#but still. Stresst

[somethingsomethingcomic]

was drunk AF last night and wanted nothing more in this world than a donut

sorry bout the inactivity. tears of the kingdom is out so

#smth art #furry #halftone #queer artist #donut #sorry guys i been doing other stuff #its ok ill be back to it soon ish #im making a website so thats part of what has been eating my time. bc idk how to code #im learning on the fly and soon hopefully smth smth comics will be hosted on a website of my own as well as here #i will hopefully be getting back to art in general soon #just been a bit burnt out and unmotivated #but hopefully ive got some other stuff happening and things will be more chill soon #these unpaid breaks got me stresst but hopefully those will have ended soon #and ill be able to just. do anything lol #anyway! would still love a donut.

[thewomaninlilywhite]

I... am auditioning for the Mouse tomorrow ... ???

#what is my life like why am i doing this to myself #I don't even necessarily want this #[it's because I wanted a low stakes audition for my first in-person audition in like 3 years ik but STILL] #but i'm stresst anyway because it's a dancer audition because i literally got into mt from being a dancer but i don't feel like one anymore #like whenever i'm in ballet class now i'm like 'i don't know what i'm doing i look so sloppy. and ungraceful' and i HSATE it #ignore me #let's chat #falling for something new

[crymeariveronceagain]

have to write an original short story based on nothing but my own thoughts by this saturday and i havent even started i am shaking in my boots

#am i scared of my own mind? yeah! who isnt! #am i scared that nothing i do will ever be good enough? of course! #am i terrified that i won't have written anything by saturday and still be a void of ideas? oh MOST DEFINITELY! #frizzle helped me come up with an idea #but this has gotta be like 3k words max #and i dont have room for that lovely long idea in 3k #i'd need at least 6k to get it down properly #;-; #im stresst out yall #not fandom content #personal #the college transfer saga continues

[jellyloveru]

ough :(

#it's just. rambles i suppose #балаболим #emotionally and physically i'm ok i guess. i just can't make myself work again so. yeah. also have no one to speak so again. yeah #it's weird. i know the consiquenses of this. i still can't make myself. wow. #i really need to do something tomorrow at least. really wanna talk about it with someone too. share and stuff yknow? yh. #this emotional stillness is welcome and appreciated but at what cost? can't work when stressted can't work when not. what do you need??? #(at myself of course) #...at least i figured a way to steal some ideas an not get caught. as in a way to calm myself when i find my idea too similar to other's #happenes sometimes. just. make something incredible and then BAM. i see where i might have taken it from. #even the firebud's not my idea. it's from a long deleted game. wasn't a main character or anything but still. #i have reworked them though. a lot. that might make them mine right? #ough. head hurts from all this thinking. that's why i like bооm!knuсkles so much huh?) #...though thinking about that book series is nice. there's lots of things to think about. all this. multidimentional travel. #adaptation to a new world. the creator even considered the possibility of different languages and materials which make up the world! #ough. such a good concept. the author's word play is also great. as great as it can work in russian))) #(dad keeps braging about how rich russian is. yeah we have a ton of words but not a lot of word play can't go from it) #(english seems to have worked it out though. you might hate dad jokes but i have yet to hear the likes of them in russian. love em) #(besides dad jokes. english has a certain way around words. it's flexible like those rubber rulers. has limits and yet. 's fun) #(maybe it's just me. i like noticing differences and simularities between languages) #anyway. i wouldn't mind tellw someone about this book series. i'm certainly not coherent enough to male a post about it :)

[wulfhalls]

Viserys just being fucking fallen over in that knife scene picture is even funnier now they stresst the fuck outta him he doesn’t care anymore he’s been defeated pjjjjjjjj

licherally why is this the funniest thing ever like

just his wife attacking his daughter with THE DAGGER in the middle of a hall in front of like 50 other fucking people. maybe the royal family would still be relevant if they'd let kate and meghan go at it like that. anyway

meanwhile his brother/son in law (😭😭😭✋️✋️#justtargthings) is ready to escalate the already batshit situation to high heavens because that's his queen, and God help anyone who dared to disrespect his queen

and he's just there like :/ thinking he should have just let daemyra marry way back when to spare him all of this fucking dumb ass thottery

#asks #hotd #daemon x rhaenyra #house of the dragon

[spruechevonherzen]

Eine wahre Geschichte...

Ich erzähle euch mal, wie es bei mir ist, seit ich einen Freund habe. Wir sind fast 3 Jahre zusammen und lieben uns sehr. Aber meine Eltern sind so komisch geworden. Weil sie es nicht richtig akzeptieren, dass ich glücklich bin. Wie sage ich es am besten, ich war die Putze und die immer alles gemacht hat. Und jetzt denke ich halt an mich. Und kümmere mich jetzt um mich und meine liebe. Und das passt denen nicht. Wenn wir über Wohnungen reden und zusammen ziehen reden. Werden sie ganz komisch. Werden still und wollen darüber nichts hören. Meine Mutter will am liebsten, dass wir hier in den Umkreis ziehen. Aber hier gibt es nichts. Und sobald sie hören, dass es weiter weg ist. Bekommt man eine Ansage. Hier könnt doch nicht so weit wegziehen usw. Und das Stresst mich so sehr. Wenn man was darüber erzählt. Ich bekomme Herzrasen und Angst. Sie wollen mich immer noch kontrollieren und alles bestimmen. Sie helfen einen nicht. Oder freuen sich für uns. Nein, sie machen einen noch ein schlechtes Gewissen. Ich dachte immer, dass es schön wird, wenn man mal auszieht. Das sie einen unterstützen, aber nein, sie machen einen nur alles kaputt. Ich habe jetzt schon Angst vor dem Tag, wo ich ausziehe. Ich weiß jetzt schon, dass sie einen nicht helfen werden und uns nie besuchen werden. Weil sie es nicht wollen, dass ich glücklich bin. Sie machen ja schon ein Drama, wenn ich mit mein Freund nach Potsdam fahre. Um da was in seine Wohnung zu machen. Sie kapieren nicht das ich Erwachsen bin und auf mich selber aufpassen kann. Meine Mutter akzeptiert kein Nein und nicht was ich sage. Es muss sich immer alles um die drehen und wie die es wollen. Und das will ich nicht mehr. Wenn ich was sage, bin ich ein Egoist und denke nur an mich selber. Aber ist, dass nicht richtig, dass ich auch mal an mich denke und an mein Freund. Ist das wirklich alles so falsch wie ich es mache? Warum wird immer mir ein schlechtes Gewissen gemacht. Habe ich nicht das Recht zu leben wie ich es will. Ich fühle mich so unterdrückt. Ich fühle mich manchmal, ob ich nicht atmen kann. Ich habe echt Angst das sie alles kaputt machen werden. Und mein Freund mich verlässt derentwegen. So das ist mein Leben zurzeit. Und ich muss sagen, dass meine Angst immer größer wird wie was kommt. Manchmal würde ich am liebsten wegrennen und meine Gedanken wieder freibekommen. Oder meine Eltern einfach die Meinung sagen. Aber das würde ja auch nichts bringen. Ich weiß ja wie die sind.

#herzschmerz #angst #leben #sorgen #frustriert #herz #berlin #verletzt #liebe #familie #kein leben #alleine #angst was zu sagen

[natesmack]

do you have any more deets on ur nick/jake bdsm fic 👀 (or nick/kaiden for that matter omg) saw u talking about it and almost passed out bc i feel like no one else is baby-girling nick suzuki the way he deserves!!

omg anon you are my people pls I think nick deserves to babygirl-ed so hard and no one lets him, everyone wants him to top and take care of cole

so like I'm a nick/kaiden girl bc last summer kaiden spent pretty much his entire summer in montreal and nick did too (nick's captain so I get him wanting to show Commitment To The City tm or whatever but I don't understand kaiden's reasons tbh but I'm not complaining). they spent all summer together and it was very cute of them 😭 (also not to be insane but kaiden gives me shea weber vibes and I shipped nick/shea 💀)

my jake/nick feelings though!!! they're VERY loud also. they seem like such good friends and have been since both of their rookie years. jake's been around since nick was new and fresh and still proving himself and has seen him become the player he is. they have insane chemistry.

SO now that im done rambling, my fic is set in a bdsm verse where this is nick's first season as captain. this is set after the incident last year where chris wideman made a bitchy comment about the leafs letting a ebug get into the last minutes of a game vs the habs bc they were up (link here) and nick's STRESST the fuck out and hasn't been scening regularly. jake notices and takes him down.

its gonna be a little intense bc i think nick needs to work hard to please and earn praise before he feels settled but ultimately they both really care about each other and i hope it shows!

#ask #fic discussion tag #sorry for the rambling anon but thank u for asking im happy to rant about this lol #plus as soon as i get that fic out the door i can post more natejo

[screechingnebula]

Fcuk man I'm seriously considering dropping out. I've never had such an aversion to my studies. No matter what I do I just can't get myself to be serious about this course. Nothing about it interests me.

I have struggled with tests and assignments before but it has never been this bad. I have four assignments piled up 2 of which I should have already submitted but I still can't get myself to do them. Usually, the anxiety of failing or being called out mae me do the work somehow but this time I'm just not able to

The teachers are awful. I had a philosophy teacher say "This was given by such great people so many years ago. who are we to even question them" The topic was religion. How can a philo teacher ask his students to not question something?? I don't care if he said that to avoid a religious argument. A teacher should never say that.

I did plan to drop out at some point coz I want to get into another course but that is like 5 months away. I wanted to stick to this one till then just in case I fail to get into it but its just unbearable. Its stressting me out it wasn't supposed to be this difficult

[safyresky]

Busy weekend ahead! So if it's a lil more silent over here at SafyreSky Industries, that's why :3

My hubbers has his convocation today (bc apparently post-secondary units don't like to call it GRAD) so my aunts and my parents and my MIL are coming up and I am STRESST MAINLY bc my parents are ALSO sticking around for my brother's bday tomorrow (yes he's still stuck with us), and they hadn't even LEFT the driveway when my mom texted "I am so mad at your father right now"

like GIRL shut UPPPPPPPPPPP I do not CARE you KNOW i hate this shit y'all do it does NOT slap and it STAYS AT YOUR HOUSE, KEEP IT OUT OF MINE!!

These people keep RUINING my SAFE SPACE and I am AT MY LIMIT

#the moment my brother is home #these hos will be LUCKY if they hear from me #i need a fucking MONTH LONG VACAY #text #dani speaks #personal #so yeah!! cs update on ao3 will come like. sunday or monday :) #and feel free to send me fun things this weekend because LORD KNOWS I'LL NEED KT #It*

[ticcyleticia]

Ich denke sterben fühlt sich leichter als leben an.

Niemand mehr da der mich stresst. Nur ich und die stille und Einsamkeit. Ich bin es so gewohnt einsam zu sein das Gefühl des alleine sein wohnt schon in mir. Aber es geht nicht ich kann nicht gehen viel zu viele erwarten die Stärke die ich nicht sehe.

Jeden Tag wird mir gesagt wie schön ich bin aber diese Schönheit ist ohne Liebe zu kotzen keiner meint es ernst sie werden mir alle weh tun kein Mensch bleibt. Kein Mensch hört zu…wofür leben wenn sterben einfacher klingt ?

#tw depressing stuff #i hate this #depressing life #fuck life

[tearsprincess-blog]

Seit Wochen weis ich nicht mehr wirklich wie es mir geht. Wenn man mich fragt, wie es mir geht oder wie ich mich fühle, kann ich keine plausible Antwort drauf geben. Das einzige was ich sagen kann ist, das innerlich alles so unglaublich leer und im meinem Kopf alles so unheimlich still ist. Ich fühle mich, so unglaublich leer, gefühlslos, tot und gebrochen. Ich habe kaum Hunger und kann einfach nicht schlafen. Ich kenne meinen Selbstwert nicht mehr, ich hab nicht mehr wirklich viel Freude am Leben alles stresst und überfordert mich maßlos. Ich freue mich nicht mehr über Dinge, über die ich mich eigentlich freuen müsste. Ich habe keine Energie mehr bin erschöpft und einfach kaputt. Ich habe das Gefühl ich lebe zwei unterschiedliche Leben, und dazu muss ich mir noch anhören, wie Menschen zu mir sagen das ich so anders geworden bin oder ich mich verändert habe. Dies hier ist nicht nur eine Phase, die vorüber geht es ist ein schrecklicher Dauerzustand.

[jupitervega]

ok so! phone is shut off for the time bein until i get paid from this job i just got this week, currently in the parkin lot stealin wifi from the store next door to post

stresst as fuck still, got another job offer i'm gonna try & take cause i need money So Fucken God Damn Bad rn but i'm tryin

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just want to pay me bills & afford nicotine

#life of ri

[kleinesammlung]

19. juli

ich bin angespannt, etwas liegt in der luft, schwirrt umher und lässt es unter meiner haut kribbeln. eine entscheidung steht aus und ich kann nur warten und sitzen und warten. und natürlich darüber sinnieren, was sein wird und was nicht. letzteres trägt dazu bei, dass mein stresslevel täglich steigt und ich kaum mehr still sitzen kann.

gleichzeitig vibriere ich vor vorfreude. in wenigen stunden bin ich auf dem weg zu dir. die letzten tage davor sind vollgepackt und beinhalten wenig zeit für mich und auch nicht wirklich für andere. vor einer langersehnten abreise ist mein kopf meist bereits etwas voraus und nicht ganz im hier und jetzt. in meinem kopf lachen mich deine grünen augen an und ich bin irgendwo in deinen armen.

davor husche ich umher, zwischen der vorfreude, der angespanntheit und der ungeduld. alles mischt sich miteinander und ich werde zu einer tickenden zeitbombe, wahlweise explodierend in tränen, glucksendes lachen oder einem häufchen unsicherheit. es stresst mich, mehr als ich mir das alles zugestehen möchte und ich wäre gerne souveräner. ich wär lieber vieles, das hatten wir schon.

am ende beschließe ich mich, mich für eines zu entscheiden und das bist du und die freude darauf. der rest kann in deutschland warten, in der zu heißen wohnung ohne luft.

#maraschreibt

[badolmen]

Welp the manifold of my car needs to be replaced ASAP so that’s great :/

#ra speaks #personal #car problems #I found out Sunday and the guys ordered the parts but I didn’t both looking up wtf a leaking manifold meant until today #ughhhhhh #like. money isn’t an issue probably bc the church wants to pay for it which is nice I guess even if my compulsion to pay isn’t happy #but I’m just nervous my car will breakdown/need other repairs bc I’ve been driving around like this for so long #and it’s not like a go far - maybe 10 mi to town once a week and a bit around our tiny campus #but still. Stresst

[artseniccatnip]

upon re-reading this ask i realize you probably meant more like band kids like high school band not- in a band- but i had already started drawing this and i got really into it so this is them if they were in a band, obviously the delphi band is a rival band

#wandersong #audrey redheart #miriam wandersong #bard wandersong #i might redo this with the actual prompt though #ALSO I KNOW I STILL HAVE THINGS TO DRAW AND PPL TO ANSWER IM RLY JUST VIBING IM SORRY ;-; #im stresst and overwhelmed teehee #uses wandersong to cope #fanart #doodles

[jellyloveru]

<:/

#балаболим #mmm. thoughts #since i'm stuck in my room til february i just can't help but think about stuff #like. am i ok with being a hermit. a loner? idk... #i seem fine with staying in one place not interacting with anyone. and like. i still love people. i love people i know and i love #interacting with them and stuff. talking... even if i do it akwardly #but in the same time i seem to be more likely to be alone with myself and i. i still haven't responded to some of my friends. i want to but #i don't really feel bad about it. #(i mean. i haven't felt anything in a while except for the rest-stresst changes but yknow. still) #i don't want to leave anyone but if that's what makes me content and will keep me from dissapointing anyone... #maybe. people will miss me so maybe not. there are always people who miss you as it turns out 😔 #vent tw #don't feel bad just. lotsa thoughts to share)))