#could be tomorrow could be days from now

[byanyan]

struggling to exist rn, so. idk man I'm kinda just lurking lmao

#just a heads up I guess #bc I dunno when I'll feel up to writing anything #could be tomorrow could be days from now #either way I'm annoyed bc I really wanted to get to those non-verbal prompts lmao #anyway. love you all ♥ hope everyone's having a good week so far uvu #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME. #tbd.

[kaladinkholins]

yall i just KEEP doing back to mizu and taigen's wrestling scene in master eiji's forge and like i know that taigen literally got a boner from it BUT THE THING IS out of all the scenes these two have together, this scene actually has the least sexual tension ?!? cuz like the boner aside, this scene is actually very soft and emotions-driven rather than pure passion or lust.

arguably, a more passionate and sexually-charged scene would be their previous brawl in the snow with the chopsticks, which is tense and angry and also the scene that mizu thinks about when madame kaji talks about being honest with one's innermost desires.

but THIS scene in the forge? warm colours. their laughter and their smiles that both equally genuine. the WAY taigen looks at mizu in that scene, staring first at her lips, her smile, then looking into her eyes. and you can see by the framing of the scene and the look on his face that he is, for the first time, seeing her eyes as something beautiful rather than off-putting or frightening.

like before this point he's already come to not only respect mizu as a person and an equal but also admires her as an incredible swordsman and as someone who is kind and honourable* for having saved his life at the expense of her revenge quest. so as of the time of them tussling in the forge, taigen has already put aside his prejudices about mizu's blue eyes and no longer finds them as any cause for disgust. but in this scene he's not just indifferent about her eyes, but attracted too it.

and i'd also like to argue that his boner is not from the physical exertion or the act of wrestling itself, but from the intimacy of a playful spar, enjoying each other's easy company after having established a deep trust with each other (taigen endured torture for mizu and helped defend her from archers in the chasm while mizu saved his life from fowler's castle)

and all this while in the safety of mizu's childhood home while both of them are still recovering from near-death, amplifying their vulnerability with each other.

like when was the last time mizu cracked a genuine smile, let alone a laugh that's more than a little wry chuckle?? and for this to happen at such a low point in her life also speaks to the comfort this little friendly spar gives her.

because like, this is after she failed her mission to kill fowler. meanwhile her sword--the embodiment of her soul--is broken, and ringo who is her closest confidant is now angry at her and barely even looks at her. it just further lends to the inherent tenderness and intimacy in this scene. and i just. AHHHH i love them your honour....

* ALSO as a side note about taigen believing mizu to be honourable: he later realises that this assumption turns out to be quite false when she reveals that she'd not only allowed akemi to be taken away against her will but also has said nothing about fowler's impending attack on edo. also i find it very interesting that out of the two revelations, taigen is less angered by mizu letting akemi being married off (he sighs angrily and marches off saying he has to go to edo to find akemi), but much more angered by mizu's refusal to save the shogun and the shogunate as a whole. this is more proof that taigen's central principles are firmly rooted in the bushido and the concept of honour that comes with that. it's why he lashes out at mizu. because he'd believed mizu to be honourable and righteous, but was proven wrong. that's not to say that taigen is in the right for calling mizu a demon, not by any means. but i just find it a very interesting part of his character and it relates to his relationship and perception of mizu

also while rewatching the episode i found this very funny they just lyin there in the cart like this 🧍🏽‍♂️🧍🏽‍♂️

#blue eye samurai #mizu x taigen #taimizu #taizu #taigen blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #blue eye samurai meta #sorry yall but i prefer taimizu as the ship name so i'll probably just be using that from now on 🫡 #also like.. the way im still recovering from covid while i have 2 deadlines back to back tomorrow and the day after #but im too busy hyperfixating on this show!!!! #if only i could channel all this energy into my actual literary studies papers that'd be great #but at the moment i be caring more about these fuckers than whatever william blake's got going on #jk i do still love william blake's poetry but my stupid ships take up way more space in my brain ykwim 🤒 #anyway... #shut up haydar #meta dissertations.pdf #fandom.rtf

[kindledrose]

goofy hermit doodles!! because uhh why not!!

#cubfan135 #zedaph #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #sorry for making zed purple-coded do you still love me /j (it's kind of a magenta. so.) #this was my first time drawing cub (unless you count scraps of doodles from like 2019 that i probably lost a while ago) !! #and as such it was a definite learning process! i could definitely draw him better now i think but this one turned out okay for now #i still feel like i didn't do him justice though.. i'll try again tomorrow #zed on the other hand came out fantastic and then i proceeded to not be able to draw him well ever again (he's from a few days ago) #fun fact i was trying to write a desert duo-centric little story a couple days ago and i randomly put cub in as a placeholder character for #-scar to talk to in a scene and my entire story accidentally became about convex instead. whoopsies #also zed lives in scar's basement. cub does too but he actually pays rent. they don't know about zed so it's funny #scar's house is a theme park. his basement is a hole #it's a whole thing. why am i talking about this? i don't know i'm really tired ok #doodles #reblogs super appreciated as always :D

[ganondoodle]

sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-

not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better

honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of

#ganondoodles talks #personal #sorry today is a bit of a brain fart day #got a headache and have wasted the entire time until now (5pm) with watching old analysis videos i have watched 5 times already #and crying over undertales music #how much could i get done if i didnt have to deal with thought trains going 200 above speed limit #also didnt mean to sound mean to people who like the things i deem cringy #BC I DONT KNOW WHAT IM TALKIGN ABOUT 90% OF THE TIME #I DONT KNOW IF ITS GOOD maybe it is #my judgement of my own stuff is pretty random #.... maybe thats why i can work with fanstuff that adheres to lore better #bc it sets limits for me #it gives me options of rails to derail onto without falling straight into the woods #idk if that made sense either #... i need to start drinking more #(and i guess by calling some of my stuff cringe bc i am entirely unsure of its quality im trying to make myself smaller than i am) #(so if it turns out to be actually bad- im more safe from ridicule since LOOK I AM SELF AWARE) #and there i go letting my thoughts spin further #maybe ill delete both of these posts tomorrow when i realize how dumb this is to say in the first place

[painted-bees]

This old age or lack there-of discussion is suddenly making me very uncomfortable for the lack of Current Year in Hi-Note information we have

aw, guys haha Mawgie is 23 in 2010 and Raf is 30

They get to enjoy life together until 2053 it's a fair while away, fret not.

#the topic makes Sean very upsetti spaghetti[sad] #but I don't think it is so sad as it is bittersweet. #the events of the story only take place between the years like...2008 and 2013/14 at most haha #neither of -them- know when they're gonna die! could be tomorrow #could be 70 years from now #they just gotta enjoy the time they get #Like any of us. #me tho...I know. I see their future with crystal clarity. #I impart a fraction of that cursed wisdom onto you this day. #enjoy.

[dailypokemoncrochet]

thought: can I crochet while lying on my belly

#text #i want to crochet but i dont want to sit #i have been sitting all day every day and not even been able to crochet while doing it #and like. my posture is already fucked so how much worse could this be really #ughhh but then i gotta move things from desk #maybe i try tomorrow. for now i will just lie here. not sleeping but eepy

[idyllic-affections]

sometimes i forget enjou exists and then someone posts about him and i'm like. I miss you you silly little abyss man

#aphelion speaks 🌸 #COME BACK ENJOU PLS 🙏🙏🙏 #anyways hello! #i am suffering from Fuzzy Brain today. is it physical illness??? mental illness????? don't know! could be both. #so i have some asks and stuff that i will reply to #but probably tomorrow or the day after. #but i hope everyone else is doing well <3 #tbh even though i have Fuzzy Brain ambrose is still somehow on my mind #hsr oc hehehe <33 #i promise i still love eir and lian i swear.... #i am also making two new genshin ocs soon #but for now??? ambrose on the brain

[sarah-yyy]

every single december, just when i’m feeling at my most burnt out and am like 95% sure i want to quit law in general, the bonus committee comes and reminds me why i really really really should not

#the partners know me so well #they 100% could tell if they let me go today without a bonus i would just. not come back from my malaysia trip #but now!!!!! i am Invigorated and ready to do transactions again 😊 #ready to sell my soul to argue another Terrible Defence 😊 #ready to answer clients who ask me if i can help them commit immigration/tax fraud 😊 #ANYWAY it's my last working day of the year and i fly back home tomorrow for a long long looooooooong break!!!! #pray that jiejie will not commit murders today i have seventeen transactions 😖 #and one affidavit that needs to be filed - i've been up since 4:30 working on this BIG YIKES #sarah talks about herself #work stories

[ereborne]

What is a Monday? A miserable little pile of obligations.

semester turnover restructure

generate/send out error reporting

figure out how to separate out unique counts

create polite reply to Massive Dick Move email

finish the bad book >:(

bò kho (not an obligation. dinner)

laundry

lizard bath

#yapping tag #I spent my weekend trying to sleep and now all my chores are due today and I wanna complain. grump grump grump whine. #the semester turnover restructure actually is a pet project so that part I like! I wish I could take my time with it though #the error reporting is. well it's easy to generate (it's actually running now) and it's tedious but uncomplicated to send out #but then I'm going to spend the rest of the day getting passive-aggressive responses from everybody #in a just world my coworkers would respond to careful itemized lists of all their fuckups with 'thank you Alexis you're so helpful #we really appreciate you flagging our mistakes two weeks before the system final-saves them forever into stone. have a cookie!' #but alas #if I'd been any less stressed and frantic when I first established the error reporting I'd have set up a separate address to send them from #write up some template emails and let the reporting all come out of the mythical 'automatic system thing' #--every 'automatic system thing' in our college is me or IT on my behalf. even the people who hired me for this don't seem to realize #if only I'd known from the beginning that nobody would ever connect me and my systems! I'd be exploiting the shit out of it-- #the unique counts is going to be a headache. no idea how I'm going to structure the coding for it. might be fun to invent? we'll see #the Massive Dick Move email response also will be an invention. 'hello Mr Massive Dick I am karma here to smite you' but polite #the bad book >:( I don't want to read any more of but the deal I made with my friend is he sends me free books and I report back #we did not discuss a special 'get out of book free' card for when the main character is a godawful shit sibling. (should've done though) #beef stew is good! mostly it's on the list so I don't forget to set the timers #laundry and lizard bath can wait until tomorrow if they must but they shouldn't wait any longer than that. lizard and I will get stinky

[starscelly]

..

#ive been very lucky in that the last family member i remember passing away was when i was like 6 #like i’ve never really known any of them since #but my cat is dying from a really aggressive form of cancer #and probably only has a month at most #and now i’m having to go through this with my best friend #we got her right before christmas in 2015 #or maybe 14 #because our cat went missing and a man reached out thinking she was her #and she very clearly wasn’t #but the guy couldn’t take care of her so we took her home because we could #and she’s been my best friend basically since then #she’s always been there for me through the worst years of my life #she’s never left my side #when we took her home that first day she peed on me in the car lol #she still doesn’t like leaving the house #even though she used to beg outside of a gas station before us #and last night on the way to the hospital she peed on me again #so i guess it’s full circle in that way lol #idk what to do #we can’t see her until tomorrow #so i just have to sit here and act like my best friend isn’t dying #delete later #yap yap yapping #you don’t need to reach out or respond or anything i just. need to vent and i’ve exhausted everywhere else and i feel bad messaging friends

[good-beans]

#they fucked up our tickets to the hozier concert tomorrow!!!! #literally we had them yesterday and overnight they just disappeared!!!!! #my gf spent all day on the phone with the convoluted chain of ticket providers who bought from each other and the venue #and not One could give a straight answer why they just disappeared today >:(( #we're getting a refund but we wanted to go!!!!! #i havent gone out to An Event in so long!!!! #and it was hozier!!! my beloved!!!! #so now im ready to commit arson :( #maybe it sounds silly but we got these tickets in march and ive been looking forward to it since then :(((( #rose rambles #vent

[twicethetrouble]

Writing Family Web Daily: Day 18

“Yeah, it was,” Leo said, shifting awkwardly from foot to foot. “His new arms got stuck under the bridge and the glitter slime stopped working for whatever reason.”

“Glitter...slime?”

“The ointment stuff you gave me. It looked like glitter slime. And you never actually explained what it was, so that's what we called it,” Leo said with a shrug. “Why it stopped working? I don't know. Probably because I still don't know what it is.”

Splinter sighed, his eyes closing briefly before he tapped a button on the projector to turn it off.

If he didn't have everyone's attention before, he certainly did now.

“You're right,” he said. “I should have told you more about it, i should have /done/ more about this.”

Splinter looked at each of them in turn.

“I shouldn't have made you think that you had to handle this on your own. Especially as something as serious as this,” he continued. “For that, i apologize.”

Leo could only stare, trying to wrap his tired brain around the words.

Their father just apologized. to them. That was, well, that was the last thing he expected to hear when Raph dragged him in here. Judging by the awkward silence surrounding him, that was the last thing his brothers expected either.

The silence was broken a second later by Mikey darting forward and pulling the old rat into a hug.

“Aww! Thank you!” Mikey beamed, his helmet pushed askew. “I knew you worried.”

#daily writing #tmnt #rottmnt #family web au #i'm a day behind #but i'll catch up tomorrow #i needed a break #i tried writing yesterday #but i kept forgetting the sentence i was going to write before i could type it #even just mild editing did not work #so i took a break #today was a little easier #tho i did have to trick my brain by having the thing get read aloud #but hey it works #and considering i was about 2 seconds away from scraping this scene altogether #that's just fine by me #i think i know where this scene is going now #so yay for that

[trashpremiium]

i wish i knew how to keep friends :( making friends is… hard, but doable. if i have a reason to be near someone and they’re amenable to my Autism Beam of infodumping, i can usually make them tolerate being around me for as long as that activity lasts.

but semesters end. mutual interests fade. activities wrap up. and then those people leave. not to say i’m not thankful for however long their friendship lasted, i just wish people were more likely to want to be friends because they liked me, not because i was a body near them to spend time with.

#sometimes they stay. it’s not often but it happens #and then i’m scared for the rest of the friendship that anything could make them leave #thinking of all the friends that just… stopped replying to me the second they weren’t forced to spend time with me #i lost basically every friend i had when school went online in 2020 #with the exception of my dnd party. i’m scared that if we stop playing dnd i’ll lose them too #my call of cthulhu campaign ends… tomorrow. technically #the two other players i met through this campaign #and i really like talking to them. i have. not a ton in common with them #but i’m so scared that once we don’t have the connection of the campaign i’ll lose their friendship #i didn’t keep any friends from my dorm hall this year #i was always on the periphery #the only person i still talk to from any of my classes is my partner #i don’t think she really… gets. how lonely i am #because she has *so* many friends. #and for good reason. they’re a wonderful person that i could talk for days about #and idk what i did to even deserve her friendship much less whatever we got going on now #i just wish i could keep more connections #that i wasn’t always doomed to have to start from scratch every time something ends #but i guess it’s sort of my fault too #im too scared to overstep some unseen boundary that i don’t reach out to make a connection in the first place #anyone who stays has to be pretty stubborn lmao #zephyr talks

[tcustodisart]

I need to draw her more often...

#oc #oc:robin #and i need to draw more in general #this week has been CRAZY #beside going to work i was also going to my parents to switch my mom in taking care of my grandma #who has to lay in bed 24/7 after she broke [idk how it's in english and i don't want to google it right now] #on top of everything my whole apartment is a mess because i found bedbugs on monday #so everything went to the washing machine #and i disassembled my bed and had to look and clean everywhere/everything #besides two bugs (one adult and one larva) I didn't find a nest #so it's either good or bad idk #good that there's no nest or bad that there is one but hidden very well #(mind you i checked even behind wallpaper) #(my whole bedroom was empty for 4 days) #(i even borrowed a pressure washer from my neighbor a #and used it on any small slit/gap/idk which one #where the bugs could hide) #it's been crazy #tomorrow I'll be building a new pc on top of everything #so fingers crossed that i'll have a working pc after that... #sorry you had to read it

[tennessoui]

hello kit! im a bit confused abt the kofi thing- if i subscribe for this month, unsubscribe for the next and then subscribe again for the 3rd month, can i still reread the ficlets of the 1st month? i can't really afford to subscribe every month

hello hello! So the ko-fi thing:

every month (maybe even twice a month, I know I’m gonna post another in October for instance), I’ll upload a picture (a screenshot of a color swatch from Google) and put in the description the summary of the au that this is a ficlet for + a Google doc link to that ficlet

the title is also going to be the au title and everyone who goes to my gallery on kofi can see the title, but the image and the description are hidden from everyone but current monthly subscribers (quick plug: it’s $4!)

so my understanding is if you unsubscribe, you would lose access to those descriptions of the uploads and thus lose access to the Google doc links.

BUT I don’t see anything wrong with saving the Google doc link on your end while you have access, either in a bookmark or in some sort of word doc bank of links idk. The Google doc is set to “anyone with the link can view”, which is a whole separate thing from the ko-fi settings, so if you keep the link, you’d be able to view anytime during the second month that you wouldn’t have a subscription.

AND if you chose to subscribe during the third month after cancelling your subscription for the second month, you’d then get access to all the ficlet links, months 1-3.

#asks #also I believe if you subscribe now and then cancel tomorrow you’re technically a monthly subscriber from October 8-November 8 #and tbh id want to be posting these in the beginning few days of each month #so if you monthly support via kofi during the second or third week of the month you’d probably get access to the most amount of fic #or you could even wait until like December and get a nice lil treat for yourself #side note lol I think I’m bad at kofi I’m actively telling you tips and tricks on how to not do the subscription rn 🤣 #anyway since came back from the dead wrong won the poll I’m gonna do a Halloween one shot for that but I’ll upload like either #a vampire au ficlet or the wereworlf gffa au ficlet to the kofi #for optimal spooky