#but then of course it wasn't the doctor

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #carey mulligan #giffing this again? why yes of course!!! #for the first gif... i was gonna just have the tv screen with ten moving #and everything else would have been static #but you could really tell the rest of the gif wasn't 'moving' and i didn't like that lol #so i had to cut out the 'more like a big ball' part #even though last time i could have every frame in it #since i used to cut down the gif height to 225px...... #ANYWAYS #i got all the report cards done today!! #and then i went out to reward myself with a fancy hot chocolate #it was very tasty #ok good night friends!! hope you all had a good day

[gen-is-gone]

my for some reason unpopular opinion is that it's boring when Fitz remains unhinged levels of self-deluded and closeted actually. Why does he have to be doctor who's answer to dean winchester, huh? why would this man in his mid-thirties who has spent at least a decade traveling in time and space still have weird insane hangups about being attracted to dudes? why does that need to be the thing about the text that we all collectively think is worth taking at face value? it's boring and fucking depressing and honestly doesn't make sense when the future of humanity in doctor who is that bisexuality is the cultural default and completely unremarkable.

#like geez I don't think that making it to thirty+ years old and still being afraid and filled with self-hatred is funny actually #eighth doctor adventures #eighth doctor #fitz kreiner #megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace #it's also weird because this definitely wasn't the attitude in fandom ten years ago #my suspicion is that Steve Cole's confirmation that Fitz was always meant to be bi made people start taking the text literally #in a way folks didn't before when slash shipping culture was just used to reading against a text as a default #like I vaguely recall a post going around shortly after that was confirmed in 2019 #that brought up how Fitz being canonically bi meant that all his weird hangups couldn't be handwaved away now #because if fandom made him bi against canon then you could just ignore his weirder no homo moments #but if he was intentionally written as bi then he was also intentionally written as deeply closeted #and like. that's true. but also you can just do whatever the fuck you want with canon no matter what #and also like #sure many of the writers were writing him as queer intentionally #but like the writing in the EDAs is so inconsistent of course some people are going to write weird no homo crap #because those writers weren't comfortable with queerness even if Cole's intent was that Fitz was bi #like The Gallifrey Chronicles's whole thing with Fitz and Trix is one long lance parkin no homo moment #does that really matter more than textual evidence that he is attracted to men and knows this about himself? #like I just don't know how you reconcile 'Fitz will bend over backwards to pretend he's straight' with #'a consideration of his chances of [...] getting laid by the Doctor' #or for that matter 'with the Doctor it's the real thing' #or the really really heavy implication that he and Sasha had a one night stand in History 101 #or that he and George went on a date in Camera Obscura which led to Fitz being invited on the Siberia expedition in the first place #and again and I can't emphasize this enough: why is this the thing about 'canon' that is so worth keeping? #why is Fitz being depressing levels of in denial more fun than him being openly bi? #destielification of Eight/Fitz smh

[goldkirk]

I'm so proud of myself about finances in the past couple months. I still struggle with money but I did enough meditation and journaling and practicing about it to make myself able to actually face my loans and credit cards and savings and bills and start really truly organizing and addressing them for the first time in years instead of just flying by the seat of my pants.

Like. This is a huge deal for me. I've felt like I'm in deadly danger every time I've tried to think about money for years and years. I'm finally able to look it in the face and stare it down and start to organize and plan on purpose instead of just keeping up with the minimum to stay afloat. I'm so proud of myself.

It's still a refrain of "GUILT (funny link)" every time I think about money but I'm able to actually make spreadsheets and face the numbers and monthly tracking again, and even make a new full budget which I haven't been able to do in ages.

still feel guilt, overwhelm, and helplessness, but no longer feel as much deep elemental shame and terror. that's progress baby

#we don't need to talk about how many months and months of therapy visits and doctor appointments I put on credit cards #among other things #but I had to put my foot down about it a couple months ago and shout at myself a little saying HEY #I AM SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS I AM SHOUTING FOR YOU TO HEAR #OF COURSE IT WAS A TERRIBLE FINANCIAL DECISION BUT YOU WEREN'T EVEN EXPECTING TO BE ALIVE #THE CREDIT CARD DEBT WAS NECESSARY TO KEEP YOU ALIVE AND IT DID AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS WAY LESS IMPORTANT THAN THAT #why the FUCK are you feeling SO ASHAMED for making the best decision you knew how to make at the time??? #just because you know NOW that you could have tried some other options doesn't mean you did THEN #you may have known enough to feel shame and guilt yes but you would never in a million years have gotten the help you needed fast enough #by attempting to go another route #you didn't trust anyone besides a very few handfuls of people and even them it wasn't fully #and the stress of running it through parental insurance was so terrifying to you bc you didn't know what that would do #and you never had cosigners for anything your whole adult life. it's OKAY #you fucking DID YOUR BEST #YOU HAVE LEARNED. YOU HAVE MADE CHANGES. YOU HAVE ALREADY DONE BETTER #YOU WILL CONTINUE TO LEARN AND IMPROVE OVER TIME #it is not the end of the world. even the utilities sending you to debt collections etc etc #YOU ARE FIGURING IT OUT ONE PIECE AT A TIME #MORE PEOPLE ARE ASHAMED AND AFRAID OF THEIR OWN FINANCES THAN YOU THINK #if the people who fought and argued with and shamed you for considering student loans much less taking them out #had wanted you to actually be financially safer and healthier #they could have just fucking helped out or cosigned your loans or actively helped you find other solutions #instead of spending months and months telling you it was the worst decision ever and would ruin you financially for decades and such #you made the best decisions you could with the level of terror and knowledge that you had. it was enough to keep you alive. #isn't that enough? #isn't it a victory to survive?? isn't that enough?????? #god i'm cringing at sharing this but if it's been this hard for me surely at LEAST one of you has also made financial mistakes or regrets #and seeing me be honest that I fucked it all up too and it's a mess and I'm just climbing back through it as best as I can as I go #will hopefully make at least one of you feel a tiny bit less alone

[cough-droplet]

Legitimately killing me to find out that the Doctor and Lethbridge-Stewart's first meeting happens off-screen during an episode filmed while Troughton was on vacation, so Lethbridge-Stewart is first introduced to the audience at the top of the next episode already pointing a gun at the Doctor

#doctor who #the doctor #second doctor #the brigadier #lethbridge stewart #brigadier alistair gordon lethbridge stewart #brigadier lethbridge stewart #of course he wasn't a brigadier yet in this story so i carefully avoided calling him the brig in the post #classic who

[variousqueerthings]

I think it's also interesting to see how things change depending on the time in which they're being engaged with. so I see things about rose today that point out that she's written to be 19 when she meets the doctor and that's a big age difference (which... I understand the point is it's a big age difference because billie piper was 23 and eccleston was 40, and then dtennant was like 34/35 when he started which isn't so big of a shift but anyway the optics I get what people are getting at, but also I think it does oversimplify a lot of what's actually going on in the written dynamic, anyway-)

and also that the rtd run's Themes start coming together properly around s3 (although they are present from day one), and in some ways at this point, because nu!who has been running for... fuckn. actually quite a few years, which is wild to me as someone who started watching as a kid, and I wonder if classic!who fans felt the same way about their show and anyway -- she shifts from being Literally The First Companion You'd Seen For 17 Years (not counting the movie and fan things and the sketch) Who Was Defining A New Era For A New Generation to... a companion

comparable to other companions, comparable to the rest of the show

we sift through the writing to see what worked and what didn't (in our opinion), and we know how the ten-and-rose storyline Really ends, and how the ten storyline ends (sort, of because now that doctor and donna are Back), and we know what happens afterwards, and we talk about tenrose with a 2020s eye, and rose is "just" one of the people that travels with the doctor, one of several, and notably the one who gets most of the sunshiney doctor that buries a lot of the (wonderfully portrayed) angst of the latter half of the rtd show, and doesn't have as much lore as everything after that, so the story is "just" more simple overall

and to me she's kind of incapable of being just that. doctor who was still a risk that first season, it wasn't a done deal that it would have legs at all, never mind that it would continue for as long as it has. rose was created to be the Face of what nu!who was, moreso than nine/eccleston, because even with the extra angst and the eccleston gravitas, we know the doctor, the doctor is established, it's not actually the doctor that needs to sell what the new show is going to become and what the Feel of that new show is going to be (I mean, partly ofc, but-)

rose was doing so much heavy lifting and she succeeded! she was the face of who before dtennant or any other doctor or companion of his era and subsequent eras. she was created to appeal to a demographic of girls who wanted someone relatable in science fiction, because rtd wanted this to be for the girls, and billie piper came into it off the back of being a popstar and it changed her entire trajectory (for the better I think/hope -- there's a lot of bad shit in billie piper's past and I'm always sending her a fond thought)

nine/ten-and-rose were It! not calling it romantic or platonic or any secret third thing (haunting the narrative), but simply It! that's why it has so much staying power as a ship (which, my opinion on shipping has been somewhat *eh shrug* in later years, but in early-days when that was how you engaged with dynamics that got to you, of course it was going to be massive). it's so hard to properly describe how "for the time in which it was made" that this dynamic was written for, and how successful it was. it was rose that breathed doctor who -- and the doctor's character -- to life, as much as herself

she sets the stage for everything that comes next, both within and without the show proper

and I'm always so pleased that rtd at the time was thinking about what was needed to create this character and he opened with a shot from a girl on the estate with messy hair, clumpy eyeliner, and a minimum wage job, and went "that's the girl who's going to go on the adventure of a lifetime, that's the girl we're seeing the story through and relating to, because that's what girls (and uh... those who were girls at the time - and their parents and the boys) should be seeing."

I know rose isn't the first working class companion including classic!who, but she set the tone for nu!who and her family and background are important to why she is who she is, and is explored

"I've got no A-levels, no job, no future-" said the girl about to see the universe

she was very much for teenagers, and so she reads differently when you're an adult watching it back (much like those "teenager saves the world," novels you loved as a kid), but that's why she's 19 at the beginning. that's why she's billie piper (who does a perfect job). she was there to bring a new generation into this story, and it was perfect. and then she grows up. and we grew up. and she had adventures and it was brilliant and she survived and she made a life for herself. that's her story

#doctor who #dw #rose tyler #of course 2005 who is a simpler story #and of course rose is basically still a kid #because it was (is?) for the kids who were going to be taken along for a much much bigger story over a longer space of time #when i started watching i didnt know what a dalek or a timelord or a tardis was #and i didnt know what sort of adventures dw was known for and ofc nobody watching knew where it would go #it was brand new -- rose in my head is always that brand newness #before you get to the more complex narratives of martha and donna #and the more in-depth lore of s5-onwards #there was a girl on an estate seeing the future stretch on and on -- and then she embraced the future and grew up #and it wasn't all happy all the time of course and the ending may have been quite bittersweet but that's also growing up #it's a growing up story that isn't depressing! crucially! #and yeah it includes falling in love with an incarnation of a near-immortal alien and getting with that alien's other human self #and also inhabiting some element of a godlike being/self that maintains an eternal connection with said alien in some way #it's a bit fanfic-y for good reason #i cannot overstate how much she means to me Because i saw her as a kid and she made the future seem possible #long post

[batnbreakfast]

#of course one of them is a doctor #it's apparently my fandom “curse” 😂 #what do you mean there's no german cinematic release date??? #and i missed this at the bfi flare bc i wasn't in town?? #and i won't be in town for our queer film festival in october #waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah #what a feeling (2024) #proschat madani #caroline peters #I FEEL A MIGHTY NEED!!! #wlw movies #what a feeling indeed!!! #it is very VERY sexy of them to have made this film

[slippery-minghus]

happy disability pride month to disabled folks who were medically neglected as children.

happy disability pride month to people who were disabled as kids, but told their disabilities weren't "really disabling" or enough to stop them from reaching their "potential".

happy disability pride month to people who were never taken to the doctor as kids, never given adequate care for their disabilities (even when it was accessible).

happy disability pride month to people who were only taught about their disabilities as a method of fear mongering. "that kid over there, who obviously has it worse? that could be you."

happy disability pride month to people who were told as children that it was their own fault they were disabled.

happy disability pride month to the people who sat alone in the nurse's office at school when their disability flared.

happy disability pride month to the people who could have had a wildly better quality of life as children, if only their guardians had bothered to care.

#i still forget sometimes that my asthma counts as a disability #it was so drilled into my head as a kid that it wasn't a *real* disability #but in the same breath i would be forbidden from running and playing #when i found out about IEPs in college and how it could have meant i could have been excempt from high school gym class... i'm still so mad #sophomore year no one bothered to take me to the doctor #and that was the year the gym teacher had us running miles 3x a week #i had to use my (expired of course) rescue inhaler almost daily #i remember being so afraid that it was going to keep getting worse and never get better #it did. but not until i got old enough to take my medical care into my own hands #and all of this is just about my asthma. not even touching on the painfully obvious neurodivergence and trauma that went untreated #disability #disability pride month #mine

[choking-on-roses]

Just got diagnosed with fucking anemia y'all!

I have never felt more validated in my entire life.

#i KNEW it wasn't fucking normal to have to sneak home and lie down on my lunch break to make it through the day #i KNEW there was fucking something wrong with me. #but of course doctors haven't even been fucking checking and just tell me to lose weight #i lost 21kg and felt shittier and shittier with each passing day #GUESS WHAT A FUCKING SYMPTOM OF ANEMIA IS?? FEELING WEAK AFTER EXERCISE #i KNEW something was fucking wrong

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[wayward-wren]

What I wouldn't give to see Victoria and Jamie's goodbye in it's proper original form

#wren rambles #doctor who #jamie mccrimmon #victoria waterfield #16 year old me shipped them SO HARD and I never saw even a reconstruction of fury of the deep i just read the script #i wasn't watching the reconstructions back then and the animation hadn't been made yet at that point #but DANG watchign it now I'm like almost crying even though it's an awkward animation #Jamie wanted her to stay SO BAD #AUGH #missing episodes my detested 😔 #fury of the deep part six is now one of my most wanted episodes #along with jamie and the doctor's argument in evil of the daleks #and the brig's first episode in web of fear #and ALL of highlanders #and of course tenth planet #honestly this rewatch i was like “did i pick up the right vibes when I shipped them as a teenagers?” #the answer is yes. yes i did. 16 year old me handshake 23 year old me: Shipping Jamie and Victoria

[thenotoriousscuttlecliff]

What can be do to utterly destroy the idea that any episode of Doctor Who that looks good and is well made is inherently bad?

#doctor who #dw #so tired of this take #it is shallow seems driven entirely by a nostalgic misunderstanding #of why the fx from 17 years ago look like they do #it wasn't because the production was badly run #it's because it was 17 years ago on a bbc budget #which still look pretty good at the time #and a major step up from where the show had been 16 years before #of course at the time you had some classic fans complain about the cgi fx ruining the show and taking away its charm #now it has become rtd1 fans #and I'm sure given enough times it will be moffat and chibnall ones #because the show is always going to look better as time goes on #filming tech will improve #but we'll always have people complain that it should look like it did 17 years ago #and not it is all about fxs and production values #sigh

[bootyful-seventeen]

i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

[binch-i-might-be]

I should rewatch doctor who

#and when i say 'rewatch doctor who' i of course mean rewatch nine and ten's seasons and also torchwood #because i never liked eleven and idk. the budget got too high and it wasn't fun anymore so i never even finished twelve's seasons #rayrambles

[johanna-swann]

Now that we're in between Doctors and about to go into RTD's second era, let's get this sorted.

#doctor who #i'll be honest i did not vibe with moffat era who #it got better with peter capaldi though #haven't seen much of 13 yet #10 is a legend of course #9 was bloody brilliant he deserved at least another two seasons preferably with mickey and jack and rose #11 wasn't even that bad but i never quite warmed up to either amy or river so that phase is kinda meh for me #11 and clara is also not very good #clara and 12 on the other hand whole different story #it's so hard to choose though

[thresholdbb]

Do you ever think about how we don't see any of the regular crew in Living Witness? How we don't actually know what happened with Voyager, the Vaskans, and the Kyrians?

#I feel like people make this argument about course: oblivion but we see the real crew at the end of the episode #the emh is a copy and his recreation of events is also just holograms #the doctor wasn't present for everything he recreates so we also can't fully trust his version #another one of those liminal episodes #living witness #star trek voyager

[bobendsneyder64]

Bo Bendsneyder: I've tried everything to be fit for Assen and I feel that I'm ready, but unfortunately the doctors don't let me ride. Big thanks to doctor Tigchelaar, my family and team for the best support this days! We will come back stronger in Silverstone! 🙏

#bo bendsneyder #moto2 #motogp #via instagram #dutch gp #dutch tt #tt circuit assen #the cathedral of speed #tt assen #screaming crying throwing up #I know this is for the best #he said in an interview #that the wound wasn't healed good enough #and that the doctors said #that if he fell again #it would be bad #but I wanted to see him race so much #he did so good last year #and of course it's always awesome to see the dutch racers #I am glad that the doctors kept him from doing more damage #but still #I hate this so much #motul tt assen #forever supporting the dutch racers!