#damn your love damn your lies

[blushweddinggowns]

 “So let me get this straight. You met a hot guy, conned him into a date with you, lied about who you were to get into his pants and still failed. Then kept going, bought a new phone and rented a fake apartment, fell in love him, continued this elaborate ruse for four months, and now you want me to figure out a way for you to get out of it?”

“...yes?”

“Oh my fucking god,” Chrissy nearly screeched into his ear, “That is what you have been doing? Have you lost your damn mind?!”

“Obviously, yes!” Eddie yelled right back, feeling fraught as hell. He was pacing back and forth, a cigarette in hand as he spoke, “I never planned on ending up here!”

“Really? Because this whole shit show seemed to need a lot of planning. Is this really what happens when I leave you unsupervised? I am never letting you out of the house again.”

Eddie was well aware he deserved the ribbing. He deserved much worse, but that didn’t change the fact that he was desperate, “Chris, I’m serious. I need help.”

“Eddie, I love you but come on. You need a plane ticket and an apology muffin basket and to move on. This guy doesn’t even know you.”

“It’s not like that,” Eddie said as he ran a frustrated hand through his hair, “It’s-okay. I’m still me with him. It’s like…I’m acting like who I would have been if I was never famous. I don’t know how else to describe it.”

“Have you tried delusional? Also, can I get a picture of this guy? How hot can one dude be to drive you-”

“I’m serious,” Eddie interupted, irritation coloring his voice, “I told him everything. The shit about my parents, Wayne, the drugs, you, everything.”

“You realize that everything would include your real name right? And again, a picture for the love of god would really help put this in perspective-”

“You know what I mean,” Eddie sighed. She still wasn’t getting it, “I’m in love with him. Like Chris, he was made for me. And if I had just stuck to tattooing instead of doing the music shit then I’m pretty sure he’d think the same of me.”

He could hear a small intake of breath on her end, her voice coming out a bit more concerned than before, “Eds, are you serious?”

“Dead. I… I think he’s the one,” No, that was another lie. Eddie took a deep breathe before admitting the truth, “He is the one. And… I don’t want to lose him. I can’t lose him.”

“Honey, it’s an infatuation. A really, really strong one, but still-”

“Chrissy. Listen to me. I want to marry him. Do you understand me now?”

If that didn’t get through to her nothing else would. Because Chrissy Cunningham had spent hours upon hours of listening to Eddie complain about the institution of marriage since fucking highschool. How it was all a farce, just some bullshit people pulled for tax reasons and patriarchal idealism. And now here he was, fucking day dreaming about the perfect happily ever after with the love of his life. 

“Oh Jesus,” Chrissy groaned, the sineritcy Eddie was looking for finally creeping into her voice, “Sweetie, I’m so sorry… but I think you might have fucked yourself too big on this one.”

“Isn’t there something I can do?” Eddie pleaded into the phone, like Chrissy actually had all the power in the world to fix this, “What if I just lead a double life? Couldn’t that work?” 

He had seen a movie about that once or twice. It was a thing. Or if it wasn’t then he could make it one.

But Chrissy didn’t seem too convinced, “Eddie, honey, you’re describing the plot of Hannah Montana like it can actually be a solution. Do you realize how insane that is? Do you not get how far you’ve fallen?”

from the next chapter of this fic

#steddie #steddie fic #steddie ficlet #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #alternate universe #famous eddie munson #damn your love damn your lies

[adasttrawrites]

“…it’s always her Mudblood scar that presses against his Dark Mark. A cruel twist in an already ridiculous situation.

Maybe Draco realises this. 

Then again, he doesn’t really care about her so probably not.”

—Chapter 1 of Damn Your Love, Damn Your Lies

I was very lucky that the wonderful and incredibly talented Dani had a commission slot available for this Damn Your Love, Damn Your Lies artwork. Thank you so much, Dani! ❤️❤️❤️

Please check out Dani’s Twitter account HERE to find more beautiful artwork!

#dramione #draco malfoy #hermione granger #hermione x draco #draco x hermione #dramione au #dramione fanfic #dramione art #dramion fanartists #dn_stardust #damn your love damn your lies #DYLDYL

[talkingismylifewrites]

Literally the only reason that I still have a tumblr account is so that I can occasionally scroll through your blog to see if there’s a dyldyl update, and I just saw your post from the end of January! I’m so happy and grateful that you’ve continued working on it, thank you thank you thank you!! I’m so excited to read it 🥰🥰

Okay so I tried replying to this like six times (five of which I was very drunk on Easter Sunday with my family so that could be why it wasn’t working) but every time I’d press post it would just delete. Could it be that tumblr refuses to spread the dyldyl word? Maybe it was the eight bottles of champagne my family consumed or maybe it could be that I hadn’t updated tumblr since the year of our lord 2022. Whatever the reason apologies for the delay.

Now onto the dyldyl update: yes!!! I finished the honeymoon!! It took me three years but I did it!!! It’s currently in editing hell where it most likely will continue to live for the next few months. Lo has a big girl job while I am currently in between jobs so we’re crawling along with the editing it deserves. Right now it sits at 38k so it’s gonna take a while for us to chip away at it :)

Thank you so much for sticking with me this long you have no idea how much it means to me! Dyldyl is my baby and while it’s slow going it’s still something that i want to finish so it truly means so much to me that you’re still sticking with it!! Thank you thank you!!

#dyldyl #caro talks #caro writes #damn your love damn your lies #anonymous asks

[deweydecimalchickens]

I'm enjoying 'Rumours' much more knowing the relationship chaos and disaster that underlies it. Lindsey Buckingham and Stevie Nicks broke up and now she's banging Mick Fleetwood! Christine and John McVie broke up and now she's banging the lighting guy! Mick Fleetwood used to have the sense not to shit where he eats, but since he and his wife broke up, he's banging Stevie Nicks!

Everybody's on cocaine!

Lindsey Buckingham takes first blood making Stevie Nicks sing backing vocals on 'Second Hand News'! She hits back with 'Dreams'!* By God, it's Christine McVie with a steel chair! Wait, no, it's Christine McVie singing 'You Make Loving Fun' to the lighting guy while John McVie plays bass!

They all manage to co-operate on one (1) song ('The Chain') and it's about how they don't love each other anymore and they're all bitter and miserable.

It's amazing. You just have to listen to it imagining everyone giving each other massive side-eye and white-knuckling their instruments/mics so they don't start swinging. It's like Disaster Gays but nobody's actually gay.

*A song that drove me batty when it was that vapid Corrs cover I couldn't get away from, but is much better in the powered-by-loathing original.

#Rumours #Fleetwood Mac #Damn your love damn your lies #Why does band rpf even exist #Fleetwood Mac jumped all its sharks

[thischarmingpirate]

OFMD as Smiths lyrics

"I thought that if you had an acoustic guitar then it meant that you were a protest singer" (Shakespeare's Sister)

#ofmd #our flag means death #the smiths #we gull way back #shakespeare's sister #Frenchie #Buttons #damn your love damn your lies #the editing of this scene blows my mind

[levaagrace]

Thinking about Jon who blabbed about emulsifiers at Martin’s birthday party and forgot about it. Thinking about Jon who likely went to bed and promptly compartmentalized the embarrassment of having a one sided and unwelcome conversation. Thinking about Jon who probably trained himself to be seen and not heard having all that thrown out cause part of his job was reading things out loud. Thinking about Jon who at every turn, even when he wasn’t in a constant state of fear, was seen as a nuisance at best. Thinking about Jon having no social skills because how could he when he were orphaned before he started school and then was traumatized in a way that no one would believe not long after? Thinking about how there was no one who at any level understood Jon fully and completely. Thinking about how Jon probably didn’t need to go into the Lonely to be marked by it. Thinking about how, with all that, he still listened over and over to the tape where Sasha and Tim talked about him behind his back. Just thinking about Jon and how even at his best, none of the people around him liked him.

#damn your love damn your lies

[synthshenanigans]

I love how childish Heart and Mind can be even when trying to be serious. Like the beginning of TSE is literally just Soul trying to introduce himself and talk but can only get like one verse in before they start pointing fingers

Literally went "ITS HIS FAULT" "NO HE DID IT" "MOM HE'S BULLYING ME"

Like thats exactly what TSE is

#Soul is just a tired mom #He loves his kids but boy does murder seem legal sometimes #literally just soul trying to sing and just #“SOOOOOOUL MIND WONT LET ME PLAY THE SWIIIITCH” #“Its not your damn TURN you already PLAYED TODAY” #“Youve already played longer than me today >:(” #“lies you don't know how to tell time” #meanwhile soul is already pulling the trident out #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #moss post

[stardustvanfleet]

no i am not okay at all after this ❤️ please call 911

#please check on your twin lane friends we are fucking falling apart. #today was a loooooong day at work and i am damn exhausted. goodnight gresties i love you all soooo much fr fr 🩷 #josh #jake #this picture makes me feel foul 🫣😵‍💫 #li speaks

[thewhizzyhead]

anyways now that I'm back on this site, let it be well fucking known that this filipino musical theatre rambler absolutely abhors the Here Lies Love musical and I am absolutely ashamed that it is gonna be known as the first Broadway musical with an all-filipino/fil-am cast BECAUSE GLORIFYING A PERSON (imelda marcos) INVOLVED IN A CONJUGAL DICTATORSHIP (wife of ferdinand marcos) THAT CAUSED HUNDREDS OF DEATHS AND AN ECONOMIC CRISIS DUE TO ILLEGALLY ACCUMULATED WEALTH FROM PHILIPPINE TAXES ESPECIALLY WHILE SAID PERSON IS STILL ALIVE WITH HER SON (ferdinand "bongbong" marcos jr) BACK IN POWER IS ALL SORTS OF WRONG

#fjdjfjsjjds #aNYWAYS FOR THE BENEFIT OF EVERYONE AND FOR MY OWN SANITY WE ARE GONNA HOLD HISTORY NIGHTS ON THIS BLOG #sOON #WHERE I WILL PERSONALLY DISCUSS ALL THE SHITTY THINGS THE MARCOSES HAVE DONE #aND YES HERE LIES LOVE SAYS ITS AN ANTI-MARCOS SHOW #bUT IT ROMANTICIZES IMELDA MARCOS' ROLE IN THE FUCKING DICTATORSHIP!! SHE IS JUST AS FUCKING GUILTY AS HER HUSBAND!! #AND IN THE PRESENT CONTEXT OF MARCOS JR BEING ABLE TO SWEET HIS WAY BACK INTO PRESIDENCY #tHROUGH A MASS DISINFORMATIKN CAMPAIGN #THIS COMES ACROSS AS FUCKING PROPAGANDA AND I FUCKING HATE IT SO MUCH WHAT THE FUCK #anyways i will be side eyeing all filipino actors that will involve themselves with here lies love because come on #know your damn history #philippines #here lies love #fuck the marcoses

[buppypuppy]

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad. #the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously. #being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like. #it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help. #i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!! #because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like . #i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad. #my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well. #i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate. #i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day. #jane mary cry one tear

[arkhavens2]

im having a lot of fun with my current durge playthrough that im affectionately calling "how evil can i be while keeping as many companions for as long as possible?" and the answer is: 1-none of my party members have left even in act 3, AND! i recruited jaheira even after murdering isobel—and thus, all of last light inn—in cold blood:D

this is the face of a maniac(affectionate)

#playing durge as a conniving Bastard who turns around and lies directly to his party members about shit is...really interesting. #batting my eyelashes at karlach and saying 'oh yeah were totally going to backstab gortash dw' knowing damn well im about to just. #gallivant off and 1- ascend astarion #2- become bhaal's favoritest little guy again #and 3-literally take over the elder brain #is just. #the game fully letting you LIE to your party and say #'im trying sooo hard to resist my urges:(( it really tears me up that i do these things and cant stop myself:((' #when im. actively making as many bad/evil choices as possible #is great. the rp? ohoho. im loving it #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 dark urge #baldurs gate spoilers #durge spoilers #<-vaguely #ive had to take breaks in a few places to go back to my resisting the urge playthrough to cleanse my palette. ascending astarion *hurt* but. #alas #my baby boy is so so evil. so it had to be done:(

[blushweddinggowns]

Eddie was dealing with a lot of firsts today. 

The biggest one being the first time he was getting married. Though, Eddie really hoped it wouldn’t be the last. If his fantasies about this day came true he was going to have to insist on a vow renewal somewhere down the line. Fuck it, if even a quarter of what he wanted came through he’d still insist on it. He was never not going to like showing Steve off, and this was the most ostentatious way he could get away with. 

Next, and most distressing, this was the first time Eddie had ever felt the lethal mixture of being incredibly happy and horrifyingly nauseous. He had no idea that a person could feel both things at once, and Eddie was starting to think the ability was just a flaw of the human condition. 

And last, he is a 100 percent sure he had never been this damn nervous in his entire life. Especially when the source of it was entirely self-made. It was an uncomfortable reminder of how he used to feel with Steve, back when he decided to be a fucking crazy person. 

But this was so much worse. 

“You really need to relax,” Chrissy said for the hundredth time, watching as Eddie fiddled in front of the mirror, “That anti-perspirant can only go so far.”

“I know,” Eddie sighed. He was on one today, he knew that. But knowing it wasn’t stopping any of his anxiety. Eddie was trying to fix his hair in the mirror, suddenly unpleased with how it was styled but unwilling to go bother the stylist that did it. She was busy enough with everyone else, let alone the fact that he didn’t even know why he didn’t like it. If anything he was just making it worse. But then again, Steve always said he liked his hair wild, right?

“Hon, I’m serious,” Chrissy sighed, grabbing for his hand to drag him away, “You are driving yourself crazy for nothing. Everything is going to be okay. He’s going to be there. Are you forgetting that it was Steve who asked you to marry him?”

Eddie couldn’t help but smile at the memory, even now. The little shit had beaten him to the punch by a matter of days, completely ruining Eddie’s elaborate proposal plans. No, instead Steve decided to do it in the dead of night, getting down on one knee in the middle of their living room after getting destroyed at an impromptu game of scrabble. 

Eddie should have seen it coming, he really should have. But he had been so caught up trying to plan his own proposal he had completely missed the signs. Like how Steve kept picking movies that involved proposals and weddings, and how he was always very interested in what Eddie thought of them. Eddie just hadn’t realized how many notes he’d been taking around his innocuous comments. Not until Steve showed him the scrawled out list he had made down the line:

Not public, he said he wouldn’t want to cry in front of a bunch of strangers. Not again (whoops, sorry babe but at least this one would have been happy tears?)

Close to a bed or a bed-like surface for “celebrating” (I should have seen that one coming)

Diamonds are apparently ~stupid~ so look at colored stones instead (maybe emerald for his birthstone? Stick with sliver tones.)

No where cold so he can focus on the moment instead of freezing

Make it a surprise (But not outside? I don’t want to wait till summer though. Maybe I can do it randomly? Like when his back is turned?)

Write. A. Speech.

Eddie had to give it to him, his notes weren’t in vain. It had been amazing. Tailor-made to him in a way he didn’t even fully get until it was over. Because he had started crying, right in the middle of their living room with no one but Steve to see him. And it had felt so fucking safe. There was no embarrassment, no worrying over someone he didn’t know taking their moment to share with more strangers, none of it. It was just them. 

He had fucking loved the ring, the colors, the style, all of it fit him perfectly. The only thing he loved more had been dragging Steve straight to their bedroom spoil him rotten for hours. The speech had been beautiful, for what he had managed to hear through his own excitement and tears. He had ended up asking Steve to write it down for him considering how he couldn’t trust his own memory. Now it sat on a cute index card he kept in his wallet, right alongside his cute scrawled out list, a constant reminder that Steve Harrington wanted him.

It had been perfect. Almost too perfect. Perfect enough for Eddie to be where he was right now, the doubt of how he ended up with Mr. Perfect. 

from the upcoming last chapter of this fic

#steddie #steddie fic #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #damn your love damn your lies #i sure am good at the previews #the actually finishing #not so much #but I THINK #this will be done this week and then it's just #childhood/siren #steps in the right direction

[talkingismylifewrites]

(let’s say a miracle happened and let’s say i finished the first draft of the honeymoon would anyone still read it)

#I know it’s been….a while #and it still needs so much work #but it looks like there will be a honeymoon in 2024 #so if anyone’s stuck around waiting for dyldyl to update #congrats #dyldyl #caro talks #caro writes #damn your love damn your lies

[sanhatipal]

3am lying in a puddle of feels thinking about Maryrose

#shadows House #seriously her story is so messed up and intense #i mean all the backstories in shadows House are messed up #but Maryrose... Maryrose #imagine living in a house with the knowledge that you're a fake #living together with the person you're imitating #being treated as her superior #yet somewhat you come to accept life there #you find solace and love in her #you make other friends too and live in peace #then one fine day you find out that your best friend freaking killed himself because he couldn't take the shock #while you want to tell your frailer friend the truth but you just can't #she's waiting to neet him again and you promised to become adults together #meet #the more time passes the harder it is to tell her that he's freaking dead for two years or more #and you can't keep the promise to become adults together #because none of that is real it's all a lie #you are supposed to REPLACE the one you've come to love the most #nothing matters it's all lies all lies lies lies #and you try so damn hard to fight it and resist #and aaaaaaaaa #it's 3am my ramblings won't stop #MARYROSE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I'm gonna EXPLODE #I'm crying ;;;-;;;; #honestly I was watching something else (Iruma kun) and the MOMENT I finished and closed the tab I go back to thinking about Maryrose #Shadows House....makes me Feel Things ™ #namely pain and longing and existencial dread #read Shadows House please you won't regret it (or..well you probably will but it's worth it) #Also listen to the s2 ending song for maximum Maryrose Feels

[frecklesandfanfics]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/41814891/chapters/104913780

Bellamy Blake doesn’t consider himself an important man, but he’s always had a destiny: to marry the glamorous beauty Echo de Winter, and take over his father’s business. And that’s fine. It’s not his passion, but it’s…fine.

Until down-to-earth artist Clarke moves in across the hall from him, and turns his entire life upside down.

#damn your love (damn your lies) #new fic who dis? #bellarke #bellamy blake #fanfic #clarke fucking griffin #john murphy #raven reyes #jackie writes! #chap 1 #arranged marriage #cheating hearts #messy messy angst #washington dc #heartbreaker

[chirpsythismorning]

📝 💐 🛼 💔⏪️💭🧊🌄❤️‍🩹

The Chain by Fleetwood Mac

previous ⏪ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist

#stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #el hopper #els pov #fleetwood mac #there are a lot of el coded fleetwood mac songs holy shit #but this one whew #'damn your love damn your lies' #GET HIM! #“and if you don't love me now (you don't love me now) you will never love me again” #it's basically a big testament to the fact that this is a big fight you can't come back from #if after all of this time after him already apparently saying it and after her saying it to him and writing it to him... #him not being able to say it even when she's practically giving him an ultimatum #then that must mean it's never going to happen #'i can still hear you saying we would never break the chain' #'you can't let these mouth breathers ruin you. ruin us! they're nobodies. they're nobodies! and you're a superhero!' #i just realized that mike corrects himself from you to us....... makes the whole what about us line from will hit different #knowing he tries to use it on el later to attempt to make them more romantic when in reality......... #he is trying really hard here #he's trying to dance around what she wants him to say without outright saying it #but el's not having it #not anymore #'chain keep us together' #begging 'the chain' to keep you together... it doesn't get much more forced conformity than that folks #4x03 #gif