#but gd were playing

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[jimmyspades]

2007 | 2019

#these scenes were stuck in my head as similar but I could NOT remember the specific eps for weeks. I finally found them yayy #james spader #alan shore #boston legal #raymond reddington #the blacklist #* #today on my run I was thinking about how he's been acting in films since he was a teenager. A TEENAGER #his whole life on film. oh my gd. jamesyyyy babyyy #he's a very good actor in the sense you rarely feel like you're watching jim spader playing a part. he usually embodies the character #(for better or worse lol) #so sometimes it's hard to realize that's ALL him. growin up going through life before the camera 🥹 #anyway. old man -> older man. cutie <3

[canni-killer]

finish drawing. feel proud! see three pieces of art. i want to kill myself.

#ive been drawing for years why am i so bad #inconsistent also #bad AND inconsistent #anyways did anyone see the pic i drew haha its good right #who am i fucking kidding its awful #everything i make art writing knitting sewing etc its all terrible #no matter how much i practice i never improve #i cant write either my writing is terrible #and ive p much abandoned knitting #i occasionally sew holes in clothes but im bad at it #i have no fuckng skills #i should be good at this stuff its all stuff ive been doing sonce i was a fucking child #why is my baby cousin better at knitting than mr #why is my cousin so much better at art when were the same age and ive been drawing longer #i cant act either. or sing. i used to want to do musical theater but yknow #i cant bring myself to pick up my guitar cuz i know ill never be good at it. it frirates me to practice. #i played trombone for 2 ½ years and never got any better #i couldn't even read a single scale and my playing was quiet and bad #fuck #fuck fuck fuck #ill mever be good at anything #im a hack. talentless. unskilled. in every way possible. #can i find one fucking thing that im good at #“do it for yourself!” I CANT I FUCKING CANT if no one else likes it then its not good #and if its not good theres no point to it #becuz its just another way in which ive failed #i hate myself. im a disgusting failure #and im too cowardly to even kill myself #“im living for so and so :3” LIES LIES ITS ALL LIES IM ALIVE BECUZ IM A COWARD #everyone else will be fine without me. maybe happier even. i just cant do it cuz im fucking scared. another gd thing im a failure at.

[lichensings]

on a tour of a ranch looking at agriculture equipment and the guide just called 5 acres "a big garden". sir that's not a big garden that's a small farm

#there were also wasps in the equipment that got mad at him playing the gd bongos with their home #rambles

[boxwinebaddie]

UNCLE NINA PUT RAVESEY BACK TOGETHER RIGHT NOW!!! >:(

OH MY GOD!!!! YOU GUYS!!! PLEASE PUT YOUR TORCHES AND PITCHFORKS AWAAAAAY!!!!! I'M SCARED LOL!!!! I HAVEN'T HAD ANONS THIS MAD AT ME SINCE I DROPPED PEP 10!!!! rELAX!!!

( just kidding i luv yall so bad ur investment means the world 2 me )

but Listen Okay!!!! to placate you scary style piranhas, i am writing More Dating Headcannons right now i will drop them TODAY!!!

hold your fire!!!! AAAA!!! please accept my humble offering!!! i am but a wee gentle lass of good faith!!! okay like...mediumish?? faith!!! oKAY PERHAPS I AM A GODLESS ABOMINATION!!! but if you Kill me then they be broken up Forever! and we don't want that!!! SO SPARE ME!!!

-uncle nina, throwing dating ravesey headcannons at my angry mob

#LOOOOOOOOOL #PLEASE THERES LIKE 5 ANONS IN MY BOX RN PLUS THIS ONE LIKE UNCLE NINA PLEASE PUT THEM BACK OR ELSE #idk...maybe...i will Consider it...not sure yet :) #BE NICE OR I WILL KILL ONE OF THEM #just kidding i already did that to ravenstan <333 #that plotline is tired i will kill jersey instead for ~Zest~ #JUST KIDDING DONT HURT ME DONT HURT ME #pls!!! i'm writing the more Hating HCS rn!!! #spare mE #or don't #i'd rather not cover a math class today #ANYWAYS YALL ARE SO SCARY MY GOD #I WRITE HELLA SLOW I CANT FIX THEM UNTIL I FINISH #HELP SLKDHLKSHDLS THIS IS SO FUNNY FREE NINA #ppl were trying to kick my ass so hard when i dropped pep 10 that was iconique like ur welcome darlings! #is it me? am i The Drama? <3 ;) #HATE VICTIM BLAME YALL BUT U DIIIIID ASK ME FOR THE TOXIC YAOI AND I RUN THAT SHIP LIKE THE GD NAVY #i be sinking ur favorite ships like were playing battleship tho #and i am reeeeeally good at battleship u guys

[rhysdarbyarchive]

Ads for some of Rhys's shows at Wellington's Bats Theatre printed in Guano, Bats' quarterly magazine, including Rhys Darby and the Time Machine (2000), Rhys Darby and the Supernova (2001), Swingball (2002), and The Everymen (2006), the latter two with Dai Henwood

#rhys darby #dai henwood #rhys darby and the time machine #rhys darby and the supernova #2000s #2000 #2001 #2002 #2006 #nz #literally no one else is going to lose their gd minds over these grainy ass scans other than me but idc #what sucks is that the first four issues of this mag arent online and im p sure rhysently granted played a gig here #i also think he did more shows than these here but these were the only ones i saw ads for #but i feel like rhysently granted wouldve been in there and im so upset i cant see that potential ad rip #bnl

[dykeredhood]

Cliff heads into the living room wearing a whole entire bathrobe/dressing gown/whatever they actually called it in the 20’s…transmasc moment

#listen I’d also do anything to hold down Jenny Blake played by Jennifer Connolly [sic] so I get it #Omg the welding on the sides of the The Rocketeer helmet… it’s beautiful #I’m sure my dad would have something to criticize about it but hell. from what I can see it looks great #did not realize how many assorted feelings rewatching The Rocketeer would be it up for me #*would bring up for me #were elastic fabrics even invented in the gd 20’s? #ofc there’s knitting with yarn and using a rib pattern that makes things stretchy #but I remember hearing from an old school ballet dancer that he did an exchange program in the USSR #and then when he came back to the USA the tights were stretchy #THESE ARE MY PRIORITIES #personal #rant in tags

[danzafila]

i fucking hate redditors. why do i ever even try engaging with them 😤😤😤

#'if you can't parse compassion for the mentally ill w/ recognizing mental illness HAS to play a role in violent attacks that's on you!!!' #hahaha fuck the hell off #all i said was you shouldn't immediately ASSUME mental illness is at play in an (attempted) attack when no details are known #especially when you're all over this thread attacking anyone asking about a possible political motivation for aSsUmInG lol #ik it's reddit why do i even bother. but in my defense the local subs ARE usually better (when not astroturfed) than most of that shit site #i'd hoped their initial comments were only upvoted bc they were couching them in a veneer of smart sounding language #but they didn't even try to hide their ableist bullshit when called #it's not JUST the bigotry endemic to that site that bugs me tho but the sheer condescension in how everyone's always gotta respond #i'm so gd sick of dudes on the internet talking down to me #sto parlando

[c6jpg]

also excited to play cyno bc this is the first time i've actually cared about strict gameplay lol i'm usually a random bullshit go kind of person.

but i find the theoretical perfect tf play really interesting so i hope it works. that being said i'm doing it with electro charged which i'm told is kinda inconsistent. i'm also running him with beidou / yelan / xingqiu who i'm guessing can all steal the reaction. it's gonna be fun to find out :D

#0.txt #suffered in eosf for those other 3 #beidou and xingqiu were leveled bc i used them in the past but they didn't have dedicated artifacts #so i speed ran building them for cyno lmaoo and then all the bad ones went into tf strongbox #if tf ends up being too hard to play then ill gradually switch him over to gd but that domain hates me fr

[erotetica]

O another thing abt the hobbit is the antipathy. I don’t even mean the paratextual, camaraderie of the company sidelined for a conventionally attractive love triangle in the edit. The energy upon every character meeting is so hostile. If Aragorn stopped Eomer’s riders in hobbit-world, he would catch some hands, not spare horses.

#tolkien #op #lotr #boromir compelled to betray frodo. u feel a thing #thorin compelled to betray bilbo. the actors do a great job selling it #like tbh I always thought freeman was a better bilbo than wood was a frodo. for the value of better. yk. #but they’re playing pool with silly string. #also the very fact that I’m brought out of the fiction enough to remark on the production/actors speaks for itself #like ik whatever you say it’s fundamentally all the same complaint #trying to recook lotr w/ no meat #bc I was going to say ‘the stakes in Rohan were higher; there were more stressors to make that interaction end as hostilely as it began’ #‘so what’s; say; laketown’s excuse’ #but it’s. ^that. #you’re trying to Do a Grimdark when that’s not the thesis of 3rd age ME #which is; I think; fundamental peace in bad circumstances #@ least compared to a game of thrones #or yk the main cast is dwarves this time and Jewish people are suspicious. ¡whos to say! #* I keep adding to these tags but. denethor acts selfishly/‘cowardly’ #you BUY that bitch is at the end of his gd rope. that’s a schism baby! #the master of laketown is REPREHENSIBLE. the evacuation scene is abjectly horrifying. and it’s played blithely & for laughs.

[daesungindistress]

Recently, throughout and especially toward the end of July, GD has been posting lots of pics of playing cards, as some of you who follow him on IG have probably noticed (the 777 on rainbow background was a moving picture so the screenshot came out a little strange with a ghost effect on the text). Yeah, yeah, I know deciphering GD's manic pixie dream girl IG chaos is an exercise in futility, so even though I saw a theme developing I told myself I wouldn't try to make anything of it...

...until he posted another card pic, this time inside the frame of BIGBANG's Still Life polaroid 👀 And, okay, I couldn't help myself, I caved and had to allow one cursory Google search about the various meanings assigned to decks of cards (aside from the obvious stuff about luck and such). And I landed upon this:

"Playing cards link directly to the Gregorian calendar and the seasons." ... "The four playing card suits represent the four seasons."

Wait! What? The seasons? I didn't know this 🤯 Just recently, in Still Life, BIGBANG positioned themselves as the four seasons. Now we have GD posting playing cards, hinting at good fortune and promising, "Wonderful things are about to happen."

Hmm. That sounds familiar!

Wonderful Things Are About to Happen = Happier Times Are Coming

Possibly the meaning of these posts is personal to him, possibly it's PEACEMINUSONE related, possibly it's for a G-Dragon solo project, but you've got to admit... that it might be for BIGBANG is also not beyond the realm of possibility. And it would be perfect. Because, let's see, so far this year the group has been the four seasons. Four spotlights. Four seats. What's next, the four suits? Spring Summer Autumn Winter -> Hearts Diamonds Spades Clubs? No, wait. I've got it:

The Four Kings 👑👑👑👑

#bigbang #gd #gdragon #instagram #the four seasons #playing cards #anyway before still life I did not dare dream bb would come back with a song and mv so strongly (obviously) in favor of four #but then we were given 'our beautiful spring summer fall winter' and... yeah #at this point all concepts and themes celebrating four are on the table! #and I'm free to have fun with it 🤪

[supercantaloupe]

les mis 25th anniversary concert my BELOVED. every time I forget just how good it is, especially the finale.

les mis finale never fails to make me emotional. they'll be like "take my hand and lead me to salvation, take my love for love is everlasting" and i'm GONE dude. incoherent.

#sasha answers #jadeandquartzes #the harmonies! the recurring musical motifs! the fact that its fantine and eponine there to lead him to heaven!! #and remember the truth that once was spoken: to love another person is to see the face of gd #and they were RIGHT!!! #ive never seen the 25th anniversary concert before im so glad i caught it on tonight. only missed the beginning #(jumped in at lovely ladies) #great cast. not sure how i feel abt nick jonas yet i think his voice stuck out a little to me but #alfie boe norm lewis lea salonga samantha barks how can you NOT go wild. how #also watching les mis now always brings up fond memories of when i played it in hs #my heartis full. my heart is so full

[nomaishuttle]

gn everybody. smiles widely

#i have been big into gn posts recently.... itis sort of fun #i feel like that umm. rabbit? From goodnight moon #was it a rabbit in that book..hold on #YEAH IT IS 💪 #ohhh im so excited for the move im sososososos excited #th landlord seems rly sketchy but. Oh my gd i just wanna be moved in #for like a bazillion reasons but mainly bc I judt wanna be moved in so badly #society if i ws living with my girl and we could hold hands and kiss and hsve date nights and hang out and i could Look at iy #LIKE NOT TO BE DYKEISH AND FAGGISH IN NSTURE RN. BUT TH RHOUGHT OF WAKING UP AND GETTING TO SEE HIM IS LIKE. I MIGHT ACTUALLY START CRYING #n just like..oh my gd. im gonna get t see it every single day.n well get to talk every single day and ill be around him Every single day !! #n its like. im soso excited but im also like. scared. bc its gonna be a flip from like #rn i love with one of my best friends (my sibling).n my other best friend (hal) is across the country #but in..less than a month ill be living with one of my best friends (hal) and my other best friend (my sibling) will be across th country. #Thats insane. yk.. and im like scared n ik obv me and my sibling arent judt gonna Stop talking #im like. i get worried bc im like BUT WE DONT TEXT THAT OFTEN !! n its like yeah girl bc you.. live together.. and can just talk in person #but like. AGHHH. im also worried abt calls bc id wanna call a lot jus tt talk t them but were both awkward with phone calls #but i think itll be easier bc likee. yk... we r used to talking to eachother outloud Obviously #its just gonna be weird like. i wont be able t do local co-op with them anymore. yk.. #if i wanna play a wii game or something eith them ill have t get all sorts of streaming shit set up #bc we like to. just hang out while one of ud plays a game #yk #im just like. ACHH im soso excited but at th same time im rly gonna miss lampstie 💔 #and th rest of my family Obviously. but like #lamp is like. less than 2 years younger thn me. we literally grew up together ppl thought we were twins (they were dumb as he'll but still) #they thought we were twins ehen lsmp ws 6 months old and i ws. literslly 2. like.. #but. yk like man im just scared bc ive never rly been away from my family for more than like.. a week #aside from when i lived with my mom while lamp lived with my dad #but then i lived with my dad. so #and now we both live with bith.. BASICALLY AAA #n of course m gonna miss my baby sister and my baby brother but theyre like. my sister is I almost said 7. shes literally turning 11 soon

[burningthegallows]

Finished Autumn Ballad by venting my irritation in a review and found this gem. Bastard said everything i did, but in only one line.

#autumn ballad #man I wanna talk about the women in this show at great length #how you gonna play my girl xiaoxiao like that #the lost dynamic friendship between #liang yi #qiu yan #and #xiaoxiao #a gd tragedy #what’s deliberate and what’s not #and what feminism in modern china looks like vs here #with a historical show like this as well … is it being deliberately critical of traditional court #or fanciful / romantic? #I can’t help but compare this show to lltg #because the leads have a similar power dynamic #but when I watch lltg the female leads and stories are fascinating and deep #there are vast and varied femal relationships #that are so different then what we get in American media #ar felt a lot more like an American misogynistic show #like none of the females were consistent #none of them were actual friends #it felt very HT feminism #a lot of them committed suicide #some of this or maybe all of it is probably due to the translation #it was hard to tell what’s bad writing vs a complicated plot point vs blunt translation

[wabblebees]

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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops #had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day #to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me #fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going #full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough #and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot #ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can #but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!! #sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn #whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active. #i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n #But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds #im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao. #ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao #goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well #also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao #im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao #wish me luck lmaooo #bee speaks

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

funny u bring up angel beats in that one ask since iirc the director of angel beats also directed the p4 anime

Haha....yeah I think I remember seeing that one time and going "gdi how did this happen????" Tbh it's not just them but also the writers that probs made AB work. TT0TT

Plus iirc AB was an original work rather than an adaptation. P4tA would've probs been fine if....well.....I didn't know what the original text was. TT0TT orz

It's one thing to take something at face value as itself vs taking it at face value when you know the original context.

If P4tA had existed but not the game......I think I would've liked it, but not fallen in love with Persona in general like the P4 game did for me.

#silly asks #silly answers #'what about the manga silly???" ironically I couldn't get my hands on the P4 PS2 game JUST YET but saw there were a few manga ch fantransla #*fantranslated so........my first experience was the p4 manga for like a ch or 3 and then the same with P3's manga #gd was I confused with the p3 manga TT0TT there was a ch at the time for P1/2 but I think I tried those after playing P4 first #p4 manga aint perfect but i think it still holds up better understanding p4 than the anime did #it helps that it actually just.....copies content from the game rather than going off the beaten path! And it worked! who knew???? #anyway keep in mind I didn't MIND the anime when it was first airing (and was excited/enjoying it) #i was having a blind honeymoon phase w/it like I did with P5.....but by the time Naoto's dungeon aired I threw it in the trash TT0TT