fucking doing that shit. youre just making my life harder. those granola bars are individually wrapped in plastic and in a fully sealed cardboard box. why do you do this to me.

to the guy who came in today asking where the "cooking water" was: wtf dude

love, me, a cashier at a grocery store in my hometown

#i literally cant stop thinking about cooking water guy #wait also @ cooking water guy: PLEASE understand that that is a phrase that NO ONE uses #like i am not the weird one here for not understanding what you meant by that. nor was my coworker. or my boss. #please use a different phase when looking for plain bottled water. also you do know that you can just use water from your sink right? #i have more types of customer that i get mad about but i dont feel like listing a bunch of different people just to be like ''hey. stop.'' #i chose the produce bag people specifically bc its not a thing ive heard anyone else talk about and its just a baffling behavior to me #a lot of other stuff just boils down to ''please be nice to me'' #and to be fair! most customers i have are actually pretty nice! #but the ones that arent REALLY suck #retail problems #retail life #life of bea #cashier confessional

[magdalenas]

i hope i have a good week at my new job .. last week was less than stellar and ik how it is working for a small museum / team .. you often have to do shit that shouldn’t be your responsibility… but I feel like i’ll never accomplish anything in my lane if i’m always doing other random things … and i don’t like talking to random townies either like i have to do that enough at the restaurant and it makes me want to *** fr … i miss working with people who are cool or who Get Me or who, at the very least, have quirked up personalities :(

#i miss christie & jerry & pauline like that’s really what it boils down to #man sometimes that job was ass esp bc it paid like it but if I could’ve found somewhere else to live and stayed there forever #I would have :(

[bunnyb34r]

I'll have to post pics later when I actually have the mental energy for that, but I got the shells in today and theres a REALLY BIG one that is exactly like the shell Scupa has on rn and theres three very likely and very hilarious possible scenarios that could happen when I put it in the tank:

Gurkle gets it and is like hehehe Mine's bigger!! >:)

Scupa gets it, decides it's too big, Gurkle takes the smaller one before he can take it back

OR

Scupa takes the big one (since he is bigger atm) and Gurkle takes the old one and they're twinsies 🥺💕 (I'd be able to tell them apart not just by size but gurkle is a little pasty white boy sgdgdgdggd and Scupa's coloring is a very beautiful deep red atm)

It's a great thing I got a smaller assortment of shells bc whooo boy did I misjudge... but also I got them big big so that way if they DO want roomier shells they have big boy shells and regular shells

This one is so pretty though I'm so tempted to keep it but I'm hoping one of the boys likes it as much as I do 🥰💕

Also the packaging is so wildly different it's funny

The big big shells are in a cardboard box, shredded paper fill in the bottom, each shell neatly placed, and bubble wrap covering the top

The smaller ones are in a plastic jar with a lid, bubble wrap pressed in the top to keep them from rattling around (thank you 😭🙏) and the jar is wrapped TIGHTLY in more bubble wrap

I'll ofc post pictures when I put the shells in if they try them on

#marquilla #i need to draw gurkle with 🥺 eyes like 'can you take my white ass to six flags?' SO BAD agsgdgdggd #i jokingly call him what Martha Stewart called her white peacock 'magnificent white boy' AGSGSGSGDGGD or go 'go white boy go!' #when he's showing me his pasty belly sgdgdgdggd he needs some SUN and to eat his fruit and shramp bc that helps his color #scupa just came up from his molt a couple of weeks ago and is looking SO fresh and healthy 🥺😭 scared the shit out of me going down so long #he blends in with his shell so well now it's funny hes like tee hee cant see me! and gurkle matches his pretty well too! he camouflages #really well when hes on certain spots like you have to be looking for him to find him #id boil the shells today but i really dont have that kind of energy and my feet hurt again :( fuckers #but the boys have their new food and ill be putting the greensand in soon #the party boys

[daz4i]

i know aging isn't the end of the world and 24 isn't that old and life isn't a race etc etc etc. however,

#i think a big reason i feel so bad abt being this age is ppl told me this is when things start to get better #and i still feel the same way i did as a teenager so. well. is it really 😐 #(being on t probably isn't helping but it's been over 3 years already so... not an excuse i think) #but I'm also physically aging like the reason i barely upload selfies anymore is i see myself getting uglier every day #despite fighting for my life to at least take care of my face and hair...... can't fight the passage of time 😔 #+ ofc. my (younger) friends being way more sorted out than i am on every level #again ik life isn't a race but. it can't help but hurt to know I'm still behind literally everyone i know #and my excuses for that aren't even good. bc other disabled ppl my age are also more sorted out than i am #other depressed ppl other borderlines other autistics etc etc. hell these are also my irl friends 😭 #and it's dumb. bc feeling like i wasted my life isn't really pushing me to change that now. just makes me want to die even more #(bc i mean what's the point. i will never catch up. I'm still at the starting line AND i move so slow it doesn't even count) #(i don't have a single milestone ppl my age have not even finishing high school which is like. the bare minimum) #(and it sucks bc i also know i have potential i KNOW i can do shit in theory i know I'm smart and got skills. but i can't put it to use) #(and now this is turning into less of a thing abt age and just generally me talking abt how i wasted the last 24 years) #this was more of a stressed rant abt how I'm turning ugly and feeling super old but well. it all boils down to self loathing at the end 👍 #vent #negative // #ask to tag #sorry for being so depressing all day oof ik i already said it before but it's been a rough couple of months #(nothing happened my brain just needs to get flushed down the toilet ^_^) #edit: i think. part of my panic about aging. is bc as a kid i was used to being the youngest everywhere #i was the youngest in my class bc i started school a year early. i was the youngest in acting school bc they don't normally accept teenagers #and in addition to that as an adult but before starting t i was always told that i LOOK young too #but now ik i look like I'm in my 20s. and it's killing me that i aged this much in so little #i wonder if shaving my beard will help but i don't wanna get misgendered 😐😐😐 and rn it's the only thing guarding me from that

[orcelito]

ok SO i went and got out Most of my knives (i remembered I have a nonbinary knife only after i took the photos & also idk where it is currently. just imagine all these plus a nonbinary flag knife ok? ok)

HERE ^ is the most of them, minus that nonbinary knife. look at that fuckin mess. 32 shown here (i think) plus my nonbinary knife makes 33 blades (minus cooking knives, i dont count those for these purposes)(also counting the swiss army knife as only 1 bc lol)

& some explanations for them! gonna put these under a readmore bc it got Kinda long on accident whoops. Read Ahead if u wanna see me nerd out about my knife collection.

STARTING WITH my big ones.

my spear (gifted to me), my cane sword (from anime convention), my shitty $20 sword (also from anime convention. low quality but cool as hell), my teal mini sword + matching throwing knives (from online), my decorative axe (from a local store), my twin blades (my sharpest blades, theyre actually kinda scary how sharp they are, but i love them bc of it. from online), red saber (from online),

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD my favorite hefty bitch of a machete that i sleep with in my bed frame on the very right (inherited from my grandpa bc i was the first one who spotted it at Family Claiming Day)(this thing really is as long as my leg & much heavier than Any of the rest of the blades pictured here. i love it)

another view of the blades so u can better see how long they are. the big boys. they're lovely. 2nd heaviest blade is the cane sword when it's in its cane, mostly bc that handle has some Heft. tbh id feel safer using it as a bludgeoning weapon than a stabbing weapon, but having a cane sword is just plain cool

AND my smaller blades!

i have a lot of pocket knives. starting from the top left: golden pocket knife (from online), rainbow dragon (from online), rainbow HEFTY boy (heaviest pocket knife, from online), spider knife (from online), stiletto jade (from online), pathetic army boy (from local store, this knife has NO redeeming qualities, but it's mine <3), black stiletto (from local store), plain dagger man (from online), my damascus steel knife (was a gift, probably my singular most expensive knife. fancy boy), Dull Dagger Man (first blade i ever bought, from anime convention)

& for bottom row: teeny black knife (first pocket knife i owned, gift from my dad), lil rainbow knife (from local store), plain steel knife (from sketchy shop in gatlinburg + one of my Favorite knives), green dragon knife (from online, a real beaut), triple throwing knives (also from same sketchy shop in gatlinburg), the baby throwing knives again from the Big Boys pic but i included them again bc they r so teeny tiny, my keychain key blade (from online), swiss army knife (from online), & the pair of claw keychain baldes (from online)

many blades, many stories, so little time. theyre great tho.

SOME FOCUSES:

^ these are all my spring-assisted knives, sorted from worst feel to best feel to open. based on quickness, ease, & general satisfaction. leftmost is leftmost bc i didnt even Know it was spring assisted, bc it doesnt have a nice lil tab on the back to press. no u gotta press on one of the rungs. but once u do it Does spring open, so i included it. next 3 are just Average in feel (these 3 are sibling blades anyways, nice of them to be together). jade stiletto is smooth and quick, nice to open. Hefty Boy rainbow has some THUNK to it when i open it. like that babey's got PURPOSE to it. added to the general size of it & it's just pretty great. AND THEN MY TWO FAVS, green dragon is a perfect beautiful knife & feels very great to open. and then Steel Sketchy Knife aka my 2nd pocket knife & first i bought for myself. it looks plain in comparison to the others, but she's anything But. quick, light, Sharp. it has the Best feel to open, bc it's just a fast SHHK. probably my knife that's seen the most use (aside from my small black knife) just bc of how great it feels to open. i love that knife so much for Real.

& the final highlight, somewhat related, are the knives I actually use the most in my daily life!

on the left are the knives I keep in my bag by default, & thus the ones I carry with me Everywhere i go. small black pocket knife bc she's Ol' Faithful, & a pretty lowkey knife for basic tasks when I dont wanna raise any eyebrows lol. silver knife bc as previously stated i Love using it so much. i take it out when i gotta breakdown a lot of boxes at work, & it Never disappoints. small rainbow keychain key knife bc it's cute & i like to keep it on my keychain. & swiss army knife bc Obviously im gonna keep the swiss army knife in my bag for if i need an emergency tool.

on the right are the three knives I keep out in my apartment. black stiletto lives on my bathroom counter, for bathroom knife needs. green stiletto i keep on my table next to where I hang out in my bedroom, for any couch time needs. & then green dragon beaut camps out on top of some shelves by my front door bc it's Great for opening boxes, aka something I will do for packages I receive after pulling them in the front door. it works for me.

all the rest of my knives live either in a box (for small ones) or my closet (for big ones). i may have a lot of knives, but somehow I never feel like i have enough. i just love collecting them so much <3

#speculation nation #knives #what this boils down to are. my favorites are: Big Hefty Machete that i managed to stab myself with on accident #by dropping it point-first on my finger (whoops) #a plain silver knife i got from a sketchy shop in gatlinburg (there really are so many there) that just feels SO good to use #a beautiful green dragon knife bc it's well balanced & feels great to open. also pretty. #black stiletto knife just bc i love how it feels in my hand. it's also very pointy #& small black knife bc she's ol' faithful. & great for using for average shit to not freak people out #(imagine if i brought ol' Hefty Rainbow out w/ its glass breaking base & wonderful hooked blade. ppl would give me Looks for sure) #i love many other knives but those r my favs #if i had to pick an ABSOLUTE fav it'd have to be my machete. it having drawn my blood did Not discourage me from loving it #it feels very uhh. idk it makes me feel secure having it nearby #if for nothing else than someone seeing me wield that & being like 'what the FUCK' bc it's kinda pretty intimidating lol. #long and heavy. wouldnt actually be great for combat bc that thin part between the blade & the hilt could snap the moment you hit bone #but good for me i never intend to use my blades for that! it feels comforting mostly as an intimidation factor. #the comfort being like. if someone broke in lol. that's why i sleep with it in my bed frame. so i can have it onhand Just In Case #aka it's like sleeping with a gun under my pillow except i just keep a massive fucking knife next to me instead. works for me #not the longest of my blades but it's the heaviest of my blades by far. i feel very lucky to own it. #anyways this has been the Knife Ramble by yours truly. this took me like 2 hours to gather & take pictures of & write this summary #APPRECIATE MY WORK at documenting my collection. this is the first time ive done this in several years. #wish i'd found that nonbinary knife first... oh well...