#but it isn't a radical mercy

[thatscarletflycatcher]

The more the time passes, the more convinced I am that a reading of Jane Eyre that omits the theme of mercy as key to the story is incomplete at best and bad at worst.

#jane eyre #i think this is at the root of all the insidious and useless darcy vs rochester comparisons #because ultimately the wrong Austen heroes do is forgivable #the effects of their sins are more or less easily reversable #such as Darcy's pride and rudeness or Wentworth's pettiness #there is mercy being served with atonement #but it isn't a radical mercy #which I think is the point in Jane Eyre #Rochester's attempted bigamy is beyond justification #it can only be understood as sourced in stupidity and immaturity rather than in true wickedness #it can also be understood as part of the way he was raised up and the sins of his own father #but cannot be justified #Rochester can only be either hated and shunned or loved and forgiven #there's no possibility of indifference #the characters that create the most unhappiness to themselves and others in this novel are those who live without mercy #and those who act with mercy the opposite #Rochester's redemption is possible because he has shown mercy to others #at least sometimes like Adele and his first years with Bertha #st John can have everything in his favor and yet his mercilessness makes him a figure of fear for Jane #Jane's deliberate choice to show mercy again and again IS essential to the story #Jane Eyre is a bildungsroman AND a romance because of it #readings that seek to turn Rochester into a complete forever villain #i.e. he is a liar and he actually tortured Bertha into madness #are ultimately readings that want a reason to reject any sort of mercy for him #by making him incapable of good and repentance

[animentality]

we talk a lot about how much ketheric hated durgetash, but what about how much orin hated durgetash? either she despised her sibling and hated seeing them happy (and also distracted from bhaal), or she actually got along pretty well with her sibling until gortash came and ruined it. she must have been so jealous, but not jealous in a “i wish it were me fucking durge/gortash” way, jealous in a “im the only one who seems to be taking this group project seriously but you’re the two getting the credit from teacher” way.

See, but here's the more tragic thing to consider...

Yes, the idea of Orin always hating Durge, and then flying off the handle because she can't handle being perpetually single and pretending it's for religious radicalism reasons is funny.

But what if Orin genuinely cared for them, because they were nicer to her than anyone else?

What if they actually had a somewhat decent relationship because deep down, they know they aren't that different?

The Dark Urge killed their parents, and they had to have felt regret...but they pushed down their feelings, and embraced being a Bhaalspawn, because what else could they do, really?

Their father would literally DISSOLVE them if they disobeyed.

But maybe they'd look at this younger fellow Bhaalspawn, and they'd remember having a childhood before that...and they'd feel bad for her. Take her under their wing.

And she, in turn, wouldn't be used to having someone who actually treats her kindly, or at least, with any degree of mercy?

I'm not sure where I read it, but I think it's mentioned somewhere, or was supposed to be in the game or something, that she tried to resist Bhaal once in the past, but was shut down.

And that is really sad to consider, because maybe Orin knew she was trapped, so, like the Dark Urge, she chose to embrace her heritage because she had no other choice.

But she and the Dark Urge have this in common, and that's why they'd get along...

Until. That fucking Chosen of Bane...

Suddenly the Dark Urge isn't spending any time with her...suddenly, they're moody, withdrawn.

Defensively angry.

See, there's a nasty note from the Dark Urge to Orin in her bedroom...

They say that Orin's blood is "impure."

And I can see why that would hurt Orin a lot...but in HER note, she just mentions how she hates how close Durge is with Gortash?

So maybe.

Hear me out...

Orin had NOT been planning on usurping the Dark Urge at all, like Sarevok says, until they met Gortash.

THEN, she felt betrayed.

Like...I thought we were alike. I thought you knew how it felt, to repress your feelings, and to embrace your destiny, instead of your own needs...but here you are.

Embracing a Banite...spending less time in the temple...with me.

So rather than feeling betrayed because she "loves" Bhaal...deep down, on a subconscious level... she's devastated because the only person she felt could understand her...was becoming someone new.

And she hated it.

And anon...

Orin is an artist at heart.

Creating grisly art was her way of expressing her individuality.

The Dark Urge mentions that they admire her art... but also that it's "useless" because Bhaal doesn't care for it...

Maybe they used to encourage her to be artistic as a child?

Because they know better than anyone, how you must suppress any sense of individuality as a Bhaalspawn. That's not what you were made for. But they knew it helped her emotionally.

And before Gortash, they lightly encouraged it, or at least allowed it...but then she starts being abrasive and complaining about Gortash.

She starts saying, do you truly serve Bhaal, or Enver Gortash, and they'd snap back, because they're defensive about it right, that she doesn't really understand what Bhaal wants???

So I think the Dark Urge showing contempt for her artwork was just a coping mechanism.

They had abandoned their individuality a long time ago, but suddenly this Enver Gortash says he likes them for them...he says, I love how smart you are...and they feel like...they're more than a Bhaalspawn...

And Orin is hurt and betrayed, because she thought they were in this together...and they're confused and anxious, over this problem that they can't simply kill...

So in short, anon.

Yes.

I think the Dark Urge and Gortash's relationship DID put a huge strain on the Dark Urge's relationship with Orin.

I think it would've really broken her heart, to know she was alone with just Bhaal for company.

I also think she needn't have worried, because they'd both get what was coming to them anyway in the end.

They were never going to last forever, her own actions be damned.

Alas, anon.

I feel...so sorry for them all.

#enver gortash #dark urge #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #orin the red

[cosmicjoke]

The Importance of Compassion over Ideology: Levi's Choice as an Act of Mercy and Human Decency

I think one of the most important things that gets lost is all of the discourse, all of the arguing over Levi's choice to let Erwin rest, and whether or not it was the "right" thing to do, is what an incredible act of human compassion, kindness and empathy it was.

One of the main themes of "Attack on Titan" is the danger of ideology and how easily we can lose our humanity to concepts of "the greater good".

All of the arguing within the fandom itself over this particular moment in the story is, in many ways, a manifestation of that. A loss of human compassion, a loss of kindness and mercy to an abstract notion of ideology. Many fans are guilty of just this thing, in their enraged condemnation of Levi's choice. Whether they know it or not, they expose a lack in themselves of human empathy, or even sympathy when they criticize Levi's decision to let Erwin die. To them, the "greater good", that vague, undefined, uncertain promise of something "better" is more important to them than the immediate, concrete and tangible suffering of a fellow human being.

Floch himself is a sort of stand-in for that portion of the audience which so harshly criticizes Levi's choice. And Floch is also an exemplar of what happens, when we place ideology over human compassion. You become a radical extremist, willing to justify any act of atrocity in the name of "the greater good".

Levi is Floch's perfect opposite. His perfect foil. Because we see him make a decision which rejects Floch's brand of justified atrocities, by placing an act of human compassion, kindness and empathy above the vague, undefined and uncertain ideology of the greater good.

And what better person to demonstrate the importance of retaining our humanity in the face of and against ideology, than the most kind, compassionate and empathetic character in the whole series?

Despite what Levi says about himself, about becoming a "monster" that hurts people, his actions belie that self-assessment. Because he not only refused to lose his own humanity to ideology, but also, he refused to let Erwin lose his.

Because ideology, and "the greater good", mean nothing if, in the pursuit of those things, we lose all sense of human decency. If we become monsters. If we lose our compassion, and our empathy toward the suffering of others. If we lose our mercy.

Levi's choice in Shinganshina was really an act of rebellion against the cruelty of ideology; a defiance against the belief of "the greater good" above all else. It was a statement declaring that, no, the greater good doesn't always take precedence, isn't always the most pertinent or important objective. Sometimes, a simple act of mercy is more important. Sometimes, to show compassion toward another human beings suffering is the only path toward an ideal world.

Levi really encapsulate that theme, then, of humanity first, of humaneness first, above the doctrine of movements.

There is no greater good, after all, without compassion and empathy. There is no "better tomorrow" without human kindness.

#Levi Ackerman #Erwin Smith #attack on titan #shingkei no kyojin #meta #commentary #analysis #aot analysis #aot meta

[dirtytransmasc]

Yes, she decided. The moment she continued to go in his chamber, she could advice him to wed laena instead of trying to have a relationship with him, she could have remember him of his duty. She had a choice as everyone has

clearly logic is something that will not reach you no matter what I say but let's try again shall we.

first off, Viserys married for pleasure, not power or political gain. he knew his duties he knew what was best and had no interest. he married Alicent because that's what he wanted. it would be insanely inappropriate for a girl to advise a king on political matters AND it should not be the job of a 14 year old child to tell a king what he should be doing.

second off, she had a father to please, cause again, to reiterate, she was his daughter and she had a duty to him and her house. this was not a duty she wanted, but she didn't have a choice. she was young but se wasn't stupid she knew what her father expected of her, and if word got back from Viserys that she was actively advising him to marry someone else, she would then not only bring disobeying her father but going against him.

thirdly, and more minorly, "she should have pushed him to marry laena" isn't the gotcha you think it is. laena was even younger than her, and even if it was politically expected of him, still fucking gross.

lastly, cause I apparently can't stress this enough, SHE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE, plain and simple. she had no agency, she had no power, she had no out, she was at the mercy of her father, she had to obey him, she had to do what he said, even if it meant walking herself to slaughter. once she met with the king, he took a liking to her and DEMANDED her presence, he the DEMANDED her hand. again, there was no point she could have said no. she couldn't say no to her father, she couldn't advise the king (he barely tolerated it when she was literally the queen, let alone if she had just been some girl entertaining him in his chambers), she couldn't deny the king of anything, she didn't have a choice.

she was 14 and scared, 14 and trying to survive, 14 and trying to please her father, 14 and sent to a man 3 times her age's chambers, 14 and lusted after by the king, 14 and knowing of her place in the world and what was expected of her. like every other woman in their history, she couldn't escape, she couldn't, there's no plainer way to say it. she faced her duty with poise and a stiff lip, cause that's what you had to do, but she was just a child.

you can't expect her to have been some radical icon, there were none, women who went against their station in life were punished or killed or put into god awful betrothals to lessen the shame brought to her family. she was a nobleman's daughter, she had a house to bring honor to. she did the heartbreaking thing of giving up, for the benefit of her father and house, doesn't mean she wanted it, doesn't mean it was ok, doesn't mean she isn't deserving of pity. giving in to your duty =/= wanting it.

"she had a choice as everyone has" she had a choice every woman has; accept it with grace, be forced into it, or damn herself to a fate much worse (and that's being generous, most didn't even have that many choices). it's the men who had choices, Otto offered his daughter up, he didn't have to, he had no obligation and nothing to lose if he didn't. Viserys had every choice, he could have married whoever he wanted, he could have denied her the second she entered his chambers. the men in her life had every choice to change her fate, yet they didn't take it, and you would rather blame her over them?

and listen, I know your set in your mindset of victim blaming a child bride who was raped until her husband didn't have the health or stamina to keep it up, and that you'll choose to blame her over the men in her life who damned her to such a fate. nothing I say will ever convince you, cause you clearly hate her past where logic will reach. you can keep sending asks with your terrible takes that have no backing or logic and actively ignore the political and societal state of the times and what it means for her as a young noble girl, and I'll keep answering them cause I have nothing better to do and I'll defend my girl to the grave.

#actually unbelievable #I cant wrap my head around this lack of logic and common sense #like her offering up the 12 year old is any better #cause if she did y'all woukd be all over her like a pack of dogs #calling her horrible things #whether or not he even took laena's hand instead #she would have been the evil girl throwing a 12 year old at an olf man to save herself #and the “she had a choice thing” is such a tired insanely incorrect take that is frankly mind numbing #she didnt #that was the point of her position within the plot #she had no choice no power no agency #she did ehat was expected of her to survive #just because she accepted her duty doesnt make it right #I dont know what else I can say about that #its just the fact of the matter #thats what it was like for women #pro alicent hightower #alicent hightower #pro team green #hotd #house of the dragon #currently gnawing on my own leg with anger

[theobsessedcookiefan]

May I request....Caramel arrow x shy reader? Uh...hcs or a mini story!

Hi !!! Thx for the suggestion !!

OFC !! I FUCKING LOVE CARAMEL ARROW SM !!

I made headcanons!! If you like it to be a story pls give me an scenario and I'll gladly do it.

꒷︶꒷꒥꒷‧₊˚꒷︶꒷꒥꒷‧₊˚꒷︶꒷꒥꒷‧₊˚꒷︶꒷꒥꒷‧₊˚꒷︶꒷꒥꒷‧₊˚

.- Relationship Headcanons with a shy Reader-.

「🏹」⧽- She's probably your number one protector let's be honest. Affogato Cookie wouldn't be allowed to be near you (not in a 12 meter radius at least).

「🏹」⧽- Talking about the point above; If Caramel sees him trying to " give you advice" like he did to Dark Cacao then the witches have mercy on his pour soul because she will be sending him to the oven in the sky. She knows you don't like confrontation and that's the main reason why she wouldn't let you be alone with him.

「🏹」⧽- Training sessions!! As much as she loves to take care of you she knows there will be a time when she can't, so she wants to make sure you stand for yourself!!

「🏹」⧽- Shyness isn't a problem for her, she's a girlboss and has that energy for the two of you. She would be the one to say the "Excuse me, they asked for no pickles!!" in the relationship.

「🏹」⧽- She wants to make you proud, showing off her skills without being boastful about it, just to show you how much she improves.

「🏹」⧽- Dark Cacao would be like your father-in-law and Dark Choco like your brother (sorry if that's not correct, english is not my first language 😭). If you were a girl or a boy it doesn't matter all Dark Cacao wants it's that Caramel it's happy with you, when she's not there to defend you then probably he will. The same goes for Dark Choco, but he would be a little more radical about it, no one touches his little sister partner!!

「🏹」⧽- Ilovehersmguys😭😭 10/10

#caramel arrow cookie #caramel arrow crk #cookie run #cookie run x reader #crk x reader

[nepentheisms]

Trigun Bookclub: Some Very Long-Winded Final Thoughts (for now)

So what's my takeaway after all this discussion about the allusions to religious concepts and narratives in Trigun? What conclusions does the story draw about faith? And are there any theological ramifications to its message?

From my perspective, the belief system Trigun promotes is a broadly defined humanism that isn't bound by any religious tradition. Declarations of faith in this story are more often directed at individual people or humanity as a whole than toward a god or metaphysical concept. Trigun says that the purest and most fundamental faith is our belief in one another and in our collective capacity for good, and the specifics of any one person's faith are worth pursuing so long as it keeps them in the business of living and engaging compassionately with other sentient beings.

In Trigun's larger thesis on faith, there's also a notable emphasis on the drive for continued life and hope for a future that can be built in the present world as opposed to glorifying death in the service of grandiose ideals, especially if those ideals center on seeing the world as irredeemable and in need of destruction. And it's through this message of continued striving in the here and now that I think Trigun brings up its own point of contention against a particular theological perspective. What we have in Trigun is a firm rejection of apocalypticism.

According to the Critical Dictionary of Apocalyptic and Millenarian Movements, apocalypticism is the "belief in the impending or possible destruction of the world itself or physical global catastrophe, and/or the destruction or radical transformation of the existing social, political, or religious order of human society—often referred to as the apocalypse." In Christianity, this perspective is clearly seen in futurist interpretations of the book of Revelation (the Greek root word for apocalypse - apokalypsis, means revelation or unveiling). This eschatological approach treats the text as a prophetic outline of the end of the world in which God brings judgment through a series of cataclysms and then secures an everlasting paradise for the faithful.

Revelation 21:1-4 (NRSV):

(1) Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth; for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. (2) And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. (3) And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "See, the home of God is among mortals. He will dwell with them: they will be his peoples, and God himself will be with them; (4) he will wipe every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more; mourning and crying and pain will be no more, for the first things have passed away."

As we all know, Knives loves to position himself as a bringer of divine judgment in the same vein as the Abrahamic God.

To Knives, humans are a source of evil that have to be purged from his world; salvation for his chosen people (plants - the higher beings) can only come through mass death. The realization of Knives' apocalypse is doomsday for humankind. No surprise then that in his followers (some of whom revere him like a deity), we see the sentiments of a doomsday cult. To Legato, service to the supreme being is his sole purpose in life; if Knives commands him to die, then he'll die gladly. For Elendira, the most glorious service to the supreme being is to facilitate his vision for the end of the world, and she wants nothing more than to see it happen. And in Chapel, we see the cruelty and cynicism promoted by the apocalyptic mindset: If the end is inevitable, then all efforts to protect what we have in this world are futile, so what value is there in choosing to be merciful?

The immense harm dealt by real religious groups that hold similar beliefs to these is difficult to overstate. So long as any atrocity in the temporal world can be justified when committed in deference to what are taught to be higher spiritual principles, there are no ethical boundaries these groups won't transgress. Japanese society in recent history has, in fact, had significant experiences with violent apocalyptic fanaticism. The most well-known of these occurred on March 20, 1995, in which the doomsday cult Aum Shinrikyo carried out its deadly sarin gas attack in the Tokyo Metro subway system. An act of religious terrorism left many dead and thousands injured, all because some people were convinced the world was ending, and it was to their benefit and everyone else's benefit if they could make it end faster.

The doctrine of Aum Shinrikyo was a mishmash of Hindu, Buddhist, and Christian concepts, and Christian eschatological views on Armageddon were especially influential to cult leader Shoko Asahara's prophecies in the time leading up to the attack. Common threads in books of the Christian Bible with apocalyptic elements include emphasis on the corrupting nature of the present world and promises of eternal unity with God after a final war in which Christ emerges victorious against all evil. These ideas are also disconcertingly influential in mainstream American Evangelical Protestant Christianity. Even in the most nonviolent Christians who would never dream of associating with extremists, it's not hard to find an underlying cynicism and detachment with regard to living life in the present. There's the notion that the world is fundamentally broken and sinful, and believers should look forward to God's destruction and remaking of it, because perfect happiness can only come in the thereafter.

1 John 2:15-17 (NRSV):

(15) Do not love the world or the things in the world. The love of the Father is not in those who love the world, (16) for all that is in the world—the desire of the flesh, the desire of the eyes, the pride in riches—comes not from the Father but from the world. (17) And the world and its desire are passing away, but those who do the will of God abide forever.

From such a perspective, hope is primarily oriented toward some indefinite point in the future that will come to pass via the eradication of every imperfection that marks the present. What happens in the story of Trigun, however, is an overturning of the apocalyptic narrative. The climax of Trigun Maximum invokes the fantastical imagery of Revelation, creating the impression of a stage set for the definitive final battle between the embodiments of good and evil, but then the story pushes back against the narrative conventions of apocalypticism. There is no end of days, no destruction and re-creation of the world, because it was averted by radical human hope for compassionate understanding in the here and now. And there is no ultimate triumph of Good over Evil in which Satan is cast into the lake of fire. In fact, there may not even be a "Satan" in this story at all.

When Knives collects his sisters into an amalgamated body, his form and theirs take on a draconic appearance, bringing to mind the red dragon of Revelation (that is, Satan). In Knives' own mind, however, he's God pouring out his divine wrath on the humans who've sinned against him, and there are angelic elements to his design as well to reflect this. Ultimately, his form doesn't hold. Vash and his human allies manage a breakthrough in communicating with the collective body of dependent plants, and when Knives is cast to the earth (in another departure from Revelation, this doesn't occur as the outcome of heavenly forces battling against him), he faces Vash one last time as just a man - Vash's brother who's lashing out because he never processed his extreme childhood trauma. Because maybe in the end these forces of absolute good and absolute evil don't exist; maybe our willingness to imagine God and the Devil was always the product of our own messy, conflicted humanity in all its potential for good and evil.

The resolution, then, happens not through one brother killing the other, but through connection and understanding, a little push toward a kinder existence for everyone. Knives ends up having to place his trust in the very humans he hated in order to save his brother's life, and his faith is rewarded. For Vash and the rest of humanity, life goes on; it goes on in an imperfect present, but it's a present where there's plenty of joy to be found nonetheless. So the story closes out under a bright blue sky with the assurance that the song of humanity still sang. There's no looming threat of doomsday, just a path forward toward more life.

#trigunbookclub #trigun #trigun maximum #ow my brain I need a break from writing #trigun meta #Guns&God meta #religion mention #christianity mention #cults cw #terrorism cw #long post

[centrally-unplanned]

This is really fun, you've had some greats answers, how about Oliver Cromwell?

Aw, thank you! (also @blogofex you asked for this as well)

Politically I think his VOR isn't great - he is neither an ideas man, nor a party builder, nor an institutionalist. He doesn't participate in all the "debates" of the era in big ways, he would frequently have things like, "Okay, we have Charles I at our mercy, time for him to come to terms and set up a constitutional order. Uh, someone else do that, I guess?" He never had a clear vision for the Protectorate, and it shows - it vanishes the moment he died. He ascends to that position solely on the basis of his military accomplishments, and others in his shoes could likely have made other, better decisions.

However militarily he is very accomplished, you can't take it away from him. The Parliamentarians are by no means structurally the better army in this war, and its really a series of 4-5 wars, often against different enemies like the Irish, Scottish, and even the French. He bests them all, often using relentless speed, and pioneers drill & close-knit battle formations for his men that his enemies could not match in the chaos of the civil war. Figures like Fairfax are often underappreciated, so I don't think "without him" their side loses? But like without him and two other guys, their odds start to decline radically. However I do think it should be a demerit about how much what they built really didn't last. It was so much wasted opportunity. If they had done better on that front, he could be an A-, but I'll go with a B+.

#vor debate

[wild-wombytch]

Thanks for the DM, hun! That's cute that you cowardly blocked answers after sending this. I feel all hot and flustered to be considered so scary and powerful and smarter than you <3

I just tipped 1€ to the French Femelliste (Femalist) Dora Moutot in your name <3

Try to educate yourself about radical feminism and how most of us are ex staunch TRAs and actually gnc women who are often anarchists or left leaning and against the oppression of gender and the difference between a conservative transphobe and a gender critical. Maybe you'll be more credible talking about reading comprehension then <3

XoXo

PS : Here's your receipt, love :

I wrote :

"Salut Dora, je viens de recevoir un message agressif de la part de [redacted] sur Tumblr, qui associe les radfems à l'extrême droite et insulte mon intelligence. Du coup ça me fais plaisir de t'envoyer un petit euro de sa part :)! Merci pour ce que tu fais pour défendre les femmes et de lutter contre la censure! Bon courage pour faire face au TRAs!"

Which roughly translates as :

"Hey Dora! I just received an agressive message from [redacted] on Tumblr, who associates radfems and alt right and insult my intelligence. So it is my pleasure to tip you a modest 1€ on her behalf :)! Thank you for what you do to defend women and fight against censorship! Good luck against TRAs!"

Here's Dora Moutot and Marguerite Stern's website Femelliste, where you can sign the manifesto against censorship and transgenderist mob. You can also find their donation pages. Dora Moutot is currently being sued for transphobia on accusations of misgendering on a TV debate, where she was asked whether she thought a trans woman guest was a woman and where she replied that trans women are males, which is a first in France as misgendering isn't a crime. In France, lobbying and religions alike are supposed to stay away from the government by the Constitution. The TRAs are trying to change that like they did in Canada. That's a very very quick and dirty explanation of it (more of it on the English version of the website I linked) but you get the gist of it.

I'll increase donation sums if some of y'all are particularly creative in your hate mail. But that's a basic 0,5/10 insult, so 1€ this time.

#Tip a TERF #Hatemail = Donation #terfblr #libfem bullshit #radblr safe #Die mad haters #Not my idea but ily radblr for normalising this queen shit! I especially bow to whoever came up with that idea first 💗

[hallucinateonpaperspines]

is Ashley more into arsen or explosives ?

Explosives. May primus have mercy upon Ratchet's spark once Wheeljack fully joins the team. I'll give a little spoiler, she's gonna get the nickname "Firecracker" for a reason lol. She'll be Wheeljack's choice back up grenade in more than one way.

Oddly enough, Jack Darby is the real arsonist out of all of them. It takes a significant amount of pressure to trigger, but he's ready to things on fire should the situation call for it. Which catches more than a few people off guard.

The difference between the two of them is the reasoning behind the involvement of fire. Jack isn't afraid of creating a tactical distraction via property destruction or, if a very special con is involved, employing radical defensive measures. Ashlyn would want to create a spectacle. Her goal, subconscious or not, would be to demonstrate a statement of control or superiority. Not an appropriate coping mechanism by any measure, but at least it would take a certain level of interactions to push her to act.

Basically Ashlyn is a petty "you will burn with us," while Jack is a reluctant "look what you made me do."

#ao3 #ao3 author #tfp #transformers prime #aligned continuity #of timelines and trolleys #ashlyn moore (oc) #jack darby #there is a reason i make comparisons to op and megsy #and this is part of that

[inkofamethyst]

November 20, 2023

Weekend thoughts.

So I've had an album to help deal with anxiety for the past couple of years, and I think I now have an album to promote self-confidence and hype myself up before an event. Beyonce's Renaissance has been played regularly this semester (almost) straight through. It's great for a power walk to campus.

UGH okay so six months to the day after my last day of undergrad my school-supplied free HBO Max subscription was cruelly ripped from my grasp without warning. I knew it was coming eventually, and I've been working on clearing my watchlist for months. Unfortunately, their bet was totally on point. I immediately resubscribed. And best believe imma watch every CENT's worth (I watch a minimum of 1-2 Batman episodes a day these days, and when you consider the convenience, the cost isn't bad). So it seems that my streaming service hopping has begun, as it's neither necessary nor responsible to pay for several services that all have the same role. (I might let Max go over break to focus on reading and watching shows on my parents' accounts at home.)

My... ceramics-friend (a cohort member) invited me to a friendsgiving she was hosting (she knows a lot of people who live in the area), and it was not a bad time at all. I get nervous in situations (lol there could be a full stop right here) where I only know the host, but a couple of people I knew/was acquainted with showed up and that made things a bit better. I employed my usual strategy of "find a place to sit and then stay there" and that was good. I didn't stay to the end, but pretty close. I did meet some really cool people!! (Side note: I don't really drink bc I don't care for the taste, but we're now at the age where a goldenish drink is more likely to be gin with other flavors than apple juice and now I know that it is absolutely necessary to ask what something is before filling a glass (but best believe I finished my whole (tiny) glass like a big girl). I tell people that I'm a bit stunted due to covid but truthfully it's just because I'm pathetic boring uh uhh.. intensely introverted (still gotta mind how I talk about myself these days, even an unchecked joke could set my progress back)).

This summer I'd bought two pairs of Docs (one on a whim and then another that I'd wanted for years and years) because they were both ridiculously discounted. I'd broken in the impulse pair over the last several months (1461 patents, they're going to be my ~conference docs~ I think) then a week or so ago decided to start breaking in the other pair (1460 Nappa). Ngl, I thought they were a huge mistake at first. Tight, inflexible, tough to put on. My feet HURT. But. After a couple of days out (only a few hours at a time), they feel quite a bit better. Still months to go, I know, but I feel relieved.

Last thing: after having my third eye opened to the idea of building equity through a house and feeling intense rage against the idea of renting for the rest of my life (specifically if I choose to settle in one place), I've come to realize that this foreverrent thing touches more than just housing. I want to own my favorite albums now, my favorite movies, shows. I don't want my ability to consume my favorite media to be at the mercy of a streaming service. The most difficult part of that though (after figuring out the list of what I want to own and also paying for it over time) is figuring out where to store the hard copies. This might be a problem I spend more time working out this summer when there's less going on, but now that I'm ~radicalized~ I just wanted to state that it's on my radar. It's probably not reasonable to chip away at this while I'm in this apartment since it won't be my final place in grad school and I don't want to move more boxes than needed.

Today I'm thankful for.. uhm uhh OH I'm thankful that the clicking noises don't wake me up at night anymore.

I wonder how much of that half circle skirt I'll be able to complete at home over break [edit, four days later: none]. May have to hem during winter break.

Also the M9 reunion post-apogee was SO FUN k bye

[ms-hells-bells]

Ahh yes! It’s very feminist of you to call another woman annoying and stupid! Women like you are part of the problem with this community. Anytime a woman does something you deem incorrect or ignorant you and many other “radical feminists” want to fucking eviscerate her. How can we expect for women to believe in our ideology if we can’t get along and offer each other mercy when we make mistakes? Jesus Christ grow the fuck up and stop behaving like a child.

lol. some people are stupid. like, that's not a sexed thing, i call a lot of men stupid. feminism isn't supporting all women's actions, it's not #girlpower, it's the class based liberation of women. you'll notice that MANY MANY radfems responded to her bad faith and strawmanning accusations against radfems with courteous and detailed responses with sources, logical debates, and patient explanations. it's when she kept arguing by just basically going 'no <3' and 'you're wrong', without any actual evidence based response.

why are women always expected to be the 'bigger person' when people act, yes, STUPID and disrespectful? i even responded to one post she made with straight evidence, which she ignored, and then i saw further posts she kept making, clearly enjoying the aggravated responses she was getting. that's not mistakes, mistakes are things you didn't mean to do and are apologetic for lmao. which is why i didn't respond further to any of her other dumb stuff. you can't teach someone clearly unwilling to learn. me calling her annoying on my personal blog is not 'eviscerating' her. it is identity politics to bat off criticism of a person by waving their marginalised characteristics around. not liking someone who happens to be a woman, gay, black, disabled, whatever, doesn't make you a bigot. there's a big difference between 'this person (so, not even directly at them) is being stupid' and 'i hope you die bitch' or other misogynistic and violent statements. 'people would like you feminists if you were just NICER' is something we've heard since feminism started.

#not answering any more asks like this #sick of children being on the internet

[lavender-laudanum]

Lord Inquisitor Geth Trevelyan's Inner Circle: In His Own Words (File 1/12)

*After Geth Trevelyan's death in 9:45 Dragon in Minrathous, the former mighty Lord Inquisitor's journals were found amongst his possessions left behind at his home in Skyhold, deep within the Frostback Mountains. These journals, unedited, were brought into circulation with the help of the Viscount of Kirkwall, Varric Tethras, and by Trevelyan's husband, Dorian Pavus. Along with entries detailing his time leading the Inquisition and much of his life beforehand, which had been shrouded in near-complete secrecy until these documents' release, there were files on each of the members of his so-called "Inner Circle." These dossiers were put together as a standing testimony to Trevelyan's extremely candid nature and radical approach to leadership.*

THOM RAINIER – The Resolve

*There's a neat, careful line crossing out the name ‘Warden Blackwall,’ replacing it with another, 'Thom Rainier,' then another, quicker edit, smaller, that simply says 'Warden' beside it*

I know there was much concern over Warden Blackwall, or as we know him now, Thom Rainier. I also know there was something of an upheaval when I chose to allow him to stay with the Inquisition as he was; instead of forcing him to truly join the Grey Wardens, allowing him to hang in Orlais, or even simply banishing him from the Inner Circle, Skyhold, and the Inquisition as a whole. I could have done any of those things, and I assume it would have been far better received than my actual decision. There were even those amongst the Circle itself, who had considered Rainier their friend before his gallows confession, that objected to my 'mercy.' It was perhaps one of the only times I was disappointed in them as a whole, though eventually, I am happy to report, they each amended their positions in time.

I know something of redemption, and that was the essence of my decision to allow Rainier to remain with me, with the Inner Circle, and the Inquisition, and to this very moment, as I write this very entry, I know I made the right decision because not once have I regretted it. Even before we learned of his true origins, Thom Rainier was and remains now, one of the most honorable men I have ever had the pleasure of knowing, of working with and fighting alongside; a warrior of such caliber that if there were more men of his like, Thedas never would have reached the point of needing the Inquisition. This, of course, isn't to say that I wasn't upset at the truth - Maker knows I was - but not because of what he'd done, or because of that paltry cost to the Inquisition itself for the reveal, no. I even knew he was hiding something, and something terrible; call it intuition. No, I was upset that it took a gallows confession, a suicide if I had ever seen one, for him to speak his truth. My friend, a man who stood by me at Haven and faced down death countless times without hesitation, would have rather hung than own his truth.

Rainier is, like many I have encountered over my life, a complicated man. Men are not made to be simple, of course, that is what truly makes us men. But his story in particular, told me the tale of a man who simply could not make a choice, and in the end, that, and bad luck, damned him. Much like the dog hung from a tree in his childhood, while he simply stood and watched, Rainier hanged himself in the same way. He allowed himself to be caught up by his own decisions, and ultimately, he did a terrible, terrible thing. But as complicated men are, Rainier chose to follow the true Blackwall, a Grey Warden, and become one himself – and though he did not become a Warden in a Warden’s sacrifice, he became one in his actions thereafter, something few men, if any, would have done if given the same chance.

If I had any doubt, however miniscule, of Rainier’s desire for redemption, for his drive to be a better man than the one who murdered children in cold blood on the order of a traitor and a liar, let there be no question now that I would have seen him hang. As much as I know something about redemption, I know something of a far more dangerous ideal: retribution. Not vengeance, no, but true retribution. Rainier’s actions were damn near unforgivable – and in my life I have seen the truly unforgivable. However, the difference between Rainier and those others in my life, is that Rainier never justified what he had done, and to this day, his greatest fear, as we saw in The Fade at Adamant, remains nothing but himself. And he ran, yes, for so many years he ran, and he will live with that knowledge, that cowardice, for the rest of his days, but I do not believe that decisions are zero-sum. I truly believe that Thom Rainier earned his recompence for his actions by what followed in his life, even before coming to the Inquisition, to me.

When I met Rainier, he was teaching men how to fight, to defend their homes. That is, in essence, the man he is, the man I know, the man I see. He is at his core a noble, fierce protector, and a friend to those who accept him as he is now, not as he was before. In the Inner Circle, he was one of my most loyal confidants, and through his own stalwart honor, kept me, as Lord Inquisitor, grounded in the real cause, questioning my actions more than anyone else – not just my actions, but the reasons behind them. And for that, because of him, I am a better man, too.

#dragon age: inquisition #thom rainier #blackwall #Geth Trevelyan #character study #my writing #the inner circle #journal fanfic

[lover-of-skellies]

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#5

Cross: Don't kill me, I have a husband!

Nightmare: You think I care about that?

Cross: No, you misunderstand. This isn't a plea for mercy. It's a warning

Dream [kicking down the door]: ARE YOU READY TO DIE, BROTHER?!

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#4

Dust: Hey Killer, what are you doing tonight?

Killer: More like who am I doing, right guys?

Axe:

Cross:

Killer: No one. I'm free, what's good?

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#3

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[billyloomisisarat]

RING RING ﹗ ʰᵉˡˡᵒ ˀ @cathydoll, incoming message : move and you die.

PAINFUL REVELATION. THE TRAPPED VILLAIN﹐ THE GREATEST PLOT TWIST IN ANY SCARY MOVIE. THE UNTAMEABLE﹐ FEROCIOUS FELINE ˑˑˑ GETTING INTO A MOUSE TRAP. CORNERED BY A REFLECTION SO CRYSTAL ﹣ CLEAR﹐ ﹙⁽ ᴼᴺ ᴮᴿᴬᴺᴰ ᵂᴵᵀᴴ ᴮᴵᴸᴸᵞ ᴸᴼᴼᴹᴵˢ˒ ᴰᴬᴿᴱ ᵞᴼᵁ ᶜᴼᴹᴾᴬᴿᴱ ﹖ ⁾﹚ AND YET SO BLURRED. LOOK AROUND ——— IS THERE ANY WAY OUT ﹖ ARE YOU ALONE IN THE FACE OF DANGER ﹖ ARE YOU THE DANGER HERE ﹖ OR ARE YOU NOW SHEEP﹐ IN WOLF·S CLOTHING ﹖ ——— PAINFUL REVELATION ﹕ YOU ARE JUST A FOOL﹐ AT SOMEONE ELSE·S MERCY.

𝚅𝙸𝙴𝚆𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝙵𝙸𝙽𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼𝚂𝙴𝙻𝚅𝙴𝚂 𝙾𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝙳𝙶𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙸𝚁 𝚂𝙴𝙰𝚃𝚂. THRILL EVER SO PRESENT, CUE THE SCARY HORN SOUND EFFECT : THE BAD GUY FINALLY HAD IT COMING. A TURNING POINT WITH A TRAGEDY ﹙ 🇴​🇷​ 🇨​🇦​🇹​🇭​🇦​🇷​🇹​🇮​🇨​ 🇷​🇪​🇱​🇮​🇪​🇫​ 🇫​🇷​🇴​🇲​ 🇹​🇭​🇪​ 🇦​🇻​🇪​🇷​🇦​🇬​🇪​ 🇻​🇮​🇪​🇼​🇪​🇷​·🇸​ 🇵​🇪​🇷​🇸​🇵​🇪​🇨​🇹​🇮​🇻​🇪​ ﹚ STILL YET TO COME : SLASH SLASH SLASH, AND THE BAD GUY WILL BE OUT FOR GOOD.

CINEMATIC SET - UP COME TO LIFE : a pistol is pointed towards you, 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖌𝖚𝖞 𝖎𝖓 𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓. the conviction in her voice is sharp, making sure her motives are already showcased with each word. meaning a 🇲​🇦​🇸​🇹​🇪​🇷​ 🇵​🇱​🇦​🇳​ is about to revealed, detail by detail ˑˑˑ explaining how you were just an insect that was lured into her webs. bloodthirsty dionaea muscipula, and you were led straight into its mouth. blood in the water, and the shark is swimming in your direction — 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫 - 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬, encapsulated in this moment ˑˑˑ in this fucking sour moment.

ᵂᴴᴬᵀ'ˢ ᵀᴼ ᴮᴱ ˢᴬᴵᴰ ᴬᴮᴼᵁᵀ ᵞᴼᵁᴿ ᴺᴬᴿᴿᴬᵀᴵᵛᴱ ᴺᴼᵂ ﹖ on the inside, you are burning. everything's crushing, everything's unfair. this can't be happening ˑˑˑ not now, not ever. THIS CAN'T BE — T͙H͙I͙S͙ ͙ C͙A͙N͙'͙T͙ ͙ B͙E͙ ͙ Y͙O͙U͙R͙ ͙ E͙N͙D͙. you were supposed to be the one who would change it around. this can't be the deserved bad ending for you, no ˑ ˑ ˑ ❝ this is ridiculous ... seriously —— ❞ from deadpan to shocked just like that, but you gradually burst out ... laughing ﹖ amused laughter, or is it desbelief shaped in overbearing enlightenment ﹖

𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚝 - 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚜𝚘𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛, 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎, 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚛𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝'𝚜 𝚋𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚞𝚙 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞. it's slowly washing over your seemingly joyful response. now, it's fading into a fiery stare. eyes, mouth, your whole face succumbs to plain rage in a heartbeat. it looks almost overacted, unnatural for a human face to switch between two radically different expressions this soon ˑ ˑ ˑ but this metamorphosis is true at its core. ❝ so what now ﹖ here i am, you got me ---... congratulations. i bet you're loving this, aren't you ... ❞ the last piece of your speech is cut for a second, before you let out a strident, choleric cry:

❝ AREN'T YOU, HUH ﹗﹗﹗﹖﹖﹖﹗﹖ ISN'T THIS WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED, YOU FUCKING WHORE ﹗﹗﹗﹖﹖﹖﹗﹖ ❞

#MM. REPLY. #𓆪 • ∙ • ‣ V: MAIN. #cathydoll #i told you... i told you... i told you IT WAS COMING WASNT IT #not me skipping straight up to the part where cathy murders him mercilessly <3 #w slur /

[secularprolifeconspectus]

Why did Randall Terry kick his daughter out of the house after she became pregnant 2x before the age of 18? He also called Muslims terrorists. Tried reading about him since he started Operation Rescue, but he doesn't seem like a great leader or example

You should just tweet at him and ask him yourself— @randallterry. He's literally just a person, and he's very open about how he reconciled with his children, as well as about any other question you may have. He will talk to you!! Don't believe what the pro-abortion media has said about him; obviously they lie to spin a narrative, and I know they misquote him regarding his condemnation of violence all the time.

Let's be real: Randall is a christofascist, and a bigot. He is a product of the puritanical protestants of his time. And he's also fighting to deprogram himself over time. He's softened on so many of his rigid stances. I told him my intersex friend is going to be his protégé. He grimmaced at first but then shook his head, laughed and said, "I'd love to talk to them." And he did! He listened to them explain their biology and everything!!

I respect Randall because he respects me. That's the thing about fundamentalists: they practice true tolerance because they also know how to be intolerant. If he looks you in the eye and says "I disagree with you", he means he sees you as an equal worth disagreeing with. He's not going to infantilize you with some relativist bullshit. He tells me I'm wrong and still works with me because he respects me. So I do the same: I call him out, I tell him he's an asshole, then we laugh and get back to our mission of saving preborn people.

You know that thing that happens where you become so radicalized on the left that you come full circle and end up agreeing with the radical right? Like how both the rad left and rad right are like fuck voting, but for completely opposite reasons. Randall and I come at pro-life issues from seemingly incompatible foundations and with polar reasoning, but we agree that direct action is the way forward. He's a street preacher and I'm antifa, we are both radical idealists at the end of the day, each in our own way.

The reason no other progressive pro-life group has made it as far as PAAU is because we ally with people we disagree with over the controversy we agree on: the preborn are people and we need to act like it.

Ultimately Randall isn't advocating for or doing violence against other people. His words can be harmful, but I have firm boundaries and I practice detachment. I am not aligned with him, but I tolerate him and I am his friend. Friendship changes people and opens their eyes to care for people unlike themselves. Everyone should determine their own boundaries with Randall depending on their own windows of tolerance.

Randall took care of Terrisa and Lauren when they developed PTSD from discovering the DC Five. He lead the Jfor5 press conference because he has decades of experience dealing with the media, especially when the media is actively lying about you. He inspired and mobilized thousands and thousands of people, so we take pages from his book and leave behind what does not serve us (i.e. the bigotry).

Randall will often say to us "I don't understand why I'm friends with any of you" and smile. He is kind. He is feisty. He loves unconditionally. I believe we are in his life for a reason, and he in ours. If we truly believe in restorative justice, then we must accept that people can change and grant them mercy. Randall is changing by knowing us and loving us; I can see it in him.

Also, you should check out his album, it's hilarious.

Ps. To whomstever compared Ted Cruz to Hitler in my DMs: first, omfg, get over yourself. Second, he's the zodiac killer, not Hitler, get your references straight. Third, he offered to help us because he actually gives a damn about the babies. Fourth, we are not aligned with him, we are allied with him on this issue because it is pragmatic. If you're comfortable in your coalition, then it's too small. Just as hunters and animal rights activists must come together to save the forests, we must work with people with whom we have fundamental differences in worldview to end legal baby murder.

Fifth and final, if this anon is who I think it is, I have a message for you: you've abandoned and betrayed the babies. Get off my DICK. Get your ideological and moral puritanism out of my DMs. You're just as much of a fundamentalist as Randall and you can't even SEE it, which makes you a hypocrite too.

#answers and submissions #hide

[sukunasun]

hElp i haven't been able to stop thinking about how breedable nanami kento looks since about may 2021..any advice??? pls dont enable me - or do. I'm at his/your mercy (also i feel like im gonna regret sending this ask in but oh wellllll)

this is how i know im getting old because i had to google what breedable meant haha...but yeah, we're in the same boat tbh, the man has that effect on everyone, no one can ever just leave the silent aloof types alone and ive never been more desperate to figure him out...tbh i've been putting him off, we're in the middle of a break up right now in the kitchen, it's silent except for the bubbling stew and his back is turned to me...

he's just so infuriating, i can't make him love in a way he doesn't know how to, i can't change him, and as a writer sometimes im unable to find that missing piece, what exactly does it mean to be loved by him, how would i know when im not used to his version of affection, maybe i don't care about acts of service or telltale signs im forced to pick out of his ever impassive face..

..sometimes of course majority=validity in fandom so now nanami has become husbando material but would actually Suck as a husband in my opinion, and no, he isn't perfect, not in my eyes, and we can dream and we can write him in all the ways he could be but i'd prefer to bring him closer to the light; that even a man who would choose to stay in the shadows can't escape the scrutiny and the scalpel of a surgeon like me, wanting to peel him open just to see what goes on in there, never touching or moving his pain around, tied up in knots, seeping into the crevices of his heart, rather than to fix him or heal him, i'd sew him back up with everything still intact, as if my job was to give him a diagnosis, tell him all the ways he's perfectly healthy except for all that repression and grief he's holding onto—"you should talk to someone," i say, "opening up isn't going to hurt you," forgetting that he's placed that privilege into my hands, the same hands that pulls the bandage up and over the scars...all i do is hurt him and make him suffer lmao... i can't remember the last time i gave him a happy ending and i feel bad (im sorry nanami, you deserve a writer who could give you the words and the main character to help you through it) i would suggest thinking of him for his flaws and maybe that would bring him down to earth a little but then i realize it makes him more attractive? because he becomes real, ive done the analyzing and the overthinking and it's still not enough, i wish to know him more, to never assume, but don't take my advice tbh....go wild, love every version of him, whether he's a househusband, competent nerd who uses microsoft excel like a pro, a gentleman who bakes bread and makes the best bentos, a father figure or a simp who chases after the cute, bubbly girls, a corruption kink, a praise kink, a breeding kink, however he's presented—lust for him, for the body that's built like a tree, thighs that could crush yet, he's so gentle when he places you in between them, straddling or mounting whichever you prefer, his weight atop you like tons of water, and just...burrow deeper, take him as he is, ride the wave or sink below it, if anything—love him, nanami is meant to be loved patiently, and without the need for it to be grandiose, extreme, radical, violent, no need for posession, obsession, or the world burning around him because he'd want to live and enjoy it's every texture and phenomenon with you, enjoying the still water and sun, the view of them meeting at the end of that horizon, reflected also in your eyes when he kisses you, tasting like release, like hope, and maybe then, it'll click, it'll make sense, what it's like to be at his mercy.

#why is this written like im his ex and im writing a letter to his new gf...idk anon pls take him from me and love him in ways i could not.. #i want to write about loving him and him loving me back but i dont know why he isnt enough sometimes... #'i want you to fight for me' is so hard to say #(quietly dodges the fact that i left his bday piece in the drafts ...) im sorry ... #but just like his tenacity for making good bread i try to be the same with the writing #^not true im actually very sloppy and i procrastinate too much nanami wouldnt be proud #who are you nanami...why do make me sigh heavily...why is it i see your face all the time...haunting me...forcing me to see you #ask #anon