#big rant incoming

[mike-wheeler-ik-what-you-are]

forget hot girl summer imma bout to have busy girl autumn and stressed girl winter

#so basically #big rant incoming #next saturday I have to go to verona with my family #my best fríend told me today that in TWO WEEKS she is having a red carpet themed birthday party #and I have to make the dress #I have to do the proficiency c2 exam this year to take #school starts in two days and I have done like 50% of my summer homework #I have to take a tech exam / certification this year too #I have to buy a new phone #I'm starting singing classes again #I have to go find the right gym and go to the gym #I have more internship hours to do #can't forget about my feminist school group #aaaaand my sewing lessons #yes I am going to be busy no don't ask me how I'm doing

[skyward-floored]

actually I really hate being considered a big blog. if I said I only have 10 followers would anyone believe me

#rambles from the floor #rant fueled by weird emotions incoming watch out #feel free to ignore (in fact please do I’ll probably delete this) #I think I’m getting worn out by this fandom #or something idk #I don’t like being big #there’s that whole intimidation factor that comes into play that I DESPISE #‘well you have a lot of followers so you’re scary’ why???? #why does other people deciding to follow me make me scary #I don’t understand #plus I always feel like posts about big blogs are vagueing about me #even if they aren’t #and everybody always NEEDS to know my stance on fandom crap and I get political asks for some reason and #and #*falls on the floor face-first* please just treat me normally guys #I’m twenty [redacted] years old and I’m barely holding my life together as is

[melit0n]

"The more that I grow, the more that I've come to know; it's hard to be someone and it hurts to be nobody."

#I'm thinking about making a personal tag for all the music I post #something like 'Mel's Mixtape'? I feel like I've already seen that somewhere though so I don't wanna be copying anyone #if anybody has any ideas let me know! #+ that lyric gutter punched me when I first listened to COAP #(bit of a vent/rant incoming so nobody feel pressured to read) #I've spent the majority of my life with anxiety (especially social anxiety) and depression #so I got stuck on the idea of being a 'nobody'; a person you never even notice just drifting through It All #but then I got jealous (per say) of people who had big friendgroups and were 'popular' etc and wanted to become 'somebody' #a person maybe even in the public eye #so I spent years trying to make myself into someone I wasn't and spent the whole time suffering #and eventually people realised I was not what I wanted to be (I wasn't like *them* in that sense) and they spent their days making sure -> #I knew it #so yeah #it is hard to be someone but it hurts to be nobody #even so I've found myself a good middle spot with a few friends who know me for *me* a good major and a lot of lovely moots #I ain't someone but I ain't nobody either <3 #mel's thoughs #spotify #half•alive #half alive #conditions of a punk #coap #nobody (song) #melitunes

[floralovebot]

:(

#very silly rant incoming #its Not a big deal but it just kinda sucks :( #i spent a lot of time on an art thing even did a whole background for it for a sideblog #and it got 4 notes lol #and yeah the fandom Is smaller but i see a lot of art get 100+ notes #and like its Not a big deal i still like the art im still glad i did it i didnt do it for notes #but i am also proud of it and i thought more people would like it :( #and i Know notes arent indicative of whether or not its good or it was worth doing #i liked it and thats all that truly matters #but other people liking it is a nice feeling :') #i posted some sketches like months ago and those got more notes in a day #i feel very cringe rn :(

[annalyticall]

To be honest I think I'm starting to become so apathetic to gender that I could possibly be non-binary but at the same time I am also just apathetic enough to not care about changing my pronouns or doing anything differently about how i present to people

#long gender rant incoming but i've never not identified as a woman and I'll probably always be one #but also i don't think i identify so much as a woman that i find it to be so drastically different to being a man? #like i never identified as a man either and never will but also like. idk we're all just people man #it's the roles we impose on ourselves that makes it seem like there's such a chasm there but there's not #like sure i'm sure on some level being a woman predisposes me to behave certain ways #but i was also fortunate enough to be raised in a household where my gender didn't bar me from playing with or liking things deemed for boy #so when i gravitated towards engineering and action movies and video games i mingled a lot more with boys than i did girls #not to be a 'not like other girls' girl but just because i naturally wanted to surround myself with people of common interests #and that just kind of normalized for me sharing space and thoughts with men as an equal #and sure sometimes men in particular piss me off but mostly just the men who subscribe to the bs role they were given as a 'man' #like the ones who don't think they could possibly relate to me because I'm a woman #like fuck that. obviously. but i also find it hard to identify with movies like barbie that draw such a clear divide between genders #like i remember my biggest problem with the movie is that very rarely did it feel like the kens and barbies ever genuinely liked each other #i know that wasn't the point of the movie. it is a critique of gender roles and the patriarchy so relationships were not the focus #but i also couldn't really see myself in the barbies and i found it kinda hard to fully immerse myself in the message of it #idk. all this to say i am a woman but sometimes i wish i didn't have to make a big deal about it #oh yeah okay no wonder i'm bisexual

[random-human-being2311]

I love encountering the "I only like their '70s songs" queen fans because they're such a funny flavour of extremely pretentious

the way they talk about it you'd think their entire family was personally murdered by a synthesiser and/or a drum machine

#queen band #queen #this doesn't apply very much to the tumblr end of the Queen fandom but eh who cares #my queen-related posts already have a target audience of one (1) person (myself) already #but seriously what do you guys have against synthesisers?? #“it sounds too dated and 1980s” guess what my dude believe it or not people actually still use synthesisers in modern music #!! - RANT INCOMING - !! #HOLD ON I JUST REALISED #ISN'T THE GUITAR BEEPING NOISE ON FATHER TO SON (ONE OF THE TRACKS FROM QUEEN II OF ALL ALBUMS) INFAMOUS EASY TO MISTAKE FOR SYNTHESISER #AND THE OUTRO OF TEO TORIATTE #AND LIKE QUEEN MADE SURE TO INCLUDE “NOBODY PLAYED SYNTHESISER” OR WHATEVER THE WORDING WAS ON THEIR 1970S ALBUMS #**BECAUSE** EVERYONE KEPT MISTAKENLY THINKING THEY HAD SYNTHESISER IN THEM??? #DUE TO THE LAYERED VOCAL SOUND AND THE OCCASIONAL WEIRD USE OF A GUITAR THAT MAKES IT SOUND LIKE A SYNTH #oh also on drum machines: barely any queen songs use them what's the big problem #like only a handful from one (1) album #and on those songs it really works #idk why but the drum machine just works really well in Back Chat and it's a bop #Back Chat my beloved <3 #yeah anyway these guys don't make sense to me #and the good thing about posting this on tumblr is that the chance of one of them actually seeing this is so low it's basically zero #because I'm not in the mood to get into a heated argument about that right now #I will gladly rant but I want to rant into the void not actually at anyone #that one's ramblings

[deus-ex-mona]

my day in two pictures:

#very very long and incoherent and whiny rant incoming sorryyyyyy #i hate this. so. sooooo. sooooooooooo much #i could tell that this day was gonna go badly bc of just how well yesterday went (my lxl fan novels and curry meshi deliveries came in) #so anyway. i woke up late bc i slept late (thanks lxl event story lmaoo) and stuff happened so i left my place later than usual #but surpriseeeee it rained the moment i stepped out of the elevator. and the bus was coming in 3 minutes!!!! #so i ran across the carpark in the rain to take a shortcut. that was fine. whatever. but then i saw the bus turn in and— #for some reason my legs just. stopped moving. i couldn’t run anymore :( battery? depleted. bus? left right in front of my very eyes :( #and the next bus was set to come in 10 minutes ಥ‿ಥ so that was freakin’ fantastic. #anyways the bus came and took me to the interchange where the dumb train station was. and when i got to the platform… the train just left. #and the next train was set to come in 5 minutes. which was great news for me who had an hour to get to work #so the train came. the hour-long journey went. and when i reached the bus stop to transfer to the bus to get to work… the bus had just left #so with some time (read: 10 minutes) to spare i decided to get some bread for dinner… #unfortunately the bakery place thing i went to did not accept card payments ಥ‿ಥ so i decided to rely on qr code payments instead #big. mistake. (ʘ‿ʘ) my payment was rejected 4 times before i gave up and decided to use cash #unfortunatelyyyyyyy i had no $10 notes left for a quick and easy payment (i only had 2 $2 notes and a $50 note along with some coins) so i. #cue a panicked small change counting as i desperately tried to count as quickly as possible while the customer after me pressured me :( #and did i mention that a lady cut my queue while i was waiting to pay???? (ʘ‿ʘ) pain and suffering #thankfully i barely managed to catch the bus after that tizzy but i was already late for work by then :( #anyways i arrived at work late and decided to check my email app for the lolz. biiiiiig mistake!!!!!!! #i noticed that i had a new email from my father (derogatory) whom i had ghosted years ago. like??? why did he have to email today??? #my day was bad enough without him pls gimme a break. i just. suffering??????????? #so i get to my workstation (the worst workstation ever istg) and note that there actually aren’t many samples today! yay! #…then they freakin’ brought in like 200+ more samples and i realised that the morning shift had yet to finish weighing the morning samples— #pain. and. suffering. (ʘ‿ʘ) looks like i’ll have to work till 3am again. #ughhhhh why did today’s happenings have to happen this week??????? this isn’t a biologically good week for me i’m gonna. throw someone istg #i’m exhausted and annoyed and hating everything and anything sooooo hard rn and i think i need anger management classes bc aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa— #ok rant over time to cry ig. idk. i s w e a r i’m gonna smacc the morning shift people tomorrow if i don’t call out sick first— #it is suiyoubi my dudes

[blye-flower]

🙄

#if my dad could stop callin me on his way to work talking about how much he misses our rides to work and i need my job back thatd be great #if he could stop mentioning how im outta work and dont have income (which is false) that would be fucking perfect really #if he could just get his head outta his ass for 3 and a half secs and realize how fucking worthless it makes me feel that would be fantastic #like its bad enough im fumbling with rhis trying to go back to school shit #but it would help if he didnt feel thr need to constantly push me into the fucking workforce cause he wants to rely on me financially #like its so fucking transparent that thats why hes doing it too like im not a fuckint bank im making decisions for me #and even if i was still working you arent fucking entitled to it so why is it such a big thing that i resigned from my job leave me tf alone #blymi rants

[team-moonlark]

"but ai art is okay if"

No. Full stop. No.

"But i can't afford" then make your own. There's tutorials on youtube. Go grab a pen/brush. Download medibang. Go create.

#Remember when nfts were getting big and everyone was concerned with that #And now its just like #Oh whatever. A little ai art never hurt anyb #Anybody #Artists will lose their jobs/income but Google will continue to get even richer #Stop using chatgpt #End rant #Kailey rambles

[superbattrash]

Please don’t do this to me again, I cannot go through this one more time

#misha rants #I’m missing a giant chunk of my income #it was supposed to get here yesterday #it’s still not here #and I still have a big bill coming that’ll drain the rest of my account #I don’t get paid for another month #if everything gets taken and I don’t get that last part of my income I will have 0 dollar 0 dkk 0 anything for food #I’m going insane at this point I can’t do this again

[angyfishes]

SO ANGREE FRIDGE CANNOT BE POGEMON! MAD MAD ANGY UWU THAT NOT ANIMAL IT FRIDGE! FRIDGSE HOLD FOODE!!! 😡😡😡 FIRDGE FOR FOOUEDE KEEP OUT OF AMNIMAL FIGHTINGE VIBEO GAMS! SO MADDED, CANNOT LOOK AT FRIGS IN EVEN IN REAL LIFE NO MORE!!

#pokemon #rotom #hot take #video games #mini rant #rant #vent #dealing with anger #anger #fishes is madded #big angered at have to make more type at even in down here?! #vent incoming

[nervousmonolith]

i am annoyed

#Big rant incoming maybe idk #basically my mother once again blamed me or made me out to be the shitty person in a convo earlier #basically saying person A did nothing wrong and i cant change how people are and how i have to keep my emotions under control #and how its ''All On Me'' #she's right about the not changing people but i can fucking criticize their shitty fucking actions all i fucking want #ESPECIALLY IF THEY SAY A FUCKING SLUR THEN ARE LIKE '' ITS TO SHOW YOU THAT PEOPLE WILL SAY THINGS YOU DONT LIKE SOMETIMES'' LITERALLY #DID IT ON FUCKING PURPOSE TO GET A FUCKINY REACTION BUT NOOOOOO ITS FUCKING ALL ON ME????? #fucking choke die die fuck you die choke #<- sorry had to get that out of my system fr #but yeah she also said Me getting sent to a doctor was going to get her sent to a doctor <- paraphrased #YEP. #also saif some other shit that idk how to paraphrase #anyway i regret ever opening up ever 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶. #ALSO SHE GOT FUCKING MAD AT ME FOR ALL THIS SHIT ALSO SHIT OUT OF MY FUCKING CONTROL AGAIN #apparently the principal called her and said to take me to ane and get me put in a ward because i was seeing things which i NEVER FUCKING #SAID THEN SHE GOT MAD AT ME FOR IT #also not a great fucking idea principal a shitty one infact considering i didnt fucking know SHE SAID THAT UNTIL TODAY #i fucking hate it here so bad i will fucking kill and maim #any rant over time to seeth in rage and cry #i feel better after typing all that #crazy

[samuraisharkie]

bruh you ever just realize you don’t have ANY friends outside of the two you’ve had since high school and like. of course they’re the ones that matter but like you don’t even have any casual friends you’d be comfortable hanging out with irl and vice versa or anything.

#vent #overly personal rant incoming just ignore me. #god once again realizing that shit hurts. #I’m not at all saying ‘ough my friends shouldn’t have other friends they hang out with’ I’m saying I’ve NEVER had that myself. #also like I don’t care if they tell me they’re hanging out w someone else. that’s not what I’m upset about. #im upset about realizing I’ve never been able to say the same. #I depend on like those two irl friends for any meaningful socialization and it makes me feel like shit bc they don’t need that on them #and also I just. am too much of an autistic weirdo for anyone to like irl. #clearly #even online friends don’t stick around. I’ve never found an irl friend that lasted over two years except one #*online not irl #well. good and healthy online friends. ​I’ve had online friends last longer but they’ve all been damaging and abusive in some way. #I sometimes feel like I’ll end up losing all my irl friends bc I’ll never be as much of a typical ‘productive adult’ as they are #I’ll just get left behind. with me and my twin once again the only people we have in the world #ig it isn’t as big a worry with the one friend bc I know she considers us like siblings but still I feel kind of like a parasite sometimes #still the fact that I have never made any friends except those two is like a slow poison to me. what’s wrong with me. #the age old question I’ve been asking since I could think. what’s wrong with me. #genuinely pretty worried that one of my friends doesn’t like me or my sibling all that much anymore too. #I think she prefers her husband and the adult friends that amount to something now. #she never talks to us anymore and hanging out seems more like a burden then something to look forward to for her. #i feel like such an asshole. this isn’t normal right? is because me and my sibling are still stuck sheltered?? #god. i just wish I could live like a normal 24 year old like all my peers #instead of being stuck in the same place I was born in the same house closeted away my real personhood in favor of surviving. #and while I’m surviving and missing out on any development I’m just watching the divide between me and my sibling and everyone else #get further and further away and wider and wider

[meaganfoster]

extremely annoying how i have a hyperspecific set of standards in my head that i not only need to match but also surpass before i consider myself "worthy" of certain friendships/relationships . best (worst) kind of self sabotage

#ok personal rant incoming sjhjdk sorry #like i NEED to be smart enough perceptive enough etc !! #i need 2 understand all that they could possibly say as well as offer the most insightful and valuable opinion possible at any given moment #when in all likelihood the person themselves is not cataloguing a list of my most big brained qualities in order to like me #whY am i setting MYSELF portions for something that doesnt require studying so much as courage and inherent interest (ONE of which i have) #and this isnt even how EYE view other ppl so . why do i feel the need to do it to myself #gripping sink staring into mirror repeating friendship is not a test friendship is not a test friendship is not a test. neurotypical moment #just realized the way i approach friendship is extremely similar to the way i approach the act of creating art .. as something aspirational #when the only way to ''get good'' so to speak is to actually DO it #reflections

[kethabali]

i cannot believe my screenwriting teacher had the audacity to give me a B+ after being the worst teacher i have ever had throughout my college experience. in fact the conservative guy who would complain about something every class was still a better Teacher than this dude. you should be giving everyone an A FOR WASTING OUR TIME!

#🧃 #i'm actually mad #he dropped my gpa #i was gonna use this semester to bring it up #not that it was ever that low in the first place but its nice to have a high gpa its satisfying to look at #but i dont believe in superiority or value in grades because i had a 79 average in high school #i just like to look at it lmfaooo #thats literally it. #also its good if i ever need extra money for tuitition and i apply to scholarships #but being a below average student in high school and being a top student in college gives me both sides of the coin and i can confirm #from both experiences that grades are in fact. a scam #and mean literally nothing #so that makes me feel better now about my b+ #i almost forgot about all that stuff thanks @ me for reminding me by going on a rant #idc if he gave me a b+ #if i get an A in everything else it shouldnt be a big drop #also in the spring i plan on having all As again #unless one of my teachers is a dick again #but (second rant incoming) all my classes next semester is social science/ advocacy classes #so i have high high hopes hehehehe #decolonize mental health environmental justice with a focus on race and institutions afro brazilian and caribbean history #and a class on global genocide perspectives which will talk about genocide as an identity based crime in relation to things like war crimes #ethnic cleansing and things of that nature #which will be very relevant to right now and so if my teacher was a zionist that would be hthe most hypocritical and absurd thing ever #but the class description mentions colonialism in the present day so i think they should not be a zionist #it would just be so silly if they were. teaching a class on genocide in the present day like C'MON #the universe couldnt hate me so much right #buuttt yeah so social science teachers are always nice #even in my strict ass high school they were #so i should be fine

[shay-puppitty]

Becoming a villain.

#shay's life #rant incoming #read as: bought myself a car I'll have to make payments on #which means I won't be using mom's anymore which means I won't be making AS BIG of payments for it #(I'm still willing to give her some for payments but not AS MUCH) #there were tears and she claimed she has no one anymore #mind you I'm still gonna give her money just not over 300 a month for something I won't be using #small steps towards getting out of here #have new cards/new car/working on credit/and a plan out #just have to get my own phone line/find somewhere/etc (I've never moved idk what to do)