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daz4i · 7 months

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please please please share dazai fear analysis 🤲

hehe well i'm not gonna get too in depth (mostly bc my brain isn't at 100% atm) but a short version bc i don't wanna leave you hanging,

i'm basing this on no longer human and yozo, like most of my dazai analysis hehe. in nlh he talks often about how painfully afraid he is of p much everything, because he doesn't understand people, and he doesn't want to get caught if he does anything wrong, too afraid to say no because he doesn't know how the other person will react, etc

i think. if you apply this reading to bsd dazai, a lot of his behavior makes sense, as well as adds depth to him and his more questionable actions

a p obvious example: the whole meursault arc, i think he is genuinely afraid to die, because he knows if he does then fyodor will come out on top and hurt his loved ones, destroy the whole world even. clearly, he is afraid of losing the people dear to him (but that's a very normal reaction lbr lol)

a general example: his constant acting like everything is fine to hide his real emotions - which, during his early mafia days, took form in looking blank and emotionless - can be a fear response of not knowing how other people will react to his true feelings, either due to past trauma where his emotions were dismissed or he got hurt for expressing them, or imo, more likely, due to a lack of understanding other people and not quite knowing what'll tick them off

(which might sound silly, bc he purposely ticks people off and looks to annoy people. but, this is a way to have control over the situation. that if the other person gets mad at him, he clearly knows why, he knows what he did to cause this, so this is like a precautionary measure to make sure he's not caught off guard. his fear isn't quite of their anger, or even getting hurt by their anger, but rather a lack of control or understanding of the situation)

a possibly controversial example: the way he acted with akutagawa during the dark era. i think, if you look at his actions as "basically a kid who is afraid to see this kid he found get hurt in combat, so he tries to make him stronger no matter what, and in the meantime is afraid to get attached in case the other kid does die so he tries to distance himself from him emotionally" it ofc doesn't excuse his actions, but imo, makes them. a bit more understandable, in a way. at least enough to somewhat empathize with him more

[this might be a slight side tangent but i have this hc i firmly believe in, that dazai caused ryuu's lung disease by injuring him somehow (given how he doesn't have it in the beast universe), and one of the reasons he's more gentle with atsushi is because he's afraid to hurt him too. not the main reason, but i do think it may add some depth here]

i do think he eased up after being in the ada for awhile - life became mostly predictable, nothing he couldn't handle - but. things changed, and now he's on edge again (turning you to story's lovely analysis that i keep referencing in a lot of my own dazai analysis bc it's so so good). fyodor coming back into his life certainly didn't help, either

now. since i can't not bring up his relationship with chuuya. i do think he has an easier time trusting chuuya because he knows he can handle himself. he doesn't feel the need to control him - always leaving him a choice in their plans - because he's not afraid of what could happen to him, he knows chuuya will be fine. also, their relationship started in such an awful way he doesn't need to hide his emotions around him :P this is why i think he has an easier time being with chuuya really, he's a momentary break from being in constant fear. this might also be why he's so obnoxious when chuuya's around lmao (idk how much of this is actual analysis rather than "if you read them this way it adds a nice depth" so feel free to take this part with a grain of salt, i will always be the first to admit i'm not the best at reading skk hehe)

and while i didn't finish sb yet he does seem to be. really afraid in a lot of the scenes he's in, from what i read so far askjdfg bc now chuuya is in real danger! in a way he can't predict! this hasn't happened yet! (but i could ofc bc very wrong abt that lol)

(also i gotta say. i think this is what odasaku was for him too - ofc in addition to other things - bc he knows odasaku wouldn't hurt him or react in a bad way even if he did anything outrageous. and that's in part what made his rejection in beast so devastating for him, bc it shakes up one of the only safe things in his life)

i'd say, dazai's fear isn't paralyzing, at least not for more than a second a time. it makes him active, makes him overthink, over-analyze, over-prepare. and at the same time, he does it mostly from behind the scenes, through nudging and subtle encouragements, because he may possibly fear that if he went at it with full force, the people he already got attached to will reject him (bc at his core, i think he doesn't want to be alone, but that's a topic for another time). but more importantly - that he will become like fyodor, or like mori, who see people as disposable if it helps them further their goals

^now this is more of his current self, at least. i'd argue mafia!dazai's fears were different, more of a direct fear from people and how they might hurt him, so it's best for him to go along with what they say. and, a fear of a lack of meaning. he does constantly look for a reason to live, and that may come from a fear that his existence is truly meaningless (and while for most people this fear may express itself as fearing death as well, in dazai's case it's his suicidal tendencies. kind of like proving his fear is real, the way a kid might look at the monster they think is scary to convince themselves it can't hurt them. he will die and prove his existence WAS meaningless, but that idea can't actually hurt him at the end of the day if he chooses it. idk if this analogy makes sense to anyone but me tho lmao sorry)

i. don't know how clear this is. i may have lost the plot there at some point. again let me clarify this is obviously not a "this is how dazai is and any other reading is wrong" but more like "if you apply this reading it changes the context of his characters and explains his behavior and how i personally see him". also a lot of projection 👍 ajsdfghj feel free to see it as just a thought experiment if it doesn't quite fit your perception of him :)!

#and ofc as usual it's awesome and poggers if you disagree but be respectful about it 🙏#dan rambles #me: i will keep this short / me now: hm.#i just. kept finding more things to say. but. i think that ended up making this post very messy i'm sorry 😭#i might at some point clean it up and organize it and add more points and turn it into a real analysis 🫡#(also a disclaimer abt the brief mori mention: this is how i think 22!dazai sees him. not necessarily how he actually is)#(i know he's more complex than that asdsfjgh)#long post

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minusboy · 25 days

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1, 3, 8, 19 :3

! hi lou :)

that makes me smile

tross in french exit

”You don’t know what I was going to say,” Chuuya says with a sigh and takes off his jacket, haphazardly tossing it over the back of a chair, and runs a hand through his hair, fingers snagging on a few tangled ends. ”I don’t care,” Tross says ”There’s nothing you could do that would make me change my mind.” ”Nothing,” Chuuya parrots, incredulous. Tross considers this for a moment, then just shrugs. ”I’d probably frown a little bit if you like, killed someone.” ”Frown. A little bit.” ”Yeah, man, I’d be like ’Chuuya, you can’t do that, that’s illegal’,” Tross says, with the most stern voice he can muster. He grabs a pack of cigarettes from the side table and fishes one out, then frowns. ”Last one. Oops,” he says before tossing the carton into the nearest trash bin.

19. from that project that was SUPPOSED to be short but then i kept writing and now it is very long i don't actually have a good answer for this one because i'm mostly resigned to the fact that almost everything i start will be too long and then some

that said, this one:

Many philosophers have theorized about the nature of afterlife, or the lack of it. Some will adamantly claim that there is no such thing as an afterlife, that death is followed by a nothingness, a lack of consciousness. Simply ceasing to exist. And although they’re not exactly right, they’re not completely wrong either. There is human life, the mortal life, and then there is life that transcends it. After death, there is everything, and then there is nothing. The universe is a complicated place. He wonders if Chuuya ever feels as consumed by the roaring emptiness inside, if the gaps in his consciousness are shaped like black holes. Does he feel like this, as well, his consciousness trapped in an undefined space, not space, or is he gone entirely, in those moments. Would it be easier, to be unaware of it all. Or is it even more terrifying. For one terrifying moment, Dazai feels the weight of his own nonexistence. He thinks about Chuuya, refilling his glass, an easy smile on his face. He wants it desperately, now. He gets it now. Maybe.

send me numbers i might be out of numbers

#french exit mention count infinite #i had some technical difficulties but we're back now #ask games #numbers game

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bsd-bibliophile · 3 years

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Survey Dates: November 15, 2020 - December 15, 2020 Number of Participants: 331

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#BringBackYumeno2020

How cool you included translators in this! You ROCK.

bsd kunikida needs a vacation

Bungou Stray Dogs have been a blessing for me ever since I started watching the series last year. I had lost my drive for reading and writing as a hobby, university and disillusionment with the publishing industry killed that, but now I have been revitalized thanks to the series. Not only did it drive me to go back to writing original works, but I have started writing fanfiction again after almost ten years of hiatus from story writing. The BSD online library has been a blessing not only as a source of research for the writers for my fanfic, but also has been the only way that I have been easily been able to get a hold of some works by the authors in English, my preferred reading language. Please keep up the good work! Thank you so much for everything that you have provided for this fandom.

Buraiha,,,, just them

Do not make me choose between Dazai and Chuuya, I cannot, they are both my favs lol.

for the question about how many books by japanese authors i own, i responded with more

Hello friend! Twain’s my favourite in bsd but this is about japanese literature soooo than 10, but to clarify: they are not all from bsd authors.

hello!! just a quick thank you note!! im polish and variety here in japanese literature (either in polish or english) is very limited, but thanks to your website it's very easy to find works i want to read both by japanese or russian authors. i also like the fact that i can read abt the authors' connections and how they influenced each other in their works, and get some historical context. i want to be a translator in the future, so i'm incredibly grateful for this kind of accessibility. keep up the good work and thank you once again!!! <333 - julia sz

I will like to thank you for all the information that you have supplied us on the tumblr page. Also I will like to know if you have any information about "A New Hamlet" the adaptation Dazai made of Hamlet. You will really help me if you know anything about it.

hi, i really enjoy your blog and "no longer human" as well as "the moon over the mountain" are on my christmas list. i hope to learn more about these authors and i wish you a good day!

Hi! Just hope you have a great day!

I am currently learning Japanese and I hope one day I can read these authors works in Japanese instead of a translation

I am interested in reading literary works translated into languages other than English, but have difficulty finding ways to read them. For BSD, I also watch the recordings of stage plays. Also, BSD and the authors have sparked my interest in other Japanese literature (I really like Banana Yoshimoto's books). Lastly, thanks for the online library, it's such a huge help!

I am sad to have to answer that I’ve not read these authors. I just watched the whole anime in the last two weeks and am going to go read some of these authors now. I actually have two literature degrees from US institutions and have become increasingly aware of how awfully western they are. I love this anime and am glad it’s opened me up to these authors. I’m excited to read them.

I can't wait to see what you do with these results!!

I cannot thank you & your blog enough for helping me fall further in love with Bungou Stray Dogs. Keeping so many works in an easy-to-access place is also a total lifesaver--and you just made it all the more easier to realize my love for literature. I know I'm rambling, but thank you so much!

I have a question, is it better to read these Japanese novels in their original language (Japanese) or does it not really matter if you read the English translation? I guess it's a given that reading it in Japanese is more authentic, but I'm just wondering if it's really worth it to learn such a complex language just for the sake of authenticity. Are English translations at least 90% legit anyway?

I have read most Japanese works in English except for the poetry of Nakahara Chūya, which I read in/translated from Japanese.

I have very mixed feeling towards BSD, I prefer the side stories rather than the main plot and I only like a small choice of characters, but I appreciate the series for introducing me to many great authors that I hadn't known.

I hope you have a great day!!

I just found BSD Biblio blog recently, but still I get to know about the real life authors a lot. I can't understand japanese much, so this blog truly helps me to know more about the authors and their remarkable works. I'm greatly appreciate the efforts that had been put on this blog ^^ My deepest gratitude to the translators~♡

I just wanted to say thank you for your big interest in sharing japanese literary œuvres on the internet. Here in Spain there aren't many works translated in spanish, and those that are translated, have a poor translation, except the works of Dazai. Your page lets me enjoy many pieces of art from the great japanese writers!

I love bsd and bsd-bibliophile is a great blog

I love the blog and my favorite things are the quotes! Keep up the good work. <3

I love the universe that taught me to love books.

I love this blog and thank you sm for all the love and hard work you put into it. Thank you.

I love your blog, but I didn't know you had a library! I'm definitely checking it out, since where I live it's not easy to find the books of all the authors and I want to read at least one book of each! ❤️

I love your blog:)

I love your blog!

I love your tumblr! Thank you so much for collecting all the information about the authors!

I LOVE YOUR WEBSITE ITS AMAZING THANK YOUUUU

I love your work and dedication!

I mostly make do with the books that are available in my public library, thus the only physical copy I own is "the key" bu tanizaki (if that's the correct translation of the novel)

I play the BSD mobage; that is about as far as I am into BSD as a fandom, as I've only began a couple months ago.

I prefer print, but ebooks are good when that's what's available. I started reading the BSD manga, but stopped. I enjoy it much more just vicariously through my friends who read the manga and novels. Thanks for providing Japanese lit content all the time! I'm trying to learn Japanese, but I've a long way to go, so it's cool to learn about authors and possible English translations.

I read a lot more Japanese authors than I used to before, due to the anime Bungo Stray Dogs

I really adore what you do. Though I have not been very active in the library due to real life issues, I look forward to sitting down and looking through it!

I really appreciate BSD-Bibliophile. I've learned a lot and I know without it, I might not have gotten this into Japanese literature!

i really enjoy seeing your posts on my feed and reading quotes from various writers. thank you for your effort, i really appreciate it :)

I really like that you share quotes of these authors, they're really interesting to read! :) It also helps me to decide what I want to read next haha

I really want to read the light novels, I wish one day you can upload them! Love this page so much!!

I saw a few posts from your blog on Twitter and I'll definitely follow it from now on! What you all are doing is truly amazing and I wish you and your blog only the best! (I don't have enough free time to dive into as many books as I wish I could, so your blog is really helpful)

I think Asagiri-sensei try to promote these famous Japanese authors and I really glad he did because I actually like the poems and story by these authors and whenever I read you guys post a quote from any of their books, I feels the need to buy the book. Thank you for your hardwork!

I think your work in organizing and encouraging people to engage in Japanese literature beyond the series that introduced them to it is awesome.

I use BSD-Bibliophile so much and am very grateful to have it!

I wanted to read some of Dazai's, Kenji's and Akutagawa's works, but they are hard to find in physical stores

I wanted to thank for both the blog and the online library for granting me acess to works that are either too expensive or not available in my country <3

I'm following BSD for 4 years and I read literature of BSD authors as much as I can. I'm deeply in love with its characters, and I'm delighted every time I discover the references from the real life authors and their works. I recommend for those who want to go in-depth with BSD to read the literature, or at least learn about the real life authors. It worths the time. You'll love BSD even more, and maybe the real life authors and their works as well.

I'm new to Bungou Stray Dogs, and I plan on getting my hands on the manga soon! and also the works of the real authors the characters are based off of. :)

I'm so thankful for the site! Since I can't afford the actual book, I am able to read them thru here and if you don't mind, please add Hagiwara Sakutaro's Hownling at The Moon and Kikuchi Kan's Beyond the Pale of Vengeance. Thank you!

I'm so thankful to the amount of effort put into this blog. Thank you so much.

I've been following you for years, your blog is one of my favorites. Thanks for all you do!

I've come by this website a few times, but today is the first time I've really read anything on here. The posts provide a lot of insight. I'll definitely be coming back here to make use of the online library. Thanks for making this available!

I've read and enjoyed Dazai's works, and he's the one I choose for favourite, but it's hard - if I had to choose a second I'd go with Chuuya's poetry. I've somehow wound up reading and re-reading it both for reference in my own works, and just because I want to, when I like.

I've thoroughly enjoyed all the works I've found through this series and I highly recommend people look into Tachihara's poetry! He's my favorite poet ever and his work is highly underrated.

I'm very thankful for this blog. It's heaven-sent for a booklover and fan of Japanese literature for me. I'm sure you're constantly trying to update the library, but there are a few very rare books I've always wanted to read but I'm not sure if I'll get to. Can you add "Azamukazaru no Ki" by Kunikida Doppo? I'm not sure if there exists an English translation, but I'd be eternally grateful even if you uploaded the original Japanese (actually, I would prefer that to the translation, even though it would take a million years for me to decipher the whole of it, at my level of knowledge of the Japanese language. Japanese and English being poles apart in grammatical structure, a lot of the nuances of a Japanese piece is lost in a translation, and this being a record of Kunikida's innermost feelings, I would prefer to read the original.) I also want to read the reports Kunikida made while he was a war correspondent during the Sino-Japanese war, that made him famous as a writer and journalist, but I'm not sure if those could be available. Please include Kunikida's wonderful poetry too. I have mostly read some them in the original Japanese, or Bengali translations made by a senpai of mine, but I would love to read more. As you can probably tell, Kunikida is one of my favourite Japanese authors (although I selected Akutagawa as my favourite in the survey... I love both of their writings equally, but the survey only wanted one answer, so I chose Akutagawa.) Please include writings of other Japanese authors who are not featured in BSD as well, if that is possible (you could maybe create a different section for them?) One of my favourite Japanese authors is Komatsu Sakyou, but I've only been able to read one book of his ("Japan Sinks"). I also want to read "Virus: the Day of Resurrection", "Take Your Choice" and assorted short stories written by him, but Japanese literature is unfortunately not at all easily available where I live. Which is all the more reason I'm so thankful for your blog. I wouldn't have been able to read so many amazing books of some of my favourite authors if it hadn't been for your blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I hope you will read this and consider my requests. Have a nice day :)

it is through bsd-bibliophile's blog that i am able to go in-depth about japanese authors, so thank you so much! and just a little suggestion, though you don't have to do this if you don't have time or there's simply not any reason for you to do it, i would really love to answer a survey not only featuring japanese authors but all authors across different literatures (japanese, american, english, russian) who are featured in bsd because i think that would be fun as well. and this is really a fun survey~ thank you so much!

It was very fun to fill this list.

It's too hard to choose only one character or author

Keep doing what you do, it's amazing!

keep the great works!

Loved this!!! 💕

Nothing in particular. I just wanna thank you for having this survey. Loving BSD forever.

Since I only recently fell into the world of BSD and Japanese literature I haven't been able to read many of the works I want. I'm quite eager to read "No Longer Human" by Dazai-sensei since I really liked his style. An interesting thing is that I wasn't very fond of reading poetry until I discovered Yosano-sensei and Miyazawa-sensei, I enjoyed their work a lot. I'm very grateful to this blog, I wouldn't have been able to immerse myself this much into Japanese literature and read all this wonderful works if it wasn't for you so thank you so much! Keep up the good work!! ♡

Thank you for all of your hard work in these translations; reading Japanese literature has always been my wish. Being able to find and read their works in English is the greatest thing that's happened to me.

Thank you for all the hard work! You all curate the content so carefully and do so much for the fandom. It's one of my favorite bsd

Thank you for all the work you do~ and thank you for the library as well~

Thank you for all the work you’ve done💕✨

Thank you for all your hard work!

Thank you for continuing your work on this blog!

Thank you for everything you do!

Thank you for helping me find the translated copy of Return to Tsugaru by Osamu Dazai a while back!

Thank you for making the online library available! It's a great way to read some of these works that are not easily found elsewhere.

Thank you for providing the PDF's of these books, I don't want to buy them until I know I like them because it's hard for me to read because of my ADHD, so thank you for providing them in English!!!!

Thank you for the survey!

Thank you for this site! It really helps me to learn more about the Japanese Literature. Thank you to everyone who worked hard to translate the manga and light novels! I cannot decide which author I liked the best nor which book I liked most. It really is hard for me too choose! *sends love to everyone in this site*

thank you for this site! this really feeds my reading and BSD obsession <3

Thank you for your hard work :)

Thank you for your hard work, BSD Bibliophile! You are amazing! ;)

Thank you for your hard work!

Thank you for your work ♥

thank you so much for all that you do!!

Thank you so much for all your work on the BSD Bibliophile website!

Thank you so much for both your blog and the online library!!

Thank you so much for bringing closer the translated works and thanks for the authors who translated them

thank you so much for creating this special blog! I love it and really adore it

Thank you so much for your great work! your blog is a treasure for those who don't speak Japanese but are in love with Japanese literature (─‿‿─)♡

thank you so much for your website!!! sending love from hk!! :DD

Thank you so much for your wonderful work in making Japanese literature more accessible, so people who cannot find them in their country are also able to enjoy them <3

Thank you very much for your efforts in providing information and reading materials for everyone! I find your blog and website especially useful since I can't seem to find any physical copies here where I'm from.

Thank you!

Thank you.

Thanks for all of your hardwork!

thanks for ur hard work <3

Thankyou so much for this amazing collection of Japanese writers and BSD!

The translations from the BSD Library are amazing.

there's always more than one favorite character or author but it is hard to pick between them

This blog is has so many posts that have helped me to read these literary work and became an important part of my life. Thank you for all moderators for sharing these beautiful works.

This is an interesting survey for bsd franchise also for the people who like and read Japanese literature. As a casual franchise wanderer, I'd like to fill this for showing my country existence//slaps wwwwwwwww. Thank you for providing this survey. Salam Literasi!

This library is amazing!

This was fun!! I use the bsd-bibliophile tumblr a lot - reading the quotes helps me pick which book to read next!! Through reading the Japanese literature written by BSD characters, I’ve since found other Japanese authors I love like Sakutarō Hagiwara and Dan Kazou, too!!!! <3

To clarify some of my answers, The Japanese books I own are mostly children's books. My parents however, have some Japanese novels and short stories as they are from Japan (for example my mom has a copy of Kumo no Ito by Akutagawa). I never finished Setting Sun nor Kokoro. I got about halfway through both before I had to return it to the library. The only other jp lit I've read not including poems is like a quarter of Snow Country by Kawabata Yasunari.

would just like to thank you for always providing the resources for BSD fans! i have been introduced to some of my favourite all-time works since discovering your blog and your resources!

You have a great blog, thank you all!

You're doing amazing work. Thank you so much for all you do for this fandom and the Japanese literary sphere in general.

You’re the best!

Your blog is absolutely amazing and if i hadn't found it i wouldn't have been able to read any of the BSD authors' works, i downloaded each one that interested me in PDF from your blog, hence why i admire it so much and i am so grateful for it. It is obvious that you put a huge amount of work into this blog and i love to wake up to new quotes and fragments every day. Keep up the great work, with love, a reader from Romania!

Your blog is amazing. Keep up the great work! Much support ♥️

your blog is SO helpful for my master's thesis on japanese literature. there is basically nothing in my country about japanese authors and i cannot thank you enough for the work you have done. seriously you are saving my life !!!!!!!!!! i really hope you have a good day!!!! you are really awesome™

Your BSD Library is very helpful for me, thank you for your efforts on creating it!

Your website is great, and I really appreciate your work, it’s makes it so much easier to find Japanese literature and to find new authors.

Your work is beautiful and you have expanded my knowledge of international literature so much; thank you :)

#survey #results #2020 #japanese literature #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd-bibliophile

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uhm hi im kinda new to the fandom so I'm not really sure with almost everything that's happening but all i know is i love love love the series so far. To make this short in order to save time, I just wanted to ask in what order should i read/watch bsd? I'm on chapter 45 in the manga and I'm not sure what to do exactly after finishing it someday. Can you give/suggest me an order or list? Thank you very much!

Hello Anon-san! First of all, welcome to bsd hell!

The manga is a very nice start. In bsd there’s many things apart from the anime and manga so I am gonna explain shortly what each is together with my recommended order of reading/watching. So...

BSD Universe Guide

1) Manga (79 chapters so far, updating at the start of every month)

2) Anime ( Season 1, Season 2, OVA(Hitori Ayumu), Movie (Dead Apple), Season 3)

3) Novels (Only the first 2 novels are released in english. Some of the others might be translated online or there might be reviews. I’m gonna list them here together with alternative ways to learn the gist of their stories)

a) Dazai’s Entrance Exam (This one has been added in the first season of the anime, just with another timeline. It’s the Blue King/Messenger story. In the novel, the events happen 2 years before the anime timeline so Atsushi isn’t there and Dazai is a newbie fufu if you can get your hands on it though, then do so, it’s funny)

b) Dark Era (This one is depicted in the first 4 episodes of season 2. Some details have been changed and obviously the novel is better but you can understand the story just from the anime.)

c) Planning of Atsushi’s Entrance Exam + Founding of the Agency (This has not been shown anywhere. There should be translations/reviews online though. You can ask me for help finding them ^^)

d) 55 minutes (A completely new story in the current timeline. It’s fun and all but you don’t miss on the story so much even if you don’t read it. Again, if you can find it either online or when/if it’s released in english, do read it! It’s nice!

e)Dead Apple (Now this is just the scenario of the movie in novel form. You don’t have to read it to understand the story or anything.)

f) BEAST (This is an alternative story where Atsushi is in the Mafia and Aku is in the ADA, it doesn’t have anything to do with the original plot. But if you are curious, here’s a summary of it I had written while reading it.)

g) Fifteen (Dazai and Chuuya’s meeting story. It has been animated in the first 3 episodes of season 3 but there’s many parts that were cut and/or changed. You can read my summary/review of it here.)

4)BSD wan! (manga) Idk if anyone’s still translating it currently but there are many translated chapters and it’s hella funny and if you enjoy some comedy then you should totally read it!

5) Dead Apple Manga (It’s updating online in japanese currently. Idk if anyone’s translating it but it follows the events of the movie mostly so there’s no urgency to read it. But there are some extra scenes that are based off of an originals story for the game)

6) Bungou Tales of the lost (Mobile game, there’s also an english version. It has most of the stories and some few original scenarios like the one I mentioned above.)

7) BSD Gaiden (A completely side story featuring completely other characters but in the same universe. Ango appears in it. Tsujimura, who appears in the movie, first appeared here. And actually also meets Chuuya in it.) Now this has both a novel and a manga. If you are interested, you can find part of the manga translated online.

Okay I think that’s all. Just the manga and novels are enough to enter the BSD world but if you wanna get in deeper there’s many things you can do. If reading is to your liking then take the time to read some of the books the original authors had written. No Longer Human is awesome for example XD

I hope this was enough answer to your question ;; Feel free to ask me if you need help with something more specific too ^^ I’m happy to help bsd buddies!

#ask judaluffy #ask #anon ask #bsd #bungou stray dogs

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soukokucchi · 5 years

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Whatever It Takes

This is dedicated to @mirei191 and other Soukoku shippers who are also fans of the Marvel Cinematic Universe. Please be warned that this story contains spoilers for the Avengers: Endgame.

Growing up in a circus brimming with the most astounding acts mankind has ever witnessed, Dazai has been acquainted with what people thought to be impossible at the age of nine. He would shoot with his pistols and handguns for countless of hours until his hands ache from the calluses on his forefingers—there is no way to stop him from raining the targets with bullet holes, not until he can pull off any trick that is deemed to be impossible by human standards. The ringmaster has always taught him that his imagination is his only escape route away from the cruel reality of this world.

However, never in his life would he imagine that he would be traveling back in time and manning a spaceship towards a planet called Vormir to retrieve a stone and save the universe from a mad titan. He gazes at the man beside him who seems to be fascinated with the dancing lights scattered around them. It would have been a beautiful sight if it weren’t for the ominous feeling that builds upon his guts as they draw closer to their destination.

“You know, Chibi, I once had a dream about marrying you in space,” Dazai chirps in an attempt to lighten up the mood while he notes their estimated arrival time. It proves to be effective as he slowly watches the tension leave the other’s shoulders, but his eyes remain clouded with grief and a hint of hope. He knows how important this mission is for the team after witnessing the people around them turn into dust right before their eyes.

“If that’s your way of proposing, I hope you don’t expect me to accept it,” the ginger snickers before taking Dazai’s free hand and holding it close to his heart. For a few moments, he plays with the ring on the latter’s finger, admiring the golden band they have given each other two years after Chuuya has been cleared by S.H.I.E.L.D and three years after the sniper has deemed that he is worth saving rather than being his mission. He intertwines their hands and promises to the stars watching them, “We’re going to get them back. Whatever it takes.”

Dazai smiles genuinely at him before squeezing Chuuya’s hand tight as if it is some sort of reassurance that after all of these, everything will be back to normal—Chuuya would drag him out of the bed every morning and prepare him breakfast before they go on a mission together somewhere in Greece, Hawaii or Budapest, and they would talk about retirement right after they start training Akutagawa and Atsushi to be the best agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. He is willing to do anything for the sake of the life he has dreamed of with the ginger and if it takes fighting aliens and retrieving stones from outer space, then so be it.

“Whatever it takes.”

Dazai and Chuuya are welcomed by a cloaked figure who has proven to have knowledge about their names and descendants. He leads them to the highest structure in Vormir as he talks about the soul stone and Dazai could only wish that whatever this foreboding feeling crawling inside him would soon go away. “You should know...,” the man starts halfway through their destination. They both repress the urge to shudder either from his tone or the coldness of the wind. “It extracts a terrible price.”

Dazai takes Chuuya’s hand on his own while they take the last couple of steps towards the top. “What you seek lies in front of you as does what you fear,” the figure says as he leads them to the edge. The howls of the wind are much louder up there as if it is mourning for something that isn’t quite there yet. With the harsh beating of their own hearts, they take in the view of what is beneath them. “To ensure that whoever possesses it understands its power the stone demands... a sacrifice.”

The brunet leads Chuuya away from the edge, his hand tight around his wrist as if he is afraid that the other would jump off the cliff once he lets go of him. There are things he is willing to sacrifice for this universe—the canned crabs he has always been obsessed with, the coffees in the morning and even the bandages he wears everyday—but never Chuuya. He wouldn’t be able to bear losing him for a stone.

“A soul for a soul,” the ginger mumbles, staring at the edge a few meters away from him before moving his gaze to stare at Dazai’s eyes. “You still want to get married in space?” He chuckles as he slowly removes the brunet’s grip on his wrist while the latter glares at their hands.

“Both of us have to be alive for a wedding,” the sniper moans before punching Chuuya’s solar plexus and pinning him to the ground. He looks at him longingly, remembering every detail about the only person who has never judged for his mistakes and accepted him no matter who he is before and after S.H.I.E.L.D. “And it’s not going to be me. Tell Atsushi and Akutagawa to work on their skill set.”

“Tell them that yourself,” Chuuya says as he flips over their position, straddling Dazai and shooting him with his widow bites. He leaves him a fleeting kiss on his forehead before running towards the edge of the cliff. However, he didn’t put into account the brunet’s pain tolerance towards his widow bites, which has developed through their years of partnership and pissing the other off enough to shoot him with his widow bites constantly. So, it doesn’t take Dazai long to recover and before he knows it, he is firing an explosive bullet to the other’s direction, causing him to stumble and lose his footing.

While Chuuya tries to ground himself and stand up, the sniper is already a step away from falling off the cliff. Soon, he is slowly falling to the ground, but, Dazai thinks, the ginger is stupid enough to jump after him. The next thing he knows, he is firing a grappling hook and pulling to the other close to him, only to find himself holding his hand tightly as they dangle on the edge.

“You have to let me go,” Chuuya urges as he looks at the distance between him and the ground. He knows that this mission wouldn’t be a walk in the park, but what can he say? A part of the journey is the end. It might not be the kind of end they both dreamed of, but at least, Dazai would outlive him just like he has always wanted. “Come on, Osamu. It’s okay. You can let go of me now.”

“No! You don’t understand, Chuuya. I can’t lose you,” Dazai cries and holds the other tightly, not minding how numb his arms are from supporting both of their weights. “To hell with the universe. I don’t—Chuuya, please, don’t do this to me.”

“If it makes you feel any better, I would have said yes to your proposal.”

“You’re too cruel to me, Hatrack.”

Tears start to fall from the brunet’s eyes as he slowly loses his grip around Chuuya’s hand. The latter could only smile at his lover while he tells him “It’s okay” over and over again, but Dazai is relentless and continues to pull them up despite the pain coursing through his shoulder.

“Remember, Dazai? Whatever it takes.”

Before Dazai can respond, Chuuya pulls his grip off the other and mumbles “I love you” as he plummets to the ground. Dazai could only watch his lover’s broken body while he cries out for him, hoping that by some sort of miracle this is all a joke—that Chuuya is still alive down there, just waiting for Dazai to come and get him like he always does during their missions together. It doesn’t take long before the sniper finds himself blacking out.

Dazai wakes up all alone with the soul stone in his right hand.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #double black #dachuu #dazai x chuuya #my fanfic #avengers au #angst

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musicprincess655 · 4 years

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Atsushi hates the idea, and he’s not shy about saying it.

“I hate this idea.”

“We get the point, Nakajima,” Ryuu sighs. He’s not the biggest fan of the idea either, truth be told. But it’s grating that Atsushi has been pestering him for hours after they had the meeting where they decided on the idea, and everyone else has left Ryuu alone to find the patience to deal with it. “You’ve said. Several times.”

“Maybe this time someone’ll listen,” Atsushi says. “I. Hate. This idea.”

“Kyouka-chan agreed to it,” Ryuu says. “She helped come up with it. If she’s okay with it, she might give us our best shot at getting into the Correctional Facility. Which we need to get your friend out.”

“But using Kyouka-chan as bait?” Atsushi asks.

It’s no wonder no one likes this idea. Even Ryuu thinks it’s a bit much to use a fourteen year old girl as a human sacrifice like this.

“She won’t be alone,” Ryuu says. Tries to justify to himself. “Kouyou-san will be in there with her, and the rest of us will be ready to step in. She just needs to lure the guy in, it doesn’t have to go farther than that.”

“And what if it does?” Atsushi demands.

“You’re insane if you think Kouyou-san will ever let something happen to Kyouka-chan,” Ryuu says. “Besides, Kyouka-chan can stab the man herself if she needs to.”

The idea is as simple as it is universally hated. A high official of No. 6 has an infatuation for slumming it, and a particular weakness for young girls. Kouyou doesn’t often deal with him, as all of her girls are there by choice and almost none are young enough for this particular man’s tastes. But with Kyouka willing to play the part of one of Kouyou’s girls, long enough for them to lure this man in, they can trap him, and they will have the information they need to get into the Correctional Facility.

Although Kyouka is perfectly capable of taking care of herself, still, no one likes the idea of using her as bait in such a sleazy way. But she agreed to the plan, and even helped design it with Kouyou. It’s hard to back out when she says she’ll do it.

“I hate this,” Atsushi says again, as if Ryuu didn’t hear him the first several times.

“I’m aware,” Ryuu says. “You’re going to have to make a choice here, though. Do you want to save your friend or not?”

“Of course I want to save her,” Atsushi says.

“Then trust Kyouka when she says she can do this,” Ryuu says. “And trust the rest of us to get her out if she needs our help.”

Atsushi doesn’t look any happier about it, but he nods once.

Ryuu is glad he only met Dazai and Chuuya after they stopped smuggling humans along with everything else. There’s not much about this life he doesn’t like. The stealing, the violence, the scheming, all of it is something Ryuu took to easily when he found it. But human trafficking is a different situation. It’s too easy for Ryuu to look at the few victims he’s seen and see himself, trapped in the Correctional Facility, to see Gin, spared this fate only by the luck of finding Dazai and Chuuya when she did. Smuggling and stealing are one thing, but human trafficking is entirely another.

Kouyou isn’t all that much happier about the way she has to lure in the official. She prides herself on only taking girls, and occasionally boys, who want to work for her. She doesn’t often take younger ones, and even then, rarely lets them work without training. Now, though, she has to pretend to have found someone to the official’s taste, and there’s very little chance of someone meeting that requirement doing it willingly.

Ryuu had argued against Atsushi being in the room. He acts without thinking, especially when someone he cares about is involved, and Atsushi and Kyouka have a special bond. Ryuu doesn’t think Atsushi could sit by and let someone get close to Kyouka, try to touch her, and let it slide.

But Atsushi is stubborn, and he refuses to let Kyouka go in alone, and the relief in her face when he insisted was so obvious that no one could really tell Atsushi no.

So Ryuu has to be there too, as a buffer for Atsushi. Ryuu doesn’t really think that he could do much to stop Atsushi if something happened to set him off, but maybe his presence alone will make Atsushi think, at least.

The time has come, Kouyou is on her way with the No. 6 official, and Ryuu and Atsushi have to get to their places to keep the official from seeing what’s going on. And Atsushi is doing his level best to ruin it.

“You know, it’s still not too late to back out of this,” Atsushi says. “Kyouka-chan can stop this.”

“I appreciate the sentiment, but she’s literally with Kouyou and the official right now,” Ryuu says. “So if you don’t want this whole thing to be for nothing, you need to stop protesting and get in position.”

“But-”

“Nakajima. For the love of fuck. Get in the goddamn closet.”

There are slats on the door of the closet in one of the rooms in Kyouka’s hotel, wide enough to look through, but enough to conceal the two of them hiding inside. Kouyou had offered the use of a room in her brothel, but Kyouka hadn’t been ready to agree to that. At least in her own home, she feels safe.

The closet is tight, and Ryuu’s shoulder presses up against Atsushi’s. It’s the closest they’ve been since Ryuu felt the pull of Elyurias’ song at Oda’s, but he barely remembers that, caught up as he was in the pain of it, and before that, it was that horrible fight they had, and before that…

The kiss. Ryuu is trying not to give it a capital K, because if he does, he assigns it enough importance to examine. And he’s not quite ready to do that, because he’s not done deciding how his feelings about Atsushi have shifted. There’s a lot of things he feels about Atsushi, and some of them are still anger, still hatred, but some are softer than Ryuu should by any rights be capable of feeling, and he doesn’t know how to accept them, doesn’t know how to weave them into the whole of who he is. Doesn’t know how to reconcile a him that has lingering hatred but something uncomfortably close to affection, to more. They should be opposites. They should be mutually exclusive.

They’re not.

And in truth, Ryuu hasn’t hated Atsushi nearly as much as he should in months.

So with their shoulders pressed together, cramped into a tiny space, Ryuu’s heart runs away from him, jumping in his chest. It’s not the time, and it’s certainly not the place, and he needs to focus, because while he and Kyouka have never gotten along, he’s not about to leave her to a fate like this just because he can’t stop listening for the soft sounds of Atsushi breathing the same air as him.

“…really outdone yourself this time, Ozaki-san,” a male voice enters the room. “She’s perfect. Pristine. The image of a proper young lady. I can’t wait to see what she looks like ruined.”

“You know there’s an extra charge for any harm coming to one of my girls,” Kouyou says. If there’s strain in her voice, Ryuu can’t hear it.

“I’ll pay up front,” the man says. “Wouldn’t want to short-change you.”

“Of course,” Kouyou says evenly. “I’ll take that now, actually.”

Ryuu and Atsushi lean in to one of the slats, peeking through the crack. Kyouka stands beside the bed, face entirely blank. Kouyou’s face is much the same as she accepts a bag of money from their target. And the official…

It exactly what a man who prefers young, possibly forced girls should look like. Sleazy, disgusting. Ryuu doesn’t know how Kyouka hasn’t already recoiled in disgust from him. Atsushi tenses at his side, but Ryuu lifts a hand against his chest.

Not yet. If they’re going through the trouble to do this, if they’re making Kyouka do all this, they need a clean hit. They need to be sure they’ll get this man before he runs. Charging in now isn’t a guarantee.

“I can take it from here, Ozaki-san,” the man says. “You can come pick up what’s left of her when I’m done.”

“As you say,” Kouyou says. The man steps forward, grabs Kyouka’s waist possessively, and Ryuu steps away from Atsushi, ready to charge, knowing this has to be for keeps, when…

The man shouts in pain and drops to his knees. Ryuu and Atsushi are already halfway to him when they realize what happened.

Kyouka wipes her knife on the man’s shirt and neatly puts it back into her sleeve. The man curls around the stab wound in his leg, moaning in pain. Atsushi just gapes at her, but Ryuu has enough presence of mind to tie the man’s arms behind his back. A leg wound won’t stop someone forever, after all.

Dazai and Chuuya join them, then, and Chuuya grumbles about having to waste perfectly good bandages on a waste of space like this creep.

“Kyouka-chan made it farther than you would have,” Dazai points out.

“I would’ve ended him the second he put hands on me,” Chuuya agrees, tying off the bandage more viciously than necessary. “And there’s a reason I wasn’t in here.”

“You never were one for this kind of work,” Kouyou agrees. “It didn’t take me long to figure out you were much better suited to fighting.”

“Damn straight.”

Kyouka leans her head on Atsushi’s chest, and Atsushi wraps his arms around her shoulders. Ryuu is standing close enough to see her shaking.

“So,” Dazai says, kneeling down in front of the No. 6 official with a grin that brings Ryuu back to age fourteen. It’s cold and empty and just as terrifying as it is awe-inspiring. “Ready to tell us everything we want to know?”

In the end, though, Dazai’s particular brand of interrogation isn’t necessary. Kyouka’s stabbing was enough for a man who lives the soft life of an important No. 6 official. He tells them everything they want to know about the security system around the Correctional Facility, the way security has been ramped up to prepare for the Holy Day, the important centennial celebration, the cleaning duty they’ll have.

But just because he answers their questions doesn’t mean they get anywhere. By the time they let the man go, stumbling his way back to No. 6, they’re left with only one conclusion.

“There’s no way we’re getting into that facility.”

They’re all thinking it, but Chuuya is the one who says it.

“Security is too tight,” he continues. “We don’t have the manpower or the technology to try and get past it. And even if we did, that wouldn’t be a guarantee, and we still wouldn’t get out alive.”

Dazai frowns, obviously thinking, but he looks a little like a rat caught in a maze with no exit. Eventually, he’d going to have to accept that there’s no solution to this particular puzzle. As soon as a new road opens up, it’s blocked by a new problem.

“I’m sorry, Kyouka-chan,” Kouyou says. “We were all hoping for a different answer. I’m sorry you had to go through all that for nothing.”

“Maybe not for nothing,” Ryuu says. “Security wasn’t the only thing he told us about. There was also that cleaning duty.”

Dazai is the only one who gets his meaning immediately. His eyes narrow even farther, and Ryuu doesn’t think he’ll be praised for this particular observation.

“What about cleaning duty?” Atsushi asks. He probably stopped listening once he heard about the security, trying to jump ahead and plan a way around it. Chuuya probably did the same thing. Both of them are prone to rush in. They’re not heavy planners.

But Dazai is, and Ryuu is trying to learn how to be. They listened to the part where the man said what exactly cleaning duty is.

“They’re going to remove the West Block,” Ryuu says. “They’ll take everyone there to the Correctional Facility. It’s a way in, at least, and we should be able to move around without attracting much attention from security. Less than if we broke in, anyway.”

“That sounds like a suicide mission,” Kyouka says. “How would anyone get out?”

“I didn’t say it was perfect,” Ryuu says. “It just might have a higher chance of success than trying to break in.”

“So you’re saying we should get arrested on purpose to get into the facility?” Atsushi asks. He tilts his head back, eyes to the sky as he thinks. “It has potential.”

“Not all of us,” Ryuu continues. “Someone can go in through the sewers. They wouldn’t have access to the facility, but they might get access to some of the controls. That would involve a lot more fights, though.”

“Sounds like that’s where I’m going, then,” Chuuya says. “And you’re coming with me, Dazai.”

“But that sounds hard,” Dazai whines, because he’s got too much of his brain focused on planning to really hit Chuuya with a good comeback. “You’re the one with brute strength, why should I have to go there too?”

“I can go with them,” Kyouka says, lifting her head from Atsushi’s chest. “I can help.”

“You’ve done enough for us,” Atsushi tells her. Kyouka pouts.

“I want to help.”

“She’d be useful,” Chuuya says. “She’s fast, and she’s trained as an assassin. If anyone can get to the control room, it’s her.”

“I’ll be with Ryuu and Nakajima,” Gin says. “The three of us should be able to survive together.”

Ryuu almost can’t believe that everyone is agreeing to his idea. It’s a stupid idea. It will most likely get all of them killed.

And it’s the best they have.

“We don’t have much time, do we?” Dazai says. “Not if cleaning duty starts in less than two weeks.”

“Everyone needs to memorize that map of the facility,” Chuuya says. “We need to be able to move through it without thinking. With enough preparation, and a little luck, we might even survive this.”

That’s the hope. That this isn’t a suicide mission, that they’ll all survive to tell the tale. No matter how this goes down, Ryuu knows it’ll be one for the ages.

#shin soukoku #sskk #akuatsu #atsuaku #bungou stray dogs #bsd #my writing #no. 6 au #systasis

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catsbythegreat · 5 years

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Fic Round Up 2018

I did this last year and it was fun, so it’s time to see how this year stands up:

-Total year-long word count: 291,102 (about 40,000 more than last year)

Word count by fandom: - too lazy to do this but I’m going to assume that almost all of them are BSD

Fics completed: 56 (down from 65)

*for the fics posted I’ll only post my faves except the chapter fics, which I’ll post all of since there’s not a lot.

Drabbles: - word for a threat that’s also a surprise prompt (skk) - don’t you dare shut me out prompt (skk) - you’re trembling prompt (atsushi and kyouka friendship) - what happens if i do this prompt (skk) - teenage dazai realizes he might like chuuya oh no (skk) - not really a drabble but still a post -- bsd bake off au - chuuaku week day 2: soft (chuuaku) - things you said when we were the happiest we ever were prompt (chuuaku) - things you said with no space between us prompt (skk) - things you said while we were driving (skk) - things you said after sex prompt (chuuaku)

Oneshots: - let me help you, skk - Dazai notices Chuuya’s sleeping problems. - Aftermath, skk - Dazai tells Chuuya about a mission gone wrong. - are you home?, skk - Chuuya trusts Dazai to help him when he needs it, but not completely. - the opposite of alone, skk - Chuuya can’t sleep, so he texts Dazai. - Spiralling, skk - Chuuya always wondered if Corruption would tear him apart. - hope that something good will happen next, skk - Dazai + Chuuya + talk in a cabin - Constancy, skk - the day Chuuya came home with a diagnosis, Dazai considered moving out. - tired, skk - Dazai hates Chuuya post-Corruption. - Pick Up the Pieces series, skk - Chuuya gets tortured, he and Dazai decide to help each other. - lend me a shoulder, chuuaku - Dead Apple missing scene where Akutagawa helps Chuuya. - Perseverance, skk - figure skating au part 2, Olympics! - Satisfaction, skk - figure skating au part 3, Worlds! - Storm, skk - Dazai and Chuuya and one blanket in a snow storm. - Yokohama: Unsolved, skk - Dazai and Chuuya are ghost hunters. - Untraceable Children, skk - Psycho-Pass au, They meet after Chuuya kills an inspector. - Spilled Ink, skk - parallel universes au feat. the stuff from Beast - Holding Pattern, skk - Never Let Me Go au (organ harvesting rip) - isn’t life hard, kunichuu - Kunikida thinks Chuuya is a good man. Chuuya knows he isn’t. - you’re safe here - Atsushi comes out to Dazai. - Bad Patients, Yosano & Dazai - Yosano treats Dazai. - At First Sight, skk - First mission fic! - Fairy Lights, skk - Dazai realizes Chuuya has never celebrated a proper Christmas. - for one man, sskk - SSKK in the aftermath of Dazia’s death. (Beast au) - Everybody Lives, kunikidazai - Kunikida believes he can save everyone. - to satisfaction, chuuya/ango - Ango wants to thank Chuuya. - Birdsong - When Chuuya was younger, he sang to the moon. (Chuuya & Kyouka siblings) - Never Enough, chuuaku - Chuuya knows what Dazai does to Akutagawa, but he doesn’t know Akutagawa.

Chapter Fics: - This Autumn Will End - Yosano wants to heal, but all she’s ever known is hurt. - Fighters, chuuaku - Chuuya and Akutagawa’s developing relationship

Works-in-progress: 3 -Gifted - skk, experimental research facility au - only human, skk - Special Abilities Department Chuuya AU. After Dazai escapes the Port Mafia, Chuuya is sent by the government to gain his trust.

This year I wrote and posted: 56 fics and 2 in-progress fics

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted? I never expect to write as much fic as I end up writing.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? Some of the gen-fics.

What’s your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest? I have a lot of them actually but the ones that come to mind right now are the two later stories in the Revival series because figure skating is fun to write about. The first one was written in 2017 but I put a lot of work into the two that were written in 2018 and I hope to add to the series later.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? The Soukoku Trope Bingo fics and the ADA Week fics (like this one) were all territory I haven’t written for the most part (except the figure skating fic.) This Autumn Will End was also a risk because I’d never written Yosano in that much detail before. I got to know the new characters I was writing a bit more as well as the genres. I also learned that no one likes my kunikidazai LMAO but people are willing to give my lack of knowledge in some areas a pass. I also learned that I can write a lot of things I didn’t think I could. It’s just difficult.

Your best story of this year: Aside from “only human,” Aftermath. It’s not a big au or even a long fic but I’m proud of it and I think it helped me write more fics this year in which Dazai and Chuuya’s relationship grows to become more trusting.

Your most popular story of this year: only human, which isn’t surprising! It’s the fic I’ve written the most words for and its a multi-chap so people are exposed to it over and over again.

Story of yours most under-appreciated by the universe, in your opinion: Everybody Lives. I think this is the one fic where I was nervous about what I was writing but felt tentatively proud of at the same time, but it didn’t get a response. I don’t know if it’s because it’s kunikidazai and not a lot of people are reading it, or if it’s because it’s bad kunikidazai. Either way, I still don’t know whether or not it deserves appreciation but I guess I can say it’s under appreciated.

Most fun story to write: Yokohama: Unsolved. I mean...any story based on Buzzfeed Unsolved is gonna be a good time.

Story with the single sexiest moment: adrenaline. Like I said last year, I’m a bad judge of this. This fic doesn’t have any sex in it at all, but listen that scene where Chuuya threatens Ango in Dead Apple...just...yeah. I would pay with my life too. So it’s kind of like that but with a gun.

Most “Holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: you know what? Even among the kink bingo fics I never got here. Compared to last year that’s kind of disappointing.

Story that shifted your own perceptions of the characters: only human made me think about Dazai as a character more and made me realize that I like things about him.

Hardest story to write: This Autumn Will End (which could also actually go into the category above for Yosano) because I had never written so much about Yosano’s character AND it was long AND it was an au and I didn’t know if people would like it. Also, Holding Pattern was a fic I had to write and erase and rewrite a lot of, more so than other fics. Also Never Enough was part of a rolling remix so figuring out how to remix the fic before it was a bit hard, but once I got an idea things flowed.

Biggest disappointment: all of the top Chuuya kink bingo fics. Aside from that gunplay fic, I’m perfectly happy forgetting all of those things exist.

Biggest surprise: Pick Up the Pieces series. Was meant to be a one-shot for whumptober, ended up being skk relationship development and I kind of still think about it and how it fits into other stories and how I’ve characterized Chuuya and Dazai in general.

Most unintentionally telling story: Only You and Drowning

Favorite opening line(s): -“I wonder how many times you’re gonna almost-die before someone gets fed up with your shit and lets you.” (Only You) - “Ghosts don’t exist, but I’m not above using them to scare Chuuya.” - Dazai Osamu, interview, March 2018 (Yokohama: Unsolved)

Favorite closing line(s): - “Why do I do it? To cope with depression................and it’s fun to see Chuuya get scared!” - Dazai Osamu, interview, June 2018 (Yokohama: Unsolved) - “In a strange way, despite being a coward, Dazai had also been brave. Chuuya would be brave in his own way, too.” (Holding Pattern)

Favorite 5 line(s) from anywhere: - “No!” Chuuya took a shaky breath. “Of answering questions. Everyone always asks me questions, or tells me what to do, but no one talks to me and I’m tired of it because other people actually talk to each other and I keep seeing it and I want it, but you won’t give it to me.” (only human) - “I’ve never met someone who works so hard,” Dazai continued, “to be the person they want to be.” (Only You) - “Hello?” Dazai called out. “Is anyone here? We’re a couple of not-scientists and we need someone to explain things to us.” (Yokohama: Unsolved) - “You act like someone who knows how to love.” (Never Enough) - “He feels oddly detached from his body, the pain and Dazai’s hand around his wrist being the only things really grounding him, keeping him from thinking that maybe he’s just a shell and that Nakahara Chuuya doesn’t exist at all.” (At First Sight) - “Back then, a hand had reached out and freed him.Ever since, he’d had to do pretty much everything himself.” (Pick Up the Pieces, I can’t count LMAO)

Top 5 scenes from anywhere you would choose to have illustrated from anywhere - Chuuya pointing the Dominator at Dazai in Untraceable Children. - Chuuya destroying the tank in Pick Up the Pieces. - Chuuya during or after his free program in Satisfaction. - The ending scene of lend me a shoulder. - Dazai and Chuuya with their hot chocolates in Fairy Lights. - I’m sure there’s more but it’s hard to think.

Fic-writing goals for next year: Finish only human and/or Gifted and write the mutli-chaptered Psycho-Pass au because I have it all outlined which is a first but I haven’t written it. Also write more skk figure skating fics! I also want to create a world/au that people will be interested in talking about but idk what that is yet because even though I love au’s I’m also not great at that sort of thing.

#actual blog post #my fan fic #long post #skk #bsd

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daz4i · 5 months

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ik a common pet peeve ppl have with media is that trope of a villain having a really good point about society then immediately killing a baby to achieve it or smth and how it's used by people in power to demonize these criticisms of them. but i do think in bsd when antagonists make a good point it still stands and it's still a good point regardless of what they do about it, and the narrative does not want you to perceive them entirely negatively. like, there's a reason atsushi spends a few chapters in a conflict bc he agrees with fukuchi's ideas, just thinks his methods are harmful. the story lingers on it bc it wants you to stop and think and see the good in them, i think, and not to be mean and turn it around like a "gotcha! you are just as bad for agreeing!" or smth.

i think it all stems from how every character in bsd is morally grey in order to humanize them. every antagonist is presented in a positive light at some point (only exception i can think of is fyodor, who so far hasn't been presented in a really grey way either), their motives or ideals are laid out so you can understand WHY they're doing the things they're doing, and eventually they end up working with the protagonists because well. they're all humans at the end of the day.

the thing driving all protagonists in bsd is simply to keep living (each have their own asterisk next to that, but i won't get into details) and usually keep others safe. they beat the forces that stand in their way of achieving this, but for a moment, these forces' own goals get reflected back onto them, and they become a vehicle for them as well, at times.

it's less of a "villain makes a good point then kills a baby to make you disagree with them", more like "villain makes a good point but the story lingers on it so both you and the in-universe characters think about it and consider it. they also kill a baby but that's more like a personal character flaw that might get ironed out of them with the power of friendship"

that's also why wildly loved characters that are generally considered positive start out trying to kill the protags (akutagawa, chuuya, lucy, poe, sigma, the hunting dogs etc). you know WHY they do this. you know what led them here. you also saw other sides to them - silly moments, helping their comrades or innocent bystanders, positive interactions with the main cast - which help make them feel more human, thus making them easier to understand for us as readers.

idk man i think it's p cool

EDIT: i will also add!!!! that imo fyodor seeming purely evil despite bsd's attempt at humanizing its characters!!!! is less of a fault in writing but rather showing how he dehumanizes HIMSELF. he views himself as more than human. characters like sigma view him as more than human. and so, for now, the narrative will treat him as such too - not bc he's right. but bc it serves his current story, and hopefully a future arc will have him unlearning that, or more layers will be peeled from him so at least we as an audience can see his humanity (i have a feeling the information sigma got from him + the injury dazai gave him + him being bested in general + whatever the fuck "that man" comment was, will all play a part in that)

#dan rambles #there is no thesis to this EXCEPT!#i hate the tiktok fandom for hating on mori when the whole point of him having a gross side about him -#- is not to demonize but to add a layer. you're free to feel uncomfortable but this knee jerk reaction to boo whenever he's-#- so much as brought up is frankly pretty childish imo.#it does fall under this topic. bc this is his equivalent of killing a baby. as in. it doesn't cheapen his morals in the context of the stor #it might in a different story. but imo bsd requires engaging on a deeper level. hence this whole post #and this deeper level requires reading beyond the surface level stuff that's mostly used for unfunny gags anyway #. sorry i am very passionate abt mori. my guy deserves better fr 😭#tldr no one in bsd is purely evil you are doing a disservice to the story by perceiving them as such

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