I didn't pay attention to the Housman bit on Autobiography, so I would love to hear your thoughts on that :)
Sorry for the late reply but here it is.
The * followed by parenthesis are my thoughts, the rest is directly from Morrisseys Autobiography.
Excerpt from Autobiography:
and, wrongly, unnecessarily, this child weeps, full of the foolish
embarrassment that his father has clearly marked out. New air is discovered
in the words of A. E. Housman (1859–1936), scholar-poet, vulnerable and
complex. On the day of his twelfth birthday his mother dropped dead,
sealing a private future of suffering for Housman, who was said to be a
complete mystery even to those who knew him. *(Whom are we talking about??) With no interest in
applause or public recognition, Housman published three volumes of
poetry, each one of great successful caress, each a world in itself, forcing
Housman into the highest literary ranks. A stern custodian of art and life, he
shunned the world and he lived a solitary existence of monastic pain,
unconnected to others. *(Again, whom?) The unresolved heart worked against him in life, but
it connected him to the world of poetry, where he allowed (in)complete
strangers under his skin. *(One know others by how one knows oneself) In younger years he had suffered from the
unrequited love of Moses Jackson, the pain of which was so severe that it
doomed Housman for the rest of time. *(Swap the names and it could be Steven Patrick talking about himself) All of his work would be governed
by this loss, as if life could only ever offer one chance of happiness (and
perhaps, for every shade and persuasion, it does?):
*(So, Morrissey introduces Housman as someone who has unhappiness thrust upon him (but he could also have been a moody melancholic from birth, who knows?). Life delt him bad cards, but used the unhappiness to create art that others found comforting. He clearly identifies with him. And the last part of the paragraph….. Words fail me.
)
When the bells justle in the tower
The hollow night amid,
Then on my tongue the taste is sour
Of all I ever did
Housman suffered throughout his life, and therefore (and not surprisingly)
his life became an unyielding attempt not to cooperate. The black horizon
never shifted, and his emotional lot never mellowed.
*(Moses Jackson was very aware of Housmans feelings for him. If I remeber correctly when Moses married his wife, they didnt tell Alfred Edward until after the event (They also left the country). Jackson knew it would crush Housman.
)
He would not stay for me; and who can wonder?
He would not stay for me to stand and gaze.
I shook his hand and tore my heart in sunder
and went with half my life about my ways.
At his Wildean lowest, Oscar’s personal sadness had never slumped to such
leaden fatigue; Housman suffered and accepted, death always close in his
mind’s eye – but not regrettably so.
I did not lose my heart in summer’s even,
When roses to the moonrise burst apart:
When plumes were under heel and lead was flying,
In blood and smoke and flame I lost my heart.
I lost it to a soldier and a foeman,
A chap that did not kill me, but he tried;
That took the sabre straight and took it striking
And laughed and kissed his hand to me and died.
The published poetry makes the personal torture just barely acceptable. The
pain done to Housman allowed him to rise above the mediocre and to find
the words that most of us need help in order to say. The price paid by
Housman was a life alone; the righteous rhymer enduring each year unloved
and unable to love:
Shake hands, we shall never be friends, all’s over:
I only vex you the more I try.
All’s wrong that ever I’ve done and said,
And nought to help it in this dull head:
Shake hands, here’s luck, goodbye.
But if you come to a road where danger
Or guilt or shame’s to share,
Be good to the lad that loves you true
And the soul that was born to die for you
And whistle and I’ll be there.
*(The poem is so true to the Morrissey folio. A strong friendship/connection/relationship is no longer what it once was and distance is imminent between the object and the subject. But should anything happen, "danger or guilt or shame to share" you know I will be there for you. )
It’s easy for me to imagine Housman sitting in a favorite chair by a barely
flickering gas fire, the brain grinding long and hard, wanting to explain
things in his own way, monumental loneliness on top of him, but with no
one to tell. The written word is an attempt at completeness when there is no
one impatiently awaiting you in a dimly lit bedroom – awaiting your tales
of the day, as the healing hands of someone who knew turn to you and touch
you, and you lose yourself so completely in another that you are
momentarily delivered from yourself. Whispering across the pillow comes a
kind voice that might tell you how to get out of certain difficulties, from
someone who might mercifully detach you from your complications. When
there is no matching of lives, and we live on a strict diet of the self, the
most intimate bond can be with the words that we write:
*(Here author and subject almost merge into one. Drawing the line where subject and author meets is almost impossible. I become you and you become me. When there is no one to whom one can bestow all ones affection on, the page becomes the active listener. )
Oh often have I washed and dressed
And what’s to show for all my pain?
Let me lie abed and rest:
Ten thousand times I’ve done my best
And all’s to do again.
I ask myself if there is an irresponsible aspect in relaying thoughts of pain
as inspiration, and I wonder whether Housman actually infected the
sensitives further, and pulled them back into additional darkness. Surely it
is true that everything in the imagination seems worse than it actually is –
especially when one is alone and horizontal (in bed, as in the coffin).
Housman was always alone – thinking himself to death, with no matronly
wife to signal to the watching world that Alfred Edward was now quite
alright – for isn’t this at least partly the aim of scoring a partner: to trumpet
the mental all-clear to a world where how things seem is far more important
than how things are? Now snugly in eternity, Housman still occupies my
mind. His best moments were in Art, and not in the cut and thrust of human
relationships. Yet he said more about human relationships than those who
managed to feast on them. You see, you can’t have it both ways.
*(We have to wonder why Morrissey included this in the book at all. When most authors writes their autobiography, they chronologically write about what happened to them, who they saw, or write about details about their life in descriptive detail (which in my opinion is quite dull and very little engaging as a reader). But Morrissey deviates from this enormously. He includes pieces of what made him the way he is(!). Why would he include long pieces about Melanie Safka, Buffy Sainte-Marie or W. H. Auden? Not interesting in itself to read about someone some person read a long time ago, but all these pieces gives us hints of who Steven Patrick Morrissey is.
The interesting part about including A. E Housman is how much Morrissey writes about his life, not just the poetry. I think this is the key to understanding the excerpt above. He both admire and recognise how life and art blend together and how they affect each other.
About Housmans later life, Moses Jackson died before him. Jackson suffered from cancer I think and knew he was going to die. Housman later wrote in a letter to a friend where he said: "I could not leave him behind in a world where anything might happen to him". He was a wealthy man from his academic work and became a patron of Jacksons son. He paid for his education when he didn't have to, but probably felt an obligation.
Why do we have such a lengthy part in the book about an unhappy man who lived all his life inlove with a man he fell in love with in his youth???
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ You tell me 🤓🤓
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