#but cis people better not clown on it or i will come down on them like the hammer of fucking thor

[butchladymaria]

11, 12, and 16 for the violence asks!! I need to know

OG POST HERE!!!

11. number of fandom-related words you’ve filtered

actually all 36 terms i have filtered are fandom-related lmao. honestly i use the filtering system as a way to clean up my dash. i sometimes filter a tag if someone i follow gets into a new thing that i’m ambivalent about or unfamiliar with. it means i can keep following them without seeing stuff i’m just not all that interested in yet but also (and especially) to avoid having something spoiled for me if i want to check it out in future! it also means that i can click the “show” button if i’m in the mood for something specific or want to learn more about it — go to their blog and just look for anything filtered :) this is literally the only way i know of to search a tumblr account for specific shit because the actual search function is Actually Useless Shit

16. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

man there’s so many picks here but i’d have to say annalise. she’s not unpopular as in actively disliked afaik, just more generally overlooked. i need to post more about her but like — she’s such a key piece of bloodborne’s themes around gender and motherhood and its a goddamn shame it doesn’t get talked about more!!! she feels like a foil to miss doll in many ways (editor’s note: i Went Off on this but it needs to be its own post, so rest assured i will elaborate lol). she’s such a goddamn tragic character. in so many ways it feels that she retreated into the role of the queen to cope with the loss of her people: there’s nothing left of her home besides that. she calls herself “we”, not “i”. she is the queen of cainhurst before she is a human being and it feels like a very visceral reaction to the bigotry of the church. she is trapped in the throne room in a nightgown — evidenced the fact that her portraits show her wearing period-typical gowns, and the attire she wears looks like historical sleepwear. it makes me fucking insane. she was wearing her nightgown when the executioners attacked. despite seeing everyone she ever knew and loved be butchered before her eyes, despite being reviled as a corrupted subhuman monstrosity, despite being imprisoned in complete solitude for god only knows how long, she still fucking demands your respect and i love her for it. she is canonically some flavor of queer on account of the fact she rejects your marriage proposal in an identical way regardless of gender. i am able to fulfill my fantasy of a beautiful vampire woman bossing me around thru her questline. what is not to fucking like!!!!

17. you can’t understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc.)

hands down probably the defanging of the women characters: chiefly maria, miss doll, and adella/arianna. like, i know WHY it happens (misogyny) but it’s still baffling to me. why are you making them waifus. follow up question is your taste honest to god just that boring, and if so get better soon. they’re so much cooler than that. shut the fuck up. maria is such a complex character and if i see another clown reducing her to some soft maternal wifey because… what, she was compassionate to the research hall patients and felt bad about doing uhhh *checks notes* A Whole Ass Genocide???? i will staple myself to the ceiling. like some folks will do the most absurd mental gymnastics to call a woman in any media maternal for the most basic things 😭. in a similar vein are the people who shit themselves to death trying to claim that she TOTALLY COULD HAVE BEEN a femmey little uwu housewife even though she has a canonical and marked preference for masc presentation, and actually a woman conforming to victorian gender roles and being attracted to men is an EPIC FEMINIST WIN, actually. usually this comes from cis and/or hets who are convinced they are personally oppressed because like 3 queers on tumblr said maria is a butch lesbian. having said that there are so many amazing artists and theorycrafters that when i was trying to link specific posts/art the list was actually a million years long. some people are annoying but MORE people are so cool and thoughtful and creative!!!!! shoutout to nishihii saintadeline butchjolyne and pretty much all the lgbtqs in the mariadeline tag, all of your work is like oxygen to me 💕 yall are amazing :)

it’s the same with miss doll. either their complexity is painted over by making her the butt of those insufferable sex doll jokes or they’re made out to be this pure innocent mommy/housewife. usually this is hand in hand with just blatantly ignoring the misogyny inherent to the dynamic between her, maria, and gerhman and i just have to wonder how anyone manages to so spectacularly miss the point. i wrote a forty page paper on this. needless to say it makes me insane. i’m also a big fan of YOUR theories on the matter for a different yet equally neat perspective :) also i think marble did a post on it but i cannot for my LIFE find it

also i cannot stress enough how lame it is that adella gets reduced to a flat stereotype. they took a violently traumatized woman who was groomed into loathing herself by the catholic blood cult and who desperately clings onto the hunter for showing her justo the most basic decency of not Leaving Her To Die and decided instead of any of that it would be way cooler to water her down into a “yandere”. same can be said for arianna. like istg if they were men ther would be ESSAYS. but then again if they were men their themes would literally not even be half as cool AND they couldn’t be lesbians so i am writing the essays myself. tl;dr i am absolutely OBSESSED with both @/jurasicass and @/undefeatablesin’s portrayals of both these ladies. finally some good fucking adella/hunter/arianna dynamics‼️‼️‼️

#ask #bornetoblood #lady maria #queen annalise #adella the nun #miss doll #arianna lady of pleasure #i forget my tag for her. #bloodborne #these asks r geared towards the inner little hater but i must be a lover in equal measure. there r so many cool people here #that i couldnt make a complete list if i TRIED #to be clear i think the adella yandere jokes r funny but its obnoxious when thats ALL she is to some ppl ykwim

[caffeineandsociety]

If there is such a thing as a universal AFAB experience, it is being told constantly - even in queer spaces - that it's not your turn to have your issues heard. It is being told constantly that your problems aren't serious, or aren't real, or aren't what you say they are. It's being told over and over and over again that you're overreacting, and that other people have bigger problems so you need to sit down and wait. It is having violence against you downplayed with "but did you die?" in some hat or another.

Scared at the loss of abortion rights? Well, just stop having so much sex then, slut! It's not a REAL problem! Frustrated that you're being obsessively micromanaged by dress codes while your male classmates or coworkers aren't? Ugh, first world problems, don't you know that there are countries where women are still treated like property? You ARE being treated like property? Well why don't you just leave him or call the cops, you hysterical clown? You clearly just want something to complain about! Assaulted because some guy wouldn't take "I'm a lesbian" for an answer? Well you must have been very rude!

No problem you ever face is REAL and SERIOUS to anyone but you. To the rest of the world you're just a child LARPing at having problems for attention, trying to take away from people with REAL struggles. Even if one of these problems is acknowledged as systemic, "well, did it happen to YOU personally? It did? Well you clearly didn't get the worst of it, you're alive, stop complaining!"

And if you transition? Suddenly it starts coming from "feminists" too. If you're a trans man? Well, if you go stealth you might get paid almost as much as a cis man, so corrective rape and medical gatekeeping are part of a privilege, they're not real violence. If you're nonbinary? Cool cool we'll play along with your little game acknowledge you but we need to know your REAL gender what you were assigned at birth so we can tell whether you're a scary predatory man or an annoying frivolous baby girl looking for attention by stealing a narrative from real oppressed people properly assess your privileges!

There's a subset of "trans-inclusive" "feminists" absolutely frothing at the mouth for someone to treat the same way cis men treat them - but if you call them out on it, they turn on the fucking crocodile tears and start crying about how DARE you accuse them of being sexists they're FEMINISTS and you're not a WOMAN so YOU'RE just a misogynist and they will PROVE they're better and more progressive people than you by violently ripping away every piece of support you have.

They're so thorough, in fact, that simply by mentioning how they treat trans men, some of you are probably assuming I mean to imply that they treat trans women any better. I do not. I am well aware that these are the very same people who uplift trans women as flawless powerful queens and goddesses until they set one toe out of line and suddenly they're predators - no, no, it's not because they're trans women, it's because they openly indulge in a children's cartoon on the same blogs where they make sex jokes, so OBVIOUSLY they're PEDOPHILES.

But I'm tired of only being able to discuss my problems under that framework. I'm tired of not being allowed to discuss my problems in isolation. Other marginalized people are allowed to, but me? Hell, AFAB queer people in general? Lesbian issues, if not framed in terms of how the same issues affect gay men, get treated as divisive and seen as a likely sign of radfem nonsense - not because they inherently are, but because those vile communities are damned near the only ones that allow it. Discussing transmasc issues, and not framing them as lesser collateral damage to transmisogyny, is seen as denying that transmisogyny exists.

I'm tired of discussions of my own struggles having to come with disclaimers that I Know My Place, because you all still think of me as a caricature of a woman - a screeching harpy whining about non-issues, a permanent baby with a massive victim complex, too weak to protect myself from mild discomfort so I must spin it as the end of the world for attention - and blend that with the Born This Way narrative and blame it on me being an entitled man.

Unity should not mean "you must frame your issues in terms of how they affect us, while we barely pay you lip service in discussing ours."

So, when will it be our turn?

When will you admit that you're just as prone to bioessentialist misogyny as anyone else?

[southernconstellctions]

⌠ tony revolori, 27, unlabeled, cis male, he/him. ⌡ wait a minute, is ignacio ‘iggy’ orozco  still in town? i thought i saw a flash of (a lazy trail of smoke coming off burning incense, the soft fleecy inside of a brand new hoodie, string lights draped around a room)! last i heard they were working as a freelance photographer nearby. when it’s the (taurus)’s birthday on 04/28 i forget that they’re amoral and celebrate that they’re whimsical. i hear roaring 20s by panic at the disco every time i think of them. ⌿ @liminalintro 

Death TW

* From the day he was born, Iggy was causing mischief.  From trying to be the class clown to hiding things from his siblings when they weren’t looking, he was always finding a way to draw attention to himself in a (mostly) positive way - he loved the attention and laughs he would get.

* However, his antics hid where his real issues were stemming from - his relationship with his father.  Iggy was the only and oldest boy, and he always felt like he was coming up just short of what his father expected him - and it didn’t help that the man wasn’t often around, causing Iggy to think that maybe, he had a second, ‘better’ family and would rather just spend time with them.

* The truth of the matter is that the patriarch of the Orozco family just worked a lot to make sure the family was comfortable and had everything they needed - and even most things they wanted.  He would work long, grueling hours and then come home too exhausted to spend much time with the children he adored and worked so hard for.

* Around Iggy’s sixteenth birthday, the Orozco family got the news that their father had been killed in a freak accident.  Suddenly Iggy was extremely mournful of the fact that he never gave his father much of a chance, often blowing him off when he actually had time to to spend time together as any petulant teenage boy would.  He pulled into himself for a while, trying to sort through his feelings and what he could do about them

* That event triggered Iggy’s brief descent into darker things - or rather, darker corners of the internet.  He never fell into drugs, but he fell down rabbit hole after rabbit hole of dark web content, finding it fascinating, and wondered if he could be successful in something like around town drug trade instead of anything as sinister as what was behind a tor browser.

* However, the idea that his father wouldn’t be proud of him if his only son was a drug dealer stuck in Iggy’s head, so instead he threw himself into photography, capturing every moment he could, both good and bad, in an effort to ensure this wouldn’t ever happen to him again.

* He never completely abandoned the idea though, and while the ultimate goal was to be a photographer, there was no reason Iggy couldn’t supplement his income with other cash opportunities.  It was mostly just little runs here and there, quickly rubbing elbows with important mob members, getting an inside look at the world that he found so interesting.

* He doesn’t have the strongest moral compass, and still loves to trick people, even if there isn’t anyone around to praise him - the act in and of itself is fairly rewarding.  His photography has kept food on the table and rent paid in full, between hired gigs for magazines and events, and freelance work for anyone who’s looking on Craigslist for a photographer who’s very good at not being seen.

* Centralia has been his home since he was 18, and he’s working on a personal project to document everything he possible can of the town as time slowly changes it.

#liminal:intro #iggy orozco ( biography ) #death mention tw

[rockyhikaru]

[ ryusei yokohama, cis man, he/him] - was that uehara hikaru i saw arriving into beacon hills today? i hear that they are twenty nine and are a kitsune. they are known to remind others of overcast skies & bandaged hands . i do wonder what adventures are in store for them? [min,28, she/her, est, horror clowns] (kira's mentor connection and bonnie's fling connection)

𝐈 . . . 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 !

name . . . . Uehara Hikaru nicknames . . . . Hika or Ru (only Kira or Bonnie can call him that, everyone else gets the death glare) age . . . .29 sexuality . . . .pansexual date of birth . . . . 10/31/1993 place of birth . . .Honolulu, Hawaii gender . . . . Cis man pronouns . . . .he/him current location . . . . Beacon Hills languages . . . .English, Japanese, Pig Latin, Sarcasm

𝐈𝐈 . . . 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 !

zodiac . . . .Scorpio bad habits . . . .sleepwalking, asking for refunds at taco bell, aimless talking to himself, overexertion hobbies . . . . meditation, sword fighting, mma, gunpla building (fighting occurs at night and most of these happen at night) fears . . .the unknown, the feeling if something more sinister other mentionable details . . . . cryptic, cynical, guarder but around the right people is nice

𝐈𝐈𝐈 . . . 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒 !

faceclaim . . . .ryusei yokohoma height . . . .5'9 hair colour . . . .black but dyes it brown eye colour . . . .grey in the day fades to a brownish color at night and orange when he activates his kitsune powersdue to partial blindness scars . . . .under his eyelids and on his chin

𝐈𝐕 . . . 𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 !

parents names . . Hashimoto Uehara Sakura (mom), Hashimoto Uehara Ren (dad). parents relationship . . . .married until murder siblings names . . . . Hashimoto Uehara Emi (twin sister, deceased) pets . . . . Gundam (Border Collie assigned to him because of blindness) income . . . middle class does freelancing so it varies residence . . . .Beacon Hills

𝐕 . . . 𝐁𝐈𝐎𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐘 !

Born Hashimoto Uehara Hikaru, Hikaru lived a normal life. His mom was an artist and his dad was a lawyer. Growing up he and his twin spent their days fighting each other and running back for dinner. Until one night in May 2009 he won't forget.

He didnt know anything about the kitsune and any dealing his father may had made with the yakuza and the like. So when there was a hit on their house, Hikaru was scared. He didn't even see anything as something was thrown in his face as he opened the door. By the time he came too there was blurry visions of his family. What he thought was his father telling him about the kitsune for what felt like hours before his last breath. With a jade pendant and a heavy heart, he ran to wherever the wind took him. The lurry flag of New Mexico just stood out to him.

The first years in New Mexico were rough to say the least, a young sixteen year old trying to make ends meet. As gruesome as it was he decided to do underground fighting, it paid well enough for him to survive and no one uestioned him. Despite getting his butt handed to him, it taught him a lot. To pay attention, stayed viligant, and dont like his guard down. By shaking the earth under him just enough to throw them off balance, there was a imbalance and an easy victory. But somehow that penchant didn't only attract danger.

In his lifetime he met two people.

One whose name is occasionlly comes to mind, Bonnie, a well spoken women with sparks flying. Her prescence was like a flame warm and quick but equally memorable.

The second was like a more persistent name, a very bushy tailed kitsune named Kira. He was confused as he saw her face as he fighting in the rink and saw her eyes widen. And after some persistence agreed to train her on the condition she wouldn't whine and run some errands in the day time.

Eventually he was impressed with her skills and was sad to see her go, but he knew it was for the better. But something in his gut told him that Kira might not be completely safe. So with the few positions he had and the postcard kira sent, he headed to beacon hills. He just hope he wouldnt encounter too many people.

#beaconhillshqintro #death tw #tw death #violence tw #tw violence #(and done at last)

[dadbodsarehot]

with pride month coming up heres a very UNfriendly reminder that trans people dont owe it to you to pass in order to gain your respect and support. if you only support and respect trans people who “pass” to your specifications youre a fucking transphobe. support all of us or die 

#joseph.txt #this is not only okay to reblog #youre encouraged to reblog #but cis people better not clown on it or i will come down on them like the hammer of fucking thor

[musings-of-a-lovesick-fool]

Hope County residents dating a plus size, pre-op trans man hc's

I didn't do everyone so if there's a particular character that you'd like to see that I didn't have here don't be afraid to ask!

Contains NSFW content, minors do not read!

A fun personal hc I have is that Sharky will just forget you're not cis until he sees you naked

He jus thinks you're cute, have a high pitched voice and got 'man tiddies' (look me in the eye and tell me he wouldn't call them that)

He will make an effort to remember if you're identity is important to you though

But with the forgetting he will ask you questions you won't be able to answer as you're not a doctor or a dick haver

You can make up something or Google it either way it'll be funny (but be careful because he will pass on whatever you say to Hurk and they'll take it as 100% truth)

We can also all agree he's a giant cuddle bug and will wrap himself around you all the time

Working? Cuddle time. Watching a show? Cuddle time. Playing a video game? Cuddle time. Existing in general? He's taking you to cuddle town

I also hc Sharky has a bit of a tummy himself and he's super proud about it and will rub off his big boy confidence onto you

He's sexy, you're sexy, you're both sexy and he's gonna make sure everyone knows it

Also loves cuddling with you shirtless if that's something you're comfy with

Also shockingly mindful of your binder if you have one, will gently remind you when you've had it on for a while

In general he just loves being goofy with you and making you laugh

He loves the sound of your voice even if you don't yet and he'll love it when it gets to where you like it too

That said if you start T while dating him he will be the most supportive boyfriend about it

He will hype you up about it all the time and call you a total badass whenever you have to get your shot and is absolutely there holding your hand the entire time

And after your appointments he takes you out to get snacks or straight home to cuddle and watch your comfort show

(Or have some comfort sex if that's your cup of tea, he's always down to clown)

Seriously if you're the type to get riled up after your shot because ✨hormones✨ he's more than happy to fuck you for as long as you want

Whether he's giving or taking he's absolutely vibing

(Okay but he'd want to name your strap on 110% and it'd be the stupidest, least sexy name ever, and you should let him)

When it comes to the bedroom this man is pretty much up for everything except for heavy degradation and the really rough stuff

He's not gonna have any fun if there's blood involved yanno

He's also very concious about your boundaries and what you're comfy with and he still manages to be a goof even in bed

So he will have you giggling while he's blowing your back out that's a promise

He's very weak for you so if you flirt with him in public he will just be a giggling, blushing mess of a man

He will follow you around like a lost puppy and is always trying to impress you with stuff

(Even if most of the time he's nearly setting himself on fire and needing you to put it out)

I also imagine while he's not super possessive or jealous he can get a little pouty if you give a lot of attention to other people while he's there

He just likes being the center of your attention and if you play with his hair or wrap your arms around him while talking to other people he'll be over the moon

Also please get matching pride gear with this man it will make him so giddy to have a matching bracelet or pin or something

Even better get matching tattoos with him and he will just die of happiness

I think he'd really like the matching tattoo thing because it just proves you're permanent

If you're willing to do that with him who knows maybe this thing could last forever (he really hopes it does)

He'd call you his spark or his flame because he's Sharky (but he'll also use babe a lot)

Call him your fire bug or something cute like that and he'll explode

Is a lot more mindful of your identity from the get go and makes sure he and everyone else is respectful of it

Will cut a bitch if they misgender you or deadname you under any circumstance (No exceptions, you're getting a new doctor if your current one fucks up, don't worry about what happened to the old one it's fine)

I imagine in Atlanta he was surrounded by a lot of queer people so he's got an understanding of the community and a lot of the broad terms

And being bi himself he's done his own research of course

He'll steer clear of using any feminine pet names for you unless there are any you're okay with

I can see him liking to use angel, darling and love as general petnames (as well as the basic baby, babe etc.)

Also beware of him stealing your clothes, even if your styles are completely different he likes people to know he's taken

(And specifically he likes to wear the shirt you wore the day before so it smells like you/your cologne)

He will try to get you to wear his clothes, his sweaters would most likely fit the best because he likes them to be a bit baggy

(And if it's still more form fitting on you he'll just drool and enjoy the view)

On that note he really loves all of your curves and rolls and loves holding your waist and your hips

And he really loves digging his nails into your hips and thighs, especially when you're having sex

He will cover every inch of you in hickies and bite marks and your thighs are gonna be bruised to hell

John would just love having sex with you ngl

He's adaptable (ahem. A switch) and he's ready to work with whatever you're into

Whether you want it hard or soft, some teasing or straight to the action, some foreplay, he's genuinely down for all of it

And he will sing you sweet, filthy words all the while, he loves his dirty talk

Will call you whatever you want in the bedroom (good boy, naughty boy, sir, daddy, whatever you're into)

The aftercare will be heavenly

The softest man, will clean you both up and cuddle you and kiss all the marks he left so tenderly and with so much care

Will tell you how perfect you were and how gorgeous you looked and how much he loves you

He is ready to draw a long bath for the both of you to just experience some gentle, non-sexual, intimacy in comfortable silence

Will not complain one bit if you take lead in the aftercare and is actually secretly really moved if you do (Having you take care of him in any way always makes his heart melt)

Also possessive sex is bound to happen if he sees you getting friendly or overly affectionate with other people

He get's jealous pretty easy and he will remind you you're his and he's yours

(He's also the type to just wrap his arms around your waist and be pouty and passive aggressive if you're giving someone else too much attention that he obviously deserves to be getting)

I could also see John wanting matching tattoos with you (He's so ready to just tattoo your initials on himself and if you let him tattoo his initials on you he'd be so happy)

But he'd be happy with something a little less on the nose too

Also if you have you're ears pierced he absolutely wants to do the thing where couples swap earrings, it's cute

John would also bring up paying for any surgeries you might want, if you want them, in the future and leave it up to you if you're cool with that

This man's love language is gift giving in general so just accept that he'll be spending a lot of money on you

She just thinks you're the cutest thing and loves getting you all flustered

Lord help you if you're in your voice breaking era because she will kiss you silly

She thinks it's adorable especially when you get embarrassed

She will absolutely reassure you about it if it actually bugs you though

(And she's more than happy to remind you that you're still a sexy hunk to her)

She would love cuddling up to you on cold days and sneaking her hands under your shirt (they're freezing and she's not sorry)

Will call you darlin', pumpkin, sweetheart and those sorts of pet names all the time

Loves to show you off as well, she'll waltz around with you and be like; "Look at my baby boy ain't he just the sweetest thing?"

If you're cool with a poly thing with Xander you will be Trophy Boy #2 and she'll be very happy if you both get along

She's very handsy and will grope your ass a lot and if you're walking by she's gonna smack your ass as well

Suffice to say if you're up for it she's definitely gonna want to spank you in the bedroom

Not to mention this woman's strap game would be legendary, be ready to not be able to walk for a while after she's done with you

She's happy to let you top if she's tired but she does prefer being in charge most of the time

She's also one of the most protective girlfriends ever, hands down

Unlike John who would wait until later to take care of someone she will make them eat shit right in front of you

And she'll make them grovel and apologise too

Doubtful anyone would fuck with you while you're with her though, Adelaide has Queen Energy and no one messes with her

She'd also love taking you for rides in tulip, if you're scared of heights she'll try not to go to high

She loves her tulip and she'd love sharing that with you

I imagine she also would love to buy you things, whether it's clothes or just things you like

She likes taking care of her man!! And she won't complain if you take care of her right back

If you cook for her or clean the house she will give you a very big thank you later that night

Basically, you become her cute house husband and she repays you with a whole lotta love and whole lotta sex

Tattoos are a running theme here but I feel like getting a tattoo in homage to her just makes sense at this point, maybe a more subtle one though

Also she's very passionate about supporting however you identify and when pride month roles around her marina is the most colourful place in Hope County

It probably stays a little more decorated all through the year anyway because she just loves the flags

Also imagine her with a rainbow bandanna. That's it.

She's gonna treat you like a King on your birthdays as well

The only time she goes full out on pampering you

Wakes you up with breakfast in bed and soft morning sex

Has a looong shower with you before taking you somewhere you really enjoy hanging out

Invites some of your friends for a small surprise party and makes sure you're having fun and has her hand on you the entire time

And then you get home to a mysteriously fully prepped dinner and after that it's either a night of cuddling or sex just how you like it

For a few days after you have to do a few errands for her but it's totally worth it

It takes him a second to wrap his head around your identity and he'll either ask you or someone else a few questions but after he finally understands it he's chill

Literally couldn't care what you have in your pants

He likes you for you, for how you talk and how you carry yourself and how you interact with him

He enjoys a little banter and if you can keep up with him he's happy

Loves when he can get you speechless though and seeing you get frustrated or flustered

He's pretty subtle with everything and it'll take a while to figure out he has a thing for you

But there's only so many times he can mutter huskily into your ear and have his hand a little bit too low on your back without you connecting the dots

He's not huge on PDA but when you're at home he wants you all over him

If you're sitting, you're sitting in his lap

If you're standing, you're next to each other with someone having a hand on the other in some way

If you're laying down he's either on top of you or under you

He does very much enjoy laying on top of you and having you pat his head and run your hands over his shoulders though, it's so relaxing for him

He's also a menace because he'll whisper the nastiest things in your ear when you're in public and be completely stone faced so no one else knows why you're getting so fidgety

Similar to John he does love digging his hands into you and covering you in hickies

He does enjoy being gentle with you in bed though, you're precious to him and he wants to show you that

If you prefer it a little more rough though he won't deny you, just be patient and understanding with him

If he ever thinks he's actually hurt you that's enough of that and he'll need a lot of reassurance that you're okay and he did nothing wrong

Beside that aftercare with him would be really soft, just a lot of gentle touches and lazy kisses while you cuddle and run your hands over his scars

I don't think Jacob has that many tattoos honestly but he'd absolutely get one to represent you when you get serious

He doesn't say outright that's what it is but it's pretty obvious

That counts for a lot of stuff with Jacob honestly, he'll do things for you without saying it's for you but you know it's for you

Like if you mention you need something it'll suddenly appear after Jacob's done some shopping

He's just a big softie for you

He's also very protective of you and if he even thinks someone is making you uncomfortable they're gone dude

He'll do it without you knowing preferably but if he has too he'll put them in their place with you there

He'll be a little heated afterwards too but if you cup his face in your hands he will melt instantly and just hold you for a little while

Also god when he finds out you have to get a shot in your ass every few months he's gonna be a little impressed

But mainly he'd tease you about it

You know exactly the type of jokes he'd make and whether you love them or hate them the grin he gives you never fails to set butterflies off in your stomach

Jerk knows that and takes full advantage of it too

He's happy to do the shots for you too if you want and he'll give you a kiss on the spot after and tell you what a good job you did

Just praising you 24/7 tbh like you know he would

Idc pup is the number one nickname he uses fight me

Mary May is into you the second you walk into her bar

Your outfit, your hair, your smile, everything, it really knocks her off her feet

When she brings you your drink her number is written on the napkin

Of course there's the awkward conversation about your situation but she is not deterred at all

And after a few dates and just hanging out at her bar you're dating and it's awesome

She is 100% the type to send good morning and good night texts but don't you dare tell anyone

She loves stealing your jackets and if you have bracelets she's gonna be stealing a few of those too

No matter how tall or short you are she wants to wrap her arm around your shoulder

She just loves doing that and it makes way for her to pull you closer and plant a kiss on you

She loves covering you in kisses no matter where you are, PDA is more or so second nature to her

She'll encourage you to sit on the counter of the bar so she can stand between your legs and just hold you

She loves your stomach and your thighs and will kiss them whenever she's using them as her personal pillows

She doesn't wear makeup often but will purposely put on lipstick to leave some lipstick kisses all over you

She'll pout if you wash them off but also just jump you to give you some more, you can't get them all

Also movie nights are a thing and end up being 60% watching the movie and 40% making out on the couch

She'll absolutely crumble if you slip your hand under her panties and finger her

Some times she'll just ditch the panties altogether

I'd say she's a switch as well but prefers receiving and she loves when you're on top and taking control in the bedroom

She loves when you eat her out, looking down and seeing you buried between her thighs getting all the right spots

She also enjoys riding you when you wear your strap and I doubt you'd complain about the view

She's happy to wear the strap and take care of you too if you want her too, She wants you to feel as good as you make her feel after all

I could see her being into some risky public play as well and she'll be putty in your hands if you indulge in that with her

Also I imagine her working hours being at a bar would mean she doesn't have time to cook a proper dinner so if you had one waiting for her that would be appreciated

She'd also love to be able to have lunch with you every day on her lunch break and talk about your mornings

She just loves spending time with you and she'd also try to dabble in a few of your hobbies with you if possible

Even if she can't she's super supportive of what you're into and hypes you up a lot

In turn you're always hyping up whenever she tries out stuff and up to trying out new things with her

You both try fishing once and after falling into the Henbane you call it quits on that idea

Also she is very guilty of asking you to open jars for her and do the more 'manly' chores even though she's very capable of doing them herself

She just loves the proud little smile you get when you're able to do them for her, she adores seeing you happy

She will own your ass in carnival games or video games/board games with no mercy though

She loves you but she's still competitive and she doesn't like losing

Faith is very queer and not cishet in any way so she's very happy when she meets you and get's to know you

(Understandably she doesn't really want to know anything about your shots and can't really bring herself to be in the room when you get them but she's ready to cuddle and praise you afterwards)

She's got more pride gear than you could ever dream of and she's happy to give you some pins and bracelets of hers actually

It was one of the first ways she started dropping hints she liked you

She also gives you a cool jean jacket with patches all over it and really faded lipstick marks

She grins so wide when you first put it on and she makes sure to tell you how hot and handsome you look in it

(She's going 10x more feral on the inside but she tries to keep it cool)

Please let her paint your nails and do shit with your hair, if you dye it she wants to dye it for you (She'll let you dye her hair if you do)

Also if you have any facial hair she'll want to dye that too lol

(If you have scruff rub it on her cheek she loves it, she'll squeal and swat at you but it makes her all giddy)

She loves if you play with her hair or plait it or anything like that, it's just a small thing but it makes her feel very loved

She doesn't call you many pet names because she loves your name but if you have any you really like being called she's happy to oblige

And she loves when you call her baby or my love, it makes her absolutely swoon

She's a sleepy girl so she'll love to nap with you all the time, she's not exactly busy so just lazing around with you all day is like a dream

She also really loves lazy, slow sex where there's a lot of groping and lazy kisses

If you're the big spoon you can just slip your thigh between her legs and kiss her while she grinds on you and moans into your mouth

Grinding is one of her favourite things so that will happen Often

If you're the small spoon while you're cuddling her hand is going down your pants and she's gonna be kissing any exposed skin she can reach

I don't think she'd be super into you using the strap on her but she'd be chill with other toys

And she'd be more than happy to use the strap on you, she loves watching the faces you make and the hearing the sounds that come out of you when you come

She will giggle and tease you gently but never in a mean way and she loves if you tease her back

Aftercare is just as lazy and she will fall asleep in your arms, it just means she gets to wake up and shower with you

She's a little possessive of you honestly and loves having you all to herself

She likes having your undivided attention and in turn drowning you in hers

If you go out she sits in your lap and presses kisses along your jaw and neck

If you're around company she doesn't really like she will flat out ignore them and just play with your hair and your hands and hum to herself

She does prefer being alone with you though and doing things with you

Would be over the moon if you set up a small picnic for the both of you and just spent the whole day dancing in a field and laying under a tree together

Oh and swimming in the Henbane together she would love that

She'd try to convince you to skinny dip but if you weren't comfortable with it she wouldn't push it

She does expect that movie moment kiss in the water under a waterfall however, that is non-negotiable

OH and also you both just spend hours info dumping about your interests to each other and will end up remembering small bits about the others interest

And she will show you anything she see's having to do with your interest because she loves when you talk about it and get excited

Her gifts are always the best because of this because they're always very specific to your interests

It took her a second to get your identity as well and for a while she doesn't 100% understand it but she's always respectful

She doesn't stand for anyone else disrespecting you either, she stood up for you and defended you even when you were just acquaintances

Which, despite other things, obviously helped you warm up to her pretty fast

She realises whether she gets it or not doesn't really matter because you're a good man with a good heart and decent sense of humour too

She also knows it's a very strong thing to do to figure yourself out and take the steps you have so she has massive respect for you

Has a lot of questions but it'll take her a while to ask them and doesn't expect you to have answers to all of them

She really enjoys spending time with you, sitting on roof's, watching the sunset somewhere

She loves talking to you and learning about you and she even doesn't mind opening up and telling you about herself

She really thinks her father would have liked you and when she tells you that you get a little emotional which makes her smile

There's a long stretch of dancing around the dating topic with her, it had been a while since she'd dated and she didn't think she was any good at it

But you make her soft and you make her heart swell whenever you laugh or say her name a certain way and she can't help but fall for you

When you start dating there's that awkward period of getting use to casual affection and her getting use to being able to kiss you whenever she wants

But once you both get into a rthym it's sweet and natural and everything she thought it would be

She loves grabbing you by the back of the neck and kissing you long and hard, the dopey smile you get on your face is the cutest thing ever

She gets very flustered when you wrap your arms around her and nuzzle your face into her neck

She tries to play it cool but you're so soft and so warm and she just melts under your touch

Sex takes time and some experimentation, she had some pretty 'standard' sex before you and you open a whole new world of possibilities

She's very impressed with your strap game and shouldn't be as surprised as she is when you know exactly where her clit is but she still let's out a small gasp when you press your thumb against it

She'd really enjoy missionary, just getting to see you and kiss you while you pound into her is what makes it so good for her

She'd be down to try wearing the strap but she'd be a bit clumsy with it and need reassurance she's doing good

Is very excited when she realises you can use other toys during sex and very happy to try them all at least once

She definitely gives a lot of praise during and after sex and appreciates it in return

(Is very strict about cleaning up as soon as possible though, She needs her room to be spick and span at all times)

Totally hc her as a secret romantic too so she'll be all yours forever if you bring her flowers or leave her cute little notes

Also if you ever say anything about taking her last name she will get so serious so fast, the idea alone makes her heart go wild so don't play with her about it

Petnames aren't really a thing on her end at all but she'll call you 'my boy' when talking to other people about you

She also won't really initiate PDA but won't stop you from cuddling up to her or kissing her in public

Loves when you get comfortable enough to be around her shirtless, she finds it a lot easier to see your body as a male body at that point and she just thinks you're gorgeous and let's you know that

(She's also very supportive of any plans for future surgeries and she will want to do as detailed a background check on whatever surgeon you choose when it comes down to it as she can)

(This means her asking them very confronting questions during your consultation and you'll have to reel her in a bit)

Okay but also please imagine walking through the kitchen in tight jeans and Grace lightly smacking your ass and groping it while saying, "damn boy!" because,, yeah,,,,

Doting and supportive boyfriend x1000 change my mind—You Can't.

When he met you he went to John's ranch and asked him to help him with the computer so he could do a bunch of research on your identity

He was overly aware of what he said and didn't want to do anything that could possibly offend you or upset you

He will also verbally tear anyone to shreds if they make any kind of comment about your identity or weight

If they're a member of the project they're going to John to do some confessions and repenting

He'll be probably too excited to help you with your shot and go with you to your appointments

He just wants to be active in that part of you and wants you to know he supports you

He'll be so soft with you after your appointments, kissing your temple, gently caressing you wherever he has his hands on you

He'll treat you how he does when you have a cold and he won't let you get up and get anything for yourself

If you want a drink or something to eat he's gonna get it, if you want a book or your laptop he's gonna bring them over to you

He just loves taking care of you any chance he gets honestly

He also loves spending time with you and getting to just watch you in your element

He'll even bite his tongue about technology poisoning your mind for a bit if you have an interest that is mainly accessible via technology (not forever though he does like suggesting hiking a lot)

He does love hearing you talk about your interests and he'll ask so many questions and be 100% engaged the entire time about it

Honestly he's 100% engaged even if you're just talking about toast

It's endearing if not just very funny

He will call you my angel, my love, my darling, my light and every other over the top pet name he can think of

You are all of those things to him so it's no over the top for him

(But also watch him let a, "Hey baby," slip when he's just woken up, hair all messy and voice husky from sleep)

And he will melt no matter what you call him but he won't lie hearing you just say his name sends electricity down his spine everytime

He actually gets the best sleep with you in his bed, it will be agonizing though because his hands and lips will be all over you in such an intimate way but with no sexual-intent what so ever

(Maybe a small bit of sexual-intent but he won't admit it to himself)

He also just loves getting to wake up before you and watch you for a while before waking you up with small, gentle kisses peppered on your face

Sleepy morning kisses, all of them, all over your face and then peppered across your shoulder before he has to drag himself away from you

Sex is bound to happen, he's going to hear you taking care of yourself one night and want it to be him pulling those sounds from you and he's gonna give in to the want eventually

It will be the most loving sex you have ever had, very slow and a lot of body worship and I mean a Lot

(He won't focus anywhere you're uncomfortable with but he does want to cover every inch of you in loving kisses and touches)

Even when he's inside you he's almost agonizingly slow and he never stops kissing you and murmuring about how you're a gift from God and how he adores you with his entire soul

All that rambling trails off in to chanting your name breathlessly as you both get closer and closer to coming

Aftercare is just as slow and sweet and he is also a bath man, there's something about getting to wash you after having such an intimate experience that gets him

Joseph isn't exactly possessive but he does want every one to know you both belong to one another

He might give you something to wear that represents him (or possibly you could get a tattoo,,, haha,,,)

I could see him getting you both rings tbh in his head you're going to be together forever so you're practically married yanno

He will also absolutely write you into the book of Joseph, just a whole section about you and how you came into his life and became his partner

(I have no idea if this means the peggies would also call you Father,, I feel like they would right??? Right???? Hate that for you bud sorry lol)

You met at a cook out and he complimented your shoes to start conversation after having watched you for ten minutes

You two were friends for a long time before you started dating and he was always interested to hear about your past and your journey to who you were now

He probably provides a lot of comfort if you have any religious trauma and he's very firm in reassuring you and supporting you about your identity

Even if you're not religious anymore he assures you someone with a heart and soul like yours absolutely has a place in heaven

I like to hc he doesn't like needles so he'll absolutely go with you to get your shots but he will squeeze his eyes shut when the needle is brought out

Which you get to tease him about on the way home

This man is also a cuddle bug, loves to have his arms around you and feel you pressed up against him in any way

He loves how soft you are and he loves peppering kisses over your skin

No one's surprised by his relationship with you even if he is a pastor he's never been 100% conventional

He's also so much happier with you and everyone can see that

He actually indulges more nights out since he met you, joining friends at the spread eagle and having a good time

He has his arm around you whenever you're out and he'll press kisses to your temple every twenty minutes or so

If you're more of a stay at home kind of guy he's happy to just cuddle up on the couch and talk or watch a movie or do your own things just enjoying each other's presence

He hangs up a pride flag in his church because he wants to make sure his community and the people involved in his church are good, supportive people

He tries to avoid fights and unneeded hostility/violence but he won't stand for people being purposefully ignorant and bigoted

He'll try to talk to people first but if they're being offensive towards you and not listening to him he'll have to take them outside

If you say anything about it he'll defend himself with, "Preferably violence is never the answer but sometimes you have to speak a man's language to get him to really understand your point,"

And his point is they're an idiot with a shit, outdated opinion

Now to get self indulgent; sex with this man comes in different flavours

You've got sweet, slow, loving sex

You've got, rough, fast, really just needing to get off kinda sex

And you've got downright evil, full of pleasure, filthy as fuck sex

Depending on the day you've both had it's always a toss up on what you get

You really can tell what it's gonna be when he walks in through the door, how he kisses you says it all

If it's a soft kiss, it's soft sex. It's it's a needy kiss it's needy sex and I'd he pins you to the wall and starts unbuckling your pants it's filth time

Of course he also let's you decide if you're in the mood for it and he'll change it up depending on what you're feeling

His aftercare is pretty sweet, a lot of praise and kisses and he'll bring you water and a snack if you need them

He also won't be opposed to you bringing him water and cradling him to your chest

He really loves if you sit in on his sermons but he understands if they're not your thing

He really enjoys spending his days off with you and I actually see him enjoying fishing

Even if you find it boring getting to sit in a boat with him and watch him get so concentrated would be cute

He also really enjoys reading so he's happy to just sit wherever you are while you're doing your thing and reading

Also he's a great cook and will make you the best meals you have ever tasted

Would love if you cooked or baked with him

Just imagine him in an apron holding out something for you to taste test like COME ON. heaven

Eli bless his soul is even more clueless than Jacob

But he's a sweetheart about it and after spending time with you it really doesn't take long for him to see you as a man

Because you are one and anyone who says otherwise is gonna meet a world of pain

Eli gets very protective of you very quickly and with that the other members also get protective of you

You're family and no one disrespects the whitetails family

Eli also takes a while to admit his feelings for you, even though he's always been in to men it's never been something he's been super open about

But he knew he had to admit it after you spent the night and fell asleep cuddled up to him and he felt his heart go off like a hummingbird in his chest

It was a messy confession as he wanted to make it clear he meant it in an entirely gay way (you had to tell him to shut up after the fifth time of him reaffirming that)

Dating Eli feels like a summer fling in the beginning, he acts like a flustered teenage boy with his first boyfriend

He's very hesitant with his touches and kisses at first, not wanting to overstep any boundaries or comfort zones but after a while he loosens up

Which is a delightful change as he will come up behind you, wrap his arms around your waist and pepper your neck and shoulder in kisses

He will lift you off the ground a small bit if you're cool with that, he's a strong boy

He loves just holding you while leaning against one of the desks or the walls, people get use to talking to him while you're cuddled up against him

He'll call you baby and cub and anything other pet name you like with an easy smile

The moment you call him a pet name though his face is on fire and he'll chuckle bashfully and look at the ground

Shy mountain man is shy

And you should take advantage of that 100%

Especially in the bedroom because boy oh boy is that fun

He thinks you are so freaking hot and he just looks at you in awe the first time you let him take your clothes off

He kisses your stomach first and avoids anywhere you don't want him to touch as he trails kisses up your chest to your neck before kissing you long and slow

He will be obsessed with your thighs and leaving as many hickies there as possible

He will be more flustered than you when he looks up at you from between your thighs and if you run your hand through his hair and tell him he's doing good he'll moan and bury himself against you

Legally you have to plow this man into the mattress and tell him how pretty he looks and how he's taking you so well (he does it for you it's only fair)

He's pretty content to be giving or taking in the bedroom and it's always light hearted and loving

Same with the aftercare, he loves to play with your hair and trace your face gently and actually really appreciates talking for a bit before you both clean up

He worries about you a lot and if you go out he's going with you, he can't help but want to keep you safe

In that vein he's always touched when you express the same sentiment toward him

You're a power couple for sure and have each others backs no matter what

And if anyone underestimates your ability to defend yourself and your man that's on them because if you couldn't fight before Eli definitely gives you some lessons and gets your fighting skills up

If you never used a gun before meeting him gun lessons are going to be fun

He will scold you if you get distracted, it's not your fault with him pressed against your back though (If you grind your ass against his crotch he's gonna lightly smack your hip and tell you to focus)

(But he's very ready to ditch gun lessons after that)

He will be so happy if you let him shave your beard/stubble for you

He can't explain it, it just feels really intimate and there's a lot of trust there he values a lot

And if he ever shaves the beard he'd absolutely let you help

#Far Cry 5 #far cry 5 x reader #Sharky Boshaw x reader #John Seed x reader #Joseph Seed x reader #Jacob Seed x reader #Faith Seed x reader #Jerome Jeffries x reader #Mary May Fairgrave x reader #Adelaide Drubman x reader #Eli Palmer x reader #Grace Armstrong x reader #Headcannon Tag #M!Reader Tag #Nsft Tag #Self indulgent hc's catered to me specifically bc why not #If you enjoyed these please let me know! I wrote almsot 7000 words in a day directly into the tumblr app like a madman unafraid of death #So some validation would be appreciated pls and thank <3

[asexual-means-no-attraction]

this might sound silly but one thing that I kind of hate about tumblr's lgbt culture is how they love associating random things with certain gender identities/sexualities ("gay people sit weird" for example) so I'm always paranoid of outing myself for some of my interests because of how people like associating it to afab she/theys on tumblr and now I can't express it freely without being paranoid of it. I love clowns, I love the clown aesthetic and I love drawing my characters as clowns, but i have never seen anyone that's not a nonbinary or openly trans person on tumblr drawing clowns and I've seen people outside of tumblr analyzing people's art and saying shit like "this looks like something a (slur against trans men) would make" so now I'm not posting any drawings I have with clowns in it because I know there might be a possibility of someone saying that about my art too. I wish this "gay/trans culture" thing didn't exist or at least not to this extent, because not everyone is fine with people knowing they're trans because they wear hawaiian shirts and that's a "transmasc thing".

I definitely feel you. And you're not wrong. Stuff that was started as a joke started genuinely becoming serious for some people and that's when it all fell apart.

That said. That idea is very much NOT mainstream. The mainstream stereotypes are basically the same as they've always been (being a masculine women=gay/feminine man=gay). Most people don't actually see Hawaiian shirts as a trans man give away. Honestly, I've had more people think I was gay because of my Hawaiian shirts than trans.

Unless the people are in the LGBT community or are involved in some way, you're gonna be fine. And even then, if you treat it casually then no one really questions it. Post clowns, don't mention anything you don't want to about your clowns. Most people won't bat an eye. And the ones saying slurs aren't people you wanna listen to in the first place. Especially if it's online, you can just block people.

Irl people's are gonna be a lot faster to assume you're gay than trans. It's just, not something that occurs to most people. Not sure if that's any better for your paranoia. But I know I prefer being clocked as gay than trans (cuz it means I pass as a man. Tho still shitty to assume I'm gay cuz I'm a bit too feminine for their approval).

Overall, I think it's important to acknowledge how this stuff has messed up stereotypes and just reinforced new ones. That's shitty. But it's also important to work on saying "fuck my paranoia/anxiety/bad thoughts, imma do/wear the things I want." The more you let yourself enjoy and express yourself how you want the easier it gets to ignore the people who made you feel bad about doing it in the first place.

Not sure if that's actually helpful. But one last piece of advice that might be better: get off tumblr for a bit. Go out and look at other guys, look at others art. You'll find a shit ton of cis straight men wearing Hawaiian shirts, and a lot of people drawing all sorts of shit coming from a variety of backgrounds. Sometimes we get stuck in these small circles and we forget that the rest of the world isn't involved in these circles. It's important to get out of them just to understand how much we're all alike. And how many people do the same things we do. And revaluate some of the assumptions we have about what different things mean. Cuz our circles don't represent anything outside of said circles. They can't really tell you much about the world. You gotta experience that yourself. I think that'll help calm down your paranoia, and maybe help get you outta and away from these circles that are making it worse for you.

#answered #ask

[nightswithkookmin]

Hi Goldy, JK was bold in the past, around 2017-2019 (to me, gcf & rosebowl can be considered as ‘coming out’). But it seems he now prefers to stay closeted? E.g. he snatched JM’s hand in the Xylitol x BTS shoot, then looked at the camera. Holding hands is normal among members… a lot of his interactions with Jin, V and other members are more intimate than holding hands… his reaction makes me feel like he wants me to pretend I didn’t know…?

Sorry I've been a bit AWOL lately...

I'm busy being the man of my woman's dreams in a cis het anti black capitalist world

Fun times.

I saw that bit, uWu-ed and kept it pushing.

It's nothing new really. I think a few months back when I was out here screaming Jikook are toning down, acting super professional around the cameras yadda yadda people out here were looking at me like I'd lost my two delulu heads- but this segues into that theme for me and since I've exhausted the topic I don't know what else to add.

I've said before they've both been very conscious of the cameras within certain periods post October- again nothing new, they be like that every now and then every season every phase and the whys will always be up for debate in these ship streets- on that subject, I've read a lot of opinions yet I think like mine better and will stick to it. Thanks Kimberly of Delulu precinct. Walk along now. Lol.

Jimin was like that during the Coway behind the scene shoot too when he noticed the cameras and quickly elbowed Jk to draw him away from the gaze of the cameras.

I don't think it's because they stopped being 'bold' or want to pretend. It takes a lot of courage to even pretend or even perform the gay in front of the world and your peers. I think they are just awfully aware and conscious of the people they work with as well as corporation's growing awareness, intentions and interests in them. You just never know which saessang is moonlighting as a brand PA or marketing director for a company they are working with. You just never know who is watching especially whenever they have to work with these 'outsiders.'

Think of Dispatch. Were they not allies or business partners, they'd be careful around them too if they worked with them. Know what I mean?

Toning down and exercising caution is necessary sometimes. I don't know why some people think that's absurd or Tuktukkerish when I say stuff like that. Especially with the kind of reputation they have as a ship and just how commercially attractive that image is. It's common sense at this point if you ask me.

Jikook sells. Argue with the analytics. I don't know who thinks they don't. Must be the clowns and penguins. They sell period. BigHit knows this, BTS knows this, companies know this. We don't scream Jikook is a brand within a brand for no reason.

And a lot of the toning down in recent times has perhaps inadvertently mitigated that growing power and demand of them as a marketing resource- who knows, that could have as well been by design, intentionally instigated for obvious reasons which I argue is the case but don't mind me. I'm delusional, gay and apparently the man of my woman's dreams uWu. Gotta wear that pants in my relationship. Ayaya Hwaiting.

When you say he prefers to stay closested- I thought they are both closested already?? They both have never been fully out in our opinion. Yes our opinion because I feel we are like minded. Let's be delulu mates.

On the topic of closets, I want to save that for a separate post. What I can say though is they are both growing and maturing and learning and unlearning. Jungkook's desire to 'come out' or act reckless with his glass closet in my opinion stemmed from him placing more value on his personal happiness over other values perhaps because he was young and hadn't fully grasped the full and complex nature of happiness or understand the privilege he has as part of BTS.

We make decisions based on our values most times. It's how I make sense of their actions really. I'm more likely to assume things that are consistent with the values they each have expressed openly and tend to reject any theory that contradicts or is inconsistent with those values. A guy who values his career is less likely to act in a way that puts that career at risk. And I'm well aware their values evolve over time.

These days he has never quit as one of his mottos next to rather dead than cool- do you see the contradictions in those values? Rather dead means quitting life. Yet now he says never quit. Don't mind me. I'm in a grumpy mood.

But what I'm saying is, the desire to want to show the world who this person means to him is not fixed or a priority all the time. Now i think he values his career a lot more than before which means he is more likely to compromise and less likely to do things that may put that career in jeopardy.

Transferring that to his relationship, I don't expect him to be breaching the glass closet anytime soon. And if he do, it might be incidental and may carry with it consequences which I believe he is well aware and concious of now. Will that change? You bet. Again it depends a lot on what his values in a given moment are and which ones he prioritizes.

It's their relationship. They chose which aspects of it they want to share with the cameras. Some of it get written off as fanservice. Fair enough. But the nonfanservice passing moments has always been questionable- although I must say, I find all Jikook moments and interactions questionable lol.

It's just skinship. Holding hands I mean. Why would he be conscious of that right? II'vetalked about consequences and repercussions of their actions. Sometimes I think it's the off screen scolding that gets to him. The ones silently whispered at his back. I mean we saw his reaction when Jimin was getting scolded by the hyungs for sleeping late. He's talked about skipping sleep too if I recall correctly. Jimin is hyung and I know the hyungs expect him to know better and do better. I'd Imagine Jimin would equally scold JK if his actions reflected poorly on him too.

So why the hell would he not say anything to Jungkook for posting on his birthday when he hadn't posted at all for any hyung's??? Sigh.

It's sad his guards are back up- but it's for good reason I believe given the context of the situation.

I don't think dramatizing his dynamic with Jimin makes him bold. Nor does Jimin's propensity to over express himself with Jungkook mean he loves Jungkook more than. Both are extreme takes for me.

Nevertheless, I contrast that moment with a Tae Kook moment which is one of my favorite tuktukk moments. In this moment, JK is staring at Jimin, his whole body turned towards him. Tae notices the cameras and draws JK's attention to it. I think there are two such moments like that from the recent contents? I don't know I have to cross check.

Tae in that moment reminded me a lot of Jimin. Jimin does this too- play out their relationship infront of the cameras to the point one might say he likes to show off their bond- which is such a BTS thing to do too so no big deal. I mean they like to show off their bond and chemistry as Tae said a while back.

It's one thing for JK to hesitate to act with a member because of the cameras, it's another for him to act self conscious only after the fact.

And JK has always been him like this with Jimin as Jimin used to say- JK acts different with me off cameras than he is on camera. He had a history of suppressing himself around Jimin owing in part to his personality

He's talked about putting on a mask around people and in a recent interview Jimin have talked about pretending and acting one way when he's not- I mean I've ever talked about the boy being in love with the Maknae being a facade- one of many.

They have public personas which, from what BTS themselves say, looks slightly different or similar to what we see on screens- or that they've grown to be more like what we see on screens.

I guess what I'm getting at is that 'pretending' isn't exactly a new thing or out of the ordinary. Personally I'd say he's being conscious of his surroundings like Jimin was and not that he is 'pretending.' If you know what I mean.

If he's pretending he has good reason to I believe and we can only speculate on that- we can't know for sure why.

If Jikook is fanservice then there's no need for either of them to worry about the cameras picking up on their interactions or who's watching them.

What goes on in Tae's head? I wanna know.

I don't know where to direct this post because you didn't really ask a question.

I'm fine thanks for asking. I'm really fine. I'm thinking of joining Jimin in the gym at 3am to bench press and build some biceps to match my role in my relationship😒

And no I don't need any advice. Keep it.

This is going to be my attitude until we switch back😐

I'm gonna be a boyfriend from hell and a blogger from satan's ass.

Also I think I overshare💀

GOLDY

[sapphic-lemonair]

My Last Post Regarding The Tommy Scandal:

Let me start off by just saying holy hell, what a day.

And second:

Twitter is literally the most disappointing platform I have ever been apart of.

I don’t even know where to begin with how badly Twitter handled the situation with Tommy. I’ll admit, it isn’t the worst they’ve acted before, but damn they really didn’t do their best either. It sucks, cause the situation could have been handled better- and it was at first.

Cis Twitter stans are probably some the most confusing bunch I’ve ever come across. The fact that they pick and choose who can get away with doing controversial things is so annoying, and probably one of the most high and mighty god complexes I’ve ever seen. The fact that they called out and made Tommy trend instead of the actual problem itself was just pathetic in my opinion. KSI has interacted with so many other creators before in the past, a prime example being Quackity, yet no one made a single post in calling them out until now. This fact alone just goes to show that Twitter stans will come out of hibernation when they feel like it.

Twitter had made no type of effort in the past to call out KSI when he first made these transphobic comments before. There were no trending tags or @‘s or “lets educate him 🥰” posts for him because Twitter didn’t bother to care about it until now. The amount of hypocritical energy that was brimming through the platform is astounding.

We’ve gone through months of Twitter stans watching by as KSI interacted with other Minecraft youtubers and not a single one of them complained the entire time until now.

A lot of the adults on that platform did nothing but post passive aggressive comments to back handed advice. Adults, actual adults, were mad that a kid they put on some pedestal made one mistake and continued to state about how “disappointed” they were in him. Let me just remind you that once again, there’s no reason for any of the older fans to talk down to minors like some type of parent. Cause you’re NOT. It was very mature of Tommy to reach out to his own mom and take effort to see how he had hurt his words had affected his fans. It’s so abundantly clear that Tommy would never maliciously hurt his fandom in any way, not to mention that his first instinct would be to immediately apologize to everyone as well.

It was honestly mind boggling to see so many adults debating on whether or not is was morally right to forgive a 16 year old for a mistake he would obviously fix. The amount of people who were making threads stating how “it’s valid if you never want to forgive Tommy” was childish in my opinion. You’re adults.....holding a grudge against an actual child??? Like come on.

Twitter stans did nothing but juggle back and forth with “Tommy needs to address the situation right now!” And “Tommy, you need to take a while and think about what you said 🥰”. Yet when Tommy posted his first apology people were mad that it didn’t live up to their expectations. Were they aware that Tommy, like I said, is a whole child who was under the pressure of posting an apology despite not having time to really grasp what had happened? So many people flamed him because his post “sounded so confused” and “Tommy, honey nobody called you transphobic 😘”.

Except you did.

Of course Tommy is gonna sound confused in his apology. He wakes up and the first thing he’s greeted with are hashtags linking HIS NAME to the the word transphobic/transphobia. Of course that’s gonna be the first thing he apologizes for! Twitter basically made nothing but click bait posts that did nothing to properly explain to Tommy why transphobia was being brought up. And even despite this Tommy STILL apologized even when he didn’t know what he did wrong.

It’s so blatantly obvious Twitter realized that instead of tackling the problem at head, aka calling out KSI for his transphobic behavior, they chose to force and instigate a minor for collaborating and apologize on KSI’s behalf. It’s the most childish thing I’ve seen this year. It’s clear that Twitter stans are just awaiting to jump into next drama and put their two cents in before leaving the moment they realize they can’t get clout off their posts.

It’s frustrating because the amount of users making those posts as well weren’t even trans. The amount of “savior complex” energy cis Twitter stans showed while they spoke up over actual trans people who were genuinely upset was so embarrassing. It’s stupid to see how so many cis users got thousands of likes and retweets on their posts and acting on behalf of the trans community.

I’ll just wrap up by giving a genuine thank you to the trans community on Twitter who had the best interests in the whole Tommy situation. I’m sorry that a lot of you got trampled over by the cis users who basically used your problems as clout chasing tactics. You had every right to be upset and I appreciate that a lot of you took the situation with ease and attempted to quietly solve the problem without a hassle. Once again the cis side of Twitter blew everything out of proportion and attempted to but their two cents into the whole thing despite knowing it was an issue for the trans community to handle.

Dear Cis Twitter users, next time don’t be hypocrites and tell other users that they have no right to speak up about the situation before making your own posts for clout and followers. You look like clowns. I’d like to think that in another situation like those Twitter will act more mature....but I wouldn’t count on it. However a super big thank you to trans tumblr users who treated the entire situation with a mature personality. The mass difference between the two platforms shows me that people here have always had the best interest in actually making a difference.

In conclusion: Twitter is a dumpster fire 😁

#tommyinnit #mcyt #hopefully I won’t have to talk about this again #yesterday was so draining I hate Twitter

[ilikedetectives]

Thanks for saying it. As a trans woman I was side-eyeing that hashtag the moment I read the “movement explained” post last year saying this:

That wording (from the most prominent voice!) directly implies that there’s an acceptable criteria for womanhood and women outside those criteria don’t count. This kind of thinking always ends up targeting gnc cis women too because they’re not the “right” women, no surprise it happened here. (Apparently a gay cis man is more worth defending to them than gnc and sapphic women too?)

Plus a quick google search would easily tell them Kassandra and Eivor were envisioned as “masculine” as they are now even before the male options were designed? Official ACV concept art for Eivor’s character design even states lady Eivor was designed first and that male Eivor was based off of HER. But sure they’re “shells” based on men 🙄

Looks like they’ve chosen to “highlight, appreciate and support” the fact that queer, gnc women aren’t real women because these women are simply men’s “shells” for being masculine and queer.

Oh I’m so glad that you see this and stay tf away. Aren’t these the same breed that were sooooo outraged after reading and citing that Forbes article by Jason Schreier last year, “OMG Kassandra and Aya/Amunet originally were supposed to be the protagonist, I’m so oUTraGEd and feel rOBbeD that Ubisoft took this from us”? You’d think with all the devs that they are good friends with, they should know by now that Kassandra and f!Eivor were designed first in mind, then the male counterparts were added AFTER being forced by higher-ups and marketing. The Montreal writers keep having to reassure people that everything about Eivor is intentional and they have always intended that Eivor is a female. The first name alone, Eivor, is a female name. I think the devs already know they’d have to deal with idiots, so they added Varinsdottir in her last name (dottir means “daughter”), but I think the devs still underestimate their level of stupidity. They sure are attentive to plot details when it involves their brotherhood though, but women? *wheeze* They love AC2 sfm but it didn’t take them until last year to realize how dirty Aya/Amunet treated. Nobody paused when Origins was announced to say, but Amunet statue? Pleaseeee *wheeze* For them to go around saying that Kass and f!Eivor are just “shells” based on men and now, practically calling the devs lazy because making them masculine to save time/effort in development time really shows their true colors. If a woman isn’t slim-af-and-only-attracted-to-cishet men, then they’re not women. gnc, queer, trans women? I don’t need to take a guess to see what they view these women as. These fake feminists don’t find it disrespectful that Kass and f!Eivor are pushed aside for the male shells to take the spotlight, but they find Kass and f!Eivor being masculine and queer disrespectful. Someone please turn on “Send in the Clowns'' for me, I prefer the Judi Dench version.

You know what I find hypocritical about these fake feminist breeds? When they call for more female assassins content, they never once invalidate their beloved male protags, “We’re not here to cancel m!Eivor/Alexios/Bayek/Jacob/Arno, we just want more of f!Eivor/Kassandra/Amunet/Evie/Elise/Aveline”, but now that they have more backers, they immediately turn around and dismiss the only two AAA female protags as women because they’re “too masculine, like men.” That’s right! f!Eivor walking like a man and both Kass and f!Eivor wear male armors and are attracted to women automatically dismiss their existence as gnc, queer women. Being a masculine, queer woman somehow exempt them both from sexism because these two are just “men’s shells”? What kinda Isu drugs are they on? Now I wish f!Eivor had a true buff Viking body in her vanilla state (I know there’s muscles mod by amisthiosintraining and I, but still), because what else are these fake feminists gonna trash her on? f!Eivor is a shell for m!Eivor? *wheeze* What could’ve been said was, “I want a female-protag-only game because then the devs can focus all their time and effort on her story, for her” or “Ubisoft should give the devs more time, resources, and creative freedom to give players more historical context of the struggles the female protags have to deal with, compared to male protags”. For example: a side quest with Aspasia as she deals with how sexist people (surprise, women can be sexist too) were towards her as perhaps the most educated, influential woman in Athens at the time. Or how Kassandra had to fight her way to be allowed to compete in the Olympics. That’s all that’s needed to be said. There’s nothing wrong with asking/wanting a feminine female protag who is gender-conforming, but it says a lot about their true view of women when they drag gnc and queer women down to parade their idea of a superior woman.

But what did these fake feminists choose to “highlight, appreciate and support” instead? Oh that’s right, disregarding both Kassandra and f!Eivor as inferior women, because them fakers don’t deemed masculinity and queerness as the aUThenTIc female experience they want to play as. You know what’s worse? Pitting these female characters together to rate how “feminine” each of them are to deem which ones are more “real” as a woman. Can you imagine them doing that to the male protags? Knowing full well that the devs’ hands were tied when it comes to creative freedom when making Kassandra and f!Eivor, but still go around and shit on the devs for being “lazy”, while dismissing Kassandra f!Eivor experience as women because of their gnc and queerness. What kinda Beta Sigma (BS) is this? Oh I think I know the answer: reinforcing their ideas of what they find acceptable for their version of a woman. Honestly, it’s not the first time gnc, queer women are shit on in AC, remember that cursed DLC from Odyssey? Yea. I expect nothing more from Ubisoft-certified fans. Watch, if we somehow get a female-lead AAA game next installment and she happens to be queer, gnc, and godforbid to their fEMinISt standards, she happens to be trans as well, these fakers would most likely scream, “We support women. We want the REAL woman experience”. But if she happens to conform into their fEMinISt standards, you’ll get to hear how she’s their most favorite protag since Ezio cuz she’s a “real woman”. Again, nothing wrong with gender-conforming, feminine women, but using them as THE superior example, this fuckery/fakery reeks.

One last general tip from Doctor Who, “Goodness is not goodness that seeks advantage. Good is good in the final hour, in the deepest pit, without hope, without witness, without reward.” Look closely and you’ll see what those advantages and rewards are. 

p/s: Didn’t Ubisoft CEO just appoint his family member(s) to be in charge, while there were also discussion on how the new directors are no better than the sexist, racist ones that were fired/let-go? Sounds to me like it’s business as usual again. Or us Vietnamese have a saying, “It’s easier for rivers and mountains to change than human’s nature to even budge” (giang sơn dễ đổi, bản tính khó dời). I find it so ironic that “gaslight gatekeep girlboss” is trending on my dash.

#I'm no Pythia but I saw this light years away #handsomejaclyn #f!Eivor #Eivor #Kassandra #ac valhalla #ac odyssey #aya #amunet #evie frye #elise #ac origins #ac syndicate #aveline #ac liberation #ac unity #Cisterhood #misogynistic feminists

[notforyoureyeye]

Job hunting update : No make up! No hair down! Male bathroom and male pronounce!

[In pic : Tried all these shirt and trousers today with no make up and hair tied back to look less "Feminine" as what the CEO wants me to do if I start this job. So I did all practice even speaking (manly) in front of mirror. Felt shit yeah]

So it finally happened but unexpectedly with new job came up after all nice interviews in past weeks with many companies but never got called back but finally found an interview that will answer the result after interview sessions.

Which always took 45 mins to 2-3 hours per time with each company, I don't know why this is so extra for me than other candidates. I blamed it to my gender identity where (cishet) companies always gave attention and feel excited to see a "crossing gender human being" that's why it's always new for me especially when you're an ordinary trans in career like normal cis.

I did twice teaching performance and interview for their staff (I applied for a teacher again in my life) then the principal or CEO just decided to give me an interview personally. Now it made sense to me that why all other female candidates just finished off in an hour and go home while I waited from 9 am to 2 pm to finish.

Here to make it short, yes the first team really like me teaching in English but I assumed they cannot decide themselves to / if they should give me a big pass and hire me because of my gender (my first guess) and BINGO its true because the CEO spoke out about it later for second interview personal with other senior. Here's what they said.

" Your teaching is great and energetic and easy to understand BUT"

F*** what about but? (I swore in my head)

Principal continued "You know we have organization culture and as you saw in the news about our school"

(I knew, that homophobia lessons that people talked and criticized over the internet)

"We hope you know that's not true as we don't have anything to discriminate you and we're open more for now " she tried to make it sounded like less judgemental.

"The old cultures if our school is strict and traditional.... BUT you know I really want you to work with us because you're very talented and interesting, we just need you to follow our organization culture like...

I wanted you to dress as a man, saying "Krub" (male pronounce that actually always been spoken after every sentence to make it sound politely like sir and maam but in Thai these kinds of word have gender but depends on the gender of a person who speaks) instead of "Ka" for female speaker.

Now I tried to sell out but strongly show them about my perspective about being a transgender or LGBTIQ, I said "I'm sure some students like me or my gender will need a teacher who understands them and instead of bash them with bad words and turn them into a classroom clown just because they're different, so I sure will do my role to support the community and help them to feel comfortable with who they are. And support them, if you hire me, I'll help this part out for your school to be a better place for everyone and genders"

They seemed not interested or not even give any F. So they give me conditions, told me it I could do it for school, then nothing to worry, I can start my job this Monday as an examination teacher who brief all knowledge in English before students will get ready for official exam for high school kids.

But here what I have to follow :

1. Dress as a man (according to my original birth sex) with options (1) White shirt and black trousers with black leather shoes and ugly enormous school tie - or- (2) Sport / warm up suit / I chose warm up, it's equally Unisex, so not that bad.

2. Tie my hair back (easy I can do it, expecting my hight ponytail betch!)

3. No make up (screaming)

4. Saying Krub (the big part of torturing)

5. Avoid come out of my true identity like when a student asks me I have to tell something else but not "I am a transgender"

5 are enough, I made it professionally and confidently until interview ends (as I always did in many before) "Behave appropriately" they mean.

I cried walking out the room, straight to my car, while walking pass a security and had to lied him I cried because I was happy I got a job, the fact is I was crying because I felt very shit and unfair and unaccepted. Not easy to be a human, more xxxx2 on if you are living in society like this. It's true that this world isn't fair. I seek for better life bit sometimes life isn't easy like that so.. Haha

I told them I need time to think about the conditions (you guys have to understand that here is really hard to get a job after pandemic and since I'm homosexual and out-showed on my appearance, many rejection. So when I have a job comes to me like this I have to be careful and not miss a chance to make money to survive to pay my rent, hormones other things.

I asked if I can start a job at 16th because it's the middle of the month because I might open for other choice next week, if no ones call me I guess I have to take this school job to survive and have money for my rental and expenses.

Let see what will happen.

I did try to dress up with shirt today and tied my hair back with no make up on that pic. I'm super anxious if I look like a man or a freak :/

#Transgender #Trans #Mtf #M2f #LGBT #Transgirl #Transwoman

[kirksfattitties]

I bounced off Disco when I watched it first (no clowning, just wasnt really into the story) but I'm trans and desperate for rep lol. Tumblr seems mixed but I trust your judgement so I wanna ask: Are Adira and Gray good characters? Is there anything in the season that's legit transphobic? Like I'm not trying to Start A Thing, I just wanna know what I should expect going in. (P.s. your blog gives me life. Thnx)

i’ve reblogged a few posts from other people who’ve worded it better than me so go back and look at those, but i’ll also try to explain. (dsc spoilers obvs)

the reason theres such a mixed bag from trans people (cis people too, but their opinions don’t matter for this) is that it really is such a mixed situation.

they told us that two trans characters were being added and being played by trans people. this is true.

HOWEVER

adira, the first trans and nonbinary character to appear in the show, has not yet come out. this is leading to the first trans character to be CONSTANTLY misgendered. it’s very upsetting and there were MULTIPLE times i had to pause the episode and calm myself down.

adira is also joined with a trill (despite being human). even if it’s not explained this way, im afraid it will lead the cis audience to believe that adira is only nonbinary because they have multiple people living inside them through the symbiont. also, because of being human and joined with a trill, they were called an abomination. so yes. the first trans and nonbinary character in star trek was called an abomination. 🙃

gray, the first trans man character is dead. and he has been dead for a while. he’s “alive” in a way that he’s one of the people living through adira tal. it was still EXTREMELY upsetting to learn that the first canon trans man in star trek has been dead. we ALSO get to SEE his death. which was in an extremely traumatic way. 🙃

the above things have been extremely upsetting for me, and i HOPE they’re planning on remedying them. but it still doesn’t change the fact that these things have already been done.

on the flip side, adira and gray are in love. and it was incredible and beautiful to watch two trans people be in love onscreen. AND KISS!!! THEY KISSED!!! i’m sure it’s happened before but this is the FIRST TIME i’ve ever seen a canon t4t relationship on the screen. and (other than the things i mentioned above) it’s HEALING and MAGICAL to watch two trans characters be so in love with each other and a part of each other.

so. yes. a very mixed bag of some good things and some very bad things. i’m not gonna decide for you if you should watch it, because that’s up to you to decide. but personally i’m gonna keep watching it. and really really hope that the situation improves.

#long post #asks #discovery spoilers

[legacyridley]

— LYING IS THE MOST FUN A GIRL CAN HAVE WITHOUT TAKING HER CLOTHES OFF (BUT IT’S BETTER IF YOU DO!)

“I CAN’T RECALL a single amazing thing i have seen first-hand that i didn't immediately reference to a movie or tv show. a fucking commercial. you know the awful singsong of the blasé: seeeen it. i've literally seen it all, and the worst thing, the thing that makes me want to blow my brains out, is: the secondhand experience is always better. the image is crisper, the view is keener, the camera angle and the soundtrack manipulate my emotions in a way reality can't anymore.”

                                                                                          — gillian flynn , gone girl

ooc —

hi there ! i’m shannon, i’m non-binary, my pronouns are she/they and i’m from the united kingdom. you can just call me the ceo of the unhinged rosamund pike cinematic universe, though. or keira knightley’s bitch, because i am, even if i decided against bringing her this time ( still might later ! ) i love morally corrupt women, i’d give my life for them, if one couldn’t tell by . . . uh. frankie. 

application —

[ rosamund pike | 40 | she/her | cis woman ] if it isn’t FRANCESCA RIDLEY ! you know, FRANKIE ! they’ve lived in monarda for TWO MONTHS. some people say that they’re CONSCIENTIOUS & CHARMING, but that they can also be PRIVILEGED & AVARICIOUS. last i heard, they were working FREELANCE as a BUSINESSWOMAN ! i’ve also heard the rumor that they’re a WITCH. if you’d ask me, they remind me of BEING BORN WITH THE METALLIC TANG OF A SILVER SPOON IN YOUR MOUTH ( JUST LIKE THE TASTE OF YOUR OLD-MONEY BLOOD ), “MANEATER” BY NELLY FURTADO PLAYING, SLIGHTLY MUFFLED, FROM INSIDE YOUR CAR, LIKE MUSIC FROM A PARTY BATHROOM, & THE NOTION OF A NEW SELF YOU’LL FIND BY THE SHORE ( BUT HOW’S THAT WORKING OUT FOR YOU, HONEY? DO YOU FEEL LOVED? ) ! i wonder what monarda’s got in store for them today!

BASICS —

NAME: francesca legacy ridley ( yes, really. )

AGE: forty ( b. 28 january, 1981 — knightsbridge, london, united kingdom. )

NICKNAMES: frankie , and frankie only.

GENDER: cis female.

ORIENTATIONS: bisexual / biromantic.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: divorced & single.

NATIONALITY: british-american ( dual. )

ETHNICITY: white ( english. )

LANGUAGES SPOKEN: english, french, german.

OCCUPATION: social media mogul & socialite. ex-sunglasses model. 

EDUCATION: institut le rosey & magdalen college, oxford.

PERSONALITY —

ASTROLOGICAL BIG THREE: aquarius sun, scorpio moon, scorpio rising.

MBTI TYPE: entj-a. ( the commander. )

HOGWARTS HOUSE: slytherin ( ravenclaw hatstall. )

ENNEAGRAM TYPE: eight with a seven wing ( the maverick. )

THEME SONG: maneater by nelly furtado.

FAVOURITE SONG: lay all your love on me by abba.

FAVOURITE ALBUM: super trouper by abba (1980)

PET PEEVES: people who don’t say ‘thank you’ when you open the door. back-seat drivers. chewing too loudly. tea that’s too milky. cambridge graduates. 

PHOBIAS: trypophobia. hemophobia ( blood ). arachnophobia. coulrophobia ( clowns. )

GUILTY PLEASURES: radio-friendly pop music. sunglasses, still. netflix-binge style sitcoms. kate winslet movies. true crime documentaries. st trinian’s (2007) dir. oliver parker.

ABOUT —

she’s deeply charming but also . . . it’s mostly theatre. ridleys know how to put on a show. ridleys know how to make friends. so meet frankie: #1 flirt, #1 liar, and perfectionist to the nth degree.

oxford graduate from a family of oxford graduates ; if you don’t get what that means for a person, substitute oxford with harvard and you might just about be getting there, right down to the annoying person — the sort of humdrum regular who grinds on francesca’s gears — who says ‘ oh, you went to harvard? say something smart! ’ growing up in a house in london that looks like it is out of a fairytale ( would be, if the city and all its bustle and noise weren’t on the doorstep ) is about as sweet as it sounds, and who could blame one for getting a touch . . . jealous ? well, other than frankie, a product of a private school in switzerland, an oxford college, and a trust fund, who could judge someone for breathing incorrectly, and says things such as ‘ jealousy is a disease, get well soon. ’

HOW DID SHE GET TO HER CURRENT POSITION ? . . .other than her parents’ money and a wealth of connections? well, frankie quickly came to understand something; that every time the older generations catch up to a social media platform, there’s a sudden vacuum as the younger generation work out where to go. and where the audience go is where the influence is, which gains you more connections, more wealth, more influence in places people would never even think to look. do you ever think about what information leaves your hands, and where, when you agree to the terms and conditions? you probably should. 

[ NOTE : when i imagine the platform, it’s something fairly twitter-esque, but without the people who use long hashtags and can’t figure out how it works. and more . . . aesthetic, somehow. like pinterest-level aesthetics. i’ll be working it out over time, but i’ve named it spectrum. yes, it’s named after the florence & the machine song, please don’t judge me. it started off as a university project á la the social network ( brilliant bloody movie ) that went onto a massive scale & became trendy and addictive. imagine if mark zuckerberg was a cool, bisexual, female ex-sunglasses model who once married the heir to grovesnor group, made him sign a considerable prenup and then divorced him when he cheated ( there was some full diana revenge dress content ) fifteen years ago, just before her old university idea went mainstream. he regrets it now, doesn’t he ? ]

imagine the kind of assholes who would give their child ‘ legacy ’ as a middle name to remind her of the constant pressure on her shoulders ? welcome to the ridleys, london-born mother & father to francesca ( golden child, with more issues than meets the eye, actually as much of a party girl as her sister but successful ) and roman ( motorbike-obsessed disgrace. ) they’re one of the oldest witch families out there, but — up until frankie & roman — they’ve been able to keep it quiet for their own benefit. 

so what does frankie DO with her magic? she always says she specialises in the tempting, though the addictive is perhaps more apt. want to feel so excited about something you’ll never be bored again? want the best trip of your life? frankie’s your gal. and does it have anything to do with how influential spectrum became & how much of an addictive presence she can be? . . . well, that’s for her to know & no one to find out. 

AND NOW, THE FINAL QUESTION: why the fuck is london’s premier rich bitch in where she’d consider nowhere, maine ? well, she’s on sort of a self-recreation trip right now. think about tahani in the good place when she tries to step out of the spotlight without actually doing it, except she’s thinking the sea air will cleanse her of a slight... unease coming with the approaching mid-life crisis and having to dye her greys out. 

but now she’s in a smaller place than sprawling london, living in that house you look at and think ‘fuck, i’d kill for that view,’ having to associate with people properly rather than being almost a concept of a person . . . what if people tear aside the mask and discover the serpentine nature and the moral rot that lies behind it ?

credits —

template !

#monardaintro #— nothing good starts in a getaway car ( INTRO. )

[adamisms]

⌠ MENA MASSOUD, 24, CIS MALE, HE/HIM ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, ADAM HASSAN! according to their records, they’re a THIRD year, specializing in COVERT OPERATIONS; and they DID NOT go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of (converse squeaking down the halls, playing cards shuffling in his hands, a black hood raised up and his eyes cast low, a bag packed in the corner of the room just in case). when it’s the (libra)’s birthday on 10/10/96, they always request their KUSHARI from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation. ⌿ deanna, 25, she/her, est ⍀

NAME: Adam Laith Hassan

KNOWN AS: Adam

BIRTHDATE:  October 10, 1996

ASTROLOGY:  Libra sun / Virgo moon / Sagittarius rising

HOMETOWN: Henderson, Nevada

GENDER:  Cis male  ( he/him )

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:  Pansexual

HEIGHT:  5'8"

HAIR COLOR:  Brown

EYE COLOR:  Brown

TATTOOS:  Three lines on the back of his neck & a sunflower on his side 

KNOWN LANGUAGES:  English, Arabic, Spanish, French

ABOUT.

Adam was born outside of Las Vegas to overbearing and miserable parents, the kind that only seem to get enjoyment out of going to church and telling their son everything he does wrong. He’s not allowed much of a life beyond the walls of their house.

Becomes a rowdy boy, much to his parent’s dismay. They send him away to boarding school as soon as they can, where he makes a fun little name for himself as Class Clown. The school is just as strict as his parents, so he doesn’t fit in well with the faculty there, but the students love him. Adam becomes part of the “Popular” crowd, but it’s not without its issues. 

During his junior year in high school, Adam and his friends decide to prank on a teacher and it goes too far. Half of the East wing ends up in flames, and despite him and his friends agreeing to come forward about it together, Adam hadn’t gotten the memo that the rest of them were going to bail. Instead the entire situation gets pinned on him. The school expels him and calls up his parents to come pick him up. That night he packs a bag and leaves campus, fully aware his parents are not the forgiving type.

Adam hitchhikes himself to Las Vegas and ends up making a home for himself there. Always the charismatic and friendly type, he’s quick to find a community of other kids like him, and together they learn the best motels and abandoned buildings to squat in, until they get enough money for their own place. An avid fan of close-up magic, Adam uses his skills to charm tourists on the streets of Vegas -- and when they’re not looking, steal wallets or watches as well. He was also one of those guys who would dance in the street for cash, simply because he loves to dance. His hustles with him and his friends improved as they got older, but it never went beyond stealing to survive, even if Adam never thought about it like that.

Around the age of nineteen the cops start to catch onto him and his group, so they decide to say goodbye to Vegas and move to LA, pulling the same stunts on the beaches of California. Los Angeles certainly has its perks, but he does find himself missing the bright lights of the Strip. 

Not long after coming to Los Angeles, Adam ends up stealing the watch off of a man who quickly catches him in the act and doesn’t let him get away. Instead of turning him in to the cops, he offers to buy Adam dinner, and he spends the entire evening learning about Adam’s current living situation.  ( Adam, naturally, thinks he’s trying to proposition him, but takes the free meal anyway. )  At the end of dinner the man offers him his business card, saying he works for an elite college and thinks he’d be a great candidate for it. Adam tucks his card away into his wallet, never planning on using it.

An unfortunate side effect of living in Las Vegas was a small gambling addiction that Adam never quite recognized. It’s not his fault when he finally got spending money, he was more interested in trying to grow it at the poker table.  (He knows how to count cards, lord help him.) The addiction follows him to LA, choosing to bet on sports rather than cards, something he’s definitely not as good at. He’s twenty-one when his debts suddenly become too large for him to take on, and there are a lot of angry people looking for him. So Adam pulls out the business card of the man he had met two years ago and hopes for a miracle. 

A few weeks later, he finds himself enrolled in a prestigious spy university in middle America  ( NOT Blackthorne ) . His recruiter had warned him that it wasn’t going to be easy to adjust at first, and it wasn’t. Adam was able to keep up in his classes just fine -- he enjoyed it, even -- but he didn’t like the environment, reminding him too much of his boarding school days. At the end of the year, the recruiter who had become his mentor had told him about a similar college in Virginia that had just opened its doors to accepting male students. He was able to pull some strings for Adam, causing Adam to arrive at Gallagher as a second year, the first year boys were allowed on campus.  

Adam is the class clown type, a real goofball that comes off inherently lazy, though he is serious about his studies, because he knows better than to look a gift horse in the mouth. He’s a classic “yes man” who will do just about anything for the hell of it and with zero shame. He’s here for a good time, not a long time! He has zero shame. Surprisingly he’s also a hopeless romantic, the type to fall in and out of love in the span of a few weeks. He reels people with his charm and cute smile, but it’s better in small doses, otherwise he’s just a little annoying.

WANTED CONNECTIONS.

Ex from last year

Crushes

Someone with a crush on him

People he could know from Vegas or Los Angeles

Someone related to his mentor figure that got him into the spy world

Someone from the first spy school he went to before transferring

Bros <3

A best friend

Literally anything from last school year aka his first year at Gallagher

Something from here

Idk I’m very lazy right now, but I’m down for anything

#gallagher:intro #excuse me as i post this at 2am and then conk off to sleep #but love him ty

[you-can-be-what-you-want-to-be]

Blink of an Eye 20

Warning for like, police. Basira briefly shows up and talks about her and Daisy’s police brutality, and it’s vaguely mentioned that the justice system is transphobic, but only in that Sasha, who is intersex and put down as male at birth, is roomed with Tim, who’s cis, and Jon and Martin both being trans men are grouped together.

The heist of the century as Tim calls it, goes off without a hitch, despite Helens “coming along” apparently meaning “will pop in to watch you and refuse to let you use my doors to help.”

The blowing up of the unknowing goes... moderately well. The beholding shows the group that it can in fact distract people and pull their gaze away, allowing them to set up the charges in relative peace, and it lets Tim see the death of his tormentor, which after causes Martin to excitedly yell “did you SEE THAT?!?!” Like an excitable child after the explosion.

The issue of course comes with the fact that they get arrested after as blowing up buildings is illegal. They give their story about the unknowing and being kidnapped by clowns/ revenge, and are left to sit for several hours in a jail cell, and because police are horrible, and Sasha’s parents had decided wrong what to put on her birth certificate, and Jon and Martin were both trans, they get divided into two different cells.

Helen is again no help and only pops in to laugh at them briefly.

“Well,” Jon says “this is better than the last time I was held against my will somewhere.”

“Yeah....... not alone this time, so that’s good?”

There’s a long tense silence, and the awkwardness only gets worse when beholding decides to give Martin information.

‘He finds carousels thrilling’ ‘he likes your laugh’ ‘you both like carnations’ ‘he doesn’t like poetry but thought yours was alright’

He isn’t sure but he thinks.... he thinks Jon might be trying to give him a sign to shoot his shot. He really hopes he’s right because otherwise the next however long this is going to be will be really awkward, but he can’t think of a better reason he would start sharing facts about Jon liking his laugh of all things.

“Jon there’s.... there’s something I have to tell you, something important, and I don’t know if I’ll have the nerve to say it later. I’m- I like you.”

Jon furrows his brow a bit at this.

“While I’ll admit I was rather unfair to you when we first started working at the Archives, I was rather hoping that it was obvious that we like each other.”

Martin is torn between face palming and dropping the topic, and kissing this ridiculous man, so he settled for laughing uncomfortably.

“No like, I’m.... I have a crush on you, Jon.”

Jons mouth drops into an o shape and there’s a long moment where they just sit there.

“God I’m sorry that was stupid of me to say, obviously you don’t feel the same and now I’ve made things weird while we’re in here for who knows how much longer alone-“

“Martin, stop, it’s fine it- it’s fine. I uh- when I was... when I was kidnapped I didn’t just have your tapes that you sent me. The eye, it sent me some as well, just a lot of moments of you, or sometimes would update me on how you were doing or little facts about you and.... I’ve been trying not to think about it, to be honest. It was a horrible month, and I wasn’t sure if it was just because it’s really all the comfort I had at the time or if- if what I started feeling was genuine.”

“Jon I- are you saying-“

At that moment a nearby door opened and a cop wearing a hijab walks up to the bars.

Spooky Jon seems strangely excited about her appearance though, so Martin figures this is probably okay.

“Why’d you blow up the museum?”

Martin wants to tell her that they already gave their statement, to just ask the other officers, but beholding pulls st his and jons vocal cords, and they’re suddenly spilling almost everything.

When they’re done, she gives them a long look.

“You said a tape monster or something pushed you to do it?”

“Well, I mean it was more the revenge and the whole ‘being kidnapped’ thing and it just helped, but yeah.”

“Hm. There’s- we had a run in with that too.”

“Oh? Well, would you want to make a statement, pool our knowledge so to speak?” Jon asks.

“No,” she says firmly, but Martin can feel the static in the air that comes with a statement.

He doesn’t like that he’s so comfortable ripping peoples stories out, he doesn’t understand why, but that’s the least to be expected when you’re a fear god of knowledge he supposed.

“A few months ago, I got a tape in my living room. I listened to it pretty much immediately after having it checked for any weapon mechanisms that might be in it, because in this line of work something mysteriously showing up in your home tends to either be a threat or a ransom of some kind. Still might of been in a way.

The tape had audio of D- of my partner talking to someone. Everything they said was cut out but the things she said- well it wasn’t nice. I always knew a little bit what she was doing, but I didn’t know it had gotten so bad. Or that I had either. When you’re job has you against the worst of society, it gets engraved in you that you’re all the other has, that everyone else is out to get you so you better have each other’s backs.

The tapes made it clear that she’s been hurting people, and that she hates it. I assumed she was trying to admit it with the tape, but more kept showing up the longer I didn’t bring it up, and some had my voice on them, complaining about her being weak, about her being dead weight because she was trying to avoid hurting people, and I realized that the guilt, the... the withdrawal or whatever it was being described, was something that hadn’t happened yet but needed to, and that I was part of the problem.

We still don’t really know what it is that’s going on though, just that something is making her hurt people and that it hurts her to not, so I’ve been keeping a closer eye on her and we’re only trying to take cases with really bad people, repeat offenders who are more likely to be guilty, just in case my eye slips off her and she’s.... tempted.”

There’s a tenseness in the air.

“That’s- that’s horrible.”

Martin hmms in agreement with Jon and silently asks beholding for any input.

“If you have any alternatives I’d be glad to hear them.”

“Hold on,” Martin says “I just might. It sounds like a fear addiction.”

“A what?” Jon asks incredulous while Basira just looks at him, waiting for him to go on.

It’s really unnerving.

“Well it’s- her entire thing is chasing people down yeah? She’s not breaking into cells or anything to beat at people, and the- the beholding’s telling me hunt? The um... the avatars kind of feed off fear so I guess.... you guys could make it so that she can’t hunt anymore? Amputation or something.”

Basira glares at what feels the depths of his soul.

“No.”

“Ok,” he squeaks “it was just an idea.”

Beholding decides to help him a bit more and a tape appears.

“‘What? You think people are so special it’s only our fear that counts?- Everything feels afraid sometimes. Sure, maybe it’s not as complicated or… existential as our fear, but it’s real. And there’s, what, twenty billion chickens in the world? A few billion pigs, cows… How many of them are dying of old age? All that terror, it has to go somewhere.’”

Basira gives the tape an untrusting look, but seems thoughtful.

“That’s an idea.”

She looks back at Jon and Martin.

“You’re being released by the way.”

“Really?” Jon asks “it’s that easy? You just... decide to do it, no paper work or anything?”

“Oh no, I came in to let you out actually, I just wanted to hear about your whole deal first, see if you had any useful information, and you did.”

“WHAT-“ Martin starts, but Jon puts a hand on his shoulder to ground him. He’s pissed too, but he knows how to best interact with officers for his safety. There’s no guaranteed way of course, and he’s never been very good at social interactions, but not actively yelling at them when they’re about to be let go is a good first step.

Basira just shrugs.

“Worked out fine didn’t it?” She asks as she digs out the keys to let them out “your stories checked out, and there’s a few less monsters in the world now. Also someone paid big money to have you released so.”

“We don’t know anyone who isn’t here, much less anyone who’s rich, who’d have us released?” Jon asks.

They get out of the holding area and barely have time to reunite with Tim and Sasha before a head briefly pops around the door and disappears again, followed by someone with horrendously dyed hair and boba tea coming in the room on heelies and then promptly tripping and falling on the floor.

“ELIAS?” Tim chokes out.

“Glad to see you doing better” Martin says. “ Coordination  could use some work though.”

“Oh fuck off,” he says, voice surprisingly high.  “I was supposed to gouged my eyes out, of course I’m not very good at this. Give a blind man a break.”

“You aren’t blind though,” Sasha says “or at least you have both your eyes.”

“Fine then, I am uncoordinated because I lost twenty years of my life and didn’t have the ability to walk on my own all that time.”

“It’s been three months,” Martin says.

“LOOK ok, do you want me to bail you or not?”

“Shutting up.”

“Sorry what is HAPPENING HERE” Tim asks.

“Oh yeah so. I’m Elias, nice to meet you all, Jonah Magnus was possessing me for a long time, it was hella bunk but your evil eye dude helped me out.”

“What’s with the uhhh...” Jon vaguely gestures  to all of Elias, except for the horrendous 90’s slang which isn’t a physical thing that can be gestured about.

He takes a long sip of his boba.

“The guy who stole my life was filthy rich, and I’m like, traumatized. It’s called coping bitch.”

“Have you perhaps tried therapy?” Sasha asks.

“Oh shit, is that a thing you can do now without getting any flack? Nice! Oh BTW, beholding told me to give you guys these, don’t know why but enjoy.”

He hands Tim and Sasha two tickets to Malaysia and Jon and Martin two tickets to Scotland.

“And as your boss technically, I’m giving you a mandatory month off, sorry. Anyway, byezz!”

They all look at each other shocked.

“What the fuck.”

Everyone kind of just nods in agreement, and beholding drops plane times into their heads.

“Right then. We only have about an hour to pack, so best get going,” Sasha says “See you guys next month.”

#tma #the magnus archives #Blink Of An Eye #Beholding #beholding jon #god jon #my fic

[adcres]

         howdy hey , pardnerrrs :> i’m rox ( she / her ) ‘n i’ll be playing yr residential sullen broodin’ boy , nico . i didn’t have the time to write out a whole new intro , given that i have back to back classes again today :-’( , so please forgive me for recycling his old intro akawodkgrsd ; . that being said , i did tweak around some tingz and i updated his wcs for him , so if yr down to clown around just hmu on my discord :   𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱 𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔫𝔦𝔞#2854 !  okie okie , i’ll shut da eff up now ♡ 

BASICS.

༉‧₊˚✧ kim taehyung , cis man , he / him / his — did you see that nicholas “nico” yoon was trending last night ? the twenty three year old street artist has been getting a lot of press lately . i think it’s due to them being so + quixotic & + free-spirited , but i always thought they seemed - withdrawn & - sybaritic . their fans always say they remind them of soft smoke rings spun in a dreamy haze , silver-ringed fingers rapping against polished oak , and waning light refracting against broken glass though . i wonder if they’ve found out about REDACTED yet … i guess we’ll have to wait and see . [ rox , 22 , pst , she / her , none ]

PINTEREST & PLAYLIST .

01 and 02 .

PERSONALITY .

at first glance , nico reads as this aloof , arrogant type that doesn’t like to associate w the common public . always keeping the majority of people at a comfortable distance , nico moves almost exclusively within his own social network , and doesn’t like to deviate from what he knows best .  

not so much pretentious as he is lazy , making an effort to socialize with complete strangers is simply something that nico would never do . hehe ... he’s kind of shy like that .... ♡ though he’d literally never admit it ♡

despite giving the impression that he’s some intimidating and chronically indifferent kind of guy , nico is genuinely a sweet boy — ‏‏‎ one who’s in a constant state of confusion as to why people seem to be so scared of him . it always comes as a shock when close friends of his admit that they thought he absolutely hated their guts when they first met him .

b/c tho he’s p smart , nico is very oblivious at times , and he’s 100% the kind of guy who’ll walk away from a conversation thinking he did a rly rly good job trying to make a friend ... when in reality he prob said four words in the span of thirty minutes smh .

overall , nico’s a private person , especially with what he’s thinking ... and it’s really hard to get a clear read on what’s on his mind . sharing his feelings has never been one of nico’s interests b/c he just genuinely doesn’t think whatever he has to say is rly worth mentioning . so he usually just shuts da fuck up n lets other ppl talk so he can mentally gain the strength to continue socializing .

push nico’s buttons enough tho ‘n you’ll catch this mf speaking in full sentences .

lastly , it should b noted that nico is a romantic through n through ... this mf probably d*ed in the victorian era ‘n got reincarnated b/c he’s got that ‘ lets share furtive glances across the room but never say a thing to each other  ‘ thing on lock . mr. darcy headass

and while nico might play the role of long-suffering , ever pining lover to a T , he’s more in love w / the idea of love than he is w / any single person . and he literally cannot hold down a relationship w/o fucking it up for himself in some shape or form .

kind of sarcastic ... v much the teasing type .... 

can b very impulsive at times , loves to go on solo adventures at night , prefers his own company tbh ...

overview : melancholic , reticent , noncommittal , humble , mild-mannered , romantic .

a mix of : josh from clueless and j.d. from heathers

more here .

MORE AESTHETICS.

the chill of silver jewelry against flushed skin , forgotten graffiti on porcelain sinks , flickering motel lights , kisses sticky with vodka , eyes ringed with lavender , sleepless nights surrendered to the dull buzz of television , obscure art house films , sun-kissed cheeks , the surprise of summer rain , chest aching with lost loves , scattered baby’s breath and rosemary , and a shared smile between perfect strangers .

CHARACTER DISSERTATION.

nico was born on a brisk wintry morning in the fashion district of los angeles ( january 21st , 1997 ) to a family of six .

as the second youngest child , and the only male son to boot , nico grew up with his only inheritance being a generational kind of hunger , one that demanded for more than what his struggling parents could offer

the arts stole nico at an early age ... ushering him into a world of creation and freedom beyond the four bleak walls he daily occupied . from spending lonely summers tucked away in some forgotten corner in the library to practicing on a borrowed violin from dawn to dusk , nico knew that even with nothing at his disposal , there was always something to be made w/ the tools he’d been given  

despite not having the money for private tutors to hone their son’s growing artistic talents , his parents did whatever they could to support his dreams , whether that meant working double shifts back to back or scrounging for loose change underneath the sofa cushions to pay for whatever materials nico needed .

it was in this strange way that nico grew up p spoiled . somehow having nothing while also having absolutely everything at the same time .

very much a family man , the first big purchase nico made once he broke out in hollywood was a house in beverly hills for his parents . now that he’s finally at a place where he can take care of his family , nico makes sure that his parents and sisters want for nothing

while he showers everyone else with generous gifts and obscene amounts of money , nico doesn’t particularly feel comfortable doing the same for himself . he’s a simple man through n through . one who’s content to spend his time walking his dog late at night , listening to a podcast on his airpods , instead of going out to a club w/ other well-known socialites .

a true artist at heart , nico refuses to conform to the current trends of hollywood , instead insisting on wearing thrifted clothes to important galas — ‏‏‎much to the frustration of his PR team and the chagrin of his stylists . but none of the choices nico makes seems to surprise anyone anymore . driving flashy cars and wearing designer clothes has never really been his style , after all . and it’s important to him that he remain authentically himself despite everything .

WANTED CONNECTS.

pr relationship ( open ) : someone that nico is contractually obligated to date ... i could totally see there being drama ‘n tension from having to pretend to actually like each other ... would b better if they rly did not like each other at all ... 

fwb ( open ) : buddies who bump uglies sometimes ... they both agreed they’d never catch feelings for each other but we’ll see ... 

frenemies ( open ) : someone that grinds nico’s gears but they’re a friend of his friend ... so they’re forced to keep it civil . i can see them exchanging hateful comments in the back of their friend’s car while simultaneously posting pics of each other on ig to keep up the rouse . 

unrequited crush ( open ) : likely nico would not realize if yr muse had a crush on them ... but it’d be fun to play it out like a kdrama anyway heh heh

a close friend group ( open / any ) : i thought it’d b so cute if there was like a small group of friends , maybe 3-4 ppl , that do stupid shit like ditch going to celebrity after-parties to break into abandoned buildings , get real high , ask stupid ‘ would u rather ‘ questions , and do sum main character type shit ... yk what im puttin down ... ‘n nico is def the type to open up in the presence of extroverts so i think having a group of wild outsiders of diff bgs would b v inch resting ..

enemies / rivals ( open / any ) : tbh nico prob rubs ppl the wrong way since he has resting bitch face ‘n never wants to talk to anyone .. so im sure there r ppl who just do not like this mf ... and rest assured that the feeling is mutual ...

bad / good influence ( open / any ) : nico’s known to mount his high horse often ... mr morality over here ... so i just know he prob would butt heads w/ the residential troublemaker . tho nico’s artwork can be controversial and out of the box at times , his art style and his personality are at constant odds , and it’d b interesting to have that bad influence / good influence dynamic w/ someone .

family friend ( open ) : someone who grew up w/ nico in dtla ... couldve gone to the same public school as him ... or their families couldve gone to the same church ...

ok my intro post has become a fucking behemoth so im going to stop here ‘n just say i have so many more wcs in mind so if u wanna plot lets just talk hehe :>

#lavish.intro #okie gotta blast i have class in 5 min