#bul!m!c

[professionalgravedigger]

#gravedigger philosophy #tw ed sheeran #ana community #an0rexsick #anarecsick #bul!mi4 #bul!m!c #ed community #4n4m1a #4norex1a #4n@ #not pro just tags #i just want to be thin #skinyyyy #anor3x14 #th!n$piration #th!gh g@p #thinsp0 #skinnysp0

[skinny-as-i-everwas]

I just realized the website has disabled all of the tags for 3@t!ng d!s0rd3r related things and I’m super upset and worried bc this is where I find support and I passively post about my progress, and I don’t want to go back to feeling isolated 😭

if anyone has any recs on specific or different ways I can still find the content I’m here for and help people see mine, or if there’s a different platform everyone moved too while I was under a rock, I’d be so grateful 🥲

#@nar3x!a #3atingdisord3r #3at!ingd!s0rder #th!nsp0 #notprojusttags #notprojustusingthetags #not pr0 anything #bul!m!c #bulimima #a n a #e@t d!s0rd3rx #t!ns p0

[skin-and-collar-bones]

Attention!!!!

I got the t at 2000 followers. My name was similar to this one, and I had the same pfp and background image, so follow me if ya recognize me and stuff, and I’ll follow back. Only using tags on the first post for reach! Minors DNI!

#anoreksik #an0rec1a #th!n$p0 #th!nspø #bul!m!4 #3dn0s #sk!nny #c@lories

[fairyb0ngwater]

I h@te being f@t I'm not gonna lie

This b!g b0dy

Hurts to live ins!de

I am technically ob3se

And it's not easy

it's not fun

because of the way people look at me

and in reality

I'm just a body floating through space

and I really don't want to hide

but I don't like it at the same time

and that's okay

it's okay to be upset

I just really hope

I don't faint turning

left

2:03 am // d.v.

#an0rex!c #an0rex!a #an0rex!@ #b!ng3 #b!ng3ating #b!ng3at!ngd!sord3r #b!nge #bul!m!a #eat!ngd!s0rd3r #eat!ng d!sorder #e@t!ngd!s0rd3r #b!p0l@r #bip0l@r #man!a #man!c #v3ntp0st

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

got told to look into a HPD diagnosis :)

#vent #actually borderline #it would honestly make a lot of fucking sense #i get irrationally angry if i’m not the center of attention #i lie all the time to make myself look better/cooler/funnier/more interesting #i constantly think abt how i look #i flirt w ppl and am always on dating apps to get validation #i want to d!e if i feel like someone doesn’t approve of me (esp my dad) #i need reassurance all the time #i always think relationships are more intimate than they actually are #im just upset bc i feel like i keep adding diagnosis after diagnosis #if i do have it #i’d be diagnosed w ADHD BPD OCD C-PTSD HPD Bul!m!@ and Bipolar 1 #like jesus christ

[daisyinbutterflyland]

February 3, 2024

/EN/

I was doing so great this week and Saturday came. I went to chinese restaurant with my friends and 4te the whole plate... Fck!ng sh!t. And my friend ordered me wh!skey and coke. I hate coke. I was thinking about puk!ng but I can't. My mind is blocked on that because my father is bul!m!c and all my childhood I heard sounds of puk!ng from bathroom after every meal. So I taked l4x3s right after I get home. Hope I p00p everything out at the morning.

Log:

Coffes: 2

Redbull sugarfree: 7.5cal

P!lls: C22H19NO4 - 50mg

CHINESE+DR!NK - ???cal

Cigarettes: 10

Walking: 5.37mi/8.65km - 411cal

/PL/

Tak mi dobrze szło w tym tygodniu i przyszła sobota. Poszłam do chińskiej restauracji z przyjaciółki i zjadłam cały talerz... K0rw4 mać. I mój znajomy zamówił mi wh!skey z colą. Nienawidzę coli. Myślałam żeby zwym!0t0w4ć ale nie mogę. Mój mózg jest zablokowany na to bo mój tata jest bul!mik!em i całe dzieciństwo słyszałam te dźwięki z łazienki po każdym posiłku. Więc wzięłam prz3czyszcz4cz3 zaraz po tym jak wróciłam do domu. Mam nadzieję że wysr4m wszystko rano.

Bilans:

Kawa: 2

Redbull sugarfree: 7.5kcal

T4bl3tk!: C22H19NO4 - 50mg

CHIŃSZCZYZNA+DR!NK - ???kcal

Papierosy: 10

Spacer: 5.37mi/8.65km - 411kcal

#ana bllog #tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #pro for me not for thee #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #ed disorder #tw restrictive ed #ana log #ana low cal #ed bullshit #motylki blog #motylki any #bede motylkiem #blogi motylkowe #dieta motylkowa #chce byc lekka jak motylek #chudosc #lekka jak motyl #jestem motylkiem #ana trigger #anatumblr #pro @na #proana. #pro a4a #pro.ana

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[akiwantstobethin]

I thought I was bul!m!c but I don’t b!nge. Turns out it’s purg3 disorder. Heh the more ya know I guess lol.

#4norexla #starv1ng #body inspo #light as a 🪶 #@nor3xia #b0dii chexx #thin$po #bul!m!4 #bulim14 #bulimima

[synapseisskinny]

Can some of you pass me some tips on how to restrict myself? I want to drop 20kg, and I really need some motivation.

I’ve been a bul$m$c since 2021, but for some reason I’m stuck on my current w€ight for a year now.

#thin$po #thinspø #ana trigger #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #anorexla #tw ed diet #anor3c1a #i wanna be skinnier #bulimima #ed not ed sheeran

[professionalgravedigger]

All I want for Christmas is a thin waist, flat belly, thigh gap, delicate arms, slim fingers, small belly button, my ultimate goal weight and a fast metabolism

#gravedigger philosophy #tw ed sheeran #ana community #bul!mi4 #ed community #an0rexsick #anarecsick #i just want to be thin #bul!m!c #ed thoughts #ana motiv #ana diet #disordered eating in tags #ed diet #not pro just tags #st@rve me #th!gh g@p #th!n$piration #th1np0

[apathyaches]

4n4 girlies here like:

omg just ate a banana and a pack of cookies grosss can’t believe I binged!

my bul!m!c ass 24/7:

[ggukkiedae]

Yoonmi's Line Distributions in

Love Yourself: Answer

D N A

“Urin wanjeon dalla, baby

Unmyeongeul chajanaen durinikka” (0:53-1:00)

“Taechoui DNA (DNA) ga neol wonhaneunde (Haneunde)

Igeon piryeoniya I love us (Love us)

Urimani true lovers (Lovers)” (1:39-1:47)

“Urin jeonsaengedo (Urin jeonsaengedo)

Ama daeum saengedo (Ama daeum saengedo)

Yeongwonhi hamkkenikka (DNA)” (2:24-2:30)

T R I V I A : W H Y

H E R

“Eojjaetteun nan nege choegoye namjagil wonhae

Ama dangyeonae neon naege i segye geu jacheyeotgie

Jugeul geomyeon kkok nawa gati jukgettadeon ttae

Niga wonhaneun naega doegiro

God I swore to myself

So many complex

But I’m lookin’ for love

Gajja narado joa niga anajundamyeon

Neon naege shijagija gyeolmal jachenikka

Niga nal kkeutnaejura” (0:43-1:04)

“Neul geuraetteushi mask on

Hwanhoro nal bangyeojuneun her

Geudaemane byeol amu il eopshi bitnamyeonseodo

Gajang bitnaya hal shigane nan mask off

Lost star nae jimeul naeryeonwa eodumeul jeulgyeo

Jugil deushi sswadaeneun jomyeongdo eopseuni ye

Geujeo mam ganeun daero

Gam danneun daero, nal an jabneun daero

Tick tock” (2:41-3:00)

----------

F A K E L O V E

“I wanna be a good one just for you

Sesangeul jwotne just for you

Jeonbu bakkwosseo just for you

Now I don’t know me, who are you?” (0:37-0:50) (jungkook)

“Love you so mad, love you so mad

Nal jiwo neoui inhyeongi doeryeo hae” (2:59-3:04, 312-3:17)

“Sarangi sarangmaneuro wanbyeokhagil

Nae modeun yakjeomdeureun da sumgyeojigil

Irwojiji anhneun kkumsogeseo

Piul su eopsneun kkocheul kiwosseo” (3:43-3:54) (with jungkook)

O U T R O : T E A R

“Gateun kkumeul kkwotda saenggakaenneunde

Geu kkumeun biroso kkumi doeeonne

Simjangi jjitgyeojyeo charari bul taewojwo

Gotonggwa miryeon geu mueotdo namji ankekkeum” (1:53-2:05)

“What more can I say?

You’re my…” (2:15-2:18, 3:53-3:56)

*instead of yoongi’s bridge, yoonmi has her own verse talking about coming to terms with and having to face the fear of being left alone no matter how much it tore her apart and made her cry, then it goes to hoseok’s verse*

I ' M F I N E

"Gwaenchana uriga anieodo seulpeumi nal jiwodo

Meokgureumeun tto kkigo na kkeuteomneun kkum sogieodo

Haneopsi gugyeojigo nalgaeneun jjitgyeojigo

Eonjenga naega naega anige doendaljieodo" (0:30-0:40)

"I'm feeling just fine, fine, fine

Deo isangeun seulpeuji aneullae

I could see the sunshine, shine, shine

'Cause I'm just fine, just fine" (1:23-1:34)

I D O L

"I know what I am (I know what I am)

I know what I want (I know what I want)

I never gon' change (I ain't never gonna change)

I never gon' trade

(Trade off, uh uh)" (0:37-0:45)

"Eolssu johda" (2:20-2:21)

"I'm so fine wherever I go (I go, I go, I go, I go)

Gakkeum meolli doragado (oh)" (2:47-2:54)

A N S W E R : L O V E M Y S E L F

"Nuneul tteunda eodum sok na

Simjangi ttwineun sori natseol ttae

Maju bonda geoul sok neo

Geommeogeun nunbit haemugeun jilmun" (0:08-0:26)

"Wae jakkuman gamchuryeogoman

Hae ni gamyeon sogeuro

Nae silsuro saenggin

Hyungteokkaji da nae byeoljarinde, ayy" (2:33-2:50)

M A G I C S H O P

“Geu muneul yeolgo deureogamyeon i gosi gidaril geoya

Mideodo gwaenchana neol wirohaejul Magic Shop” (1:05-1:018)

“Neon gwaenchaneul geoya oh yeogin Magic shop” (2:55-3:00)

B E S T O F M E

“Haruharu

Yeoreum gaeoul

Neon mollado” (0:33-0:45)

“Neon naui guwon neon naui chang

Nan neoman isseumyeon dwae” (2:07-2:12)

“Biga naerideon na

Nuni naerideon na

Modeun bulhaengeul meomchugo

Cheongugeul deryeowa” (2:22-2:29)

“When you say that you love me

Nan geu han madimyeon dwae

Byeonhaji anhneundago

Just one more time” (3:33-3:40)

A I R P L A N E PT . 2

“Ojik norae

Simjangeul ttwige hadeon thing

Hanappunideon

Gireul georeotjiman” (0:28-0:33)

“El Mariachi, El Mariachi, El Mariachi (ah, ah)”(1:21-1:26)

“El Mariachi, El Mariachi, El Mariachi” (1:34-1:39)

“Hoo-ooh, hoo-ooh

Hoo-ooh, hoo-ooh, ooh” (1:42-1:55) (with jungkook)

“I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

Geurae meomchuneun beopdo

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

Geurae jom swineun beopdo

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

Silpaehaneun beopdo

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

TV nawaseo gwiyeoun” (2:23-2:36) (yoongi)

“El Mariachi, El Mariachi, El Mariachi (ah, ah)”(2:57-3:01)

“El Mariachi, El Mariachi, El Mariachi

Hoo-ooh, hoo-ooh

Hoo-ooh, hoo-ooh, ooh” (3:10-3:30) (with jungkook)

G O G O

“DOLLAR DOLLAR

Haruachime jeonbu tangjin

Dallyeo dallyeo naega beoreo naega sachi

Dallyeo dallyeo dallyeo dallyeo

Dallyeo dallyeo” (0:15-0:25)

A N P A N M A N

“Gyesok mollae mollae sangcheo manttang

But ballin’ ballin’ still bangtan

Apado hero duryeoumeun dwiro

Anpanman panman panman” (1:17-1:27)

“Dasi neomeojigetjiman

Ttodasi silsu hagetjiman

Tto jinheultuseongigetjiman

Nareul mideo naneun heronikka

Yeah yeah” (2:55-3:04)

“I’m a new generation Anpanman (Woah, oh)

I’m a new superhero Anpanman

Naega gajin geon i norae hanbang (Woah, oh)

Lemme say “All the bad men, cop out"” (3:23-3:33)

M I C D R O P

“World Business haeksim

Seoboe 1sunwi maejin

Manhji anhji i class gachil mankkik

Joheun hyanggie akchwin banchik

Mic mic bungee” (0:40-0:51)

“Daesinhaejwo niga moshan hyodo

Uri konseoteu jeoldae eopseo podo

I do it I do it neon maseopsneun rattattui

Hok baega apeudamyeon gosohae

Sue it” (1:03-1:13)

“Haters gon’ hate

Players gon’ play

Live a life man

Good luck” (3:08-3:17)

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drop an ask or a dm if you wanna be added or taken out of the taglist 🥰 requests are also open!

#yoonmi.lyanswer #miya #yoonmi #kim yoonmi #bts 8th member #bts female member #bts female addition

[fairyb0ngwater]

I've been through six years of therapy. I'm tired of people telling me to go to therapy when they haven't been. I'm pretty educated on this stuff. NOT A PROFESSIONAL. Just been through a lot. Tired of people that haven't gone to therapy telling me to go seek help. Dude I've literally done a lot of work. Please let me have some daëmon time. I'm not gonna spiral out of control. Already have too many times.

- 2:11 am // d.v.

Sick of people being overprotective

#an0rex!c #an0rex!a #b!ng3 #b!ng3ating #b!ng3at!ngd!sord3r #b!nge #bul!m!a #bip0l@r #b!ngeeat!ngd!s0rd3r #b!p0l@r #man!c #m@n!a #man!a

[cyclist143]

4n4 > Bul!m!4

Bul!m!4 pros and cons (that apply for me):

PROs:

-you might lose a bit of weight (depending on how often you purge, whether you binge and how much etc.)

-you are in control (once again dependant on how often you purge and so on)

CONs:

-people finding out = monitored eating, weight gain diet plans (even if you are fat) for the ‘balance’ and ‘nutrients’, monitored BATHROOM TIMES and people LISTENING TO YOU ON THE TOILET or even GOING IN TO THE BATHROOM WITH YOU 🚨🚨 - most awful thing in the world

-depression

-nobody understands

-feels like an addiction to food

-messed with my heart and organs, which in turn means I cannot not eat for more than 1-2 days without passing out or having to go to hospital because my heart’s too slow

-friends will never understand

-sometimes it becomes impossible to purge = depression

-DOUBLE CHIN

-SWOLLEN FACE AND NECK

-everything smells of vomit

-vomit smells awful

-can’t have sleepovers

-the more hidden the purge, the more disgusting the method

-made my fingers look weird

-binged mercilessly

-iffy blood test results 😬

-made me actively su!c!dal (attempted 2+ times)

-caused me to sh

-wasn’t dainty and elegant

-joint pain 😦

And most importantly of all….

-I GAINED TONS OF WEIGHT - weight fluctuations were crazy and ended in me gaining

SO

I’m 4n4 > Bul!m!4 24/7

#bul!m!4 #bul!mic #pro a4a #ed disorder #pro @na #tw ed diet #tw disordered eating

[bew-berry]

Hoo boy I had an infuriating night last night and to take my mind off it i started thinking about writing aus. I've reached the "how would my characters die in aus" part of creating because I'm in a foul mood and I made myself very sad now rather than angry. It's pretty obvious who is who if you follow my oc posts which I doubt many do. That's fine. I dont post much about them anymore...at least not here. I've mostly moved them elsewhere.

I'm not killing them off. That'll never ever happen. This was just a thought that became a thing and it got me thinking what ifs and it got dark. Im sure every creator goes through it and has like dark aus for ocs. I see those posts talking about giving them fucked up lives for fun. This wasn't fun for me though. Anywho in order from oldest to youngest:

A: Domestic abuse and was possibly pregnant from a forced time. She wouldn't have known yet but was starting to suspect. Is found bruised and battered lying over broken glass by the stairs. She had been isolated from her family so they didn't know how bad it was. She did a great job playing it off like nothing was wrong to not worry them even though some of the sisters knew better.

C: Killed by fiancé's mistress but not before being taken and brutally tortured for days. Is found later when it's too late and it's so bad she can't be identified right away. Fiancé had no part in it even though he becomes the prime suspect. She had found out about the affair and wanted to leave but he wanted to work things out and ended affair with his mistress to prove it. Mistress loses her mind and takes revenge.

M: Eating disorder (ano/bul) caused by mental/emotional/verbal abuse and heartbreak from her narcissistic boyfriend who intentionally gets involved with her cousin towards the end just to hurt her and throws it in her face. He knows how to keep her and tears her down if he sees any glimpse of light or joy in her eyes because he thinks it's funny. She likely has a couple of nervous breakdowns throughout the whole thing making her very sick to the point of no return.

L: Suicide. Becomes severely depressed after losing an important person in her life. Never comes out of it. Self harms to cope and takes pills to knock out all the time. Just gives up and spirals further as her mental health declines. Increases sleeping pills to avoid real life. She is found at home in the tub with the bottle of pills by the foot of the tub.

And the remaining family likely in a tragic accident at the family restaurant. Maybe a fire or robbery gone wrong.

I will never kill my girls or their family off, and it hurt me when this shit came to mind, but oh well. Sometimes that's the direction the mind goes when creating stuff while in a mood. I'm never writing these aus. I already feel bad for them. Maybe I should just write an actual story with them. They deserve so much love.

#tw: death #tw: ed #tw: violence #not like anyone reads my shit but im putting up the trigger warnings anyway #dark au #what ifs #writing things #im so tired #and upset at irl things #literally been up all night #but couldn't sleep #I'm pretty angry

[cerealscammer]

i got diagnosed with bul!m!@ and it felt so right but also like sooo disappointing bc i was like so close to being @n0rex!c but i had to like fuck it up

mental illness is crazy! 😋

#bul1m14 #i am not okay #anor3x14 #is this relatable??? #mentally fucked