#but especially dont dm me about it ill ignore you

[bunyies]

This honestly needs to be said, the mogaiblr community is so insanely toxic and unhealthy.

However, we'll be focusing on 4 people in it for now. They are as follows : Adorbsies, Surrenity, Thehauntedcemetery (ghost), and Autibf

Adorbsies : adorbsies has done many immoral/wrong things. 1 : saying 'its okay to id with disorders/illnesses/etc that you don't have if it helps comfort you' not only is that wrong but also harms people who have disorders & such (pds, dissociative disorders, nd's, etc) much like the transid community does. 2 : Has been insanely rude to multiple people & tried to use npd as an excuse. I have npd and that doesn't give you an excuse to be an asshole just to be an asshole. 3 : Has repeatedly brought up uncomfortable topics with people, not once apologized. 4 : took inspo off multiple people that are uncomfortable with inspo and continues to do so, as well as taking tq's (engagekiss & angel) 5 : does not credit artists very often, will use art off twt & not credit at all. 6 : has ignored multiple asks about the doxxing, rape and suicide threats Angel recieved.

Surrenity : same with adorbsies, overall done a bunch of bad things. 1 : the callout post against Angel, it was unnecessary as all of this could have been resolved in dms yet wasn't for some unknown reason. Personally I think surrenity (and ghost + adorbsies) have some sort of ill will/vendetta against Lolita. 2 : Has taken inspo / copied a rentry (supposedly for autibf) and passed it off as their own. 3 : Been very rude to multiple people for seemingly no reason. 4 : publicly posted angels account knowing it would cause harassment then saying that 'they dont care' when confronted about it.

Thehauntedcemetery : hasn't done the worst things but definitely needs to be spoken about. 1 : Has taken multiple peoples forms/introjectism & f/os. When asked to name the source of a niche/very uncommon manga they couldn't and blocked instead. would constantly say 'theyre me' to any character shown (especially with angel) even to characters they didnt know about (ex. didnt watch the anime/read the manga, didnt play the game, didnt know the source, etc) 2 : Keep breaking their own dni & others. Their dni says 'under 16 dni' yet they interact with Adorbsies (15), surrenity (13), (used to) Lolita (14), autibf (13) and most likely more. 3 : has repeatedly said 'me (lady k)' & other characters despite knowing people around them are also lady k (angel, etc) & ignores boundaries constantly then gets upset when confronted. Ghost isn't an introject and is a singlet. 4 : hypocrite. expected multiple people (especially angel) to know who they were & to not talk about it yet never shared who they were/ided with. then got upset when a character somebody was (that was also 'coincidentally' ghost) was mentioned. as well as f/os. even unknown or uncommon medias that they wouldn't be without it being mentioned as a form/f/o of the other person. 5 : sent people their art (without a tw/censor) that had self harm, gorey themes, etc. multiple times.

^ context : telling ghost not to inspo and ghost doing it anyways

Autibf : oh boy, lot to unpack here. 1 : told a person (Angel) to get a deluxe suicide & to khs multiple times (joking or not, he never asked to see if it was okay with cher or not) 2 : insanely rude for no reason, has sent people to harass others. 3 : just like surrenity, copied rentrys + graphics & passed it off as his own work. 4 : ID's with disorders he doesn't have (in reference to the adorbsies thing, it was adorbsies defending autibf & autibf agreeing with that point) 5 : made claims against somebody (copying claims, stealing, etc) while he's done it himself, reference to point 3. 6 : wrote a passive aggressive post about Angel saying che 'stole his f/o' despite cher not doing so. Lolita doesn't interact with him so how would ki know?

The 4 in general/overall : all insanely rude and just using their disorders as an excuse. 1 : didn't even try to connect with Lulu to discuss things and just decided 'hey let's ruin this girls life even more' 2 : all have made cher uncomfortable & then throw a hissy fit if che blocks them. 3 : all of them have done copying of some sort whether it be blatantly taking forms (without iding with them/knowing the media they're from), taking f/os (without even knowing much about the character/media they're from or what they're from), copying tq's, copying rentrys + graphics, etc. 4 : uses peoples suffering/vulnerability to their advantage (especially adorbsies & autibf). they profit off peoples suffering (adorbsies using anything involving angel to look good, etc)

The general community : the entire community is a train wreck. 1 : It's toxic, people are constantly accused of copying and then get bullied off the platform (harassment, threats, hate pages, callouts, etc). Engagekiss isn't the only kokoa goddess and squidthing isn't the only squid. Not everything is a copy of another popular page. 2 : chronically online. they harass and bully people over fictional characters & wont stop till they're gone and off the platform. 3 : a lot of blogs advocate for accessibility but only to one group: those with dyslexia & screen readers. those aren't the only people to exist. A lot of people suffer from major headaches/migraines from the large amounts of plain text & flag ids (especially excessive amounts). Putting them in a reblog or under a cut would help a lot of people or tag things with a warning about the amount of large text. Accessibility for one won't be accessible for everyone and in some cases can make things less accessible.

My opinion on the angel situation: it was unnecessary & rude. 1 : all of this was incorrect/taken out of context. Lolita hasn't ever stolen anything, che finds that immoral & wrong. Macalo kept things off kiss forms & f/os to keep others comfortable & happy, even at the expense of cher own. 2 : Lolita uses names that ki can with permission from people of that race/ethnicity/etc. Or a lot are indeed native american/names that are from open cultures. Ki doesnt wish to disrespect cultures as cher own is constantly mocked for being 'weird'. 3 : This situation led cher to be very suicidal (as che was also off cher meds) & ruined her entirely, ki constantly thinks about it and it no doubt traumatized kiss. 4 : Che is already a very traumatized & vulnerable being (as ki is an ageslider & often ageslides pretty little, especially in distressing situations). 5 : Ki has no ill will towards anybody and truly cannot hate them, even if ki wanted to. Che treasured, and still does treasure the people that have hurt cher the greatest. 6 : Che has been in the mogai community for quite a long time (almost a year or so) & thought ki had finally found a safe place to be kissself but was then hit with all of this bullying, harassment, rudeness & threats. here's a BUNCH of ss of SOME of the harassment ki got

also no matter how many times you guys whine about "oh! don't harass angel" you KNEW the harassment would happen (surrenity even posted one of angels accounts publicly the image under here) and you know angel has been harassed MULTIPLE times even with being uncomfy talking to ki maybe ask kills at the time BOYFRIEND to talk to cher?

also you know damn well no matter how much ki blocks the hate anons they will STILL KEEP COMING. it will get stressing no matter how many times ki blocks them also ki was legit DOXXED dude pls address that ;-; ..?

also npd/low empathy will never be an excuse to be rude/not care about people's suffering/vulnerable because of your actions. #npdshouldnotbeusedasanexcuse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & anyways LOW EMPATHY IS STILL NOT AN EXCUSE TO BE SHITTY TO SOMEONE (explosion) (i thought that was common sense)

#mogai #mogaiblr #mogaiblog #xenogender #xenogenders #important #call out post #mogai post #read #long content #read this or die #call out ;-; :PP :PPP :PP #there are 5 of us now. We are unstoppable. #surentitty

[thundersyst3m]

⚡ WELCOME TO MY DUMBASSERY! ⚡

I'm Mallow (also known as the host, Nimbus!)

We are a diagnosed DID system of over 80+ members!

This blog is for reblogs, shitpost, dumb thoughts, aesthetics, doodle dump and questions!

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Gabe - @blood-soaked-peppermint

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These are the alters that mostly use this tumblr:

Nimbus ✨ - Body age - All pronouns/zap/cloud

Nimbuschu ⚡ - Body age - He/She/They/Zap

Blade 🍒 - 24 - He/They/Hound

Alice 🌸 - 28 - She/They/Flower

Cupid 🌺 - Ageless (adult) - She/They/Love

Hastur 🍚 - 3000+ (adult) - Any Pronouns

Moss 📗 - 20's - He/Him

North ❄️🩸 - 20's - He/it/snow/ice

Fawn 🦌🩸 - 20's - He/They/Deer

Sabrina 🐰🩸 - 19 - She/They/It/Bun

Heartache 🩸 - 20's - He/They/It/Blood

Ignis 🧨🩸 - 30's - He/It/Fire

Astro ☄️ - 17 - She/They

Aurora 🕯️ - Ageless (adult) - She/They/Star

MK 🍜 - 18 - He/Him/Chaos

Sol ☀️ - 1000+ (Mentally on his 30's) - He/Sun

Norton 🧲 - 35 - He/They/She

Pinkie Pie 🍰 - idk age (adult) - She/They/Cake

Fluttershy 🍂 - idk age (adult) - She/Her/Flutter

Purple 😈 - 16 - He/It

Grace 🐟 - 25 - She/They/Pearl

Cellbit 📷 - 30's - He/him

More might be added

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We are Brazilian! So sometimes portuguese posts might happen!

We are having a race crisis, we don't know if we white or mixed/pardo, hard at the moment

We are socially anxious and overall introverts that hate DMs

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Please use tone tags, we are autistic and this helps a lot!

We can answer some system questions, but not all, we not a professional!

This acc is sfw! But I am keeping it 18+ for my own comfort (plus i do touch on some mature subjects sometimes)

I am pro-kink (no I don't defend abusers, fuck off), don't care for contradicting LGBT labels and am overall a sarcastic person when it comes to venting about people who hurt me, if that bothers you, don't follow me

Don't send vent or hate asks, we will ignore you.

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We are very mentally ill (DID, C-PTSD, anxiety, autism, etc etc...)

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We interact with both anti-endo and pro-endo, we will only DNI If you have "endo neutral" on your DNI

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I hate racists, homophobes, ableists and all that jazz i hate y'all and will block y'all

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#introductory post #introduction #alter intro

[menalez]

hi!! you domt have to reply to this but i'm so curious, how is brittany from the yt channel A Slightly Twisted Female racist..? :O

ive been binge watchin her vids over the past month n i believe shes a really important voice for baby radfems especially who benefit from hearing a woman who isnt super militant, i think shes a great entry point for ladies curious about radfem ideology. What did she do that makes you think she has racist beliefs? I dont want to support a racist, of course, but havent heard anything at all from her even about race, let alone anything disparaging about race.

Again, you dont gotta feel obligated to spoon feed the info to me but if you have any examples or leads, thatd be so helpful.

thanks in advance!! x

here’s receipts of her being racist. i also saw dms between her & someone else where she says that she thinks systematic racism doesn’t exist, that black people aren’t disadvantaged uniquely by racism in the US (she was namely talking about her daughter, who is half black), she thinks black ppl’s issues are that they have a “victimhood mentality”, thinks white women don’t care about black women’s issues bc black women are aggressive to them or sth, and some nonsense about “liberal black victimhood”. last i checked, she’s pretty buddy buddy with vanessa vokey, who’s also pretty damn racist + an anti-vaxxer + anti-masker conservative ““““radfem”””, and justifies vanessa vokey as well. she’s also pretty openly conservative (“libertarian”):

she argues that she’s anti-racism and pro-black but she’s pretty ignorant about racial issues, thinks there’s no power difference between white ppl & black ppl, iirc said some pretty terrible shit about black women (her boyfriend from what ive heard is a pretty misogynistic black man who iirc talked a lot of shit about black women too. that might be the root of that), justified several racist white ppl, turns a blind eye to racism, and is generally, basically, a tradwife with a slightly feminist twist. i know many women who interacted with her in a more personal manner and they didn’t have much good to say ultimately either, but if i put that part on blast then ill be putting the others involved on blast too so im staying quiet there. but generally…. its not looking great for her lol

#i wanted to give her a chance buuuut after seeing the shit i saw i just. gave up

[dollotron]

i called you a dollar store Dahmer because you talk about necrophilia and cannibalism but as soon as someone with similar interests wants to talk to you, you get all fucking weird about it

if you didnt want me to insult your art then you shouldnt have insulted my writing ? which i wrote for you because i like you. because i wanted to talk to someone with similar interests.

but you and your followers just call me cringe for being mentally ill. well im so happy for all of you that you dont have a "cringey" mental illness like mine. so happy for you.

and i really dont care what normal people think of me. i know thats hard to comprehend. but normal people are so hateful toward anyone different all the time its hard to know what is a valid criticism and what is just people being mad that someone not normal is existing...so i just ignore what all people think of me now

i love my long messages im a wordsmith and a cringelord (better than an edgelord if you ask me)

i really was giving you a chance because you seemed kinda cool. genuinely i wonder what it must be like to have everyone love you and approve of you and to have people actually take an interest in you, that must be nice. no, i dont say that for you to feel bad for me or to say friends are bad. rather, i just hope you know how lucky you are to have so many people who want to spend time with you and defend you...who want to talk to you. it really is nice and i am happy for you. thats not sarcasm. im really jealous of that. and thats all i wanted was someone to talk to

i told you that youd hate me and i was right. and i dont hold it against you. i knew on some level that it would turn out like that

and thats the bottom line, i think: you would never have wanted to talk to me because you already have so many other people around you who love you that you can talk to and relate to

now that i think of it this way youre right. it was stupid to think anyone (especially one who is so popular) could care about someone like me

but thanks for giving me the time that you did. im sorry that i have stolen it forever and it can never be returned. i will treasure it, even if to you its absolutely nothing or a bad memory. call me whatever you want, its fine. i know im broken. i didnt need you or your followers to tell me

imagine: even the necrophile cannibals think im fucking problematic and cringe. oh man what level does that put me on. oh yeah: IN THE MUD!! lol i love that you said that about me idk it sounds nice

anyway. whatever. it was worth a shot to maybe have some fun and not be so lonely that i feel like im gonna lose my mind but okay

enjoy making fun of this note too everyone

wishing all actual weirdos a very pleasant evening <3

and i still like you as a person, Lon.

again. imagine. if i hated everyone who hated me. what a world that would be

but i will fuck off ......at least until i start to spiral again and then it will be everyones problem lol

No one likes you because you're annoying and rude not because we're all secretly faking having paraphilia or ganging up on youre mental illness os different than ours. You're the one coming in here, comparing who's better and who's worse, and who's really struggling with mental illness and who's not. I don't care what's wrong with you, but you're taking it all out on me and I'm more than tired of it. I don't know you. You could have come into my dms and actually started a conversation with me to get to know me, but instead you're just trolling me.

[velvetnviolentviolets]

Get To Know The Author

name : Kay

pronouns :  she/her

preference of communication : Honestly I have a huge preference for discord. I don't trust tumblr IM to actually alert me. Ive recently learned tumblr has been eating my asks too. If I don't reply to an ask or DM me PLEAS reach out to me. I will NEVE outright ignore something. If I don't think something is going to work for our muses I will reach out to you. 

most active muse :  Kat is my loudest and most demanding. After that would be Her brother Kass, Feyre, and then our spotty maybe I'm here maybe I'm not - Emmett.  

experience / how many years : Ohhh boy. I've been doing the rp thing off and on since 2010. There was a five year chunk in recent years where I disappeared for a bit but the lovely @sharpayevcns pulled me back in a few months ago and I am so appreciative that she did. <3 

best experience : Discovering the people here that make me feel safe enough to obsess over threads. You guys have absolutely made my return to tumblr. If I were to delete my blog with nothing but my connection with you guys to show for it - Well I would be absolutely fine with that. You guys are amazing and will absolutely be tagged in this. 

rp pet peeves : I keep running into situations where I get heavily invested in plotting something (Drawing, writing head cannons, making playlists, planning cannon events. . .I literrally brushed up on a whole ass language for a plot) Only to have those people completely leave me on read. I am not a pushy partner in the least. I would be more than happy to wait a month for a reply. But I need communication. I need feedback if something doesn't sit right for you. I need reciprocated enthusiasm. You don't have to show It the same way I do but I need some show of enthusiasm otherwise it just feels uncomfortable and I feel annoying and restrained. That's not what I'm here for. I've honestly made the decision to start unfollowing people based on a three strikes basis. No hard feelings. I just don't want to follow anyone who doesn't bring the same energy I do. 

fluff, angst, or smut :ALL OF IT! While I'm becoming more and more selective about who I write smut with I LOVE writing smut ESPECIALLY if its born of post Angst fluff. Actually almost exclusively. There is nothing that gets my muses motor going like post Angst Fluff! 

plots or memes : Augh! Don't make me pick. I love Plotting but sometimes nothing really gets the juices flowing like memes do. I cant tell you how many times a simple meme interaction help set a pivotal point in a plot. ALSO- Memes are usually what help me forego my shy nature. While my muse outwardly gives NONE of the Ducks. . .I do . I give all of the Ducks so memes help  me loosen up. I'm not responsible for the haphazard neuroSpicy creature you meet once the shyness has fallen away. You've been warned.

long or short replies : It depends on my mood and attention span. There is a Adderall shortage right now so I have only been taking my Adderall on work days so Ive had a VERY hard time focusing o replies as of late. When Im on top of my Game I am LONGWINDED AF .Please don't ever feel like you have to match me because there are times where I will write you a novel and we were only supposed to be writing a sentence or two. It just happens and Im sorry.  time to write : Ha! um . . . Well I work Graveyard  Thursday- Saturday from 8PM-9:30ish AM (PST)  On slow nights I do write here and there but for the most part I can be found here pretty sporadically. If I have something going on during my weekend that I have to be a daytime person for then ill be up during the day time. OTHERWISE- Mostly evening and spooky hours . 

are you like your muses : I could draw some parallels with each of them but I dont think I am like any of them. 

tagged by: The Alluring  @wynterlanding ~<3

@grimmusings @sharpayevcns @godccmplex <3

#wynterlanding #sharpayevcns #godcomplex #I hope this wasnt toooo much of a rant #XD #ooc

[amaurotine]

(. Sending an ask because it feels easier than a dm, but I want to say even tho I'm pretty quiet and stuff, I'm always down to plot threads or dynamics with you if you want us to! I hear about you from Cannibal and it makes me really excited, I'm just also full of anxiety and The Horrors (so many disorders. so many of them.) so oftentimes I just sit in silence with big ole eyes. .)

i totally understanding having anxiety and just flat out not having the energy to communicate at times. that's often me, and thats why i'm a bit less enthusiastic abt handing out my discord these days, bc im worried ppl will feel like im ignoring them bc i do not always answer dms right away, but i do so when i feel that i have the time, energy, and wherewithal to do so. i will delay responding with impunity until i feel like i'm ready to do so. i especially understand being iffy abt communicating with people they haven't been following for all that long, bc like. you Don't Know That Person! it takes observation and time to sus out the vibe. wrt IC interactions with people i've just met, i prefer to build relationships up with each interaction. that's how i do things.

when it becomes frustrating and unfair is when you've (and it's not about you specifically; this is just a general issue i've encountered repeatedly) established contact with someone, but it's become an instance where one person in the relationship is doing all of the hard work with reaching out/communicating/etc...and like...that's not healthy, and it's not fair to consistently hold someone to that standard, especially without talking about it. expecting someone else to constanatly perform the emotional labor for you, especially when you know that person also struggles with anxiety and issues of their own, is really not cool. again, i do understand anxiety and communication barriers as an autistic person with anxiety to the point where i constantly have to re-scheduele doctors appointments and anything that involves me leaving the house bc i dont sleep and the worrying fucks me up to the point of being physically ill, but i do also think that we all need to be more honest with ourselves and with each other when it comes to communicating about these things, especially if you've already established contact/some sort of communicative relationship with someone. especially wrt RP, it truly is a two-way street, it takes two to tango, otherwise it's just one person writing fic.

#❀ — 𝒶𝓃𝓈𝓌𝑒𝓇𝑒𝒹 . ( OOC . ) #deathwxtch

[pixelkip]

Ok serious post time. I don't like making posts like this but it's kind of a few months coming.

Hey guys so. I might start posting most of my hazy stuff exclusively to tumblr as much as I hate to say it. This isn't for sure that I'm never interacting there again but. Probably not touching it mostly

Just 1 or 2 people in the discord community I feel like. Mega fucking uncomfortable around for stuff that, while it's been mostly resolved I guess, still was super upsetting at the time and has caused me a lot of anxiety seeing them around again to the point of it being a serious detriment to my mental health.

Especially cause hazy river is still kind of a big hyperfixation to me and has honestly affected me so much. I'm deeply attached to it and that's not changing. That discord community too has been a huge part of my life for over a year now and I wish I didn't feel like I had to stop interacting with it for the sake of my own health, but it's becoming increasingly obvious that I do.

The thing is I don't WANT to care that someone who makes me uncomfortable is back in a space I'm in. I'd rather just accept it and ignore it and continue interacting there as normal. That's what I've been telling myself is the mature thing to do and its what ive been trying to do for a while. But my anxiety doesn't seem to agree on that front. Not just in a "ew I don't like them" way but in a causing me actual panic attacks way.

I'm very open to anyone asking what this is about and why i feel like this, I'd be glad to tell you IN TUMBLR/DISCORD DMS NOT PUBLICLY, but I wanna say a few things first

-youre free to do with this information what you wish, but I take no responsibility for anything YOU do with what I tell you.

- preferably don't start drama PLEASE. If you know who im talking about or if you even think you know, don't. Start. shit. Even if you ask me and I tell you. Don't. Start. Shit.

- UNLESS you have a good reason like theyre actively doing something shitty, don't put anyone this is about/might be about on blast publicly. I would prefer people truly learn from their mistakes. And if that somehow does happen, idfk take it up with that community's mods

- I'm not shaming anyone who is friends with or interacts with anyone I'm referring to. As long as you don't cross my boundaries, and you dont encourage/defend what they did if I tell you, and you dont try to let them contact me, or generally try to get them involved with me I don't care.

- don't contact anyone else that might be involved about it either. I might be ok telling people how I feel about this but others might not. I don't wanna be the reason anyone gets pestered over something shitty that happened to them.

- if you are reading this on my tumblr dot com, I assure you it's almost definitely not you I'm talking about whose the reason I'm making this decision.

Ok finally here's the part where I'm gonna be pretty blunt:

If you do contact me cause you wanna know why I feel this way, I apologize in advance if it makes you uncomfortable around someone you may have interacted with. Cause if you ask, I'm telling you. No sugar coating, no "but it's ok" for any reason. Me still not fully having healed over what happened doesnt mean i wish anyone involved any ill will. But I'm not gonna pretend I wanna be amicable or friendly with or even forgive who did this either. Wanting to move on =/= forgiving. If you insist on defending what they did while I'm actively telling you why it hurt me, that's just rude. And I will probably block you.

Block button is at the ready and I claim 0 responsibility for hurt feelings or possibly viewing ur mutual differently as a result.

TLDR: I'm probably fucking off from most of hazy discord bc I'm deeply uncomfy around someone who came back there some time ago, feel free to dm me and ask about it cause telling people why honestly makes me feel less alone about it, but please please don't start drama and don't think I'm responsible for anything that happens as a result of me telling you what someone did that caused me a lot of pain.

Sorry for the long serious post, I'm hoping to be able to do more fun stuff in the future.

In the wise words of the queen ass 2 over herself, thank you (for listening) and I love you.

#sorry for how long this got #i just prefer to cover all my bases #im not leaving the fandom as a ehole neccesarily #if you wanna talk about just fandom stuff or anything just. maybe dm me instead. #it was really really nagging at me to make a post like this for a long time #as much as i didnt wanna make some long serious post about something fandom-wise that was distressing me #but i felt like if i didnt it would bother me a ton

[wormonastringtheory]

A post for transparency

Someone rightfully called out the post that targeted transfemmes struggles unfairly in discussion about Nex Benedict not being talked about enough in relation to the transmisogyny on here. I'm going to analyze more when I read to the best of my abilities on that front. However, they lashed out in my DMs about how I/ppl hate women when saying they need space because I was "treating women as an afterthought" hi hello a) I'm part women and directly impacted by misogyny (and assumption that I'm not based off pronouns is borderline transphobic) and b) sometimes on this site people need to look into transformative justice and learning, and c) I'm going to be honest. I'm exhausted. I'm constantly dedicating almost all my energy to mutual aid and I love that role however. I am literally constantly trying to address systemic inequality in various ways especially surrounding the ongoing genocides, balancing multiple ppls needs for aid, balancing 2 relationships, intensive healing and therapy from severe trauma over the last 3 months, and battling TEN CHRONIC ILLNESSES. BECAUSE OF THAT I HAVE CHRONIC FATIGUE AND BRAIN FOG AND SOMETIMES DONT READ THINGS RIGHT OR FULLY. We need to stop assuming EVERYONE is at the same places in their journeys, that not all of us have IMPECCABLE reading comprehension for disability reasons (this is not saying disability is an excuse, someone can do wrong because of a disability and still be harmful. What I did was harmful, however, some patience is warranted if that person is trying to learn), that people DO genuinely fuck up, and that if you know someone is trying lashing out at them may not be the best approach. Also, I did call this person on centering whiteness. I originally reblogged the post because I was angry that Tumblr was barely talking about the death of an Indigenous trans and 2-Spirit child, and that structurally, yes, Tumblr was talking about the violence happening to trans women which was absolutely real and awful and should be talked about, but ALSO that we need to analyze why we may be centering white trans folks over Indigenous ones. I realize now that was a whayaboutism and we can care about both. However, when her whole DMs to me were about white trans women and had almost no discussion of Nex, I did call her on centering whiteness because it was absolutely relevant to the convo to talk about Nex, and her completely ignoring my mention of frustration of ignoring Indigenous 2-Spirit people dying in our conversation. We CAN talk about both. And the complete lack of though about race within this discussion and the whole reason I originally (with poor analysis) reblogged the post was that white ppl were ignoring Nex's death. Again, the post should not have been unneededly hostile to Trans Women and diminished what Matt did. It should have stated hey we need to talk about both of these things instead of treating it as a matter of importance, and I should have caught that and need to unpack that (I plan on doing readings on transmisogyny this week). I blocked her not because she was wrong on the transmisogyny on that post but instead because I literally have nothing left in the tank for debating and can learn independently which is much more productive than debate. I plan to unblock potentially. She stated she wanted space so I am quickly discussed why she may want to analyze an assumption of abledness and also I mentioned her centering of whiteness and then blocked

[gongedtornado]

intro post time babyyy:

will update this overtime

last updated: April 10, 2024

kazzys-conundrum -> gongedtornado

please be sure to at least read the tags, DNI, and “Ask to Follow” sections! thank you!

general info

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OTHER SHIT THAT KINDA MAKES ME UNCOMFY(??) (TW FOR THE LAST ONE)

• being referred to as ‘child’ unironically. if its for a joke, then go for it! but if you like. genuinely refer to me as ‘child.’ please Do Not. especially if you’re younger than me. not only does it make me irked as all hell, but it makes me feel incredibly frustrated. essentially just don’t infantilize me i’m an adult and would prefer to be taken seriously from time to time.*

this also goes with being treated as a child. while i’m aware i may act childish from time to time, do not fucking babify me. do not woobify me. do not treat me like i am a little kid. i will fucking bite you. i am an adult, treat me as such.*

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• being referred to as ‘smol bean’, ‘small bean’, ‘a cinnamon roll’. i will literally turn you into a smoothie so help me god.

• coming into my dms to ask for requests. unless i know you or we’re close, please do not come into my dms to ask me to draw your requests. i’m just going to ignore you.

• (TRIGGER WARNING)* actually this is a really heavy one but if you joke about s/a i am straight up hard blocking you. that shit is not funny. it will never be funny. you’re weird. get out GET OOOUTT. FUCK YOU. /srs

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- basic DNI criteria

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- She Who Will Not Be Named (you know who you are.)

*if you’re asking yourself “is it me?” i can garuntee it’s likely not you. this is very targeted at Someone.

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#kazzy caws #introductory post #introduction

[every-single-one-of-the-things]

ahhhhhh you guys are incredible and i love you all so much we just hit 2,910 followers im like losing my shit thank you all so much!!!!!!! i really never thought id get anywhere near here when i started posting these palettes and im so thankful for each and everyone of you bc like asdfghjklkdsasdfjklkjhgfd yknow im so giddy ahhh but so bc were nearing 3000 (asdfghjkl how) i want to know if there was anything you guys want to see as like a celebration bc i wanna do something but i dont know what yall would be interested in seeing or knowing or doing or whatever, so like let me know!!!

#not a palette #asdfghjkl still im really like losing it about this #bc i made this blog 3 years ago when i was like s u p e r depressed #and i was just in a real bad spot and this blog really helped me like #feel productive #even when it was like just 10 people following me #yeah i really appreciate you guys #especially anyone with the ace flag in their icon we all really just flock to colors dont we #aces are moths but for colors confirmed #i am of course the authority on this as an ace who likes colors so #thats not the point the point is send me asks or dm me with what you wanna see for a celebration #im down to do pretty much whatever? #probably exceptions to that but i cant think of anything to specific yet #yeah so just like let me know what youre interested in seeing #or not seeing if you dont wanna do anything thats totally valid too #also there are asks in my inbox i see yall im sorry for ignoring you #i just have a lot of palettes queued ill answer them soon

[xylo-copa]

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#hey guys #this isnt really a rant/vent but i gotta say some stuff #i havent reallly been in the mood for interacting with others lately especially through dms #and of course if im needed i will talk to yall #i just am really socially exhausted lately #and for fear of coming off rude if i do talk to ppl im going to not message people as much #if youve got something to say im open to any messages anytime and i live getting asks n stuff #i just can't do real conversations right now #so if youre looking for someone to chat to or talk about yoyr interests i may not be the best candidate #of course ill still try to reply #i wont outright ignore important messages #but i am worried i may seem uninterested or rude #i know there are some people that come to me because im one of the only people that listen and i respect that #so if you need to yell at me about your worries i will be here #just dont expect me to have any really helpful reply i guess #i dont mean any of this to be rude its just a lil heads up that im aware of my own emotional state but i may not be always in control if it #okay thats it so just keep it in mind #all the platonic love to yall

[grapesodatozier]

so close to the real thing (closer than you think)

rating: explicit

word count: 6.8k

summary: Eddie's been pining over Richie for as long as he can remember. He loves everything about Richie; especially how much Richie loves touching him. It's a little inconvenient, though. Eddie copes with his pent up sexual tension by constantly checking a porn blog he's obsessed with on tumblr. This guy has the same type of body as Richie, he talks like Richie, his name is even Richie! It makes it all too easy for Eddie to pretend it really is Richie while getting himself off to all of the blog's content.

You'll never guess what he finds out when he starts sexting this stranger named Richie from his anonymous porn blog.

tags: friends to lovers, porn with feelings, love confessions, dom/sub dynamics, bi dom top richie, gay sub bottom eddie, the most oblivious pining idiots in the world lol we love them

notes: this is one of my more ridiculous ideas but I had so much fun with it lol. also as a note you probably should not approach people on the internet the way they do in this fic, but they're just v enthusiastic and everything here is v consensual!! still tho definitely don't take this indulgent fic as a guide on how to approach real people online lmao. okay have fun!!

read on ao3 or below!!

notsfw under the cut

Eddie Kaspbrak’s friends were his entire world; time spent with them meant everything to him. But he also really valued his alone time. He’d always been the sort who needed time to just sit on a grassy hill and watch the trains go by, to catch up on comics in his room, to get lost in Netflix shows or even just his thoughts as he moseyed around his apartment—one he live in by himself, for when these moods hit. He needed time to himself to unwind. And sometimes he unwound by scrolling through some porn blogs on tumblr with his hand in his pants.

There was one blog that he was particularly fond of. There were other blogs more catered to his personal interests, namely blogs that didn’t feature women like this one did. But there was a good balance of genders represented, so Eddie figured he could just scroll past those posts. This guy was worth it. His pictures were ridiculously hot, and his dirty talk was even hotter.

Also, his name was Richie. Which Eddie refused to acknowledge as part of the draw.

It was harder to ignore tonight. He’d been out with the losers, and Richie had just been so touchy. And there was something about the way he'd been talking; his voice was lower than normal, slower in a way that made Eddie’s stomach flip. And his touches had lingered, his hand squeezing Eddie’s hip slow, then lazily brushing against his ass as he dropped it. Eddie could hardly take it. He brushed it off as Richie just being tired from work, but god, Eddie wanted it to mean more. The hardest part was hiding how much he wanted Richie to keep doing it.

There were so many things Eddie wanted Richie to do to him. He wanted Richie to touch him harder, to grab him by his hips with both hands. Richie’s hands were so big; Eddie just knew Richie could manhandle him so easily, so roughly. He wanted to know what it would feel like to have Richie’s hands all over him, grabbing at his ass and his thighs, holding his wrists down, making him feel so small. While Eddie would never admit it, huffing at every short joke Richie made, but he loved being shorter than Richie. He loved how safe he felt when Richie held him. And he was dying to know how small he would feel with Richie looming above him, or sitting in Richie’s lap, bouncing on his cock. He wanted to hear Richie talking to him in that low, slow voice, with that condescension Eddie did his best to pretend not to be affected by. He wanted Richie to whisper in his ear and call him all those pretty names he always dropped so casually, all those sweet ones and also ones that were a lot meaner. He wanted Richie to want him.

But it was easier to think about it than to ask for it. He knew Richie had way more experience than him. Well, okay, maybe not way more necessarily, but they were starting their third year of college, and he hadn’t wasted any time. Eddie, on the other hand, hadn’t done anything more than hand stuff with someone else. The guys he’d hooked up with were nice enough, and hot enough, but they just… weren’t Richie.

He supposed this guy on tumblr wasn’t Richie either, but at least he was everything else Eddie wanted. None of his hookups had been so, well, dominant, and that was this guy’s whole thing. He was dominant and a top and into guys that looked like Eddie. He even kind of talked like Richie, and he was apparently pining over his best friend, just like Eddie was. It had him completely smitten. Plus, internet-Richie’s crush had brown eyes like Eddie, and he ran track, just like Eddie did. Internet-Richie had posted once about his dick getting hard watching his friend at his track meet, and Eddie had come so hard that night, his track shorts around his ankles, imagining his Richie thinking those things about him.

Eddie was in bed now, in nothing but his boxers and one of Richie’s old shirts that had been Eddie’s for a while now. Still reeling from the way Richie had been acting that night, he logged into his porn account on his phone and scrolled through his dash for a grand total of thirty seconds before going immediately to internet-Richie’s blog. A thrill went through Eddie’s body when he saw that he had just posted. He’d written, “god my friends gonna fuckn kill me with that ass, i wanna plow him so bad” then reblogged it and added, “reminder that my asks and dms are always open if any pretty needy little subs need help getting off. please come be sluts in my messages.” Eddie’s breath caught in his throat when he saw that there was a picture, too, one of him gripping his hard cock, his boxers pulled down just enough for Eddie to see the dark hair around the base of his cock. Eddie moaned at the sight. His cock was so nice, so long and thick and pink. And fuck, his fingers. They were so long and slim, almost as nice as his-Richie’s.

Eddie scrolled a little farther down, his heart racing. There were a lot of reblogs, but some original posts here and there, things like, “what i wouldn’t do to have a pretty guy drooling all over my cock rn,” and, “in the mood to get someone dick drunk. wanna fuck a someone so hard they forget their own name.” One that made Eddie nearly choke said, “want someone i can pump my come into whenever i want, over and over again. want a sub i can keep full of my come all the fuckn time.” That post had Eddie getting out his lube.

It also had him thinking about internet-Richie’s most recent post, his post about his DMs being open.

Eddie bit his lip and thought about it. He’d sent internet-Richie some asks before from his porn blog (his blog didn’t have his name on it, just the teddy bear emoji, since he privately thought the teddy/Eddie rhyme was fun and clever, and also it was cute), and he’d seemed plenty happy enough to respond then. Still, it felt like a much bigger step to DM him, to talk to him just one on one. But the more he read his posts, the more he thought about his-Richie and how he’d touched Eddie that night, the easier it was to convince himself to shoot his shot with this stranger.

Eddie just messaged him a simple, “hi,” with a heart emoji. It was innocent enough, but his heart was still racing.

Internet-Richie responded a lot faster than Eddie was expecting. Honestly he hadn’t been expecting a response at all. But he said:

hiya cutie (; ive been hoping youd message me

Eddie flushed. He couldn’t help but hear cutie in his-Richie’s voice—especially given how often Richie used the nickname. really? he typed back.

fuck yes, ur cute little messages make me so hard. i can tell ur a pretty little thing just from the way you type

Eddie was blushing deep. Pretty little thing. That was hotter than it should’ve been. He wanted his Richie to talk to him like that, in that deep, sleepy voice.

there’s no way you can tell that from some messages :P, Eddie sent.

His heart stopped at the next messages internet-Richie sent.

oh, u dont think so?

why dont u send me some pics to prove me wrong (;

Oh my god, Eddie thought, his breath coming short. His head swam at the thought of sending this guy nudes, of showing himself off to someone who clearly wanted to see him, who would know how to take care of him and fuck him the way he liked, a guy with his crush’s fucking name and body type and hands. It had Eddie’s cock hard and leaking, and he slowly slid a finger inside of himself.

But just because the thought turned him on didn’t mean he was gonna send this stranger what he wanted so easily, even if he desperately wanted to.

you’d like that, wouldn’t you?

He fingered himself open as he waited for a response, working his way up to two fingers. It was nearly impossible to ignore his cock, but he didn’t want to come before the conversation even had a chance to start.

fuck ya i would, internet-Richie responded. Then, in a second message, whats wrong baby? you shy? ill show u mine ;)

Eddie's breath caught. God, this guy even made stupid shit sound hot, just like Eddie’s Richie. This was unreal.

i’ve seen yours, Eddie pointed out.

ya and you musta liked it if ur messaging me rn

Eddie bit his lip. ...maybe

aw thats cute sweetheart. u know i can see all the needy little tags you add when u reblog my stuff right?

Eddie blushed. He’d kind of always hoped he’d read them, but he never thought he actually did. i didn’t know you read those

oh ya, read them, jerk off to them. bit of a size queen, aren’t you? ;) it’s cute. makes me so fuckn hard when u talk abt how u want me to fill you up

Eddie whimpered out loud, sliding a third finger into himself. Fuck, he wanted that cock inside of him so bad. But right now one of his toys would have to do, once he was stretched out enough. He sped up his fingers, getting impatient. Gathering up all of his horny courage, he sent, show me.

what, no please? only good boys who use their manners get dick pics babydoll

Eddie pouted and whined to himself, making quick work of sliding his hot pink vibrator inside of himself—well, as quickly as he could without hurting himself. He moaned as it filled him up, making pleasure spread deep through his body. Slowly pumping it in and out, he reached for his phone. please, he typed, please let me see? wanna know what to picture while i fuck myself with my vibrator. He even added the wide eyed pouting emoji to really milk the whole begging thing. He knew he’d been playing a little coy, but now with the way internet-Richie was talking to him he was getting desperate.

well fuck baby since ur begging ;)

Eddie held his breath as he waited for the picture, slowly rocking his toy in and out, savoring the feeling. He wished it was Richie doing it, wished it was his cock. The lines between which Richie blurred; he wanted to get fucked by either of them, both of them.

What Eddie received when his phone lit up was not a picture, but a video. It was short, just a few seconds of Richie’s hand dragging wetly, smoothly over his cock, but it had Eddie drooling. The room was dark, so he’d used a flash, and it made the mix of what Eddie assumed was precome and spit glisten as the swollen head of Richie’s cock disappeared and reappeared from behind his fingers. Eddie must’ve played it at least five times, fucking himself a little faster, before remembering to say something back. And to take a video of his own. fuck, I want you so bad, want you to fucking ruin me, he wrote back. A part of him couldn’t believe how openly desperate he was being, but he found that he liked it; he liked the way it made him blush, he liked the way it felt to beg, to ask for what he wanted.

Richie’s response came fast: show me kitten. show me how you want me to fuck your pretty little ass.

Eddie moaned at the pet name; casual little nicknames were such a weakness for him. He was already so far gone, just picturing Richie’s cock inside of him, picturing him stroking his cock to thoughts of Eddie. The attention had his cock hard and leaking as he thrust his vibrator even deeper inside of himself, pumping it in and out a few more times before rolling over and getting on his hands and knees. It was hard to take a video from this angle, but he wanted to show off his ass and hide his face. Plus, there was something so hot about having his ass in the air and his face shoved in his pillow, looking like the perfect image of someone desperate to be fucked. He loved the way it made him feel, loved the thought of being so open for someone. For Richie.

He ended up shooting a short video as well, about ten seconds of him sliding his vibrator slowly in and out of himself, letting out soft little moans. He was pretty pleased with the way it turned out, his hole pink and smooth and wet as it stretched around his toy. The angle was a little weird, showing a lot of his room once or twice when his hand slipped a little, but overall he thought his ass looked amazing, if he did say so himself. He sent it and said, feels so good. do you want me to go faster?

As he sent it, he got settled on his back, forcing himself to go slow as he fucked himself while he waited for internet-Richie’s response. It was taking longer than before, and Eddie was getting antsy; it was so hard to drag it out, to not get ahead of himself. But whatever Richie was doing, Eddie knew it would be worth the wait. Still, he pouted as his cock ached, begging for attention.

He almost jumped out of his skin when he heard a knock at the door.

He groaned to himself and stayed put, fucking himself even slower as he waited for whoever it was to leave. But then the knocking continued, loud and incessant and obnoxious, and Eddie knew exactly who it was. He also knew he wasn’t going to go away any time soon, which honestly made him smile and blush. Richie had terrible timing, but Eddie would never be upset to see him.

Reluctantly, he slowly slid the toy out and pulled on his shorts, leaving his shirt off. He still had a pretty obvious boner, but his horny brain did not mind the idea of Richie seeing it. So he strode lazily down the hall, shouting a performatively annoyed, “I’m coming!” Finally, he opened the door, cocking his hip to the side and giving Richie an expectant look. “Can I help you?” he asked, a small smile dancing around the corner of his lips. He had to fight off a smirk at the wide eyed look Richie gave him as he ran his eyes over Eddie’s body.

“Fuck,” he muttered lowly, his eyes trained on Eddie’s cock, which was getting even harder the more Richie stared. Eddie bit his lip and grinned a little, making doe eyes at Richie. But Richie didn’t meet his gaze—instead he brushed past Eddie, his mouth still hanging open as he made his way urgently toward Eddie’s bedroom.

“Richie?” Eddie asked, a little let down that Richie’s hands weren’t all over him right now. But hey, if he was heading to Eddie’s bedroom he figured that was at least the right direction. He closed his front door and followed Richie into his room, where he found him staring at the bright pink vibrator on the bed. As confident and horny as Eddie was feeling, that still made him blush. He was only human. Crossing his arms, he said, bashful now, “I was kind of in the middle of something.”

Richie looked over at him, his cheeks bright red under his freckles. Then he got a glimmer of that trademark shit-eating grin on his face. “Eds, you fucking slut,” he said, sounding both delighted and breathless. “You are so fucking hot.”

Eddie flushed and tried not to squirm, but he couldn’t help but press his legs together, his eyes brightening. Fuck, was this actually happening? Shit, he needed to think of something witty to say. “You gonna do anything about it?” Okay, that kinda sounded like a corny porn, but he had to give himself credit for even being able to form words just after his lifelong crush and personal wet dream had just admitted his attraction to him.

“I think I already have been,” Richie said, still grinning.

Eddie cocked an eyebrow at him. He couldn’t help but smile back. “Oh yeah? How do you figure that?”

Eddie was expecting a confession. He was expecting something along the lines of you think I don’t notice how you look at me? or did you really think those were casual touches earlier? What he was not expecting was for Richie to unlock his phone and hold it up, showing Eddie the video he had just taken, the video he’d sent to internet-Richie.

Oh. Oh. Oh fuck.

“Oh my god, that’s you?” Eddie cried in disbelief.

“You’re telling me you didn’t recognize this dick?” Richie asked, swaggering over to Eddie, clearly enjoying himself.

“How did you recognize it was me?”

Richie nodded toward the Thundercats poster on Eddie’s wall, then to the model train that sat on his dresser. “What other guy has decor like that and the ass to match?”

Eddie grinned and shook his head. “That doesn’t even make sense.”

“Well pardon me for not being especially eloquent when I’ve just learned that the guy I’ve been masturbating to since I learned how to and been in love with for even longer has been masturbating to me too.”

Eddie’s eyes went wide, all thoughts of getting fucked leaving for a moment. “You’re in love with me?” he asked, his voice as soft as his smile.

Richie was not a bashful person, but the little laugh he let out just then was close to it. “Have been my whole life, but thanks for finally noticing.”

Eddie shook his head and stepped closer, until he had to crane his head up to meet Richie’s gaze. “I love you too.”

Richie’s eyes widened behind his thick frames. Eddie had only seen that look in Richie’s eyes a few times before, but he never wanted to lose sight of it again. He always wanted Richie to look at him like that. But then Richie was closing his eyes and leaning down. It only took Eddie a second to get with the program, drinking in the moment just a little longer before letting his own eyes fall shut as he pressed his lips against Richie’s.

It started gentle enough, if deep and passionate and intentional. But then Richie’s hands were on Eddie’s bare waist, skin against skin, and Eddie was gasping into Richie’s mouth, his hands coming up and resting against Richie’s chest. He curled his fingers into Richie’s shirt as Richie ran his tongue over Eddie’s lips, just before pulling away. He laughed at Eddie’s indignant little whine.

“Oh, you mean you don’t want me to take off my shirt right now?” he smirked as Eddie tried to pull him closer by the offending fabric. Huffing, Eddie conceded and let go long enough to let Richie pull the shirt off over his head.

“Oh,” he said softly, his voice a little, awed moan as he drank in Richie’s chest. It wasn’t like Richie had never been shirtless in front of Eddie before, but Eddie had never felt like he was allowed to really look at Richie all those times. But now he could; now he could touch. And he did, running his fingers over Richie’s smooth, warm skin, over his acne scars and blackheads and freckles. “Fuck, Richie,” he sighed before pressing his lips to Richie’s collarbones, trailing them all over Richie’s beautiful chest.

Richie gave a breathless, almost shy laugh as he stroked Eddie’s hair. “Damn, Eds, never pegged you as a tits guy.”

“Oh, fuck off,” Eddie giggled, bringing his lips back to Richie’s. They both smiled into it, getting lost for a moment as Richie’s hands slid slowly down Eddie’s sides. His hands lingered on Eddie’s hips for a moment before he slid them further down and grabbed at Eddie’s ass, making him gasp.

“Is that any way to talk to the guy who’s about to rail you ‘til you can’t walk?”

“What’re you gonna do about it?” Eddie asked with a mischievous glint in his eyes. “Spank me?”

“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” Richie smirked. He gave Eddie’s ass a playful smack, making Eddie gasp again and fall into him, needing more. Richie’s voice was dripping with adoration as he purred, “Little brat,” and pulled Eddie against him, kissing him again. Eddie went with it easily and happily parted his lips to let Richie lick into his mouth. Richie had one hand gripping Eddie’s jaw and the other on his ass, touching him in a way that exuded a command Eddie was desperate to follow. God, Eddie knew Richie had big hands, but they felt huge on him like this. It was dizzyingly hot. And the way Richie’s tongue was teasing his had Eddie’s knees going weak. His dick was throbbing in his shorts, aching to finish what he’d started, what had been interrupted. When he thought about it all—about playing with himself for Richie, about the video Richie had sent him, about all those things Richie had said about filling Eddie up—he felt himself clench down on nothing, desperate to get fucked. Desperate to feel Richie’s cock so deep inside of him.

“Richie,” he whined into the kiss, pulling on Richie’s belt loops, “please.” He pressed himself urgently against Richie and rutted shamelessly against his thigh.

“Fuck, you’re a needy little thing, aren’t you?” His voice was cocky and teasing, but there was an apparent undercurrent of wonder there as well.

Eddie shoved his face into Richie’s neck and whined, grabbing onto Richie’s wrists without even knowing what his goal was. “Richie,” he whimpered, sounding pitiful and ruined already.

“What do you want, baby?” Richie’s voice made it clear that he was enjoying seeing Eddie this wrecked, and that just made Eddie even harder. “Come on, tell me, use your words.”

Eddie squirmed as Richie held him close, but still not touching him in any relieving way. “I need you inside,” Eddie said, his voice high and soft as he squirmed in Richie’s grip. “God, please, Richie, need you to fuck me. Fuck me so hard I can’t even think. Fuck me like I’m your little toy.”

Eddie could hardly believe the words coming out of his mouth, and judging by the gasp he heard Richie let out, he’d caught Richie off guard too. But if the hard bulge in his jeans that brushed up against Eddie was any indication, he was apparently just as turned on as Eddie was. Besides, Eddie knew from his blog that Richie was really into that sort of thing too—and, apparently, really into the idea of doing those things with Eddie. The realization that Richie had been saying all those filthy things about him had him grinding against him with even more fervor, kissing his neck with a heated confidence. Richie moaned, and Eddie could feel the warmth of it spreading through him. “Yeah, sweetheart? You want to feel me inside you? You think you’re ready for me?”

“Yes,” Eddie sighed, looking up at Richie with wide, desperate eyes. He shivered at the new look in Richie’s eyes, the blue nearly entirely eclipsed by how wide his pupils were. He looked hungry for Eddie; Eddie wanted to feel it. “‘M ready, Richie, please, so open for you.” He looked to the toy on his bed pointedly, but Richie only gave a deep laugh.

“Oh honey, that’s cute that you think that little thing is gonna have you ready for my cock.” Eddie’s breath caught; that toy wasn’t small. Before he could gather his scattered brain enough to react, Richie was scooping him up and tossing him on the bed, the toy falling forgotten to the floor. Richie moved Eddie onto his back, and Eddie went happily, pliantly. Richie’s fingers were cool against Eddie’s burning skin as he hooked his fingers into the waistband of Eddie’s shorts, slowly dragging them over his hips and down his legs, tossing them to the floor. Eddie’s cock was dripping with precome, his chest flushed a bright red as he squirmed under Richie’s gaze. Eddie been dreaming of Richie manhandling him like this for he didn’t even know how long; he couldn’t help the way he reacted. And he especially couldn’t help the pleased little sound he made when Richie murmured, “God, you’re gorgeous, Eds.” Then Richie was grabbing him by the ankles, gently but firmly spreading Eddie’s legs, and Eddie let out the most pathetic, genuine moan he’d ever heard. “Fuck, baby, you sound pretty. You like when I spread you open?” Richie asked. He was smirking down at Eddie, but Eddie could see how flushed he was, could see the thrilled awe in his dark, hungry eyes as Eddie nodded.

“Richie, please,” Eddie whimpered. “I need you so bad.” He sat up, reaching for Richie’s belt, but Richie easily pressed him back against the mattress with a large hand on the center of his chest. The confidence in Richie’s dominance took Eddie’s breath away, and he stayed right where he was, nice and obedient, as he watched Richie get off the bed and slowly undo his belt, then his button and zipper. He took his time dragging his jeans and boxers off, enough time to let Eddie’s eyes linger on the reveal of the dark hair under Richie’s waistband. Then Richie’s cock was bouncing up against his stomach, hard and flushed and fucking long. Eddie moaned at the sight and fisted the sheets underneath him. He wanted so badly to get his mouth on Richie, to breathe him in and be nice and good for Richie on his knees. But he was also desperate to get fucked; his hole clenched down on nothing at the thought, and then it was all he could think about again. “Richie,” he repeated, whining now as he reached for him. “Stop being such a tease.”

Richie laughed as he moved easily out of Eddie’s grip and climbed on top of him. Eddie gasped softly at the sight of Richie above him, his dark curls surrounding his face, his full, pink lips pulled into the most beautiful smile Eddie had ever seen in his life. He ran his hands over Richie’s chest and sides, marveling at the fact that this was really happening. Then, his eyes flickering down, he tentatively brought his hand to Richie’s cock.

“Oh, fuck,” they said, both at the same time, making them giggle together.

“Fuck, Eds, your pretty little hand looks so cute wrapped around my cock,” Richie teased in a low, rough voice. Eddie shivered; he couldn’t tell if Richie was praising him or degrading him, but either way it made his head fuzzy.

“‘M not that little,” Eddie grumbled out of habit. But he was clearly breathless. He’d never been good at pretending not to like Richie’s compliments, however teasing.

“Aw, but you are, baby,” Richie cooed, nuzzling his nose against Eddie’s and pressing a lingering kiss to his lips. “You’re so cute and tiny for me. I don’t even know if we’ll be able to fit my cock inside you.”

“I can,” Eddie whined, both indignant and impatient. He bucked his hips up, but Richie held him down. He gasped when he felt the warm, soft skin of Richie’s cock press against his stomach. Looking down, he saw that Richie had his cock lying on Eddie’s stomach, showing just how deep he would be once he was inside Eddie.

“You sure about that, babydoll?” While the teasing note was still there, Richie’s voice got noticeably softer as he said, “I don’t wanna hurt you.”

Eddie’s chest swelled at that. Cupping Richie’s face in his hands, he insisted, “I can take it.” Then he reached down and took Richie in his hand, glowing with pride when Richie let out a low moan. “Richie, please, I want you so bad.”

“Okay, baby,” Richie agreed, turning his head to kiss Eddie’s palm. “Fuck, I want you, too.” But he stalled. “Have you ever… like, been fucked before?”

Eddie flushed. “Well, not by someone else, but I have some toys. I’m not gonna break, Richie.” He huffed, but the way Richie was looking at him soothed any ruffled feathers.

“I’m your first?” His smile was soft, and while his eyes glittered, there was nothing teasing about his tone.

“I didn’t wanna do it with anyone else,” Eddie mumbled. He tried to look away, but Richie pulled him into a kiss.

“Fuck, I never thought you’d want me,” he chuckled. “Sorry, that was depressing, I just mean I can’t believe we didn’t do this sooner, you know?”

Eddie beamed, a small, giddy giggle dancing on his lips. “Well it’ll happen sooner if you stop talking so much.” But his smile, and all of the little kisses he planted on Richie’s freckled shoulders told Richie that Eddie never wanted him to stop talking.

“Alright, alright, sheesh, I know I’m hot but you don’t gotta rush me.” Eddie was still giggling when Richie kissed him, and he could feel that Richie was smiling too. “Where’s your lube?”

Eddie stretched his hand out and patted the bed for a moment, searching. After what was probably only four seconds but felt like an eternity, he finally found the bottle and handed it eagerly to Richie. “Oh, right,” Richie smirked, “you’re already wet for me, aren’t you?” Eddie moaned as Richie swiped his fingers over Eddie’s slick hole, pressing in just a bit. His fingers went in easily, and he pumped them slowly, drawing little, breathy moans out of Eddie. Richie’s fingers were a lot longer and thicker than his own, and they felt amazing, but they weren’t what he wanted in that moment.

“Richie, fuck me,” he whined.

“Aw, no please? Again?” Richie tsked and shook his head, curling his fingers against Eddie’s prostate, making him cry out. “I told you, sweetheart, only good boys who use their manners get fucked.”

“Please,” Eddie cried. He rocked his hips and grabbed at Richie’s shoulders, at his arms, not even sure what his goal was there other than to get Richie closer, to get his attention, to show him how desperate he was. “Please fuck me, please.” He sounded pathetic begging like this, but that just made him harder. And it made Richie’s pupils even wider as he slid his fingers out of Eddie and pressed a kiss to his lips.

“Good boy,” he purred. Eddie moaned and arched into Richie’s touch, but he only gave Eddie one more kiss on his cheek before pulling back and covering his cock in lube. Eddie watched, entranced, as Richie’s hand moved smoothly over his cock, glistening and slick. Then Richie was gently spreading Eddie’s legs even further and pressing the head of his cock against Eddie’s hole.

“Yes,” Eddie whimpered brokenly, grasping at the sheets beneath him. “Richie, please.” Meeting his gaze, he said softly, “I need you.”

“I’ve got you,” Richie assured him in a voice that made Eddie feel like he was glowing. Richie took Eddie’s hand in his and entwined their fingers, using his other hand to guide his cock inside of Eddie, who gasped at the feeling. God, he couldn’t believe this was happening. He couldn’t believe his first time was going to be with his favorite person. He couldn’t believe he was finally getting exactly what he wanted. Love flooded through him, warm and perfect, somehow both soothing and electrifying as he watched Richie’s face. Eddie’s mouth dropped as Richie pressed into him, deeper and deeper and still fucking deeper, until finally Richie let out a low moan and Eddie felt absolutely breathless. The stretch was intense, and he held onto Richie tightly as he caught his breath. “Are you alright?” Richie asked. His voice was strained, but the care and concern in it was clear. “You don’t have to take all of it if it’s too much.”

Eddie wanted to laugh at the remark or roll his eyes, but with how breathless and dizzied by pleasure he already was, he had to admit Richie had a point. “Just need a minute,” he gasped. Richie ran a soothing hand over Eddie’s skin, helping him even out his breathing and relax. The feeling of Richie’s cock twitching in anticipation inside of him had him letting out little moans as he adjusted, getting more and more used to the feeling until he felt comfortable enough to tell Richie he could move. Richie kissed him before he did, his lips soft against Eddie’s, a reassuring weight. Eddie breathed in sharply as Richie pulled back, grabbing at Richie’s shoulders.

Richie immediately stopped. “You okay, baby?” he asked, caressing Eddie’s face.

Eddie wanted to melt. Richie was always touching him, always jokingly flirting with him, but this unabashed concern and, well, love had previously been reserved for dire situations, like panic attacks or injuries. Eddie couldn’t help the dopey smile that bloomed on his face as he tilted his chin up and kissed Richie. “I’m okay,” he said breathlessly. “It’s just a little different from my vibrator.” They both gave a shaky laugh as Richie nuzzled his nose against Eddie’s.

“Better, I hope?” he grinned.

“Can’t tell yet,” Eddie retorted. Another snarky comment was on the tip of his tongue when Richie pulled his hips further back, effectively sucking all the air—and attitude—from Eddie’s chest. And then Richie was pushing back in, and Eddie let out a moan he couldn’t have faked if he tried, relaxing back into the mattress as his eyes fell shut. It was the best thing he’d ever felt, pleasure and relief flooding through his body. They’d been building up this tension for years; Eddie had figured it would feel good to break it, but it really felt magical, like something had just clicked into place. Feeling Richie inside of him, rocking his hips carefully, feeling Richie twitch as he tried not to lose control had Eddie’s head reeling. Eddie’s eyes fluttered open, focusing on Richie above him, on how flushed his face was. When Richie met his eye, pressing in deep, Eddie let out a small, “Fuck.”

“Yeah? Does that feel good, sweetheart?”

Richie was smirking as he said it, but there was something else sparkling in his eyes. Something giddy and awed. Something that made Eddie sigh dreamily, “I love you.”

Richie’s eyes widened for a moment before he pressed his lips firmly against Eddie’s, his hands roaming over Eddie’s body like he couldn’t choose where to put them, where to touch him. “I love you so much,” he beamed, pressing a few more kisses to Eddie’s cheeks. Eddie giggled at the feeling, but then Richie’s hips moved just a little faster, pressing him in just a little deeper, and he was back to melting under Richie’s touch, clinging to him as he rocked his hips with Richie’s. “Fuck, you’re so amazing, baby, so fucking beautiful. You look so good like this, holy shit.”

Eddie smiled almost drunkenly at Richie’s ability to ramble even when blowing Eddie’s mind. “Feels so good,” he moaned, his voice breathy and just a little bit higher than normal. He wrapped his legs around Richie’s waist. “Please, Richie, please.”

“Fuck, baby, wanna make you feel like this all the fucking time,” Richie groaned as he picked up the pace. Eddie whined in pleasure at the change, and that just spurred Richie to go faster, harder, until he was well and truly fucking Eddie, both of them moaning with every thrust.

“Oh my god,” Eddie cried, “ohmygodohmygodhmygod, oh fuck, Richie, please.” It felt so amazing, Richie fucking into him like this, but he needed that little bit more. His cock was throbbing desperately, achingly hard; he needed to feel Richie’s hand on him. “Richie, please,” he whimpered, “please, please touch me. I need you, I need you so bad, please, Richie.” Eddie was pouting now, grabbing aimlessly at Richie, his legs still wrapped tight around him.

“Fuck, you’re so hard for me,” Richie marveled, his voice sweet and condescending as he wrapped his hand around Eddie’s cock. Eddie nearly screamed at the contact, his back arching off the bed. Richie laughed a little, which just made Eddie even harder. The way Richie spread his precome over his cock, twisting his wrist just so as he stroked him had that familiar tension coiling in his lower stomach. “Aw, does that feel good? You gonna come on my cock, kitten?”

“Fuck, yes!” Eddie screamed. He gripped at the sheets as Richie stroked him, his voice washing over Eddie, mixing with the pleasure of Richie’s touch, of his thrusts. “Yes, yes, yes, please let me come, please, please, please.”

“That’s a good boy,” Richie purred, and Eddie could feel himself tipping over the edge at the words, at how low and affected Richie’s voice was. He groaned out, “Come on my cock like a good boy, princess,” and pure pleasure crashed over Eddie like a wave. He arched his back and cried out as he came, his moans filling the room as he squirmed under Richie, grabbed at him, at the sheets. It was fucking ethereal. He felt somehow so in tune with his body and yet so detached, like he was floating. He was barely cognizant of what Richie was saying, but when he put the sounds together and realized Richie had just said, panting, “Fuck, baby, gonna come,” Eddie felt like a live wire again.

“In me,” he said urgently. His mind was still a little too scattered for full sentences, but he knew what he wanted. God, he felt like he needed it. Like he needed to feel that connected to Richie. “Richie, come inside me, please.”

Richie apparently didn’t need to be told twice; he let out a moaned, “Oh, fuck,” before burying his face in Eddie’s neck, his breathy moans like music in Eddie’s ear. And then, as Eddie was coming down from his own high, he felt the holiest thing in the world: Richie’s cock, twitching inside of him, then his warm come filling Eddie up. It was unreal, being this close to him. Richie clutching at him as he came. It was even better than the little fantasies Eddie occasionally allowed himself. Richie was here, in his arms, pressing kisses to his neck as he caught his breath. Eddie was stroking his hair and rubbing his back as Richie nuzzled into him. Richie’s skin pressed against his skin, his legs wrapped around Richie’s waist, then falling to his sides, but still pressed to him. Still keeping him close. There wasn’t a single thought in his head that wasn’t about Richie.

Richie pulled him from his dreamy haze with light kisses pressed up his jaw, then over his cheeks. Eddie giggled at the onslaught of affection, still reeling from how fucking hot and euphoric what they had just done together had been. But he happily accepted Richie’s kisses, his heart bursting, then racing as Richie pulled back to look in his eyes. “Holy, fuck,” Richie beamed, his face flushed and blue eyes hooded from the weight of his orgasm, even as they sparkled.

“I know,” Eddie said, returning Richie’s grin as he basked in the surreality of having Richie on top of him, his dorky yet charming smile framed by lips that were red and swollen because of Eddie. His glasses were knocked askew, and Eddie instinctively reached up to fix them. With a sense of wonder, he realized that his touch was allowed to linger this time. He ran his fingers down Richie’s cheekbones, over his jaw, cupped his cheeks. “I love you,” he said. The words spilled out over his lips like he couldn’t stand not to say them. And while it made his heart race a little to say it out loud now that the adrenaline and tension was all worked through, it felt even better this time when Richie’s face softened and he nuzzled his nose against Eddie’s.

“I love you so fucking much.” Richie’s voice rarely got that soft, that sincere; it felt like a blanket wrapping around Eddie. It felt safe, secure. It felt like a promise. And if there was anyone in the world Eddie knew he could trust, it was Richie. That feeling of everything coming together came back to Eddie as he lay there under Richie, their lips moving together, feeling light as a feather now that everything was finally out in the open.

#reddie #notsfw #reddie smut #reddie fic

[honeycombcorin]

Hi! I’m Corin!

So I’m like AFAB Non-binary.

Pronouns are He/They/She/it .

#t are for my posts

Into

-Hypnosis

-Cnc

-group

-praise

-humiliation

-sissy

Not into

- water-sports/scat

-blackmailing

-showing my face

⚠️ I dont cross platform. I'm going to only use tumblr. If i end up cross platforming at any point ill post about it myself.

⚠️Sometimes my like personality might switch from like a brat/stand off-ish to like real slutty it really depends on how like my mindset is or like how high i am. But like you’ll most likely notice, if not and you're unsure just ask for my vibe.

⚠️Sometimes I might just post and not answer questions or dms from time to time. I'm not ignoring i just tend to get worn out socially, saving it for a different time or i have my queue going and will get to it when im online.

⚠️ Don't ask for my info or other accounts especially if its our first time talking and especially if I've said im not cool with it.

⚠️ I know im into a lot of CNC but Consent is the first part of that. If i say no its no, if im not vibing at the moment and i say it out of kink and you keep pushing that's a no from me. I'm here to have a good time and i will block people if they make me uncomfortable.

#introducing myself

[fuckurgender]

This is a trans and gender discourse blog. As well as an transsexual pride and informational blog.

Im fed up with todays "trans community ". I cant take this shit anymore.

I want to see a community for transsexual people. Have sex dysphoria talked about and understood. Or if not its own, hopefully make others understand or consider transsexuals in the transgender community.

I want good change so people like me can feel better and have a safe and caring place to talk about issues and get support. Not be censored or treated like enimies.

Have a civil conversation/discorse when interacting with me.

The only information you need to know about me is that im an adult, transsexual and not fluent in English. (Will not be perfect english or most advanced)

Im fine with dms and questions/anons. Getting friends would be nice

Also i keep being called a transmed: i dont think u need dysphoria to id as transgender or even transsexual. If you transition (social/medical) you can thecnically be considered transgender/transexual. I just think its not healthy and think its affects those who do have dysphoria and need help , negatively. I think at least those Whitout dysphoria should get mental help first , and if not, pay for their own transition themself.

Some of my views bellow.

Gender: gender is a social construct. I belive gender should be abolished and removed from society. We have personalities and are all unique. Having a gender identity or brain gender is made up. Sex or gender says nothing about who you are as a person or your personality.

Transgender: Gender dysphoria is a real thing, and a mental illness. It is painfull to live with, but It can be lessened or cured. But transitioning medically is not the best choice if you only have gender realted issues and dont experience sex dysphoria

Transsexual: individual who transition medically to be/resemble the other sex. This has nothing to do with gender. It has to do with sex. I use this label because i feel like transgender is not right due to me not caring about gender or having gender dysphoria.

Gender dysphoria: mental illness tied to discomfort or disconnect to societies gender roles. Usally the one tied to your born sex. At times for both male and female gender roles. This is curable for some with therpay. Highly suggesting you stop giving a fuck about gender roles and stop trying to live by or care about gender or pronouns.

Sex dysphoria: mental illness as well, but completely diffrent drom gender dysphoria. Sex dysphoria is the discomfort with your biological sex. This can be greatly helped or cured by medical transitioning. This has nothing to do with gender roles or gender, femininity or masculinity. Only biological reality. (Note: some things like ptsd or gender dysphoria can be mistaken for sex dysphoria, so transitioning is not always the right choice. Getting mental help first is good. But sex dysphoria has no know cause itself. )

Extra: this also means i think someone wearing fully pink and feminine clothes, or very masculine clothes, has absolutely nothing to do with if youre "valid" as a trans person. Wear whatever the fuck you want.

LGB: wont talk much about this, but just saying, queer is a slur. Not an identity or a community. Trans issues should be its own community outside LGB. Since sexuality is a hole other issue. I think asexuallity is real but not an actuall sexuality/sexual attraction that should be a part of lgb.

Trans healthcare: often bad, especially on the mental part. Overtaken by the idea gender identity is all that matters . There are many issues with the medical side as well. I belive sex dysphoria should be its own diagnosis required for undergoing transition. Gender discomfort should not be required to transition.

Sex: biological sex is real, and important to not ignore or downplay. Those with sex dysphoria are struggling soley due to their sex. If you earase sex you also erase our struggles.

The "trans" community : horrible in its own way. I belive transgender individuals and transsexuals should have separate communities. Despite the similar medical treatment, our issues are not the same. Transgender people usally are not considerate for those with sex dysphoria, only hurt them due to making everything in the trans community to be about gender and identity , and denying biological sex, or pressuring for media inclusiveness. I belive transsexuals should have our own community for our own specific issues and struggles unrelated to gender.

Trans community p2: an important thing the trans community needs to do is take accountability for the "bad" people in the community (criminals, pedos, ect). Instead of saying "that never happens" and pretending every trans person is good, the community needs to call these people out. The community should not be a safe space for rapists , pedophiles and abusers.

#trans discourse #lgbtq discourse #lgbtq #nonbinary #trans #lgbt #transgender #transsexual #gender #discourse #intro #lgbt discourse #gender abolition #gender critical #transmedicalist #transmed #truscum

[yourdaddychan]

wow-

literally just wow- i genuinely have nothing to say about this please- i cannot explain how much this means to me- there's 1000 of us- *hugs all of you* [ especially the porn bots ] *turns into formal luna asf*

i remember when i started in may, just a tiny chatbot with only one mutual, only known to you guys as [ answer : admin ]. and now, almost a year later, i have 1k of my chainsaw eating demons who are metal as fuck 💪ive learned so much being on tumblr, as a part of both the skz writers community and the chatbot community. ive made a bunch of friends, lost a bunch of ones, and 1k of you stuck with me. i cannot begin to express my gratitude to all of you, and how much all of you and your interactions with me mean to me. all of the simping, the random stories, everything. i cherish all of it, and i love all of you. aight so letz get to the personal thanking asf

alsoer i kinda wanted to do something sexy so imma do what color they remind me of :D most of them can be found at this link : https://louisem.com/29880/color-thesaurus-infographic

@kvinly linn bb 🥺through all the drama we've been through and shit im so glad we ended up becoming friends again cause we're kinda sexy together 😉thank you so much for being my 1000th follower bb you mean so much to me and if anyone hurts you im about to *turns into jennie and kachows them* licherally lets nevah fight again

-> you remind me of the color punch , and not only because of the name- underneath that grr me edgy grr me bully you're just a softie simp and that reminds me of punch :D

@undeadbots steph 🥺lemme be your personal broken chopsticks pls :( KLDSKLD anywayz we've also gone through some sexy drama and thankfully you saw da light 😉and now look at us, with our own band, and our own producing line 🥺brohemian rhapsody for life bro 🥺 *big kithie for da best dad in da world :D*

-> you remind me of the color viridian , because it gives me confident vibes :D you carry yourself proudly and confidently as you should tbh go steph

@binniesthighs oh look its a cutie *pushes you to a mirror* right there :D RORORO YOUR BOAT :DD we havent talked too much, besides my simping for jisung- but you give me very sexy energy so imma propose rq *gets down on one knee* will you be the rororo to my boat 🥺thank you for being my moot :D

-> you remind me of the color espresso , because espresso looks like the color to be pretty chill and laid back, and you're all of those, and calming to be around

@toshis-flower BAYBEE BEBE BEEBEE :D thank you so much for being my moot and making me a wifey asf ‼️ you're literally so much like me whats not to love <3 JKSDJKD JKJK you're really sweet and really just a good person to rant to, i love you so so so much and i think im going to remarry you :D

-> you remind me of the color taffy , because you're sweet, cute, and bright :D *eats you* yummy

@lov3ric seyoung. i love you. so much. MY SOULMATEEEE :DD even though we tell the story over and over like a bunch of grandmas, ill still never forget how we became soulmates and then bonded over boba 🥺im licherally going to marry you one day like ez 💪also i wanna eat you can i eat you youre really cute *eats you*

-> you remind me of the color daffodil , because it reminds me of banana milk which reminds me of you tbh- buuuttt did you know that daffodils are one of the first flowers you see when spring starts? that definitely reminds me of you because through all of the cb drama, you've always been there with me, like literally always- i cannot express how much i love you *kithie*

@simpchimp LIDDLE CHEESE FUCKER THEMBO :DD drink water *spank* i love you so much you cutie 🥺you're also licherally the funniest person ever like stop bae i kinda need to be the funniest but noer its you 😔alsoer i love how random you are KDSKLD so nevah stop that because then *revz up arm* youre going to get luna-ified

-> you remind me of the color jam , because even though you seem kinda scary at first [ yes i was 100% scared of you ] you're really soft :D

@berrywoo the sun themself 💪you are easily the purest person ive met, and im so happy i somehow became moots with you :D you literally hit diff, yk? theres something about your personality and the way you act thats so comforting, and that means i eat you because youre too cute :D you cant just be a wholeass teacher for kids and expect not to get eaten kids are licherally demons whoever deals with them properly and treatz dem nicely gets a nom asf

-> you remind me of the color honey , because you're a sunshiney yellow, and you're sweet like honey :D i think you need to hear that its okay not to be okay bb, and you can come to my dms anytime you want to rant 😎

@yourchungha MS OG CHUNGHA MS IM KINDA SCARED OF THE SHIT YOU DO MS FURREH LOVER 101 MS ANNA BANANA :D yeah youre like really nice- thats all i have to say- like how tf do you deal with [ redacted ] like eggsplain- ALSO YOURE CARRYING OUR CONVERSATIONS BECAUSE IDK HOW TO TALK TO PEOPLE DKSJKD I LOVE YOU FOR THAT AND WE SHOULD HAVE LIKE ACTUAL CONVERSATIONS MORE OFTEN

-> you remind me of the color scarlet , because youre a sexy bitch tf and scarlet gives me 'idc what you think im hot' kinda vibes which is like exactly you

@satosimp WINTER DADDY :DD i lub you asf *insert we dont talk anymore by charlie daddy* ugh the way your personality matches mine is kinda sexy or whatever im also kinda in love with you but lets ignore that part 🙄 💪 *big kithes* *eats your cats casually*

-> you remind me of the color lilac , because it just gives me tsundere vibes, you act like you dont care but really do care :D you liddle sawftie *noms your cheekie*

@nightshade-minho DUCKIE :DD *insert we dont talk anymore by charlie daddy pt 2* licherally bae where the fuck are you i miss you you bettah be doing well in school otherwise im going to smack you with a chappal asf DSJJKSD *eats your cat because hes such a cutie*

-> you remind me of the color marigold , because you're adorable and sunshiney :D

@onigirimeeya MICHIE MICHIE MICHIEIEEIEI MY DAD :DDD i like you mucho much if you didnt know *kithes you* you're like one awf da best listeners ever- which is such a weirdass compliment but its true- you're really good at listening, and just being a comforting presence in general, like when you go to the beach and youre just staring at the waves all edgy mode, and it calms you down a fuck ton

-> you remind me of the color mint , for obvious reasons- mint choco chip cookie michie :DD

@hhjs bae we dont talk a lot but im kinda lurking on all of your posts- JKDSJSKD bae remarry me please youre really fucking hot 😭and the way you have with words is like damn- teach me oppar asf

-> you remind me of the color wine , because you're refined, and carry yourself in a way that makes everyone want to be you. the color wine is rich and deep, which reminds me of the way you write :D

@nsfw-stay MY LICHERAL BABIE YOUVE BEEN AN ANON FOR SUCH A LONG TIME AND WEVE TALKED ABOUT SO MUCH SHIT TOGETHER [ a lot about seungmin and jisung but shhh ] I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BB AND I WILL NOM YOU >:( BUT SOFTLY AND OUT OF LOVE *nomz yew* :D

-> you remind me of the color cerulean , because its a baby blue and what fits better than a baby blue yk? you're adorable and squishy and i want to nom you 24/7

@secretary-yeji *iz chan ig cause we dont talk admin to admin* oh erm gee is uncle chrith 😉DKLSKLD my liddle koala :D my liddle burgah :D my liddle aussie :D my besth frien :DDD evah since may i think we've been friends, and i think one of the highlights of that day was me marking you as spam twice and on accident too- LKSDKLSD WE DONT TALK ABOUT THAT anywayz thank yew for being uncle chrith's friend *kith*

-> you remind me of the color seafoam , because it's a very soft and light color yk, you're delicate asf which sounds like a bad thing now that im typing it BUT IT ISNT DSKLDSLK YOURE VERY CUTE YOU AND YOUR FLOOFY COWS :D

@ayolistenupp im kinda... in love with you? wtf? KDSDKSL MY DESI DADDY ASF I LOVE YOU SOER MUCH :D our music nights™️ mean so much to me, like theres just something so personal about listening to what the other person likes to hear even though half of your songs are sexy asf KLDSKLD

-> you remind me of the color ocean , because the ocean is loud but calming yk- like you're full of energy but you're also calming :D

@yanderexchungha OH ERM GEE YEW :O YOU PROBABLY WONT SEE THIS IN LIKE 10 MONTHS BESTIE MERRY CHRISTMAS IG KLDSLKD anyway i love you dad your lessons about vape >>> to quote your drunk ass exactly "vape isnt cool" JKSDJ anyway its gonna be sexy if we accidentally run into each other in the hallwayz asf

-> you remind me of grey cause youre a hag- JKJK KDJSD you remind me of the color caramel , because you're sweet, and licherally addictive caramel isnt good for my braces but i keep eating it 😰but youre addictive in a good way :D

@yanderelee literally only doing this because you were moping about not having a simp sunday and im such a good person 🥸you're cool 💪and unfortunately, you're funny too 😥and even though i bully you asf dont take it personally because i dont mean it asf

-> you remind me of the color dijon mustard because you just give those hacker vibes please dont hack me after i said this i like to keep my location private

@kpopswitchbot BESTIE 😏MY FIRST MUTUAL 😏 LICHERALLY DA BEST CUTEST FUNNIEST SMARTEST SEXIEST KEWLEST I CANT EVEN EXPRESS WITH WORDS FISHIE IN DA WORLD :D LICHERALLY STOP OUTDOING ME WITH YOUR GOODNIGHTS LIKE *spankz yew* YOURE LITERALLY TOO GOOD WITH WORDS ITS NOT FAIR- AND THE DAY YOU JUST TALKED TO ME IN SHAKESPEAREAN BECAUSE I FELT DOWN- AND EXPRESSED YOUR LOVE THAT WAY LIKE- PLEASE I ACTUALLY ADORE YOU AND I WILL LITERALLY EAT YOU ONE DAY

-> you remind me of the color coffee , not only because youre addicted to it but also because of the way you act, you're like the definition of an old soul- with the words you use, the drama kid you are asf, etc- you're a talented bitch *mwah* i love you so much you also remind me of those movies where they find an old ass book and they kinda hafta dust it off and it gives you treasure or something cause yeah that reminds me meeting you

AIGHT DAS IT ASF MWAH I LOVE YOU ALL :DDD

#if you wanna know more just drop an ask asf #would be cool if i had 1k for 1k but NOOOOO #i have more btw #*dabz* #THE WAY TUMBLR KEEPS GLITCHING BECAUSE THERES TOO MANY WORDS #NOT SEXY TUMBLR

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boundaries post below the cut:

-people who aren't close to me spamming my inbox or notifs may get you blocked

-anon hate is fine if i know you and it's clear youre joking. if not then youre a fucking clown (full offense)

-not comfy with actual sexualization however i think jokes about having a fat ass and having lots of sex are extremely funny

-reblogging personal or vent posts with no commentary is a little weird but i'm not gonna fight you over it. please use your head on this

-if i say something stupid or ignorant then please tell me.

-that being said, venting in my inbox or dms is a block if i dont give the okay

-accounts without pfps freak me out a little bit, dont be offended if i block you if you have no pfp

-if i dont see your ask im sorry but i get lots of anon hate and have to clear it often

-please dont bring up old projects that ive mentioned starting, if you have no progress by now then its never gonna happen and youre free to do it yourself

-with shorter sentences please use tone indicators, especially if its very open end. i try to understand but sometimes its hard

-positivity is always welcomed, to others, to things, or to myself. im not good at responding to compliments though

-sometimes i talk about my age. sometimes i talk about my state. sometimes i talk about my family. however im very careful with what i reveal and when. attempt to dig more and im going to shoot you and then myself

-if youre concerned for my wellbeing and tell me about that when we're not close i'm going to block you

ill update for more if i think of any