#but hey now i have a decent pfp!

[stellarcollisionfic]

tell me about Jade. I love her I want to know More

🥹 thank you for letting me rant about my girl 💕

Jade Walker: Character Info/HC’s

- Jade is 28 at the start of Stellar Collision. This is important because Jade is very personal to me and I feel like I don’t know what’s going on (in my 20’s as well 🥲). She’s old enough for there to be an expectation that she knows what she wants out of life, but she is hopelessly lost prior to finding Constellation. (Get it? A “Constellation”helping her find her way??? …I’ll see myself out)

-On the subject, she’s definitely more morally gray than Sarah (but who isn’t?). She made bad choices in her youth. It was important to me that she actually had a relatively happy and comfortable home life, because that kind of adds to her dilemma- she’s not forced into this life of crime that she lived before Sarah. She chose it, and has regrets. She lives in fear of the fact that it’s too late for redemption, or for her to be a productive member of society, despite how young she truly is. A lot of the times we have the orphaned protagonist, or the one with bad familial relations- but Jade is solely responsible for taking the easy way out plenty of times in her past, and now it’s coming back to haunt her. Originally, I considered having her father be a potentially injured vet in the colony war- to give her a motivation to have made all these egregious decisions for financial comfort, but I decided against it.

-Still, Jade does send the majority of her credits to her parents because, in some twisted sense, she wants to be good. She simply doesn’t know how, with her particular skillset, until Sarah and Constellation come along. Now, she has a greater purpose. Unfortunately, it’s far greater than she ever could have imagined. But hey…be careful what you wish for, right?

Personality

-Jade is seemingly confident, perhaps a little arrogant at times. She’s young enough still to have that carefree, somewhat reckless sense about her. She’s very playful and wry with her sense of humor. She’s a flirt through and through, and of course, attracted to older women- or women in authority, at any rate- (though she does seem to resent any kind of authority. Take that as you will). She’s definitely my coolest OC. She thinks Constellation is a very lovable collection of nerds (Andreja being the exception!) Though, she does manage to act like a nervous bumbling idiot in front of Sarah a few times, anyway.

-Jade is definitely an athlete, and her favorite way to work out is to fuck Sarah silly train with Andreja. 😊

- Her style has always been classic cool- black, leather, jeans, the works. Her hair is definitely longer than in the pfp- but that’s as close as we’re getting in-game. I think Rosamund and Eiza (from I care a a lot) are decently close to how I’d envision them.

-She may appear morally ambiguous, but she’s kind. Understanding, given her past. She’s Andreja’s best friend for a reason- she clocks constellation’s micro-aggressions towards Andreja or the Va’Ruun from time to time, and she lets them hear it. She’s good with Sona- even stopping to buy her clothes of her own while she was still injured from Cassiopeia. She is ambiguous regarding the law, justice, deeper topics- though she doesn’t condone harming innocent people or going a murder spree or anything atrocious like that.

-Jade’s fears are as follows:

1. She fears she’s irredeemable. That she’s already wasted her life and accomplished nothing, lying to her parents about how she’s been supporting them prior to Constellation and carrying great shame.

2. She’s afraid of dying. Self explanatory, and obviously due to the powers eating away at her. She’s young. She’s terrified. She doesn’t want to show it.

3. She’s afraid of losing Sarah. She chose Sarah over Sam, point blank. She’d do frightening things for Sarah- things Sarah herself would not approve of.

4. She doesn’t want to die without marrying Sarah properly 🥺💔 it’s the only thing she desperately needs before her time runs out. Those pesky Starborn and the damn UC seem intent on letting her do so, I’m afraid. She’s already made arrangements for her parents, already offered Sarah her galacticat plushie. All that’s left is tying the knot. She wants to be Jade Morgan very fucking badly.

Jade and Sarah

-At first, the attraction is simple: Jade hates authority, Sarah infuriates Jade, Jade is turned on by her intensity but yells right back, Sarah is turned on by her intensity (and insolence 😭)

Rinse and repeat.

-As their relationship progresses, Jade looks up to Sarah. She starts to burn for Sarah’s approval, willing to change her stubborn approach to life because this woman believes in her. This woman knows of her wrong-doing and still wants to give her a chance. She spends more time with Sarah. Starts teasing her more, they become friendly. It is then that Jade realizes she wants more than Sarah’s approval as a boss. She wants Sarah. Badly.

-On the topic of sex: they switch, obviously. I think Sarah’s more experienced, given her age- but Jade isn’t too far behind. Jade is a naturally jealous person- especially for Sarah’s affections. So this talk of “Aja” makes her so sour at the beginning 😭. She’s had a few prior relationships of note- mainly Capt. Marquez (who turned out to be a real one!!!) (Sarah does not love that). I think Jade talks a big game but Sarah is absolutely wearing the pants in the bedroom (and maybe their relationship, to an extent). Jade is something of a service top- but that’s not entirely accurate because Sarah has her way with her a lot, too. Just depends on the occasion 😏

-Jade’s dream bedroom fantasy involves Sarah in nothing but her jacket and an entire floor of a building to themselves so she can put her powers to use on the one thing that matters: Pleasuring Sarah Morgan.

-I think Sarah is everything Jade isn’t, and that’s why they work so well together. Sarah is neat, meticulous, everything she does is calculated, formal, rooted in logic. She NEEDS to believe in the law, needs to believe in order. Jade doesn’t. Jade acts with her heart, never her damn head 😭💀 she’s impulsive, reckless, and disregards facts that don’t serve her cause. She also challenges Sarah and Walter on many things, initially. But she has SUCH a capacity for love, for affection, for doing the right thing. And Sarah just…can’t stop thinking about her 🥹💕

-They give each other a second chance. They give each other unconditional love, guidance, laughter, and yes- sometimes anger 😅 but it only fuels their ever-growing attraction to one another. Jade thinks Sarah is the catch of a lifetime- and she is. Sarah thinks Jade is a brilliant, beautiful, stubborn, sexy idiot whom she absolutely cannot live without. She relies on Jade so much- the idea of having to raise Sona alone scares the shit out of her.

-From Sarah, Jade learns that she has so much to offer. She can be good. She can contribute and have a family of her own. The price, unfortunately, is staggering. Jade learns from Sarah that the true joy lies not in the destination, but the journey. She’s terrified, but…making peace with her inevitable ending. She got to live, to love, she protected Sarah…she’s come a long way. She can die happy, if it means Sarah’s going to be okay. She finally feels as if she has a path in front of her…though it’s not the one she expected.

-Sarah, on the other hand? She’d rather die before she lets go of Jade. Without Jade, she is a shell of herself- reduced to whoever she was before she ever returned to Cassiopeia and put that to rest. She’s learned so much from Jade- being skeptical of her formerly beloved UC, for instance. Sarah is all that stands between the UC and the FC in what is sure to be another full-scale war.

Without Jade by her side…the task is near impossible.

Sarah is NOT going to let her fiancée slip away into nothingness. Though it seems she won’t be afforded a choice.

However this ends, it sure is going to go out with a *bang*!!! 🫠

Here is Jade in the enhance lounge (but we pretend it’s her getting her diagnosis at the clinic instead lol 🥺💔)

And some obligatory gallery shots if you made it this far ☺️

#oc: Jade Walker #starfield #ask #order-of-the-eye #thank you for letting me rant about my baby 🥹❤️ #she just wants to do good and be loved

[twst-discourse-bot]

they deleted their ocs but i have reblogs of them and screenshots of all posts (not reblogs they are just genshin fanart from popular artists) https://tamos-reblog-account.tumblr.com/ admittedly she isnt as bad yet this time self hate minorly sinophobic (it was pretty sneaky i almost didnt notice it) like why is it necessary to make your two black ocs with vitiligo hated by the people of liyue (nation based/inspired from china)specifically and then have both move to mondstadt (nation based/inspired from Germany...) her age was 15 this time lmao the way she has the trans flag all over but doesnt include trans in her bio is... sus? furthers my belief shes faking. well i mean... ofc she is she does it all the time. with every blog. they would have been fine if not for that like i was just scrolling the genshin tag and saw the character card for delilah and thought she was the cutest fucking thing. (im a sucker for vitiligo im sorry) was bored as FUCK tho so i didnt bother to read her stuff but then a few posts down i saw mila and thought oh hey shes similar to delilah so i decided to check out the blog when i tell you my heart dropped and then started RACING i saw the behavior and "hate asks" i looked at the pfp i read the ocs texts im loosing my fucking mind THE REST OF THE STUFF ABOUT HER OCS WAS ACTUALLY DECENT FOR ONCE BUT SHE /RUINED/ IT

they did some stuff with twst but i'll leave that to yall to discuss its just another copy of mulan and tiana

she never changes *sigh*

Hello!! Terribly sorry to everyone for the prolonged radio silence :sobsob: I work full time these days and can't keep as vigilant a watch as I used to, but I have time this morning, so I want to update everyone.

I'm using Tamo's ask as a jumping off point, both to say thank you to them for making the official callout post for Jordan/Ray's newest blog, cutemermaidprincess (now deactivated), and to talk about a couple of things that I'll get to in a moment.

To start, I believe you and I had the same idea. I was mainly leaving her alone to see what she would do this time around. I had no doubts that the blog was her yet again, but I didn't want to start something without having proof and end up throwing some poor rando under the freight train. (Sidenote: one of my mutuals recently had something like that happen to them, being falsely accused of something pretty heinous by a callout account and it scared the life out of them. I didn't want to be the cause of something like that.)

But, now that this blog is gone, I think I can start talking again. Here are the screenshots I took before it went down:

In regard to everyone who sent in asks with this blog's username, thank you! I appreciate what you are trying to do, but please understand that I didn't answer anybody publicly because I have a sort of method to approach this person's habits with. I cannot, in good conscience, take speculation as evidence of a new Ray account, but now that I have the screenshots and the blog is deleted, we can safely assume that it was her again.

While I wasn't crazy about the idea of letting her go after seeing her post the OCs, I was content to just leave her alone to do her thing if she didn't start trouble again, because there's no realistic chance of getting an apology out of her. But she ruined it for herself again, as Tamo said. I only skimmed the chara bios so I didn't catch the Sinophobia this time, I suppose I've gotten careless.

Also, it's extremely shitty of her to use a trait that many people have, vitiligo, as a jumping off point for her fake pity party. She's just adding to the list of reasons why she needs to be perma-banned with every iteration of her nonsense.

It's obvious it was her; I don't know what exactly she's hoping will happen. If she keeps posting in the tags, people will figure out who she is every time. She's better off just giving up at this point, she's made an enemy of nearly everyone in the TWST fandom and I don't think people care enough in Genshin to give her any attention.

#answered asks #evidence

[the-witches-you-couldnt-burn]

It started with a whisper

I originally wrote ‘Like I did with you’ as a one-shot but people wanted a sequel. This turned out to be waaaaay longer than expected (4.7k word count). Inspired by Everybody Talks by Neon Trees. I hope you lot enjoy!

Ao3

(Also this is Mari’s new outfit, all credits go to the original artist)

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Two teens stood upon the balcony of a large banquet hall, exposed to the midsummer night air. The sky was a lilac blanket that hung over the Parisian buildings, speckled with glowing stars. The moon, with it’s crescent smile, beamed down of the young couple.

Hey, baby, won't you look my way?

Marinette’s eyes were closed as she rested her head upon his shoulder, relaxing after the night’s rapid escalation. Tonight she had arrived at the ball with the intent to be there for her friends, but somehow she found herself within the arms of Gotham’s (and probably Paris’) Ice Prince. She had overheard his nickname from the Gotham students, one of which being Jon, who was in the middle of mocking the young Wayne. She had never considered that nickname as suitable; sure he was temperamental & had a tendency to snap, but icey to the core? No.

I can be your new addiction

Damian was calm. For the first time in his life he felt like he could take a breath. His exhale was carried off by a small gust of wind, the bush over hanging the stone railing rustled. With his inhale, the scent of Marinette’s perfume became present once more. Mixed with the crisp night’s air, her usual scent of pastries was mixed with what could only be described as ambrosia. His phone vibrated within his pocket, it was never on volume due to the potential risk it caused during his heroic activities.

“Shit.” Notifications covered his screen, multiple tweets, Instagrams and Tiktoks in which he had been tagged in. But the alert came from his family’s private messaging chat. The whole thread was a shit storm, Grayson and Todd’s messages were completely capitalised (he learnt years ago this meant ‘to yell’ in writing form) and both had multiple ‘keyboard spasms’. Drake, like the thorough detective he is, had combed through the images and videos, investigating their validity. His honorary sisters had replied with ‘awwwww’(s) and ‘Omg we MUST meet this girl! I need to know how she tamed the demon!’. He could practically hear Brown’s shrill voice from across the ocean.

Hey, baby, what you gotta say?

No reply from his father or Alfred. The two of them were the only semblance of ‘normal’ paternal figures he had within his life, after the sham of a relationship he had previously held with his grandfather. Their silence unnerved him.

Marinette had noticed his attention had shifted to his phone, her own mobile was buzzing away within her baby pink purse. Messages, notifications of account tagging and comments galore. A sigh left her lips when she saw her parents seemed to be none the wiser. Good, she didn’t need to deal with future adoration for ‘The boy who swept our daughter off of her feet’ (or something along those lines).

Her cheeks regained some of the warmth they held before as she thought of her parent’s reaction. Scrolling through her Twitter she saw her friends had posted multiple images of the night’s events, majority being her shared dance.

Chloé Bourgeois @TheBestBourgeois

what kind of Disney shit is this? (Insert video of two teens dancing around an mostly empty dance floor.)

Alix Kubdel @Sk8trGirl

Replying to @TheBestBourgeois

I KNOW RIGHT?! THEY WERE FUCKING FLOATING!!!

All you're giving me is fiction

She was thankful that they hadn’t tagged her but she hadn’t been spared by others in attendance. Her post thread had blown up, thousands had commented and even more had viewed the evidence. There was no way she would come out of this unscathed.

“Has anyone been on Twitter today?” The blonde of the family asked as she walked into the dining room. Her eyes focused on her scrolling screen, brows furrowed in confusion. “Actually has anyone seen what’s happening on any of our socials?”

It was early in the afternoon and the family had recently returned home after a straining stakeout. The Joker had broken out of Arkham and the Batfam had to deal with his minions. Dick’s arm was in a sling (sprained from a grapple gone wrong), Jason was icing his hand, Alfred was stitching Bruce’s chest wounds while Tim and the girls escaped without severe injuries. All were still recuperating and finally able to recharge.

Alfred always enforced a strict ‘no devices at the dinner table’ rule; no matter how urgent it was, it could wait until after sustenance was consumed. Tim strongly opposed this, but there was no arguing with Agent A. This all surmises that probably no one had seen the crap storm on social media.

I'm a sorry sucker and this happens all the time

Bruce sighed, bringing his free arm up to rub his eyes. Tilting his head back to look at Steph, “Who was it this time?” Barbara quickly took out her phone to see what Stephanie was talking about, all the while glancing accusingly at Dick and Jason. Both of whom held up their arms (or in Dick’s case arm), declaring their innocence.

“It wasn’t fucking me!”

“Jason! Language!” Dick shot a glare at Jason and was met with one in return. “It wasn’t me either.”

“Then who-“ Bruce started before being cut off by his most rambunctious daughter.

I found out that everybody talks

Stephanie with a squeal, exclaimed that it was Damian. Visions of what the Wayne brat could have done flashed through the heads of everyone in the room. He had been sent overseas before the quarantines and lockdowns hit. During Damian’s first month in France he had been forced into online schooling and then finally when he got to go to in-person classes he hated it. Described the class as a kindergarten with petty and vindictive toddlers.

Had he broken someone’s arm? Was that person of such importance that it had spread over multiple social media platforms? France’s government had announced on June 15th, that teens were now being inoculated so him having COVID-19 was doubtful. Had he insulted the wrong person? Had he taken over the government? He certainly had the potential.

Everybody talks, everybody talks

What they saw stunned them, even Steph as she watched it for the 7th time. Damian Wayne was dancing. But not only that, he was dancing with a girl.

It started with a whisper

“What is this shit?”

No one verbally objected to Jason’s outburst but he was sent a harsh glare from Alfred, Dick and Bruce. Their focus soon returned to the images and videos before them. Babs’ and Steph’s phones were returned to them as the others ran to grab their own devices. They all met back at the table, comparing the posts and comparing their notes.

I can hear the chitchat

“There’s no way this can be real.”

“Jesus Tim,” Barbara rolls her eyes, “have you seen the amount of posts there are? You’d be an idiot to think otherwise.”

Take me to your love shack

“I’m with Tim, how do we know this isn’t some skit. I mean, Demon Spawn almost looks normal. That’s a matter of concern.” He almost dry heaved when he agreed with Tim. Damian couldn’t be capable of naturally exuding that amount of humanity unless there was something in it for him.

Mamas always gotta backtrack

“I was just saying Babs, that we should check the credibility of these images. For all we know they could be gorilla glued together and trying to get unstuck.” Tim cringed at his own reasoning, he really needed to either sleep (probably not going to happen anytime soon) or find his favourite coffee brand (which had been one of the first to vanish after the covid hoarders appeared).

When everybody talks back

Dick was too busy freaking out and spam messaging the youngest Wayne, to defend Damian’s humanity. The family saw this and followed suit, wanting to get information from the source.

Chat name: Alfred supremacy

BigBird: AHHHHHH DAMIAN!

BigBird: YOU LOOK SO CUTE!!!

BigBird: HAIFJDNDNFI

LittleWing: WTF HAPPENED DEMON SPAWN YOU LOOK ALMOST HUMAN

Babs: who knew the city of love would influence the brat

Blondie: they are so cuteeeeeee!

Blondie: We HAVE to meet her!

Silent-but-deadly: agreed.

Timbo: YO DEMON

Timbo: Apparently the videos are legit

Timbo: are you being blackmailed?

And it just devolved into more chaos from there, fueled by the fact that they saw Damian’s ‘Blood Son’ account appear online before vanishing once more. Dick shrieked, “I FOUND HER ACCOUNT!”

The family gathered around the eldest son, peering over his shoulder to view his iPhone 12max screen. They saw a young girl’s Instagram account. It was locked but they could see her profile pic, the girl had black hair and looked to be if Asian decent. They compared it to the videos but it was hard to see due to the hall’s lighting and the minimised facial features of the pfp. Alfred suggested that they search up her username and see who has tagged her, some might have other photos of her.

After research for awhile, the family began to get frustrated with lack of results.

Hey honey you could be my drug

You could be my new prescription

“Come on!” Jason complained, “What kind of teenage girl doesn’t post her life online?” He ignored the girls glares and went back to researching. How had the account by the name of ‘mariiiiinette’ to managed to prevent the entire Wayne clan from accessing it? Damn Instagram privacy settings. He groaned, dragging a hand down his face, “We are fucking stupid. Why don’t we just use the Bat-computer? It would be so much fucking easier.”

“It shouldn’t be used for civilian issues-“

Too much could be an overdose

“The girl could be a meta for all we know! We aren’t safe until we know who she is.” Jason points a finger at Tim, his paranoia flared up and even though he would never admit it, Jason would do anything to protect each member of his family (although Bruce is still debatable).

All this trash talk make me itching

Barbara and Tim took their usual positions as Oracle and Red Robin (who had been banned from patrol due to lack of sleep). The rest of the Batfam stood behind them either with arms crossed or still failing at researching.

Oh my my shit

“The account is owned by a girl called Marinette Dupian-Cheng. She is French-Chinese and her parents own a popular bakery. Also if it wasn’t already obvious, she goes to Collège Françoise Dupont, aka Damian’s French school.” Tim begun informing his nosy family, “But this account has been inactive for the past 6 months, which is strange due to her frequent posting schedule before hand. It seems she probably has a second account and this is her old one.”

Everybody talks, everybody talks

“Not only that,” Barbara interrupted. “There are unopened messages from other accounts that accuse her of being a bully. There is a whole Facebook page about this girl and how she has been hurting her old friends, but neither side seems reliable. The so called victims seem to be twisting the truth but there is barely any information about Marinette so we can’t disprove it either.”

“Read out some of the messages.” Bruce took a cup of coffee from Alfred and sipped it.

The main screen of the bat computer displayed a Facebook group with the banner picture being a photo of Marinette. “They are mostly complaints expected of teen girls when there is a girl they don’t like; ‘Marinette is such a know-it-all’, ‘She is constantly insulting Lila’s intelligence’. They go on to talk about how Marinette was briefly expelled from the Collège before being reinstated by the principle for a reason unknown to them.”

Everybody talks too much

“Her school reports up until this year were good. The newest one states, ‘While Marinette is a wonderful and bright student, I encourage her to settle her disagreements outside of class. This seems to only be a recent occurrence and I implore her to go to the guidance council if she is in need of help.’” A beat of silence echoes through the cave, Tim sighed. “Jason’s meta theory could be correct. She could have just recently started exhibiting her abilities and using them to get what she wants.”

“Bruce what do you want to do?”

“We’re going to Paris.”

She opened her eyes to the blaring morning light that streamed through the blinds. Her lashes still painted with mascara that refused to leave. She felt a pang of sorrow when she was removing her makeup and dress last night, she never wanted the night to end. She shuffled down the stairs to the kitchen, covering her mouth when she yawned. She greeted her mother as she entered the kitchen to get breakfast.

She glanced at her phone and there was the chaos that was started hours ago and it was still occurring. It was the weekend, she wouldn’t need to deal with her classmates until Monday. But she would still have to survive her parent’s interrogation. Out of the corner of her eye she caught her mother smirking at her.

Everybody talks

“Nadja told me some interesting news about last night.” Marinette held her breath, glaring at the toaster, willing it to hurry up so she could escape. “Well,” Sabine patted her shoulder before rubbing Mari’s back. “I know you didn’t want to go but I hope you had fun.”

With that she exited the kitchen, probably going to help her father in the bakery. The ravenette stared after her, eye widened in shock, jumping when the toaster went off. Buttering her toast she went over the conversation, her brows furrowed in confusion. She had expected a ‘When do I get to meet the oh so famous prince?’ or ‘Should I be expecting a new guest sometime in the near future?’ or at least a ‘Who was that young man, Bǎozàng (宝藏 it means treasure)?’ But she said nothing.

A small smile was plastered upon her face as she changed and went down to help her parents in the bakery. Her father didn’t say anything either, he gave her a knowing smile before continuing to kneed the dough. She sat at the the store front as the cashier whilst her parents were busy making ‘Paris’s Finest Pastries’.

Her musings slowly faded as she was brought back to reality by badly hushed whispers. Two young preteens were by the bread roll casing near the door. She had seen them come in before with their parents, the girls went to the prestigious international school over in the 16th arrondissement. The one with purple hair kept whispering to the brunette, both ‘subtly’ glancing towards her. Using her enhanced hearing she listened in on their conversation.

“That’s her, I swear that’s her in the video.”

The blonde’s face soured likes she sucked on a lemon. “No, it wasn’t good lighting there is no way he would dance with someone like her.”

Everybody talks

Marinette had tough skin but their words had an impact, only a small one due to her defence mechanism of repressing emotions. She stopped listening and went back to drawing in her sketchpad, she was in desperate need of a new school outfit.

The two girls eventually came up to the counter, goods in hand. Marinette rung up and bagged their items (paper because save the turtles sksksk) in a tired daze. A phone was shoved into her face, her eyes barely adjusted to view the screen before the blonde spoke.

“Is this your instagram?” She asked in a tone so snobbish that it should be illegal from a person her age. Marinette finally was able to view the screen that was barely an inch from her face. Her old Instagram ‘mariiiiinette’ was displayed on screen, she hesitantly nodded, gaze flicking back to the two in front of her.

The blonde’s nose scrunched up and the purple goth girl squealed in delight. They soon after left the store, their conversation had devolved into ‘See! I told you’ and ‘Yeah, yeah. You were right.’

Walking to school on Monday, she had finally come down from cloud nine. She still rode the tail end of her high as she rushed along her path to her campus, she wasn’t going to be late but she sure wasn’t going to be early. She had spent the better part of the weekend designing and sewing a brand new outfit. Her new look was composed of a black cropped singlet (L'amour gagne hemmed into it and it’s straps), paired matching peach plaid cropped overshirt and a-line miniskirt. Her hair was down, ballet flats were worn and her makeup was the usual with the added edition of a rose gold eyeshadow.

Even though her face was covered in a black and gold mask, she looked hot.

She reached the campus and the whispers started again, people were still buzzing from Friday night. Her classmates, the majority of her grade and the younger years seemed to gossiping before class about the formal’s events. She couldn’t spot any of her friends or the two Gotham transfers, so she was stuck listening the the chitchat. Why couldn’t she have been late like usual?

Damian had a fowl disposition and it showed in multiple icey glares (and that was before he even reached the collège). His family had made their appearance known in Paris at 1am Sunday morning. He could have used his dorm to escape but his family didn’t have the word ‘privacy’ within their vocabulary. He didn’t want to have to pay for a lock replacement due to his brothers’ (most likely Todd with Drake & Grayson laughing at him) lock picking habit.

The Ice Prince was back with full force. He had just been... influenced by all the other couples. Yes he did respect Dupain-Cheng and he appreciated her company & pleasant conversations. He would struggle to hide a small smile at the memory of the dance, even if he denied himself the happiness of normality, he felt content when reminiscing.

“Ooo the Ice Prince is here, did he have a fight with his princess or something?” The voice seemed to mock him.

“The Disney Magic is gone. The demon is back.”

Everybody talks

At the second jeer he shot a glare at the perpetrator. Jon held his hands up in an ‘I surrender manner’, laughing as he joined Damian at his side. The two entered the school’s large foyer and looked to see if any of the classes were open yet. Sadly they weren’t, before he was wrong and the his class was plain torture but this was truely hell.

He saw Dupain-Cheng sitting alone on the stairs, drawing within her sketchpad. He wondered how a girl like her, who always seemed to be involved in other’s lives (for the better) was ignoring all of the comments about her. She felt his focus centre on her, eyes flicking up to meet his, she provided him with a small wave before continuing to draw.

Jon nudged him with an elbow to his ribs and dragged him off to the side, into the boy’s locker rooms. Jon scowled at the door, “It’s a mad house out there. You’ve heard what some people are saying right?”

“Why would I care about these imbeciles?”

Jon jabbed Damian in the chest, causing the demon to stumble. Green eyes darted from blue eyes to the tan finger. “You care when lies hurt people you care about.”

The day began to rapidly decline once the two dance partners took their seats, next to each other. They had both been placed up the back of the class and them sitting together hadn’t been a problem until now apparently. She wasn’t even safe when the teacher started their lecture, whispers and glances were cast towards them. Once the two got to biology it was better, Ms Mendeleiev was a strict teacher and was able to control the class.

Everybody talks

But the recess came. When the bell rang she slowly started packing up her equipment, Alix and Max (who she shared biology with) waited for her; she watched as the Ice Prince left through the door. She knew she didn’t need to be concerned about her friends joining in with the gossiping, if anything they would dispel people and tell them to ‘Mind their own fucking business’ because this whole situations is ridiculous, utterly ridiculous.

She did receive some slight teasing from Alix about being a Disney princess, but Marinette quipped back about the skater’s fairytale story being ‘Pinknette, the Geek and the Beast’. The three met up with the other two of their group, they had just come from geography. Kim was complaining that Argentina was a state in America.

“That’s Arkansas you idiot!” Chloe shrieked, lightly hitting his arm with her white handbag. Max held his head in his hand as he approached, how had his tutoring sessions failed so badly?

Chloe turned to Marinette, a smile forming from her glare. The blonde examined the designer’s clothing, nodding. “You look like you are about to have a hot girl summer.”

Marinette’s face burned, the tips of her ears coated in red. Alix chuckled and nudged her shoulder.

Everybody talks

“Look at her, she is so desperate for his attention that she probably copied those designs.”

“Why do you think he danced with her anyways? Maybe she has something on him? I mean, she forces him to sit next to her in class, who knows what else she has done.”

What. The. Fuck.

Chloe glowered towards Lila’s posy. “We have a fucking seating plan, those cretins-“ She made a motion to storm over but was caught by the ravenette, looking back to Mari, her rage decreased from a boil to a simmer.

“No Chlo. It’s fine, it’s not worth it.”

Everybody talks... back

The group walked out to the school’s front steps, it was a mad house... a mad courtyard? Students sitting on the stairs, on the grass and standing around mingling, all of them now were staring at her. She held her backpack close to her chest (she had swapped her signature coin-bag purse for the pastel pink bag), pretending its a shield. Her friends circled around her becoming an obstacle to prevent their stares. If people were afraid of a scowling Kim then they don’t know the scorn of Chloe or Alix’s bite. And Max, sweet quiet Max.... you better hope he doesn’t have blackmail on you (he probably does), he can dismantle your life with a single anonymous post.

Rushed footsteps approached them. The group was broken apart by a rude Wayne boy, he swept Mari away from the school and the gossip crowds within. Her four friends shouted at him and he kept walking, shooting a glare at them in response. He kept pushing Marinette forward with a hand placed on the small of her back, her backpack was now swung over his other shoulder.

They ended up in her favourite alcove. She had brought him here with the other Gotham transfers for a native’s tour of Paris. It had always been her safe place to be creative.

It started with a whisper (everybody talks, everybody talks)

“My apologises for our rushed departure but you seemed to want to get out of their anyhow.” His gruff tone danced through the silence, his head still peaking around the corner; watching for any unwelcome guests.

“Thank you.” She whispered, her voice almost being carried off by the gentle wind. A genuine smile illustrated upon her face.

“We weren’t able to converse after the events of the other night. I would like to formally apologise once more for my actions causing this adverse reaction. If I had kn-“

“You don’t need to apologise!” She squeaked, hiding her eyes behind her fisted hand. Her shoulders curled inwards as she tried to make herself seem as small as possible, a side effect of her common use of her secondary miraculous form: Multimouse.

“I chose to dance with you, you don’t need to apologise for my own actions.” He stared at her with confusion. He had taken the blame so she wouldn’t need to do so herself; but she had taken it anyways. He had given her an out. Why does she always take the blame, even for things out of her control?

“But if I hadn’t danced with you then you wouldn’t have been the focus of the entire school.”

Marinette stepped forward, her eyes hardened and blazing. “Damian Friday night I went there out of obligation to my friends, I didn’t want to be there. But dancing with you? That was the highlight of my week, probably my month too. I enjoyed our time together.” Her face softened, lips twitched downwards ever so slightly. “I don’t regret anything about that night, but do you?”

He was bad at comfort. Everyone in his family avoided him when they were in need, he plainly didn’t know what to do. She wasn’t visibly upset but he sensed that she is disappointed that he apparently didn’t share the same opinion of the night. The only thing he regretted about that night was letting Jon call him a coward, but then again if he didn’t he never would have danced with Dupa- Marinette.

He picked up her clenched hand, the tension in her body alleviated at his embrace. He remembered how Grayson would apologise to Kor’i or how his father interacted with Ms Kyle. He brought their hands up and placed a kiss upon her knuckles.

And that was when I kissed her (everybody talks, everybody talks)

“I do not regret anything either—“ he cleared his throat, “In fact, I’d appreciate if we would be able to interact more, especially outside of that cesspit.”

Was he...?

It didn’t matter.

She smiled the same dazzling smile she gave him at the dance. She nodded while laughing, “I’d love that.”

Everybody talks

The two stay talking, hidden within their secret alcove for the rest of the day. She texted her parents to say she was with a friend and would be back later that night. Damian didn’t bother texting his family, Marinette knew he had to be back soon due to his dorm’s curfew.

The sun was setting at they walked back together, he did the gentlemanly thing and dropped her off at her bakery door. She could see her mother behind the register inconspicuously looking over at the two of them. Damian’s lips quirked upwards, she was satisfied with his kinda-smile.

He walked back, hands in pockets and a neutral expression upon his face instead of a scowl. He reached his door and took his keys, he found that it was already open. Damn.

His family was splayed out within his two roomed dorm. Todd and Drake were fighting over a place to sit on his bed, whilst his father sat at his desk, watching the commotion. The three of them turned to him as he enter the room, they were the only family members able to attend on short notice; Cain had a ballet audition, Gordon & Brown had concert tickets for tomorrow, Grayson had to take care of Mar’i while Kor’i was on Tamaran and Alfred stayed to ensure no one died during their night time activities.

“We need to talk Damian.” His father stood, leaning onto the desk chair. “The school called and said you had an unexcused absence for half the day. Where were you Damian?”

Damian stared into his father’s eyes. He was fifteen, almost an adult, but was treated like he was ten again.

“I was with a friend.”

“Probably the girl from the dance. Marinette, right?” Todd mocked him. Damian snapped his head in the direction of his bed, glaring at both his brothers.

“That’s what I want to talk about with you Damian. Now I don’t know her personally but from what we’ve discovered through our investigation we have some concerns. What’s happened Damian?”

The youngest Wayne’s glare shifted off of his brothers to the floor, and then finally to his father; his family sitting in wait for his answer. Straightening his posture, his shoulders clicked as he rolled then back. His statement’s tone was sure and steady, “Everybody talks father.”

Everybody talks... back

#maribat #marinette x damian #mlb x dc #batfam salt #batfam is concerned #Daminette #the aftermath of ‘Like I did with you’ #everybody talks by neon trees #max kante has blackmail and will use it #Alix will bite if provoked #dc x mlb #damian wayne x marinette dupain cheng #Marinette Dupain-Cheng is a meta? #supportive Dupain-Cheng parents ❤️

[mrdoctorb]

Hello there friend, we’re friends now

Welcome to the first post I’ve made on this website of indeterminate purpose, and I imagine this might end up being a long one. So anyways I figured “Hey I do art sometimes, what if I just dump it here? That could be neat” So here we are my esteemed friend. I may also post a funny from time to time because I am occasionally quite the funnyman if I do say so myself But yes enough rando introduction, here’s what none of you have been waiting for! Art! These three things are all of the same OC of mine, The Lost King of Autumn, he has been living in my head for the past while and has taken physical form.

This be the creation of this weird lanky bird mask boi, I really liked the design and then kept making a few more things with the lad. This was one of the first drawings I did with my tablet and is most of the reason I started drawing more.

Then here be the full version of my pfp, I made this mostly for discord, but it works well here too. I had lots of fun playing shading and junk and I’m pretty happy how it turned out, even if there are a few sloppy bits around it.

And here be the last one, I was out of town for a bit and brought my USB tablet with me and had a decent amount of downtime to just doodle, so I came up with this thing because you could see the stars and moon super brightly where I was staying (albeit no snow, I just like winter aesthetic)

And that be all I have for y’all, I have no clue if I’ll make a habit of using Tumblr or not, but thanks for sticking around to look at this stuffs.  (Also the name I’ve given whatever universe this man is “The Forest” So I’ll use that tag for this stuff)

Okay have a good day bye!

#TheFirstPost #TheForest #Art #LostKingOfAutumn #Man you really can just keep adding tags huh #MyArt

[caxsthetic]

It was a great journey...

Hello! Aha, welcome to my... Shoutout post... Here I would love to thank everyone that has been here for me... Either fom the start, through thick and thin, support me every day, to all my friends that I found along the way... Everyone... Everyone that I hold dear in my life...

It's been such a wonderful journey. When I was still nothing, making Tumblr just to read fanfiction, and now I became one of the writes who provide people with content...

@blacckdiamondposts Celine oh dear I-I don't know how to start this... You are everything. For real I love you so much it's so hard to describe you have been there for me, supporting me and listening to me ramble a lot about my wip... Nghh thank you, thank you so much over all the things that you have done for me... You always there to shout at me "TAKE A FUCKING BREAK!" and even tho I rarely listen, you still telling me that anyway... So... I hope we would always be friends, because I would love to tell my children about how I first met you🤭🤭🤭

@muffins-puffins Shaffff aaaaaaaa!! I still remember that the first time I message you, your pfp was Kita😁 Ngh, we keep going on and on and ramble about nsfw things... We wild, and I love how we didn't hit any brake when we talk about it... Thank you so much for listening to me and scream at me lmao when I was like, tortuting myself... And thank you for always become such a good friend ever since!!

@rintarhoe Tea, Tea... How to start... Aaaahhhh I LOVE YOU SO FREAKING MUCH😭 Man, you keep me sane through Discord, through everything... I love you so much thank you for always checking out on me... When I feel down or just like, showing unusual act... You always slid to my dm and ask what happen and ask about my wellbeing... Thank you, thank you I love you... The first time we talk in private, it was when you tell me to send my singing video lmao bro that it's so embarrassing dkxnekdmkssn but yeah... I love you so much and thank you for sticking out with me... Thank you for not getting tired hearing me ramble and moping around sometimes... I couldn't thank God enough for giving me the chance to meet you...

@evermorehaikyuu Ivyyy babyy nghh you always listen to me and become such a great friend and I even want to calll you my best friend you know EVERYTHING about me xoemskwokzs aaahhh I wuff u so much Ivy you always try to tell me that I am enough, I am good enough, and that was so sweet and keep me going... You are everything too in my life and idk how far I would stretch myself if you are not there assuring me that I can do it...

@yusemis Nghh Miyuuu😭 You are one of the first haikyuu blog that I follow and I remember how I used to be so afraid to talk to you because maaammm you are so good... And then we become mutual and we talk I just... I just... Want to thank you for being there, for just existing... You really give so much impact in my life and I love you so much, thank you, thank you for sliding into my life...

@baby-boy-taichi Kikiii myy luveliess... You have always been such a kind soul from the start. I enjoy talking to you and just banter around... I miss seeing you and teasing the hell out of Qee... Still remember how people compare about you being this gentle person and Qee being a feral person xiendosksk man... It felt like such a long time since then... Thank you for being here as my friend, I hope your adulthood gave the best life for you!!

@gulfwanq Hey Samantha, dear... Someone who I held dear in my life... You Atsumu fuckers (and kunigami and bokuto and iwaizumi the list goes on)... I love you so much, thank you for always be there for me... Still remember how we met and my god why we are chaotic and up until now I am still happy to be your personal Atsumu porn provider🤭 You are such a great person and always boost me up when I am feeling down... Thank you, thank you so much...

@bleedinqhearts Amber... I want to thank you for just... Literally exist! You are the first Haikyuu blog that I follow... I love everything that you post... Either it was shit post, your god tier fic, anything... It makes me excited to open up Tumblr and see your url in my dash! And over everything you have become such a great friend to me... You check up on me when I act like I am not myself, you keep me updated with the commissions, you are fun to talk to and overall... I always looked up to you and your honesty over everything, was a trait that I really loves from you... So thank you, for writing and being such a great company...

@mochi-poof Olii babyy my sweetest dear who was now going around Semi diendksms I love you so much... You have this feral energy in a good way that makes me crack a laugh when you appear... I hope life would treat you well... Because you deserve it with how kind you are towards others... Thank you for caring for me, and thank you for being my friend...

@chunkchowder Chachi hello hello!! Still remember how we met at first... It was wild and at first I am limitin myself from saying such nsfw things... But turns out you are WILDER than me!! Kdjeosms thank you for being you! You are such an awesome friend that I hold dear in my life... Your appearance always makes me smile... Therefore, please stay in my life... And thank you, thank you for staying...

@miyatsunami I MISS YOU SO MUCH I FREAKING MISS YOU SO MUCH😭😭😭 Nghh, I hope life treat you good, baby!! You have been there since that Miya Atsumu angst series that I make and never once stop supporting me with all of your kind words... You are such a great friend... I love you so much... I miss talking to you every day and I hope life treat you well, baby... Thank you for being here, through everything...

@allywritesimagines From all the people that I mention this human right here is very crucial... Ally was literally the one who pushed me to post here! They pushed me and support me from the start, always reassure me that I am good and I should write because I want to... I love you so much, and even though we didn't talk like we used to... I still want to thank you for existing, for being such a great friend, for pushing me to click "Post" that day...

@kashika mommm!!! Nghh, I love u so much mom😭😭 Hey, how are you? It's been so long since we have a decent talk with each other... I hope life treating you well! I want to thank you for supporting me with your kind words... I love you so much!

@letshaikyuu baby... Ngh, you always so good to me and always boost me up when I am feeling down... Like we talked a lot about kinks and such but you are one of the sweetest people that I have ever met here!! Thank you for still wanting to be my friend...

@iwaixiumi Hey, hello... Ahh how to start this... I love you so much and I want you to know that I am very grateful that I stumbled on your blog and I just... Love to see you on my dash so much you basically one of the people who support me when I was nothing and I am here right now (still nothing) but yeah, improved ever since and I thank God I met you!

@heccingdead haha... Fuck... I cry for real here... Hey Reena! If you read this, I want you to know that you are everything in my life... You support me, help me, boosting my mental and emotion... Still remember when you are shocked because my followers was like... What? 120 when we first talk? And now how I wish you are here but I thank God we share our Instagram account and now we friends in real life too... Thank you for being exist, I could basically filled this so freaking long and maybe paragraphs xkendlsm I love you so much, Reena... The impact that you gave to me... It was lots!

I want to thank a lot of people that support me from the start too... The writers and mutuals that I met here or Discord... People who boost me up, people who I want to hug you so much because how kind they are... @cosmic-goddess-leo thank you for even checking out my fic and help me with how should I write this and that... @kodzuken-pie thank you for being such a good friend and assure me that I am good enough... @vventure thank you for always so kind and supportive through everything... @iwaxme thank you for checking me up even when its been so long since we talk, but you are there to tell me everything would be okay...

Then there was @babiedeku heyy! When I think some people didn't care about me and when I just feel alone you popped out into my life and I feel so grateful... @hit-points Nghhh, thank you for supporting me from the start, for being such a good friends, I love you so much... @imomomi nghh I know we just met but for real I put all of your kind words deep into my heart and I am so thankful over it... @nekxrizawa HEY! YOU GOD RSOSNSKSK thank you so much for being here in my life you are just so so precious I want to crushed you in a hug... @rintarous Oh Jan I always love to see u in my dash like you are such a moodbooster xkwmskam and when you tell me that I push you somehow to write Kita I am tearing up nghh I love you!!

Aahh this is a non stop tag here but @fitriiaw Irdaa baby nghh you are there too since my oikawa fucker phase until now!! Thank you for always care about me... @daiseukis heyy baby thank you so much for always saying such kind words to me you literally make me smile a lot of times, I wuff uu... @t-amajiki aaa Gere we met through Discord I used to be so afraid to talk to you but now when I know you are such a huge softie and a kind person, nxisksks I just want to thank you for being such a great company... @atsunflower aahh we didn't interact much but I just want to say that your blog is such a moodbooster for me I love anything that you do and thank you for being exist!!

Goodness, it's been too long🥺🥺🥺 But yeah, I just want to thank all of my followers, all of the people who read and enjoy my works... People who send me anonymous ask, giving me feedback... Wanting to be on my taglist... Boosting me up with kind words when I am feeling down... You are MVP!!! Thank you for staying and I HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE SUCH A GOOD LIFE BECAUSE EVERYONE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY!!

And all of you kind soul, deserves to have a perfect life that you guys ever want... Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart...

With so much love,

Eycee💕

#caxsthetic ramble #caxsthetic shoutout #yes shoutout #and i thank God #from writing #and from tumblr #i met alll of you! #thank you for being there when i was zero #to now with 2k #it was #such a great journey for real...

[ukeealyptus]

hey! i’ve been writing recaps since day one for the Crocker Corp arg, and figured i should start posting them to tumblr for people who aren’t in the discords! The recaps for the first ten days will be under the read more, and i will start posting daily recaps here :)

DAY ONE  The officalcrockercorp tumblr began sending out an invite to 16 people on tumblr for an all-expenses-paid tour of the CrockerCorp factory. The representative then opened up a q&a about the company. People began to ask more about the representative, who we learned to be an isolated being with glowing red, mottled brown and white skin whom She (crocker) refers to as "Heir", though if that means heir to the company or heir as in the class is unknown. Heir likes whistling, movies, swimming, the color red, bunnies, etc. It is heavily implied that Her and Heir are underwater somewhere. Heir almost certainly has a crocker tiara on and is under control of the batterwitch, as is seen by the frequent obey/consume text when certain questions that She does not approve are asked. Heir has no recollection of saying those obey/consume things. All 16 invitees have responded. There is a security breach where Heir is, and they left to take care of the threat. After saying there was a lot of noise and they had to leave, they dropped the first code- which led to a youtube video of an imgur image of the discord code. The tumblr has continued to post recipes, though there is no sign of Heir. Some people managed to friend and get in contact with a "representative"- while most of their messages only said "Currently all questioning is closed in relation to Crocker Corporation! We thank you for your patience. ". People who asked for jobs were denied for confidential reasons, but one person managed to get in touch with a representative for a short time before they disconnected for unknown reasons. DAY 2   People began to message Jane- the discord representative, and learn more about her situation. Jane had originally been texting normally, but after a "meeting", and a pfp change to include the condesce headband, she could only send standard copied messages. We learned that Jane and Heir were being held captive and controlled by Condy. Heir had been MIA on tumblr for a bit, and people were having coded conversations with Jane, as she could only say "obey consume submit" for quite a while- people resorted to a "once for yes twice for no" type of system. We've learned that Jane and John (who had been going by Heir on the tumblr) were in immediate danger, but that we could safely contact them through the email, and we needed the help of the 16 chosen to help them. Jane then sent some people the invite to the server that the 16 had created, and a few people joined to help them figure things out. The 16 had learned that Jane is currently in May 32nd (lol) 2040, and that the 16 are dead. This death can possibly be prevented, but they are not quite sure how yet. OG16 began to receive coded messages about their classpects- typically insulting each person individually and calling them weak. An encrypted youtube link went up (video 3), it was very difficult to decode, and then Heir went offline and the blog got rebranded to CrockerCorp Employee JE(edited)[11:29 AM]A lot more information has been gained through tumblr dms, discord "hacking", and emails. Using the representative codes that we had gained for JE (john), JH( jade), GT (jake,) and K (condy's wife), people have been talking a lot- im gonna split it up into sections for each app. tumblr dms: tumblr user sarcasmprodigy (one of the og16) had a long discussion with John. Firstly, we learned that DAVE STRIDER, ROSALINE LALONDE, DIEDERIK "DIRK" STRIDER, and ROXANNE LALONDE are essentially wanted by CrockerCorp. Dave for offensive movies, Rosaline for blacklisted literataure spreading anti-crocker propaganda, and Dirk and Roxanna for cybercrimes. After asking for more information about the "project", prod was told they needed a representative code to learn more. They sent K's code, which had been gotten through discord, and began to learn more. K (presumed to by condy's wife), has a higher ranking than John, so he was curious as to why K would ask about it. Prod used the persona of being concerned about the security breach, nd learned that john was only doing what condy told him to, and that nothing that requires a CrockerCorp ID would be told to the public. After questioning about breaches and such, John revealed that he had received an email from Rose Lalonde, the Younger one, containing Roxanne's IP address. John trusts her, as he cannot prove or disprove the IP address, and wishes K the best, and tells her to say hello to Her. emails: As people were standard emailing the representatives, some people decided to make new emails and essentially pretend to be characters- we called them "impersonators". There was a Rose, a Dave, a Dirk, and a Vriska, though most of this information will be from Rose. Rose- referred to as the Younger Rose- has gotten some interesting information regarding timelines. There are two Roses; Rosaline (alpha rose), who is writing anti-Crocker propaganda, and is in frequent contact with Dave Strider, creator of movies, and Rose the Younger (beta rose), who provided a fake IP for Roxanne, as CrockerCorp wants to hunt her down. Dirk- Dirk's emails got us in contact with GT (Jake) and just have some of the funniest things. They clearly believe that they have Dirk on lockdown since they have his sisters (Roxanne's) IP address, and tell Dirk to go meet with Condy, since he presumably has hacked the coordinates of her location. Dirk and Jake had some sassy back-and-forth, ending with the funniest thing of "use code PISSOFFDIRK at checkout for a IHAVEYOURIP% off discount on an order of DRONES$ or more!" so it seems that CrockerCorp is sending drones to the fake address that Rose had sent. lastly is "hacked" discord messages: a few users, mainly @Cosmic , "hacked" into the Crockercorp files using JH's (Jade's) rep code. After trying to access the EMPLOYEE ARCHIVES, which was deemed to be above Jade's privileges, strike two was added onto her identification. Cosmic found information on other codes- JE's code revealed CODE JOHN EGBERT STATUS: COMPLETED RATING: PERFECT INFORMATION: )(A)(A)(A NICE TRY LOSERS, GET BENT AN SUCK MY DIIIIIIIICK (thanks for that, condy.) and using a strange new code labelled TR found CODE TUMBLR STATUS: ONGOING/COMPLETED RATING: DECENT INFORMATION: START TUMBLR BLOG WITH JOHN PROMOTING CROCKER BRAND PRODUCTS. after trying to access "past inquiries", the third strike was added and Jade was summoned to speak with Condy. Fearing that our mistakes have essentially killed Jade, Cosmic emailed John, saying that they couldn't access the room if their card was locked. John frustratedly said, in red "I'll do what I need to do, now go see Her!! You're distracting me from the blog, and I'm only one person after all!" (poor john, please give him a break) As of now, one user is using K's code, since prod is done with it, to access the discord. Everyone has decided that it is best that only one or two people contact the discord/dms/email at a time, and that only one person is ever using a code at a time, since it could be dangerous if two different people try the same code at the same time. I believe that that should be all the crucial information, but that might be edited later if i got stuff wrong! (3/3)[11:30 AM]Additionally. The Meeting between Condy and Jade happens "Off-Camera" recap of the information I got accessing the database under K  Jade: alive, compromised, and unhostile, with two wash (brainwash) strikes. her projects were wiped with her. She has not worked on Sburb We need a code that we don't have yet to see information about the 16 and the "timeloop". jane is unknown (hostile or not), has 26 washes, and is uncompromised. Her id is 2-JC, implying that she is the second employee. I can't search up the first employee. dirk has committed a hilarious amount of crimes and is a stinky boy. he is alive and extremely hostile and once got arrested for "shits and giggles" roxy has committed several crimes including cyberbullying )(IC. dave strider 1 is half alive in a hospital- possibly related to second dave and dirk. crimes include being an asshole (+tall) and the sbahj movie. dave strider 2 is alive and stoic- crimes include calling )(IC a milf, lots of noise complaints on his record. brogarde strider is unknown except for the fact that he is possibly related to dirk and dave 2. most of his crimes inclue cyberbullying, and his very long arrest record mostly includes illegal possession of swords. rose lalonde 1 is alive and calm, at the location that Alice sent in her email. no crimes or arrests. rose lalonde 2 is alive and occasionally hostile, at presumably the same location as rose 1. offspring is unclear, crimes include anti-crocker propaganda, no arrests. ???? lalonde presumably Mom/ beta Roxy. no information. K: accessing her file led to a lot of blanks for name, status, bloodcolor, and projects. )(IC left a note that says ")(I SWEETIE <3" searching for K cause the system to shut down. there was a post on the tumblr that led to a code for another video showing footage of Roxy and Dirk that revealed the name of K- Kussinni. This name was used to finally log into the adfin account. Pat (as the adfin) made a few burner accounts that people can use. We got codes for MP, FP, EA, and DS, being the first few employees of the company. We did, well, adfin work, bumping up privileges for the adfin and guest accounts, creating burners for messages, etc. In classified documents, we learned that the 16 were set to beta test sburb in 2055. Brogarde is wanted ASAP so that he can be interrogated about strilondes. the timeloop file is largely redacted, but has to do with the 16 god tiering. We couldn't message )(IC, but we did get in touch with John for a few minutes before the system shut down. DAY 3  Jake is controlling the blog, though it is now shut down due to a massive security breach courtesy of Roxy and Dirk. Eridan has an account, and we used it to unblock Jade haha. People are talking to the person controlling the CC Discord! Their name is F which we knew from a code that we had gotten quite some time before)- we've been calling them Felix-  and they are a psionic!  They are an absolute 100% certified sweetie and we love them. They were taught emoticons, and even drew their own! They also invited dirk to talk with the 16. Dirk is currently just trying to get to Jake and de-crockertier him. After the security breach, Felix has not responded to anyone.

firstly, the tumblr led to a code to another video. The security breach was due to Dave 1 and Rosaline (both the older/alpha versions), who had infiltrated the Atlantic wing. 1000 drones were dispatched to deal with each of them. The video also showed felix- we now have confirmation that they are a goldblooded psiionic in control of the systems. felix/)(AI/Psiionic felix talked to us for a while! We learned that the breaches have mostly been sorted, Jade and Jane are both alive but in danger. jake is trying to work out Jades compromised identity. Felix told Dirk to piss his pants, and said "HE HE HE HE PISS BOY". Felix only knows the basics about the 16, such as their cl*sspects (which they needed to censor). Felix is not the only system, and the others are not friendly. Felix has only been "alive" for a few days, does not have a classpect, and got very upset when the deaths of the 16 were mentioned. Felix was made for the network to do everything, and vehemently refused to run a self diagnostic.  HAL/DIRK It seems that the Dirk we have been talking to was HAL all along. @ardentTheorist [AT] , dm'ing Dirk, was given a very fun challenge: to hack HAL. Hal had three files: Main, Backups, and Memes. Memes was password protected. Main led to a python file, captchas, perms, and art. when asked about unzipped programs, hal had the amazing line of "I have an unzip your pants program installed in me". not relevant, just very funny. Captchas led to something titled "Hmm.txt" Perms required an admin code. Artwork was simply dirk's canon art. Trying to get into the meme folder and guessing an incorrect password caused hal to shut down. Currently, the contents of the memes, permissions, and backups folders are unknown. Dirk, in response to a partially successful hack of his bot and frustrated about having to reboot Hal, claimed "Yeah, just rid a guy of his privacy. Can't have shit inside a bot folder." DAY 4  Felix: got a lot of new information from felix including ID's for a lot of characters. Kussinni is confirmed to be the Disciple, Sollux is Felix's repair guy who lets Felix get away with his art, and everybody is wearing tiaratops with the exception of )(IC and K. felix is inside of a moniter. Jade's files have merged with Jake's after her accident. Felix can access some cameras but has seen nothing unusual. Dirk was the last person who managed to access Jake's files before the passwords got changed. Only one account has the privilege to prevent people from getting locked out for guessing incorrect passwords. The led to a conversation between F and Dave 1 (David Strider). F, who is using the name Felix (he liked the name we gave him!!!) reached out to try to contact Dirk, but got David instead. David has a prosthetic arm signed by Dirk and Roxy. Felix happened to reach David because he is living with Dirk. Their house seems a bit crowded- it seems that David, Dirk, Roxy, Rosaline, Dave, and Rose the Younger are all living together. That leaves Bro, and ???? Lalonde with unknown locations. Dirk posted something that linked to a little conversation that linked to a discord user- David. People have been talking to him, and we have gotten some useful information amidst all of the memes. Firstly, David attempted to convince people that he was Roxy. This seems fitting for him, as identity theft was on his criminal record. David was probably the cause of the shutdown earlier, though it seems that he and Rosaline were able to get in and out of crockercorp relatively unscathed. This will lead to more security in the future, undoubtedly. It also is why we still have not heard from Felix in a while. David knows a bit about Sburb- he was very shocked to learn that he was talking to people who in time (2040) were dead. He knew about a couple of the 16s deaths, but not all. He did not know anything about the Timeloop (the file we could not access). he knows that Felix likes Dirk, which explains why Felix was trying to contact him earlier. Honestly, we got far more goofs than solid information. David hates being called old but will consent to being called Dadvid, just learned what a dilf is, and is 6'8 and buff. he hates cops. He's remained pretty tightlipped on everything, which is valid since he probably doesn't fully trust us yet. got a new video of dirk pranking david and making him piss his pants. DAY 5   The CC mainframe was rebooted. The person/ai running it is still using ID F, but it is no longer Felix. However, Dirk managed to get a backup of Felix before the system shut down and Felix is now inside of the glasses with Hal. Yes dirk ships Halix (get cucked, ardent). Felix no longer has a blacklist of information that shuts him down, but he also doesn't have access to the mainframe so he can only tell us what he remembers. When the system was rebooted, alice was sent an anonymous message written in binary saying "They found you". this message was sent two minutes before the reset from sector D, where sollux works. We have assumed that sollux has essentially been stalking us. alice responded with a discord tag in binary, so hopefully we will get in contact with Sollux soon. Felix used to have a physical body. The last thing that he remembers from it is being called from his sector by Sollux, who said that he had a "new task". Felix doesn't know Mituna, but believes Sollux might have said it. When sent an image of the Dolorosa, the Disciple, the Sufferer, and the Psiioniic, Felix said he recognized the horns of the Dolorosa and said that he had seen the Sufferer before, in a photo in Kussinni's office. He also has seen the Psiioniic, and Felix is not the Psiioniic. Felix saw him when he was walking to his new sector, and he was in a big room guarded by scary trolls. He was awake and when he looked at Felix the room lit up red and blue, and then sollux told Felix it was rude to stare. Currently, we're waiting with hopes of getting in contact with Sollux. We've gotten a message from sollux and he yelled at us. i'm hoping to get his discord so we can talk to him DAY 6 We got in contact with Sollux. we've put him in a lot of trouble and danger and we need to stop trying to brute force our way into the system, and we've prolly gotten most of the info we can out of it anyway. The only way we should try to get into the system is if we absolutely know the password and preferably run it by sollux first. John is alive. GT says he's doing "mighty fine and dandy" but, well, i dunno how realistic that is. Felix saw him a bit before he was reset and said that he looked sad, but okay. jake was standing in the doorway with him. DAY 7 Dirk has specific orders not to talk about the other striders, though from whom is unclear. A security recap shows that Sollux was sent to check up on Aradia, who is a very important and heavily gaurded project- Artificial Godtiers (implying she godtiered without playing sburb, possibly). She is in her dead god tier. When a mechanical voice said to run the task Timeloop, she floated off of the ground and the room was encased in red light. Sollux has not been heard from. We got the password to Aradia's account and finally accessed the timeloop file. It appears that if anything happens to the 16 before the godtier, the timeloop will run and reset everything. The CC needs all of the 16 to godtier so that they can exploit their powers. The creation date of Aradia's account is redacted, and she cannot access any other files. Sollux is alive, with no wash strikes. Dirk has gone MIA. He's infiltrating CC to rescue Jake. This is risky, and he didn't even tell David about it, just sent a few messages to certain people and left. I expect that he will shut down the system to get in, and hopefully I will get a ping when that happens. Dirk went to rescue Jake, leaving Felix and Hal behind. Hal, Felix, and David will all help us rescue Dirk, though they're unsure as to how. DAY 8  There's a new representative on the CC tumblr: PH. As there is no PH in homestuck but there is a Prince of Heart, it seems that Dirk's mission was. . .  unsuccessful. However, Hal is willing to work with us to save him. We've sent the Trojan file to the network, which will hopefully give us access to the cams. We can, theoretically, back up Hal and upload him into the CC Network; the opposite of what Dirk did to Felix. Hopefully Roxy will help us out. We aim to hack into a tiaratop. Roxy is going to back up Hal and then Ardent will upload him into the CC network. However, we should refrain from uploading anything to the network until we have Sollux's support. When we tried to upload the trojan file yesterday, sollux had to immediately kick everybody off of the system and implement a new password and he is not happy about it. however, that did get him to talk to us. he said that he saw dirk when he had to issue an ID for him, and that he looked extremely happy, though that isn't uncommon for new interns. His eyes were orange. I asked Dirk on the tumblr and he says that his left eye is red. Jake also has one red eye. This could mean that he is only half under control, and that we have a time limit for getting him back. Since Dirk and Jake are halfway there, it seems like its our turn to get them the rest of the way out. I will hopefully get a message from both Finn and Sollux when they are willing to talk, and I can get them to help us out. Our plan failed. But we got close. First and foremost: Finn helped. just a little; letting hal bypass a password, but it's absolutely something. I'll keep talking to him to see where we can get. When we tried to shut down Dirk's tiaratop, sollux yelled at us and deleted the files. sollux, while a cranky little bitchass coward who would rather block someone and pretend that his problems don't exist than actually do something (i promise im only still a little bit upset ;-; ). I tried to see if I could convince him to help, but he updated the security to ensure that we stayed out. I tried to tell him that we wanted to help Aradia, too, but he blocked me at the first mention of her name. (my bad) According to Roxy, Rosaline, Rose, and Dave all left the house to go somewhere. We got a new video that told us nothing we didn't know: it showed Dirk how Sollux described him; one eye red one eye orange, smiling broadly. His tiaratop is in the shape of the Prince crown. DAY 9 was widely uneventful- no answer from Sollux, David taking everything pretty hard, Finn is my best friend :). DAY 10 

 Dirk is a full employee. He's been artificially godtier'ed. It looks like hes similar to aradia- dead eyes. he is most likely being held with aradia. This might seem bad, but we can still save him. Sollux has a connection with Aradia and the AGT thing- this can work if we can get his help. The plan right now is, well, to come up with a plan. I'll talk to finn when he is offline and see if we can get confirmation about a lotta things and mainly see if he can contact Sollux for us. We'll continue to try to get in contact with Sollux. We'll work through this with the Strilondes and hopefully stay optimistic.

Sollux is willing to continue to talk to us!!! After a bunch of arguing, bantering, and death-threatening, he seems to have warmed up to us (he even friended me again!!! :3c). He just needed to be shown a little more kindness :). Amidst all the threats and cruelty, we seem to have learned a few things. CC can "bend time" and "redo anything", probably due to Aradia's powers. They could theoretically reset the timeline to before any of this, but that seems to be an empty threat for now. He can see all of the messages we send, even in hidden channels (we are Not going to witch hunt for a "mole" please and thank you) due to Hot Crocker Corp Tech. Sollux accepts how terrible his position at CC is, though this acceptance is mostly like the influence of the tiara. The tiaras seem to be influncing the emotions of the workers, numbing everything outside of their work. Sollux claimed that he was incapable of caring or remembering feeling happy or proud of, well, anything. He may say this, though it is still apparent that he cares deeply about Aradia. He talks about how pretty she is in her beautiful god tier outfit, and after some persuasion he even says that his favorite color is rust red <3. Unfortunately, the window that Sollux checks up on her through in only one-way, so she never sees or talks to him. This is what he meant when he said that he doesn't think his friends can see him.[5:31 PM]The superiors of CC are spreading propoganda to the workers about people dying when they tried to leave; it seems that they use fear tactics until their workers are completely numbed and controlled by the tiaras. There is no confirmation of these ideas being true or not. Sollux is still adamant about the fact that he is replacable; he uses this to frequently show his respect for Prod; another smart gemini. He mentioned something very curious- he said that the god tier powers of people outside of the 16 do not have to go unused. He told daven't to keep in contact with david for this purpose. As for the others: Hal and Felix seem to be fine, trying to take their minds off of what is currently happening and just enjoy watching some shows together. Both David and Roxy are getting hit pretty hard with everything, but will hopefully be okay. The system is currently shut down because pat mentioned heatbleeding to it. Sollux completely shut down the system at the first mention of it, so I don't think it'll work in the future. I'll hopefully get a ping when it goes back up, though I wasn't able to ask Finn for that before he shut down because it was so unexpected. Finn is very sweet and he's becoming more receptive to me talking to him (he uses exclamation points now instead of just periods!!!) so hopefully when the system goes back online i can talk to him more and he'll be willing to help us when we need it :) Now, this is kinda unrelated, but we should probably be careful about screenshotting most private dm's. Essentially, just don't let them know that you screenshotted it. We still need to make sure that everybody knows what is happening. The plan moving forward is to continue to talk, form allies, and get a solid plan :) . And that's all caught up! I will be posting recaps here at the end of each day from now on :)

#crocker corp #crocker corp arg #homestuck #sorry this is such a long post ive written a lot of recaps

[hanging-upside-down]

Eugh, anytime I accidentally catch a glimpse of your pfp on discord while checking other messages it makes me cringe so bad omfg

Like actually

You're so down bad. How can you live with yourself, how?

If I fucked myself up like that I'd want someone to shoot me. How can you be so comfortable with the knowledge that you have made at least one person seriously hate you? It's been over half a year and I'm still making up new ways to torment you. I don't just hate you, I *actively* want to hurt you. And really badly at that.

In fact, were I a bit older and corona didn't exist, I may or may not consider making those plans a reality. Hey, I have both your addresses and I know your routines. And I'm sorry to say this (except wait a minute, I'm not) but you have to be the easiest person to trick on the face of the earth. You're really not that bright and if you think you are, well that just makes it worse.

You're just like everyone else now. Although, come to think of it, you were before you went bat-shit crazy as well. Just as a different group of people. You went from discord no-life but still a fairly functional person (and, at the time, bloody life support for me apparently, very regrettably) to just the average lgbt freak who plays his own god and has literally no distinguishing features whatsoever anymore. You went from somewhat decent to a lost fucking cause. You've actually managed to make something that was already pretty dumb even dumber.

And it's a shame really. Your glaring lack of self-respect. You think it's all la-dee-da like "oh yeah I'm a girl now 💅💅 if you don't respect me like a lord then you can fuck of ❤️❤️❤️" like bro. This might come as a surprise to you, but humans aren't hermaphrodites?? 😀?

And thinking to be something you're not, in something like this, (and I'm not making this up, I heard it from a teacher) is borderline insanity. If you were to say to an average person "I am a girl" despite being very obviously a boy, they would think you crazy. And I wonder why, I wonder the fuck why.

Everyone's on your side, one of the many excuses being that "your parents support you, your friends support you and you've been much happier".

OH SHIT MY BAD, can't be infringing on berg the brave and glorious's oh-so important mental health now can we?? What was I thinking, oh Lord I should be ashamed of myself shouldn't I? 🥺🥺🥺 Let me just go back to my puddle of blood and tears while you soak up the serotonin.

Good God. You think youself a king when you're just a merchant like the rest of your fancy little friends. And I'm being extremely generous calling *you* a merchant.

I can't say enough how much a wish we'd never met. I wish I'd never even set foot in TME's server. I can still hear your incessant voice in my head. The last words I ever heard you say were "I got to go" and then you left the discord call we were in with some random other people playing scribble.io or some shit. You just never leave do you, it's driving me mad for God's sake.

[comfysadhoodie]

Love - it breaks you. Read my story :)

I fell in love. It wasn't as magical as it is shown in artistic viewpoints, but it surely had it's things. What was I looking for? I was looking for an escape - an escape from the life I was living. After every depressing episode between my parents and my family, I was looking forward to text her, to talk to her and just chat away my anxiety, my feelings. She started making me feel happy, giddy, and what not.

It soon grew, however, in a matter of a few months - I failed to acknowledge any other females around me. They just weren't anything for me! She is the best! She still is.

Here's my story of discovering Love, and breaking myself in the process.

It started on April 15. I just turned 16 on 2nd April (yes, that just really was close.) I was an introvert, and a freelancer. A weird combination if you ask me, but all I did in a day was listen to my parents' rants, see them fight, get occasionally beaten up by my father if he had taken a bottle down his throat - and apart from all of this I would freelance and save up money. I won't go into how much I made, I won't go into what I did with it (Maybe a little...) but the thing was, I never knew what love meant. In the past, I had crushes, I had girlfriends - I was fooling around with girls, holding hands, talking to them in school...but it never was something serious.

Well, the day our online school started, it was my English Period. Our teacher asked us to introduce ourselves one by one. My turn came, and being the introverted anxious guy I was, I took a very bold approach.

" Hey everyone. My name is "comfysadhoodie" and I am an introverted person, I'm trying to get over my social anxiety. Even though I'm shaking right now I'll try my best to tell you guys about myself. I am a student -" I proceeded to talk about my freelancing journey, and a little bit about my past educational and extra curricular matters. Where I live, English is not a primary language and anyone that could speak fluent english was considered a smart and educated person. Hence, I got some traction.

Many classmates messaged me, except one that slightly drew me subconciously. It was Sue, my classmate. She initiated the convo because I had a #TokyoGhoul pfp, anime watchers will relate :) we talked for the first time, and I thought to myself, she seems cool. We became friends.

Now, hey, for her, an extrovert with over 200 followers on Instagram, I was just another leaf on the tree. But for me? A person, who literally does not interact with anyone, had no friends at that time? She was my "FRIEND!"

We bonded over random topics, becoming best friends over the span of a few months. A few key events changed me, influenced by the feeling of love...and me being suicidal.

I tried to attempt suicide around July last year. It was a weird attempt, I wanted to do it but I wanted to live. I wasn't sure. It was a rushed decision. An idiotic decision. One of the biggest mistakes I have made. I jumped, due to some reason I still don't know, I hit a tree instead of the crossroad below, and instead of seeing the Sacred light, I broke my four of my ribs, my right hand's shalt bones, and the broken ribs, in the near future, lead to a condition called Pneumothorax where the sharp end of broken ribs can puncture the lungs.

I know, right? What a turn of events.

You can come at me in the comments, tell me I made the wrong decision, I already know though. It was the STUPIDEST THING TO DO!

I was administered in a good hospital, my savings (somewhat decent. Trust me, I was working my ass off for clients :P ) leading to financing my three surgeries to join the ribs through Rib Fixation (I'm a med student soon :P so I kinda researched things for knowledge). I could just think about Sue while there. My screen time was somewhat less, so all I could think was to talk to her and relax. She used to make me feel happy.

Time passed, I was somewhat healing around August.

September was a Roller Coaster for me. From 15th September, we started chatting for hours, everyday. I was happy, I could be closer to her for quite a long time. Soon, we started calling occasionally too, once a week. I loosely told her I had a crush on her in August end, I never thought she took it seriously, she even outright said so too.

Due to some changes (namely her best guy friend telling me he loves her too and me panicking that he might take her away from me) I decided to confess in all seriousness that I had fallen for her on 25th September. I remember dates quite nicely. A boon, and a bane. She replied after some time, around 4 hours. I was panicking, but she said that she needs me to focus on studying, and she sees me as her best friend, nothing else. It was an acceptable response, but still, she did not turn me down, because she would say things like, "I'm confused".

We casually dragged the topic for a few days more, from 25th September to 16th October. She decided to end it in a fabulous way. She called me, around 2 pm, after hyping this convo in the name of " I need to tell you something, it's nothing serious tho, just wanted to talk about something. " I have a duality inside me. Optimism extreme, and the other one is super pessimistic. I was thinking, maybe she will tell me how much I suck, but at the same time I was thinking she is shying to tell me she likes me 😂 I know right, suck it up, bud.

Well, the worst happened.

She calls, and says, Hey, You're a really good person, and I thought you deserve a fair chance, and that's why I was talking to you for hours for days. I was trying to analyse the situation, and even after tryingggg to feel something for you, I couldn't.

the last sentence broke me.

I mean...I was that Unlikeable that even after trying she could not like me?

Huh.

My moving on journey began.

I could not forget her, though, of course. I would text her just once, for five minutes, everyday, to check in how she was doing.

Suddenly, around 24th October, something took over me and I started to ask her what went wrong. We were chatting somewhat more, she would tell me how her mom thought of me as a nice person based on her explained description. That was an obvious joy of a news, seeing her family approving of me in a way.

Due to some school work, I was supposed to be around where she lives. We struck up a plan to meet at her house, so I could meet her mother and her sister.

I was trying to act cool, but the thought of seeing her outside school was making me tingle. It was a great meet. I wasn't much anxious during the convos, and the best part was, she seemed happy.

I went home, and the next day in school, we talked about the meetup we had. We chatted away in person, I broke the touch barrier too by putting my hands on her shoulders from the back. It was a spur of the moment thing, I didn't do it on purpose...just subconciously, it happened.

I reached home by 3 PM, and got freshed. We started chatting, and she was acting a little...different. I talked to her, told her she can be honest and tell me what's going on. At 4:20 PM (nice) she told me she has started to like me.

The duality struck again as she proceeded to tell me about her rules that we would stay in touch till we're 18, and then date each other. She even went as far as to talk how she would have "coitus" after engagement.

I was thinking, she's just telling her rules. Then I was thinking, does she like me enough to think about engagement too?

Oh, I'm going off topic. Anyways, I was happy. But in just two weeks she had begun to like me...that was weird!

What ended up happening was, we started talking, flirting on texts, it lead to us calling a lot more too...

Well, my dad is here. You know the drill. I'm sorry, I'll continue the spicy bits in part two.

I'm really sorry :) Hoping someone finds this

#lovestory #love #teenagelove #broken boy #broken guy #broken #psychology #lovethoughts #breakup #anime #health & fitness #love quotes #quotes #love thoughts

[prayersforpets1org]

"Taegan" FOUND! She had quite a wild ride!

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"Taegan" FOUND! She had quite a wild ride!

LOST DOG TAEGAN 13yo, FOUND!!! Thank You, thank You Jesus for shepherding Anita and Taegan back together after much ado and frantic searching. Please help her to calm down and understand that she is home and safe. Help mom Anita to catch up on the rest she missed during 36 hrs. of constant searching. We praise Your Name. In the Name of Adonai Machsech. God our Refuge/Shelter. Amen. <3 Caren

Anita Chaplin 10-11-17: Taegan is home safe. Found her around 5 pm. She was about 3 miles from home. She is fine. Just hungry and tired. Thank you for all the shares and prayers ❤️ My friend Amy and her son Ethan came over, and we went to the neighborhood that a lady who called me said she had seen Taegan in that morning. It was a long shot that she might still be there, but it was the only lead I had. PfP: Haha! No long shots when God is giving directions! (see more below) Anita’s blog 

Luke 15: 22 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

      PfP: Thank you thank you God I knew you would find her. So how did she get that far? How did you find her?

Anita Chaplin: We drove around, weaving in and out of streets…since it had quit raining and the weather was pretty decent, people were out an about walking, biking, sitting on their porch. We pretty much asked everyone we saw, ‘hey, have you seen a small black Chihuahua?’

Actually a couple people on two different streets confirmed they had just seen her. So we figured we had to be close. We got tot he end of the street, and looked across, and there was Taegan, standing in the street by the corner! Has she ever run off before?

I flew out of the car…really don’t remember much about that part of it. Amy was driving. I ran over, and right as I was about to pick her up, she bolted! I chased her, then stopped, hoping if she saw me stop, she would stop, but she didn’t. So I ran after her….good thing I’m a runner! 🙂 So I ran after her….good thing I’m a runner! 🙂 She stopped to turn around, and when she did, I grabbed her up and held her tight. Amy and Ethan pulled up about that time. Taegan was so scared….I don’t think she even realized it was me and she was now safe! We all were hugging and crying! No, she has not run off before. I’ve cared for dogs since 1995, and because of rescue and foster, I’ve had more dogs in my home than most people would have in a lifetime, I’ve never had one go missing!She stopped to turn around, and when she did, I grabbed her up and held her tight.

She was wet and hungry! I had brought a bag of treats, and Amy and Ethan were feeding them to her as I held her, and she was gobbling them up! It poured rain yesterday….my poor little girl. Just wonder what she went through. I’m going to blog about it here in awhile. Got to do some more job hunting! The situation with Taegan was priority yesterday. I’ve got a headache that will not go away! I was up for about 38 hours straight. I could not rest knowing she was not safe.

#chi #chihuahua #found dog #Lost Dog #rescue #save

[paulinemarcher]

If God Wasn’t In My Life

I was just talking to God about how much my life were to differ if I haven’t met Him and accepted Him. I have to thank my 13 years old child-like faith who accept anything to escape the problem that I still currently face till today. But today I am not writing about my problem. 

Today is it about God’s involvement in my life.   Honestly speaking, I’m not talented when I was very young. I still remember how my mother taunted me for not playing the piano well overseas in Malaysia. 

“See lah, cannot play the piano, how?”  

That made me scared and hopeless. I scored 182 in PSLE and I was really pinning for Express Stream. My tuition teacher said I had potential to do well but I was lazy. Wow, I wished I knew that. Overall, primary school was not my defining moment.  All along, I knew what I liked which is the arts but that was not what I was good at, and these ideals of me pursuing the arts was dismissed by my mother as the phrase I heard often,

“You can’t make a living out of this.”  

It really hurts me, because I do feel for an affinity for the arts. I am drawn to arts. I really love to do artsy things. Like a Korean drama, here comes the good parts. I scored really well in academics and I just discovered my talents during an encounter and some strengths during CCA. 

I got first in class for the first time in secondary two and I already knew God, so I knew first wasn’t everything. I still remember receiving the news in Perth and jumped for joy. I continued to work hard despite myself dropping positions (but I didn’t drop like crazy) because: (1) Other people deserved their positions for their hard work (2) First wasn’t everything to me (3) If I worked hard to maintain my position, no time for God. At the end of secondary four, I placed ninth and qualify for PFP. I started learning how to sing by listening to a jazz performance in school and suddenly I have that euphoria moment where I just knew,

”Jazz is awesome, I want to sing jazz.” 

Then I started singing, it was bad at first. People criticized me. But I wonder why I didn’t cared for their opinions. I am actually very sensitive to comments but I had low self esteem. Even though it does not stop me from singing, I don’t feel qualified to sing on a stage. So I sang, googled, attended classes, sang at choir, sang as a soloist(not a big fan), learned how to harmonize. I did so many things, sang so many songs to improve myself, copied singing styles, learning breathing techniques. I feel I am a decent singer, but not a great singer. My dream was to be a singer, but I looked at this world, sighed and said this to myself,

”I will sing for God instead. Because without Him, I couldn’t have learn how to sing.” 

God gave me opportunities to sing so I credit my singing experiences to God.  Back to my awesome results that qualify me for PFP, because this is a defining moment where I always say to God,

”If You are not here with me, I literally cannot function or move forward because You led me to this.”

The way I sound seems like God didn’t give me a chance at deciding my course. I don’t mean it that way. I understand that God gave us freewill. I acknowledge that. But try deciding what course you want to go in poly without any idea what you will become is so scary. The obvious thing is first, know what I am good at. My mother observed that I was someone who is better at doing some sort of specialist work as she noticed how much I can concentrate. It’s true. I realized at doing project work, I will spend hours researching stuff (if I’m like super into it). Yes, what she said was true. 

I was good at sciences so as an Asian mum, science is like YES PLEASE GO THERE AND MAKE LOTS OF MONEY!!! My mum suggested Chemical Engineering, but hold on a sec. As much as I am good at sciences, I’m not a boring person, okay? That course seems boring and tedious, I was like,

“Ew no way!”

Still was undecided about courses. I head to poly open houses to make  informed decisions. And that moment when I decided to walk towards the Perfumery and Cosmetic Science booth at T11C (omg i still rmb) changed me. Okay, I want to backtrack abit. I want to say that I didn’t have a good impression of the course and it appeared girly to me. 

“Ew so girly!” I squirmed as I scrolled through the SP page.  Aha, I bet God was laughing at my foolishness. Once I smelt the perfume by the senior and inquired about the course which is by the way is 70% chemistry and 30% fragrance and cosmetics applications, I was like okay this is the one for me. I don’t know how, what, why I feel that way. I just knew, yes I am going into this course. I thank God PFP gave me 5 choices to fill in or else I really don’t know what courses to put. So first choice, I put Chemical Engineering and second choice, Perfumery and Cosmetic Science and the following random courses you don’t have to know.

Wait a sec. Pauline didn’t you knew Perfumery and Cosmetic Science for the ONE for you?? That list of choices I put originally, I showed it to my mum first. She nodded and agreed with my choices. And I did the most riskiest and badass thing ever.

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I switched the positions. YES YOU DID NOT READ IT WRONG.

Perfumery and Cosmetic Science was my first choice and I got in by my first choice. Praise the Lord, I swear it was risky but yes hey I got into my course! Guess what? I really love what I learnt, and God have been dropping hints about my career related to my course.  Everything from poly onwards is just... really by God. It’s not me, and without Him, I really don’t know where I am going. Can I just say that God actually knowledge my artistic side and know what is best for me?! You can really trust God in what you are going to do in the future :)  Now I dream about being a perfumer, making scents and making beautiful smells!

Many more things I want to credit God, but I will stop here. I enjoyed how much God has given me in my life. I used to think I have nothing and quite useless but God gave me something, a hope and a future. I mean, I have this relationship with the God who knows everything about me, including my future. 

Love you very much, God. Thank you for knowing who I am.