#but here’s me yesterday morning

[mattodore]

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

#river dipping #dionte duval #lykos #ts4 #i do really love how dionte and nicholas kinda have a b4b (bald for bald) thing going on.... but that first hair........ #he looks so good... the urge to keep it is gonna make me develop a twitch under my eye... #i love the shadows the locs add btw like i personally loveee when hair creators add shading #like the DRAMAAA it adds!!! #also don't look too closely at him here bc i actually haven't updated him yet hence no proper edit of him (tho i probably won't change much #i'm really just supposed to be cleaning out the hundreds!! of duplicate households in my library dkhjnkfgh i just. get so distracted #i also have to fix mattodore's households bc i think i accidentally deleted the updated version of them at 20... #like there are multiple other saves?? but they're all with matthias's old chin??? like literally WHERE did the updated version go #so i need to clean out my library from the top down and fix their sims #i really messed my sleep schedule up the day before yesterday when i was working on those edits of delphi btw #but i did enjoy rewatching secretary and watching charade while staying up all night to do them <3 #also listened to the first two chapters of freedom is a constant struggle! editing may take me forever but i do do other things as i do it #...........talking a lot in these tags bc i'm seriously procrastinating jdkhnf i do NOT ! want to clean through my library it's a mess #OH. ALSO GOOD MORNING I FORGOT TO SAY THAT ‼️ #seeing this again two days later and seeing the amount of notes....... y'all weren't meant to reblog this kjhdkfjhndkjgnh #now i'm like damn... is there any reason to make his intro edit like i did for ria and delphi 😭😭😭😭😭

[front-facing-pokemon]

#altaria #here it is… the bird that turns into a dragon-type because reasons… #i still don't think just from looking at this thing that they should be a dragon-type. i feel like it still seems out-of-place given their #design but HONESTLY i like it. i think it's a cool like. subversion. type thing. i would not look at swablu and be like Yeah that evolves #into a dragon-type. and apparently a really good one at that? i believe i've heard good things about altaria #ugh. good things. got a selection of GOOD THINGS on sale‚ stranger… my brain does that sometimes #when i hear or say innocuous phrases it's like HEY that's the same thing this OTHER guy said in this QUOTE you've heard before #dunno WHY but. it happens. and it just happened there. but altaria i dunno it's a dragon-type and that's awesome. i don't remember what i #said i was gonna talk about on the swablu post yesterday wrt altaria and i am too lazy to look back at those tags to remember #hi it's me morning of this posting at like 7 AM. i remembered bc i just looked. i was gonna ask if they were good competitively #and. i'm pretty sure they are. ALRIGHT LET'S TAKE A LOOK AT SMOGON #ah okay not busted but generally good i guess. latest information states RU in gen 9 but UU in a lot of other gens. NU and PU in there too #bounced around a lot i guess. but here's my question. why? do i care #it's cute. and i don't care if they're strong or not… because they're cute…

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[curioscurio]

Goes to bed feeling significantly better because my sinus infection is improving vs waking up remembering that I'm not actually fully recovered + the ear infection is beginning + no meds yet + return of the sore throat

#my boss is gonna LOVE me today (doesnt come in again) #its fine i have a doctors note that covors me till friday but i still feel like shit lol #well yesterday and the day before i was basically just on an off sleeping and feeling miserable. #so today im taking the time to finish healing plus clean my sickness nest and get myself ready for the weekend #i mean compared to yesterday morning i was feeling a LOT better but now this morning its like. hes still here... osmosis jones where are u

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #ask to tag #favorites #I've been really super disproportionately tired lately #even beyond the usual debilitating fatigue from my severe chronic illness #so I'm putting myself back on my prednisone in the morning. #it is not a long term solution but it's what I've got. #I've got enough stocked up to take a fairly safe dose until I'm able to actually access a doctor back home in june #cuz I've been struggling physically since way back in july but it's getting to the point where I can't just tough it out anymore #yesterday I was having a lot of difficulty speaking #today I was having a lot of trouble moving at all #and it's not a typical acute flare that clears up after a day. #so like. not in a position to be completely immobilized just yet. #(once I get home our other partner can take care of me and it matters much less if I can't move) #(but my wife can't do that while she's still working this job and our other partner isn't here) #(so. need the temporary power up.)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

gonna go on another bot purge tonight so here's your friendly Reminder that if you have nothing on your blog (default icon/header/title, no rbs/likes) uhhhh i Will think you're a bot and you Will be blocked <3

#sweeping dust bunnies off the ol' blog yk yk #haven't done a bot check in a month or so there's Bound to be a lot #luckily ive been seeing a lot less default icons lately which is Nice #the refugees seem to be catching on... #absolutely unprompted #on another note since im here and i want to Complain about things that are my own damn fault #i need to wake up early and drive tomorrow which i Expected #but i Forgot how early. and ive trapped myself in a position where thats the time i need to leave. #couldve left tonight smh... #now i have to take into account my own sluggishness when waking early + getting ready + morning traffic #screams cries sobs etc. oh well. i hope my fav boba place is open by the time i skedaddle #yesterday i was like: oh leaving tomorrow? on such short notice (learned a whole day prior)? surely i cant. its too soon. im unprepared #but now im in waiting mode and dreading the Earliness #woe is me. except not. i did this to myself 💅 #sigh. anyway yeah make sure your blog looks like a person runs it

[dizzybizz]

some magma pages from the past few days <333

@polyphonial, @2sc4rghost, @seasonalberries and @eternal-moss (oh yeah my brother also contributed a bit)

💞💖💕💓💗💘💝❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍

#hope its cool with everyone that im posting these ✌ #they make me grin like an idiot <3 #need more of this in my life #besties i would point out every little thing i love about these but my notes would be longer than i can comprehend in my sleepy state #just know these are the last things i think about before falling asleep at night and the first things i think about when i wake up in the m #orning #🥺 <333333 #i am not tagging characters or media bc i dont actively hate myself like that 😎👍 #in all of these except that last one i started drawing in the bottom right corner and i dont know why #the medicine seller page is so unhinged #in my defense it was berries that drew him first so #yesterday morning was a solo except my brother pasting in a photo of alex jones #i have... (checks downloads) ...26 versions of WWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE saved...... #i would write more here but i cannot process thoughts rn im bout to fall asleep and have been the entire day :-))) #buddy daddies #tbhk #hmc #tgcf #moomin #omori #tbna #trigun #adventure time #mononoke #mdzs #drawfee #csm #pokemon #ok yea #magma

[cuubism]

world-ending tragedy: the advice columns were right and waking up early made your life better

#me sitting here at 12pm already was up for 6 hours like wow! the whole bright world still lays at my feet! :D #like who is THAT? that's not me. i'm a pessimist XD #already checked several things off the to do list... and it's only lunchtime... #i COOKED FOOD yesterday??? what is this #were the 'here's my 5am morning routine' youtubers right all along?

[front-facing-pokemon]

#registeel #and now this guy is maybe a bit less interesting. from this standpoint‚ i mean. the eyes being just dots make it a little hard to like #feel *connected* to them when they're ffp'd‚ y'know? i feel like it's kind of a reductive angle. which is why i zoomed this one and the last #one out a bit. so you can see a bit of the rest of their body. it's maybe less funny but would it really have been funny to just see 7 red #dots on a gray background and have to read the tag to know it's registeel? i dunno. maybe. maybe it would've been. but i like this more #maybe the explanation is that i'm taking these pictures myself. i personally know all these pokémon and have to ask them if i have permissio #n to take these pictures of them. but registeel said i couldn't get too close. so we settled with this. hehe yeah that's why :) hehe :) #anyway. you now have the aegis cave theme stuck in your head #hi it's me from the present. saturday morning. in yesterday's queued post i came up with the idea of maybe doing a monotype run of a pokémon #game. i don't know which one yet but i wanted to do water-type. but i was like. maybe i'll liveblog it on my main blog. yesterday #and today i came back and saw those tags as i was queuing up today's 'mons and i was like… hell maybe i could stream it if enough folks are #interested. but if anyone is then i didn't want to wait that long for the queue to get to that post bc that's gonna post on like. august 18 #and class for my last semester of college Ever starts back up on august 21st and i don't. know if i want to start another pokémon playthroug #h that close to classes starting. especially not one where at least one (1) individual out there might be waiting for it So i put 'em here #they'll still be on that post but. they're here. just in case someone out there is chronically bored enough that that's something they'd be #interested in. y'never know there's a lot of folks here #anyway i will now queue up kricketot. see you then… or i guess see you whenever if you like send in an ask or a message or smth…

[shima-draws]

Told my boss that NO I cannot take over customer phone calls because my anxiety will literally not be able to take it. And I’m being SO brave about it,

#I say this as I’m sitting here shaking and on the verge of having an anxiety attack. AHA #Shima speaks #She called me yesterday morning and was like. Hey your coworker is drowning and I KNOW you hate phone calls #But she really needs help #And I was like. Yeah okay. Maybe I can do this. #Fast forward to last night. I’m in bed hyperventilating bc no I CANNOT do this #My mental health has already been Bad for the past few months bc I’m already working overtime for this job #And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration #So I called my boss this morning and was like hi I’m so sorry I said I would but I actually can’t. I deadass had an anxiety attack #just THINKING about it last night #And she was like omg no I get it. I have anxiety too I know what it’s like. It’s debilitating sometimes #So she said I didn’t have to do the phone calls and now I’m like YIPPEE #And she said hey that was a really brave thing to do. Speaking up like that and making it clear when you’re not comfortable with something #Me still shaking and holding back tears: Thank you I’m being SO brave about this rn #Anyway I’m still coming down from the near panic attack I had before I called her to tell her lmao #It’s been a rough 24 hours. I’m fine (lying) #I’ll BE fine now that I don’t have to talk to angry customers on the phone tho 🥰

[silenthillbunni]

☁️🌷

#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :(( #i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move* #what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :(((( #well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

[kanene-yaaay]

To everyone! Thanks a whole lot! It was delightful to battle at your side (or against it kjhgtfrdefgjnb) today <3 <3 <3 I shall go to bed soon and I don't think the boop-o-meter will be here tomorrow so everyone consider yourself booped a million of a billion of times <3 And a big hug as well

#got little sleep yesterday and the morning was rough but to come here and have such a delightful fun time made everything much much better #thank you so much you all defeated me because there's like 680 boops received and only 530 given and I don't think I will be able to- #-suppress that anytime soon KJHGFDEDEFGHUJ #It was a fun battle that DESTROYED my notifs forever because now I can only see one (1) of them everytime I open it KJHGFDERFGHUJI #<3 <3 #Kanene being Kanene #probably will leave a few last boops here and there but I need to finish my studies kjhgfdsdfgh #see ya!

[lewkwoodnco]

im sickkk :((( but at least im on the mend noww

#couldn’t even post much here whole of yesterday #If I can hopefully get a good 8 hours of sleep tonight #I should be much better in the morning! #wish me luck besties #also I distinctly rmb someone tell me getting a cough when you have a sore throat means your throat is healing #But I can’t find it anywhere online?? #was I just carrying around a misconception for the better part of three years??? 😭😭 #ok need to stop rambling byeee

[hella1975]

realising something bad about someone that means the world to you should be illegal. id like to live blindly actually

#ive been tiptoeing around this realisation for a WHILE now but today was the first time i actually verbatim in my head #went 'i dont like living with my mum'. and the moment i thought it was like no nooononono lets NOT do that #like objectively my mum is my favourite person in the world and i love her more than every other person in my life combined #but LIVING with her in HER HOUSE is just not... it. and it makes me feel awful for even thinking it bc that's her biggest fear #that we're gonna grow up to have the same relationship that she had with her mum and that ISNT what's happening like i could never #be distant from my mum in fact the reason she has such a chokehold on me is BECAUSE there's so much love there #but it would still break her heart to know i felt this way and i just feel so shitty for it. but like? i CANT relax here #like the thing that made me think it this morning wasn't even an explosive thing like it usually is with her #like every shouting screaming argument we've had ive just taken it. but then this morning when nothing exceptional happened #i was just. done. so basically i told u guys she wanted me to hoover today and already yelled about it YESTERDAY which. whatever #and she goes out every thurdsay until lunchtime and i think ive said on here before that the days we're home alone are HUGE flashpoints #bc if she comes home and perceives that not enough chores have been done/one thing has been done wrong she just hits the ROOF #like her temper is entirely disproportional she gives the same energy for the washing up not being put away that another mum would #give for finding drugs in their kids room. ive truly never seen someone maintain a temper like that woman can it's actually impressive #so yeah she was gone this morning and it just always leaves me On Edge it's never a huge thing bc im not SCARED of her but im not relaxed #and i hoovered for an hour and washed up and then also dusted the stairs and did some other tiny irrelevant jobs #and my sister did fuck all. she pulled a sickie off work and stayed in bed while i fussed about what to do with the dogs and shit #and so when my mum came home ig i was expecting some sort of acknowledgement? like not a round of applause #bc obvs it's just chores and the hoovering she literally told me to do but when my sister had been SO unhelpful and it had been #SO on my mind for hours now i was just. waiting for something? and even i didnt know what so it's not even fair #but my mum came home and decided she was in a bad mood and she had a go at my sister for being lazy and not doing the chores she said #she'd do today and she DIDNT yell at me which she sometimes does just do if she's pissed at my sister. but she just got mardy with me? #like she got up and left to go watch TV in her room and i was like 'oh i can watch it with you?' bc sometimes when they row my mum #hints at me and her going somewhere else to bitch about my sister. but she just shook her head and snapped at me for some dumb shit #like TINY shit id missed and then wouldn't even spend time with me and i was just like. are you serious #and THAT was when i had the thought bc i was like there is actually no winning with her temper #and i can never fully relax around her because of it. even when we're getting on she is at any point seconds away from ripping my head off #and it's not nice being around someone like that ALL THE TIME. and i dont mind it when im at uni bc im at my own house in my own life #but when it's HER house and she makes it very clear that it's HER house and we need her and the car if we want to so much as LEAVE #then that's just not a fucking pleasant environment to be in? right? even if it is just me being a baby? ugh idk and i hate this

[knifegremliin]

hey do you guys want to see the new fucked up cat i bought off ebay

#🔪.text #it's really really cool #it wasn't supposed to get here til tomorrow #and then this morning i got an email saying it'd be here at close to 6 pm #and then it got here at 3 pm #i finally opened the box at 4:40 and ohhh my god it's so much better in person #i'm so in love #i think this may be my favorite purchase yet #i've been completely miserable for most of the day and for most of yesterday too. #getting it today was definitely good timing and good for me #i really needed something to lift me up lol #not sure what i'm gonna call it yet #the company it was made by has the name boone for the original plush #but this thing's been modified and so i'm not sure i wanna keep the name boone for it