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twopercentboy · 2 months

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Let's Play a Game

Never have I ever been a foolish creature crawling on its belly for all of eternity

Never have I ever been a fruit seller leaving poetry on rough paper at someone's door in the dead of night

Never have I ever told a series of animals about a person to the tune of a lullaby

Never have I ever written a poetry into a tea recipe

Never have I ever stayed up past 1 a.m. to write poetry for someone who used to listen to Christian Rock (this will absolutely demolish me every time I think about it, whos dad are you???)

I'm out of fingers, how'd you do?

PoetAnon

I have been questioning how I should respond bc I feel like it needs to be Different than usual but you'll be waiting all day if I do that and I feel like that would suck so we're just pushing through 😭

first off, love the decision to use never have I ever to reveal urself, my friend who's been hearing everything related to you the past few months also applauds that decision bc he, quote, "love[s] it when things at the end mention stuff from the beginning," and also it's a bit cinematic and they've been watching this unfold like their own personal romcom giggle

second, I feel as though I'll regret sharing that tidbit of information about myself </3 my only defense is I was raised very Catholic (and having it be my preference usually meant I got to control the car radio which pissed off my brothers and I liked having that power over them)

third, I really must applaud myself for how much of a genius I am /j I don't have the receipts for the very first time I uttered the phrase "this has to be yd" because that occurred in person when i was visiting Texas, but I have receipts for the following days:

there's more but I don't wanna have to do the alt text for those ones bc they're chunky, but obviously now I can just send them directly to you if you wanna see how extensive I was being with my friend 🤭

lastly, I dont post my discord or other socials publicly but lmk ur preferred platform bc I wanna talk to you properly ^^

#poet anon #yd597 #<- its great to have a name to tag now giggle #also i did not include it in the post but i Freaked Out upon seeing the ask #im very excited about this 🤭#i think i said everything i wanted to say #not hundred percent sure tho bc i kept getting distracted by my nephew being adorable (hes 2)

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irrealisms · 4 months

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You dont have sex because you're waiting for marriage or because being gay is a sin?

man i dont remember posting anything abt not having sex/celibacy/being side b before this ask, idk what this was inspired by. it's probably bait (and, quite frankly, it's none of your business why i'm having or not having sex) which is why i waited almost a full week to answer but i'm going to answer it anyway (once) because i want to be open about this. if you or anyone else is interested in having a discussion on why i believe the things i do, send me a message or an ask off anon. i'm much more willing to be vulnerable in a setting that isn't "anon question that is probably bait".

as a clarification that will probably mean very little to my secular followers but will be appreciated by my side b followers (and hopefully at least mean something to my side a Christian followers): i reject this dichotomy. i'm celibate because i'm gay--but i don't think being gay is a sin. i am gay. i do not believe my existence is a sin. i believe that i've found many beautiful and true things from being gay, and that God made me gay for a reason. i am glad i'm gay, and i don't wish i were straight or pray to become straight. so, so much of side b advocacy within the Church is focused around making it clear that, while being gay comes with different temptations than being straight, it is not a sin to be gay. (note also: different temptations. not "being gay comes with temptations and being straight doesn't".) it would be a slap in the face to not start with that. i share a lot of thoughts on this with eve tushnet, who's also a side b Catholic lesbian; this post was incredibly meaningful to me on my journey, but check out her blog if you want more.

but also, yeah. i don't have sex because i converted to Catholicism with the intent of obeying the Church's doctrine. i note in my bio that i obey the doctrine of the Church. and, well, i can't get gay married as a Catholic, and i'm not supposed to have extramarital sex. so i don't i know that there are side a Catholics, many of whom i respect, but i'm not one of them. i don't believe in "ex-gay" therapy or "pray the gay away" and i don't think that being gay is inherently sinful, but (and here's the part that i assume you're reading for) i do believe that having gay sex is a sin. i follow the teachings laid out in the Catechism, to the best of my ability and understanding. that's in my about page. right now, for me, as a lesbian: that means celibacy. the Catechism is pretty clear on that, imo. i don't talk about this often because most of my friends (and, for that matter, tumblr followers) are queer non-Christians, many of whom have trauma around Christianity and Christian homophobia (which is, to be clear, very real, even if you agree that gay sex is a sin). but like... i'm just living my life. i go to Mass on Sundays and i fast during Lent (or get permission not to from the local priest, when my eating disorder makes it a health concern) because doing otherwise would be a sin; not having sex (or masturbating! which was/is tbh much harder for me to give up than partnered sex! but people ask a lot less about that, because it's less discourse bait and more clearly none of anyone else's business) is the same sort of thing, to me. was it hard (is it hard)? yes, sometimes. but God doesn't just ask me for sacrifices that are easy. maybe some day i'll change my mind again and become side a or deconvert altogether. maybe i'm wrong about things! but this is where i'm at right now.

for what it's worth, i'm happy. i don't hate myself. as mentioned earlier, i'm glad i'm gay and i don't want to be straight. my life is full of love--from friends, family, God. celibacy has had its downsides and painful moments for me, but it's also had its upsides and moments of joy. i've been able to deepen and prioritize and value my friendships. it's been valuable and beautiful and worth it. fundamentally: i believe what i believe, and i'm living true to that. if you want to unfollow me for this, go for it. if you want to filter it, my tag for religion + queerness + being side b is #too gay to live too trad to die.

#therapists dni #too gay to live too trad to die #catholic tag #follower purge time ig

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mostly-mundane-atla · 2 years

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i know the history of christianity being forced on native peoples is horrific at best and genocidal most accurately, but your latest post reminded me of just how beautiful inuit christianity is, and how its simultaneous belief of a peaceful afterlife and earthy reincarnation is one ive held for so long. and it comforts me. im hispanic, so catholicism is the default for my people basically, so the ideals dont really quite align, but the idea of being able to move on but also somehow staying is something so beautiful. you could ignore this if youd like, and i know im not explaining this well, but i felt like i had to say it somewhere yknow?

I get you.

Christianization as a means of genocide is certainly no joke. I think it was when Alaska was purchased by the United States that a bunch of Christian representatives from different denominations sat around a map and came to an agreement on who could send missionaries where. I've mentioned before how fucked up it is that some missionaries were disturbed by how we Inupiat were accepting of unwed teen moms and didn't shame them into hiding.

I don't consider myself a Christian. The only holiday I still celebrate is Halloween (and occasionally watching Jesus Christ Superstar on Easter Sunday). I did grow up with it though. My mom wasn't as devout as she grew up, but she knew all the stories and traditions. We went to a Quaker church when my dad has his born-again Christian phase (same denomination as the Public Universal Friend, so that's pretty kickass). Grandma left some of her Catholic things to my mom, including what I like to describe as a "vampire hunting crucifix". It's hollow to carry holy water, it has a card for last rights on the back, and the Christ appears to be gold-leafed. Also among these items were a Virgin Mary figurine and a lacquered print of Jesus with lambs on a slab of wood. I associated these things more with a nice lady i never got to meet than with anything bigger than my own family.

But yeah, i feel religion and spirituality best serve humanity when used to give hope, encourage kindness (even just kindness to the self), and make it a little less scary to not have all the answers. And i think religious beliefs that seem contradictory or don't logically add up feed that aspect of being less afraid to not have all the answers. The world is big and so many things can happen in it and a lot of those things aren't fair, but maybe the forces beyond humanity work in ways we don't understand, can't understand, and maybe that's okay. Maybe bad things happening to good people can be blessings in disguise. Maybe there's a peaceful incorporial afterlife and a rebirth in the mortal realm that you experience simultaneously. Maybe permanence and impermanence exist at the same time in the same people, just like good and bad. Who knows? Not me. That's above my pay grade

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what-if-nct · 1 year

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hiiii is it ok if i ask for some advice? im sorry im gonna sound rambly but uhhh i'm 14 and starting high school next year (which i alrdy dont feel too good abt haha) and my (overbearing asian) parents are going to send me to this private lutheran hs instead of the public one i was supposed to go to bc its more upper class and smart (?). tbh i was genuinely surprised that i liked the school, academic-wise, and i rlly liked that i had the space in my schedule to take more fine arts classes (i dont have any in my hs) but like the first thing the principal said to me was that i "needed to learn to be a good christian". a whole hour each week is dedicated to jesus and i just know my atheist ass is going to be uncomfortable asf. first, one of my best friends has a thing for jesus (he says jesus is too hot to be straight 😭) and i cant tell if hes joking anymore, and second, i dont have a problem with people who are religious, but i do when they are flat out hateful and harrassing people from communities they "dont agree with", and i just know the people preaching at this school are the latter.

also rn i am the *only* poc in my entire school, and i noticed there were a lot more asian students and students of color, so hopefully there'll be less kids pulling at their eyes or calling me slurs :D

anyways i not a fan of the fact that "homosexual behavior on or off campus" warranted for expulsion, since i am a *very* queer and bisexual individual. at my current school, i dont really need to hide my gayness bc no one cares, and my teachers are accepting (my homeroom teachers a lesbian lol <33). i dont think i can handle having to hide such a big part of my identity at home *and* at school :( too add to that i really suck at making friends, so being somewhere without people i'm comfortable with, my anxiety gets really bad, and i just shut down completely.

my hs is p rundown (like most public highschools are) and the classes are average at best, so idk man, im torn :( i dont know if i should suck it up and go to lutheran school bc their good academics, or ✨be myself✨ and go to p shitty school :/

i dont know what to do (or if i can even do anything) abt it i just dont feel too good about this :( you've mentioned you went to a christian school, so do you have any advice? even if you dont, thank you so so much for listening to me rant for a moment there <33 i really treasure you and your blog, atp you feel like the big sister i've never had. i love youuuu <333

That is such a sticky situation. Cause maybe you can try to persuade your parents especially since they'll be paying for the private school on top of college tuition in the future, it can be a huge selling point. I know that's how I won in the decision of beauty school over college it's cheaper. And christian and catholic schools are heavily based in religion like it's a huge part of it so if you don't believe in it it can be absolutely mind numbing. I actually didn't go to Christian school, actually wasn't forced to go to church as a child, I was like 11 and for some reason told grandma Christianity is responsible for all the bad things that happened in the world. Which is wild that I even was able to come to that conclusion as a child she just brushed me off. But I did go to church summer camp to be with my friends which my friend and I got scolded for holding hands but she was just leading me through the crowd of people. So that's still unfortunately a huge part of christian beliefs

the thing that really caught me off guard is the homosexual activity off campus can lead to expulsion. On campus like sucks but is expected of a christian school sadly. But off campus in your day to day life is like your actions off campus shouldn't be judged by the school. Like I can't wrap my mind around that. I think since you have a whole summer maybe look for more schools you can attend I remember doing this in middle school because my home high school was an F school so you could choose any high school within a certain range. You'd be really surprised with how many schools are around you I'm assuming you're in the us but I'm sure everywhere has a ton of schools. And look for a school that holds some of what your parents want and also your own values and needs for your education. And maybe your parents seeing you take initiative might be an extra point.

If your parents are deadset on it. I think try to make the best out of it as much as you can usually there's a group of people in the same boat you're in where their parents forced them to be there. Trust me no matter where you go you will always be drawn to those like you every single time. But if you do get the choice of going to the original public school firstly screw every single racist little bitch who does that to you that is horrid I am so sorry you have to endure that. People suck. But you can also learn extra independently I always did that cause I was a bit ahead of my class. But I really think researching more schools in your area would help you find the perfect school for you. I personally was in love with Waldorf schools they're more creative led schools and freer, I wanted to go to one so badly. So figure out the exact kind of education you want like a magnet school, charter school it doesn't hurt to see how receptive your parents will be to it.

I really hope this helped at all and I hope it works out well for you. And Awwww it's so sweet you see me as a big sister, I gladly be your big sister, love you too🌸🌸🌸

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generatice · 1 year

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Public diary that i probably shouldn’t post

i want to tell about this guy i met on september second. i remember not because it was special day or something, the meeting was just in my calendar so i looked up.

i met him through one of my company project. it was a big BIG project. we had launched the feature now and its all great but at that point, it was kind of chaos and abstract. maybe a good chaos, but still a chaos. my meeting with him was the first meeting where everyone that possibly involved were invited. so.. a big meeting. many bosses and principles. i was just an impostor, that was not my project.

i entered the meeting and he was there. felt like i have to put this disclaimer: this is an online meeting where opening camera is absolutely not mandatory. so how did he manage to catch my attention? his name. only his freaking name. his name is pretty, but also so alike with mine: first, we both have same three words name, same nickname initial, third we have five-character nickname, and most significantly was that our surname came from a same familial. so my initial thought was, who was he and why was he there.

all after that was a series of linkedin diving and stealing chances to be in a same meeting with him. surely in that process i found myself falling for him.

everybody in my team talked about him so much. he's different. maybe because he speaks the same language as us or maybe because he's the same age as us so we're like so close of pulling him into our circle. but we couldnt so we just talked about him instead.

once my team hang out and my friend said, “you know you and him are a perfect match, right?”

i gasped, my face blushed. i laughed, “what? i dont think so” even though i thought so. i thought so deeply.

then they opened his instagram. acting as if they give me a consideration so, "let's see. he graduated from a top uni, thats one. oh look! he won this scholarship!"

i laughed as they stated all things nice about him. my friend mentioned about his church (which intrigued me) and i looked it up. i learned about his branch of christianity then im hooked. this christianity is totally different from mine: its not charismatic, not lutherian, not calvinist.. totally different.

before, i was very fond of my belief and didnt let any people intrude what i believed. so even when i went to a reform church, a catholic, any church.. i persist the different. but this time, i actually learned about it. like learn LEARN.

i feel at peace. my dopamine rises. all because this guy i barely know. and then at one point i realize, is this normal? i know nothing beside his name and his work ethic; other than that is a mystery that i fill by myself. i dont even know if he's nice in person (he could be a serial killer i wont know).

so i write this, because this confusion just hangs like this.

"so whats up after this?" my friend would ask after i told about how i met this guy.

frankly i dont know. i wish i am any brave to connect with him on linkedin, and then maybe by any luck i could talk to him. i wish i am more brave to follow him on his socials, and talk like a normal person (not a professionals, just two people met in serendipity).

but i think i will never be brave. i am afraid of rejection and its just overall crazy.

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merlyns-corner · 2 years

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Words cannot describe the simmering rage I feel being a woman in America right now. I have a friend who is 100% against people having abortions and I have no idea how to feel. She and I have talked about it in the past, but is was something that she was firm with her opinion and I mine. For a little more context she is very conservative (didn't nessacarily like Trump but felt that his "business perspective" was helping America) and also heavily Christian. Her church was "more tolenant to not turn away people who were LGBTQ+ but wouldn't openly talk about it. However, since then a lot has changed like the fact that Roe and Casey got overturned.

I am so unbelievably angry that some stacked Court who I didn't even have a choice in electing got to decide my rights as a woman. The US Government is flawed and only has become worse with the election of Trump (which the first time in 2016 was only electoral and not popular). Which, by the way, is a smart way to count for votes and send them in back before we had accurate voting machines. Not to mention the disgraceful use of gerrymandering (restructuring voting districts to retain voters in your area to keep you in power). Most people elected into office don't care about their constituents but only about winning some messed up game.

If they really cared about you, they'd be voting for helping to end the baby formula shortage. If they really cared about you, they'd vote to help underprivileged communities. If they really cared about you, they'd vote for human rights. If they really cared about you, they'd vote yes on gun control. If they really cared about you, they'd vote for parental and Healthcare. If they really cared about you, they'd try to be putting an end to global warming/climate change. This list goes on and serves as a reminder to research your candidates, don't vote based on party.

The US political system is broken. That is not false anymore, it is a fact! The two party system is flawed. The Constitution written by white men going on 300 years ago does not work. There is a reason why other countries have to update their own Constitutions. The 2nd Amendment was created in a time when their were only muskets for shooting where, if you were lucky, could get 6 shots a minute and not very accurate. We have moved so far past that point. We have moved so far forward only to be falling into the abyss of the past.

Women are, once again, becoming second class citizens in their own country. Don't think that the Supreme Court and Congress is going to stop there: Next they will be going after LGBTQ+ rights to marriage and to be in relationships, voting rights (which States have been since the 2020 election), POC rights, immigration rights, and so much more. They are going to "Make America Great Again" by stifling everyone who's not a Christian, White Male. It is the capitalist nature of this country who is also contributing based on how it was in the past. Most of this is based on looking back in time to inform us about the future. There is a reason I'm double majoring in History and Sociology, at first it was because I enjoyed it but now it has a purpose: to make fairly accurate conclusions for the future by looking at societal patterns and the history that informed them.

This is also something more about me, I grew up in a Catholic family. My extended family is both Democrat and Republican. It's hard to see when one half of your family won't even see the other because of the "Trump issue", as I would call it. However, I also know that if I were to talk more about my beliefs (more Wiccan/Pagan leaning) and the fact that I am Bisexual (I dont come out and say it but i dont hide my feelings anymore) half of my family would view me differently. Then again, I'm okay passing some of them off because I don't particularly like them anyway because I just feel off around them. Hell, my grandma is still convinced that me not being Catholic is "just a phase". At this point, I don't even care if I'm put on some list because the American systems in place are flawed and we need a reboot immediately!

I know that I wrote a lot but I had a lot to say because I needed to vent, Tumblr seemed like a good outlet. If you read this all, thank you, if not I completely understand. Be safe out there because the world is falling apart around us.

#roe v wade #my body my fucking choice #my body my rights #my body my choice #fuck the patriarchy #fuck the supreme court #fuck trump #im done #the us is fucked #the us government is flawed #the system is rigged #the system is broken

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jazajas · 4 years

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okay so i finished love, victor a while ago and i saw some other reviews and thoughts about it here so now i've got a pretty good list on my thoughts and feelings.

tl;dr: it has some issues, yes, but im gonna hold out and hope it gets better later on because the same thing happened with the first few eps, i wasn't that into it but then it got good, and nothing is ever great with the first season, because at that point we're getting used to those characters.

⚠️caution: spoilers ahead (im on mobile, i cant get an under-the-cut)⚠️

1. while a leah on the offbeat movie would have been amazing movie sequel (even tho i havent read the book yet, im just here for the wlw content) i am kind of glad we got this instead. mostly because I've seen book series where one movie was good, so they decide to do the rest, turn out bad (hunger games? divergent? percy jackson? the hobbit?) because so much was cut from the book-to-first movie writing, that other scenes wouldn't make sense to future movies if they had those in while cutting others. however, i am sad that i didn't get to make the choice of deciding whether what was cut was wrong etc. about future movies, but i'll take what i can get.

2. LGBTQ+ POC as a lead! that's amazing! as a ace/bi lantina that's close to home (it also is great that victor's from texas and so is ya gorl) and even then it's a mixed latinx family! i think pilar mentioned that at least the grandmother left Colombia and i saw the Puerto Rican flag in victor's room. also the salazar's are definitely from small town texas, even without knowing the name. (church barbeques, the use of the words "such a diverse city" in regards to atlanta)

3. a lack of actual lgbtq+ main storylines (so far) is kind of sad for a show like this. i was getting serious bi/pan vibes (as a lot of other people) from victor from the beginning, and when it was implied that victor was actually gay (while great, not shaming) as it has been brought to my attention, there was a lot of looking at a lot of straight relationship problems (please let us know more about benji)- edit 6/18: upon further consideration, it very much is a show about questioning your sexuality, I'm speaking about the other straight relationship issues, not mia and Victor's, its just the first season.

4. let us talk about cheating for a sec. never okay, in any circumstance. i feel sorry for mia that she saw victor making out with benji and the fact that he was doing any of that in the first place. victor made a choice to lie about the espresso machine and then kissed benji at the hotel and then when benji was fighting with derek, basically confessed his love and mistakes, then proceeded to makeout with benji after he broke up with derek, he built that grave and now he must lie in it. i get having feelings for a guy when you are in a relationship with a girl, and not accepting yourself enough to end that relationship but you really want it to work so you can be "normal". really, he should have told mia after he got back from the trip tho. i get being in highschool and doing stupid stuff and making dumb decisions, but for a show aimed at teens i think we should also remind said teens to make good choices even if we have to lose some realism within the character choices.

4. pilar and her decisions based off her brother pissed me off. because i honestly think that if she'd kept her mouth shut about what she knew or confronted victor about it in the first place we could have avoided a LOT of mess. did she not learn from snooping around her mother's business about her relationships that going behind a person's back doesnt end well? i did, however, like the pilar/felix friendship and was really kind of hoping that they'd get together during their coffee hangout (although now im glad that didn't happen) because they had a deeper understanding of each other. same with wendy/felix, although they do seem to much alike to work out in the long run but i still feel bad for wendy.

5. i don't know how i feel about lake and andrew, as people separate from each other. both seem to be the way they are from their upbringing (not confirmed why andrew is such an ass, but if his comment about his dad is anything to go by i bet it's got something to do with attention) but andrew seems to be less, idk, superficial? like he turned down mia because he didn't want to be a rebound, he didn't out victor, he actually stood up to early teasing the other dudes in the lockerroom were doing at victor (with teasing of his own obviously but that interaction had him on my nice list until much later). lake? lake. i honestly don't have an opinion of her? not really. i mean after hanging out with pilar i was hoping felix wouldn't go back to lake. is her name laken? i feel like her full name is laken. but they also played the "im only like this because my mom is really superficial about stuff and i do like the geeky nice guy but appearances" to "actually screw the norms im gonna makeout with him infront of the whole student body". i honestly thought she was gonna be bi because she kept hitting on mia when she was helping set up for her "date" and "big night" and there was one point where i saw her face fall at something mia said in relation to her and idk i was hoping she'd be bi (i figured early on that victor/mia wasnt gonna work and was like "oh mia/lake would be cute" but now idk.

6. okay on to the "big night", i have one word. NO. i didn't like the peer pressure into having sex. i agreed with felix when he said "your body your choice" but im also disappointed that victor made out with mia and when lake was talking to felix after victor left he didn't try to stand up for victor.

7. on to age gaps because i hadn't really thought of this at first. we'll start with benji/derek: WHAT GRADE IS BENJI?! because that determines my thoughts. if he's a sophomore that meant that he and Derek started dating benji's freshman year and thats eugh, don't do that, don't care if its a gay couple that shouldn't be happening because the maturity of the two characters is DRASTICALLY different (this is also a reason i am not a fan of cmbyn) but that would explain why they were so rocky. hoping the event at the gay bar was open to anyone not just for drinking, but not liking that fact that not one of the adults with victor were like: hey, this is a 16 year old, that's kind of wack when that dude was hitting on victor. that made me question some stuff. although i figure it might be making up for the lack of a gay bar scene in love, simon. but even then, in svthsa it's a restaurant with a bar that some people go to just to drink at, it wasn't just a bar, simon could be there but should NOT have accepted drinks from college kids, not matter how attractive.

8. i loved how bram and simon and their friends helped victor out though. i like how bram was like: hey i know my friends are a lot so here's a gay basketball league becaue there's no one way to be gay. i like how Simon talked about needing help himself just to help victor and how he said his friends were cool with it because it's a community. i like of justin(?) mentioned how being what his parents wanted was putting on a mask and pretending, not him doing drag. my favorite lines from that ep are: "and before you ask my pronouns are they/them/theirs" "'they're all gay? even that guy? he's like [insert really tall number]' 'yeah. you should see him in heels'" "or in simon's case: really unathletic" "and also because bram said that if i wore [the jean jacket] one more time he'd burn it". also katya was there. and the group hug too!

9. the back hand homophobia in relation to family is sad, but realistic and i sincerely hope his parents are kind enough not to be too harsh on victor because of it. anything they say that isn't positive or supportive of victor is bad but i hope they realize that there is more to him than that and that they can come to terms with it because it's not always that hard to be a part of that community and super religious. i am biromantic and catholic. and while there are some things i wont agree on my mom with, i know that it's more of a strike against God for kicking out gay kids from families than it is to be gay, because those parents were given trust by GOD to love those kids no matter what, and be good parents. so in the end, the parents are wrong and harmful and in the case of christians against jesus's teachings to love everyone.

10. this is fan speculation but dont think simon/bram are going through a rough patch? i honestly think it'd be a little cruel to the characters to have on of their actors be producing but then not have that relationship stay. and while it's not set in stone and obviously things happen in the real world, we have no proof script wise about there being a rift. all we have are bad photoshopped ig photos and scenes where two characters are never standing next to each other probably beccaue schedules never link up correctly for minor characters. who knows, maybe nick robinson was filming for a movie where is does have an even more major role than victor's gay guru in a series about victor so his filming time was around that. im gonna keep hope that things are okay.

11. that being said: we need more mainstream wlw content, because someone said it earlier and it really does seem to be catering to straight girls. i'll admit i did freak out when benji played call me maybe which is something i associated with him and victor but then kissed a guy because who wouldn't? we get that serenade and sweetness and then it'a ripped from us. but i did mellow out. if i flipped later it was because victor was making dumb decisions and i had to give myself a moment of compsure before i continued.

in the end, i'd say that there is a lot of growth this series needs to go through, but i also know that some people just aren't going to like it and i get that. but i also know that sometimes the best of stories have rocky starts, nothing is ever perfect from the beginning. and besides, further seasons are on hold until we figure out this covid thing, which means that you bet they're gonna be looking at our feedback. they saw what we thought before, they can do it again

i really did like it but we need more ACTUAL lgbtq+ relationship stuff from this series and better decisions on what we are teaching the younger generations, as well as what we want to focus on and realism within characters. i'm giving it an 8/10, because there is always room for growth and i really hope we get better things out of this than what we have been given in season 2.

edit: someone mentioned it really seeming like it was meant for Disney+ and i felt that. also to anyone who reaches the tags agter reading ALL OF THIS: i am sorry

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plounce · 5 years

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im like. not even into cr (i fell off the wagon and then was too upset about molly to catch up) but like. your spn au. is Incredible, like. the catholic guilt... the pining... molly as an angel, falling and still resplendent and charming and proud... beaus bde (big dyke energy). etc. i dont have any specific questions or anything please just use this ask as an excuse to continue going off.

THANK YOU YOU ARE TOO SWEET...that’s what happened with half my friends tbh you are valid. i still watch because i’m devoted to caduceus and beau, but that’s me.

you have immediately caught my attention by mentioning “catholic guilt” which is a favorite character trait of mine to stick onto caleb. i imagine that trent was from the school of hunter who put a lot of stock into old christian remedies to things

[this got LONG so this is a READ MORE]

ok digression now that im thinking about this universe. i imagine there’s a few broad schools of thought within hunters, because theres a lot of methods that work but theres a lot of superstition among individuals/families about which ones work best, why they work, how they should be performed. there’s ones who have a more christian bent, there’s ones who are very no-nonsense silver-and-salt (just stick to the standard materials and don’t use a lot of bullshit), there’s ones who dip into witchcraft here and there, and those who use whatever they can and hope it works. some of these get passed on by families or mentors - some people fall into hunting from The Outside and use what they find.

beau was raised in a no-nonsense family. they’ve been hunters going back generations and generations, tough men who are strong and are capable of fighting evil and uphold family traditions. LOTS of hypermasculinity and patriotism etc. conservative. lots of military. beau being a girl was a disappointment to them because [misogyny], but when she got older it was more her disobedience. you listen to your father and uncles on hunts, but beau listens to her gut, and even if she saves the day she’d get punished.

she’s good at hunting, which infuriates her (she hates that she’s one of the family, but she also hates that her family keeps her from helping others to her fullest potential) - but mostly she just hated the control. she hated the stifling, how she could never be anything but a lionett. she ran away and lived in anonymity for two years before caleb found her and begged for her help. but even now, when it’s her and caleb and she’s with him and not with them - she still gets recognized by other hunters as the lionett girl. tell your uncle steve he owes me a beer, wontcha sweetheart?

she hates it. can’t stand it. it’s even worse when she runs into her family and they either get pissed about her huge dykey look or tell her glad you finally found a man to carry on the family line. sometimes caleb tries to stop her from punching out a cousin’s lights, but some nights he just quietly retires to the car to wait for her to need a quick getaway.

caleb, meanwhile, was brought into hunting by trent, who was never clear about how he got into hunting but he was so knowledgeable and wise that caleb never thought to ask. his family home was burned down by demons possessing his parents (they made deals with devils, trent tells him, brought that evil into your home. we must fight to protect the innocent from the weakness of the wicked.) (he is lying, but caleb doesn’t know that. he’s only ten years old. it’ll take 17 more years for him to learn the truth.)

trent rescued him and told him secrets, and caleb was born drinking down all the knowledge he could get his hands on. astrid and eodwulf were already with trent when he was picked up, and they were his little disciples, doing research and sweetly manipulating witnesses into spilling their hearts while trent did the dirtier work. that changed when caleb was 13, and he and astrid and eodwulf dug up a grave as trent fought a ghost, and caleb lit the match to set the corpse alight. trent was so proud of him, told him he could trust him, and started taking him on hunts after that. astrid and eodwulf were so jealous, but caleb was jealous when astrid got firearm training first and when eodwulf got to learn how to drive their van. it was his turn to be the favored student.

trent was very catholic. rosaries, latin, silver in shapes of crosses, holy water up each sleeve. a prayer muttered whenever there was a spare breath. stop in a church every sunday they can. confess your sins to your father, since we’re nowhere near an actual priest. (trent knows a lot about caleb.)

caleb starts the “show” at age 25. when he was 22, eodwulf disobeyed during a hunt, and he was tersely given supplies and sent off on a hunt on the other side of the state. caleb doesn’t know if eodwulf couldn’t find his way back to them or if he abandoned them, and trent told him not to think of him, but caleb kept graffitting the three of them’s secret codesymbol whenever the thought crossed his mind. i’m still here, wulf. i thought of you here in this rest stop. i hope you are okay.

when he was 23 and a half, trent sent astrid to represent him at a hunter gathering. find out what you can. report back to me when you are able. i picked you for this, do not fail me. you can be independent. go in strength. caleb was so achingly jealous that trent trusted her for this and not him, but then trent told him my loyalest student. my favorite. you are the one to stay by my side. i trust you will live up to this regard. and the sting soothed.

when he was 24 or so, trent sent him to investigate a disappearance in a neighboring county that might’ve been linked to their current hunt. when caleb came back, trent was gone. after a month of combing over their motel room and the surrounding area for any clues, caleb decided to himself that this was another test, and he must continue on as normal. be independent. a strong young man. a warrior for christ against evil. and he kept his chin up and did his best. until he couldn’t do it alone anymore (weak weak weak) and he dragged himself to beau’s doorstep.

(i do want to say here that when things finally shake out with astrid and eodwulf, it is eodwulf who is the treacherous trent supporter and astrid who is the one who is a little bit... uncomfortable with beau’s general dykery bc she is catholic but is all-around ok. she’s like it was good to see you again caleb, it is good to see that you’ve become a good, honest man, and that you have a better sister than i ever was to you. go in peace. it’s all very healing and good. it’s not perfect, but it’s some amount of closure. that trent and his manipulation and abuse and demon deals haven’t condemned caleb to being completely horrible.) (also there is NO astrid/caleb romance here obv)

when caleb finally gets comfortable around molly The Angel Of The Lord he starts tentatively peppering him with questions about the faith. a lot of the stuff he learned from trent was wrong. molly was never really a “faith enforcer” angel anyway, but he’s just so confused that caleb is so hung up on so much stuff, when the whole thing is about love? (it’s... different for humans than for angels, yasha eventually tells them. humans can get second tries. that is why i am often very jealous of you all, yasha says, looking somewhere far away.)

honestly caleb and molly are very “i love everybody because i love you” in this au which is extremely valid. finding love in others to find love in the world to find love in others etc etc - yes, this is my les mis past speaking, and it is smart and correct. “revolution is an act of love” etc etc.

also i hate having to draw beau’s super short hair because i have limitations but im SO pleased with that design, i think it really fits the vibe. beau with her crew cut and caleb with his hair he never bothers cutting and both of them in flannels. hell YES

#wmspn au #chirps #robcr #qll #THANK YOU FOR THE SUPER SWEET AND VALIDATING ASK... YOU ARE NICE TO ME :)#lessebian

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dragonfreako · 7 years

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Story time So back when I was like 16/17 my Mom would try to hook me up with small arty gigs cause I was super harsh on myself and thought no one would want anything I made, and she wanted me to have like, resume fodder. So, every so often she'd come to me with damaged family photos and whatnot for me to restore, cause that was what I was best at. I quite enjoyed it for the most part, even when some of the work was emotional. (For example, I was in charge of restoring photos of a relative that passed away for the funeral) Then, one day my Mom comes to me about this local band. Apparently, her friend was friends with some of the band members or something, and they had recently lost the digital file of their logo. All they had left of it was some t-shirts. Well, they sorta needed a digital copy for posters, and were at a loss. That's where I come in. Mom introduced me to the band's manager, who seemed nice enough. I was super nervous though, cause I was young and never had a "professional" job before. Mom let me do my thing, trying to give me some life experience. Learn to fly on my own by pushing me off a cliff and all that. Anyways, I did pretty ok. The manager and I email and text back and forth for a bit, and he gave me a photo of the shirt, which I used to recreate the logo. It was rough, but good enough considering the lack of Photoshop knowledge i had compared to today. I emailed dude and told him it was done. He says, "great I would also like some physical copies just in case this happens again" This is where things get a little..off. See, again, I was young and didn't know how professional relationships worked yet since I never had a job. I just sorta blindly trusted all adults cause they knew better than me. HAHA DON'T DO THAT KIDS. So, he asks to meet up so I can give him some prints and he can pay me. I'm like yeah sure ok. I'm thinking we'll meet up at like, his office or whatever, cause professional shit. But, instead, he's like, "cool let's meet up at this local sports bar." Little red flags raised, but I was like, nah man, money. More flags raised when he also proposed that he drive me there if need be, since I was a youngin' that might not have a car, but I was smart and said no to that one. So, I agreed to meet up. Dude looked about 40-50 years old, and honestly, I remember thinking he looked like an overweight Gomez Addams without the mustache. I straighten up, trying to look as cool headed and adult as possible, cause I wanted to make a good impression, in case I use him as a reference or something. He pays me, and I give him the photos, and all's good. Obviously though, I start to get uncomfortable, cause, I'm not about to sit here and have dinner with this dude who is basically a stranger. I told him I had no money to eat, and that I wanted to save the cash he gave me, but then he offered to pay for the meal. In my head I'm all like, "fuck no dude, who even are you." But I was polite and said no thanks. He then asked if I wanted to meet the band. At this point I was just anxiety driven, and didn't want to upset this adult, so I agreed to see them. I honestly wanted nothing else to do with all this, cause my job was done, and that's that. Cut to two days later and I go to this old movie theater turned church that dude sends me to. Turns out they are a local Christian rock group, and they practice at this place. This makes me a bit more comfortable, cause I was Catholic for a long time, and I generally saw active Christians as nice people, that can be trusted. I watch the band practice, the manager sits next to me to my dismay, and the band members are pretty ecstatic about the cleaned up logo. They tell me that they practice there every Sunday, and that I should come by and watch cause we're buddies now? Idk. I agree though cause I love rock music, and felt obligated, since they were adults, and I blindly followed whatever they said as I mentioned earlier. Bad plan. So, these guys all add me on Facebook, along with Mr manager. I'm not too keen about all this, but I hated to hurt peoples feelings sooooo fuck me. Manager starts messaging me on fb a bit more than I was comfortable with. Just asking life questions, all that jazz. Every week he would ask to drive me there and he would sit next to me and get..flirty. He would even, at times, put his arm around my shoulder. I was terrified. I didn't know what to do. He even knew I was underage at the time which made it worse. I didn't tell Mom, cause I wanted her to be proud of me for fighting my own battles or some bullshit. BTW DONT FOLLOW MY LEAD HERE, TELL A FUCKING ADULT WHEN YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE DEAR LORD. So, anyways, I stopped going to practices pretty fast. I wasn't gonna have it. I even invited a friend to go with me once, cause I was nervous (but didn't tell him that) and he was all like, "man, I don't like that manager guy. He gives me weird vibes. Maybe you shouldn't go anymore" Almost immediately after I made the decision to stop going though, I get a message from one of the band members on fb. None of them had messaged me before so I was a little confused. That bastard, wrote "I know someone that likes you." Like some middle schooler, teasing their classmates with playground gossip. That was the last straw for me, thank God. This guy knew damn well that I was a minor, and also knew that his manager was flirting with me. This guy condoned it. I snapped at him, telling him that all I was there for was a job, and I expected to be treated with respect. I told him to act like a professional, and not a 12 year old schoolboy. None of them ever messaged me again. To this day my Mom doesn't know. Honestly I got damn lucky. So, few morals here. Always command respect, even from adults. If you're unsure about a situation, go with your gut. Follow the red flags. Tell someone about it, don't be a tough guy, cause no man's an island. We as a species need each other's help. You aren't alone. And finally, if you do have to meet with a client face to face, make sure you only meet in a professional environment, because that's what the relationship is. Just had to get that one out cause I recently saw that they made a fb page for the band and I just wanna fuck em up tbh.

#long post #pedophillia tw #wow I did not expect to write that much #I'm bad at story telling but I hope its readable #honestly I look back on this a lot and wonder wtf #how did I not realize and how did I end up so lucky as to not have something really bad happen

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blookmallow · 4 years

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some misplaced thoughts/attempted half-formed analysis on outlast 2, im not finished with it yet so im still missing half the information here but do NOT tell me about anything that happens later on dont fill in my blanks for me just yet ill find out (or ill reconsider my thoughts at the end if im wrong/if things get left unclear)

im currently just a bit past the raft adventure, havent quite caught up my liveblogs yet bc transferring switch pics and sorting through them all takes 11 thousand years

this is. very disorganized and so many words, my thoughts are all over the place but i had to get it out somewhere lmao

ok so some key symbols ive noticed:

- obviously hanging/noose imagery

- again obviously, crucifixion/christ

- water, most likely symbolic baptism

- both of those last two things together in an overall “christian/catholic symbols but Horribly, Horribly Wrong”

- the plagues!!!!!! i noticed some reference to this but recently realized i think we’re being forced through ALL of them actually

so:

- again the hanging imagery is an obvious one, blake is (very poorly) coping with the trauma he experienced as a kid (or high school student. i was under the impression they were middle schoolers for some reason but high school is still a young age to be dealing with something like that) surrounding his friend’s suicide, he clearly feels like he’s somehow responsible for it, possibly only because he didn’t stop it, but it doesn’t seem like he really could have done anything. this trauma is absolutely resurfacing through all he’s going through now and it feels like his past and current pain are starting to converge more and more as time goes on. honestly even if there wasn’t some weird fucked up mystery going on and it was just a symbolic representation of him reliving his trauma id still think its absolutely fascinating and really well done but it seems like there’s definitely More Going On than just that

this is something im going to make specific notes on when i do a story mode replay, note every time hanging shows up... some ive noticed: occurrences of hanging in the temple gate/”real world” often bizarrely coincide with blake’s salvation, he’s able to get away from the scalled leader by stealing the rope off the corpse of a man who hung himself, there’s a hanged corpse right near where the raft ends up when he crashes it on the river

there’s definitely some “somebody else died so that I could live” going on there, I don’t know if that’s directly related to the incident with jessica or not yet

and that again ties into the crucifixion, the death of Jesus brings about salvation and life for everyone else (and, while he was not hanged, there’s still “hanging” on a cross, and the cross is often referred to as a “tree”) (it doesn’t seem like jessica hung herself from a tree but the other corpses have been)

- obvious again, the crucifixion is showing up absolutely everywhere, clear sacrifice/murder for the greater good concepts, im not catholic but i am coming at this from a christian perspective myself, and like. on the one hand it’s taking very important religious imagery and hideously distorting it into “now we got the flayed corpses of cultists stuck everywhere” but on the other I think it’s actually... really important not to forget that the cross was in fact an execution tool, the death of christ was a horrific, bloody, and cruel event that would have been absolutely revolting to witness and unfathomably painful to experience

and the sanitized, pretty, kid-friendly image of the cross you so commonly see in churches now really disconnects from the reality of it. a mutilated corpse rotting on a splintered, bloody piece of wood is a much more realistic image, for better or worse, than a little neon plastic WWJD toy cross. i dont actually think the crucifix imagery here is sacrilegious at all. obviously the cultists are fucking monsters but im talking about specifically the use of crucifix imagery here. the parallels with the unsettlingly realistic jesus statues (and the fact that they show up both in temple gate and in the high school hallucinations especially) is like. actually pretty solid. i dont want to get into religious debate with anyone so im not gonna get too deep into that but i wanted to mention it

- there’s also blake as an unwilling “messiah” figure (which. hes literally declared “the skalled christ” so this isn’t exactly subtle lmao) and. i dont know exactly what his religious standing is but we do know he was raised catholic, and like. it was quite an intense and harrowing experience to me, as a christian, watching the skalled crucifixion scene through his perspective, so i cannot even imagine what it would have been like for him to actually be in that position for real experiencing it himself. and we have the. jesus Knowing what was going to happen, dreading and wishing he could escape it, but resigning to it/blake absolutely wanting no fucking part in any of this and literally tearing his hands out of the nails, jesus resurrecting from the grave/blake digging his way out of his “grave” (though he wasnt actually dead), i dont really have any deeper observation to make there i just think its interesting

- i do not know whats going on with water! something is! i wasnt paying much attention to water before so this is probably another thing ill be watching for/making notes on in my eventual story mode replay but Something Is Very Wrong About That Lake and i keep getting murdered by the Whatever THe Fuck That Thing Is in water, either from falling in the lake/the river or there’s that pool scene in the high school

seems like there’s some kind of... chemicals in the water causing weird shit but i dont know whats going on yet (dont tell me!), so there’s probably something about baptism/entering the water and leaving fundamentally changed somehow but in a Very Wrong sense, but i dont have all the information yet so im just blindly guessing. and we got piles of dead fish in the water very soon before you see piles of human corpses in the water, that as well,

and along that line:

- the plagues!! i cant believe i didnt realize we’re going through the plagues! i had noticed some reference to them but figured it was just more weird religious imagery for the aesthetic or something and didn’t quite realize we’re actually hitting all of them, they’re not necessarily happening in order but they sure are happening:

water turning to blood: we’re surrounded in blood from the start but this was what really made me start fucking paying attention because where im at right now it is RAINING BLOOD SOME FUCKING HOW

I have no IDEA how that’s happening in the “real world” unless it’s like. not really blood and some kind of chemical reaction with whatevers going on with the water, or if its some mass hallucination thing, or what (again dont tell me!! i want to find out!! shh!!!!) but, uh, that’s a pretty clear “water into blood” situation there,

this one also is happening simultaneously with the high school dimension, all the water in the bathroom and the fire sprinklers all became blood, and you get fucking drenched in it, so there’s probably some amount of “baptism of blood” happening there too

plague of flies: i dont remember there being any specific moment where you get overwhelmed by flies but its possible it happened and i forgot, but either way you hear flies buzzing around constantly, it gets in your head, theres flies everywhere because of the gore piles rotting all over everywhere

disease on livestock: there’s dead rotting cow/horse carcasses absolutely everywhere, so,

plague of boils: the skalled village, may not be Specifically boils but they’re definitely uh. very, very diseased

plague of locusts: you get attacked by a shit ton of locusts and fall into the ravine, this one’s, uh. pretty blatant

plague of darkness: you’re stuck in the dark for the entire everything, so

there’s also an instance in the high school dimension where everything goes black and you cannot see anything whatsoever and can’t do anything but follow jessica’s voice and hope to god you don’t run into That Thing Again

the only ones I haven’t seen yet are the plague of frogs, gnats/lice which i completely forgot was even a plague but apparently was (though again this could just be included in with the general “everything is covered in flies and god knows what” happening everywhere), hail/fire storms (though you do get attacked by flaming arrows, so that could count)(that also happens in the skalled village/shortly after you discover the skalled, so that would be in order), and... the death of the firstborn

the exact order of the other plagues isn’t necessarily all that important but that one as the final plague is very important and it definitely feels like they could be building up to that

so it’s. likely something really, really bad is gonna happen with lynn by the end of all this

(do NOT!! tell me!!! dont!!! do not)

also a minor thing but i did notice blake at one point goes “these are signs!! this is the apocalypse!!” and, like, maybe that’s just because he’s obviously not in his right mind right now/it wasn’t supposed to be taken that seriously but the plagues on egypt were not signs of the apocalypse, but signs displaying the power of God to the pharoah, a “let the slaves go free Or Else” demonstration, and blake as someone who grew up in catholic school would know this, but that could just be like. a minor writing error or just. biblical accuracy isnt really his first priority right now lmao

#lucy plays outlast 2 #ok i think i got it all out now i think thats everything i was gonna say lmao #For Now anyway. im still goin through it so im sure ill learn more things and notice more things later

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automatismoateo · 5 years

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A long rant/story. Moral: A strict biblical interpretation can cause religious & cultural predjudices, academic closedmindedness, as well as falsely-percieved moral superiority among children. via /r/atheism

Submitted May 22, 2019 at 08:33AM by MuchosWaffles (Via reddit http://bit.ly/2X3DAAs) A long rant/story. Moral: A strict biblical interpretation can cause religious & cultural predjudices, academic closedmindedness, as well as falsely-percieved moral superiority among children.

Im on mobile, sorry for formatting.

So my one friend is a hardcore christian. He blindly follows what his religion and parents tell him and take it as fact without question. His views on questioning religion are kind of like a NAZI youth camp's views on questioning Hitler's intentions. He also pushes his religious beleifs onto everyone else, too. (I dont dislike those decent people who are religious. I just think that you don't truly have faith in your religion if you haven't fully questioned it. Once you've questioned each aspect of your faith and can support it, you really know that you believe it. I also don't think that you need to be a part of the next crusade.) But anyway, I recently found out he was a creationist. Honestly idk why I thought this, but I thought those were about as rare as flat-earthers among my generation because of the school's science classes that taught basic evolution at a young age, but aparently I was wrong, there's a lot at my highschool. He says he "doesn't believe in evolution". So I ask him what he means by he doesn't believe in it. Aparently discrediting a proven scientific theory based on a fairytale doesn't take much thought because he hadn't even considered the evidence for evolution. Aparently he's completely clueless as to what evolution actually is. He knows the very basics of what it is, but he didn't really understand how slow the process was or much about natural selection or really anything other than "monkeys became humans".

So I'm wondering how he managed to avoid actually learning about evolution four 15 years.

(He's not entirely stupid either. He takes the highest available classes for my grade. AP physics I, Honors English I, Honors Algebra II, etc. )

It turns out he didn't even know what a neanderthal was or how mutation works despite have specific lessons about evolution last year.

So I ask him what he believes, and ge gives me the basic genesis story and I find out that he also thinks Hetm created the sun and ALL that, too. He takes the whole bible as fact. ALL OF IT.

So I question him a bit more about what he thinks about the science that contradicts his beliefs and find out he knows practically nothing about the "big bang", cosmic background radiation, not even a basic idea of how planets and solar systems are formed, etc... NOTHING. His class had studied these at some point, but because he didn't believe in evolution or the big bang, he didn't care to learn them because to him, they were just false theories.

I know about both sides, the bible and the science against it. I don't just ignore that it exists because I don't believe in it. I took 8 long years of CCD/religious prep. I'm confirmed into the catholic church for my years of suffering. I was once religious, too and still have to go to church and pretend I believe that shit in front of my family.

The next thing I found out was that his mom is an anti-vaxxer. She "stopped believing in vaccines" right before he would've gotten his tetanus shots before 6th grade and his poor little brother wasn't even vaccinated as a baby.

His older brother, who I also know, pretty much gave up on his parents and practically disowned them. I don't blame him. He says that whenever he tries to explain how vaccines work and that they are beneficial, she doesn't listen, calls him disrespectful, etc... and acts as though he was directly insulting her.

I asked him who he believes goes to heaven. Of course, he says those who beleive in and accept jesus (not mentioning good people). So I ask him about Ghandi. And because the bible says so, Ghandi, fucking Ghandi, is apparently in hell. And he's fine with that. Completely apathetic. The "merciful" god of his is the most morally fucked up role model for any child if taken straight from the bible without interpretation.

His family also forces so many religious and cultural predjudices on him and his siblings. He grew up with parents with such a strict interpretation of their bible so he was given role models that reflect the culture from centuries ago and are prejudice against other beliefs and cultures from a young age. His parents and family are extremely racist and he doesn't even realize it.

I grew up with a looser interpretation of the bible because my parents understood that a lot of it was morally twisted and they believed that good people go to heaven and really bad people go to hell, regardless of religion. That's often what CCD/religious prep programs teach children because it takes away a lot of the "you don't believe what I do so rot in hell" aspect of religion and reinforces that kindness is rewarded.

I think that too many parents and churches teach children to look down on others and that Christians naturally have a moral highground, which often ironically leads to morally fucked and arrogant crusaders, not the "kind-hearted and merciful children of god" that they preach about. That's one of the main things that drove me away from religion. Everyone preached of a merciful god, but then showed all of these biblical stories of god not giving sinners a second chance and killing and punishing them. The people also pretty arrogant.

#reddit

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annborromeo · 6 years

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First Rule in 12 Rules for Life

This was originally published on my other blog on February 24, 2018

I love this book, even though I don't agree with everything he stated. I'm only at the second rule, haven't finished the chapter yet but I just want to write down my thoughts for now on rule number one.

The first rule is to stand straight with your shoulders back. I know it seems simple but even that I realized, I didnt do. I really lack confidence, my bestfriend told me that too. I dont stand up straight and im kinda shy around strangers and dr. peterson was so right when he mentioned awkward pause in conversation. I dont really know how to talk to people comfortably in general. I'm very comfortable when I'm with my close friends and cousins, but when it comes to acquaintances I tend to become self-conscious and the conversations don't have a smooth flow.

I'm going to practice all the rules in this book and see if there will be changes in my life. I am writing on my notebook my favorite quotes from that book and thoughts I have from what I've read. I noticed when I scanned my writings, that I actually dont have any thoughts lol, I just absorbed his words like a sponge.

I love that he referenced stories from the Bible but, I dont like some of his conclusions. One example is when he said that the pieta showed female/male dual unity. I actually dont see that in that art, I only see a grieving mother because her son died. I realized, sometimes we really see things on a lens, I see everything with a Christian lens, not sure what lens Dr. Peterson sees the world. I also realized that people can really look at art or things or whatever matter is in front of them and interpret them in a different way than intended by the creator. Pieta was created to show a mother mourning for her son, but Dr. Peterson interprets it differently.

I won't get into it but when he mentioned androgyny of Christ, wtf is my first thought. I guess when people dont experience Jesus in their lives, they are unable to believe the apostles and understand what Jesus Christ taught. I dont want to spend my precious time on this atm, I'll let it be and I hope someday he gets to talk to Catholic apologists like Jimmy Akin, Karl Keating and Tim Staples.

Anyways, except for parts that I don't agree with, I really love this book, because I think this is what's missing in my life, some kind of structure.... specific rules to follow everyday... I already know what God wants me to follow everyday but, it's so difficult to love even my enemies, difficult for me to love everybody, so I'll start with God and myself first.

#Books

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thedivinemoral-blog · 7 years

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The Modern Day Religious, and Syrian Refugees.

This is a post I make for followers of Islam, Catholics, Christians, and Jews.

Everyone should question religion and themselves. A quote I like to say is that one should not blindly follow. It may not be a religious quote but it is however an obvious one. The problem with modern day religion simply put, is that anyone who is religious must defend themselves.

Im not a person who is against anyone agnostic or athiest, but it is depressing just how much they are against me. Many times have I had some one turn around, whether young or old, and try to shut down a friendly conversation between a friend and myself.

I’ve been called a bible hugger or stupid too many times. Its actually rather sad, although the same could be said for the overly righteous (and mildly hilarious) crazy christians we see on the internet. Either way, either side, seems is full of some sort of anger.

Everyone wants to feel like they’re important, wants to be heard. They need to be behind something. There is a religious phrase “love thy neighbor.” Its also a pretty realistic phrase. Its one Id wish to remind every person about.

Its becoming normal for people to not be religious. I dont blame anyone for this. This is also causing major changes within all religions. Here in Canada, young muslim people are generally much more open than you’d expect. They have to fight extremely hard sometimes to make people understand that not all people have radical views.

As a person of mixed Roman Catholic and Orthodox Christian faith, I find it extremely hard to fit in with the views I have. I love gay people, I love the fact that people can choose to have an abortion, and I love Islam.

I love all religion.

The world is having another huge social battle right now. With the rush of Syrian refugees, Europe, The United States, and to a certain degree, Canada, isnt sure what to do. Though I am certain that the actual refugees are even less sure on what to do.

I mean imagine having your family taken, your country destroyed and everyone around you spitting on your even being there. Though there is a much more obvious problem as well. Europe and the USA are fighting against the refugees with using a huge aggression towards the fact that they’re generally Muslim.

Especially Europe. This is a huge issue because as you may know, there are Syrian Christians. Does this mean that they will look at them any differently? I highly doubt it. In fact Syria is mentioned in the bible throughout, starting right off with the book of genesis.

The problem I generally have with Religion in The United States in particular, correct me if you see it as being wrong, is that they generally seem to have a huge issue with the middle east. Many people there hate the middle east, but then will turn around and call America “Gods Country.”

Gods country, one of them anyway, technically, is in fact Syria.

Or you could say the same for older time (and modern I guess) racism from the west. Many people were (and still are) extremely racist towards people of middle eastern descent, not realizing everyone in the bible probably looked just like them. I mean, egypt, palestine, israel, syria?

Where do people think these places are?

Its rather depressing seeing people rally against these poor refugees, not seeing them as being people in need. Especially when you bring religion into your argument. Do you truly believe that Christ himself would turn away people in need? Children? Especially people who follow his faith?

Jean-Nicolas Beuze, a Canadian human rights worker and advocate said; “Becoming a refugee is never a choice, It’s a decision you have to make to save your life and the lives of your children.” This is literally the case here. This really shouldnt be considered an invasion, but rather a migration.

If you dont want some one around you, why would you not try to help them go somewhere they can? This is the issue I have with what Europe is doing right now. The people at these rallies, they dont care about the actual people who have to go through this, they cannot put themselves in anothers shoes. They are violent and ignorant to the fact that they can help these people. Its not a religious problem, this is racism at its core.

Look, I can understand some not wanting to become a “multicultural country”, but in the refugees defense, that small minority would not change anything that much. Actually, was it that big a problem when huge numbers of Jews dwelled in Poland? This cant be a religious issue, it must be propaganda and racism. The same thing happened to the Orthodox Community in Poland, they argued that Orthodoxy was a form of russification, and that they will not let it happen. Though it is rather silly, considering they got Catholicism from Germany, apparently.

Did I mention Im half Polish? Oops.

But I guess thats another issue altogether. Look, all Im saying is, you can turn away a young man today from your country, but my hope is that he will come to Canada, become a doctor, and save more lives than any person who hates so much ever will.

If a child is born from a father who was a killer, why would you blame that baby for his bloodline? Do you think these children are born thinking that one day anything like this would ever happen? Question your religions and yourselves.

You may have a few people who could be a criminal, but you are turning away literally thousands upon thousands of people, mainly children, who are amazing human beings. In fact, theyre probably nicer and more accepting than all these ralliers. They have been through a war comparable to world war 2, taken themselves on rafts across oceans, across countries. These are strong, admirable people. I can only imagine the great things these children will do.

But if anything, maybe they dont have to do a thing. Maybe what they really just need to do, is live a normal life. You dont have to become the president of the united states, a doctor, or a teacher. Being able to live a normal life is a serious privilege. North America is like a kingdom. Even Europeans move here. I dont think a lot of these “patriots” really understand how extremely difficult it can be to be someone else. You should really help people who deserve it in any situation.

A lot of people say that you just dont know who is a criminal. Thats so true, you dont know. You may turn away a group of people that had no criminals. Its depressing. Im sure the law can handle itself, we can handle criminals. The United States was known for terrorism coming from young white college students for decades. The law handled it, no matter how sad the problem may be. Things happen, always.

In conclusion, its extremely important to think critically about any situation. Canada is open to all refugees and has an extremely low terrorism rate… knock on wood. My point is that all people need to come together, perhaps not to become multicultural but to help all cultures survive and thrive in a world that should know better.

-The Divine Moral

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