#because its SO much work to do for free

[simmonsized]

I've been thinking a lot abt fanfiction lately

And that like, beyond just saying "anyone can write it" because anyone can, one of my favorite parts is that sometimes, your favorite fanfiction author is a person working at a fabric store with no degree who you think writes smart, and sometimes the person has a bio-engineering degree and only writes filthy, beloved PWPs, and how both of those things are SO good, and maybe a little funny in some ways

But I also think about how like, a lot of the time now, as fandoms age and time passes, sometimes your favorite writer is actually a 50-year old mother of four who was writing in webrings before I even discovered LJ and how I actually know people who used to pass fanworks through email and watch their favorite shows on VHS mailed to each other and it's just really cool like

All these things that connect us, and how age and occupation and even generation doesn't necessarily matter, how some fanfic writers are published authors but they still post on ao3 and how cool it is for people to love something so much they do it for free

#part of this is about how many of my friends have english degrees and how intimidating i find that #part of it is how nice people have been to me even before i went back to school and started my degree #and part of it is how many people i have actually met who write fanfic and have actual bio-engineering or medical degrees LOL #this is specifically about fanfiction like yes i mentioned the fandom space thing but like specifically fanfic writers #because its SO much work to do for free #sometimes people work 12 hours shifts and still sneak in time to write so passionately and i really truly love that

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without- #distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just- #super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff #i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i- #read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :( #SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!! #but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little- #break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think #ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for- #designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much... #WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to #umm. tags. #new life smp #smallishbeans #mythical sausage #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #inthelittlewood #my art #sketch

[genericpuff]

vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once” #i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

[mugentakeda]

the successful aftermath of the first ever (improvised) top surgery, invented by master katara of the southern water tribe and performed on fire lord zuko (circa 104 ag)

#sokka is a prodigy inventor that specializes in engineering and tactics. #and katara is a prodigy that specializes in EVIL SURGERY and ANATOMY MURDER. she just doesnt know it yet. #and zuko is her NUMBER ONE ENABLER #its like how azula is a prodigy in firebending and zuko is a prodigy in breaking and entering #hes like I bet you anything we can use bloodbending for good things (trying to make her feel better about it) #and it leads to unethical medical practices (because they cant do anything legal and normal for fun together) #she didnt even come up with a plan for how she was gonna do it she free styled and it worked #sokka hates them both so much hes never leaving them unattended together for longer than 5 minutes ever again #atla #avatar the last airbender #katara #zuko #blood tw #alicias art

[foxprints]

Not sure who it beat the futz outta but I'm sure they deserved it

#kept going back and forth on whether i wanted to make the blood stand out more #like to i make it bright and very very red or do i leave it more realistic #i ended up sorta compromising and then adding a bit of MBs own fluids to the mix cause why not #Murderbot #fanart #the murderbot diaries #art (asshole research transport) #Murderbot Diaries #secunit #first look at my Perihelion crew logo! #based on some of my favorite shirts from my own closet #shitty background because im working on another pic with a much more elaborate background thats slowly killing me #i have work i need to be doing and a zine piece i need to finish buuuuut my head hurts and rn its just #easier to work on some self indulgent stuff rn #anyway the scene in Network Effect where MB eviscerates the Grey Targets by more or less #liberating them of their spines #lives in my head rent free #i was having a good chuckle at all the tags on my MB character sheet that are like #ITS SO FRIENDSHAPED AND SOFT #because i was already drawing this one of it splattered in blood djejdhsh #get u a blorbo that can be both i suppose!

[sonknuxadow]

so funny that the titles and descriptions for vectors recipes keep mentioning that he doesn't have money or needs to buy groceries or that you can make this dish on a tight budget or something . vector the crocodile only victim of capitalism in the sonic universe

#helpppp right after the one i just read there was one by espio that was saying vector forgot to pay the power bill and the stove wont work #espio and charmy are victims of capitalism too but i think its only because they live with vector #so they also have to bear the curse by extension #if they moved out they would be free and never have to worry about money again #but they love their friend/coworker/dad/older brother/secret fifth thing too much to do that

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the high prices of fucking Everything is so exhausting i stg

#i need to take an uber to the vet TEN MINUTES AWAY #i repeat IT IS A TEN MINUTE DRIVE #and its gonna cost me nearly 60 bucks. the FUCK #and who knows how much the checkup for my cats is gonna cost #let alone whatever prescription they need for the long drive #im so tired. im so so tired #its moments like these where i can see my future #ah yes. working 9-5 for a company that sees me as nothing more than a tool to be replaced when broken #just barely scraping by on minimum wage in a world where that isnt enough to pay for essentials #left with no time or energy to actually enjoy being alive or do the things i love #years and years of the same exact shit over and over and over again hating every second #and KNOWING it could be so much better but also knowing that it fucking Cant. sigh #sorry sorry im just. angry again at the absolute state of things #i would love to love life but my fucking god the world at large makes it tough #white-knuckling the little things once again #man its just. its so STUPID lmao #like why are we torturing ourselves like this? why are we just Accepting this #life could be so great but stupid shit like taxes and inflation and utilities exist #most of the shit we have to pay for should be free. it should be free. #it shouldnt be difficult to Live just because the majority of us don't have the fake fucking paper to buy things #its pointless its ridiculous and it makes me furious #why should i kill myself just to survive huh. why should i. why should any of us. #we all deserve to fuckin. idk enjoy sunsets and good food and art and each others' company. #instead everyone's stressing themselves to death over making rent and getting groceries and paying bills. fuck. #id love to be able to create art that Sells and open a shop or something #but also the thought of creating purposefully marketable art purely to make money fucking kills me inside #comms are one thing but... just... sighing sighing sighing. man idk #i just dont know. ill deal but everytime i manage to think positively reality comes in with a sledgehammer and now i want to go back to bed #the point is to live BUT YA CANT FUCKIN LIVE BC POINTLESS STUFF REIGNS SUPREME. WHO'S GONNA COMMIT ARSON W ME CMON LETS GO #this stupid fucking country and this stupid fucking government. i hate it here

[herotune]

in fair faerûn where we lay our scene.......

im a little late heading into wyll week and im so sad but here's an illustration for day 3: modern au!!!!

wyll gives me theater kid vibes and i think modern au wyll would Absolutely be an actor. and i think he'd be incredible in shakespeare adaptations and historical dramas... so i Had to redraw one of my favorite shots from baz luhrmann's romeo + juliet with him. a modern au in a modern au...its perfect 🎭

#bg3 #wyll week #wyllvember #wyll ravengard #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyllweek #shakespeare #my art #herotune #i replaced the crucifixes with the symbol for tyr btw cries #which is hopefully understandable 😭 #i Need to go back n check what wylls reaction to the tyr paladins is again its been too long since i played that part in my current run #so hopefully including the symbol for tyr is appropriate weeps...i tried to figure out if theres a diety he follows n Could Not #so i just went w tyr because the symbol for him had a similar enough silhouette and i feel like gd of justice Very much fits wyll... #although theres also uhhhh helm gd of protection and i feel like that would suit him more i just didnt think the symbol for helm would work #its like. an eye on a gauntlet 😭..... #so uh. i. ended up going with tyr #anyway im so so sad im late to wyll week ;_; i love him and i DO have a lot of sketches ive not published of him yet #but i wanna do the prompts too. i do think ill be posting some of those drawings for the free day but i think im also gonna try to get #stuff out for the rest of the prompts even tho itll have to be after wyll week is over... #wait itd still be wyllvember tho :0 #his month...yessss im late but also im not. its fine.

[fjordfolk]

100% don't punish the growl and listen to your dog and your puppy is not an evil mastermind AND ALSO seeing how Melis behaved today and latey, feeling very validated in our approach to her outbursts of screaming thrashing gnashing teeth being less "sorry sorry never mind" and more "ok buddy are u sure though"

time will tell if she has another ride on the melty brain hormone train coming (Sparta didn't - but she might) but at this moment in time, Melis is a pretty tolerant, people-oriented, socially intelligent little dog who's displaying some very pleasant traits. and who has not growled or snarled or gotten near threshold in many months. at this rate our worst puppy might end up our best dog

#her impulse control is tons better (as one expects when they start to hormonally mature a bit) #and its not so much about teaching her to moderate her behaviour anymore as it seems like she finally understands #that the best way to the best outcome for her is simply to #behave. and take it easy. and trust us and the environment to make things work out in good ways #conflict free resolutions etc #to be fair i think melis has ALWAYS been socially intelligent #i dont think she wouldve adopted the behaviour style she had if she wasnt. she learned VERY EARLY (pre-8wks) #that if she blustered big enough she'd win anything. and that became the most convenient and successful way for her to behave #so all we really had to do was make that behaviour inefficient. not punish it - that wasnt necessary #because the wanted behaviour requires less of her than the unwanted one does #anyway i love her and her remorselessness to bits and now we can foster her need for chaos and violence in productive and harmonious ways #<3

[vulturevanity]

Thinking about ScarVi's overarching theme being The Truth Shall Set You Free. I am so normal about this

#spoilers in tags #pokémon #pokemon sv #Arven initially being closed off and not trusting you because he was neglected by his parent and learned to only rely on himself #realizing very early on that being honest is the best chance he has at healing his Mabostiff #but still not opening up about his bigger issues until it was absolutely necessary which pushes the story forward into endgame #Penny hiding herself behind Cassiopeia to protect herself from bullying #getting an entire group of outcast kids into a team to scare their bullies off #only for the plan to backfire splendously when they're mistaken for the bullies #and Clavell in a rare display of clarity ffrom an adult in a position of authority #rather than simply punishing them for it opted to team up with us to understand what was really going on #and that made him much more lenient in punishing them (because they did still cause trouble!) #the truth of Turo/Sada spiraling into their work and refusing to see the damage it was doing to EVERYTHING including themselves #to the point that they DIED #and the AI they built explicitly for the purpose of continuing their work ran the calculations and realized said work was Bad #and that truth made it go against its own programming which is what kickstarts the main story to begin with #and may I contrast all that with NEMONA whose sheer energy and eagerness is 1000% GENUINE #I've seen so many people say they thought she was going to eventually be angry for losing to us all the time #but the whole point of her character is that she's free to do whatever the fuck she wants and she's pretty happy with her life #she has no reason to fake happiness. she's just like that. she is free from the beginning and she's always be free and that's the point #in a story where no one else is!!! everyone else is bound by some complication or another that holds them back from being honest #i changed my mind i'm insane about this. no longer normal #pokemon sv spoilers #babbles

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina check in <3

hi team! thanks for sticking around! i know my blog isn't always the most exciting and enriching place in the world in terms of content, but i am very /content/ to have you all here. <3333

i promise, oddly enough, i have A TON of inspiration and ideas for all my weird styles ( if you're curious about anything please lmk! i've been trying to flesh out my aus out lately ), i've just been in a major bummer depression era lately, so it's hard for me to get my asks done and i'm having a hard time committing to finishing my writing. :<

i think it's because of stress and my bipolar, but i am trying to get back on the horse! ( are we all laughing at the idea of me trying to get on a horse? i'd start crying help city girl fail moment for me ) yeehaw!

and while, unfortunately due to the instability ( fabulous legendary iconery ) of my pretty girl popstar personality, i do not know whether i will be answering almost no questions or one million, regardless of that, i just wanted to let you know, i'm still here, still kicking my feet, twirling my hair, cooking...i'm just really trying not to force myself to put out anything i don't like...and only do what makes me truly happy.

however, nothing, my dear sweet e-darlings...

makes me happier than coming home to all of you. <333

so thank you for flooding even the darkest corners of my life with bright light, supporting my phantom fics and being wonderful,

uncle nina xx

#nina speaks #hi my loves #idk what the point of this was #i just know my blog is really inconsistent and i know i dont really post anything or anything that useful #but i wanted you to know that i love you very much and i still care a lot about all of you and all my content actually #which i have been fleshing out in notebooks and google docs i've been doing lots of world building and character study #so feel free to ask me something challenging about any part of my nina sp auniverse that interests u itll make my brain work #i've also been taking very silly but dilligent notes abt what ravesey style looks like for ter so if u want to laff at those u can #i just love taking notes on detail and understanding exactly what characters look like or what settings appear like idk #might be some experimental writing on here i like doing different mediums like i was being silly #and started writing a netflix trailer for rm haha i also have been doing weird personality tests and questionnaires #i've been trying to think very deeply about tkak and my tfbw styles if u have any questions there and am deep plotting rm #trying to be impactful while also keeping things fun and learning to enjoy myself again i suppose #so again thakn u for being here sorry its weird on here but thank u for supporting me as i learn and grow my sunshines #also ik i have a ton of asks and uve already asked me so many things so never feel inclined to message me #but i love hearing what ur curious about hopefully i can answer some stuff eventually but again im on a break #i'm here but i'm not this is a safe place we try and fail we have fun and promote style world domination thru my weird styles #ilysm i'm shutting up now i promise i'm still here i'm just trying to be healthy and happy esp rn when i am not emotionally well #gotta protect my peace and my vibe palace but im still here! #MWAH MWAH MWAAAAAH #really trying to heal my inner child or like the girl in me that liked to write silly stories and create crazy things #weird hcs big dramatic plots silly stuff...i want to honor that girl because she was happy and free and had fun #and i want to do that again so lets have fun guys #no judgement no seriousness just good vibes and good reads #welcome to the uncle nina learns to laugh again arc #i hope you enjoy it

[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how they’ve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc #and act like it’s ‘cringe’ now that their fanbase feels ‘betrayed’ #it’s great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time #it’s interesting too though because i’ve seen watcher have a LOT of support as they’ve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed #so this is the first time they’re getting real pushback about a decision they’ve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand #so ig we’ll have to see how they react moving forward #but it’s soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed #AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away #how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc #but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed it’s like how dare you not lick their boots #because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free #anyway. #even if you don’t any to say it’s a bad business decision. it’s not like there’s not precedent for it #1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever #don’t you guys watch those dnd shows that are ‘behind a paywall’ #don’t you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations #don’t you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time #it’s interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like they’re friends!!!! #but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for #idk. idk. it’s entitlement though #sorry for the rant i’m ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i don’t know #but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol #anyway i’m still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions #also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc #like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly #‘they should’ve paid a real artist!!’ idk maybe their budget didn’t cover that #i don’t want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing #the big studios (who don’t have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit #but that’s another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing #maybe controversial but also can’t we have nuance. for once.

[lovestryke]

crack sniffle snarl

#bon the rabbit #twf #the walten files #ppp #having so much difficulty with the switch from blender to maya rn. i dont know how to convert blender models correctly so i can play with #them in maya. i really just want to import withered bonnie into there :( but i think itd be ok if im using both programs? blender for #unprofessional fnaf stuff or fnaf stuff in general bc blender is where all the fnaf rigs are... #and maya for school stuff and pro things. ! my instructor is skilled in both maya and blender....and its not like ill forget how to use may #a. #also i know these fnaf models are released for free use but like. some of these riggers do NOT know what theyre doing like. how tf are you #gonna make both the legs AND arms fk. ik i can handle because i can still pose the arms its just annoying but like. permanently fk legs are #impossible to work with like! what are you doing.

[pansyfemme]

the truth is im not sure if any other towns with ivy leagues in them tend to have the hatred and resentment for the school that ppl from new haven often have for yale. id love to just sit down and chat with someone from another ivy league town bc like. is it just the combo of a school full of very rich prep school kids in one of the poorest areas in the state where our public schools literally does not have the funding or curriculum for a lot of students to qualify for the college in their own fucking town or is this a wider issue in other places

#a childhood friend of mine just started at yale and im happy for her #but it makes me want to scream bc her mom works at yale she’s from new haven and there is literally a program here that is supposed to #give severly reduced or free tuition to new haven residents but apperantly they stopped doing that shit in her lifetime #so she has to pay full price and theyre making her live on campus despite living pretty much on campus already #hhhh im so fucking tired of this shit #her mom sent my mom this letter they got about how they should be careful about their kids being in new haven because its so dangerous and #scary and theres homeless people here oh my god!! there was literally a skull and crossbones on it #im so tired of this culture of yaleies being like ‘we want to reduce the distance between yale students and new haven residents!!’ but we’re #not the fucking problem. im thrilled about how much money yale brings in. we get an ikea and nice resteraunts bc of it #and nice museums and theatres and shit #but still our school system is on the list of the poorest in the country #my mom’s school literally cannot afford a school nurse or a counceler #i feel like maybe if yale wants to bridge the gap they should make it possible for people from this city to attend there #like. maybe they could start a program where kids from new haven could get reduced yale tuition? wait they already did that and they fucking #got rid of it for no reason

[poisonouspastels]

#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here #I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process #ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it #got called slurs #got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way #been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments #its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it #and very few people are vocal about liking it #i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive. #but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate #its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know #i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now #i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog #but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted #i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world. #if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it #sorry for venting

[kscriba]

#i know i haven't posted since i got a job because ive been so busy #but this is just a life update that im getting married in the autumn! #it has been quite the year #i have been spending much of my free time knitting baby clothes #not because im pregnant or anything #its just faster and more rewarding to knit a sweater for a 6mo old than an adult #my cat is turning ten and he is doing very well #i just have to brush his teeth more #i have not been writing aside from very occasional work on an interactive fiction zork style game im making #life was great before but now it feels perfect :) #except for the housing market. but that's something for 2025 me to contend with